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    AU with what would happen in Nicky had been stuck in the Iron coffin and come out- and how the family *slowly* heals.

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    Booker had spent 250 where he had been haunted by dreams of the salt, insanity, and a dark and cold fury. He spent 250 years haunted by the spectre of Nicolo.

    Then three months into his banishment after Merrick, on a random Sunday night and drunk in Paris, he didn’t dream of sea or salt. Instead, He dreamt that he knew what it was like to breathe and not have his lungs betray him as his family had done.

    He dreamt of Nicolo.

    Nicolo was free.

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    The path to forgiveness does not run smooth.

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    24 Jul 2021

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    “So...do you have Aspergers or are you like, full blown autistic?” Nile asks a few months after she’d watched Nicky have a meltdown in the back of their escape van. Nicky shrugs. He doesn’t know what to call himself.

    “I don’t know if that’s what you’re supposed to say,” he admits.

    “I mean, you’re high-functioning either way.” He doesn’t feel high-functioning. Sometimes he feels like he’s just pretending endlessly. Like he’s muddling his way through a game of make believe where the game is to suppress everything about him that makes him weird to others.

    It’s only when he’s with Joe that he feels some of the weight come off his shoulders. Can feel like he can breathe again. Can just rest and let someone else pick up all the things that he can’t, as he tries to find a place called home.

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    07 Jul 2021

  3. Public Bookmark 15

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    John rarely scores, but when he does, he always scores twice.

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    06 Jul 2021

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    "I loved my wife," Sebastien starts and Joe snorts.

    "You loved your wife for twenty four years," he says. "You spent nearly ten years of that in the army or prison. Nicky was my life for more than nine hundred."

    AU from the escape from the lab.

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    04 Jul 2021

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    Nicolò was caressing him so tenderly, kissing his skin so softly, treating him so reverently, that Yusuf wanted to scream. He hated it when Nicolò was acting so – so loving. Because it was only showing Yusuf what he was missing.

    Nicolò didn't love Yusuf. Yusuf knew this for a fact, because Nicolò never answered when Yusuf said I love you. He never gave Yusuf a compliment, even though Yusuf went out of his way to praise Nicolò. Yusuf called Nicolò hayati and ya amar and ya rouhi and ya albi all the time. Nicolò knew enough Arabic to understand the words, and yet all Nicolò ever said was ‘Yusuf’ in his soft, halting voice. Yusuf recited poetry for Nicolò – poetry both by his own hand and by the greatest poets – and Nicolò listened carefully, and smiled his barely there smile, but he never responded in kind.

    So it was clear that Nicolò didn’t love Yusuf.

    And it hurt Yusuf more than he could ever have imagined, to love somebody with every cell in his body and not have that love returned.

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    Or, how do you know somebody loves you?

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    27 Jun 2021