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Amanda and Sonny’s Apartment - Saturday Afternoon


Liv, Kat and Phoebe stood in the living room quietly observing as Amanda’s mother struggled to zip her daughter into her wedding dress.

“Jesus, Amanda.” Beth Anne huffed, as she let go of the zipper and crossed her arms in frustration. “This fit you perfect at your last fitting. What’ve you been shoving your face with these past two weeks?”

Amanda rolled her eyes. “I’ll get it zipped. Can you please help Sienna with the girls and make sure they’re all set?”

Her mother sighed, but nodded and headed down the hall toward Jesse and Billie’s bedroom.

Phoebe walked up to Amanda. “Let me try.” She gently attempted to zip up the dress and then, when that failed, put a bit more muscle into it, but like Beth Anne couldn’t get it.

A now very embarrassed Amanda’s face started to turn red. She found her gaze briefly lock with Liv’s, who eyed her a bit curiously but remained quiet.

Kat approached the blonde. “Take in a deep breath and I’m going to zip ya in on three, ok?”

Amanda nodded.

Kat furrowed her brows. “One, two—“

On two Kat quickly zipped the zipper up, catching Amanda off guard. However, her little trick seemed to work and she was able to fully zip the bride to be into her gown.

“You can breathe, right?” A concerned looking Liv asked her. “It’s not too tight?”

Amanda shook her head. “It’s fine. I’m good.” She turned her attention to the younger brunette. “Thanks, Kat.”

Amanda then bit her lip and asked the trio of ladies before her. “So what do you think?”

Liv, Kat and Phoebe stood admiring a fully made up Amanda in her wedding dress, with her light blonde hair pulled back into a low updo.

“Stunning.” Liv said smiling brightly. “Absolutely stunning.”

“You sure are.” Phoebe agreed.

“Carisi’s going to lose it when he sees you.” Kat said grinning.

She then headed toward the tote bag she had left on the floor in the kitchen and pulled out a bottle of champagne. “Ok time for a toast. Rollins, where do you keep your glasses?”

Amanda waved her hand. “Kat, the girls are right down the hall.”

Kat rolled her eyes as she looked around the cabinets. “We’re not getting wasted. Just a little congratulatory sip.” She quickly located the glasses, and poured a small amount of champagne into four of them. She then handed one to each of the ladies.

“Rollins...” Kat began as she raised her glass in the air. “We’re all really happy that you and Carisi FINALLY managed to get your shit together after seven plus years of will you or won’t you.”

Liv and Phoebe laughed, while Amanda playfully rolled her eyes, but smiled.

“But seriously, you are two of the best people I know. I hope you enjoy this moment. Enjoy this day. And enjoy living happily ever after.”

The four ladies smiled and clanked their glasses together. Kat, Liv, Phoebe and Amanda each brought their glasses to their mouths for a small sip, but just before the champagne reached her lips, Amanda subtly pulled the glass back and set it down on one of the living room end tables.

“I’ll be right back.” She told the women.

Amanda quickly made her way to go look in on Jesse and Billie, who were both adorably dressed in matching light pink dresses with their hair neatly put together in identical blonde fishtail braids.

Amanda looked down at her daughters. “You both look so beautiful!” She exclaimed as she bent down and gave them each a hug.

“So do you mom.” Jesse said smiling.

“You look just like Elsa!” Billie followed up as she stared at her mother in awe.

Amanda grinned and fixed her lips to respond before being interrupted by Beth Anne.

“Amanda, you forgot to put on your necklace.” Her mother reminded her. “It’s on your dresser in your room.”

She nodded then turned her attention back to the girls. “Try not to touch your hair or get your dresses wrinkled, ok? “

Both Jesse and Billie nodded and then made their way over to Sienna who was waiting by their beds with a bottle of pink nail polish to paint the girls’ nails with.

Amanda then exited their bedroom and headed into her own to retrieve her necklace. As she sat down at her vanity to put it on, she heard a knock on the door.

“Come in.”

Liv slowly entered and closed the door behind her.

“Wow that’s a pretty necklace.” She remarked as she made her way over to her detective and helped her put it on.

“It was my grandma’s. My ‘something old.’”

Liv nodded. “So have you told Carisi yet?”She asked as she clasped the necklace together and straightened it out.

“Told him what?” Amanda coyly asked.

Liv raised an eyebrow at her.

The blonde sighed and then smiled softly. “Is it that obvious?”

Her captain chuckled. “To your mom and Kat? No. Pretty sure Phoebe caught your little drink trick like I did and might be wondering, but she didn’t say anything to me about it.”

Amanda nodded and stood up. “I haven’t told him yet. Sonny’s always surprising me with things so I came up with a special way to tell him I’m pregnant on our honeymoon. Trying to keep it under wraps until then.”

Liv grinned and pulled her in for a gentle hug, being sure not to mess up her makeup or hair in the process. “I’m so happy for you guys. I know this was something you both were hoping for in the near future and while it might be a little sooner than you were planning, I’m glad its happening for you two.”

Amanda gave her captain a small smile. “Thanks, Liv. I’m really excited about it and I know he’s going to be too.”

“And your secret is safe with me.” Liv tried to reassure her, adding, “I’ll try to make sure Kat doesn’t shove any more alcohol at you.”

Amanda laughed. “That’d be great.”

The two then made headed out, with Liv making her way to the living room with the rest of the ladies and Amanda going back to Jesse and Billie’s room to finish getting them ready for the big day.


Staten Island

Amanda and Sonny’s Wedding - Early Saturday Evening


The ceremony, set in an outdoor pavilion near a makeshift lake in the middle of a flourishing garden, was about to begin. Both Sonny and Amanda’s family and friends were all in their seats and an excited Sonny stood at the alter next to the officiant, ready for his bride to walk down the aisle.

But when the music started their was no Amanda in sight.

Sonny nervously locked eyes with Liv, who sat close by near the front, then with Jim Rollins who shrugged at him as he stood waiting by the old, vintage style reception hall that Amanda was supposed to be coming out of.

Beth Anne, who was seated in the front row with Jesse and Billie on each side of her, started to get up to go see what was keeping Amanda, but Liv, who was sitting directly behind her, quietly told her she’d go check and got up from her chair.

The captain brushed passed Jim and headed inside toward the room she knew Amanda had been inside waiting in.

Liv walked in and found the blonde sitting in a chair with her eyes closed, rubbing her temples.

“What’s wrong?” She asked as she approached her, looking concerned.

“I can’t go out there.”

Liv’s eyes widened. “What do you mean you can’t go out there?”

Amanda opened her eyes and sighed. “I mean, if I go out there right now there’s an 90% chance I’m gonna blow chunks all over him.”

Liv made a face. “Morning sickness?”

Amanda nodded. “I don’t know who’s bright idea it was to call it that, because I’m pretty sure I’ve never ever been hit with it in the morning.”

“I’ll be right back.” Liv said as she briefly left the room to go to a drink machine she had passed on her way into the room. She pulled out some money from her purse, selected a ginger ale, and then headed back to the room.

“Drink some of this.” Her captain said as she handed her the bottle. “And keep taking deep breaths. It should pass.”

Amanda took a few sips of the ginger ale and then breathed in and out deeply. She drank a little bit more from the bottle and then sat silently for another couple of minutes before looking up at Liv. “I think I’m good.” She set the bottle down on a nearby table and got up from her seat.

Liv nodded. “Ok. I’m gonna go let them know we can start.”

Amanda reached her hand out, grabbed Liv’s and gave it a light squeeze. “Thank you.”

Liv smiled softly and then quickly exited the room and out the building. She let Jim know Amanda was ready and on her way back to her seat gave Sonny a thumbs up to let him know everything was ok and the ceremony could begin.

A very anxious looking Sonny sighed in relief and then motioned to the musicians to let them know they could start playing the wedding march again.

This time Amanda came out right on cue. She smiled at Sonny, who was staring out at her in awe, as she grabbed a hold of her dad’s arm and walked down the aisle toward him.

When they reached the altar, Jim gave Sonny a pat on the back. He then took his seat in the front next to Jesse.

“Sorry I’m late.” Amanda whispered to her fiancé.

“You’re worth the wait, Manda.” Sonny quietly told her as he scanned her up and down. “My God, you look so beautiful.”

“You don’t look too shabby yourself.” She said, giving him a small smirk and wink.

Just then, the officiant leaned in and whispered to them. “Are you ready?”

The couple, keeping their gaze fixated on each other, quietly nodded.

“Ladies and gentlemen, we are gathered here today to celebrate the union of Dominick Carisi Jr and Amanda Rollins…”


“Do you Dominick take Amanda to be your lawfully wedded wife? To have and to hold. To love and to cherish. From this day forward. For as long as you both shall live?”

“I do.” Sonny said through a big grin and then slowly placed Amanda’s ring on her left ring finger.

The officiant then looked over at Amanda.

“Do you Amanda take Dominick to be your lawfully wedded husband? To have and to hold. To love and to cherish. From this day forward. For as long as you both shall live?”

Amanda vigorously nodded and smiled. “I do.” She then slid the silver wedding band onto his left ringer.

“By the power invested in me by the State of New York, I now pronounce you husband and wife.”

He then turned to Sonny. “You may kiss your bride.”

Sonny stepped in closer to Amanda, placed his hands on her hips, leaned in and brought his lips to hers for a kiss and everyone stood up and applauded.

When the couple finally parted, Jesse and Billie ran up to the altar. Amanda pulled Jesse in for a side hug while Sonny scooped a giggly Billie up into his arms.

“I’m so glad you’re finally married!” Jesse told the couple.

“Me too.” Billie chimed in. She then rested her head on Sonny’s shoulder and asked him. “Is it time to eat now? I’m hungry.”

Jesse rolled her eyes at her little sister. “You’re always hungry.”

Sonny chuckled as he shifted Billie to his left hip and told the little girl, “Yes. Time to eat. Let’s go on inside.”

He then took Amanda’s left hand into his right and the foursome, along with the wedding guests, made their way inside to the venue’s reception hall.


Amanda and Sonny’s Cocktail Hour/Reception - Saturday Evening


“Girls all set?” Sonny, who was sitting at their table, asked as she headed toward him.

Amanda nodded. “Yes. Sienna’s got them, Mason, and Bella’s kids all set up in their little room. I’m so glad we have her help. She’s been such a lifesaver.”

“She has.” Sonny agreed. He then got up from his chair. “Alright, let’s go take advantage of this open bar that my parents insisted they pay for.” He said laughing.

Amanda cringed internally, but feigned a smile. “Ok.”

Just then, the couple was approached by Fin and Phoebe, who each had two drinks in hand.

“Congratulations, you two.” Phoebe told the twosome. “The ceremony was beautiful.”

“Almost as nice as our non-wedding.” Fin added in, smirking. He then handed Sonny one of the glasses he was holding. “Bar is already crowded so we grabbed you both drinks.”

Sonny raised his glass to Fin. “It’s where we were headed so thanks for savin’ us from the line.”

While Fin and Sonny chatted, Phoebe handed Amanda the second glass and subtly mouthed to her that it was non-alcoholic.

The blonde gave her a small, appreciative smile and accepted it and the two joined in the on conversation their significant others were having together, though Amanda was only halfheartedly engaging. While she was grateful for Phoebe in that moment, she was starting to find the process of keeping her secret daunting.


Once dinner ended up rolling around and Sonny gave her a peculiar look after she swapped out the mercury filled fish entree she had pleaded to be put on the menu, Amanda was ready to throw in the towel.

“I’m just going to tell him.” Amanda whispered quietly to Liv as the two stood watching Sonny fast dance with Jesse, who had, with permission, left the kids area to boogie for a bit.

“Really?” Liv asked, though she didn’t seem all that surprised when she did.

“Between my dress issues earlier today and then again a few minutes ago, feelin nauseous, dodging drinks. I’m over it. It’s time. Besides, a third of these guests are detectives. Someone’s bound to put two to two together like you and Phoebe did and blow up my spot. The last thing I want is for Sonny to hear about the baby from someone else.”

Liv nodded. “I know you had a more elaborate reveal planned in a couple days, but doing it tonight, here, at your wedding is special too. Even if years down the road Carisi forgets some of the little details about how you told him—though knowing him he won’t—he’ll never forget how he felt in that very moment and that’s what really matters.”

“You’re right.” Amanda said as she continued to watch her husband and daughter dance together.

Just then the music slowed down and the lights dimmed. Amanda excused herself and headed toward the floor.

“Mind if I cut in?” She asked Jesse as she gently placed a hand on her little girl’s shoulder.

Jesse shook her head no as she stepped away and stood over by Liv.

“There you are.” Sonny said as he placed his hands around Amanda’s waist and pulled her in close to him.

She remained quiet, but smiled softly as she wrapped her arms around his shoulders and the two swayed together to the music playing in the background.

About halfway through the song Amanda guided them to a secluded corner of the dance floor where there wasn’t a soul in sight.

“There’s something I want you to know.” She said as she took in a deep breath and exhaled slowly.

“What is it?”

Amanda stood pondering for a bit before speaking again. “How does that old bridal rhyme go?”

“Something borrowed…” She then gestured to the diamond earrings she was wearing that Beth Anne had lent her.

“Something blue…” Amanda held up her right hand and showed off the blue sapphire ring on her pointer finger.

Sonny started to eye her curiously, but said nothing and let her continue on.

“Something old…” The blonde gently lifted up her grandmother’s necklace.

Amanda then took both of her hands, placed them over her husband’s, and then slowly moved them from her hips to her midsection. “Something new.”

Sonny stood looking a bit perplexed for a few seconds before it quickly registered in his brain what she meant. His eyes grew large and his mouth opened wide. “We’re gonna have a baby?”

Amanda nodded, smiled, and nervously bit her lip.

Even though no one was around he brought Amanda out of the room and into the empty hallway. He then pulled her in for a kiss, lifted her up into his arms and twirled her around once.

“I can’t believe you’re pregnant.” A shocked, but excited, Sonny said to her. “When did you find out?”

“Early last week.” Amanda confessed, quickly adding. “I had a really cool way I wanted to tell you on our honeymoon so I was trying to wait until then and I had been doing a good job keeping it a secret up until today.”

“How do you mean?” Sonny asked curiously. “What happened today?”

“What didn’t happen?” She said as she leaned up against the wall. “I’m only 8 weeks. Still too early to even be telling people yet, but I’ve already started gaining baby weight and I could barely fit into my dress. Then I had Kat trying to shove champagne at me. Got super nauseous right as I’m supposed to be walking down the aisle and—“

“So that’s what the issue was.” Sonny interrupted. He then gave her a sympathetic smile. “Oh honey, I’m sorry.”

“Sorry for what? Knocking me up BEFORE the wedding instead of after like the plan?” She asked laughing.

Sonny threw his hands up. “Hey you can’t blame me for what the universe decided.”

Amanda raised an eyebrow. “Oh the universe? So it was the universe that chose not to pull—“

“Alright, alright.” Sonny said cutting her off as he leaned up next to her on the wall. “What I was trying to say is that I’m sorry you’ve been silently dealing with all these things and I really hope it didn’t put too much of a damper onto today.”

Amanda intertwined her hands with his. “It didn’t.” She reassured him. “Despite the tiny hiccups, today was still the best day ever.”

He nodded and smiled.

“And I wasn’t exactly alone with all this.” She admitted to him. “Liv and Phoebe figured it out. That’s another reason I thought I should tell you now. Considering we have a bunch of super sleuths as our wedding guests.”

Sonny began connecting more dots together. “So that drink she gave you—“

“Sparkling grape juice.”

He nodded and chuckled softly.

The two stood together quietly for a bit longer before Sonny broke the silence. “I still can’t believe it. I get to be ‘Papa’ to three. THREE. We’re going to be outnumbered, Manda.”

Amanda laughed. “I know. Are you ready for it?”

Sonny grinned and caressed her cheek with his free hand. “Ready.”

The two kissed again and then Amanda motioned her head toward the door. “We’ve been gone a while. We better get back in there.”

As the two made their way back inside the main room they noticed Velasco walking towards them with three double shots in hand.

“Oh no.” Amanda muttered underneath her breath.

“Congrats, guys.” Velasco said as he attempted to hand them each one of the shots. The couple tried to politely decline, but he still managed to shove them into their hands anyways.

“Come on. I actually had to buy these tequila shots. They weren’t part of your open bar. Anyways, it’s my way of saying congratulations…”

He then turned his attention to Amanda. “And to thank you for not uninviting me over what happened with the Fletcher case because I know you’re still super pissed at me about it.”

Amanda pressed her lips together as she tried to not think about the work mishap, caused by Velasco’s inexperience, that almost got her in hot water with McGrath. “Uh huh.”

Velasco fixed his mouth to speak when he was interrupted by a loud boom. He turned his head to see what it was and when he did Amanda quietly nudged Sonny in the arm and held her shot up to him. He sighed, but grabbed it and took the shot. He winced and then handed the empty glass back to her just as Velasco turned back toward them.

“So it looks like you decided to accept my proverbial olive branch.” He said smiling.

She nodded. “We’re good.”

Velasco raised his glass at Carisi and the two both downed the shots in their hands. He then excused himself and went back to mingling with some other guests.

“You alright?” She asked him. “I know how much you hate tequila.”

Sonny made a face. “How’s that one rhyme go?” He asked, jokingly parroting back to Amanda’s words earlier. “One tequila, two tequila, three tequila, floor. Well the floor’s where I’m gonna be headed if I have to down one more sip of anythin’ else tonight. You might be eating for two, but I definitely can’t drink for two.” He said chuckling softly.

“Eating for two?!”

Both Amanda and Sonny simultaneously cringed and turned their heads to see Kat standing before them.

“You miss heard.” Sonny lied as he and Amanda started walking away in an effort to escape from Kat and the questions they knew were coming.

“I did not. Amanda’s pregnant.” Kat said to them quietly as she followed closely behind the duo. “Hey, I got dibs on godmother. Liv’s already done it twice anyways.”

The couple stopped and raised an eyebrow at her.

“Dibs?” Amanda laughed out.

“Kat, what are you? 12?” Sonny followed up.

“So I’m guessing by your responses I have a reason to call dibs?”

Amanda and Sonny playfully rolled their eyes and smiled, but remained tight lip.

Kat gave them both a smirk and gestured toward the speakers. “I’ll leave it alone for now, because this is my jam but I plan on finding you two later to finish this conversation.” She then made her way to the dance floor.

Once Kat was out of sight, the two shook their heads and laughed. They then headed over to a quiet, empty corner on the other side of the room.

“What a night it’s been.” Amanda said to him. “And it’s still so early.”

“I know.” Sonny said as he rubbed his temples.

“Starting to feel a buzz?” She asked.

“Oh yeah.” He admitted.

“Well baby and I appreciate you helping us out with that one.” Amanda joked.

“Anything for baby.” Sonny said as he discreetly placed his hand on her stomach. “And anything for my baby’s mama.”

Amanda raised an eyebrow and hit him lightly in the chest. “I might’ve been just your baby mama this morning, but I’m much more than that now.” She playfully reminded him.

Sonny grinned and nodded. “That you are. You’re Mrs. Carisi. My wife. God, I love the way that sounds.”

“Me too.” She said as she rested her head on his chest. “Me too.”