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*Felix Felicis: A potion nicknamed as ‘liquid luck’. (Harry Potter reference)

 

Although Hoseok had hated it the most, none of the others had liked the car ride back to their university much more than him.

For Yoongi, it was torturous driving when he could feel Jimin’s eyes piercing his soul from the backseat the whole time. He hadn’t been able to focus on any conversation that took place because it was hard enough to drive when his whole body was mentally dancing with happiness.

Jimin had asked him out on a date. Who gave a shit if some singer from some band was rumoured to be dating three people at the same time?

Jimin had asked him out.

He had limited his usage of the rear view mirror, knowing that his eyes would search for Jimin’s silhouette in the back instead of any cars and that had caused quite a few scares to Jin.

Jin had no reason to hate the drive back if he looked at it rationally. Only a few hours ago, he had the best day of his life. Jungkook was his boyfriend now, he had had an amazing time on their short trip and he had made some great memories.

So why did he dislike the drive back?

The answer was simple.

Exams.

Unlike everyone else, he was in his final year and after this he would be out in the world, trying to get a job good enough to pay for the new apartment he wanted to buy (or rent), overlooking the Han River. Sure, these exams weren’t his finals but unless he did well on these, he would surely not be cut out for his dream job. And until he could have his dream job, he would have to work a regular job but one that paid well nonetheless. To get a job of this sort he needed to have good scores to talk about and for that he needed to stay away from distractions. Which was why dating at this time was not only distracting but highly impractical.

It was stupid to worry about this immediately after him and Jungkook had got together but he couldn’t help but worry as he stared at the calm expression on Jungkook’s visage as he tried to sleep with his head on Jin’s shoulder. It had made his heart ache.

Dating meant giving time to someone and he didn’t have enough time at all. He had endless assignments waiting for him in addition to all the revision he had to do. Since he hadn’t been required to join any conversation during the car ride, he had resorted to let his worries torture him.

Taehyung and Namjoon probably hated the car ride back the least but they hated it nonetheless, thanks to Jimin who actually through a fit when the two insisted that he sit in by the window.

“I don’t care. I’m sitting in the middle.” He had insisted and had climbed on Namjoon’s lap when the two had tried to deter him.

“Why are you coming between our relationship, you traitor?!” Taehyung had asked several times but to no avail.

Jimin hadn’t cared, he was going to sit in the middle so Yoongi could get a clear view of him as he drove and he could get a better view of him as well.

Now that he knew that the feelings that had been bothering him for some time were returned, he couldn’t contain the desire within him to stare at Yoongi as much as he could for as long as he could and if it meant that Taehyung would be mad at him for a few hours, he would take it without a second thought. Especially since Yoongi had decided already that he didn’t want to see Jimin for a month so he was going to see him as much as he could for now.

He had stared at Yoongi shamelessly throughout the drive and had made him uncomfortable. An uncomfortable and flustered Yoongi hyung, he had realized, was better than any birthday present.

Jungkook wanted nothing more than to sleep with his head resting on Jin’s perfect shoulder but the constant argument between Soyoung noona (as she had asked to be called) and Hoseok hyung had driven away any thoughts of catching up on lost sleep.

Usually he could sleep through the loudest interactions but the constant muttering from Hoseok paired with Jin’s sighs (which had caused his heartbeat to speed up without warning), Jimin, Taehyung and Namjoon’s babble and Soyoung’s retaliations to Hoseok’s accusations had resulted in him not getting more than a few minutes of rest.

As for Hoseok and Soyoung, neither could decide who regretted sitting in the car more.

Hoseok had something to say to every word that came out of Soyoung’s mouth and her sassy replies weren’t lagging anywhere in terms of their ability to cause Hoseok to become even more unlike himself.

“What do you mean by that?” Hoseok had shouted from the back.

“Why do you care, please just_”

“_Please? Are you kidding me? Since when did you decide to be polite_”

“_Since I realized that despite being older than me, you’re no better than a child!”

(That had caused the breaking out of laughter)

Aha! So I am older than you! Which means_”

“_Don’t even try.”

Soyoung had hated how the more she said to Hoseok the less she felt like her words were true.

He was neither ugly nor stupid (she had just said it to get on his nerves) and though he was childish, it was obvious that it made the others like him more.

Not that she was a bighead but she hadn’t been called ‘average looking’ since she had hit puberty so it bothered her a lot when Hoseok used the words.

She wanted to hit him and wipe the heart shaped smile that he wore every time he spoke to anyone else off his face.

She was partly relieved and partly disappointed when they dropped her off first.

The minute the car sped away she frowned and began to wonder why she had given Hoseok such a hard time.

She sighed when she realized that her prior declaration on Hoseok’s attractiveness had been messed up.

He sure does look hot with his hair up like that, she thought grudgingly before shivering in the cold. It was much cooler here, it seemed.

 

It had been torturous but somehow the seven young men had made it back and six of them were now in the process of trudging up the stairs with increasing gloominess at the thought of morning classes.

“I have to write a fucking essay by tomorrow.” Taehyung whined.

(He had become extremely whiny the minute Namjoon had stepped out of the car and waved before disappearing into his apartment at top speed.)

Why? Because of Park Jimin, his traitorous best friend. 

He hadn’t even been able to get a goodbye kiss because Jimin had shrieked when the two had leaned forward to kiss in front of him.

“Not in front of me!” He had shouted and pushed the two apart.

“You didn’t have a problem when Jin hyung and Kookie were making out!” Taehyung had grumbled and the said two had turned a ripe red.

“That’s because they both are hot, you both on the other hand_”

“_That’s not what you said when you confessed to me!” Taehyung had interrupted.

“Or me!” Namjoon had added. “I distinctly remember being called piece of hotness.”

“Yeah, you actually said you wanted to lick my_”

“_GET THE FUCK OUT ALREADY!” Yoongi had yelled, effectively shutting everyone up.

Jimin’s mood had improved considerably since then.

Back at the present, the six boys were saying their goodbyes.

Hoseok was the first to leave after saying a somewhat confused goodbye to the others, his throat sore from how much he had yelled.

Jin took Jungkook’s hand and led him to the roof without a word.

Yoongi was about to rush into his room when Jimin caught hold of his hand.

“Go, Tae.” Jimin said cheerfully. Best day of my life, he decided.

“I hate you so much right now, Jiminnie.” Taehyung said, hugged an awkwardly standing Yoongi and stuck out his tongue at Jimin before disappearing behind his door.

“What?” Yoongi asked, not unkindly. His eyes were glued to the floor and an unfamiliar heat was rising up his face.

The last thing he wanted was for Jimin to bring up his reckless driving.

Although I should ask him why he wouldn’t stop staring at me. It was his fault.

“Since you said we can’t meet for a month from now onwards, I just thought I’d make sure that you agree for our date one month from now.” Jimin said seriously.

“What?”

Yoongi turned redder at his own words. Could he not say anything other than what?

Before he could say anything else, Jimin leaned in and gave Yoongi a feather-light kiss on his cheekbone.

“See you in a month!” Was the last thing Jimin said before leaving Yoongi standing there.

WHAT?!

 

Jungkook could tell just from Jin’s expression that something was wrong. Jin had already let go of his hand so his suspicions had increased even more.

I haven’t even been his boyfriend for a whole of twenty four hours and I’ve already upset him, he thought mournfully as they climbed up to the roof.

He shivered in the cool air and was pleasantly surprised when Jin pulled him closer to himself.

His eyes snapped up at Jin who was looking at him carefully.

He turned pink and looked away.

Why the fuck am I so shy? He wondered.

He wasn’t shy around his friends, ever. With girls, yes, with strangers, double yes but with friends... Never.

Unless of course, it’s Jin hyung.

Jin was contemplating his life as he stared at Jungkook.

I’m really, really stupid. He decided. The proof had been staring at him in the face for so long and yet he had failed to see it as it was.

At first he had just assumed that Jungkook was shy in general, which he was to an extent.

How did I not notice before?

Jungkook had always been a tad bit shyer around him.

Had Jungkook been harbouring these feelings for a long time?

He didn’t know whether to be happy or miserable about the revelation.

“Kookie?” He said after he had made the younger boy turn redder than your average apple with his staring.

“Yeah?” Jungkook asked, his eyes fixed on the clouds in the sky.

“You know that I’ve got exams coming up soon, right?” Jin asked.

“We all do, hyung.” Jungkook answered with a small smile that failed to reach his eyes. He was now staring at one of the buildings in the distance, his heart pounding hard enough to drive away all sensible thoughts.

He couldn’t have recalled what the building he was staring at was even if you gave him gold for it. The building wasn’t remotely fascinating but it would have to do because the person standing beside him, his boyfriend (at the moment, at least) was so beautiful that his thoughts would become even more irrelevant and scattered if he chanced a glance that way.

Jin sighed loudly when Jungkook continued to stare at the medical centre.

“Yes, we all have exams.. But this is my last year. My last chance to prove myself before I’ll be out there.” Jin said.

Jungkook gulped and turned his attention to Jin. His eyes were bright and focused but his hands were fisted at his side as if he was trying to be firm.

Such beautiful eyes, Jungkook realised again.

“I have assignments and revision to do plus additional things like field trips to take my time.” Jin went on. “I really have to be focused and not waste my time on_”

“_Okay.”

“What?”

“I got you.. You can’t be with me.” Jungkook said and it was like a punch to his gut.

Twenty four hours of happiness.

At the moment he was sure that if someone gave him a piece of paper and a pen, he could write the most beautiful and heartbreaking song of the century about the heart rendering story of a young boy whose crush was returned for less than twenty four hours before academic pressure stole everything from him.

Curse the fucking education system_

“_Jungkook, were you not listening last night?” Jin interrupted his thoughts and smiled.

He had given Jungkook the wrong idea.

“Huh?” Jungkook asked quietly, his head still full of dramatic ideas.

“Am I that bad at kissing?” Jin asked with a hint of a blush.

“What? No!”

“Did you not get it then? I like you, Jungkook. You have been eating away at my thoughts for the past few months and I’m seriously, really happy that you return my feelings. I’ve been thinking about nothing except for you, if I’m to be honest.” Jin managed to get out.

“B-but_ your exams_”

“_I was saying.. I cannot afford to waste my time so.. Please don’t be mad if I have to spend more time studying and less time on you. Please don’t be mad when I can’t come out on trips like this one for the next four months...” Jin trailed off and his eyes widened when a snowflake landed on Jungkook’s head.

Sure, it was almost December but snow this early was rare.

“So you.. You want to be together?” Jungkook asked, not quite daring to believe it yet.

Jin was staring at the top of his head. Damn, is it colder than usual today? He wondered.

“Let’s go inside, it’s snowing.” Jin said and started walking back. He didn’t want Jungkook to become sick again.

“What, no wait_” Jungkook stopped Jin from disappearing down the stairs by grabbing his arm. “Just tell me yes or no real quick and I’ll_”

Jin interrupted him by pulling him close by the back of his neck and planting a long, hard kiss on the mouth that conveyed what all the kisses, all the words and all the signs hadn’t. It hadn’t truly been that long but Jungkook’s insides warmed up despite the cold when Jin kissed him again. He couldn’t get enough of it, he was sure now.

“I’ll make time for you.” Jin promised. “I’ll take Yoongi’s help for the assignments and study as hard as I can. I’ll take you out on a proper date once these exams end.”

Oh my god, did I swallow a river of *Felix Felicis? Jungkook wondered.

If you had told him a few months ago that he and Jin would be together someday soon, he would have called you mental.

 “Will you really?” Jungkook asked, even though he knew the answer.

“Of course! I’ll still get good marks and all.” Jin said and smiled.

The snowflakes had begun to settle on Jungkook’s head now.

Just some more and he’ll look exactly like a rabbit, he thought with his eye crinkling smile.

“And if you don’t?” Jungkook challenged with an amused smile.

“Don’t what?”

“If you don’t get good marks?”

“Really, this kid_”

“_I’ll just have to go to Seoyeon then_”

“_Hya! Decide your sexuality before_”

But Jin never got to complete his sentence because Jungkook broke out in a fit of giggles; his back bent as he tried to catch his breath, staring at a pink faced Jin who looked like he was wearing a halo made of cotton.

“I’ll get good marks, you wait and see.” He told Jungkook with fake dignity and it only made the younger boy giggle more.

“Get your ass here.” Jin ordered, sounding mildly exasperated, before yanking Jungkook to him.

Jungkook had been expecting a hug or another kiss, not this.

“Hyung!” He heard himself exclaim, eyes on the smirk on Jin’s face.

Jin had lifted him up in his arms bridal style, effectively cutting off his laughter.

A part of him wanted to thrash around till Jin let go but the other part was too ecstatic to pay attention.

Jin was actually, physically carrying him.

“Hyung, I’m not your bride!”

“I know.” Jin said happily.

“Seriously, put me down!” Jungkook said but even as he said so, he was laughing.

Jin gave him another knowing smirk and turned sideways as he walked through the door.

“Jin hyung, you know this is embarrassing right_” Jungkook began.

“_It’s only natural that I teach you a lesson for laughing at me.” Jin interrupted him with a shrug.

Jungkook chewed on his lip as Jin held onto him while descending the stairs.

‘We’re going to fall and break our necks, hyung!” He protested when Jin almost missed his footing.

“We won’t Kookie. I won’t drop you.”

“You will! We’re going down a staircase, hyung!”

“Relax, Jungkookie. I haven’t gone to the gym in forever so I should compensate somehow.”

“So you’re going to carry me down the stairs?” Jungkook asked with a scoff.

“Yup!”

Jungkook buried his head into Jin’s shoulder and blushed as two people from his class crossed paths with them, holding bottles of Andong soju in their hands.

“You’re too young to drink!” Jin scolded as Jungkook turned redder while looking at the gaping boys.

“Hyung, let’s go!” He begged and Jin frowned but obeyed.

“Jeon Jungkook is dating Kim Seokjin?!” They heard one of the astonished duo say.

Jungkook wanted the floor to swallow him.

Jin turned around again to his dismay.

“We are.” He responded and Jungkook knew that he was going to be burnt by the time they reached his room. Judging from how hot his face was, he was surely on fire.

“You’re too young to drink but I’ll let it slide this time. Don’t go to the roof, it’s snowing.” Jin said and offered a charming smile before turning around.

Jungkook decided to keep his face well hidden till they reached his room and of course, his luck sucks so Taehyung had to open the door to keep the trash out before Jin could put him down.

“Oh my god, I am interrupting something!” Taehyung exclaimed, widened eyes on the couple which looked like they had recently got married.

“You’re not!” Jungkook yelled hastily and struggled to get Jin to let go of him but Jin seemed too surprised to let go.

“WAIT!” Taehyung yelled and before either of them could react, Taehyung had clicked a photo of them and was now busy typing away on his phone with his tongue peeking out from the corner of his mouth.

“Ahh, Operation Jinkook was a total success! I’ll just put it on the group and_”

“_What group?” Jin and Jungkook asked simultaneously and to Jungkook’s relief, Jin put him down.

“Huh..? Oh our Whatsapp group where we came up with the plan to get you two stubborn, blind mules to...” Taehyung trailed off suddenly and his head snapped up from his phone to look at the couple in front of him.

What?” Jin and Jungkook asked incredulously.

“Nothing, nothing! Hyung, do you think you could carry me too?” Taehyung asked Jin, trying and failing to change the subject.

“Tae, what the fuck_” Jungkook began, trying to snatch Taehyung’s phone.

“NO!” Taehyung wailed dramatically, clutching his phone to his chest and slowly backing towards his room like he was being cornered by the meanest bullies. “I won’t let you take my phone! You can take my life but not my phone!”

Both Jungkook and Jin followed promptly.

“I’ll distract him, you get the phone.” Jin whispered and they proceeded to do just that.

Jungkook walked forward with purpose just as Jin grabbed Taehyung and expertly displaying his strength, picked Taehyung up the same way he had picked Jungkook.

Jungkook could swear that he heard imaginary people go “Whoaa!” At Jin’s strong arms.

“So..?” Jin said with what he hoped was a pleasant smile.

“Whoa, you can pick me up too! You’re so strong, Jin hyung! Finally I can make hyung jealous! Kookie, take a photo and send it to Namjoon hyung!” Taehyung said, stupidly holding out his phone to Jungkook who took it with a roll of his eyes.

“Really, Taehyung. You’re getting stupider with every passing day.” Jungkook said and turned around, pressing the Whatsapp icon.

“What? No! JUNGKOOK!” Taehyung yelled, reaching out in vain as Jin tightened his hold on him.

“Hyung, let me go!” Taehyung exclaimed, pushing Jin’s chest with one hand. “Shit, you have a nice chest!”

Jungkook almost, almost hit Taehyung then and there.

His jaw dropped as he read the ongoing chat on the group and he completely forgot about the two standing behind him.

 

Operation Jinkook was a success!

Chim: GUYS!! After so much hard work, we finally did it!! Jinkook is together!

 

Hobi: YESS! I’m sending the photos and videos!

 

Joonie: We’re waiting with bated breath! :)

 

Yoongi: You took quite some photos, it seems.

 

 Chim: Hi, Yoongi hyung :-*

 

Hobi: *Pukes.

 

Hobi:  Here’s the first one.

Below was an image of Jungkook staring devotedly at Jin as they walked up the trekking trail.

 

Chim: SO CUTE!! Hyung, you should at least return my affections.. Kookie looks at Jin hyung so nicely.. You never look at me like that :’(

 

Yoongi: ....

 

Hobi: Does that mean you guys are over already?! ^_^

 

Yoongi: Shut up Hoseok. Jimin, why are some of your clothes in my bag?

 

Chim: Idk...? Too bad.. One month without my favourite underwear.. *Sighs.

 

Yoongi: -_-

 

Joonie: Why are we ignoring this?! Jin hyung and Jungkook! They can’t get cuter.

 

Hobi: There’s more!! *Smirks.

Following that were two photos of Jin and Jungkook, the first one showing Jin staring at Jungkook as they watched the movie (apparently taken by Namjoon) and the second one of Jin and Jungkook heavily making out in their room, eyes shut, bodies pressed against one another’s, hands clutching each other possessively and lips connected as if stitched together.

Jungkook turned redder as more photos and videos began pouring in; ones he didn’t even know had been taken. Some of them were from much earlier too, like a photo from Yoongi and Jimin’s one on one basket ball match and another from when Jungkook had just dyed his hair brown and he and Jin were talking during their English class but most of them were from this afternoon when everyone had witnessed them kissing.

Jungkook jumped when someone touched his shoulder and almost dropped the phone.

“H-hyung!” He stuttered once he saw that it was Jin who was looking at him concernedly as he backed away.

“What’s wrong?” Jin asked, curiously eyeing Jungkook’s red face and the phone in his hand, which he noticed suddenly, was making too much noise as each message was received.

“Um_ uh_ where’s T-Tae?” Jungkook asked, looking anywhere but at the phone as if the obnoxiously loud pings were inconspicuous.

“I sort of.. Tricked him..” Jin admitted embarrassedly and Jungkook’s eyes widened when he heard the loud banging of Taehyung’s room’s door and his voice from inside.

“This is mutinous! Jin hyung! How can you do this to me_ Kookie_ let me out!! Your boyfriend is unbelievable_ Namjoon hyung is going to kill me!”

Jungkook turned away from the door and his heartbeat sped up when Jin moved closer and_

Managed to take the phone from his hand.

“Whatthefuck.” Was the first thing Jin said and Jungkook knew that his hyungs were in trouble because Jin hyung was swearing.

Jin scanned the photos, videos and the messages of the others with disbelief written on his face.

To Jungkook’s mortification, Jin began to read the chat out loud.

“Jimin. Yoongi hyung, are you ignoring me? Hoseok. I’m done with this shit. Namjoon. How much self control do you think Jin hyung has? Tae? Why aren’t you answering? Yoongi. Come and get your clothes, Jimin. Jimin. But One Month, hyung? Yoongi. Jin has no self control, he will be_ WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? ... Jin hyung looks like he’s about to fuck Koo_ YOONGI, YOU’RE DEAD!”

And Jungkook caught Taehyung’s phone in time because Jin rushed towards the door with a murderous glint in his eyes, almost throwing the phone in the process.

 

Operation Jinkook was a success!!

Chim: He does look like he will fuck Jungkook! Our poor, innocent kid! How long until they’re in each other’s pants?

 

Yoongi: Not too long, I’m guessing.

 

Joonie: Shit, he’s actually clutching Jungkook’s ass in the last picture, did you see?

 

Chim: I’d clutch that ass too ^_^

 

Yoongi: Jimin, I swear to god.

 

Tae: Yoongi hyung, I hope you have an excuse ready.

 

Yoongi: What? Why?

 

Joonie:  Tae!!

 

Tae: It’s Jungkook. Jin hyung is on his way.

 

Hobi: What?

 

Yoongi: What are you talking about_ JUNGKOOK? Why are you on our group.. Oh..

 

Chim: Kookie, did you steal Taehyung’s phone?

 

Tae: Not exactly. I can’t believe you guys.

 

Chim: Holy shit it’s Jungkookie! Kookie, I’m sorry! I won’t touch your ass, I swear!

 

Tae:  -______-

 

Hobi: I hear shouting.

 

Yoongi: Fuck.

 

Yoongi: Fuck!

 

Yoongi: I’m dead.

 

Yoongi: Jimin, how to be cute, help me out. ASAP.

 

 

“YOU CAN FUCKING GOOGLE IT, MIN YOONGI!”

A loud shout was heard from the room three doors away from Jungkook.

 

Tae: You guys brought it on yourselves. *Shrugs.

 

Joonie: Is Taehyung alive?

 

Tae: For now.

 

ChimChim: I’m so glad we’re roommates, Hobi hyung.

 

Hobi: Believe it or not.. So am I..

 

Joonie: Jungkook, don’t hurt him..

 

ChimChim: I’m definitely not seeing Yoongi hyung for a month then :(

 

Meanwhile Taehyung continued to blabber from his room. “.... Let me out already, this is practically assault! It is too low a trick for you, Jin hyung! How can you try to seduce me to lock me up in my room?”

Jungkook glared at the door.

You’re not getting any piggy back rides this time, fucker.

 

_*_

 

On one windy, April day, Jungkook realised that it had already been four months since Jin and him had begun dating.

The summer semester had started last month and he was already burdened with assignments and submissions.

It was around noon and Jungkook was alone in his room, his phone in his hand and his mouth forming a frown as time ticked by.

Jungkook didn’t usually lie but the idea of third wheeling on anyone’s date had had him saying three consequent NOs to his friends who felt guilty about taking off without him.

It hadn’t been too big of a lie, just a tiny white one which had spared him of two to three hours of torture.

Jimin and Yoongi, Namjoon and Taehyung and Hoseok and his new girlfriend (he finally got the courage to ask Soyoung noona out) had each gone on separate dates and Jungkook was so grateful for it that he practically pounced on Jin the minute he came in through the door.

Jin had only gone home for two weeks but two weeks were too long to bear, especially when the rest of his stupid hyungs couldn’t stop talking about their boyfriends/ girlfriend for more than fifteen minutes at a time.  

Although Jin wanted to tease the younger boy, he couldn't because he himself had been dying to kiss Jungkook. The sexual tension between the two had been mounting since a fortnight, when they had all gone to see the latest Marvel film and have a celebratory dinner for Jin.

Jungkook had worn leather pants that had left Jin speechless and twice as aggressive towards any guy or girl who had had the nerve to stare at his boyfriend for more than three seconds. 

He crushed the younger boy to him and turned him around so he was against the door and kissed him hard enough for his lips to swell.

“You’re late.” Jungkook scolded between kisses and Jin smiled sheepishly.

“Sorry.. I missed my bus.. But mum sent food for you.”  

Jin had missed Jungkook like crazy.

He had spent his whole time at home bugging his parents and his older brother by telling them tales of his boyfriend.

“And he looks like a bunny when he smiles!”

“Did I tell you that he has the cutest laugh ever? You would love his laugh, eomma!”

“He is really smart, you know! Despite being younger than me he was in my English class!”

“And he’s even good at girl group dances! You and him can dance together, eomma.”

“His favourite colour is red! Yours is too, right hyung?”

“And abeoji! Remember how you wished I had taken Politics? Jungkook has taken Politics, you can talk to him about it...”

“He likes my cooking.. I wonder how much he will like yours, eomma!”

“You have to hear him singing, he has such a great voice!”

“What do you mean no one can be good at so much? Hyung, why would I lie?! Jungkook really is talented!”

Jin’s mother had asked for Jin to bring Jungkook home and Jin had been ecstatic till he had remembered that the summer term had started and Jungkook was too busy to meet his mother just yet.

Two whole weeks he had been restless, lying awake in his old room at night, deep in thought.

When he wasn’t talking about Jungkook, he was thinking about him.

He had felt envious whenever he had thought about Jungkook and the rest of his friends in Seoul.

The memory of that caused him to tighten his hold on Jungkook as if to remind himself that he was finally here and kissing Jungkook, who belonged to him and him alone.

They had been kissing nonstop for some time, their tongues exploring each other’s mouths and Jin knew that Jungkook would be quite a sight when they stopped.

Jin loved it when he made Jungkook look like he had been wrecked by him, even though it made him blush when their annoying friends questioned them. Already their lips were swollen and saliva slicked and Jungkook was sure that Jin’s hold was going to leave dents in his skin.

After a lot of experimenting, Jungkook’s hair was back to black now and in Jin's opinion, it made him look even sexier. In the past few months, Jungkook had grown taller, now only slightly shorter than Jin, more muscular and his cheekbones had become sharper and more prominent.

He could be mistaken for some heartthrob idol, Jin decided.

The younger boy was no less aggressive than he was if he was to be honest but Jin knew that Jungkook liked it when Jin was in control of them.

Jin led Jungkook to his room and pushed him onto his bed, never once letting go of his perfect lips, the taste of which he had memorised like the back of his hand. Jungkook’s hold on his hair was borderline painful and Jin knew that it was Jungkook’s way of punishing him for being late.

When they ran out of breath, Jin continued his relentless attack by kissing Jungkook along his jaw line and then sucking on his earlobe, drawing soft moans from his throat.

Then he started sucking on the skin of his neck, not caring for once if he left marks on Jungkook's unblemished skin. He had wanted to do this since the time he had seen Jungkook adorned in leather pants.

Jungkook loved the feeling of Jin's lips on his skin and it filled him with pride when Jin ever left marks on his skin the way he was now. He knew that Taehyung would tease him (after asking him how the hell he had got them when Jin was supposed to be at home.) (Maybe his white lie was slightly bigger than he had thought.)

When Jin found his sweet spot, he moaned unintentionally, louder than before, squirming beneath Jin and Jin smirked against his skin before repeatedly sucking and nibbling at the same place. He found Jungkook’s hands and pinned them to the bed so that he would be unable to move.  

"H-hyung!" Jungkook stuttered, his breathing becoming even more erratic and heat pooling in his stomach. He was already half hard. Jin didn't stop though. He was now nibbling harder and Jungkook’s moans were becoming more desperate. His jeans were too constricting and he wasn’t sure he would be able to take it for much longer. Jin stopped for a moment before running his tongue over the marks he had made. Jungkook involuntarily bucked his hips, eliciting a beautiful gasp from the older boy that was enough to drive him mad

...But of course. 

He scowled when Jin got off of him immediately as he knew he would and blushed and apologised repeatedly.  

He wished he had shut his mouth. 

"Sorry.. I didn't mean to take it that far.." Jin said as usual, his skin flushed.

Both had boners at this point.

"Kookie, are you okay?" Jin asked on seeing the scowl on his boyfriend's face. 

"I went too far, didn't I_" He began worriedly but Jungkook had had enough of not taking things far enough. 

"_It's not nearly far enough!" He interrupted agitatedly, glaring at Jin, whose eyes widened. So he had misinterpreted Jungkook's scowl. 

"Kookie, listen to me.. We don't have to_" Jin started to say. 

But Jungkook was so done with words. 

He took Jin by surprise by pushing him down, climbing on top of him and reattaching their lips, his hands on the bed, beside Jin's head. 

Jin immediately began to protest and tried to stop him but Jungkook hadn't read gay erotica for no reason. 

Jin moaned when Jungkook ground his hips against his and tugged at his hair. 

"J-Jung-Jungkook... What_" He stuttered, hoping his words were comprehensible. 

Jungkook paid him no mind and did exactly what Jin had done to him. He kissed along Jin’s throat and sucked on his sweet skin, causing Jin to moan harder.

All the while he kept grinding his hips against Jin’s, eliciting beautiful moans from Jin’s mouth.

Both wanted, no needed more.

Jin's eyes were wide open because Jungkook was being relentless and this behaviour was new. Usually when he suggested that they stop Jungkook agreed without a protest.   

He moaned again at the friction and let go of his self control, bucking his hips to meet Jungkook's and cupping his bottom, making him moan against his neck in return. 

The friction between them was exactly what they needed but Jungkook knew that Jin wasn’t going to give him what he wanted so easily.

He was panting heavily and staring at Jin with his eyes filled with desire. His pupils were dilated, his lips were parted, wet and swollen, his neck was already showing signs of Jin's possessive affection, his hair was messed up and his chest was rising and falling rapidly. 

Jin felt so lucky in that moment that he couldn't help but smile at Jungkook.

"I'm ready, alright?" Jungkook said with a pout, moving so he was straddling Jin's hips. 

He knew that Jin always stopped things from going too far because in his eyes Jungkook was still not ready. 

"Y-you might think so right now, Jungkook_" Jin started, sounding like he had just learnt to speak.

"_Is it because you still think I'm a kid?" Jungkook asked, feeling an all too familiar sadness filling him. He couldn't look into Jin's eyes out of fear of his suspicions being confirmed through Jin's gaze so he stared at Jin's moving chest instead.  

When would Jin stop treating him like that? He was Jin's boyfriend first, right? What did age matter?

Or was it because.. ? 

Lately he had begun to think that he was more right in his other suspicions.

He had never voiced them out loud but he couldn’t hold it back anymore.

"Or is it because you don't want to have sex with me?" Jungkook went on, cheeks red and heart filled with dread. Tears were threatening to fill his eyes so he quickly blinked them away.

"Who told you that?" Jin asked, gently lifting Jungkook's chin and looking into his beautiful, defiant, fierce yet innocent eyes. 

"It's true, isn't it?" Jungkook asked, slowly taking Jin's hand off his chin and getting off him. 

He was no longer hard.

"Of course not!" Jin exclaimed but Jungkook had been nursing these doubts for a long time and it was hard for him to believe otherwise now, now that Jin had stopped him for the fifth time from doing anything more than kissing. 

"Jungkook!" Jin exclaimed, following his boyfriend out the door and into the living room. 

"It's okay." Jungkook said, about to go into the kitchen to make himself some coffee when Jin pulled him in for a hug.

"Why would you think I don't want you?" Jin asked tentatively. 

Jungkook was already embarrassed for bringing it up.

He felt like a child. He wanted nothing more than to lock himself in the bathroom and cry.

Way to go, Jeon Jungkook. Continue like this and pretty soon no one will be able to distinguish between you and a preteen girl.

"I'm sorry, it's okay. Please forget it." He said, trying to move away but Jin refused to let it go, especially when he noticed that Jungkook’s eyes seemed glossier than usual.

Guilt began to gnaw at him.

"I do want you.. I_ it's scary at times how badly I want you." He told Jungkook hastily.

He had never felt so much for anyone else.

His mother had already given him the talk.

No, not the sex talk, the other talk_ all because of how much he had spoken about Jungkook.  

Jungkook didn’t answer Jin since he didn’t think it was quite possible. The memories of all the times Jin had stopped them played in his mind.

"Jungkook, don't you believe me?" Jin asked, feeling surprised and a little hurt at the silence he was receiving. 

"I.. I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't want me_" Jungkook started to say quietly.

"_What are you talking about?!" Jin interrupted, pulling back a bit to look at Jungkook's blushing visage.

Jungkook wouldn’t meet his eyes now.

"Are you going to make me say it?" He asked with a sigh when Jungkook remained silent, eyes fixed to the ground. 

"Say what?" Jungkook asked, peeking up through his lashes and filling Jin's stomach with butterflies. 

Jin suddenly felt like an idiot for bringing it up but he knew that if he didn’t say it, Jungkook would continue to think that Jin didn’t want him, which was ridiculous.

So he said it.

"That.. That_ I think of you when.. When I.." Jin trailed off, unable to admit something that made him feel so vulnerable. His cheeks were red and his eyes couldn't meet Jungkook's. 

"When you what?" Jungkook asked, not comprehending at once. 

"When.. When I jack off.." 

Jungkook's eyes widened in surprise and warmth filled his cheeks and his stomach. 

A mental image of Jin jerking off (one he had had many times) while thinking of him filled his head, and he imagined Jin stifling his moans_ and thinking of a most probably naked Jungkook.  

His stomach once again pooled with heat.

He couldn't stop himself from kissing a surprised Jin again, his whole body flushed by now and his hands clutching Jin like his life depended on it. 

Jin was taken aback but grateful that Jungkook wasn't mocking him so he let go and kissed Jungkook back, trying to convey that he very much wanted Jungkook as well. 

When Jungkook pulled away abruptly he whined in surprise. 

"You want me but you don't think I'm ready, is that it?" Jungkook asked, not giving himself the time to blush over his proclamation. 

Jin started to say that it's only because he didn't want Jungkook doing something he didn't want to when Jungkook went on, saying something that made his mouth fall open and his cheeks turn into a cherry red.  

"... I am ready, I swear_ I even.. I even stretched myself for you the other day.." 

Jungkook blushed as he admitted it but it was true so Jin didn’t even have to worry too much about that.

He hadn’t intended to do it but he had been lying on his bed for an hour feeling restless and his imagination had attacked him with a perfect scenario that had resulted in him pushing down his pants to grab his leaking erection. Jin had already been gone home for a week and to Jungkook it had been like a month.

He had been about to take hold of his cock like he had so many times, when he had had another thought.

If Jin and him ever got to that stage, then there would be more than just grinding against one another.. There would be penetration too, right?

So while he had held and tugged at his cock with one hand, he had used the index finger of his other hand to hesitantly begin stretching himself open. 

It had been strange and new and maybe even uncomfortable at first but pretty soon his breathing had become ragged and he had begun to squirm against his finger. 

He had been afraid to put another finger so maybe he wasn't exactly stretched open but if Jin was worried about that_

"J-Jungkook_" Jin stuttered, his breathing heavy and erratic.

Jungkook had been so lost in his thoughts that he hadn't noticed the expression on Jin's face. 

"Did you really?" Jin asked, pressing his forehead to Jungkook's. 

"I.. A bit.." Jungkook admitted. 

Jin's eyes widened in surprise and the look he gave Jungkook was enough to send him over the edge. Jin looked like he wanted to ruin his innocence or something.

And Jin pulled away.

"I'm sorry_" He began, feeling like he had entirely lost his control even when he hadn’t.

"_Hyung_" Jungkook began to protest.

"_I want it to be.. Be more than us doing it in our rooms_ I'd rather_ that's not how I want it to be.. I want it to be special." Jin mumbled, his eyes scanning Jungkook's face to make sure that he understood that Jin did want him, he wanted him so much_ but_ they weren't even prepared! 

Jungkook's face softened at Jin’s words and he smiled slightly.

Of course, he had been stupid to think that in just two weeks Jin would lose his control. He had been even stupider to think that Jin would have sex with him in his room with his textbooks and notebooks lying around. Jin was someone whose feelings had depth and he didn’t act on his whims.

Nonetheless, he had been unable to not get his hopes up when Jin had led him to his room and pushed him onto his bed.

But special was good, right? 

"Okay." He said. He could live with that for now. 

 

 

 

“How could you lie to me, Jungkook?” Was the first thing Taehyung said when he walked into his and Jungkook’s room.

It had already been an hour since Jin had left and Jungkook’s mood was not improved by Taehyung’s nagging.

“You said you were going to study so I left you alone_” Taehyung started.

“_Tae, did you really think I wanted to spend my afternoon watching you and Namjoon hyung making out?”

“But Jimin_”

“_Or hear Jimin hyung and Yoongi hyung cooing at each other?”

“Hobi hyung_”

“_And Soyoung noona have started going out recently. It’s awkward enough as it is without me following them like their adopted kid.”

Fine! But you could have told us Jin hyung was coming a day earlier!”

“I just.. I wanted to spend time with him!” Jungkook said with a sigh and Taehyung’s face softened.

He sat down beside Jungkook on his bed and patted his thigh comfortingly.

“Judging from your expression things didn’t go too well?” He asked gently.

“No, it’s not that.. Can we.. Talk about this later? I’m really hungry.” Jungkook responded and luckily his stomach grumbled at the moment.

“I got you something!” Taehyung said cheerfully. “Now, who is your favourite hyung?”

Jungkook rolled his eyes but said that it was Taehyung, causing the older of the two to flash his signature rectangular smile.

“Where is Jin hyung then?” Taehyung asked as Jungkook heated the takeout food in their microwave.

“He said he was going to check out a few apartments by the Han River. He’s crashing at his cousin’s place tonight..”

“He has another interview soon, right?”

“Yes..”

“Don’t worry, Kook..”

“Yeah..” 

 

 

 

 

Jin spent the rest of his day regretting his words to Jungkook.  

The rest of his day was spent with an overly optimistic agent who showed him several apartments that were way over his budget and none with the view he wanted.

Finally at six in the evening he had called it a day and caught a bus to his cousin’s house on the other side of the city.

At night he found himself lying on the unused bed in the unused guest room at his cousin’s place, wondering what if. 

He knew that what he had done was right but Jungkook's words had unlocked another level. 

Jungkook had even gone as far as to open himself up for him_ 

Jin tried and failed at not picturing it. 

"Jungkook, you're shocking.. And incredible." He whispered to himself as he lay awake that night, listening to the sound of his own intermittent breathing. 

To think that Jungkook had been sprawled across the bed with his fingers in himself while he was rotting in his hometown was unimaginable and unbearable.

Never would he have imagined that he would want to have sex with Jeon Jungkook, his friend who had become so much more, all because of a drunken kiss. 

He really was grateful to the forces that had played their role in bringing him and Jungkook together. 

All that was wonderful but his throbbing, leaking cock wasn't. Not when Jungkook had filled his head with ideas. 

He was so tempted to walk out of his room, catch a bus to the college campus and fuck Jungkook awake.

Jin.. What is wrong with you?! You can't do something like that!

Jin groaned and turned over. He didn't want to jerk himself off, he wanted more than the mediocre pleasure he got from imagining his boyfriend naked while masturbating. 

He wanted to see his boyfriend naked and actually do something.

 

 

 

Jungkook was faring no better in his room back at the university.  

His mind refused to remove the look that Jin had given him when he had heard that Jungkook had stretched himself for him. 

Jin had looked at him like a bloody sex God and it had shaken him to the core without him realising it. Jin had looked like he was ready to fuck him there itself. His eyes had looked like that of a sex hungry animal

He had loved it. 

Jin usually was so composed and in control (except when he was being silly and cute) that the raw desire on his face had seemed foreign to Jungkook. He had wanted to beg Jin to do it already. 

It was so annoying!! 

He wanted to go over to Jin’s cousin’s house, wake Jin up and tell him that it would be no less special if they had sex on the freaking kitchen table but please_ because he was so sexually frustrated... 

When and how was he going to fall asleep? 

 

 

 

A few days later Jin found himself at Namjoon’s apartment complex. Namjoon was supposed to study for a test but Taehyung’s words were echoing in his mind so he put down his textbook and turned his gaze to Jin who was reading some novel. 

"Hyung." Namjoon said, causing Jin to look up from his book.

"What?" Jin asked, brushing the hair out of his eyes and raising his eyebrow at Namjoon. “Want some help?” Jin teased making Namjoon smile.

“No thanks but I appreciate the offer.” He said.

“As expected.. The smart Kim Namjoon doesn’t need my help. So what is it?” Jin asked and put his book aside as well.

"Tae said that Jungkook acts awfully frustrated these days." Namjoon told Jin.

"Frustrated?" Jin asked, immediately wondering if studies were getting to his boyfriend.

He hadn’t even asked Jungkook about his studies.

In fact, Jungkook had been so busy that since that day they had only met twice.

Namjoon shook his head and rolled his eyes, reading Jin’s misinterpretation clearly.

"Sexually frustrated." He clarified and Jin's eyes widened. 

"Namjoon!" He scolded, blushing and glaring at his novel.

Why were their friends so interfering?! 

"Hyung, he's not a kid, you know that, we have been over it. And Yoongi hyung is already irritated with how much you have been sighing and moaning_"

"_Stop right there!" Jin exclaimed, touching his red face and shaking his head expressively. Yoongi’s new roommate was yet to arrive so he had stayed in his old room as it was closer to the river than his cousin’s place.

He hadn’t been that loud..

Or so he had thought.

Namjoon rolled his eyes and smiled. 

"What are you waiting for?" He asked. He was genuinely curious. He had seen the sexual tension between the two when they had gone to see that movie_ which one was it...? Anyway; he had seen the possessiveness in Jin's eyes and had seen the glare he had sent Jimin's way just for saying that Jungkook looked hot. 

"What would you do if you were in my place?!" Jin demanded when his blush had died down somewhat. 

He was going to kill Yoongi! They better not be discussing his sexual life on their stupid Whatsapp group, those brats! He had asked them to delete the stupid group countless times but none of them had complied.

Namjoon looked surprised but as usual he decided to give a calculated answer. 

"If I was dating someone who was five years younger than me but an adult and if I felt for them what you feel for Jungkook; I wouldn't be asking myself twice." 

Jin glared at him. 

"Taehyung is only a year younger than you so you don't know!" Jin said sulkily. 

Namjoon sighed. "Yes but he acts like he's younger than Kookie so...?" 

Jin wondered if he should tell Namjoon the real reason but he was afraid of being called old school. 

"Hyung?" Namjoon asked, shaking him. 

Well, I might as well just say it, he thought and braced himself.

"Have you had sex with Tae?" He asked, making the younger boy blush. 

"Yes.." He admitted. 

"And have you told Taehyung that you love him?" Jin asked and Namjoon's head tilted to the right in confusion.

"Yes, of course..." Namjoon trailed off as he understood. 

"Do you love Jungkook?" Namjoon asked. 

Jin looked unprepared to answer but he managed to stutter it out. 

"Wha.. I. Y-yes.. But he doesn't know that! Don't tell him!" 

Namjoon smiled widely, his dimples making an appearance.  

"I won't, but why don't you?" He asked gently.

"What if he doesn't feel the same?" Jin demanded with a cute frown. 

Namjoon sighed. "Hyung, you know he had a crush on you for a long time, right?" 

Jin rolled his eyes. "Yeah but a crush is a crush. L-love isn't something to joke about..." 

"And you think Jungkook would do_ what? If he found out?" Namjoon asked with a blank face. 

"Freak out?!" Jin exclaimed. 

"Hyung, don't be stupid." Namjoon said exasperatedly. 

"Hey!" Jin exclaimed indignantly. 

"Sorry but come on! Are you really as blind as to believe that he doesn't love you? He has had feelings for you for a very long time!" Namjoon said. 

"Whatever. I'm not.. Not going to have sex with him until I tell him how I feel." Jin said stubbornly. 

Namjoon grinned. "Suit yourself but Yoongi hyung is going to be considerably irritated if you keep on making noises in the night, you know it's hard for him to fall asleep_"

"_Hya, get out!"
“But it’s my room!”

Jin threw a pillow at Namjoon’s face and he promptly fell off the bed and broke the night lamp.

 

 

 

 

"Jungkooooook." Taehyung called as he barged into Jungkook's room while he was changing.

Jungkook didn't even bother to be embarrassed anymore because that would only make Taehyung happier. 

"Whoa Kookie, you have a nice butt." Taehyung said with a smirk. 

"What the hell do you want, Tae?" Jungkook demanded. 

Taehyung had only seen his butt like a hundred times. 

"Listen! I can help out with your sexual frustration!" Taehyung said with a grin.

"Thanks but I'd rather die than have a threesome with you and Namjoon hyung."

"Ha ha ha, so funny!" Taehyung said, rolling his eyes. "As if we'd invite you. I meant I know how to make you so hot that Jin hyung will lose his mind! Then you can seduce your way into his bed!" Taehyung explained.

Jungkook sighed as he pulled on a shirt and sat at the edge of his bed.

"Jin hyung said he doesn't want it to be like that." He said to Taehyung who was wiggling his eyebrows.

"Like what?" Taehyung asked confusedly. 

"Like_ like we're sex crazed or something. He said he wants it to be special.. I think he's saying that because it will be my first time." Jungkook said and although it frustrated him no end, it also made him feel warm inside. 

"Wow, you guys are like relationship goals or something." Taehyung said, wiping fake tears from his eye. "But won't it be special anyways because it's you and it's him?" He asked. 

"That's what I think but.. Jin hyung doesn't. Frankly.. I think it's because he thinks I'm too young." Jungkook said and grabbed his cat pillow and banged his head on it. 

"Which is why you have to seduce him!" Taehyung concluded.

"I wore those leather pants like you asked me to and he stopped me that night too." Jungkook said sadly.

The memory was still fresh in his mind. They had come home a little after twelve and Taehyung had stayed over at Namjoon’s place so Jin and Jungkook had been able to spend the night together before Jin left for the fortnight.

It had been similar to what had happened a few days ago except Jin had said that they should sleep even before Jungkook could so much as get hard.

"Yeah but didn't you see the way he looked at you? Like he would rip anyone to shreds if they so much as glanced at you." Taehyung said and Jungkook tried to recall the exact expression on Jin's face. 

Jin had looked pretty pissed when the girl at the ticket counter had tried to flirt with him. 

"Maybe.." He trailed off. 

"I'm telling you, seduction is the way to go!" Taehyung said and to Jungkook's amusement, he handed him his phone.

He read: How to seduce an older man? 

"Jin hyung isn't an ahjussi!" Jungkook said with hysterical laughter. 

"I didn't write that!" Taehyung said indignantly. 

"Look at this: want to seduce a boring, rich and old man? You have come to the right place! Once you marry him, his wealth will be yours and before long he will die_" Jungkook spoke, shaking with laughter.

"_Okay okay, sorry." Taehyung interrupted quickly and laughed as well. 

He took his phone and typed something else before handing it to Jungkook. 

Jungkook read: How to convince your older boyfriend to have sex with you? 

"Check wikihow." Taehyung said and Jungkook clicked on the link. 

They both skimmed through it but it was all about how to tell your boyfriend. Jin already knew that Jungkook wanted to take their relationship to the next level. 

They came across another one which said 'make him ache for you' 

"Perfect!" Taehyung said and tapped on the header.

"Tae, this is for women. And that too for those relationships which have already taken the next step." Jungkook quoted. 

"Doesn't matter, let's just read it for tips!" Taehyung said cheerfully. 

"Say the one thing that drives him nuts." Taehyung read. "What will?" 

"I don't know." Jungkook shook his head. 

"They're referring to names. Seokjin?" Taehyung asked. 

"I doubt that!" Jungkook replied and shook his head. 

"How about Daddy?" 

"Tae!" 

"Then what?" 

"I'm sure it's not that!" 

"Namjoon hyung said that Jin hyung is pretty kinky, he may be into more than just that you know_"

"_Tae, shut up and read." Jungkook groaned. 

"As lovey-dovey as pet names make him feel, they still don't compare to the electrifying rush your man gets when his name crosses your lips. "Just hearing it is an aphrodisiac," says body-language expert Eve, author of XYZ. "It ratchets up his desire because the message you send is 'It's you I'm thinking about and no one else.' And men need to hear that — it's tied to their primal urge to beat out all the competition." Taehyung finished with an amused grin. 

"Will it work..?" Jungkook asked, sounding doubtful. 

"According to the example, you will have to say something like: I was arguing with Tae, Jin hyung... He was saying that I’m good looking but I told him that he looks better.." Taehyung said while studying the article. 

Jungkook snorted. "Okay, what else?" 

"Some shit and then... Just by stimulating his nerve endings when he's not prepared for it, you create a positive physical connection that leaves your man wanting more. Even better, your guy subconsciously gets hooked on those mini-moments of excitement and craves them when you're not around." Taehyung read. 

"Okay.. I guess I can do that?" Jungkook wondered. 

"Sure you can! Ooops, sorry Jin hyung, didn't mean to touch your crotch, I thought I saw something there!" Taehyung enacted and Jungkook looked at him like he was crazy. 

Taehyung smiled his signature smile. 

"Chuck it, Tae. None of that is going to work.. Besides, if Jin hyung wants to wait then I'll respect his decision." Jungkook said, looking away from what he deduced to be shitty tips. “None of these are for guys anyways." 

"How can you decide that?!" Taehyung demanded. 

Jungkook rolled his eyes and pointed at the second paragraph which suggested to 'rub your breasts against him'

"Okay, you have a point." Taehyung agreed and sighed exaggeratedly. "But it pains me to see you so sexually deprived, Jungkookie." 

Jungkook rolled his eyes. "I'm not desperate, Taehyung. It's just.. Hard to control the way I feel around Jin hyung. It doesn't mean I want sex. I have gone without it for eighteen years, you know." He said sarcastically. 

Taehyung smiled. "Then what do you want?" 

Jungkook looked at him weirdly. 

"What do I want? Jin hyung, obviously." 

"What do you want from him?" Taehyung asked. 

"I'm not telling you what I want_"

"_Not sexual things, idiot! What are you after?!" 

Jungkook tilted his head in confusion.

 "Oh my fucking god he is so oblivious!" Taehyung complained to the skies. "Never mind. Pleasure yourself all you like. Maybe you will realise one day."

Taehyung walked off with that and Jungkook snorted. "Someone is a bit moody today!" He called after his best friend who stuck his head inside and stuck out his tongue. 

Jungkook sighed and leaned back on his hands so he was staring at the ceiling. 

What did he want..?

He looked around for his phone and grinned when he saw that he had a message from Jin hyung.

Jungkook! Ice cream? :) 

Yes! He texted back quickly. 

Good, I'll see you at 9?

Okay :D

He loved it when he hung out alone with Jin hyung like this. When all of them hung out together, it just couldn't compare to how it felt when Jin's attention was on him and him alone. 

The age gap between them was nonexistent at times like these because they could speak about anything and everything. 

Jin was good at making him smile and he always made him laugh. 

They weren't the most similar couple but that was okay because even if their preferences didn't match completely, their thoughts did. 

Jungkook felt his excitement mounting. Immediately after dinner he got changed and took his phone and wallet. 

Jin had told him that he liked black hair on him so he had forbidden Taehyung from experimenting with his hair for the time being. 

He preferred it that way too because he found it exhausting to dye his hair. (Even though Taehyung did it for him) 

He met Jin at the pre decided time with a big smile on his face. 

Jin's face lit up at the sight of Jungkook's grin and his heart beat faster in an exhilarating way. 

He didn't care who was watching them then. He quickly pulled the younger boy closer to him for a bone crushing hug. He had to feel him in his arms. It was incredible how he felt then. 

"Did you miss me?" Jungkook asked teasingly. He had become a lot more confident since then. 

"You don't even know how much." Jin admitted and Jungkook's cheeks turned red with happiness. At times like these, it was hard to believe that just five months ago, Jin had been an unreachable dream. 

When Jin had kissed him while being drunk, Jungkook had been sure that this was the worst thing that could have ever happened to him. 

He had been sure that his one sided crush would be nothing more than just that and that when he would grow older, he would think about his pathetic crush on Jin with fondness. 

But the tables had turned and thanks to Jin's curiosity, he had figured out the true nature of his feelings for Jungkook. 

Jin pulled away and they smiled at one another before walking. 

"Did you hear that the history teacher is retiring?" Jungkook asked Jin, unable to keep the happiness out of his voice. Jin laughed and nodded. 

"He wasn't all that bad though." He teased Jungkook. 

"Actually he wasn't." Jungkook agreed and Jin raised his eyebrow mockingly. Just last week Jungkook had been boasting about his Politics marks, saying that he was so glad he had shifted from that horrible class.

"He actually called me out of the library the other day. I was so freaked out at first but then he apologised!" Jungkook exclaimed.

"Whoa, really? What for?" Jin asked. 

"He said that he heard these two girls_" Jungkook cut off suddenly and looked sheepish. 

Jin frowned cutely. "He heard those girls say what?" 

"Oh nothing." Jungkook said embarrassedly. 

"Kookie." Jin said and raised his eyebrow questioningly. 

"That he heard two girls saying that.. They hoped I would return to taking history now that he's retiring..." Jungkook said in a much softer voice. Jin scoffed.

"I should ask the professor who those girls are." He said and rolled his eyes. "I'm really going to announce that you're mine." 

Jungkook's smile was absolutely radiant. 

"You know girls say the same things about you as well?" Jungkook asked. 

Jin shrugged. "I’m out of here though and.. You don't get as jealous as I do." He said. 

"I do!! I'm just used to it because I've dealt with it for a longer time. Besides, it's not just girls, it's guys too!" Jungkook told him with his eyes narrowed. 

Jin smiled and pulled Jungkook closer. "I guess we both need to be as blatant as Taehyung and Namjoon and Yoongi and Jimin. That's when people will stop pining after my boyfriend."

Jungkook blushed. "Those four are way too public about their relationship!" 

"That's true." Jin acknowledged. 

The other four went too far, in Jin and Jungkook's opinions. 

Taehyung and Namjoon had already been thrown out seven times for too much physical contact during classes. 

And Jimin couldn't go a single day without doing something absolutely cheesy and romantic for Yoongi like spray painting random lines from Yoongi's songs on walls in deserted parts of the city and then taking photos of them and making a collage. As for being worried about what would happen if he was caught? (The sacrifice is worth my love.

The result? Yoongi had changed from a dark, sexy, basketball champion to a lovesick puppy. 

(He had always been a lovesick puppy for Jimin in Jin, Hoseok and Namjoon's eyes but he would kill them if they so much as tried to tease him about it.) 

Jin looked over at the pleasant smile on Jungkook's face and pondered over what Namjoon had said. 

Could it be true that Jungkook was already in love with him? 

Was Jin that lucky? 

But Jin remembered what it felt like to be eighteen. 

When Jin was eighteen, he had the craziest misgivings about love. He had been dating someone who was older than him then and he had been all the things that Jungkook was now.

He had mistaken lust and infatuation for love and had spent a good time chiding himself after the inevitable end to that relationship. The last thing he wanted was for Jungkook to do the same.. 

He sighed softly and was surprised when Jungkook took his hand (tentatively) as if he knew it would lift his spirits at once. 

So was Jungkook in love with him or was he blinded by lust like every other teenage boy? 

"What flavour do you want?" Jungkook asked and for a moment Jin's mind went elsewhere. 

"What?" He asked with wide eyes, his thoughts still on the topic on his mind. 

"Yeah, what flavour? I know you love chocolate but which one? Their chocolate and almond one is very good." Jungkook went on before glancing at Jin's shocked expression. 

"Oh!" Jin said suddenly and Jungkook blushed when he realised what had been going on his boyfriend's mind. 

"I was talking about the ice cream!" He said hastily. 

Shit, Jin hyung didn't think that he thought about sex all the time, right? He knew that Taehyung was feeding Namjoon some false information..  

"Yeah! No! I mean_ I know! Y-yeah, chocolate with almonds sounds nice." Jin stammered before cursing himself mentally.

It had been four months and yet neither of them had learnt to brush aside the awkwardness.

They walked in silence for a while, both lost in their thoughts.

It was a windy night.

“We’re here.” Jungkook announced, bringing Jin back to earth.

“Hm? Yes.”

They bought their ice cream and luckily forgot about the awkward incident.

“Did you like any of the apartments?” Jungkook asked Jin.

The two of them were sitting on one of the benches near the ice cream place.

“Not really.” Jin said. “Some were nice but until I get a job I can’t afford to pay for them. The rent is pretty high.”

Jungkook nodded in understanding. “Yeah, everyone wants an apartment facing the Han River.”

“I’ll find something, don’t go worrying about it.” Jin said and smiled.

Jungkook nodded but he knew it wasn’t possible. “I’ll come with you tomorrow, if you like. You know.. You could benefit from my expertise.”

Jin laughed and nodded. “Okay, Mr. Expert. Where do you suggest we start?”

They spent the rest of their time talking about different places they could check out.

Unfortunately for them, Jungkook’s sociology teacher sprung up an additional last minute assignment on his class and as a result of that he wasn’t able to accompany Jin and give him his expert opinion.

All the same, Jin finally found the perfect place that was slightly over his budget but would do.

The next few days were spent in shifting all his things from his room and from home and finally on the next weekend, he found himself staying the night at his apartment.

 

 

 

 

“I love the view, hyung, can I please stay here?” Jimin asked the minute Jin pulled back the curtains to reveal the beautiful blue water of the river.

“It’s a nice place.” Yoongi agreed. “The rent is cheap if you consider the fact that it’s furnished.”

“Wow, this is so much better than my place.” Namjoon complained, pushing aside Jimin to see for himself and managing to topple a newspaper stand.

Taehyung could just nod in agreement as he stared openmouthedly at the glistening water.

“Soyoung would like it too.” Hoseok agreed, his eyes glazed over, leaving the others in no doubt that he was lost in thoughts of his girlfriend.

The only person who remained silent was Jungkook.

“What’s wrong, you don’t like it?” Jin asked worriedly.

Jungkook looked surprised at being questioned suddenly.

“N-no! It’s really beautiful.” He said, cursing himself mentally for staying quiet for so long.

Jin smiled but wasn’t exactly convinced.

When the others decided to raid the kitchen, Yoongi, who had as usual, expertly read the doubt on Jin’s face turned to him and raised his eyebrow questioningly.

“W-what!” Jin exclaimed.

“You look like you don’t think Jungkook liked your new apartment.” Yoongi stated.

Jin shook his head. “What’s not to like?” He replied, sounding extremely doubtful.

“I’m sure he did, Jin. Chill.” Yoongi comforted, leaning against the window and sighing contentedly.

“But what if he didn’t?” Jin asked, his eyes fixed on Jungkook who was eating quietly among the other four who were almost violent in comparison.

“What if he didn’t?” Yoongi questioned. “You’re the one who will be living here, not him.”

“But that’s not true!” Jin exclaimed loudly and blushed at his knee jerk reaction.

The other five turned to him and he waved it off awkwardly as Yoongi smirked at him.

“Don’t worry hyung. I like it too.” He said.

Jin scoffed in response. “Who cares if you like it?”

“Gosh, I’m hurt. Of course it matters whether I like it or not! I’ll be your roommate in a year again.”

“What?!”

Yoongi laughed at Jin’s responses and Jin glared at him.

“You’re thinking about a future with him aren’t you?” Yoongi questioned and Jin shook his head expressively.

“N-no!”

“You can tell me, Jin.”

Jin chewed on his lip as he debated the question and nodded shyly, his gaze on Jungkook, who was being bothered by Taehyung and Jimin for his silence. Just as he nodded, Jungkook finally cracked his eye crinkling smile, pushing both Jimin and Taehyung away from him as they tried to kiss him.

And no, Jin wasn’t filled with envy at the sight or anything.

Yoongi rolled his eyes.

“I told you_”

“_Shut up!”

“But it is true. If you had only listened to me back then_”

“_Yoongi, I swear_”

“_So you are thinking about Jungkook and you in the future.”

Jin frowned at the sudden change of subject but nodded.

“You know that I’ve been looking for a new apartment for some time now.. I lied when I said that I didn’t find the perfect one until this one.”

“What do you mean?”

“There was one which was perfect...” Jin trailed off and turned his attention to Yoongi.

“What happened then?” Yoongi asked as Jin regarded him.

“It was perfect.. For me.. But not for Jungkook.”

Yoongi’s eyebrows shot up at the response and Jin bit his lip.

“He’s neater than I am. He likes open spaces. He hates cramped places and that one was smaller than this one. The interior wasn’t as impressive as this one. The landlord wasn’t as pleasant either. Also.. Although there wasn’t too much difference.. This one was closer to the university.”

Yoongi was pretty amazed at the words that were leaving Jin’s mouth.

Closer to the university?!

Did that mean what Yoongi thought it meant?

“So I picked this one. The view was slightly better there, not as many buildings in the middle but I knew Jungkook would like this place better.. Then why is he silent? Why doesn’t he like it? I thought he would like it. That’s why I chose this one! But he’s silent.. Did I misread him?”

Jin looked so dejected that Yoongi couldn’t help but pat his shoulder awkwardly.

“Relax, hyung. He’s probably got a lot on his mind is all. It doesn’t mean that he didn’t like it.. But are you serious about the university being closer thing? If you get the job you have an interview for then won’t it be further from here? Isn’t Gum Publishers far from here?”

Jin just shook his head. “It’s on the other side of the city so it’s far regardless.”

“Then did you say that because this way you can meet Jungkook easily?” Yoongi asked but he knew the answer even before he asked. He just wanted to hear Jin say it himself.

“Yoongi, I want Jungkook to live with me.”

Jin’s eyes widened at his own boldness and he quickly glanced at Jungkook to make sure he hadn’t heard.

“Wow.” Yoongi said, his eyes as wide as Jin’s. “Shit, Jin. You’re in pretty deep.”

“Why is that so surprising?” Jin asked somewhat defensively.

“Surely you haven’t forgotten Jang Kiwoon?”

Jin frowned at the name and turned away. “I was stupid back then.”

“It was only a year ago_”

“_Your point?” Jin interrupted pointedly.

“I’m just wondering because you haven’t even told him that you love him.”

“How do you know that I haven’t?”

“Jin, please. I’m your best friend..”

Jin raised his eyebrow.

“Also Namjoon may have mentioned it once or twice..”

Jin rolled his eyes. “I know. I know it sounds insane but.. It feels right. You don’t know how horrible it was to stay away from him for two weeks even. My brother told me that I sounded like a maniacal fan because I couldn’t shut up about Jungkook for two minutes. I bugged the hell out of him.. I can’t stay away from him. I don’t think I can bear it if he’s living_”

“_Ten minutes away?”

“I cannot.”

“What does he want?”

“Why would I be worrying if I knew? I don’t know. If he doesn’t like the apartment_”

“_Jin it’s not about the apartment. As long as he likes you, it shouldn’t matter.”

Jin frowned again at the use of the word like.

“Tell him how you feel.” Yoongi advised.

“How?!” Jin groaned in frustration.

He had never told anyone he liked them first, let alone loved them.

“Jin the boy adores you. He has for a long time_”

Jin sighed and thankfully Jimin returned with chocolate which he insisted on feeding Yoongi.

None of them understand, Jin thought miserably.

Dating someone and wanting to date someone are two very different things. Jungkook liked him, sure, he wasn’t so stupid as to not be able to tell that but did Jungkook feel the warmth he did every time he looked Jin’s way?

Jin decided to leave Jimin and Yoongi alone and took the passage to the left where his (and Jungkook’s, he had hoped) room was.

He was pretty surprised when he opened the door and found Jungkook standing in the balcony. He was staring at the road billow, the wind messing up his hair. The jeans fit him so well it was like he was advertising them.

Jin shut the door behind him and walked forward quietly.

“Jungkook-ah.” He said, startling the younger boy.

“Hyung!”

“Did you really not like the apartment?” Jin asked, walking out himself and nodding at the road with its bustling traffic and the river beyond that was perfectly tranquil in comparison. The weather was extremely pleasant and cherry blossom trees along the sidewalks made the scenery look like it was straight out of a painting. Jin’s heart fluttered at the beautiful sight.

Or maybe it was because Jungkook was beside him, he couldn’t quite tell.  

Maybe Jungkook’s opinion shouldn’t matter to him as much as it did but he couldn’t help it. If Jungkook said he didn’t like it, he would immediately move out regardless of the consequences.

“Why would you think that?” Jungkook asked, moving so he was standing closer to Jin. “It looks like I’ve walked into a painting.” He said, voicing Jin’s thoughts.

Jin let out a breath he had been holding and wrapped his arm around Jungkook’s waist, pulling him closer still.

“You have been quiet.. I thought it’s because the place doesn’t meet your expectations. Is it because of studies?” Jin asked concernedly, going back to Yoongi’s words.

“No, it’s not that. I’m sorry, I know I seem down. It’s just because..” Jungkook sighed before continuing. “I wanted to come with you when you went apartment hunting. I was of no use at all; I couldn’t even help with the shifting! And I know it sounds stupid but I wish I wasn’t seeing this place for the first time.. With everyone else. I wish I knew it as well as you did. As your boyfriend I should at least_”

“_That’s what’s been bothering you?” Jin interrupted, sounding relieved. “So you don’t hate it? You don’t think it is cramped or_ or not good enough?”

Jungkook shook his head confusedly. “Not at all. It’s perfect. The wall art is unique too. In fact, if you put up a few photo frames along the walls, it would be even better! We should also get a nice bookshelf_”

Jin interrupted Jungkook’s words again, this time with a hug.

“I’m sorry Kookie. I didn’t think it would upset you to be seeing this place for the first time with everyone else but I guess I’d have felt the same if I had been in your place. Thank you for telling me. It doesn’t matter that you couldn’t help me then. You’re here now and that’s all that.. Matters. We’ll look up bookshelves online. And I have photos too which I want to get framed.”

Jin pulled away to find himself looking at a blushing Jungkook.

“Let’s do that.” Jungkook agreed and Jin smiled radiantly.

“Jin hyung, where is the glassware?” Jimin asked, sticking his head inside and ruining the moment.

“Drawer on the left_ wait a minute. What on earth are you all up to? Why do you need glassware_”

A loud noise that could be nothing but the sound of breaking glassware cut of Jin’s words.

 “Ooops. Guess we found it..” Jimin said with a scared laugh.

“Is Namjoon in my kitchen? Who the hell allowed him there?”

Jin rushed outside and Jungkook followed with Jimin, both giggling as they heard profuse apologies from Namjoon and Hoseok and Jin’s shouts of “It was new!”

 

 

 

 

As days flew by, Jungkook began to realize that Jin would no longer be there if he knocked on the door three rooms away or if he got five minutes earlier to his English class. He sat behind Hoseok and Namjoon in class and spent his free time with Seoyeon and her friends who had become his friends as well. At first it had just felt like Jin was on a vacation, which is why he was missing but now he had realized that him and Jin would never be in the same class or housing again.

 The work load began to ease as May approached and the weather became even more pleasant. Luckily for Jungkook, fifth of may fell on a Friday that year meaning that they had a longer weekend than usual. Jungkook had spent a lot of time at Jin’s new house since he had first seen it. As he had told everyone several times, he couldn’t study better anywhere else.

To Jin’s surprise he had got a call from the company he had first given a through-campus interview for and was told that they would be happy to hire him. Out of all the companies he had given an interview for, this one was easily his favourite. Compared to the others, it was also the closest to his dream job.

World Tourism Affairs was a multinational company that dealt with the issues of tourists visiting places with one or more than one regional language. As Jin had explained to his friends, “We get a lot of tourists nowadays but very few of them can speak Korean and not all Korean people can speak fluent English or French or other widely used languages. World Tourism Affairs hires those people who can provide information about the country to international tourists and helps them find places to stay, to eat and to visit. They have also collaborated with famous tourism companies in different countries so as to get more tourists.”

Since Jin had a Masters degree in English his role like many others was to cater to those tourists who spoke English. Jin’s job also required him to do some field work. His role was to collect information on tourist places in the city and to create a detailed report which would have to be approved by his seniors before it was to be uploaded on the company’s website and published in their magazine.

“Hyung, this is almost like your dream job!” Jungkook had said and Jin had nodded elatedly. He wasn’t a food critic but the job would require him to test different restaurants and food places and write reviews on them in addition to his other duties.

The pay was good too so Jin’s worries about paying the rent had vanished as well. Everything was perfect..

Everything but the fact that he still hadn’t told Jungkook how he felt.

Which is why he decided to make use of the long weekend that was approaching.

“Jungkook will you be free on the fifth?” Jin asked when Jungkook answered his phone.

“Huh? Yes! I’ll have to finish one assignment in the morning but I’ll be free in the evening.” Jungkook told Jin, waving goodbye at Choi Ingook, his new friend before entering his room.

“Great! I’ll meet you at five.” Jin said and smiled to himself.

“O-okay.. See you!”

Jungkook finally had something to look forward to.

 

 

 

 

Jin had been told in the past that he was a romantic soul so he hoped that whatever he had come up with would be enough to make Jungkook happy.

Initially he had decided to take Jungkook out for dinner at a fancy restaurant but the idea had seemed too cliché for him to stick to it.

So many books spoke of fancy suits and pretty dresses and expensive bottles of champagne. Jungkook and him weren’t in a relationship like that. Awkward exchanges, too loud laughter, incorrect ideas, a lot of blushing and smiling was what described them better. If Jin was going to tell Jungkook that he loved him, he would rather do it when they’re cuddling on the couch than do it in the middle of a too-posh-to-be-affordable restaurant over a glass of sweet tasting wine.

He knew he was a kid at heart and he knew that Jungkook too had a child’s nature hidden beneath his quiet, shy exterior.

His friends had been useless so he had had to come up with it himself but a fun day at an amusement park followed by street junk food that’s definitely not good for your health seemed like a nice kind of date.

“Where are we going?” Jungkook asked excitedly the minute he spotted his boyfriend in the distance, wearing a smile.

“Nice to see you too.” Jin said sarcastically, ruffling Jungkook’s hair. “You’ll see.”

“We’re taking the subway?” Jungkook asked curiously and Jin just nodded, not giving anything away.

Naturally the closer they got the easier it became for Jungkook to guess where they were going.

“We’re going to Seoul Grand Park?!” He asked, his eyes sparkling with excitement.

“You haven’t been there before, right?” Jin asked, even though he had heard from Taehyung that Jungkook hadn’t.

“No! Wow, I’m so excited my heart is beating faster.” Jungkook said and laughed, his hand on his chest.

Jin’s heart throbbed in his chest at the smile on Jungkook’s face.

He had figured that they could go to a proper amusement park some other time. The Seoul zoo had more than enough to keep them occupied.

Jungkook’s excitement was contagious and pretty soon both found themselves chattering zealously about the different animals they were sure to see and the theme garden within.

They got several disapproving looks because of how loud they were but neither of them noticed or cared.

Once they reached the park, they bought their tickets (Jungkook teased Jin because his ticket was cheaper than Jin’s by 1000 won) and entered, consulting the map as they went. They had decided to check out the zoo first.

“Where should we go first?” Jungkook asked as they regarded the map.

“Anywhere but at the insectarium..” Jin said with a shudder and Jungkook chuckled, making the older of the two pout.

“Then should we see the flamingos first?” Jungkook asked and Jin nodded, feeling considerably relieved.

The flamingos were beautiful and Jin couldn’t stop admiring their beautiful pink feathers.

They ended up visiting the zebras and giraffes after the flamingos and then went on ahead to the ape pavilion.

“Not being disrespectful to you but you look exactly like my best friend Kim Taehyung.” Jungkook told one of the monkeys, causing Jin to burst out in hysterical laughter. “And the one on the right, he looks like Namjoon, doesn’t he? Look he even caused the rock to topple.” Jin said, making Jungkook giggle in agreement. “The gorillas over there look like Jimin hyung and Hoseok hyung when they’re arguing.” One of the two had a striking resemblance to Jimin.

The zoo had several restaurants selling various cuisines. They ate first at the Giraffe Food Square which offered different Korean food.

“How does Pork Bulgogi with rice sound?”

“Wonderful.”

They decided not to eat too much at one place but to have a little from each place.

They ate again at the Tiger Food Court, making sure to click photos of whatever they ate and even managed to eat at the Botanical Garden Food Court.

Time flew by faster than they could have expected and they had only seen half the animals in the zoo by the time the closing time arrived. They had taken the tiger road so they had been able to cover quite a few animals in two hours but plenty still remained.

Seven o’ clock had arrived too fast.  

“Hyung, can we come again?” Jungkook asked, waving one last time at the haughty lion before turning away.

“Of course. We can come whenever you want.” Jin replied and took Jungkook’s hand as they walked out.

“Then let’s come tomorrow. Or let’s just live here. I don’t want to go back to college. Jungkook said, sighing as they went.

Jin felt terrible on Jungkook’s behalf. “Let’s see the rose garden before we go!” He said, hoping to lift Jungkook’s spirits.

It was a bit of a detour but both wanted to prolong the time they spent together.

“Isn’t it absolutely beautiful?” Jin sighed and Jungkook nodded in response. “Gorgeous.” It was stunning indeed. Several people were standing where they were, clicking photos and posing happily. In comparison, the two looked morbid. 

There was also picnic area nearby and Jin wished he had thought of having a picnic earlier.

“Let’s stay the night the next time we come. There is a campsite too.” Jungkook told Jin when they sat on a bench.

Jin nodded.

It felt vaguely like a great day had come to an end but Jin still had something he had to say to Jungkook.

He opened his mouth to speak but Jungkook didn’t notice. He was still talking about the park.

“Let’s all come here and stay the night... Or should we stay tonight? Just you and me..? I don’t want to go. Do you think we could stay?” Jungkook asked, suddenly turning towards Jin.

“I-it requires prior booking.” Jin mumbled. God, how had he not noticed before this how incredible Jungkook looked today?

The tight fitting clothes Jungkook wore were going to be the death of him. Jungkook’s V-neck shirt showed ample of his pale chest too and Jin felt as if Jungkook was naked.

Don’t stare, Jin. He chastised himself mentally, almost forgetting that he was supposed to tell Jungkook how he truly felt.

Incredibly, Jungkook had not noticed Jin’s lack of attention at all and was still talking although it was no longer about the park.

“.. I don’t feel like attending English anymore. There’s nothing to look forward to. I also keep almost knocking on Yoongi hyung’s door. I actually knocked when I got my Politics marks, I had completely forgotten that you wouldn’t be there and hyung looked so sorry for me.. I really can’t not have you there, Jin hyung.. Even with Seo’s friends, I always feel lonely without you.”

It was clear that it was hard to say all this but Jungkook didn’t look like he was going to run away, like he might have earlier.

 All the distracting thoughts vanished from Jin’s head the minute he heard Jungkook’s words.

“Taehyung keeps saying that you’re not that far away.. But even if it’s 15 minutes away I can’t bring myself to come to terms with it.. What do I do?”

Jungkook was biting his lower lip and staring at Jin.

Jungkook..” Jin whispered but he found he couldn’t continue.

Jungkook had just voiced all the things Jin thought himself.

Countless times he had woken up with a smile on his face, thinking about going to his English class and seeing Jungkook_ or dropping by at his and Taehyung’s room for a good morning kiss when he had remembered that Jungkook wasn’t so close anymore.

“It’s not cold anymore but it feels cold when I keep looking around uselessly for your silhouette and you’re nowhere.. I keep waiting for the weekends so that we can meet but the weekends pass by in the blink of an eye and_ and I hate Mondays, I swear to god. I don’t feel like getting out of bed. It hurts so much.. The pillow you gave me is not enough. Having you fifteen minutes away from me is not enough.”

Jin could feel Jungkook’s pain as if they were connected by some invisible force. He was aching to reach out and hug Jungkook. To comfort him saying that he would come and meet him every day if that’s what he wanted.

Jungkook took a deep breath before he spoke again.

“Taehyung asked me what was it that I wanted and I didn’t understand it at first.. But when I’m alone with you it hits me so hard.. I..”

Another much needed pause.

“I-I think I l-love you, Jin hyung.”

A few seconds of total silence passed.

It was stupid, really that Jin’s eyes should fill with tears_ almost absurd_ but they did anyway and he laughed softly at the irony before wiping his eyes.

He had been so worried.. For no reason at all.

It was good that things worked out the way they did.

“Jungkook..” He gulped. “Shit, if I had known you would say that to me.. I.. It would have saved all the worrying I did.” Jin said and Jungkook could only stare as his heart pounded against his chest with a new kind of ferocity.

“I love you too, Jungkook.. So much that it hurts.”

If Jungkook’s blood hadn’t been charged with adrenaline, he might have fainted.

He leaned in the same time Jin did and the couple shared one of the sweetest, most meaningful kisses they had ever had.

It was a perfect kind of kiss with all the warmth one could only associate with love. Their lips moulded together like always. There were tears in their eyes which they blinked away because there was no room for tears of any kind. Both pulled away after the brief kiss and smiled at each other.

The sweetness didn’t last very long.

 

 

 

By the time they got to Jin’s place, all gentle, caring thoughts had evaporated. Even the air between them was boiling.  

It was ridiculous how fast their mouths found each other’s the minute the elevator doors shut behind them. They barely registered the opening of the elevator doors or their reaching Jin’s house. The key was shoved in the lock vehemently and the door was kicked open unceremoniously. The two young men stumbled through inside and clumsily shut the door behind them, moving as if drunk and with no sense of direction. Twice they collided with furniture as they couldn’t be bothered to turn on the lights. They fell over the newspaper stand too but they couldn’t care less.

Within seconds, Jin had caged Jungkook against the very window the others had been admiring the view from the other day and was currently in the process of undoing him with his warm lips alone.

Incoherent words and sounds spilled from Jungkook’s lips as Jin attacked his senses, his scalding lips everywhere on the exposed parts of his skin. His lips, his face, his neck, his ear lobe, and his chest_ everything was at the mercy of Jin’s persuasive mouth.

Jin found himself lauding every part of Jungkook with his mouth alone. He sucked hickeys onto his neck and collarbone, pausing only to soothe the area with his tongue before nipping at it. It felt as if they had been shoved in a human sized oven which was slowly heating them up from the inside till it was too hot to bear.

Clothes were shed like leaves during autumn and tossed away for being so restrictive.  

If either of them noticed the world outside, the traffic and the lights shining on the river below, they didn’t care.

Each time Jungkook whimpered, blood shot straight to Jin’s dick.

The lack of clothes between them made everything much more real. The passion between them was so real that all great love stories paled easily.

“J-Jungkook.” Jin stuttered out when their exposed, hardened cocks rubbed against one another, leaving them panting heavily into each other’s mouths.

“Bed-bedroom.” Was all Jungkook could say.

They made it to Jin’s room without wrecking the house any further (miraculously) and didn’t bother to shut the door behind them as they turned on the lights (somehow) and fell onto the bed. Jin didn’t notice his phone falling onto the bed or the fact that he had accidentally unlocked it while taking off his clothes.

Hell, he would have tossed it along with the clothes had he not needed it for work.

Jungkook had a lone sensible thought that the bed was unbelievably soft and light, as if he was bathing in silk before Jin was kissing him again, even more ardently. The bed seemed to swallow them up as they made out, their nails leaving marks on each other’s bare skins.  

Their tongues danced together in between before Jin pushed his tongue inside Jungkook’s mouth which was even hotter than the room. He ran his tongue over the roof of Jungkook’s mouth before it met Jungkook’s tongue again.

He couldn’t recall one time when he had felt this good.

He had already gotten on top so it became even easier to grind against Jungkook in that position. The friction and heat between them was extraordinary. All their senses were heightened so every time their unclothed skin received friction from the silk bed sheets, it caused them to moan out loud.  

Jungkook had his head thrown back and his lips parted at the wonderful sensation that he had only imagined so far.

His exposed skin was covered in sweat and flushed but enchantingly beautiful. His nipples were erect and his abdomen was embellished with his hard earned abs. The purple bruises on his skin stood out like a sore thumb.

Jin was appropriately entranced at the sight below him.

He pressed Jungkook’s hands down so he couldn’t use them before kissing and biting down on his collarbones. The anticipation building up was enough to send Jungkook over the edge. He moaned and whimpered as Jin kissed him. Jin decided to abuse Jungkook’s highly sensitive nipples next, first with his lips then with his tongue and lastly with his teeth.

“P-please.” Jungkook kept begging, almost sobbing because of how it felt. He was practically shaking and Jin knew that if he didn’t slow down, Jungkook would come. So he returned to grinding against slowly, leaving his beautiful skin for later.

He was surprised when Jungkook stopped him from grinding down by clutching his hand which was resting beside his head.

“W-what’s wrong?” He asked Jungkook, his breathing intermittent.

“I want you in my mouth.” Jungkook stated and was pleased with himself for not stuttering once.

Jin’s reaction was immediate. His skin became red as if he had caught fire and the throbbing in his cock became even more painful.

“Y-you don’t have to.” He told Jungkook, panting and feeling vaguely like a dog that had been running for too long.

Oh god, even the idea of it makes me feel crazy.

“I know I’ve never done it before but I won’t get better until I try.” Jungkook said and Jin almost groaned at the ‘This is so Jungkook’ statement.

Luckily, it was still sexy. Jin rolled them over so Jungkook was on top.

“I didn’t say it because I thought you would be bad at it. You just don’t have to, Kook_ Ah.. Fuck.” Jin cut off his admonishing when Jungkook took him into his mouth tentatively, and licked the head of his cock kittenishly.

Jungkook pushed Jin’s legs apart and settled between them, never letting go of his cock. He didn’t quite know what to make of the taste of Jin’s pre come but his soft cursing and moaning urged him on. He pulled off momentarily and licked up the underside of his cock, marvelling at how thick he was and Jin bucked up before apologizing. Jungkook shrugged it off and held Jin’s hips down, his nails indenting Jin’s beautifully tanned skin. Jin’s naked body was even better than Jungkook’s imagination and Jungkook was tempted to worship every inch of his skin.

He had meant what he had said. Sure, he was a beginner but he would be damned if he didn’t excel at it soon enough.

So he continued to suck on Jin, slowly taking more and more of him into his mouth, almost wincing when his gag reflex hit him.

Jin had to physically stop himself from bucking up again at the sensation of Jungkook’s shy but determined tongue on his cock.

He could hear himself moaning in delight as Jungkook tongued his slit. When he looked down and saw Jungkook positioned between his legs with his mouth going further and further down his dick and his cheeks hollowed, he nearly came.

“S-stop_” He begged although his mind and his dick asked him to shut the fuck up. Besides, Jungkook was gagging.

Jungkook pulled off with an obscene pop and started to protest despite having difficulty breathing.

“Some other day, Jungkook_ I don’t_ I don’t want to come just yet.” Jin explained and flipped them over again (with difficulty) before Jungkook could protest further. His cock was now slick with Jungkook’s saliva.

“Jungkook.. I need to know. Do you want this?” Jin asked, his eyes intense and piercing.  

Jungkook nodded without a moment’s pause and his heartbeat sped up as he anticipated Jin’s next move. He almost purred in delight when Jin leaned over him and grabbed lube and a condom from the bedside drawer.

“T-that day when you said.. When I realized that you wanted me as much as I wanted you, I went and bought these.” Jin explained somewhat shyly and Jungkook flushed with delight.

So while he had been assuming that Jin didn’t want to have sex with him, Jin had been making sure that they would be prepared when they did have sex.

It paid off to have an older boyfriend.

Jungkook waited for Jin to finally relieve him from the pain but the older boy just bent down and kissed him again.

“H-hyung!” He protested in between kisses but if Jin heard him he didn’t show it.

Nonetheless, kissing Jin was one of the best feelings in the world so he didn’t protest for a long time.

He was pleasantly surprised when Jin lifted his head off the bed gently and pushed a pillow underneath.

He couldn’t help the laugh that escaped him. “You’re unreal.” He said and Jin knew he was being praised.

“Shut up.” Jin mumbled, embarrassed all the same.

With that Jin uncapped the tube of lube and pressed the edge so some of the clear gel landed on his palm. He warmed it up and slicked his fingers before looking back at Jungkook below, breathing erratically and staring at him, his eyes filled with desire.

“Y-you’re sure?” He confirmed and Jungkook nodded quickly, spreading his legs further in spite of there being no need for it.

Fuck, he’s beautiful, Jin thought and had to exhale once or twice before proceeding.

He slowly inserted his index finger into Jungkook’s hole and was (not exactly) surprised at the ease at which it went through.

He almost asked Jungkook whether he had stretched himself again but stopped when he looked into Jungkook’s dark, lust filled eyes. His own cock twitched as a reminder and he gulped.

“G-go on.” Jungkook stuttered and Jin took a deep breath before pulling his finger out and reinserting it.

He couldn’t bear to hurt Jungkook so he tried to be as thorough as possible. Second finger, scissoring motion, third finger, scissoring motion.

Jungkook looked like he wanted to kill him.

He could feel Jungkook’s prostate at the tip of his middle finger. In the back of his mind he wondered if he could make Jungkook come by stimulating his prostate with his fingers alone.   

“H-hyung!” Jungkook begged. He had pre come dripping on his stomach and he looked like he would really murder him if he continued with this torture.

“Okay okay.” Jin muttered before pulling out his fingers and making Jungkook whine unintentionally.

Carefully he ripped open the packet and rolled the condom over his dick.

Some more lube and_

"Kookie, are you really ready? You know we don’t have to." Jin said for what seemed like the millionth time. 

"YES! God, yes. I would have said yes six months ago so hurry up and put your dick inside me!" Jungkook said, failing to hide the mild annoyance in his voice. 

Jin smiled a quirky, lopsided smile at the declaration (and the order) and pressed one more kiss to Jungkook's forehead before beginning to enter him. 

In that moment Jungkook could finally allow himself to show the adoration that he had hidden so skilfully (or so he thought) for so long. He could finally let his eyes shine with the depth of his feelings, his affection for the young man who was positioned on top of him, his hair a complete mess, his bare, tanned torso shining with sweat, his too-plump-to-be-real lips parted and swollen and his breathing completely erratic. 

He had never dared to look at Jin like that before, knowing that his eyes were filled with enough love to scare off anybody. 

But now he could look at Jin like that and not feel like blushing and turning away. Jin’s gaze on him was equally filled with love.  His eyes widened when he felt the new burn inside.

It was very new.

"Should I stop?" Jin asked with difficulty, albeit immediately.

Stopping sounded about impossible at the moment but he would if that's what_ 

"No, p-please. Please go on_ I can take you." Jungkook begged. "Slower." He added before Jin could give him the don't-fuck-with-me-this-is-no-time-to-pretend-to-be-strong look.

Jin smiled and continued, his eyes widening at how unbelievably constricting and tight it was.

"Oh Jungkook.." He gasped without knowing. 

Jungkook was hurting, sure, but it wasn't the bookish 'faint worthy pain'. It was a stinging kind of pain and his body wasn't used to this intrusion so it hurt a lot but he could bear it. Jin’s cock was obviously bigger than his fingers had been.

"Oh fuck." He cursed without meaning to but even as he said it the pain had begun to recede. 

Jin was losing his mind as he stared at Jungkook who was lying beneath himself, his eyes shut, his teeth clutching his lower lip and his face contorted with pain. 

“I’m sorry.” He whispered, bending slightly and pressing open mouthed kisses on Jungkook’s chest. He could taste the saltiness of his skin but it didn’t put him off in the slightest. He kissed Jungkook’s right nipple and sucked on it, pleased when Jungkook whimpered.

"Jin." Jungkook moaned suddenly, his eyes wide open and with lust clouding them. Jin pulled back to look at Jungkook and saw that he didn’t look like it hurt anymore.

Oh damn, it's so nice to hear him moan my name. Jin thought belatedly, his cock now begging for friction against the tight walls. He was fully inside Jungkook now, the head of his penis touching the semi firm erectile tissue that was Jungkook’s prostate.

"Jin, move_ move_" Jungkook begged, his hand inching towards his cock. 

Oh my god. Jin thought as he realised. 

He called me Jin, not Jin hyung. 

This was the first time Jungkook had ever addressed him like that. 

His eyes darkened and breathing quickened without him realising it. 

He bit his lip but decided against saying anything. 

Slowly, so as to not hurt him more, Jin pulled out and after a moment's pause, re-entered. “Try to_ try to hold it in.” Jin advised. Jungkook gave no indication of having heard him.

Jin repeated his actions, going faster this time.

"Shit_" Jungkook swore, his back arching and his eyes rolling to the back of his head as the stimulation increased with every thrust.

Shit, Jin agreed. It felt too good to be true. 

He repeated his actions with less care this time and for that, Jungkook was grateful. 

Jungkook looked incredible like this, sprawled naked on the bed beneath him, back arched, neck exposed fully, head pressed against the pillow Jin had placed so carefully and hands fisting in the sheets. 

Incoherent words of praise slipped past Jungkook's parted lips as Jin worked on them. 

Everything was beautiful in that moment and even the noise of the cars honking below couldn't put them off. 

"Shit, Kookie you're so tight_"

And of course he was. Jin’s cock hit Jungkook’s prostate on its way in and way out. The bed inched forward with each thrust till there were visible marks on the wall. Jungkook knew he wasn’t going to last long even though he had done his best to summon his self control after Jin’s words of advice.  

Neither of them knew how loud they were or how many words left their mouths.

Jin had already said “You’re so perfect.” Seven times but he had no clue.

“Jin hyung_” Jungkook gasped and Jin knew that Jungkook was close.

He quickened his pace even more and balanced himself on one hand while using the other to bring Jungkook to his peak. Jungkook was practically sobbing by then as he felt a prickling sensation that was pleasurable but on the verge of being painful.  

Both gasped garbled versions of each other’s names and came together, Jin came when he felt pleasure shooting through his cock, inside the condom and Jungkook came on his and Jin’s stomachs and chests.

The force of their orgasms was so powerful that both remained gasping and shuddering for some time, unable to say a thing as they lay together.

It was Jin who got up first. He placed a chaste kiss on Jungkook’s swollen lips before getting off the bed and searching for a washcloth.

As was obvious, Jungkook stayed where he was but leaned on his elbows, eyes fixed on Jin’s perfect ass as the older looked for something, presumably a cloth.

Jungkook collapsed back down and stared at the ceiling, breathing still ragged and now acutely aware of the lube between his thighs and the come splattered on his chest and stomach.

His eyes were threatening to shut when he felt something cool between his legs. His eyes fluttered open to reveal an I-just-had-sex-and-I-still-look-like-a-supermodel looking Jin tenderly wiping his thighs and his entrance. His hair was plastered to his forehead but not in an unattractive way.

“Hyung.” He hummed contentedly, a lazy smile gracing his features.

Jin didn’t look up but he smiled as well.

Jin had cleaned himself already, it seemed.

While Jin took care of him, Jungkook continued to stare at his boyfriend, who, in all his naked glory looked like the hottest Korean model to live.

Jungkook could think of a thousand times he had dreamt of this scenario and there were a billion things he wanted to say but Jin was speaking.

“Come on.” Jin said and offered his hand.

“What?” Jungkook pouted. “Why?”

“Come on.” Jin repeated with a smile and pulled Jungkook off the bed with both hands.

“I’m so tired.” Jungkook declared and Jin hummed in agreement as he dragged Jungkook outside.

“Where are we going?” Jungkook asked. He didn’t even notice the fact that all the lights were on.

It was strange how he didn’t feel self conscious at all despite being completely naked for the first time in front of his boyfriend.

Maybe it was because of how Jin had looked at him while they had made love.

Jungkook’s heart fluttered at the realisation.

They had actually made love. He could distinctly remember Jin moaning several times that Jungkook was perfect and he loved him so much.

Jungkook smiled.

Jin led him to second bedroom which Jungkook hadn’t seen more than once or twice.

This room was a lot like the other except_

Jungkook’s mouth fell open and all previous thoughts of collapsing onto a bed vanished. His heartbeat sped up further as he took in his surroundings.

“Hyung!” He heard himself exclaim. His voice almost got stuck in his throat.

“Do you like it?” Jin asked, wrapping his arms around Jungkook’s waist from behind and pressing gentle kisses to his shoulder.

The room didn’t look very much like the other room anymore.

For one, there was a queen sized bed in the middle, against a dark red wall. The bedspread, to Jungkook’s amusement was an Iron Man bedspread. There was a study table in the corner and a floor length mirror beside the room door. The only things that didn’t surprise him were the bookshelf beside the bed and the photo frames hung up on the wall. They were photos of Jin, Jungkook and photos of all of them together.

The bookshelf held only Jin’s books at the moment.

“We’ll still add more of your stuff.” Jin said matter-of-factly, squeezing tighter and turning them a bit.

Jungkook then noticed the closet on the right beside the door that led to the washroom.

“B-but_” He stuttered, not knowing what to say.

Jin pulled away and led him to the bed.

“I would prefer it if you slept beside me in that room but.. If we fight I’d rather you slept in a room that will remind you that.. That you love me.. So I made changes to this one.”

Jin looked so shy, so afraid that Jungkook’s heart turned to mush.

“Will you stay with me? It’s close to the university too! Plus it’s not cramped and.. And you liked it, right?”

Jin wanted Jungkook to stay with him? To live with him like his roommate_ his boyfriend?

“Are you afraid you will be lonely?” Jungkook teased with an eye crinkling smile.

“I’d rather wake up with you beside me than with you ten minutes away..” Jin said seriously and chewed on his lower lip, wondering what would Jungkook’s answer be.

“Wow.. I can’t even believe any of this is real.” Jungkook said and sat down on the bed, looking up at Jin.

“It-it’s okay if you don’t want to.” Jin said hastily.

“But I do. I want to stay with you.. One room away sounds even better than three rooms away.”

Jin let out the breath he had been holding and sat down beside Jungkook.

“I’m really so grateful right now.” Jin whispered, again feeling like he was going to cry tears of happiness.

God, why was he so emotional?

Jungkook turned Jin’s head so he was facing him and pressed a light kiss against his lips.

“If I wasn’t so tired right now, I’d have squealed so loudly.” Jungkook mumbled against Jin’s lips and sighed at what he considered to be the loss of his childhood.

“Right! Sleep!” Jin said with a smile and Jungkook smiled as well as he got into the covers.

“We’ll just wash those bed sheets tomorrow.” Jin said with a yawn before crawling in beside Jungkook and pulling him closer.

“Hyung.” Jungkook said.

“Hm?”

“The lights.”

“I’m your hyung!”

“But this is your house!”

Our house now, remember?”

“But I bottomed!”

“Ugh, fair point.”

Jungkook laughed as Jin got up with a grumble and turned off the lights before climbing back in and throwing the iron man bed covers over themselves.

“Kookie?” Jin said once he had snuggled up to Jungkook again.

Jungkook already knew what Jin wanted to ask and it made him smile.

“Yes. It was perfect. I’ve never felt like this.. You didn’t hurt me at all. You’re really good at it.”

Jin sighed in relief. “I’m glad. It was.. Incredible for me too.”

Since they were spooning now, Jin couldn’t see the delighted smile that appeared on Jungkook’s face before disappearing.

They both knew that they hadn’t said half the things they wanted to but they could always say them the next time.

“Can I ask you something, hyung?” Jungkook asked after a few minutes.

“Go on, Jungkookie.”

“Was..”

“Was what?

“Was Jang Kiwoon your.. First?” Jungkook asked and waited with bated breath.

Jin’s eyebrows shot up in surprise and the frown that always appeared when anyone mentioned his ex returned.

They had talked about him and Kiwoon before but Jin had never touched on how intimate they had been.

“No.. Jungkook. He wasn’t my first.”

“Oh.. Okay.”

“You were.”

What?”

“Goodnight, Kookie.”

“Uh... Goodnight, hyung.”

“Oh and Jungkook..?”

“Yeah?”

“..I might have to.. Punish you if you call me Jin again.” Jin whispered before nibbling on Jungkook’s ear.

“What?!”

Jin could only laugh in response, amused at how Jungkook had taken his joke.

It was a joke.

Really.

 

 

 

 

 

The Next Day, on Jinkook

 

Yoongi: Guys.

 

 

Chim: This group has been inactive for some time, hasn’t it? Sup, hyung?

 

 

Yoongi: Jin is asking Jungkook to move in with him.

 

 

Tae: WHAT?! IS THAT WHY HE DIDN’T COME HOME LAST NIGHT?!

 

 

Chim: No fucking way!!

 

 

Hobi: Oh and.. Soyoung and I went to Seoul zoo yesterday and we saw Jin hyung and Kookie kissing sweetly. They had come out on a date it seems. We didn’t disturb them, naturally ^_^

 

 

Joonie: GUYS!!  

 

 

Joonie: OH MY GOD. Jin hyung called me accidentally last night.  They were fucking.

 

 

Tae: WHAT??

 

 

Yoongi: What.

 

 

Hobi: Shit that escalated quickly.

 

 

Chim: Yoongi hyung, let’s ask them to make a sex tape.

 

 

Tae: My baby boy!! What happened to him?! The corrupt world has got to him!

 

 

Hobi: Weren’t you the one pestering him to seduce his way into Jin hyung’s bed?

 

 

Chim: But seriously, isn’t that too quick?!

 

 

 

Joonie: You and Yoongi hyung had sex on your third date. -_-

 

 

Hobi: Jin hyung sent me two photos..?

 

 

Hobi: One of them is captioned, “Saw Tae and Joonie at the zoo yesterday.” And the other says “Saw you (as in me) and Jiminnie arguing too.” I’ll send the photos once they download.

Hoseok sent the images.

 

 

Yoongi: Damn, it does look like you guys XD

 

 

Tae: That ungrateful brat.

 

 

Tae: A monkey?!

 

 

Joonie: We actually do look like that.. Damn. The second one looks clumsy.

 

 

Chim: Why am I a gorilla? What the hell!?

 

 

Yoongi: Don’t worry baby, gorillas are strong. :-*

 

 

Hobi: *Pukes.

 

 

Hobi: I’m deleting this group. Jinkook, my foot.

 

 

Tae: Jungkookie.. He is no more my innocent best friend. :’( Or roommate!! :(

 

 

Hobi: Oh wait, Jin hyung sent a photo of a meerkat. It’s captioned, “Unfortunately we didn’t see Yoongi at the zoo.”

 

 

Chim: AWWWW, you do remind me of meerkats!! ^_^

 

 

Yoongi: -_- Delete the damn group already.

 

 

 

 

Three years later, Jin finally got his dream job of a food critic and now worked as a journalist for a food magazine.

Jungkook graduated with flying colours (as was expected of him) and decided that he wanted to pursue his Masters from another university. His relationship with Jin became even stronger with time and the two now read each other like they read their favourite books. They even adopted a cat and named him Tony after Jungkook’s favourite Avenger. Jungkook and Jin had quite a few fights during this time period but the duo never slept apart.

They both argued that the Iron Man bed was for sleeping while the other was solely for their other bedroom activities.

Their apartment was now their home and their cat was their baby.

The walls were adorned with more photo frames as the years went by and another bookshelf had to be purchased to store all the couple’s books. With time they bought a TV, an expensive video game player and other electronic equipment which was kept well out of the reach of Namjoon. They travelled whenever they got time and added even more memories to their list.

Sometimes Jin forgot that once upon a time, he had seen Jungkook as his younger brother and had been against the idea of kissing him.

Jungkook always reminded him of that when he got jealous.

Their relationship had plenty of ups and downs like all relationships but their support and love for each other never wavered. They knew that ten years into the future, or even more, they would still be together.