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    This, what others call his core and essence, it is just a fragile shroud. It is a dried cicada’s shell, an old snakeskin, an unraveled chrysalis, that he has tried to crawl out of, yet it somehow stuck, and now he carries it on his back, Gods punishing him for something he has never chosen to be.
    The bitterness is enough to snap him out of it, make him tear out of the sickly sweet, thickened tar of doubt, feeling as if he is leaving flakes of his own skin in it.
    “It’s late,” he grits out, voice melted by the seething rage into something sharp, a flick of a whip. “I am training Percival in the morning.”
    It’s a bit of a dirty trick, to bring up the boy, but it does the job — Gawain nods, turns around, retracting the dark tendrils of his attention. Lancelot can almost see them slither through the air, suffocating smoke clinging to the fire of Gawain’s hair, and his fingers twitch to pick up a charcoal.

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    Chan struggles with his vampire hood.
    Afraid for himself. More like, afraid OF himself.
    Afraid for others.

    Because love is a dangerous thing.

    Yet it keeps us going.

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    He's a cherry tree urging itself to bloom in the midst of winter, only to watch his colors fade underneath black snow.

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    In which Kirishima feels too much and does too little about it, until he's tiptoeing on the edge of too late.

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    Sirius was alone. He would probably be alone forever, now. They would never forgive him. How could they, after what he had done?

    This fic takes place in fifth year, directly during and after Sirius' 'prank' on Snape.

    TW for self loathing, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts throughout. There will be trigger warnings for each chapter.

    Also, I'd like to make clear that I do not support JK Rowling in any way.

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    Eskel has always taken care of his brothers. That’s his role. That’s the part he plays. He will continue to do so, no matter what it takes.

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    They say 13 is an unlucky number. 6 queens would agree that it may be true.

    Once wives, now reincarnated and figuring out how to live their lives in their own right, 6 young ladies found themselves in 21st century England. Faced with what they believe to be a second chance, each planned to take it on as best they could.

    Unfortunately, there are ups and downs, and surviving isn't always as easy as it seems.

    They were reincarnated as 13-year-olds, all separately - over a decade later, each queen are discovering that they aren't alone after all.

     

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    Trigger Warnings in notes, please be warned and look out for those!

    Everything that happened beyond Chat Her-Story

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    Can you solve this equation on the abacus?
    Can you untie the rope around his neck?
    Is it really fine for us to stay like this?
    Hey, what should we do?
    Well, it doesn't matter.
    -Lost one’s weeping, Neru feat. Kagamine Rin

    or

    Dream has been manipulated to think he needs to get A's on his exams in order to be good enough, to the point where all he does is study, Sapnap notices when Dream stops responding to his texts and starts to worry about Dreams wellbeing, but Dream tries to assure him that he's okay, but he's not

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    May 10th has been a sore day for John since the moment he was born.

    Luckily for him, despite his attempts at denial, he's got no end to his list of friends who are more than willing to make the day pass as painlessly as possible

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    Suddenly all eyes in the room were at SUNNY. They looked glad that he was alright and could actually move on his two feet. Their smiles with their tired eyes looked genuine.

    But the sinking feeling of guilt only grew and the realization hit him once more as he fell to the ground, on his knees, and he started cupping his mouth as he wept. AUBREY, HERO and KEL all rushed to his side.

    Concern in their voices as they asked why was he crying. As he wiped his tears and trying to calm down, he spoke up for the first time in 4 years.

    “I have to tell you something.”

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    Dean always thought he deserved to go to hell for how he felt for his brother. All these years of pretending and enduring were more than enough for him. But when a certain angel raised him from perdition Dean's hell only just started. Sam is determined to help Dean whatever it takes. Cas shares his help. In his own special way.

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    The same game as usual, with a few added cards to make it interesting. Will our two protagonists be able to get out of all this alive? Will Kirigiri be able to figure out the link between cognitive psience and the Izuru Kamakura Project? Is this all according to Yaldabaoth's plan? Gorb? Find out eventually if you're lucky. Don't count on it.

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    “I dunno, Cap,” he said at last. “You’re not exactly human either, though, are you?”

    Steve had considered the man for a long moment and then shrugged. “Not anymore, I don’t think.”

    “That isn’t something that just changes, Rogers. Not on your scale. If you aren’t now then I’d wager the entire outcome of this war that you never were. Sounds about like you’ve always been this way. Just bigger now. Maybe this isn’t all wrong. Maybe you were all wrong before.”

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    Steve went into Doctor Erskine's experiment a man, he came out something other entirely. With the highly secretive nature of the serum and Doctor Erskine's assassination, Steve has to learn this new form the hard way.

    An avenging angel sent by God was what the old woman had called him.

    But what kind of angel burned everyone they touched, marked everyone they kissed for death?

    By the time SHIELD recovers him from the ice, Steve was certain that he was no angel, avenging or otherwise.

    It's lucky, then, that Thor has the patience necessary to prove to Steve that he's not the monster he fears he's become either.

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    Summary: Alexander Knows to keep his head down and to be quiet. He hates himself and hates the light of the sun. The sun was light and warm but that doesn’t matter because all he can see is the moon. The moon is cold and dark. He has been in more foster care homes than he could count since he was 7 from when his dad left, his mom died and a hurricane came. He is a smart kid with problems testing people. He has Asperger’s syndrome and anxiety. People don’t understand him and he doesn’t understand people. Life has always been dark for him. Alex is a train wreck, to say the least. When he gets placed with the Washingtons things start to become better, and meeting John also helped make his world a whole lot brighter than anything else in the world. The problem is John is the sun and he is the moon will things be able to be better for them or will they just chase each other.

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    After a peace agreement is signed between the Port Mafia and the Armed Detectice Agency, ex-partners Nakahara Chuuya and Dazai Osamu are required to fight together again to solidify the alliance of the two organisations.

    But things seem worse than expected when Mori Ougai sends the two away on a one-month mission to a far-away city to defeat an organisation that’s been climbing up the ranks. The two detest it but go along with it, swearing to finish the mission within a week.

    But living together is nothing like what they expected. It changes everything, and suddenly the two are falling for each other with no idea what’s going on.

    And then there’s everything that happens afterwards...

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    Bruh I’m so shit at writing these summaries so give me a break 😩✋

    Just read it and make up your mind please. There’ll be no manga spoilers because I literally haven’t read it yet since I’m a lazy shit.

    Love from,

    Mil 😽

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    Mark Watney was going home.

    After near-death experience followed by near-death experience with a side of, you guessed it, near-death experience, Mark Watney was safe. He was… done.

    And, so, he laid down with no worries for the first time in eighteen months.

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    These tender, gentle hours after the sun’s set in the sky and the ocean is still- these are the only times when Komaeda can indulge. The only times when Komaeda can hold onto Hinata’s arms and never let him go, and yet he’s still worried about the future. About when he wakes up, and Hinata isn’t there anymore.
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    hinata is always gone by morning.

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    BJ gets the letter he's been dreading. A letter stating Peg died in a car crash, and Erin is being taken care of by his brother, and sister in law. They are unable to lose anyone due to intense fighting, so emergency leave is denied for the moment. BJ must lean on Hawkeye as he grieves for his dead wife. It's through this process of moving on that he and Hawkeye form a deeper bond than ever before. TW for Graphic depictions of violence because of some self harming mentions, and self loathing issues.

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    Hey, where are you?

    Davey sighed and set his phone down. Jack had never been late for their monthly movie night before. Ever. But here was Davey, alone on his couch 45 minutes past 6 'o clock. He'd texted Jack at least 5 times, but no response.

    Jack had been ditching him more and more on the late. And for the worst reason.

    He'd been going on dates.

    ~

    Prompt from the fabulous Lu:

    Davey, but he's watching Jack going out with all these different people he hardly knows and each times his heart breaks just a little more until he just has to avoid him but Jack bursts into his house and is like that's enough, what's going on? You will tell me! Ending with a few blurted love confessions and probably some crying too. Plus cuddles, they are very important.

    Tw for panic attacks and lots of self-hate. (Sorry, Dave...) There are NO self-harm/suicidal thoughts, though.

    Title from Everything Changes by Sara Bareilles (Waitress)

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    After trying to take his life, Izuku Midoriya started his healing process, but he still needs to talk about multiple feelings with others so, will he be able to do it? Will he be able to find happiness after being crushed apart? Will his friends, teachers and classmates be able to heal as well? Read to find out.

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    the night is cold, and you’re freezing, but you know that your legs aren’t trembling, your hands aren’t shaking because of the cold. 

    they haven’t stopped since quackity came to visit you for the first time, since the warden failed to protect you, since he willingly gave you to a monster.


    Or, Dream escapes the prison after months of torture. It’s the beginning of his end.

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