Today has been exhausting and I haven’t even gotten married to Baz yet.
Penelope is taking me suit shopping, and I know this is for my wedding and all, but I hate shopping for clothes.
“Penelope, I have a problem.”
“If you’re about to tell me you don’t want to get married, I’m gonna spell you silent.”
“It’s not that. I didn’t write my vows yesterday.”
“What?!” She peeks her head out from between the racks and glares at me. “Why not?” She practically hisses.
“I was never good at writing my own essays back at Watford. And every time I cast a spell, it would work a little too well.”
“Well, that was only because you had all this magic flowing in you.”
“I just didn’t know what to say.” (Except I did know what I wanted to say. I just didn’t know how to translate it onto paper)
“Just speak from the heart.” She pulls a light blue suit from the racks and holds it up to me. “Yes.”
“I can’t believe you’re getting married. To Baz of all people.” Penelope says, helping me into the suit.
“What, did you think we were gonna break up?” I say, buttoning up my shirt.
“No. I knew you guys were gonna be together forever, it’s just wild. Marriage. Simon.”
“I know.” I’m smiling.
“It’s a whole new take on his love for you.”
“And you were so quick to agree.”
“I know what I want Penny.”
I do. I want Baz.
I hear the tune of that ridiculous “Here Comes the Bride” song as Penelope and I walk down. I look to see everyone who’s here. Just Baz’s family and his friends. I guess they’ll be my family now.
Because I’ll be married to him.
I look to see Baz and I almost stop walking because Crowley, he’s so bloody gorgeous in his suit (Is that Velvet? Of course he would wear velvet. Such a showoff.)
Penelope finally finishes walking us down. She whispers “I love you so much in my ear”, gives Baz a hug, and runs to be next to Agatha.
“Everyone may sit down.” Shepard says. Everyone does and I take Baz in.
I’m surprised there’s no gel in his hair. I’m no obsessed, I like when it’s waving freely. Now that it’s gotten a little longer, it’s wavy. I know my hair is a mess. Baz must know it too because he pushes a curl away from my forehead. I hum contently. I love when he touches me. I’ll get to touch him forever now.
“I know that this is a little nontraditional for a wedding, but are we surprised when Baz is a vampire and Simon has wings?” Everyone laughs. I didn’t know Shepard was this funny. “I’m gonna skip all the coming together nonsense and just let the love from these two speak for themselves. Baz, you can now say your vows.”
He does, and it’s the most beautiful combination of words he’s ever said to me. I let the tears fall from my face because I don’t care anymore. I’m really getting married to Baz, and it’s gonna be glorious.
“Simon, your vows?”
“How can I follow that?” I say. Everyone laughs. I tuck a piece of hair behind Baz’s ear. He kisses my palm before I go back to holding his hand.
Here it goes.
I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
“Baz, I literally went from wanting to kill you to stopping you from killing yourself.” I start. People laugh. Great. I’ll take a comedic route.
But you came around
“When I kissed you, it was more than to just stop you from hurting yourself. It was to let something go inside of me too. I realize now that the years I spent following you, obsessing over you, was more than just me thinking you were going to kill me. It was because I was infatuated with you.”
And you knocked me off the ground from the start
“You were always catching me by surprise. Whether they were good or bad. I just can’t believe that you want to marry a bumbling bloke like me.
You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
“It’s hard to believe. It still is. Even when we’re about to get married in 3 minutes. I think you would have an easier life not loving me. Every time you hold me, I think it’s easier for you to let go.
You put your arms around me and I'm home
“But, every time you hold me, I’m home. You’re my home, Baz.”
How many times will let you me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown
“You talk me through my problems, you assure me that I’m not crazy. Even when I’ve told you that I’m not fit to be your boyfriend, you shut me up, because lets be real here, you know what’s best for our relationship better than I do.” He laughs quietly. I smile at him.
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
“You put up with my shit. You helped me with one of my most depressive episodes. You’ve caught me when I’m slipping away. You’re my anchor.”
And I can't find a reason to be loved
“I used to think I was unloveable. With my upbringing, it’s kind of hard to believe that someone would willingly want me.”
I never wanna leave you
“I feel like I’m selfish for wanting you. But if that makes me selfish, then I don’t care. Because I want you. And only you.”
I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'till you put your arms around me
“I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you. I was reluctant after a while when we were dating, maybe I thought it would be easier for you to leave if I never opened up, but I knew deep down that wasn’t true. You’re stuck with me Baz.” He’s smiling at me. "Forever. Because I love you."
You put your arms around me and I'm home
I feel like I’m drunk when Shepard finally asks “Tyrannus Basilton Grimm Pitch, do you take Simon Snow to be your lawfully wedded husband?”
“Absolutely. I do.”
“And do you Simon Snow, take Tyrannus Basilton Grimm Pitch to be your lawfully wedded husband.”
“Yes. Yes. I do.”
“You may now kiss each other.”
I grab Simon’s face and I don’t care if I’m being a little forceful. We just got bloody married.
Baz is kissing me like how he does at home. With aggression, with passion, with love.
Would it be weird if we just started full-on making out in front of everyone?
I guess it would. We'll save that for our honeymoon.
I pull away, and we’re both breathing heavy.
“You look, absolutely devourable in that suit.” I say to him. He smiles.
“I could say the same about you, hubby.” He laughs, knocking our foreheads together.
Everyone cheers around us and Dev changes the music to something upbeat. They all make their way to the dance floor, but I feel like I’m attached to Baz with glue right now.
“Do you regret this?”
“No. Not one bit.” He says to me. I smile, kissing his cheek.
“Good. Me either.”
I kiss him again. I kiss my husband.
Baz and Simon