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Jesse’s Elementary School Classroom - Late Friday Morning


“Times up.” He said as he pulled them apart. Matt then motioned for Sonny to sit on one of the kid’s desk while he stood by Ms. Fisher’s desk with Jesse.

Sonny furrowed his brows as he carefully contemplated his next move. He was glad he was able to prepare Jesse just in case worst came to worst, but he still hoped that this situation could end peacefully.

Matt said earlier he wasn’t interested in talking, but Sonny figured he’d try to start a conversation anyways.

“How do you know Ms. Fisher?” Sonny asked him as he wiggled around a little bit on the desk in an effort to get comfortable.

Matt stared at him, but said nothing. However, after a while he finally decided to tell him. “Lauren’s my fiancé. Or was. She broke things off.”

Sonny nodded his head slowly. “She give you a reason why?”

Matt pressed his lips together and very somberly said to him, “She said she didn’t love me anymore. We…we were college school sweethearts. I thought we’d be together forever and then she wakes up one morning and tells me that.”

Sonny eased himself off the desk. “I’m sorry. I know how it feels to be in love with someone and them not look at you in that same way.”

Matt rolled his eyes. “Oh is that so? A big hot shot lawyer like yourself? Let me see your phone.”

Sonny slowly walked over to him and handed over his cell.

Matt took his hand off Jesse’s shoulder but kept the gun directly on her and went through Sonny’s photos with his free hand and stopped when he found a photograph of him with Amanda. “Pretty sure your smoke show detective wife is looking at you like you’re a god. And you’re going to stand here and tell me you know how it feels to be in my shoes?”

He continued to look through Sonny’s phone and stopped to chuckle at an image of him, Amanda, Jesse, Billie and Frannie. “So you got another daughter AND a dog. Bet you all live in a nice fancy penthouse together too. The perfect little nuclear family. Oh the struggle…”

“You think you know me so well?” Sonny asked raising an eyebrow.

“Well we aren’t a nuclear family. Not in the traditional sense you’re assumin.’ We’re a blended one. Both girls are my stepdaughters. Jesse’s biological father is not part of her life and the younger one? Well hers writes checks, but has nothin’ to do with her otherwise.”

He paused for a moment before continuing.

“And I’m no hot shot lawyer. I’m an in debt one who’s going to be payin’ student loans for the next 10 or so years. And I bet at least half the teachers in this school make more money teachin’ than I do as an ADA. So no me and my ‘smoke show’ wife don’t live in a penthouse. More like a very small, modest apartment.”

Sonny was a little hesitant to take the conversation into this next direction, but decided to keep the honesty going and hoped it worked out for the best.

“Speakin’ of my wife…it wasn’t love at first sight for her. She wanted nothin’ to do with me when we met. We became friends eventually and it was during those early years of our friendship I realized I was in love with her. But she didn’t see me that way. It hurt, but you know what I did? Focused on my work. Spent time with family and friends. Dated. I put a smile on my face and I kept on with my life. Because that’s what you have to do.”

Matt stared at him intently as if he was processing what was being said to him but remained quiet.

“If two people are truly meant to be, they’ll find their way to each other in the end, like my wife and I did.” Sonny said to him. “But you don’t force it. You don’t confront them and try to make them love you. Look how well that turned out for you. You shot Ms. Fisher and then ended up holding a classroom of seven year olds hostage.“

He pondered what Sonny was saying to him for a minute before sirens going off loudly outside disrupted his thoughts and rattled him, much to Sonny’s dismay.

Matt set the phone down and shook his head. “But the shooting was an accident. That lieutenant…he said he was gonna work on getting me a car and making sure I don’t get charged.”

Sonny sighed as he watched him go into the recent calls on the cell and call Liv on speaker phone. He knew Matt was going to ask what the hold up was and worried that once he found out he was being lied to about it all, him and Jesse would be in a world of trouble.


Earlier Outside

Amanda, with Velasco by her side, made her way back over to Liv, Fin, and Banks.

“Can we talk for a minute?” The blonde asked her Captain. “Alone?”

Liv nodded and the guys all scattered around to different areas nearby.

“Have you heard anything new?” Amanda asked hopefully, biting her lip.

Liv sighed. “One of the parent’s said Carisi convinced Matt that he was the most important bargaining chip needed and to let the others go. Which he did except for Jesse. But we haven’t spoken to Carisi since before everyone else was let out.”

Amanda blinked backed some tears. “Jesse’s probably so scared.”

Liv put her hands on the blonde’s shoulders and stared straight into her eyes. “Carisi will do whatever it takes to ease her fears and keep her safe. Remember that.”

Amanda nodded, but then said, “I just wish he had someone in their who could do the same for him.”

Liv pulled her in for a hug. “I know.”

Just then, the Captain’s cell went off. Banks, Fin, and Velasco all hurried over to them.



‘Carisi?’ Liv asked, cautiously.

“No, it’s Matt. I want to speak with the Lieutenant.”

Liv handed Banks the phone.

‘Hey Matt. I—‘

“I let Lauren, those adults and all the kids except his out.” Matt said to him. “Now I want to know what’s going on with those charges and I want to know when I’m going to get my car!”

A clearly aggravated Amanda shook her head but bit her tongue, as did the rest of her squad as they anxiously waited to hear how Banks would respond.

‘So Matt, that’s something we’re still working on.’

Sonny, who was listening in closely, did his best not to roll his eyes.

“I’m done with the games!” Matt spat out. “Get me what I asked for!”

Sonny rubbed his temples and sighed. Meanwhile outside, Liv tried to get Banks’ attention.

‘Matt, let me put you on hold for one second, ok?’ He then put him on hold.

Matt rolled his eyes as he stood waiting for Banks to resume the conversation, but him and Sonny were surprised to hear voices on the other end of the line. They both realized Banks had mistakenly not put him on hold and the two of them could hear everything that was being said outside.

“What are you going to do?” Liv asked the lieutenant very seriously.

Banks sighed. “I’m going to keep bullshitting him until I can develop a game plan to get my guys in their and take him out without putting the counselor and Detective Rollins’ daughter in danger. Because I’m officially done waiting on the counselor to talk this guy down. He’s starting to become more and more unhinged and we need to make a move.”

Sonny’s eyes instantly widened and his heart started to pound out of his chest.

“Is that so?” Matt asked.

Banks, Liv, Amanda, Fin, and Velasco’s jaws dropped when they all realized he had been listening in.

“Well you’ve made it very clear that not only am I not getting what I asked for but that you plan on storming in here and shooting me.” Matt said calmly into the phone. “That’s fine. Just know that if I’m not making it out alive, neither are they.”

He then ended the call by momentarily stepping away from Jesse and angrily throwing the cell phone across the room. Sonny wasted no time in putting his emergency plan into action.

“Jesse, run!” Sonny yelled out to her.

Jesse did as she was told and instantly darted for the door at lightening speed.

Matt quickly pointed the gun in Jesse’s direction but before he could get a shot off, Sonny knocked it out of his hand and tackled him down to the ground and the two started to wrestle on the floor.



Moments later Banks and the squad heard a shot go off in the building.

“Move in!” Liv shouted, taking control of the operation.

A devastated looking Amanda watched on as Liv, Fin, Velasco, Banks and his officers headed toward the building to enter inside when they saw Jesse screaming as she ran out the front door and into the arms of her mother.

“Jesse!” Amanda cried out as she bent down, reached toward her daughter and hugged her tightly. “Are you okay baby?”

Jesse nodded while crying. “Sonny told me to run and to keep running until I got out so I did.”

Amanda stroked her hair and rubbed her back. “You did so good Jess.”

She then stood up, placed her arm around Jesse and then directed her attention to the front door of the school. She took in a deep breath and quietly prayed. “Please, God. Please, let him be alright.”

Amanda stood waiting for what felt like an eternity when she eventually saw a few officers making their way out the school. They motioned for the paramedics to come in, which worried her. However, a few minutes later she saw Liv and then finally Sonny, with a gash on the side of his forehead and a bloody lip, emerge.

Her and Jesse slowly headed to him and then Amanda pulled him into her arms.

When they finally broke apart she looked up at his forehead and gently touched the wound, frowning.

“It’s not as bad as it looks.” Sonny tried to reassure her. “Probably need a few stitches but I’ll be fine.”

He then directed his attention down to Jesse. “Are you okay, Jess?”

She wiped her eyes and nodded. He then picked her up into his arms and pulled Amanda in for another hug.

Just then the paramedics brought out a handcuffed Matt, who was lying on a stretcher with a gunshot wound to the leg and his left hand bandaged up. They were followed closely behind by Fin, Velasco and Banks.

“What happened in there?” She asked, looking up into his eyes.

Sonny took a deep breath, exhaled and then began to relay everything that went down in the classroom once Jesse ran out.


Earlier in the Classroom

The two wrestled with each other on the floor in an attempt to subdue the other and gain control of the gun, each getting in a few good hits.

Seeing the gun in his reach, Matt attempted to grab it, but just before he could get to it, Sonny was able to stand up. He then stomped on Matt’s hand as hard as he could, crushing it.

Sonny grabbed the gun and, as Matt came lunging at him, aimed and shot him in the leg, disabling him. Sonny then tossed the gun to the other side of the room and, hearing the cops enter the building, put him into a headlock and held him down until they came into the room.

Liv entered first, followed immediately by Fin and Velasco.

She had to pry an angry Carisi’s hands from off Matt’s neck but she eventually was able to do so and Velasco carefully, taking note of the young man’s messed up hand, handcuffed him and started reading the man his rights. He then brought him to his feet and slowly guided Matt, who was hopping on one leg, out the classroom.

“You did good Carisi.” Fin said, giving him a pat on the back. “That was one hell of a shot. You still got it.”

Sonny remained quiet, but nodded at his former sergeant and watched as he exited the room.

“I agree.” Banks said as he approached Sonny. “Nice work, Counselor.”

Sonny shook his head and stared at him angrily. “Don’t stand here and try to placate me. Your false promises are the reason this all went down the way it did. You nearly got Jesse and me killed and that’s somethin’ I won’t ever forget.”

Banks looked at Liv, who said nothing in support of him. He then quietly walked off.

“You shot to wound instead of center mass to the torso.” Liv said to him quietly. “Why?”

Sonny remained silent for a moment before finally responding. “I know what I did was risky and that I coulda missed, but…I wanted to make sure he lived. Because he deserves to pay for what he did. To Ms. Fisher, Jesse, and everyone else that was held in this room today.”

“He will.” Liv reassured him, as she gave him a pat on the back, adding. “Carisi, your actions today saved so many lives and while I know you don’t think of yourself in this way, you truly are a hero. And I’m proud of you.”

He gave her a small smile.

“Come on, let’s head out. Amanda’s here and she’s waiting for you.”



“Liv’s right.” Amanda said looking up at him. “You are a hero and the girls and I are so lucky to have you.”

She rested her head on his chest. “I’m glad you’re both safe and this is finally over.” Amanda whispered into his ear.

“So am I.” Sonny said holding on to both of his girls a little tighter. “So am I.”


Sonny and Amanda’s Apartment - Late Friday Night


After Sonny, who needed some stitches, was medically cleared and him and Jesse were questioned about the day’s events, the trio went home and tried their best to not let the traumatic event consume too much of their thoughts, though it was difficult. Especially for Jesse who, unlike Amanda and Sonny, had never experienced such a distressing, life-threatening situation before.

“Jesse asleep?” Sonny asked as Amanda pulled the covers back and slid into bed next to him.

“She is right now.” Amanda said as she ran a hand through her messy blonde hair. “But I wouldn’t be surprised if she ends up knocking on our door at some point tonight wanting to sleep with us.”

“It’s fine with me if she wants to.” Sonny said to her.

Amanda nodded. “Same.”

The bedroom filled with silence for a long while before Amanda broke it. “She keeps asking about Ms. Fisher. I really, really hope she’ll end up pulling through.”

Sonny sighed and rubbed the bridge of his nose. “Me too.” He then followed up by adding. “Jesse she’s…been through so much. I think it might be good if she sat down with a professional and talk her feelings out.”

“I agree. I’ll look into it. Maybe Dr. Hanover knows someone who would be good.”

She placed her right hand into his left. “What about you? Where’s your head at?”

Sonny lifted her hand up and kissed it. “I’ll be OK. I promise. If I’m not, I’ll let you know.”

Amanda nodded, moved a little closer to him and looked deeply and lovingly into his eyes. “Thank you. Thank you for keeping Jesse safe today.”

Sonny wrapped his arm around her. “Don’t thank me. Jesse and Billie are my daughters in all the ways that truly matter. I would do anythin’ and everythin’ to protect our kids. Always.”

“So would I.” Amanda said as she rested her head on his chest. “For all three of them.”

It took Sonny a second for what Amanda said to register in his head, but it eventually did.

His eyes softened as he whispered, “You’re…” Sonny let his voice trail off.

Amanda nodded slowly. “I’m having your baby, Dominick Carisi. Our baby.”

A shocked, but happy Sonny was left speechless. He smiled, blinked back some tears and then leaned in to kiss her.

“H-how long have you known?” He asked when he was finally able to find his words.

“I found out this morning. Before we left for the day.” Amanda said as she sniffled and grew teary eyed. “You were right when you said you thought there was something different about me. But I wanted to wait before I said anything. When we were alone and not rushing around. Then today happened and I…I was so a-afraid I wasn’t going to be able to tell you.”

Sonny rested his head on her forehead and gently caressed her cheek. “But you did tell me. Because I’m still here.”

He then placed his hand on her stomach. “And I can’t wait to meet this little nugget of ours. To raise him or her alongside Jesse and Billie and for the five of us to be one big happy family.”

Amanda smiled softly. “I can’t wait either.”

He kissed her again and pulled her in closer to him. Just then the couple heard a knock on the door.

“Come in.” Amanda said.

Jesse slowly opened up the door.

“I had a nightmare.” She told them. “Can I sleep with you tonight?”

Sonny nodded and motioned for her to join them. Jesse quickly climbed up onto the bed, slid in between them both and snuggled underneath the covers.

Everyone exchanged good nights as Amanda and Sonny both turned off their nightstand lamps and the trio attempted to get some shut eye.

About an hour later Billie joined them and though the bed felt extra small with all the extra bodies in it, no one minded. Not tonight. For the crowdedness was a nice reminder of the fact that they were safe, warm and all together.