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Izuku Midoriya hid things from people. Just so they didn't worry about him, because he thought it was selfish to 'burden' other people with your problems. Not the best way to think. Heck, most of his class knew hardly anything about him. Izuku strived to be the 'happy sunshine boy', and played the part well.

No one in his class knew about the quirklessness, only Bakugo and the faculty knew about his absent father, no one but Bakugo of course knew about the past bullying, and absolutely no one knew about his YouTube channel. Oh Nezu, if they knew about that..

....

....

.......

That's a nightmare Izuku didn't even want to think about.

The greenette might be self-deprecating, but he took pride in his channel. He sung songs he wrote, or maybe covers of songs, and did vlogs and challenges. He did gaming too, and was really proud of the 6.8 million people that subscribed to him. If anyone in his class HAD to know about his channel, he would rather is be someone who respected boundaries, like Kouda, Tokoyami or Shouji. Possibly Jirou. His fellow emos.

Oh right.

No one knows that Izuku is emo.

And the worst secret he kept, the one that stopped him from sharing his feelings with people. The fact he had been raped a couple times by adults and people he trusted, and only used for sex in his past relationships. Once the person was satisfied making his life hell, they would break his heart and practically throw salt in the wounds. Izuku vowed to never tell another person that he liked them, or go on dates with people, because he knew he had a good body, the past experiences reminding him of that. He knew his body is the only thing people wanted.

Ha.

Haha.

Izuku was having a pretty bad day. He had accidentally dropped one of his weights on his foot and dear NEZU that hurt. He had missed breakfast and a general education student had the bright idea to throw water balloons at him, so now Izuku was soaking wet and late for class.

Shouta Aizawa was watching his students and wondered where his resident problem child was. Iida said that the teen wasn't sick or anything. His thoughts were interrupted when the classroom door slid open, and a soaking wet Izuku Midoriya walked in. Bakugo snorted and laughed. "Damn-" "Don't say a word." Izuku glared death at the explosive teen and sat down. Aizawa wanted to laugh but also didn't want to get on angry Izuku's bad side. This was probably the first time he ever showed any other expression other than nervousness or happiness. "Midoriya, go change into your gym uniform, I don't need you getting sick from sitting in that soaked outfit." Aizawa said, looking at the waterlogged boy. "T-thank you Aizawa-Sensei." Midoriya quickly bowed and went to his locker to change.

Izuku came back in a few minutes trying to brush his untameable bush of hair. He had been fooling with it after finishing his worksheet. Aizawa was watching with delight as the teen was struggling get the brush through his hair. Izuku scowled when the brush wouldn't move and got stuck, and just gave up. Yaoyorozu held in her laughter and tossed a comb and a bottle of detangler she made at the greenette, who looked at her thankfully and began trying to fiddle with it again.

Three bottles of detangler later his hair was ever so slightly combed out and people had begun making bets to see how long it would take to get it done.

"HA I won. Give me your money, fools." Jirou said. She had bet that it would take three bottles and rightfully won. Aizawa grumbled and gave her some money too. He thought it would take at least 5. Izuku was embarrassed but didn't say a word, and just nervously chuckled. The lunch bell rang, and they all headed to the cafeteria. A group of general education students looked at Midoriya and laughed.

"Greenie! How was the shower we gave you?" One of them yelled. Midoriya glanced back. "Aha, took 3 whole bottles of detangler to fix my hair..." The group busted out laughing and Uraraka glared at them. "They did that to you?" Midoriya nodded. "B-but it's fine, I'm over it." He answered. Tsu shrugged.

Hero class rolled around and All Might thought it would be smart to pair up Midoriya and Bakugo. Like, haven't the past experiences taught you anything my guy?

"So, young heroes, today's lesson is all about constructive criticism. You will be giving your partner advice on how to better use their quirk, fix fighting stances, etc." Noodlehead McGee said. Midoriya internally face palmed and threw himself off a cliff. There was no way in hell that Kacchan would take constructive criticism. "Cementoss has created pillars for you all to stand on with your partner."

"S-so...uh...K-kacchan.." Midoriya stuttered to his former best friend. "Shut up Deku, I don't need your advice so if you could make yourself fucking useful for once and hop off the pillar that would be nice." Bakugo immediately responded. Midoriya gulped. They were on the highest pillar in the room....which of course, another suicide baiting. "K-kacchan, we both need to give each other help for this exercise." Bakugo scoffed. "Okay then, you want help? You're a useless human being that just get pros and so many people hurt, and even an invaluable pro hero killed, while trying to save one person. That sure is hero-like." Midoriya hadn't killed Nighteye..He knew what he was getting into the moment they planned for that rescue. "Let's see, you always get into people's business and fuck everything up. Shall I go on? Is this enough? So you can get your stupid grade?" Bakugo mocked. He was loud enough for everyone to hear in the room, and had an audience staring at them. Midoriya was pissed. "For your fucking information, I never got Nighteye killed. Overhaul was an overly powerful person and everyone in that rescue KNEW what they were getting in to. Not my fault. And you know what isn't hero like, Bakugo? Suicide baiting someone and bullying them for over a fucking decade and misinterpreting the kanji in their name, to form the beautiful nickname Deku. You also know what isn't heroic? Making fun of that person because they didn't get a freaking quirk. And making sure every single person knew so they didn't have a friend until HIGH SCHOOL. HIGH SCHOOL BAKUGO. CAN'T FORGET THAT EVERY RELATIONSHIP I WAS IN, YOU TOLD THE PERSON TO JUST PLAY WITH MY HEART. I NEEDED A FRIEND, I NEEDED SOMETHING BUT I DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING. AND IT'S NOT LIKE YOU CAN GO OUT IN THE STREET AND TALK TO PEOPLE. REMEMBER WHEN I WAS GONE FOR A WEEK? I WAS RAPED. A GUY DECIDED IT WOULD BE FUN TO MESS WITH ME. I WAS SO FUCKING ALONE, AND THAT WAS YOUR FAULT. SO SURE, YOU'RE THE PERFECT HERO. YOU'LL BE THE PERFECT NUMBER ONE WHILE TREATING EVERYONE THAT ONLY EVER CARED FOR YOU LIKE SHIT. AND DESPITE ALL OF THAT, ALL OF THE SHIT YOU DID TO ME, I'M ALWAYS WILLING TO SAVE YOUR UNGRATEFUL ASS." Midoriya screamed. The class stared in shock. Raped? Suicide baiting? No quirk?

Bakugo glared and punched Midoriya in the face, almost causing him to fall off the side. Midoriya yelped in surprise, and glared at the explosive teen. One for All was activated and Midoriya did the famous right hook and slammed Bakugo in the face. He gave him the middle finger and wiped the stray tears from his eyes, before running out of the gym with his quirk.

Bakugo stood up and winced, that damn nerd broke his nose. All Might and Aizawa were giving the teen death glares, along with th rest of the class.

Midoriya ran back to the dorms, not caring if he got in trouble or not. He just wanted to sit in his room and bawl, maybe play video games with his online friends. He slowed down once he was getting closer to the dorms, and walked past two people of 1-B. Kendo looked at him with concern. "Hey, Midoriya right? Are you okay?" Even Monoma looked concerned for him. Midoriya was never rude to 1-B, and never bragged about it. Monoma kinda liked the guy. (as a friend) Midoriya looked back at her, tears pooling in his eyes. "Y-yeah, fuck it, no. I just want to go b-back to my dorm and die." Monoma snorted. "Big mood. But does this have anything to do with that explosive pomeranian?" Midoriya nodded. "I m-may or may not have called him out on the stuff he d-did to me when we were younger. Didn't go so well.." Kendo scowled. Monoma looked pissed. "C'mon Neito, let's go suckerpunch a mutt with a superiority complex." Monoma nodded his head and handed Midoriya a piece of paper with his phone number on it. "Once we're done, I'm adding you to the 1-B group chat and we're going to play Animal Crossing and Minecraft." Midoriya gave a watery smile. "M-make sure to record you punching him and send it to me." Kendo and Monoma chuckled and gave him a hug.

Midoriya went back to his dorm room and flopped on his black comforter. He got on his phone and watched Zootopia before his phone dinged and it showed a discord ping in his server.

@zuzupet, when is the next video coming?

zuzupet: uhhh lol gimme a few minutes, i just got back to my dorm and I'm ready to belt my heart out. sorry it wont be gaming today

kyle-kun: got it my guy, and if you have emotions, go right ahead.

zuzupet: yeeee

Midoriya picked up his guitar and turned on his camera. The recording button was on.

"Hi guys. Uh..ignore how I look like crap, I've had a pretty bad day. I'm ready to have a mental breakdown after I'm done with this video, and today I will be singing a song I wrote maybe 2 or 3 months ago. It's dedicated to my former-childhood friend who I've just had it with. Bottom line, they're a bitch and it's honestly disgusting how they treat people. So this is called Just Say When."

"Bakugo is a little bitch. Monoma, I give you permission to go feral on him." Kendo told her friend. Monoma's eyes had a dangerous glint to them. "I would go feral with our without permission." Kendo slammed the door open to find people looking concerned. "WHICH ASSEHOLE HURT THE GREEN BEAN." Kendo yelled. Bakugo looked slightly guilty while he was being scolded by All Might. "Ahh, Bakugo! Most points in the entrance exam, winner of the sports festival.. You just do everything perfectly! Including perfectly destroying a friendship between one of the most caring and sweet people in this school!" Kendo said with a smile on her face. Eraserhead was amused watching it, not even bothering to stop the two. "Sic him, Monoma."

Monoma had copied Bakugo's explosions. "Oh gee, I wonder how it feels to be abused your whole entire life by someone you used to trust!" Monoma shot an explosion at the teen's face and Kendo suckerpunched him in the balls. "Go fuck yourself Bakugo. Now if you'll excuse us, we're stealing the green bean and moving him to 1-B." Kendo and Monoma skipped out of the gym and sent the video to Midoriya.

Uraraka busted out laughing at the way Kendo punched Bakugo, because he was curled up in a ball trying not to throw up. Jirou chuckled. That bitch deserved it.

Eventually, it was Present Mic's class and everyone had figured out that Midoriya was just skipping the rest of his classes. Made sense, none of them would want human interaction after that. Jirou internally cursed when she didn't have her homework. She raised her hand. "Uh, excuse me, Mic-Sensei? I left my homework at the dorm this morning." Present Mic smiled. "You can go get it, besides today's class is just interacting with people in English so it won't be bad if you miss parts of it. By the way, could you check on Midoriya while you're at it?" Jirou nodded and thanked her teacher, before scurrying to the dorm.

She went upstairs to the third floor, and was preparing to knock on the door to see if Midoriya was okay before she heard sweet music.

"Okay, so, here we go..."

We used to dream
We used to name the stars
Tracing futures lying in the dark
They said we'd never last
The brightest flame burns fast
We say words
We don't talk anymore

Midoriya was talking about Bakugo. That much was obvious. But this song was so pretty, it could be used as a love song. But Jirou knew it was directed towards his ex-friend.

Tonight we're growing closer
Closer to the end
Were we fools for each other
Or fools for falling in?
Are we looking at forever?
'Cause I don't see it in your eyes
Have you had enough or do we try again?
The glass was half full when we stopped pouring in
So just say when

There, the song title! Jirou looked it up on YouTube really quickly, and was shocked to see a live stream titled. "I've had a bad day, so why not live stream? Singing my new song, Just Say When." Jirou shoved her ear plug into the device and yep, that was Midoriya's voice. She clicked on the YouTube channel and was shocked to see 6.9 million subscribers. That was amazing.

I see that sunset in your eyes again
I got that sinking, sinking, same feeling
They said we'd never last
And they were right, but I can't help looking backTonight we're growing closer
Closer to the end
Were we fools for each other
Or fools for falling in?
Are we looking at forever?
'Cause I don't see it in your eyes
Have you had enough or do we try again?
The glass was half full when we stopped pouring in
So just say when

Jirou was sad, this song had so much emotion in it, and the way Midoriya sang every word so broken. As much as she wanted to bust into the room and squeal, she didn't want to mess up his live stream.

Oh, we keep circling it never ends
We keep breaking down but never bend
Oh, we've been half alive
We've been half alive for way too longTonight we're growing closer
Closer to the end
Were we fools for each other
Or fools for falling in?
Are we looking at forever?
'Cause I don't see it in your eyes
Have you had enough or do we try again?
The glass was half full when we stopped pouring in
So just say when
So just say when

Jirou internally squealed, and lightly knocked on the door. "Hello?" She couldn't quite catch what she said, but looked on the phone and Midoriya had fallen out of his chair and yelped. "Jirou? Uh...c-come in." The emo walked in and chuckled. "Didn't know you had a voice. Pretty cool." Midoriya blushed and people on the live were jokingly making fun of him and asking who she was. "Haha, T-thanks. Uh..this is my friend Jirou. I was not expecting anyone to be in the dorms." Jirou chuckled, trying to keep her cool. Midoriya had always been so nice to her, but didn't have too much in common with the musician. But now that she knew he sang? Oh they were best friends now. "Your lucky is wasn't anyone like Toru or Mina. That would've been a nightmare." Izuku fervently nodded his head. "Don't worry, your secret is safe with me as long as you let me guest sing on your channel." Midoriya spit out the drink he had and coughed. "Uh..sure? What do you guys think?" Comments started flooding in all agreeing.

"Well fuck. Jirou, welcome to the channel. You need a nickname. You didn't expose mine, which is clever on your part cause you probably thought I hadn't and if you had actually said it that could've potentially messed up my channel although everyone here already knows it-" Jirou put her hand over his mouth and chuckled. "No problem. Uh... call me Anton." Izuku busted out laughing. "Highly praiseworthy? Aight bet. You get one song to prove yourself. By the way, people named me Kalliope. I was Zuzu pet for a bit until one of my old videos went viral and everyone started calling me that. Now it's my channel name!" Jirou giggled. Izuku smiled at the girl.

"So aNtOn, I have a song I wrote that I want to hear you sing. I'll sing the first part and feel free to join in." Jirou smiled and picked up the sheet that her friend gave her. "Nightmare. Nice, Kalliope."

Izuku got on his laptop and went onto a file and clicked play. Music started playing and he smirked.

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray to Nezu, my soul to keep (HA I WONT BREAK IT YET >:3)
If I shall die before I 'wake
I pray to Nezu, my soul to takeI, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

Jirou almost immediately fell in love with the song.

I've tasted blood and it is sweet
I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
I've trusted lies and trusted men
Broke down and put myself back together again
Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger
I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers
And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors"Come on, little lady, give us a smile"
No, I ain't got nothin' to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
A moment to say I don't owe you a goddamn thing

Izuku motioned for Jiro to join and when she opened her mouth, the words flowed so easily and it felt amazing, like the song was perfect for her. But looking at the lyrics, she inwardly frowned at things such as 'I've trusted lies and trusted men' because she kept going back to the argument between Bakugo and Midoriya, and him yelling about how he was raped and Bakugo just made it worse.

I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realizeI'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night
That I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a nightNo, I won't smile, but I'll show you my teeth
And I'ma let you speak if you just let me breathe
I've been polite, but won't be caught dead
Lettin' a man tell me what I should do in my bed
Keep my exes in check in my basement
'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
I could play nice or I could be a bully
I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be

Izuku was mesmerised by her voice and let her sing while he got his phone out and recorded it for his TikTok.

"Come on, little lady, give us a smile"

No, I ain't got nothin' to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
A moment to say I don't owe you a goddamn thingI, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realizeSomeone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'd rather be a real nightmare, than die unaware, yeah
Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayersI, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night
That I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night

Jirou finished the song and took a deep breath. Izuku had stars in his eyes. "Damn, Anton. No need to flex on me." Jirou laughed. "I like your song, Kalliope. You write from personal experience?" The greenette nodded. "My life has been pretty shitty. I can just use all of it for song fuel. ANYWAYS PEOPLE IN THE COMMENTS, ANTON CAN KEEP HER NAME." Jirou felt proud of herself. Comments were flowing in on how good she did. Her phone dinged and she cussed under her breath. "Fuck. I was supposed to be back in class." Izuku said 'oop'.

CLASS 1-GAY

sanic: Jirou! It is unheroic to skip classes when going to get your homework! It should not take that long.

pikachu: yah jirou where did you go

allpanicnodisco: uh tell the teachers I'm staying with mido, he's sad. and fuck it I'll skip class if i want to. mido is my new best friend and no one is changing that

uwuaka: go sis

Pikachu: ...

sanic: Language Jirou!

allpanicnodisco: Japanese. also you would be surprised on how much mido cusses lol

uwuaka: i blame bakugo for tainting the lad

kermitsewerslide: he is probably the one at blame kero

allpanicnodisco: tell aizawa I'm taking mido to the mall

uwuaka: got it

"WELL ANYWAYS that's the live stream for today, everyone! Anton is now my partner in crime. see ya next time!!" Izuku shut off the live after Jirou waved goodbye.

Izuku smiled at her. Maybe he could get an actual friend? One that didn't solely want him for his body?

Jirou smiled back. "Let's go to the mall and buy tacky stuff"

Izuku chuckled, grabbing his phone and wallet. "Let's go."