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    "What about Castiel? He seems helpful... and dreamy."

    Something about the comment just isn't sitting right, and Dean's jaw twitches. He stares at the wall in the dark, and at a quarter past four in the morning, it hits him.

    "Asshole," Dean hisses under his breath, sitting up straight, "that sonofabitch kept publishing."

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    Twenty-three years of head-over-heels, devastating devotion and love, love, love for the man with bright eyes and dark hair. Fourteen years of friends, best friends, of always together. One moment of rejection.

    Nine years of apart. Nine years of heartbreak, nine years of continents away, of not speaking, of no acknowledgement, no interaction, no closure, no peace. No happiness. Nine years of Dean’s life entering motions, going through them, constant, cold and mechanic, like clockwork. Nine years of alone.

    God. Nine years. A lot has changed. And yet Dean still loves Cas just the same. Even if his heart hurts all kinds of different.

     

    On the day of Jimmy Novak's funeral, Dean sees Cas for the first time in nine years. He adored Castiel the moment he met him, at only four years old. But after fourteen years of friendship destroyed by one moment of heartbreak, and after nine years of silence, Dean is convinced Cas will want nothing to do with him. And it's killing him.

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    19 Jan 2021

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    literally the sweetest most gut wrenching beautiful thing ever; makes commitment less scary - wonderful even, makes life seem easier, even if just a bit :)

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    The kicker is, Dean had been trying to live.

    Really live. And not bite out in anger at the fraying of his heart: Cas, gone, Jack, gone—all that was left was him and his brother, and Dean had been trying to live, in spite, in light of that.

    In a world like the unsteady first steps of a child, apprehensive arms and hands cradling the air around them, ready for a slip, excited for a step, Dean had been trying to walk forward, too. Though every step had meant every pain.

    Upon his death, and arrival in heaven, Dean sets out to find the angel. He has to tell him. Cas has to know.

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    16 Jan 2021

  4. Public Bookmark 10

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    A comment to the wrong person leads to a HOA fine, which leads to misunderstandings, which leads to an all-out prank war between Castiel and his new neighbor, Dean.

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    16 Jan 2021

  5. Public Bookmark 11

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    Sam knows.

    Sorta.

    Sam knows what it means to be different, and he notices that Dean does too. He hadn’t noticed when he was a kid, not consciously, but now he sees it. It practically smacks him in the face when Cas joins their group.

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    16 Jan 2021