Shuichi Akai was livid.
He had heard too late about the danger Jodie had been in. By the time James had informed him of what had happened at the bank, the would-be bank robbers had already been arrested (thanks to Conan) and Jodie was safely back in her flat. Having given an account of the events to James, she was now barricading herself inside, refusing to speak to anyone.
Since he couldn’t contact her directly anyway, he had asked Conan for more details on the case. The little detective had not disappointed, and Shuichi admired the amount of information the actually 17 year old boy was able to give him. According to him, Jodie was well enough after case. But then, Conan had mentioned his lookalike with the burn marks on his face.
That man was obviously the reason why Jodie was feeling the way she was. As though his death wasn’t enough, the organisation had to hurt her even more by sending this doppelgänger to verify his demise. Shuichi had known they would do it, and he had known it would hurt Jodie. And yet he had let it happen this way. Dying would have been one thing. But for this, Jodie would never be able to forgive him.
He had never meant to give up Jodie for good. Breaking up with her was meant to protect them both - he wanted to be able to immerse himself in his undercover act, and he wanted to spare Jodie the pain of having an absent boyfriend. But they’d been young, and he had had no idea what he was getting himself into. Then his mission had failed, Akemi had died, and he was so angry with himself that he couldn’t focus on anything else. But with Jodie still being single, he was sure they’d get back together in time. Only they didn’t have time. They needed Rena Mizuyashi as a spy, and for that to happen she needed to kill him. And again he had sacrificed his personal happiness for the bigger goal. Only that this time, he wouldn’t get another chance with Jodie. There was no way one could hurt another person so much and be forgiven afterwards.
He told himself it would be worth it once the organisation was taken down. Jodie would at least get to arrest her parents’ killer and he would finally get to know what they’d done to his father. It was why they had joined the FBI in the first place. Their one objective in life they weren’t willing to compromise on.
But you never know what you have until you lose it. And now that he had lost Jodie, he wanted nothing more than to have her back. Even if he’d never learn about his father’s fate. He couldn’t bring him back. It had been too late for that even 17 years ago, even though his teenage self would never have admitted that. But he could have had Jodie in his life if only he had not been so blinded by his ambition to bring the organisation down.
He wasn’t one to drown in regrets though, and so he would just make sure it hadn’t all been in vain. But damn if it didn’t make him so angry he wanted to punch the entire world.