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  1. Public Bookmark 3

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    Shane starts smoking at twenty-seven and gets addicted faster than he ever thought possible. Years later, after retirement and a long fight to quit, he and Ilya finally become fathers to a daughter named Katya. Four months later, Shane relapses.

    Shane responds the way he responds to most things: with rules. Smoke outside. Never smoke around Katya. Never lie to her about it. As Katya grows up and her questions get bigger, Shane and Ilya do their best to answer them honestly.

    A series of connected vignettes about addiction, shame, parenthood, and the difference between what Shane believes about himself and what the people who love him see.

    Post-TLG and canon compliant except that Ilya is a non-smoker and Shane is addicted to nicotine. Work is fully mapped. Title is a play on Love in the Time of Cholera.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is part of the Russian mafia, ever since he was young he would get what he wanted, no thanks to his father, the king of the empire. So when he runs into Shane Hollander, a host at a diner, he decides he also wants him. No matter what it costs him.

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    22 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov try to live an inconspicuous life whilst being very very much in love. Shane transfers to a new college and finds some friends whilst Ilya is still famous hockey player.

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    Shane Hollander is a college student, Ilya Rozanov is a hockey player, no one knows they're married.

    (Title is a lyric from So Easy (To Fall In Love) by Olivia Dean)

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    20 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 10

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    “You want to go outside for some fresh air, malysh-“ As Ilya talked he witnessed in slow motion as his Shane, who never drank during the season, who never even thought of drinking or eating outside his strict plan, was suddenly picking up a wine glass from the waiter walking around the room.

     

    “Ah, thank you so much!” exclaimed Shane, sounding cheerful for the first tonight.

    And consequently, he gulped down almost all of the liquid in one go. Eyes pinching as the wine taste grated at his throat.

    OR: Shane starting to indulge in alcohol after his outing and consequent move to Ottowa as it was the only thing, other than Ilya, that made his brain go fuzzy.

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    18 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

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    Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.

    Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.

    Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.

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    17 May 2026