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  1. I'M HAVING SUCH A FUCKING MOMENT RIGHT NOW THIS IS SO SO SO SO SO PERFECT AND ABSOLUTELY ON-POINT WITH CHARACTERIZATION AND DIGGING INTO CHRIS' RELATIONSHIPS WITH HIS BROTHERS AND KAITO, this is everything I've ever imagined in Chris' psyche beautifully laid out in prose form. I'm just (TAKES A BREATH) I'M TRYING TO ARTICULATE BUT OHH MY GOD, Chris' guilt over not being a good brother and the way he projects those feelings onto his relationship with Kaito because he thinks he should be doing "better" when he really just wants to kISS HIS LITTLE FACE I'M SCREAMIN THANK YOU SO MUCH THIS IS JUST. EVERYTHING. THANK YOU!!!!!!! THANK YOU. I love that you brought the thorough introspection back into the present moment to wrap it up because it keeps it from being too heavy or exhaustively soul-searching and angsty--Kaito even calls him out on that, haha. The ending hit the exact right notes of tentativeness and hesitation in their relationship but overall left me feeling light and hopeful for the two of them. Yells. I'm still yelling. I'm so happy honestly.

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    1. OMG THIS REVIEW CHEERED ME UP SO MUCH!!!! I can't thank you enough for taking the time to review my dumb fic, I couldn't stop smiling as I read! I'm very glad you enjoyed the fic and also that other people care enough about this pairing/these characters to spend some of their time trying to guess what goes on in their heads hehe. Zexal's over, has been for a while now, but I can't stop thinking about these two: I just feel like there is so much that I still want and need to put into words, but I'm still looking for those words...

      I'm actually very critical of Zexal in several regards, but one of the biggest strengths of the series - perhaps the biggest one in the first half - was without a doubt how the concept of family was explored, taking all these characters who all saw their beloved family destroyed, in a way or another, and having them react and try to fix the problem with very different approaches. Kaito and Christopher are both 'big brothers' and both saw their fathers turn into people that aren't father-like at all, but their course of action is very different. Still, they both end up 'sacrificing' themselves and their identity as young men with their own right to be happy and pursue their dreams, their future: it's their own relationship that ends up being sacrificed as well. So it's like, there's so much potential here, whether you look at them separately or as a pairing. I really wish the show had done more with them--especially with the Arclights, in the second half. It feels like a waste as is, but, hey, at least we can write fanfiction!

      tl;dr I hope to turn all my disgusting headcanons into fics eventually...

      I'm very sorry about the embarrassingly long rant!! And thank you again!!!

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      1. GRABS YOUR HANDS I ABSOLUTELY FEEL YOU, these two have been my Ultimate ZEXAL OTP since episode 56 and they just have SO MUCH between them that has to be dealt with and talked out postcanon I'll probably be thinking about it on my deathbed. Honestly Chris has always been such a frustrating character to me because I like him SO MUCH but he has so little solid characterization in canon, and it all revolves around being set up as a contrast to Kaito, really. His sense of duty to his family is something that resonates with me, though, so I've spent probably too much time thinking about the motivations behind his assholery. Chris and Kaito deserve to be happily and domestically married and bicker like they do in their tag duel for the rest of their days, but of course I want to explore how their old tensions and mistakes come back to bite them in more peaceful times.

        My favorite part of the first half of the series has always been the family themes and how they're explored through so many different characters in so many different ways. Chris and Kaito exist as such FASCINATING FOILS, big brothers who face similar pressures but deal with them in really divergent yet very interestingly parallel ways if MY WORDS MAKE ANY SENSE, I'm sure you understand what I'm trying to get at considering how you've articulated your own thoughts so well LOL...I think I'm just reiterating what you've said at this point :^) I wish the Arclight family had been given more focus considering how absolutely fucked they were, I think it would've been incredibly interesting to see them rebuild their relationships with each other and with the people around them. While we got a little hint of it in ZEXAL II it wasn't nearly enough to satisfy me. But that's all right--as you said, we always have headcanon and REALLY GREAT FANFIC LIKE YOURS :3

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