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“There Will Be Blood”


Sonny and Amanda’s Apartment - Friday Morning


Amanda’s mouth opened wide in surprise as she looked down at the test in her hands and saw that it was positive. She knew it was very likely that she was pregnant, hence her decision to take the test in the first place, but it was still pretty shocking, and exciting, to see her suspicions had been right.

Amanda and Sonny had decided a while back that they wouldn’t actively try to have a baby together. If it happened, great. But if not, that was fine too. Because while he always saw kids in his future, it didn’t matter to him if they were biologically his or not. Sonny loved both Jesse and Billie with all his heart and enjoyed his place in their lives and helping Amanda raise them. Still, she knew he’d be excited about adding a third little one into their world. One they could raise together from the beginning.

So many thoughts began to flood Amanda’s mind, but they were soon interrupted by a knock on the bathroom door.

“Mommy are you almost done?” Billie asked from the other side of the door. “I gotta go!”

Amanda hid the positive test and box in a discreet location in a drawer on her side of the bathroom vanity. As she opened the door, Billie came running in passed her and slammed the door shut hard as soon as her mother stepped out.

Amanda shook her head and laughed as she made her way into the kitchen, where Jesse was sitting at the table eating scrambled eggs and bacon.

“You excited for today?” Amanda asked Jesse as she joined her at the table and poured herself a glass of orange juice.

Jesse took a bite of her eggs and nodded. “I can’t wait for all my friends to meet Sonny and hear about how he prosecutes the bad guys!”

Amanda locked eyes with Sonny, who stood by the stove making some eggs for his wife, and two smiled at each other.

A few minutes later he finished up and set a plate down in front of her. “Here ya go. Eggs over easy and slightly burnt bacon.”

“Just the way I like it.” Amanda said smirking. “You know me so well.”

Sonny took a sip of his coffee and eyed her curiously.

“What is it?” She asked as she bit down on a piece of bacon.

He shook his head. “There’s somethin’ different about you this morning. I can’t put my finger on what it is, but different. In a good way.”

Amanda wasn’t surprised Sonny noted there was something going on with her, even if he wasn’t quite sure what that was, though she didn’t feel as if she was acting any differently. The way he just seemed to know her intuitively, better than she knew herself, was one of the many things she loved most about him. Still, this wasn’t the time to share her baby news. Instead she’d wait until tonight, when they were alone together in bed, lying in each other’s arms. That’s when she’d do it. And the moment will be perfect.

Amanda simply shrugged. “Well I don’t feel different.”

Sonny chuckled and fixed his mouth to respond but was interrupted by Billie yelling from the bathroom.

“Mommy I need help wiping!” The four year old shouted out. “I went number two and it got stuck!”

Jesse made a face. “Gross.” She mumbled as she took a sip of her juice, while Sonny burst into laughter.

“TMI, Billie.” He yelled out. “TMI!”

“What does that mean!?” She shouted back.

“Don’t worry about it Billie. I’m coming!” Amanda shot Sonny a look, took another bite of her eggs and then stood up and headed off to the bathroom.

A few minutes later Amanda and Billie emerged from the bathroom and the two sat down and finished up their breakfast. Once everyone was done they all headed off to start the day, with Amanda dropping Billie off at preschool on her way to the precinct and Sonny and Jesse making their way to her school for Career Day.


Jesse’s Elementary School Classroom - Friday Morning


“So does anyone have questions for Jesse’s stepdad?” Her teacher, the young pretty brunette Ms. Fisher, asked her class of second graders once Sonny finished his spiel about his work as an ADA.

A little red-haired boy raised his hand and asked, “Did you really used to be a cop like Jesse said?”

Sonny nodded. “Yes, I used to work as a detective.”

“Do you you still carry a gun?” He followed up again, asking. “Do you even remember how to use it?”

Sonny was taken aback by the kid’s questions, but nevertheless answered them. “No, I don’t carry a gun. But yes, I do still know how to use one.”

A little dark haired girl, who sat directly behind Jesse, raised her hand and asked, “Jesse’s mom is a detective too, right? Is that how you met?”

Sonny sighed a bit when he realized it was another non-presentation related question, but still responded to her. “Yes, we were partners.”

“But wouldn’t dating her of been a conflict of interest?” A blonde boy way in the back shouted out. “Isn’t it even more of a conflict of interest being married to her since your an ADA now?”

Sonny’s mouth dropped in shock at the precocious student’s questions, but before he could respond Ms. Fisher decided to end the round of Q&A.

“Ok, let’s thank Sonny for coming in to talk with us.” She said clapping, mouthing ‘I’m sorry’ to him as she did for the personal turn the questions had taken.

He gave her a small smile and then took a seat next to the three other parents who were also there for Career Day.

“Next, Sarah’s mom, Lisa, is going to talk about her work as a physician’s assistant. Lisa can…”

Ms. Fisher’s voice trailed off as she noticed a figure standing in the back of the classroom by her desk staring at her. It appeared she recognized him and immediately excused herself. “I’ll be back in…o—one second.” She told her students and guest speakers.

Sonny watched as Jesse’s teacher nervously made her way over to him.

The two quietly talked amongst themselves for a few moments when Sonny noticed Ms. Fisher start to grow more and more uncomfortable and eventually she discreetly reached her hand and hit a button underneath her desk.

He quickly realized it was a panic button of some sort because as soon as she hit it lights started flashing in the hallway and an alarm went off.

“What did you do?!” The man shouted at Ms. Fisher and as he did, he started frantically waving around the gun he had been holding, one Sonny hadn’t seen until that very moment, and it inadvertently went off.

The bullet hit Ms. Fisher in her stomach, which she instantly clutched, as blood soaked her white blouse and she slowly fell to the floor.

Sonny and the rest of the adults jaws’ dropped in horror at what had just taken place before their eyes in a matter of seconds while the children cried out for their teacher. “Ms. Fisher!”

The man began to panic and anxiously and nervously pace around the room before ultimately locking the classroom door and barricading it with some of the children’s desks.

While he did, Sonny, worried about Jesse’s teacher and wanting to render first aid, slowly made his way over to her. But as soon as he reached her he felt a gun being pointed to the back of his head.

“What do you think you’re doing?” The man asked him. “No one’s doing anything and no one’s going anywhere.”


Precinct - Friday Morning


“SVU.” Velasco said as he answered his desk phone.

The young detective furrowed his brows and locked eyes with Liv and Fin, who both happened to be walking by his desk at the time. “But I…I don’t understand why we’re being called. Shouldn’t something like this be handled by the Hostage team?”

Liv eyed him curiously and motioned for him to hand her his desk phone, which he did.

“This is Captain Benson. What’s—“

Her eyes began to widen as she listened intently to what was being told to her.

“Ok.” She finally said. “I understand.” She then hung up the phone.

A curious Amanda, who had been casually observing the phone conversation from her work desk, watched as Liv whisper something to Fin, who then briefly locked eyes with Amanda before motioning to Velasco to follow him out of the squad room.

Amanda looked on as the two exited together. She then stood up and walked over to Liv. “What’s going on?”

Liv took a deep breath and sighed. “Shots were fired at Jesse’s school. In her classroom. At some point someone, maybe her teacher, hit a panic button which alerted the rest of the classes in the building of the situation and they were all able to get out, but the gunman he’s…locked and barricaded himself and Jesse’s entire class in that room.”

“WHAT?!” Amanda yelled out to her Captain, tears instantly welling up in her eyes. “Are Sonny and Jesse ok?!”

Liv sighed. “I don’t know.” She told her honestly. “I just sent Fin and Velasco to meet the local precinct, as well as the Hostage Negotiation team, at the school. I’m about to head there now.”

A devastated looking Amanda whispered out. “My God, my little girl. My husband…”

The blonde immediately reached for the set of keys to a squad car that rested on her desk, grabbed her coat, ran toward the elevators and entered inside.

Liv chased after her. “Amanda, you can’t…”

The Captain let her voice trail off as the elevator doors closed in her face.