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    Cas is back from the Empty. He's happy, for once, living in the bunker without the threat of imminent disaster. He's finally accepting himself as a gay man. He has his son and his two closest friends with him, and he won't ask for more.

    Oh, and he's TikTok famous, thanks to Jack.

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    Dean barely feels the impact of his knees on the bunker’s stone floor.
    He sinks down lower, drowning in a tidal wave of the harsh, awful truth of Cas being-
    Cas is-
    Cas.
    A ragged cry tears from his throat.

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    Fixing the Earth was a good start to the eternal godhood of Jack Kline - impressive and absurdly easy. Then he tries to fix a second problem and very quickly runs up against the limits of his supposedly unlimited power. What is a four year old God to do? Ask his dad.

    Castiel is back from the Empty and (temporarily) stuck in a Heaven that is more cracks than structure. He's throwing himself gladly into his new role as Jack's advisor (which he's definitely NOT using as a very effective distraction from the terror of facing the consequences of his own actions). Dean Winchester is going through life in the Bunker on autopilot, trying to simultaneously process years of pent up emotions while also not thinking about any of it at all to avoid a complete breakdown. He knows Cas will be back soon and he's on a deadline. Adam Milligan is miserably holed up in a motel with bad takeout, a cell phone Sam keeps calling him on, and a rushed not-quite-promise from a scrawny blond kid that he really needs an update on, like, yesterday.

    *This is a more light-hearted fix-it, keeping as close to canon compliant as I was willing to go. Emphasis on setting poorly handled plot lines off in more positive directions.*

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    "You're staring again," Sam observed, with no small amount of amusement.

    Dean paused his reading-not-reading. "What?"

    "Cas. You're practically drooling."

    Dean hurriedly wiped his mouth off. "No, I'm not, shut up! You're insane."

    "Yeah, you're right. What would you ever see in Cas?"

    "WHAT?!" Dean yelled in shock, surprised Sam would ever say something like that about their best friend. He thought Sam was long past his distrust of Castiel. He hurried to the former angel's defense. "Cas is amazing!!! Funny, beautiful, smart-"

    A long moment of silence followed. Dean glared as Sam's jaw twitched. He glared harder and crossed his arms as Sam began to laugh.

    Dean's glare turned into a pout. "I can't believe I fell for that."

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    cas told dean, "everything you have ever done, you have done for love."

    just a lil reflection on love and its complexities <33

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    Castiel manages to escape the Empty, but on borrowed time. Before he hands over his grace to the entity, he accidentally forges an angelic bond to Dean, his new life mate. Tainted by a human’s soul, the Empty won’t accept it, and can finally go to sleep again. The bond forces Dean and Cas to navigate new waters, as they can now see into each other’s minds and feel what the other feels. Grace sex between Dean’s soul and Cas’s grace becomes a new normal in the couple’s lives, until it causes something they never thought possible...

    This is my version of a post-finale fix-it, starting after the events of 15x18 and reimagining a future for the Winchesters filled with family and love ♡ Hope you enjoy!

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    am•u•let
    /amyələt/
    noun: an ornament or small piece of jewelry thought to give protection against evil, danger, or disease.

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    A Destiel short story. Post Despair, season 15 episode 18. Spoilers. Everyone in 15x18 is alive except for Cas.

    It's been a year and a half since God, more commonly referred to as Chuck, was defeated. Sam and Eileen are easily navigating their way through a relationship. Jack is working hard with Adam and Michael to keep Heaven, Earth and Hell all in order.

     

    And then there's Dean.

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    Cas is stuck in The Empty, Chuck has Thanos-snapped everyone they’ve ever known to fuck knows where, and now Jack’s going through some kind of cosmic puberty Dean’s eighth grade health class definitely did not prepare him for. They’ve got two hunters at the end of their rope, a recently-exploded half-angel kid, a witch who just came back from the dead (again), and Billie Mark II, who’s only redeeming quality is that she hasn’t actually killed Dean...yet. Team Free Will 3.0. Here we go.

    **This fic is completely written and updates weekly on Tuesdays.**

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    It's been two months since the Empty took Castiel, and Dean doesn't know how to cope. He doesn't even think he deserves to cope. He deserves to suffer ... he deserves to be tortured by the fact that once again, he let Castiel go; so it only seems fitting to get a reminder of that pain placed permanently beneath his skin.

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    Inspired by this tumblr post: https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/aheartofgold/657419478776283136

    A reverse 15*18 where Dean confesses first in the Dungeon, and the empty takes Cas before he can respond, leaving Dean to wonder why.

    Dean mourns Cas, and Jack tells him about the deal with the Empty. Realizing what that means, as soon as Jack ascends, Dean rushes to the Bunker to embrace his love.

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    Whatever rock song was playing, Dean wasn’t paying too much attention, faded out and the soft notes of some stupid feel-good song began.

    “La la la laaa”, Dean mocked, but the cynical smile was soon knocked off his face when the lyrics set in. 

    “I couldn’t utter my love when it counted, ah but I’m singing like a bird ‘bout it now. I couldn’t whisper when you needed it shouted, ah but I’m singing like a bird ‘bout it now”

    Dean frowned and turned off the volume. His own fault, really, for listening to some radio station instead of his trusted mixtapes. Except, it wasn’t like he could listen to those either, they reminded him too much of Cas. Dean spent a lot of time thinking about Cas; but doing so while driving really wasn’t the best of ideas. So, radio stations it was. But now even those weren’t safe anymore. And driving without music, in this instance, entirely defeated the purpose of driving in the first place.

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    After the events of 15x18 Dean mourns Cas. He reflects on their relationship over the years and decides he has to save the angel.

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    Today's an important day. Dean tells Sam about it.

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    The world is empty. Castiel’s sacrifice has left them reeling. The aftermath of Jack’s detonation creates something in him that he doesn’t understand. Dean cedes all leadership to Sam, lost in the numb haze of guilt and grief. Sam’s renewed determination carries them all, and he refuses to accept any outcome that isn’t the world put to rights and his family, all of them, together again.

    The three of them aren’t all that’s left, however; Michael finds that his personal freedom and refusal to fight come at too high a cost. Suppressed voices fight to be heard, and Death’s absence creates a unique if morbid opportunity.

    Earth is a necropolis, Heaven is collapsing in on itself, and victory over Chuck won’t be enough to repair a crumbling universe, nor will returning to old regimes be enough to prevent a free world from repeating its mistakes. The actions and decisions determining the shape of reality can no longer be restricted to a road that always leads to the Winchesters.

    Updates Thursdays, starting April 1st, 2021

    A/N: Now updates every other Thursday, starting July 1st, 2021

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    Sam had had enough; he couldn’t take it anymore. The sexual tension was killing him. It was like, every time he tried to get Dean and Cas to admit their feelings for each other, another stupid monster would come along and ruin it. Last Tuesday they came so close but then a stupid “werepire” as dean liked to call it, barged into the room and ruined the moment. Sam was slowly losing his brain over it so he took it into his own hands. If only he had known, it would turn into a disaster.

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    God was gone, lost somewhere in this world. Everyone he had dissolved was back. Jack had left, probably creating a new Heaven, with Amara by his side.
    (...)
    "I lost my grace."

    [Basically my other fanfiction, but Explicit, as requested.]

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    Post s15e18:Despair
    Pre s15e20:Carry On

    Sam and Dean are at the bunker and talking. It's totally a chick flick moment. Cas comes into the conversation. Dean finds out Sam knew all along.

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    With Billie dying, who will be there to take her place and reap Chuck? That is, if the Winchesters can track him down and figure out a way to kill him. But when all of their allies start disappearing, leaving no one left to help them, what drastic measures will the boys be forced to take in order to set the world right? Can things even go back to normal after this? Or will everything will be changed forever?
    (aka the ending sucked so I tried to make it better: a rewrite of 15x18 thru 15x20)

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    Cas is looking at him and he’s crying and he’s in love and it’s killing him. So Dean does the only thing he can do; react.

     

    Or: how the confession should have gone, the supernatural we deserve.

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    The Shadow hates Cas. It has hated him for a long time, and--now that Cas is in the empty--it is determined to make him suffer. It does this by violating Cas in the worst way possible, and forcing him to carry its child.

    Then Dean shows up, and Cas quickly realizes just how far to shit everything has gone.

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