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    Wei Ying has been feeling like a grey, wrung-out, mildewed dishrag for a week when Lan Zhan slopes in from a trip to the store looking blank-faced and awkward and sets a pregnancy test down on the kitchen counter.

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    “Sweetheart,” says Wei Ying helplessly. “Lan Zhan. Is it so terrible? I’m not asking you for anything. I won’t get in the way when you find someone you want to be with. And A-Yuan is ours. Equal partners. That won’t ever change. I just need to find a way to manage where I don’t tear myself apart pretending.” He waits for some kind of response, but Lan Zhan is a fall of glossy hair, a taut curve of shoulder and back. Unmoving. “Lan Zhan? Please, can we just talk about it?”

    “I have loved you for years. I can’t bear to hear this and have it not be true.”

    Wei Ying’s mind goes blank. He stares, dumbfounded.

    “You are my world,” says Lan Zhan. He raises his head. In his still face, his eyes burn. “You and A-Yuan. I would give you everything I am. But don’t – don’t ask me to believe you. You have just given birth to my child. Your emotions will be unsettled for a while, but they will go back to what they were before. You never wanted me in that way. Just – friendship and heats. I can give you that, but don’t make me believe…”

    “Shit,” says Wei Ying. Everything is turning upside down around him. He can’t process it, there’s too much. He reaches out, wraps both his hands around one of Lan Zhan’s sturdy forearms and holds on. “Listen to me. I love you. I do, I love you, I swear.”

    “Wei Ying, please.”

     

    Lan Huan tilts his head. He has a very assessing gaze. Gentle, but keen. He doesn’t miss much. “I like you, Wei Ying,” he says. “There’s a lot to like about you.”

    Wei Ying wags a finger. “They say Lans don’t lie, but your diplomacy is pure bullshit.”

    “I don’t like the way you use my brother,” Lan Huan admits.

    “Yeah, I’m not crazy about that either. I didn’t mean to!” says Wei Ying, frustrated. “I didn’t know. And I don’t want to do that anymore. I love him. I want to be his mate. He’s told you that, right?”

    “He told me that you said it.”

    “I mean it. And I need him to accept it and stop waiting for the day I come to my senses and walk away. It’s not going to happen. He won’t listen to me, but he listens to you.” He’s pacing, talking with his hands – something he’s barely able to do anymore, because there’s usually a baby in them.

    “Why should I believe you, if he doesn’t?” says Lan Huan.

    “Because you can think about it rationally. Because I haven’t spent years accidentally fucking up your emotions.”

     

    They both spent their cycles till Wei ying went help me out

    It isn’t six months. There’s no finish line to cross. Instead, it’s a gradual thing. Lan Zhan still flinches to hear ‘I love you,’ but he starts to say it. His body language subtly shifts sometimes, when they’re out, his shoulders square and he positions himself at Wei Ying’s shoulder when Wei Ying chats to a cashier in the grocery store or stops to speak to another parent in the park. There’s still not much in their lives that isn’t about A-Yuan, but they start him in daycare three mornings a week and that means Lan Zhan can take an early lunchbreak and they can eat together and talk – and talking sometimes means flirting, a low simmer of heat between them.

    It happens again, and Lan Zhan climbs on top of him, presses into him and, with no ceremony whatsoever, bites down.

    “Don’t swear in front of him.”

    “Yes, alpha,” says Wei Ying sweetly, and when Lan Zhan turns an utterly incredulous face to him he cracks up.

    “No,” says Lan Zhan.

    “You bit me,” says Wei Ying, sticking out his tongue. “You’ve got to deal with me.”

    Lan Zhan smiles. “Forever,” he says, and wraps his arm around Wei Ying, pulling him close.

    “You asshole,” says Wei Ying afterwards, blissed out and laughing with pure happiness. “Not even flowers, Lan Zhan? Not even dinner?” His neck is stinging and tingling, spreading warmth through every part of him.

    Lan Zhan rumbles satisfaction deep in his chest. “Felt like the time,” he says.

    “It’s been time,” says Wei Ying, and grabs his hand, guiding it back down between his legs to start on round two.

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    And the world's alright with me - so_shhy
    Wei Ying has been feeling like a grey, wrung-out, mildewed dishrag for a week when Lan Zhan slopes in from a trip to the store looking blank-faced and awkward and sets a pregnancy test down on the kitchen counter.

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