Bright baby blue eyes peeled themselves open when they sensed a beam of light peering through the bedroom curtains. A soft grumble escaping from between the redhead’s lips as she adjusted to the brightness in the room. Humming slightly and blinking slowly a few times to wake herself up properly. Head bowing down and seeing the strong pair of arms wrapped around her waist from behind. Followed by a content smile growing across her lips at the realisation that she was still in Beca’s arms from the night before. Where they’d snuggled up in bed together and fell asleep in each other’s arms.
Chloe could spend the rest of her life like this and never move. She felt a sense of security and safety in the small woman’s arms. And if truth be told, last night was the first night in what felt like forever that the older woman had slept so peacefully and for a decent amount of time. Lifting her head off the pillow briefly to check the time on her alarm clock sat on her bedside table. Exhaling deeply when she noticed she’d slept for at least 12 hours. The redhead knew she clearly needed it after everything that happened the previous day. Thankful that she’d been in the arms of Beca for the night. Hoping this would become a regular thing.
After a few minutes, Chloe felt Beca stirring from behind herself. Unable to stop herself from blushing and smiling widely when she felt a familiar pair of lips press several kisses into her neck. Letting a slight giggle escape from between her own lips as the kisses tickled the skin on her neck. “Good morning, beautiful.” The brunette mumbled in a content tone of voice. Pressing a kiss behind the redhead’s ear. Enclosing her mouth around the lobe and nibbling slightly on the piece of skin. Finding out yesterday that this action drives Chloe wild.
“Hmm.” Chloe hummed one again in appreciation. “It sure is!” The redhead nodded in agreement. Agreeing that it was a ‘good morning’. She’d slept incredibly well and woke up in Beca’s arms. Despite the fact she was only small, her muscles were incredibly strong and felt so good being wrapped around the older woman’s waist. “I’ll never get tired of waking up like this.” Chloe commented letting a content sigh escape from between her lips. Smiling once again as she felt the brunette’s teeth sink into her neck. Biting down into her skin and ready to leave a mark. Placing a hand against the back of the small woman’s head to hold her in place.
Once she’d left her mark on Chloe’s neck, Beca pulled back and placed a few soft kisses against the bruised skin. “Did you sleep well, sweetheart?” The brunette questioned. Wiggling back slightly away from the older woman as Chloe rolled over to face her this time. Both gazing into each other’s eyes with smiles on their faces. “Because I don’t know about you, but I slept incredibly well with you in my arms.” Beca commented with a cheeky grin growing across her lips.
Just as the older woman opened her mouth to respond, she was interrupted by the pinging noise of her phone signalling a new message. Letting a groan escape from between her lips, Chloe rolled her eyes and leaned over to grab the device from her bedside table. “Sorry, it’s Aubrey.” The redhead apologised and saw her best friend’s name pop up against her green. Several notifications from the blonde from missed calls to messages. Unlocking the phone, Chloe clicked onto the message thread. Eyes scanning over the messages.
Aubrey: you forgot to text me Beca’s address x
Aubrey: oi, you better not be avoiding me!
Aubrey: wake up! you never sleep past 8! what’s wrong? everything ok?
Aubrey: CHLOE JULIET BEALE!!!
Aubrey: seriously you better be asleep right now or i’m gonna throttle you when i see you!
Biting down on her bottom lip, Chloe quickly typed out a response to her best friend.
Chloe: sorry!! i’m ok. i’m at home. beca’s with me. she stayed the night. i literally only woke up like 10 minutes ago. i should’ve told you last night that we came back here in the end. long story. i’ll fill you in later. give me like 2 hours. i wanna talk to beca before you come over. please xxx
Locking the screen once again, Chloe turned back again to place her phone back on her bedside table. “Uh, can we talk? I feel like I owe you an explanation for last night. Even if you think I don’t, I want to be honest with you. No secrets. I know we aren’t even like in a relationship or anything but, I kinda hope that in the near future we can be and I want to be totally honest with you. And then you totally have the right to run for the hills. I promise.” The redhead explained nervously. Bowing her head a little, unable to look the small woman in the eyes. Feeling her heartrate increasing with every word she spoke. About to be completely vulnerable with the brunette and put her heart on her sleeve. Already fearing the rejection she was for sure about to get from Beca. Or so she thought.
“Hey, look at me.” The small woman softly spoke. Placing her hands on either side of Chloe’s face to cup her cheeks and encourage the redhead to look up at her properly. “Whatever it is you can tell me, sweetheart. I’m here! And I won’t run for the hills no matter what it is you’re going to tell me. I promise.” Beca spoke out once the older woman looked back up at her and into her chocolatey eyes. Showing her lover a kind smile and rubbing the pads of her thumbs against her skin.
Taking a deep breath to prepare herself for her next words, Chloe briefly closed her eyes for a moment. “Ok. Uh, well, for the past 10 years up until this last year, I had been in recovery from an eating disorder.” The redhead began to explain. Fiddling with her fingers as she shared her biggest struggle with the brunette. Feeling incredibly weak and not strong enough to look at Beca. “I relapsed about 14 months ago from a toxic relationship I was in with my ex. I’m pretty much ok most days now. I went to rehab again and got out 11 months ago. But I sometimes have bad days. And that was what caused my collapse yesterday. The low blood sugar was due to the fact I hadn’t really eaten much in a few days.” The older woman continued to explain. Wanting to tell the brunette everything before she let the other woman respond.
Beca was quiet for a moment. Processing everything that Chloe had just confessed to her, stroking the redhead’s cheek with a kind eyes trying to look into the glistening baby blue ones filling with tears belonging to the older woman. “I know how much courage that must have taken you to confess this all to me. But this in itself is proof that you’re stronger than you think you are. To tell me about the biggest struggle in your life with complete honesty.” The brunette started to softly talk. Pressing a kiss to the other woman’s cheek. Trying her best to make Chloe feel completely comfortable with the conversation. “But thank you for telling me. I hope you know you can trust me, sweetheart. Because I want you to be my girlfriend and I want you to know you can talk to me about anything. Big or small. The small woman added. Pressing yet another kiss to the older woman’s cheek.
Chloe lifted her head up as tears poured down her cheeks at Beca’s words. Eyes looking up at the brunette like a little lost puppy. Opening her mouth once again to reply, but her breath got caught in the back of her throat and she finally broke down. Sobbing her heart out with her face buried into the small woman’s chest. Unable to hold back her emotions any longer. She was falling deeper and deeper in love with Beca the more time she spent with the brunette. And if she was completely honest the thought alone completely terrified her of allowing someone to own her heart again after her last relationship caused her to relapse.
“Hey. It’s ok. Let it out, sweetheart. I’m here. I’m right here, babe.” Beca softly mumbled into the redhead’s ear. Stroking the older woman’s hair and rubbing the pad of her thumb against her cheek after every stroke. Placing small kisses against where she rubbed Chloe’s skin. Brushing away her lover’s tears as they dripped down from her eyes. “I want you to know that just because you’ve told me this doesn’t mean I’ll treat you any less worthy of what you are and I certainly won’t run for the hills. This doesn’t stop me from feeling the way I do towards you, sweetheart.” The brunette explained softly with a small smile spread across her lips.
The words that slipped from between the small woman’s lips only caused Chloe to cry harder. Beca barely even knew her and she was already confidently stating that she wasn’t going anywhere. She’d expected the brunette to run a mile once she confessed about her main daily struggle. But she didn’t. Beca had responded with complete kindness towards the redhead. And for that the older woman was extremely thankful. Trying her best to stop the tears and continue talking with Beca about it all. But she felt way too vulnerable and exposed right now. So she settled for just letting the small woman hold her in her strong arms for a few moments.
“Sorry.” Chloe mumbled several minutes later. Her voice low and quiet. Sniffing back more tears as she lifted her head up from rested against Beca’s chest. Wiping her eyes with the back of her hand. “Nobody has ever really shown me all this kindness before. Apart from Aubrey. She was the one that encouraged me to get help last year. I have her to thank for the fact I’m still here and that I got to meet you.” The redhead explained. Unable to hide the smile away that began to grow across her lips at the thought of being lucky enough to meet the small woman. Feeling the familiar pair of soft lips belonging to the brunette kiss her firmly on the lips. Butterflies swimming around in the pit of her stomach each time their lips connected.
“Well, if you’ll let me, I want to be there for you too. To help you through your struggles when you have a bad day. Support you. Offer my cuddles. Kiss you better. Everything.” Beca softly commented with her hand rubbing up and down the redhead’s back comfortingly. Tracing patterns all over Chloe’s bare skin that wasn’t covered by her vest top. “My plan was to ask this in a romantic setting, but I can’t cope much longer without asking. I want you to be mine, Chlo. So uh, will you do me the honour of being my girlfriend?” The small woman questioned after placing one last soft kiss against the older woman’s lips.
The biggest smile possible started to spread across Chloe’s lips. A small blush creeping up against her cheeks as she nodded in response to the brunette’s question. “I’d love to be your girlfriend.” The older woman nodded. Unable to hide the genuinely happiness covering her face. The skin of her cheeks still looking rather rosy as she blushed hard. Leaning back towards the small woman herself and sharing several kisses with her ‘girlfriend’.
Just as their tongues started rubbing together, they were interrupted by Chloe’s phone ringing. The redhead reluctantly pulled away from their lip lock to grab her phone once again. Rolling her eyes when she saw Aubrey’s number pop up against the screen. Mumbling a sorry to Beca as she answered the call. A little annoyed at the blonde’s timing. However, when she heard the faint noise of her best friend crying down the other end of the phone, her attitude changed as she spoke out a greeting.
“Bree? What’s wrong? Is everything ok?” Chloe questioned with a worried look on her face. Glancing over at Beca as she propped herself up in bed properly. Focusing all her attention on the phone call. A sickly feeling bubbling up in the pit of her stomach when she got no reply back from the blonde. “Aubrey! Seriously, you’re scaring me. What’s happened?” The redhead wondered biting down on her bottom lip.
“C-can you look after Isabella?” Aubrey mumbled through the phone with a stutter. Trying her hardest to calm herself down. Yet all this worry was only building up a sickly feeling in the bottom of her stomach and she felt as if she was about to throw up. “Rob’s been rushed into hospital from work. He’s like been attacked or something. I don’t know the full details. I just need to be with him. And I can’t take Isabella with me. She doesn’t need to see her daddy in a state.” The blonde went on further to explain. Desperate for her best friend to hurry up and agree to looking after her daughter in order for her to be at the hospital with her fiancé. The older woman sounded incredibly distraught.
The redhead responded to Aubrey’s words with a gasp. Shock covering her facial features as she processed the words that were now ringing in her ears. “Oh my gosh! Yes. Of course. Are you bringing her here or do you want me to come over to you?” Chloe managed to ask as she stared at Beca. The colour practically draining from her cheeks. Shaking her head at the brunette who looked at her with a frown across her face. Not in a bad way, she was simply just curious to know what was going on since the redhead visibly paled.
“Can you come here please? You can bring Beca. Just please hurry.” Aubrey nodded in response. Sniffing back tears as she glanced over at Isabella. The little two-year-old simply watching her favourite Disney film on the tv without a care in the world. Unknowing about what was going on with her mommy. It was best she didn’t know either. The mother didn’t want to cause her daughter any distress.
“We’ll be there in 10! Love you.” Chloe nodded and let her best friend know that she’d be there as soon as possible. Dropping her phone down on her bed. Quickly getting up and rushing around her room to find some fresh clothes to pull on for them both. Feeling the brunette’s eyes following her around the room. She raised her arms in the air to pull off her vest top. Revealing her bare back to her girlfriend. Hearing what sounded like a breath catching in the back of a throat from behind herself. “We have to go to Aubrey’s and look after Isabella. Her fiancé has been rushed into hospital and she needs to go see him.” The older woman explained. Ignoring the sound. There was a time and place for that stuff. And it wasn’t right now.
Chloe’s mind was racing with all sorts of thoughts. Worried for her friends as she rushed around her room to grab her phone and keys. Grabbing the brunette’s hand and dragging the small woman behind her and out the apartment.