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  1. Rec 38

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    Jensen Ackles has been living on the streets since he was 13 years old; ten years of fending for himself in a world whereby he became just another forgotten homeless young man in need. From the moment he left his broken family home, Jensen was on a personal mission to find the one thing he felt he deserved; happiness.

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    13 Jul 2021

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    The Book
    by SmackTheDevil

    omg so fucking good doesn’t even begin to describe this ❤️

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    06 Jun 2021

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    omg, so glad to see these on ao3 - need to read again asap ❤️

  3. Rec 50

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    “You think Derek left because he was finally getting out,” Peter’s voice was quiet now, but Stiles refused to look at him, “but really he’s just terrified of destroying the only thing he has left. And you stayed because of the same.”

    Stiles wasn’t sure how long he stood there after Peter had closed the door behind him. It wasn’t until his phone buzzed in his pocket, a reminder that he was running late.

    D: How’s the coffee?

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    He wanted someone to be Stiles.

    It doesn’t feel like he wanted it to. He just feels empty, a glaring chasm in his chest echoing, crackling as bits and pieces break off and topple down. He is never going to be able to stop.

    Derek fumbles for the remote, messes with the volume until the sound of the television drowns everything else out. Until he can act like the ache in his chest doesn’t exist. He doesn’t fall asleep until the sun comes up, until he can ask Stiles how his coffee was and pretend like it is enough.

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    16 May 2021

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    *right where you left me*
    by badbrains, spaceprincessem

    for rereads when I want to cry

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    He stares at himself in the mirror. His cheeks are faintly blotchy, flush sparsely coloring down his neck. His eyes look glassy and half-crazed. “Get it the fuck together,” he growls lowly to his reflection. “You lose everything. Get fucking used to it.”

    He can’t stop thinking about it. How Derek looked at him, said his name reverently rather than disdainfully.

    Stiles sits on the shower floor, shivering even though the spray is far too hot. He keeps replaying the words over and over - sometimes the person someone shows us and the person we choose to see are two different people.

    For the first time, Stiles seriously takes a moment to consider that perhaps he has never known Derek Hale at all.  

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    16 May 2021

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    *let slip the dogs of war*
    by badbrains

    good messy reading

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    A grieving Derek Hale returns to Beacon Hills.
    He meets Stiles Stilinski, a boy suffering frontotemporal dementia, who has delusions that Derek is a werewolf.
    He's crazy.
    And maybe he's just what Derek needs.

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    06 May 2021

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    *There Are No Wolves in California*
    by DiscontentedWinter

    absolutely heartbreaking