im ready, i have to be i mean i already said yes theres no turning back... right? i do love him with all my heart... i think? no, no i KNOW i love him with all my heart. But what about her, shes always running through my head, her gorgeous orange hair and dazzling smile. no fallon you love liam, liam you’re marrying liam not some low level woman with beautiful brown eyes, no you can’t let her get to you fallon you just can’t.
its been months and i cant stop thinking about her, her perfect wavy brunette hair and that look on her face that could make anyone fall for her instantly. but no kirby she’s engaged, to a MAN she has no interest in you... well not anymore at least. that hot summer night mid july just me and her, it was perfect. but if it was so perfect she would be with me right? where did i go wrong?
“good morning my love” the first thing said in the dim room, “good morning liam” fallon responded. fallon had already gotten up and showered, she was now getting ready for a typical day in the office, liam slowly got out of bed still pretty tired, he walked up behind fallon he gave her a small hug ending with a little kiss on the neck. “remember to be back in time for dinner fal, my moms in town and you know how she feels about people being late to dinner” liam exclaimed. “i promise i’ll be on time, wouldnt want to upset the queen herself” fallon said sarcastically, “thank you for this i know how you feel about her but the fact that you can put that behind you just for me is so sweet babe” liam said admiring her. fallon felt guilt come over her, hearing him say that brought her back to the doubt she had been having earlier.
i know i should focus on work but SHE just walked into my office, HER what is she doing here and why does she look so hot. i need to act natural i can do that yup, “hello ms anders what can i do for you today” i said in a professional tone. yeah i think that was good i sounded professional this is going well, she quickly responded “fallon im not here for business im here for you, i needed to come by before you married liam and tell you...” she paused right in the middle of her sentence. the anticipation its killing me can she just say it. i finally spoke up “kirby what do you wanna tell me”
fuck i dont know how to say this, shes not gonna say it back, shes not gonna cancel her wedding and run away with me... right? okay kirby just say it you need to tell her, “i think about that night alot” right when i said that her face changed her eyes widened a little more than before and she broke the eye contact. shit i made her uncomfortable im so
stupid, she finally said something “if im gonna be 100% honest with you... i do to, it runs through my head constantly its all i can think about when im with liam and how id rather be with you.” oh my god did she just- no this cant be true i- i need to say something okay okay “fal im in love with you, i wanna be with you without liam” there i said it
im freaking the fuck out I LOVE HER TOO but how do i respond, i cant make my life decision right here right now. this isnt fair to liam i told him i loved him and i wanted to marry him, i lied to him. “kirby, i cant im engaged its not fair to him” saying that broke me into a million pieces. “is that how you feel, or how you think you should feel?” she makes a good point its not how i feel but i know its the right thing to do... but is it? yes yes it is it has to be. “no its not how i feel, i love you too but i cant mess up my life for you. if i did this i would loose liam and we need his family for business, i would loose my father he would never understand and you know that” i can’t believe i just said that.
wait so she wants to be with me but cant? “i understand but just know i will always love you and i will always be here for you fal, you made me feel love like ive never felt it before and i will never stop fighting for you” right after that i walked out closing the door behind me, i hardly made it to the bathroom before the tears started pouring out. i know i said i understand but i dont, how could she love me but not be with me.
i feel like shit, i cant even comprehend what just happened. did i actually tell her i loved her how dumb can i be. i got up and locked my door so there was no chance that anyone could come in, the tears came suddenly the bellyache right behind it. how could i let her go. that night was amazing why wouldnt i want that?