"Uncle Jin." Jin cooed to the baby, "Say Uncle Jin. Can you say Uncle Jin?"
"Jin, he's only 6 months old! The most he can say right now is gah," His sister said, glancing over to Jin who was playing with her son on the floor.
"Gah-ncle Jin," Jin cooed in response, "Say Gah-ncle Jin."
"You're ridiculous," His sister mumbled, shaking her head fondly.
"When do you leave?" Jin said, dangling the toy in front of Jungkook who was on his tummy, laughing at the noises it made.
"Around 7 tonight? Depending on what time Hyunwook gets home from work," She replied, folding the baby onesie in front of her and putting it down neatly on the pile of clean laundry.
"You sure you don't want any help?" Jin asked.
"Don't you have exams soon?"
"Next week." Jin said with a sigh, looking back at Jungkook who was trying to roll on the soft mat, before cooing out, "And I'm not ready for it. Not one bit. No I'm not."
"Your baby voice is weird," She commented.
"And your baby is the cutest. Yes he is. Yes he is."
"You're giving me a headache."
Jin carried Jungkook onto his lap, the baby cooing and gurgling on him, "Mommy's mean isn't she?"
"Don't turn my sweet baby against me!" She said with a laugh, the laundry forgotten on the floor as she made her way to her brother and baby, "You love me don't you baby?"
"One of these days I'm going to take him home," Jin joked.
She tensed up visibly, arms frozen, outstretched to reach to Jungkook.
"What's wrong?" Jin asked her, eyebrows furrowed in concentration.
"Jin, Hyunwook and I wanted to talk to you," She said, reaching over and pulling Jungkook into her lap, who was suddenly fascinated by his mom's hair. He grabbed a fistful and started tugging on it.
"What's up? Everything okay?" Jin asked, suddenly worried.
"Not now," She said, shaking her head, a smile forcing its way back onto her face, "I'm sure we won't even need it, but we just made some changes to our will and all and Hyunwook and I wanted to tell you about it."
"It's nothing! Don't worry," She said quickly, to try and reassure Jin, "It's just that you know, Jungkook is growing up now and we wanted some contingency plans just in case something happened-"
"Something happens? What's happening? Is everything oka-"
"Hey, hey, look at me," She said, one hand holding her baby and the other, cupping her baby brother's cheek, "Nothing's going to happen to us. We're fine. This is just in case."
Jin had a frantic look in his eye, "I'm only 20, Ji Hye. I don't know anything about babies, about taking care of one! Hell I can barely take care of myself! I don't-"
"Jin, you're getting worked up over nothing," Ji Hye laughed, "Nothing's going to happen to me and nothing's going to happen to Hyunwook either."
Jin let out a staggered breath, panic still filled in him, "You're right. Yeah, you're right. I just..."
"I know," She said nodding in understanding. She understood him perfectly. She understood exactly how the panic built up slowly, almost like filling in a balloon. It enters you bit by bit, taking up in the space in your lungs until you feel like you can't breath. It consumes you, almost entirely and you don't even realise what's happening until it's too late and all you can think about are dark thoughts in this panic filled bubble. She understood it so well because she went through the exact same thing when she was doing up her will with her husband and the lawyer present.
She was holding Jungkook in her arms, bouncing him up and down on her knee as her lawyer explained what a Guardianship Clause was. All she could think about as the lawyer spoke, trying to make them understand, was about the little bundle of joy in her arms. If something happened to her the minute they walked out of this firm, she wouldn't be able to hug him anymore. She wouldn't be able to hear his first words, to see his first steps, to hear his little giggle through the baby monitors early in the morning. She wouldn't watch him go to school, she wouldn't see him grow up. She wouldn't be a part of his life anymore. How was a mother supposed to live knowing that at any day now, her entire future could be ripped from her hands? The worst part of her going wouldn't even be that she wouldn't get to watch Jungkook grow up, it would be that Jungkook wouldn't grow up with a mother. He would never feel a mother's love. He would never get to experience her cooking. He would never know what it means to have a mother's loving touch. And yeah, Ji Hye could admit that it was selfish to only think about her right now, but she couldn't help it. Here she was, with her beautiful baby boy who was looking at her with his wide doe brown bambi eyes, drooling on his favourite rattle on her knee. How could she not think about what this clause in her last will and testament actually meant. How could she not picture it?
"I know exactly what you're going through," Ji Hye said to Jin with a small smile on her face as she looked down at Jungkook who was looking at his rattle with amazement, shaking it and giggling to himself.
"Just in case..." Jin said, more so to himself, to try and console himself.
"If something does happen to us, God forbid," Ji Hye said, mumbling the last bit before she looked over at Jin, "You'll be the only family that Jungkook has."
"Ji Hye nothing-"
"No, Jin, please, let me talk," She said, knowing that as much as it physically hurt her to think about it, this was a very real possibility, and no matter what, she wanted Jungkook to be safe. She wanted him to grow up loved. She wanted Jungkook to be the best version of himself. Whether or not she would be there to witness it.
Jin just nodded, feeling his eyes prick with tears, mouth go dry, at the thought of losing his sister and his brother in law.
"If...If something were to happen to Hyunwook, or to me, you'll be the only family that Jungkook has." She said, "I've seen you with him, Jinnie. You're an amazing uncle, and if something were to happen to us, I know that you'll take care of him. And that you'll make sure that he grows up so, so loved."
She placed a kiss onto Jungkook's soft, smooth baby haired head.
"Promise me, Jin? Promise me that you'll look after him and make sure that he's loved." She said, looking up with glossy eyes.
"I promise," Jin said, eyes on Jungkook who was none the wiser, giggling to himself in his own world as he gurgled noises.
It had been a couple of days since Jin's conversation with his sister, and he still couldn't get it out of his head.
He was sitting in his dorm room, leaned back onto the cheap black chair, fidgeting around with his pencil and his notes laid down in front of him but was unable to concentrate. There was this part of him that kept thinking about the what if's of the situation.
What if something happened to his sister?
What if he was solely responsible for Jungkook?
What kind of life would Jin, a 20 year old, be able to provide for him? He was a college student halfway through his studies with huge plans. And a baby would not fit in his world. Not now at least.
Right now, he wanted to be a normal college student. He wanted to just get through his exams, to party the night away and get black out drunk after and then spend the next three days after that curing his hangover with empty promises never to touch alcohol again, only to repeat the cycle.
Sure, Jin had plans for himself, big plans in fact, and a kid was a part of that plan, but just not now. He wanted to graduate college, and then get a shitty job somewhere before quitting that and moving onto a better company. From there, he would rise in the ranks, maybe even meet someone and fall in love. Get married, and then only have a kid.
That's always been his plan for the longest time.
Jin shook his head, as if that would make all of these thoughts go away. He was overthinking. This was a 'just in case' clause. No one ever had to use it. He would be fine. Life would go according to his 10 year plan. He knew this.
Jin couldn't keep thinking about these situations that would never become a reality. He had to focus on the upcoming exams. God knows his sister would kill him if he didn't get good results. He wouldn't complain though. He knew that she just wanted the best for him. His sister had taken many roles, and worn many hats over the years. She wasn't just his sister. She was his mom, his best friend, his confidante and at time, his dad too. She was the only family Jin had.
Jin put his head down, rereading the notes that he had taken only a couple of hours ago.
His eyes scanned over the page, mumbling the notes out loud over and over again trying to commit it to memory.
Knock knock knock
Jin practically leaped out of his chair by the unexpected noise. He glanced down to his watch to look at the time - 10:54pm
He looked at the door with furrowed eyebrows. He wasn't expecting anyone so late at night. As far as he was concerned, there wasn't even a party today so he knew it couldn't be any of his friends.
Jin got out of his chair, walking towards the door. He unlocked it and pulled it open.
"Yes?" He answered, crossing his arms over his chest, the wind blowing cool and harsh on his skin and he wasn't dressed for the weather. All he was wearing was an oversized shirt and some boxers. No one dresses up to study.
The man at the door looked at him with sad eyes. Jin blinked a couple of times, letting his eyes get used to the lack of lighting outside.
"Of-Officer?" Jin stuttered out, taking in the blue official uniform of the man. Jin could feel a pit growing in his stomach. He knew that nothing about this visit was about to be nice.
"My name is Lee Jaehwan." The officer stated.
"Is..Is there a problem, officer?"
Jaehwan reached up and took his hat off, tucking it underneath his armpit.
The pit in Jin's stomach grew, and grew and only got bigger. It felt like all of the air was being snatched out of Jin's lungs. Jin prayed to every deity in existence from every religion he could think of at that very moment that the officer in front of him would say literally anything else other than what he was thinking about.
"Of-Officer?" Jin stuttered out, through the ever growing lump in his throat, mouth going dry.
"I am so sorry for your loss, Mr Kim."
"Of-Officer?" Was all Jin could get out, his eyes glossing up with tears, already knowing what was coming next.
"At 8.50pm, when your sister Ji Hye and her husband Hyunwook were travelling back, they got into an accident on the highway. Their son, Jungkook, was also in the car with them. The three of them were taken to the hospital."
Jin let a wrecked sob travel through his body, his knees growing weak, the only support he had was from holding onto the door. Tears streamed down his face, but he tried to keep a level head. He needed to listen to the officer. He was an adult. He could do this.
"Unfortunately, Mr Kim, both Ji Hye and Hyunwook succumbed to their injuries during the surgery and we...there was nothing we could do." The officer explained, his heart clenching at the sight of the boy in front of him.
"J-Jungkook?" Jin stuttered, head snapping up, eyes frantic and searching the police officers face for any further information he could find. Trying to decipher the information with just one look.
"Jungkook had minor cuts and bruises," The officer told him, "He survived and according to the last will and testament of both Ji Hye and Hyunwook-"
"I'm the legal guardian." Jin finished for the officer.
"My partner is bringing out Jungkook from the police car right now," The officer explained.
Another officer, with the same sympathetic look walked up with a car seat and a sleeping Jungkook. Jin felt his knees go weak, the reminder of his sister and her husband right in front of him.
"Again, we are so sorry for your loss, Mr Kim." The officer said, passing the car seat with the baby to Jin.
Jin signed a couple of papers and promised to be at the hospital in a few days to get the other paperwork done. He bid farewell to the officers and walked into his rented college house with a sleeping baby that was now legally his.
He stood in the middle of the room, completely overwhelmed. He didn't have time to mourn his sisters passing, nor did he even have time to mourn his brother in laws passing. All he had right now, was a sleeping baby, a car seat, and no supplies. He didn't know how to take care of a baby! He was meant to be studying for his exams.
His entire life had just been changed with three knocks, and a ding of a bell.
4 Years Later.
Jin's body clock woke him up before the alarm on his phone could even start blaring. He stretched on the bed, letting out a groan, one hand rubbing the sleep out of his eye and the other outstretched as far as it would let him. He blinked himself awake, pushing up on the bed, blindly reaching over to the bedside table and pulling out the phone charger from his phone, the bright screen hurting his eyes, but he didn't care.
He still had 3 minutes left before his alarm would ring, and he had to wake Jungkook up as well.
It was routine now; something that he's become so familiar with that he could function on just muscle memory and nothing else. He would be lying if he said that any of this was easy - Raising a child. But he would also be lying if he said that he didn't enjoy it.
Jin walked into Jungkook's room, a smile immediately gracing his face as he saw the child hugging his Iron Man plushie close to him, a little pout forming on his face as he cuddled under the blanket, his mouth sucking on his chubby thumb, a habit that Jin was trying to rid him off.
Jin always made sure to wake Jungkook up 10 minutes earlier than he actually needed to be up because of Jungkook's habit of clinging to him like a koala. Jin walked over to his bed, sitting down on the edge of it, carding his fingers gently through the child's dark brown hair.
"Kookie baby," Jin said, "It's time to get up."
Jungkook whined, burying his head further into the red Iron Man plushie. Jin remembered how the obsession even started. Yoongi had come over and they were about to binge all of the Avengers before the last movie came out. They had a bowl of popcorn between the two of them and Jungkook was colouring on the floor, eyebrows furrowed deep in concentration. There was a loud explosion on the screen which made him look up and immediately his eyes doubled in size. His crayons were long forgotten and the rest of the fight scene was spent with his eyes on the Red superhero. The rest was history.
"It's time for Kindergarten sweetheart," Jin said, "You have to get up now."
Jungkook whined higher now, pushing the blanket and his Iron Man plushie and climbed on top of Jin, his hands wrapping around his neck, nuzzling his head into the crook of Jin's neck, sticking his thumb into his mouth as Jin stroked his back with a smile on his face. Call Jin selfish all you want, these 10 minutes in the morning with Jungkook clinging onto him melted away all his stress and reminded him of all the good things in his life. Jungkook being on top of that list.
He placed a kiss on top of Jungkook's head, checking the time on Jungkook's Avengers clock that he insisted on having even though he didn't know how to read numbers past 12 yet. But Jin could never say no to Jungkook's pout and doe eyed bambi brown eyes.
"Ready for breakfast, Kookie?" Jin asked him as he felt Jungkook's thumb come out of his mouth.
Jungkook pulled away from Jin's neck, a bright smile on his face, "Goo' Mornin' Daddy."
"Good morning sweetheart." Jin said, leaning down and kissing Jungkook on the cheek making the child giggle.
"Daddy 'm hungry."
Jin put Jungkook down on the floor and turned on the lights, "Can you brush your teeth by yourself or do you want daddy to help you?"
"Kookie's a big boy." Jungkook insisted, waddling over to the bathroom while Jin smiled to himself, wondering where exactly the time had gone. It felt like just yesterday he was being handed the baby in a car seat and now here he was, in an apartment that he rented by himself with Jungkook.
Jin walked to the kitchen, his mind racing with thoughts at a million miles per hour.
It wasn't easy raising a child. It especially wasn't easy raising a child that wasn't yours while you were in college and only a few days shy from your exams. It was hard. Jin didn't know what he was doing and he was doing it all alone. He didn't know the legalities, or even the first thing about childcare. Hell, he didn't even get a chance to mourn his sister because he was so busy trying to figure out what the hell was going on. One second he was buried in his books and the next he had a crying baby in his arms while tears ran down his own cheeks.
The first thing he did was go out and get some things for Jungkook like diapers, and baby formula, and some clothes. Then he went to the hospital and then the police station. And in both places, they asked him the same thing - Are you sure you want to keep the baby? There's always the choice of adoption. But Jin was firm. His sister and his brother in law entrusted him with Jungkook in case anything happened and he wasn't about to let them down. Not when they needed him the most.
Jin learnt the hard way that having a child meant that there would be a lot of sacrifices that he had to make. His dreams being one of them. He was lucky that the teachers understood his situation and told him that he could take the exams along with the resitters and that it would still be counted as his first attempt. Jin felt like he could breathe a sigh of relief. There were two months till those exams and he thought that he would be okay by then.
Every single day was a challenge and it was made worse by the fact that no matter what he did, he just couldn't be a good carer for Jungkook. He felt like he was drowning more and more every single day and he didn't know who to lean to or who could even help him. It pained him to say it, but for the first time in his life, Jin felt like he was truly alone. He had no one by his side. Even worse, there was a part of him that was contemplating just giving up and putting Jungkook up for adoption. But just as quickly as the thought came, it went away. It was his darkest of thoughts and he would never let anyone hear it. He felt ashamed just thinking about it.
He was at his lowest, believing that no one cared for him and trying to get used to only having Jungkook and no one else in his life. What's the point os getting anyone to stick around anyway? Everyone he loved died. That was all Jin believed he was good for. Destruction.
And he could still remember how just as he was about to give up, his doorbell rang.
Jin froze on the spot. He had just put Jungkook down for a nap and if the baby heard the doorbell, he wasn't going to go back to sleep. He waited for a couple of seconds, and breathed a sigh of relief when he realised that Jungkook was truly down for the count.
He could feel the tidal wave of exhaustion hit him all at once. He couldn't remember the last time he had more than a couple of hours of sleep. Taking care of a child was hard and he was beginning to form a whole new respect for parents everywhere, single parents especially.
Knock knock knock
"Jin I know you're in there! Open up!"
Jin walked over to the front door, opening the door up slowly, just in case.
Yoongi pushed the door open, practically barrelling past Jin and into the house uninvited, "Where have you been? No one's seen you in-"
"Shh, shh, Yoongi please," Jin nearly begged, tired tears pooling in his eyes at the mere thought of Jungkook screaming his head off if Yoongi woke him up, "I just got Jungkook down for a nap and I can't-"
"So, it's true?" Yoongi breathed out, "You have a kid now?'
Jin sighed. He knew people would ostracise him if they found out, but he couldn't hide it any longer.
"Long story short - Yes."
"Yoongi if you're here to judge me or I don't know like scream at me for missing parties and shit then can you just go? I'm running on no sleep, I can't remember the last time I ate, and I'm fucking tired, okay? I can't deal with anything else right now." Jin told him, his head pounding, chest heavy, and eyes pricking with tears he would later shed in private.
Yoongi stood in the middle of the living room, taking a good look at Jin for the first time since he set foot in the house. His hair was matted on his forehead, mussy and messy. He had dark circles under his eyes that practically covered half his face and his eyebags had eyebags. Yoongi had never seen Jin this bad, even when he had pulled a week's worth of all nighters to finish studying for exams. The person in front of him was just a shell of the person that he used to know. Something more was happening behind the scenes and Yoongi was going to help him. After all, they were friends, and helping each other is what friendship is all about.
"Can I meet him?" Yoongi asked, "Your son. Jun-Uhh what was his name again?"
"Jungkook." Jin answered immediately, "And uhh, he's not my son. I mean biologically. But technically, umm, yeah it's complicated."
"How about you tell me over lunch, alright? I'll cook you something." Yoongi said, walking straight into the kitchen, "Are the pots and pans still on the third cupboard by the left?"
"Daddy Daddy! Look! I did it all by myself!" Jungkook screamed out excitedly, running out of his bedroom with his clean toothbrush and hair bouncing all over the place, pulling Jin out of his reverie.
"Don't run in the house, Kookie," Jin reminded him, pulling out the cereal boxes from the cupboard.
"Look, daddy!" Jungkook said, not slowing down as he walked up to Jin opening his mouth wide, "Nhsdk sdkh msdeld."
"Baby, I can't understand you if you're mouth is open," Jin told him with a fond smile on his face.
"I brushed all by myself! I even did the water and I put the water in the sink and then I washed my bunny toothbrush and then I came here and then I show you. Daddy lookie!" Jungkook babbled on excitedly, tumbling over his words and giggling at the end.
"I'm very proud of you," Jin told him, leaning down and placing a kiss on Jungkook's hair, "Now can you go put your bunny toothbrush back in your special glass and come have breakfast with daddy?"
"I go now." Jungkook said running to his room.
"Kookie, no runn-" Jin tried to tell him but sighed, knowing that Jungkook wouldn't listen when he was excited.
Jin checked his watch - 7.30am He was still on schedule. He had enough time to make breakfast for the both of them, get them changed and even drop Jungkook off to Kindergarten and make it just in time for office.
"Hungy!" Jungkook whined as he pitter pattered his chubby feet all the way back to the breakfast counter, heaving himself up using the chair.
"Do you want the Pirate cereal or the Tiger cereal today?" Jin asked, placing the Captain Crunch box and the Frosties box in front of Jungkook, letting him choose.
Jungkook stared hard at both boxes, eyebrows furrowed in concentration, a pout forming on his little lips, cheeks chubbing up as he contemplated hard on what he wanted for breakfast. With a firm nod he pointed at the blue Frosties box.
"Tiger." He said, "And can I have chocky milk too?"
"What's the magic word?" Jin reminded him.
"Please." Jin corrected but walked over to the fridge to get the chocolate milk, taking out Jungkook's red cup that he insisted on getting because it was the same colour as Iron Man.
Jin poured some cereal into the bowl, along with some fresh milk and passed it to Jungkook.
"What do we say when someone gives us something, Jungkook?"
"Tank you." Jungkook answered, proud of himself for remembering.
"And what should daddy say after you thank him?" Jin tested.
"You're welcome." Jin corrected, ruffling Jungkook's hair.
"Daddy what you eating?" Jungkook asked, spooning some milk into his mouth messily, the milk dripping down the sides of his mouth, splatters getting on his cheeks. Jin wanted to pinch his chubby cheeks, it was his second favourite feature on Jungkook, the first being his wide, doe brown bambi eyes. It resembled his mothers.
"Daddy's having toast, sweetie," Jin said, showing him the toasted bread with garlic butter.
Jungkook opened his mouth, waiting for Jin to give him a bite.
"What do we say, Jungkook?" Jin reminded, cocking an eyebrow. He had been trying to teach Jungkook over the last couple of weeks to share and to be polite, and while Jungkook was a good kid most of the time, at the end of the day, he was still a child and had some moments where he had to be reminded.
"Peas." Jungkook said, blinking his doe brown eyes up at Jin.
"Good boy." Jin praised, letting Jungkook take a bite.
Jungkook scrunched his face.
"Do you not like it, Kookie?"
"Hard." Jungkook said, "Owie in my teeth."
"Eat your cereal, bub," Jin said with a smile, "Daddy will eat this, okay?"
"No owie for daddy?" Jungkook asked.
"No owie." Jin said, shaking his head, "You know why? Because daddy drinks his milk everyday so his teeth are big and strong."
"Just like Iron Man!" Jungkook announced, lifting his spoon up in the air, splattering milk all over the place.
"Yeah baby, just like Iron Man." Jin laughed, "Now hurry up and finish your breakfast so we can go to Kindergarten and you can see all your friends!"
Jin held Jungkook's little hand in his as they walked to Jungkook's Kindergarten.
"Daddy do you think Taetae will come today?" He asked, looking up at his father.
"I don't know baby, we have to go and check if he's in school today," Jin answered, keeping a firm grip on Jungkook's hand as they crossed the road.
"Taetae didnt go yesterday." Jungkook said.
"If he's in today you can ask him why he didn't come okay?" Jin said, as they turned on the corner of Jungkook's Kindergarten.
"That's my Kindygarden!" Jungkook said excitedly, pointing it out at Jin as they kept walking.
Jin laughed and nodded. Jungkook was an easy child. He got excited over the smallest of things and rarely ever threw tantrums. Jin was scared when he first enrolled Jungkook into a Kindergarten. He didn't know if Jungkook would make friends, or even be able to talk to other children. Every time he brought Jungkook to a park, the kid would always play by himself. He seemed content just like that. But after the first day, Jungkook walked out hand in hand with this child that he dubbed 'Taetae' and ever since then they've been inseparable.
"Daddy! Look, look!" Jungkook said, pulling Jin's hand to get his attention, practically running forward trying to get to the gate of the Kindergarten faster.
"Kookie, don't run," Jin warned, walking a little faster.
"You're gonna miss him! Fast!" Jungkook whined, pulling Jin.
"What is it?" Jin said as they reached the gate.
Jungkook snatched his hand away from Jin and ran to the gate as fast as he could, his bag jumping all over his back as he waddled to the gate, pushing it with all his might.
"Taetae!" He screamed with glee, running over to Taehyung
"Kookoo!" Taehyung screamed back, running to Jungkook with a wide, boxy grin, tiny arms outstretched in front of him.
Jin walked over to the gate of the Kindergarten with a smile on his face, trying to suppress a chuckle that was threatening to come out at the dramatic scene in front of him.
"I've never seen a cuter friendship," The man who dropped Taehyung off said to Jin.
"Movies are far less dramatic," Jin said, a chuckle tumbling from his lips.
"Are you Kookoo's father?" He asked, looking at Jin.
"Jungkook." Jin corrected, extending his hand to shake, "And yes I am. My name's Jin. Kim Seokjin."
"Nice to meet you."
"Are you Taetae's father?" He asked, an amused smile playing on his lips.
"Taehyung." The man corrected, "And no. I'm not. I'm his nanny. His father is a busy man, so I help him out. I'm Jimin. Park Jimin."
"Well, it's very nice to meet you, Jimin," Jin said, shaking Jimin's hand, "I'm glad they found each other. I was honestly very scared that Jungkook wouldn't make any friends, but Taehyung seems to have brought him out of his shell in a short time."
"Taehyung is incredibly outgoing and likes to make friends wherever he can," Jimin said proudly, "Honestly, all I've heard at home is about this boy named Kookoo and their adventures in Kindergarten."
"Same here," Jin said with a nod, waving goodbye to Jungkook who had taken Taehyung's hand in his chubby little hand, "Bye Kookie. Be good! Have a nice day!"
"Bye daddy! I see you later." Jungkook said, waving back excitedly to his dad.
Jin looked back at Jimin, "I was thinking about organising a playdate with Taehyung, if that's okay?"
"I would have to check with his dad, but I don't see why that would be a problem," Jimin said.
"Perfect!" Jin said with a smile, taking his phone out, "Could I get your number so I could text you the details and then maybe we can coordinate it?"
Jimin took his own phone out, giving it to Jin so that he could do the same.
"Here you go," Jin said, saving his number and passing the phone back to Jimin.
"And here's mine!" Jimin said with a smile, passing Jin's phone back to him.
"I'll text you the details." Jin told him, "It was nice meeting you Jimin."
"You too, Jin."
"Hey Jin!" Yoongi said, walking into his office, and sitting down on the chair in front of him.
"Did I say you could come in?" Jin said playfully, cocking an eyebrow at Yoongi, placing his black pen down.
"How's my little Kookie?" Yoongi asked, ignoring Jin's quip.
"He's good," Jin nodded, "I dropped him off at Kindergarten just now and he reenacted a movie scene with Taehyung. They acted like they haven't seen each other in years when really it's just been a day."
"I wish I could have seen that," Yoongi said with a grin.
"He was asking about his Uncle Yoo yesterday." Jin told him, "You should come over for dinner tonight. He really misses you."
"If this stupid job wasn't keeping me busy, I would come over all the time," Yoongi sighed.
"Did you sort out the Veristas Contract issue yet?" Jin asked.
"By these eyebags under my eyes, do you think I've sorted it out?" Yoongi grumbled.
"Do you want some help?"
Yoongi sighed, "You have enough on your plate. I'll get it sorted. I have a meeting with one of their managers today over lunch anyway."
"I have some time right now if you want me to look over the contract? I could maybe find something in there to give you some leverage?" Jin offered.
"Tell me again why you quit law school?"
Jin sighed, "Yoongi..."
"You could have made it you know," Yoongi said, voice softer now, "I was right there and-"
"Jungkook's more important." Jin said with finality, "You know that. I could have never done both. I had to make a choice and I did. I'm fine where I am."
"As long as you're happy," Yoongi said.
A beat of silence passed before Jin asked again.
"Do you want me to look over the contract?" Jin asked him.
"Nah, I'm good. I'm sure I'll be fine," Yoongi said, looking at his watch, before looking up at Jin, "I'm going to go over some notes for the meeting, but I'll see you later? Maybe we can pick Jungkook up together."
"Sounds good." Jin nodded.
Just as Yoongi was leaving, he looked back at Jin, "You know if you ever wanted to go back to law sch-"
"Yoongi...We talked about this," Jin sighed, "Jungkook now more than ever needs me. I'm not going to leave him. Plus, this job is safe. I have a steady income. I work 9 to 5. There are hardly any overtimes...."
"All I'm saying is that, just because you have Jungkook, it doesn't mean you can't be happy or follow your dreams. They aren't mutually exclusive. You're allowed to do it all."
"I know that, Yoongs and I appreciate it, really I do," Jin told him, "I just... I've tried to do both, and you more than anyone, saw how that turned out. I almost lost Jungkook once, I'm never going to let it happen again."
Jin was packing up for the day, almost frantically. If he left any later, he would be late to pick Jungkook up and he didn't want Jungkook to be waiting for him alone in the Kindergarten.
There was a knock at his office door.
"Come in!" He said as he stood up, grabbing his coat off the back of the chair.
"Jin? The boss wants to see you."
"What?" Jin asked, looking like a deer in headlights, "Right now?"
"Yes. He asked for you specifically." His secretary said.
"I'll be right there," Jin sighed, running a hand over his face, "Wait. Do you know if this would take long?"
"I'm really not sure," She answered with a sympathetic smile before exiting the room.
Jin reached in and got his phone out, dialling Yoongi's number.
"Come on. Pick up, pick up, pick up." Jin muttered to the incessant ringing, praying to every deity he could think of. But all Jin was met with was the dialtone.
"Goddammit." He cursed, thinking about who he could call or what he could do.
Jimin. He remembered that he got Jimin's number and hopefully Jimin could help him.
He scrolled down in his contact list and clicked on Jimin's name, praying that he would pick up.
"Hello?" Jimin answered.
"Oh thank god," Jin mumbled, "Hey Jimin, it's Jin. We met this morning?"
"Yeah, I remember. What's up?"
"I'm so sorry to do this and I swear, I usually don't do this at all. It's just that something came up at work and I know we don't really know each other well enough for me to ask favours but it's an emergency and the thing-" Jin rambled, getting more and more frantic with each syllable that tumbled out of his mouth. He was tripping over his words and could feel his chest constricting, that familiar weight on it again.
"Hey, hey, Jin," Jimin interjected, "Breathe. It's okay. It's alright. What happened?"
"Have you picked Taehyung up yet?"
"No. I'm on my way right now." Jimin said, "Do you need me to pick Jungkook up as well? I can take Jungkook back to Taehyung's house and send you the address if you want?"
"Would you, please? " Jin said, breathing a sigh of relief, the weight on his chest lesser now, "I'm so sorry Jimin. I swear, I usually don't do this. I'm always there on time for Jungkook but today I just-"
"Jin. it's alright. Honestly. You don't have to justify yourself. I completely understand," Jimin reassured in a calm, gentle tone.
"Thank you, Jimin. Really, I owe you one," Jin breathed out.
"I'll text you the address," Jimin said, "Take your time, alright? Jungkook's safe with me."
Jin thanked Jimin profusely once again before hanging up the line. He finally felt like he could breathe again. He grabbed his coat, putting his briefcase back down in his office and walked over to the bosses office.
"Come in." A strong, low voice boomed from the other side of the door.
"You wanted to see me, sir?" Jin said as he entered the office, closing the door behind him.
"Kim Seokjin, right?"
"I'm Kim Namjoon." He introduced, stretching his hand out and shaking Jin's, "I just took over from Mr Hwan last week and I was just familiarising myself with some of the active contracts we have, and I happened to notice that you recently handled the Ng case."
"I did." Jin confirmed with a nod.
"I was quite impressed by how you handled it and how you managed to close it quite quickly," Namjoon commented.
"Thank you, sir."
"Personally, I think that your talents are being wasted where you are right now," Namjoon said, leaning back in his chair, "I was thinking, and of course only if you're on board with this, I would promote you. Give you better cases where you can work more personally with the management and myself. This would come with a significant pay raise as well.
"I'm assuming that this also means no more traditional 9 to 5?" Jin asked.
"The contracts would be more time demanding, yes," Namjoon said with a nod.
"Right..." Jin muttered, trailing off.
"Would you need some time to think it over?"
"Yes sir. It's a big decision." Jin said with a polite smile.
"You know, most people would be jumping at this chance," Namjoon said with a teasing smirk.
"I'm sure they would sir. It is a very generous offer."
"Could I have an answer by the end of the week?" Namjoon asked.
Namjoon stood up, making Jin stand up as well.
"It was nice meeting you, Jin."
"You too, sir."
Hey Jimin. I'm so sorry once again. I'm on my way to pick Jungkook up right now!
I should be there in the next 10 minutes or so!
Sorry again! And thank you for everything!
Jin was stuck in the subway, cursing the fact that he didn't choose to drive today. He usually did, but the weather was so nice and the Kindergarten wasn't far away from his house or work either. Usually. But of course, the universe was punishing him for reasons unbeknownst to him, because it chose now of all times to rain. And now Jin was stuck in the subway, following Google's directions to wherever this place that Jimin's boss lived.
As soon as the doors opened, Jin was practically rushing out of the subway, running up the stairs onto the pavement, uncaring that he was getting wet. He looked down at his phone and started following the directions to wherever this apartment was. He tried to go in the shade as much as possible but by the time he reached the apartment, Jin was practically dripping all over the sleek marble flooring of the fancy apartment lobby. He received death glares from the doorman and the concierge.
Jin paid them no heed as he walked over to the elevators, pressing the button for the penthouse.
"Kook sure knows how to pick his friends," Jin muttered to himself.
He looked in the mirror and hated what was staring back at him. He looked frantic and panicked. He looked like he used to look when he first got Jungkook.
He was drenched from head to toe in rain water. His hair was falling all over his eyes, his shirt was sticking to his body and his briefcase had droplets of rainwater falling from it. He ran his hands through his hair, trying to get some of the water out, but the elevator dinged, announcing the penthouse floor and the doors opened up.
He walked out of the elevator, hoping that Jimin wouldn't judge him too much. It had just been a very long day and Jin wanted nothing more than to take a shower, cuddle with Jungkook and sleep.
He rang the doorbell and waited outside. He could faintly hear excited, muffled screams of children and immediately a smile graced his face.
The door opened and the first thing he heard was, "Is it KooKoo's daddy?"
"I don't know baby, I have to open and check." A low, almost familiar voice rang out.
"Hi. I'm so sorry but-"
"Sir?" Jin said, surprised, mouth agape.
"You're Jungkook's father?"
"And you're Taehyung's father..." Jin said with a nod.
"Small world." Namjoon commented.
"It is." Jin said, awkwardly standing outside his house, "Umm, I just wanted to say sorry. I didn't know that Jimin was your nanny and I was late to picking up Jungkook today and-"
"Why don't you come in," Namjoon said, moving to one side, opening the door wider.
"Oh no sir, I couldn't possibly-I mean it's not you-I just don't-" Jin stuttered in surprise, tumbling over his words, unsure of what the right protocol was in this scenario.
"You're drenched, Seokjin. Come in, dry off and then we'll talk," Namjoon said with a polite smile.
"Th-Thank you, sir," Jin said, clearing his throat, walking into his house.
"Daddy! Daddy! I missed you!" Jungkook said, running up to Jin but stopping right in front of him, "Daddy did you shower?"
"No baby, daddy walked in the rain and got all wet." Jin explained.
"Daddy you're gonna get an owie and have to see the doctor and take yucky mecine."
"It's medicine, Kookie," Jin corrected with a smile, leaning down and kissing Jungkook's forehead, "And daddy missed you too."
Namjoon walked out of a room and passed Jin a big, white fluffy towel along with some sweatpants and a shirt, "I didn't know what size you were but this seems about right."
"Sir, you really don't have to-"
"Sorry?" Jin asked, eyes going wide.
"We're not at work anymore, Seokjin," Namjoon said with a smile, "Your kid is at my house and he's friends with my kid. I have a feeling we'll be seeing a lot of each other, so, it's not sir; It's Namjoon."
"O-Oh." Jin said, nodding, "Uhh. Thank you, Na-Namjoon."
"The bathroom is over there. Second door to your right."
Jin just nodded, his legs taking over as if having a mind of his own.
After getting changed, drying his hair, and putting his clothes in the plastic bag that Namjoon provided, Jin walked out to see Jungkook and Taehyung sitting down on the floor with a plate of chips on one side and a bunch of lego's on the floor.
"Thank you, Namjoon," Jin said again as he approached him.
"No problem at all," He said with a smile, "Honestly, you would have done the same."
"I'll just take Jungkook and we'll get out of your hair." Jin said, feeling like he overstayed his welcome.
"Jin, can I ask you something?" Namjoon said just as Jin grabbed his briefcase off the floor.
"Yes, sir? Uhh, I mean, yes Namjoon, sir."
"Is Jungkook the reason you're hesitating on taking the job?" Namjoon asked, glancing over at Jungkook who was holding up a red lego to Taehyung.
"Honestly," Jin said, "Yes. I can't work long hours. You saw what happened today. I can't leave him. He's all I have and I'm all he has. I don't have enough money for a nanny, or a babysitter even."
"Jimin can help, you know?"
"Why are you pushing so hard on this?" Jin asked, "I'm sure anyone else in the office would be glad to take on the extra work. All I'd be is a burden to the team. I won't be able to give it my all and it'll be detrimental to everyone involved."
"I'm pushing hard because I know you can do it. I've seen the contracts you've taken on and I even looked at your resume. You went to law school!"
"I dropped out of law school." Jin corrected.
"You had a perfect score up till final year." Namjoon said.
"Up till I got Jungkook," Jin whispered, "Look, I've tried to have it all and it didn't work. I'm fine where I am-"
"But are you happy?"
"Are you happy where you are?" Namjoon asked, eyes soft.
"With all due respect, sir, we don't know each other well enough to be having this conversation." Jin said, walking over to Jungkook, "Come on, Kookie. Get your backpack. It's time to go home."
"But daddy, Taetae and I are building a rocket!" Jungkook whined.
"Jungkook." Jin said, tone harsh and low like a warning, "We're going home."
Jungkook pouted, bottom lip trembling slightly but he knew this tone well enough to know that it meant that Jin's decision was final.
"Thank you for everything, sir." Jin said, "And I'm sorry for the trouble. I'll see you at work tomorrow."
With the plastic bag and briefcase in one hand, and Jungkook's tiny, chubby hand in another, Jin walked out of Namjoon's house.
"He sure is a stubborn one." Namjoon muttered to himself.
"Papa." Taetae called out, holding out a green lego to Namjoon, a silent invitation to play with him.
"What are we building, buddy?"
"Rocket." Taehyung said, looking for other pieces in the pile on the floor.
"Jungkook's a nice boy." Namjoon commented.
"His daddy is like you papa." Taehyung said.
"What do you mean?" Namjoon asked.
"KooKoo only has a daddy." Taehyung said looking at Namjoon, a small lego person in his chubby hold, "Just like how Taetae only has papa."
Henlo it me the author ahaha so basically i do these end notes called Insights into the writing where my last two braincells are just like unfiltered so if you wanna read this then go ahead otherwise just click awayyy anygay here we gooo
INSIGHTS INTO THE WRITING
im such a slut for parent aus like honestly they're my one weakness ahaha
Dany, Rags if you're reading this...fancy is currently playing and i blame you.
oop i wonder if anyone got that or maybe it sounded better in my head
theres this fanacc called @kookiechimm on twitter and honestly their fanarts are the best and lowkey how i imagine kook
im literally basing baby kook on my 4 year old nephew
the way scene 1 is 2.3k words bc i cant control myself
shallow is playing and im belting it out ayyy
send my new to your lover treat her better gotta let go
scene 2 boom done
okay but like lawyer jin...the flavour
oop scene 3 ended a little cliffhangery there i wonder whats gonna happen no genuinely i do
for those people who read Bruises Fade there's a good reminder in there ayyy
wind flower wind wind flower oh oh ohhhh
Yaas mamamooooooo GO OFF
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Jin was late.
That was the only way to explain it. His routine that he cultivated, and perfected over the last two years was ruined in the span of one night, and all because of one Kim Namjoon, CEO of the company that he worked in.
Even though he was awake before his alarm was supposed to ring at 6.55am, he couldn't get out of bed. He physically, could not get out of bed. He didn't want to go to work. He didn't want to walk into that office and have to see Namjoon. He didn't think he could handle it. He didn't want to see his face, he didn't want to have to pretend like he didn't know he was his son's best friends dad. He didn't want to have to pretend like he didn't know what the inside of his house looked like, that he didn't know what his towels felt like, like he didn't know what the feel of his clothes felt like on his skin, or how they smelt freshly laundered or even how deep his dimples were.
He didn't have the energy to pretend.
Jin just wanted to get through the day at work so that he could pick up his son from Kindergarten and go home and watch cartoons with him and cook him dinner and cuddle as Jungkook fell asleep on him.
He wanted his day to be normal again. But somehow, he got the feeling that after meeting Kim Namjoon, things were going to change, and for his sake, he really hoped he was wrong.
And that's how Kim Seokjin ended up strapping Jungkook into the car and driving him to Kindergarten. Because they were off schedule and wouldn't make it in time if they had walked like Jin usually liked to do.
It was all Kim Namjoon's fault. Jin already hated that guy and his stupid lavender smelling soft, oversized sweater that Jin had already washed and folded neatly in a paper bag that he was going to return to Namjoon.
"Iron man save me!" Jungkook said in a high pitched voice from the carseat at the back with his Iron Man action figure as high as he can hold it, "Iron Man is coming! Boom! Poosh! Boom, boom! Night night bad guy!"
Jungkook imitated loud explosions making his little action figure fly around him, diving down before flying up and diving again.
Jin snuck a glance from the rear view mirror, smiling, as he kept driving.
"Wow, Kookie," Jin said, "Iron Man sure is busy today. First the saved the pirate cereal from the milk monster and now he's saving someone else from explosions?!"
"Is not a exploshun daddy!" Jungkook was quick to correct, "Is a big fire! It go everywhere!"
"Big fire," Jin repeated, trying to stifle a chuckle, "Where's Iron Man going now?"
"To Kindygarten with me!"
"Are you sure you want to take your favourite Iron Man toy with you, baby? You're going to have to take extra good care of it," Jin warned him as he pulled over, turning the engine off.
"I do!" Jungkook said, holding the toy close to his chest, "TaeTae said he want to see Iron Man and I said okay 'cause we're bess friends!" Jungkook told him, doe brown eyes sparkling.
Jin started to unstrap Jungkook from the carseat, "You have to make sure you don't lose Iron Man okay? Daddy's not going to buy you another one."
"KooKoo promise!" Jungkook said, holding up his chubby pinky finger to his dad.
Jin didn't know when it began, but one day when he asked Jungkook something and made him promise, Jungkook stuck out his pinky finger and with his wide, doe brown eyes and a small pout he said, in the cutest little voice, "Kookoo pwomise." And ever since then, Jungkook has done a Kookoo promise whenever Jin has asked him to be careful of something. And every single time he did it, Jin melted a little on the inside, and could never even attempt to get stern with him.
"Okay baby," Jin said, kissing Jungkook's chubby, slightly pink cheeks as he carried him from the carseat into his arms. Jungkook looped his arms around Jin's neck, hitting him with the Iron Man action figure, but Jin was used to it. He just reached slightly into the car and got Jungkook's bag pack out, making sure that his bottle and snacks were inside before shutting the door and setting Jungkook down on the ground.
"Want daddy to carry your bag, or do you want to do it yourself?" Jin asked, locking the car door.
"Kookoo can do it! I'm a big boy now daddy!"
"Yes you are, baby," Jin said, putting the bag pack on Jungkook. "Hold daddy's hand, okay? No running like you did yesterday."
Jungkook nodded, holding Iron Man tighter in one hand and Jin's big hand in his other.
"I'm gonna show Taetae Iron Man today and then Taetae and I will play Avengers like we did with Taetae's Papa and ChimChim too! And then Taetae and I will have Oreos and then I will play with Taetae Hulk toy and then we will go to Taetae's house again!" Jungkook said all in one breath, tumbling over his excited words, jumping around as he told Jin what his plans were.
Jin could barely keep up with Jungkook's excited ramblings but he caught a couple of words here and there.
"Baby, who's ChimChim?" Jin asked.
"ChimChim!" Jungkook said, pointing his chubby finger that was holding Iron Man out.
"Good morning Jin!" Jimin greeted, bright and smiley, with Taehyung's hand in his.
Jungkook squirmed out of Jin's hold, and ran as fast as his chubby legs would carry him over to Taehyung screaming about the Iron Man toy in his grasp.
"Morning ChimChim," Jin said as he walked closer to Jimin, "Hey, listen, about yesterday-"
"Don't even think about apologising or thanking me, or I swear-" Jimin threatened emptily, with crescented eyes and a dimpled smile.
"Let me buy you coffee or something then," Jin said, "It's the least I could do as a good friend."
"I'd like that," Jimin told him.
"Daddy lookie! Taetae brought Hulk!" Jungkook marvelled, waddling over to Jin, one hand gripping Iron Man, and the other Hulk.
"Wow, Kookie! You're going to have so much fun today, aren't you?" Jin said, leaning down and kissing Jungkook's chubby cheek. He would never get enough of peppering Jungkook with kisses. It was his favourite thing to do, second only to cuddling a sleepy Koala Jungkook in the morning.
The warning bell rang and Jungkook let out a gasp as his teacher walked out.
"Say goodbye to your parents everyone! It's circle time!"
"Good to see you Teacher Jung!" Jin called out with a wave.
"Dinner with Yoon soon, Jin?" Hoseok asked.
"Can't argue with the teacher now can I?" Jin said with a laugh.
"Bye daddy!" Jungkook said quickly, as Hoseok called him over.
"Have fun today, Kookie! Daddy will be right here after Kindergarten okay?"
"Love you daddy!" Jungkook waved, walking into the classroom.
"He's a cute kid," Jimin said, with a soft smile.
"He is." Jin said proudly.
"I didn't know that you knew the teacher," Jimin commented, absentmindedly playing with the leaves near the gate of the Kindergarten.
"Oh, Hoseok?" Jin said, "Yeah, we go way back! Him, me and my best friend Yoongi were in college together. They actually dated for a bit before they realised they were better off as friends. You'd like Yoongi actually. He's...Yoongi."
"Descriptive," Jimin said with a laugh.
"We should do coffee together! Trust me, it's impossible not to like Yoongi." Jin said, "Trust me. I've tried."
"Name the time and place, and I'll be there," Jimin said with a smile.
Jin sat in his car, sighing as he tried to hype himself up to go to work.
"You can do this, Kim Seokjin," He said to himself, hands gripping the steering wheel tight until his knuckles went white, "You're a 24 year old man who's had this job for years! You are not about to let someone younger than you make you feel like crap about your perfectly normal desk job!"
Jin leaned back, letting go of the steering wheel.
"There's no harm in quitting right? I mean, quitting means I get to spend more time with Jungkook, and play with him! Oh my god, if I quit, I get to sleep in!" Jin thought out loud before groaning, "But if I quit, then who the hell is going to earn money? I can't live off Yoongi. Unless..."
He shook his head adamantly, "Nope. Nope. No! I cannot live off Yoongi!"
He ran his hands over his face.
"I need to work," He sighed, "I made a promise to Ji Hye and I can't just...Okay no, it won't be that bad. I can do this! All I have to do is ignore my boss and pretend he doesn't exist.I need this job. I need the money. Jungkook needs food and water and ice cream and Iron Man and I am not about to be the worlds worst father because I can't put up with some stupid punk who has the softest goddamn towels in the whole wide world! How the hell does he get his towels so goddamn soft?! Is it fabric softener!?"
He turned the engine off, and took the keys out, reaching over to the passengers seat to grab his briefcase.
"You got this. You got this. You can do this." He kept muttering to himself as he got out of the car and locked it, walking over to the lift near the car park.
He wasn't late. He could still clock in by 9am. All he had to do was survive for 8 hours and 2 minutes. He could totally survive for 8 hours and 2 minutes.
The lift dinged and opened its metal doors. Jin got in, pressing the 8th floor before pressing the close button. Just before
"Hold the lift!"
Jin pressed the close button repeatedly, hoping that the lift would listen to him and actually close so he could avoid any contact whatsoever.
"Thanks!" Namjoon said as he slid in, standing next to Jin, "Do you mind pressing-"
Before Namjoon could even finish, Jin pressed the button for the 10th floor wordlessly, taking an unconscious step away from Namjoon.
"Good morning, Jin."
Jin stuck his tongue into the side of his cheek, wondering when exactly he made the transition from Seokjin to Jin. He didn't remember giving permission to Namjoon to call him that.
With a forced smile and a very strained voice he greeted Namjoon, for the sake of his job.
"Good morning Mr. Kim."
"Did you get home alright last night? The rain was horrible." Namjoon said, making small talk,enjoying the way Jin tried to remain pleasant.
"I did. Thank you."
"And what about Jungkook-"
"He's good too. Got home alright." Jin answered, looking at the numbers go up on the lift, trying to mentally ascertain how long this conversation would have to continue.
"He had fun at mine with Taehyung last night," Namjoon said, "We should organise a-"
The lift dinged and announced the floor.
"Excuse me." Jin said quickly and exited the lift as soon as he could, walking fast to his office, closing the door harshly behind him.
He dropped his briefcase and let out a huge sigh of relief.
Only 7 hours and 59 minutes left.
Jin already wanted to give up. How was this meant to get any easier?
Namjoon wasn't an idiot. He knew that Jin was avoiding him. He couldn't help but feel guilty that he was.
It was Namjoon's fault, really. He shouldn't have been so inappropriate. He was trying to be a gracious host but Namjoon, again, just had this problem where he can't keep his mouth shut, especially when he sees wasted potential. And that's exactly what he saw in Jin.
He saw this amazing, bright, kind and caring guy who was stuck in a job that was so clearly beneath him, and he couldn't for the life of him, figure out why. He read over Jin's folder again and again wondering who the hell hired him in such a crappy job! The pay wasn't that great, his hours were stunted and all he was doing was looking over contracts and trying to get people to sign them. Jin could do so much more and Namjoon knew that he could! All he needed was a little push and Namjoon was going to be the one to do it.
But after yesterday, and seeing Jin hesitate after Namjoon told him about the extended, unfixed hours, he knew that, Jin was going to turn his down. And for the life of him, he couldn't understand why! The promotion was offering a bigger office! A fatter paycheck! Endless opportunities! Hell, Jin was going to move an entire floor up! How could he say no?! Namjoon just didn't understand it. He thought about it the whole way home, and even while he was playing with Taehyung and his new friend. He kept asking himself what part of this entire offer didn't appeal to Jin. Was it the way he put the hours across? Was it the fear that was taking Jin over? Did he need more encouragement?
And then he saw it.
He was the reason Jin was saying no. It was a completely valid reason and Namjoon understood completely. He saw the eyebags under Jin's eyes. He saw the tense shoulders and the frantic, panicked look in his eyes. He also saw the smile on his face the second he saw Jungkook. He saw the fond look, and the love in his eyes. He saw the soft kisses and the ruffles of hair. He saw just how much Jin cared for the kid.
And Namjoon understood completely.
How could he not? Namjoon had Taehyung. And just like Jungkook was to Jin, Taehyung was to Namjoon - Everything. He was his everything and he knew it was the other way around too.
But somehow, Namjoon could sense that there was more to this than just a job. It wasn't just a way to make money for Jungkook and him. He could sense that Jin wasn't completely happy and he didn't know why. Was it the job? Was it the fact that just like Namjoon, Jin knew he too could be doing better and he too could be climbing the corporate world. That he was meant for this, and yet he didn't want to try.
Namjoon couldn't quite place his finger on it. And that's why he asked the question.
"Are you happy?"
If Namjoon blinked, he would have missed the way Jin's face went from blank, to understanding, to surprise and then sadness. It wasn't the sadness you felt just because you were sad. It was deeper than that. It was as if something in Jin's life was missing and he didn't want to admit it. And then it went blank again. All in the span of a couple of seconds.
The next thing he knew, Jin walked out the door.
And now here he was, standing near the lift of the 8th floor, trying to pretend like he wasn't waiting for Jin to walk out of his office.
It was pathetic that he's been waiting for a couple of minutes already, pretending like he was doing random rounds to try and get to know more people in the office seeing as how he just took over the job, but something in his gut was telling him that Jin was worth the trouble. And his gut has never been wrong before.
He heard a shut of the door followed by shuffle of footsteps before the button to the lift turned bright red with a soft beep.
"Ah, Jin," Namjoon said, walking to the lift, "Going down too?"
"Yes sir." He gritted out trying not to roll his eyes.
Namjoon couldn't help but smile at this little push and pull game they were doing.
"Have an answer for me yet?" Namjoon asked him.
"It's only Tuesday, sir." Jin said, putting on his best poker face, "I have till the end of the week."
"That you do," Namjoon said with a nod, pushing his thick black glasses up the bridge of his nose, "You know, Jin, I just realised that I offered you the position without showing you exactly what you'd be doing."
"Sir?' Jin asked, confused, eyebrows furrowing, making a wrinkle appear on his forehead, that Namjoon found himself wanting to make disappear.
He shook his head. He couldn't be caught being so unprofessional, especially in the workplace! He was the boss for god's sake!
"Tomorrow at 11." Namjoon said with a smile, "Meet me in my office. I hope you don't have lunch plans."
Jin just blinked at him, staring blankly at Namjoon as if wondering what just happened.
"Your lift is here." Namjoon said with a cocky smirk, backing away from the lift, "I'll see you tomorrow, Jin."
Namjoon turned on his heel and walked the other way, feeling Jin's eyes bore into his back, following his movement as the lift door closed, leaving him behind.
"Stupid, cocky, designer suit wearing, fake glasses having piece of sh-"
"Daddy! Daddy!" Jungkook screamed in glee as he door to the Kindergarten opened and a flood of kids rushed out, waiting to see if their parents were waiting for them behind the gates.
"Kookie!" Jin said, anger melting away as he saw Jungkook and his giant backpack running towards him.
"Daddy, I mithed you!" Jungkook said, running into Jin's arms as Jin hugged him tight, placing kisses on his chubby cheeks.
"I missed you too, sweetie!"
Jungkook pulled back from the hug and launched off into all of the details that he did in Kindergarten, as Jin strapped him up into the carseat.
"And then, and then, and then, Teacher Jung tolded us to count to 5 and I did, daddy! I went one, two, tree, pour, fhive!" Jungkook said, voice going higher as he stuck his fingers out counting slowly, "And then, and then, Teacher Jung said I did good! And then he gave me one whole gold star, daddy! He said I did good! And then daddy I counteded more! I went six, seven, ate, nine, and then I said ten! And daddy, it was Kookie and TaeTae that kepted on counting! Me and TaeTae got a whole two stars on the star chart daddy!"
"Wow Kookie!" Jin exclaimed, sneaking a glance through the rearview mirror at Jungkook who was practically shaking with excitement, "Two stars on the star chart! I'm so proud of you baby!"
And he was. Jin really, and truly was. To be honest, Jin wasn't very confident in his parenting skills. He didn't know if he was built to be a father or not. All this time, even after all of the parenting classes that he took, dragging Yoongi along with him, even after reading all of those books and watching YouTube videos, hoping to find answers, scouring through almost every single parenting blog or website that there was; Jin still didn't know what he was doing. He was winging everything. Yoongi had said that no one actually knew what they were doing. Parenting doesn't really come with a manual. It comes with love, and affection, and a natural gut instinct that leads us through it. But Jin still didn't know. He didn't know if he had that feeling or not. But he did know one thing - That he would never stop trying. He loved Jungkook, since day one. He was there when Jungkook was born, waiting right outside. And he was sure that he would do everything in his power to be there for Jungkook every step of the way.
"Daddy, 'm hungry." Jungkook complained with a pout, swinging his little chubby legs.
"What does my precious two star gold collecting baby want for snacks, hmm?" Jin asked, parking the car, turning around to look at Jungkook.
"Chocky milk!" Jungkook declared with a grin, "And Oreos too!"
Jin looked at him, expectantly.
"Peas!" Jungkook said, smiling widely, cheeks chubbing up, doe brown eyes wide, sparkling with innocence.
Jin could've sworn that he melted right there and then. Saying no to this kid would always be hard.
"Come on baby, I'll get you some snacks." Jin said, turning the engine off as he exited the car, going to unstrap his son from the carseat.
He didn't know what was going to happen tomorrow with Namjoon, or even what Namjoon wanted to show him. But there was no way that Jin was giving this up. Any of this!
He wasn't about to give up waking up early in the morning just so Jungkook had extra cuddle time. He wasn't going to give up watching Jungkook try and decide between the same two cereals in the morning, always ending up picking the same thing anyway. He wasn't going to give up reminding Jungkook about his 'please' and 'thank yous'. He wasn't going to give up taking him to Kindergarten and watching him wave goodbye with excited, sparkling eyes. He wasn't going to give up picking Jungkook up, with those exact same eyes greeting him, or when Jungkook rambled on excitedly about his day, stumbling over his words because he couldn't talk fast enough to match his excitement. He wasn't going to give up chocolate milk and oreos and hugs and kisses.
Because taking that job meant working more, which meant that he would have to change his entire schedule to accommodate his job, and not Jungkook. Jungkook was and always will be his number one priority, and no amount of money, or person, could ever change that.
Jin didn't care if he was happy or not. All he cared about was that Jungkook was happy, and healthy and loved.
"He wants what?" Yoongi asked him, taking a sip from his beer bottle while Jungkook coloured in the living room with the television playing in the background.
"Wants me to meet him at 11 at his office tomorrow." Jin mumbled, "I don't even know what he wants! Or why he can't leave me alone!"
"It's obvious, isn't it? He wants you to take that damn promotion!" Yoongi answered.
"It's not that simple, Yoongs," Jin sighed, "This isn't just my decision to make-"
"I know, Jin," Yoongi cut him off before he could even say anything, "I know that you have Kook to think about and I know that you only want to put him first, but god, it's a damn good offer! Think about it! You'd be earning more! You'd have a good-"
"Money isn't everything."
"Money is what keeps this roof over your head." Yoongi deadpanned, "There's only so long an insurance payout can last, Jin."
"I'm doing fine!" Jin hissed out.
"When's the last time you got laid, huh?"
"That has nothing to do-"
"Fuc-" Yoongi started but cut himself off, taking a quick glance at Jungkook who was humming, oblivious in his own world, trying to stay inside the lines as he coloured the cloud red, "Firetruck hell, Jin! You can't keep being miserable forever!"
"Why does everyone think I'm unhappy?! I'm fine! I'm happy! I have Jungkook! I have you! I don't need anyone else!" Jin yelled out, slamming his beer bottle down onto the counter a little louder than necessary.
"Who's everyone?" Yoongi asked.
"You said everyone thinks you're unhappy. Who's everyone?" Yoongi repeated.
"Namjoon asked me last night if I was happy..." Jin admitted, taking a large swig from the neck of the beer bottle, the burn hardly affecting him anymore.
"And when exactly did Mr Kim say that?"
"When I was picking up Jungkook from his house." Jin admitted, "Surprise, surprise! He's the infamous TaeTae's father. Wohoo. The universe really firetrucking hates me, doesn't it?"
"Do you believe in fate, Jin? Maybe even destiny?'
"Oh shut the firetruck up." Jin muttered out, rolling his eyes.
"All I'm saying," Yoongi said, "Is to hear him out with an open mind."
"Yoongi, you saw what happened the last time-" Jin said, eyes pricking with tears from the memory that still haunted him to this day, that still caused him to lie awake at night, to want so badly to turn back time and redo everything.
"You can't keep punishing yourself for that, Jin," Yoongi said, sympathy filling his eyes, "You're not the same person you were back then. And look at him, Jin. Look at Jungkook! He's a happy kid! He's healthy! But most importantly, he's right here. In front of us."
As if on cue, Jungkook set his crayon down, grabbing the paper and running over to Yoongi with bright eyes and a giggle.
"Uncle Yoo! Uncle Yoo!" Jungkook called out.
"There's my little Iron Man!" Yoongi said with affection lacing his every syllable.
"Lookie! I maded you this!"
"You did?" Yoongi said with a gasp, taking the paper from Jungkook's outstretched hands, marvelling at it as if it were the Mona Lisa itself, "Woah! This is the bestestest drawing I have ever seen in my whole life! Oh my god! Our little Jungkookie Iron Man is a painter!"
Jungkook giggled, eyes crescenting.
"Jin, you better call the newspapers! Look how amazing this drawing is! Everyone should see it! You should hang it up on the fridge, Jin!" Yoongi said.
Jungkook gasped, "Daddy, are you and Uncle Yoo really gonna put the drawing I maded on there?"
"Of course sweetie," Jin said, taking the drawing from Yoongi's hands and the magnet that was hanging on the fridge, "Everyone needs to see how amazing our little KooKoo bear is and how well you can draw, right?"
Jungkook just nodded, still in disbelief that his drawing was on the fridge.
"Tell you what, Kookie," Yoongi said, leaning down and picking him up in his arms, "If you finish all of your veggies for dinner today, Uncle Yoo will take you out for ice cream. Can you do that for me?"
"With sprinkles?!" Jungkook asked excitedly.
"Anything you want, kiddo." Yoongi promised.
"I want sprinkles, Uncle Yoo!" Jungkook asked, putting his chubby fingers on Yoongi's cheeks, "Peas."
"Promise." Yoongi said, practically melting on the spot. Truth be told, this kid could ask Yoongi for the moon and he would still find a way to get it for him. He was truly wrapped around his chubby little finger, and has been ever since the first night he saw him sleeping in his crib after Jin introduced him.
"Daddy! Uncle Yoo said that Kookie could have ice cweam with sprinkles!" Jungkook told his dad, eyes blooming with excitement.
"I heard," Jin said with a strained smile on his face, knowing how much sugar Jungkook already had today.
"What?" Yoongi said, shrugging, "Don't look at me like that! I said ice cream after dinner and veggies!"
Jin just glared deeper at Yoongi.
"You try saying no to the kid, you monster!" Yoongi grumbled.
"Don't worry Uncle Yoo! Iron Man save you from monster!" Jungkook said, gasping at the 'm' word, squirming to get off Yoongi's lap, to get his Iron Man action figure from the table he was colouring on.
"You hear that, Jin? Iron Man's coming!" Yoongi said, cocking an eyebrow at Jin, "He'll protect me from your monster glare."
Jin loved Jungkook, he really did, with all of his heart and soul, Jin loved his son. But it was times like these where he wondered just how much he loved Jungkook.
"Baby shark dodododododo. Baby shark dododododo, baby shark dododododo." Jungkook sang over and over from the carseat, making his Iron Man action figure dance along to his off beat rendition of Baby Shark.
"Kookie, sweetheart," Jin said in a sweet voice, cringing at how irritating that song truly was. He wanted to strangle whoever made it.
"Yes daddy?" Jungkook asked brightly, smiling, eyes rounded and sparkling.
"Baby, do you want to try singing another song? Any other song?" Jin nearly begged.
Jungkook thought about it for a second and then shook his head, "No tank ewe."
He took a deep breath and kept singing the same line over, and over, and over, and over again.
"Baby shark dododododo. Baby shark dododododo. Baby shark doododododo. Baby shark dodododododo."
Jin wanted to be mad, he really did, but he couldn't. Jungkook was just too polite.
When they reached the Kindergarten, Jin parked the car and turned the engine off, before walking to unstrap Jungkook from his carseat.
"Yeah, baby?" Jin asked, undoing the straps.
"TaeTae said he would play Avengers with me today." Jungkook told him.
"Really? Are you excited?"
"TaeTae said he would be Hulk and I would be Iron Man," Jungkook said, fiddling with his Iron Man toy.
"Wow! Are you going to save the world like Iron Man does?"
"I like Iron Man," Jungkook said, looping his arms around Jin's neck as Jin carried him from the seat, reaching over to get his backpack, "Daddy, do you like Iron Man?"
"I like Iron Man, but you know who I love?" Jin asked.
"I love you!" Jin said, peppering Jungkook's chubby, slightly flushed cheeks with kisses as Jungkook giggled loudly, squirming in Jin's hold.
"Stop! Daddy stop!" Jungkook giggled, trying to push away from the kiss attack.
"Ready for Kindergarten, baby?" Jin asked, putting Jungkook down, looping his backpack on.
"Daddy will I get a gold star today?"
"If you're a good boy I'm sure Teacher Jung will give you a gold star."
"Does Teacher Jung like Iron Man?" Jungkook asked, eyes wide with curiosity.
"Let's ask Teacher Jung, okay?" Jin said, pushing the gate open, walking hand in hand with Jungkook.
"Good morning Jungkook! Are you ready to say hello to the day?" Hoseok asked with a wide grin.
"Good morning Teacher Jung! I'm ready to say hello to the day!" Jungkook cheered along to their morning song.
"Hey Hobi," Jin greeted.
"Hey Jinnie," Hoseok said with a smile, "No Yoongi today?"
"He's on some big case, didn't really sleep the night," Jin explained.
"Heard you have a meeting today with a certain CEO," Hoseok said, wagging his eyebrows.
"It's nothing like that," Jin told him rolling his eyes, "It's just that he's such a di-"
"Daddy, daddy! Ask Teacher Jung!" Jungkook said, pulling on Jin's trousers.
"Ask Teacher Jung what, Jungkookie?" Hoseok said, crouching down to eye level.
"Do you like Iron Man?" Jungkook asked, thrusting out his Iron Man action figure.
"I do like Iron Man!" Hoseok said with a bright nod.
"Is he your fa-your favo-uhh.." Jungkook said, seemingly stuck at the word. He looked up at Jin with wide eyes and a pout that was only growing deeper.
"Favourite." Jin corrected with a fond look in his eyes as he broke the word down for Jungkook to follow, "Fa-vou-ri-te."
Jungkook looked up at Jin and then nodded furiously, "Is Iron Man your bestestest superhero?!"
"Iron Man is my second bestestest superhero!" Hoseok told him, "I like Captain America."
"Daddy!" Jungkook pouted.
"People are allowed to like different hero's Kookie. You like Iron Man, TaeTae likes Hulk and Teacher Jung likes Captain America," Jin said, "Isn't that nice, Jungkook? How everyone likes different things?"
"Daddy, who do you like?" Jungkook asked.
"I like Jungkook the bestestestest!" Jin said, ruffling Jungkook's hair, "He's my favourite superhero!"
"Daddy's silly," Jungkook said with a giggle, holding his Iron Man close to him.
"Good morning everyone," Jimin greeted as he held walked in holding Taehyung's hand.
"Taetae!" Jungkook said excitedly, running up to him and hugging him.
"KooKoo!" Taehyung mimicked his excitement, hugging him equally tight, his Hulk action figure against Jungkook's back.
"Good morning Taehyung! Are you ready to say hello to the day?" Hoseok greeted with a bright smile.
"Good morning Teacher Jung! I'm ready to say hello to the day!" Taehyung replied with a wide, boxy grin.
"ChimChim?" Jungkook asked, pulling away from Taehyung.
"ChimChim do you like Iron Man the bestestest?" Jungkook asked, sticking out his action figure at him.
"No! ChimChim like Hulk the bestestest!" Taehyung demanded.
"No! ChimChim like Iron Man!" Jungkook said, frown growing deeper.
"Taehyung. Jungkook." Hoseok warned in a low, authoritative voice.
Jimin crouched down to eye level and pushed them apart subtly, "I like Iron Man, and I like Hulk too."
"But which one do you like bestestest?" Jungkook demanded.
"I like Thor bestestest." Jimin answered.
"Oh." Jungkook said, mouth almost as round as his eyes were, "Okay."
"Say goodbye to Jimin and daddy you two," Hoseok said, "We're about to start circle time!"
"Come here, Kookie," Jin said, crouching down to hug Jungkook.
"Daddy will you see TaeTae's papa?" Jungkook asked him as he waddled over to Jin.
"I will," Jin said, wanting to groan at the reminder. He had nearly forgot.
"Can you ask TaeTae's papa if he likes Iron Man the bestestest?" Jungkook asked as he hugged Jin goodbye.
"I will try."
Jungkook took Jin's cheeks in his chubby little hands and squished them hard, looking serious, "No try, daddy. Do."
"Okay, I will ask him," Jin said with a nod, trying to hold back a hug, "Now give daddy a kiss before daddy goes to work."
"I love you, daddy," Jungkook said, placing a wet kiss on Jin's cheek.
"I love you too, sweetheart."
Jin stood outside Namjoon's office at 10.57am, waiting for the okay from his secretary to go into the room. He had been dreading this ever since Namjoon fixed the meeting between them. He had wanted nothing more than to leave, or to run away, or literally do anything that did not require him to be here right now.
"Mr Kim?" His secretary said, putting the phone down, "He's ready for you now."
"You watched 50 shades again last night, didn't you?" Jin teased.
"Twice." She said with a grin.
Jin shook his head as he knocked the door.
Jin opened the door, stepping in before shutting it behind him.
"Good morning sir." Jin greeted.
"Morning," Namjoon said with a smile, "Please, sit down."
Jin took a seat opposite Namjoon who pushed up his thick black glasses, laying a file on the table as he straightened his red tie, and leaned back against the chair, making sure not to mess his perfectly styled hair up.
"There's a client coming into the office today with his lawyer because he wants to terminate his contract with us," Namjoon said, placing his hands in front of him, "That's their file. I want you to look through it and familiarise yourself with it, because you're going to help me with this meeting."
"With all due respect sir, isn't this the legal team's problem? I don't see why I should get involved..." Jin trailed off, glancing down at the file as if it would burn if he even went near it.
"It's strategy, Jin," Namjoon said, leaning further back into the expensive black leather clad chair, "If I brought in the legal team, they would immediately get hostile and there would be no saving the deal at all. But if I brought you in, someone who they already have dealt with in the past, and have been happy with, there's more chance that I can save the deal and this business relationship."
"I've dealt with them before?" Jin asked, eyebrows furrowed in confusion as he picked the brown file up, flipping through it, eyes skimming the words on the page.
Namjoon smiled, knowing that Jin's curiosity would get the best of him, and that it would bring one layer of his guard down around him.
"Park Do Hyun." Namjoon said, "You worked closely with him on the-"
"Audacae contract." Jin answered, "I remember. I didn't know he moved to a different company though."
"He got a better offer, got promoted, higher salary, company card benefits..." Namjoon listed out, "You know. The works."
Jin took a couple of minutes to skim over the file, taking in important details, especially of the terms of the contract that they weren't agreeable to, and terms that Namjoon wanted to keep in.
"So, what do you want me to do?" Jin asked, looking up briefly at Namjoon before putting his head down and reading the file again.
"Make sure they don't terminate." Was all Namjoon said.
"What time are they coming?" Jin said, "I need to know if I have enough time to look this over properly and maybe make some notes."
"You have an hour." Namjoon said with a nod, "Conference Room 3. I'll get someone to call you once they're here."
"Thank you, sir." Jin said, grabbing the folder and walking out the door, feeling some sort of excitement that he would never admit.
Do Hyun, his lawyer and Namjoon were sat in the conference room, on opposite sides of each other with some paper in front of them, and pens laid neatly down next to it.
There was a knock on the door followed by Jin walking in, closing the door behind him.
"Sorry for keeping you waiting," Jin apologised politely.
"Kim Seokjin..." Do Hyun said with a smile on his face, "They brought out the big guns today, huh?"
"It's nice to see you again Do Hyun. I trust you've been well, especially with your new job," Jin said with an equally polite smile, placing the brown manilla folder down in front of him as he sat next to Namjoon.
Do Hyun laughed, "It's been a step up from the last company I can tell you that."
"Speaking of company's, what this I hear about you wanting to end things with ours?" Jin segued, taking a copy that he made of the previous contract out, placing it down in front of him.
"Look Jin, you were amazing with the last deal I did with you and the company but I don't think this one is going to work out. The terms just aren't suitable to us anymore and there is no way that we can fix it without terminating the entire contract." Do Hyun said with a sigh.
"You do realise that if you terminate, the damages that you would pay for the breach, and the losses that you would incur would be higher than the actual project, right?" Jin said, smiling politely, but the punch behind the words were harsh.
"We have 60 days before the contract takes force. We are well within our time-" The lawyer started to say but Jin cut him off.
"You had 60 days." Jin corrected, "Those 60 days ended yesterday. If you terminate the contract with us, you would be in breach of a fundamental term thus triggering the repudiation contract clause on page 14, clause 11.6, stating that the breach is entirely your fault and the damages that you would pay would be double, including but not limited to the 8 percent interest per annum for every year that you delay."
Namjoon couldn't help but look on at Jin with pride in his eyes. He knew that he was so much better than just a desk jockey. If Jin could do all of this in one hour, Namjoon couldn't help but wonder just how far Jin could soar.
"The way I see it, we have three options," Jin said, leaning back, "The first is that you terminate the contract, and trigger the repudiation clause, which will not only cause you losses, but will damage your reputation, and knowing how sensitive the stock market is, you would lose shares, and who knows, maybe we'd even start winding up proceedings to try and get the money that you would not be able to pay back. The second option is to continue with the contract as it is."
"Both of those options are undesirable." The lawyer said through gritted teeth, trying to keep his cool.
"I'm aware." Jin said cockily, leaning back further in his chair, "Do Hyun, your relationship to me, business and otherwise, is important. Which is why I'm giving you a third option. Something I wouldn't have given anyone else. But because it's you, I'm willing to compromise."
"How so?" Do Hyun asked, intrigued.
"A supplementary agreement." Jin said, "We draft up a supplementary agreement with mutually agreed clauses, including but not limited to, prices, instalment payments, dates, times, so on and so forth. I'm sure you get the gist of what I'm saying."
Do Hyun looked over to the lawyer, trying to figure out if it was a good legal move for them.
"You're suggesting a collateral contract?" The lawyer asked.
"I'm offering." Jin clarified, "It's a contract that will run side by side with this main one right here. We will state, in this collateral contract that unless otherwise stipulated, the contract remains the same. Whatever is in the collateral contract will be the only changes. That way you're happy, and we're happy, and most importantly our relationship continues. Don't you agree, Do Hyun?"
Do Hyun nodded, clearly impressed with the way Jin handled this, "We won't terminate on one condition."
"Go on." Namjoon said, leaning forward.
"I want Jin to personally handle the contract and anything else that comes along with it," Do Hyun said.
Jin tried to keep his poker face, but was surprised with the condition that Do Hyun had attached. He was sure that it was going to be a money clause or something that reduced the amount that they had to pay.
"Done." Namjoon said immediately.
Do Hyun stood up, followed by his lawyer and then Namjoon and Jin. He stuck his hand out to Namjoon, waiting for the other to accept it.
"You have a keeper here, Mr Kim," Do Hyun said, "I suggest keeping him tight in your fist, otherwise I might just come out and take him from you."
"Oh trust me, Mr. Do," Namjoon said, looking at Jin, "I'll do everything in my power to make sure he doesn't go anywhere."
"Let me show you out, Do Hyun," Jin said, trying to hide the flush in his cheeks.
"Jin, if you ever want to leave-" Do Hyun started.
Jin laughed, "We've been over this Do Hyun, I'm fine where I am. I'm not moving jobs."
"It was just a suggestion," Do Hyun said, shrugging as he left the room.
Jin walked back in and closed the door behind him, walking over to the table to attempt to clean up the mess of papers left behind.
"You were amazing!" Namjoon complimented immediately, "The way you basically laid down the facts and tried to make it seem like you were giving them a choice when really you picked for them."
"Thank you," Jin said, eyes unmoving from the papers that he stacked back neatly in the manilla folder.
"Tell me you didn't enjoy that," Namjoon almost challenged.
"It was nice."
"God Jin, you would be so amazing with this promotion and this is just a slice of what you'd be doing! Jin if you-"
"Mr. Kim," Jin interrupted, voice dropping down to just over a whisper as he said, "Please. I have till the end of the week to decide."
"I know." Namjoon said, "I just can't help but know that you would be amazing in any job that you take up. I saw you just now. I saw the way your eyes lit up and the way you shined, and how you knew that everyone was hanging off every single word that you said. You had power and you weren't afraid to use it. Jin, trust me, if you just say yes, I promise that I will make this so, so worth it."
"I have a lot to think about," Jin said, feeling his heart beat faster and faster, the adrenaline rush he got from the meeting not wearing off yet.
"If there's anything I can do, anything at all to even sway your decision-"
"Do you like Iron Man?" Jin asked, lifting his eyes and looking at Namjoon, his eyes bright and shining as he looked at Jin, glasses slipping down the bridge of his nose, his white shirt slightly crumpled, tie still neatly in place.
"Do you like him? Iron Man, that is..." Jin said, "Is he your favourite Avenger?"
Namjoon smiled, soft and big, dimples deepening with every passing second as he said, "Don't tell Taehyung, but Iron Man is my favourite Avenger. Honestly, no other Avenger comes close."
Jin nodded, as he grabbed the brown folder off the table, turning on his heel, smile unconsciously growing bigger and bigger as he left the room.
Holy shit I can'y believe I hit 1k reads already and its only been 2 chapters?? I'm actually sobbing guys thank you so much!
INSIGHTS INTO THE WRITING
can we all take a minute to talk about Suga's interlude bc im straight up a puddle on the floor
im sneaking in a cheeky little writing sesh before I go watch frozen 2!! im super excited
GUYS FROZEN 2 WAS SO GOOD AND I WAS SO CLOSE TO TEARS AT /THE/ PART AND OH MY GOD I WANNA WATCH IT AGAIN
yes i made a marvel pun no im not apologising for it
scene 1 doneee it wasn't supposed to be a lot of baby kook but im a sucker for babies especially baby kook so here we are no ragrets ayyy
scene 2 doneeee
im listening to the new liam payne album and its pretty chill rlly
oop namjin awkwardness we stan
scene 3 almost doneeee im finishing this last para omg i can't wait to write angst and fluff but the foundation needs to be set hehehe
baby we should say it all say it all
Theres beauty in this broken walls broken walls
my oh my by camila cabello is A FKING BOP AND A HALF
listen man i just wanna write some namjin smut in an office and i-
the counting thing is based on a true story everyone say THANKS Ri's nephew! hes a patootie i miss him
scene 4(?) idk i lost count but yeah its done and im soft and i love baby kook that scene was completely self indulgent btw
okay but like is the ice cream with sprinkles for kook or for me? We will never know
i had such a good day today! Im happy
baby shark do do do do baby shark do do do do
goddammit that stupid baby shark song is stuck in my head now
avengers discourse, bc yes
one more scene to gooooo i promise this avengers discourse will make sense soon
look mom my law degree wasn't useless after all this is honestly great revision for me...was this plot point for me, or the characters i guess we will never know
did i go too deep into the law...i think i went too deep...
1K I WROTE ONE WHOLE K ON JUST LAW EYE-
boom! full circle on the avenger debate ayyy
ITS POSTY POSTY TIMEEE
Hope you guys liked this chapter! Tell me your thoughts! xx
Jin was in the middle of washing dishes, paying attention to the sounds in the background. He couldn't leave Jungkook unattended for too long. Jungkook was a fairly independent child, but he was mischievous and as much as Jin loved that, he also worried that Jungkook would get into some trouble when he wasn't looking.
He heard the television playing in the background and nodded to himself, focusing back on the dishes.
"'Cause the drinks bring back all the memories and the memories bring back, memories bring back you," Jin sang softly to himself, rinsing the soapy, sudsy plate, putting it to one side before moving onto the next one.
He heard pitter patter of little feet followed by a small grunting sound. Jin smiled to himself as he turned only his head around to see Jungkook trying to reach for the cookie jar, attempting to climb the marble counter from the chair.
"My, my, I'm so lucky to have such a good son like Jungkook who will always listen to me," Jin said loudly so that Jungkook could hear him, "Jungkook is such a good little boy who will never take a cookie from the cookie jar without asking me first."
"Oh." He heard Jungkook say from behind him before Jungkook asked loudly, "Daddy, can I ask you a quesh-teaon?"
"Here's my good little boy," Jin said with a grin, "You can ask me anything sweetheart."
"Daddy, can I have a cookie peas?" Jungkook asked him, lips jutted out in a pout, eyes rounded, doe brown, as he blinked, smiling up at Jin.
"You just had dinner, baby," Jin told him.
"Peas daddy!" Jungkook asked again.
"Kookie, you just had dinner and you had a lot of snacks before dinner too." Jin told him, "You can get another cookie tomorrow, okay?"
"I want it now!" Jungkook screamed, hitting his hand on the table, bottom lip trembling, eyes watering at his dad.
"Jungkook." Jin warned.
"Now! I want it now! I want cookie! I want it!" Jungkook started to scream, slumping down into the chair as he started kicking, building up into a full blown tantrum.
Jin sighed. He rinsed his hands, and dried it off, the remainder of the dishes soaking in the sink.
He walked to Jungkook who was getting increasingly uneasy, turning red from his tantrum, kicking and screaming as he cried. Jin crouched down to the chair and carried the crying child into his arms as he walked into Jungkook's room.
"No! No! No! I want cookie! Want! Now! No!" Jungkook kept crying and screaming, squirming and kicking in Jin's hold.
Jin put Jungkook on the bed and crouched down to eye level in front of him. Jin said nothing as he watched Jungkook ride his tantrum out. He said nothing as Jungkook screamed and yelled, and cried and pouted, occasionally stomping and kicking his feet.
Jin still remembered the first time Jungkook had a full blown tantrum. Needless to say, he wasn't ready for it in the least. Jin genuinely didn't know what to do. What made matters worse was the fact that they were in public. Jin was in the middle of a grocery store and Jungkook, who was 2 years old at the time, was in the trolley as Jin was passing by the candy aisle and Jungkook kept reaching out to pick things off the shelf. Jin told him that he couldn't do it and that Jungkook couldn't just pick things off the shelf as he liked. He told him that it wasn't polite. The next thing he knew, Jungkook's bottom lip was trembling and in a split second, he was screaming with all of his might. People stopped and stared at Jin. He could feel their judgemental stares, their little whispers about how badly behaved Jungkook was, and that this was what happened when you let someone's 'brother' take care of a child. There were snarky comments and weird stares sent his way. Jin couldn't take it. He couldn't take the judgement and on top of that, he couldn't take the screaming and the crying and he was lost on what to do. So, he grabbed Jungkook out of the cart, leaving all of the groceries in the cart and left the store.
Jin told himself that he would never let something like that ever happen again. After a long, crying phone call with Yoongi who dropped everything to come to Jin and 2 year old Jungkook's aid, Jin and Yoongi managed to calm Jungkook down. They spent hours and hours afterwards searching the internet and watching Youtube videos, reading excerpts online from whatever parenting book they could find, scoured pages after pages of Google to find parenting blogs on how to calm toddler tantrums and what the best ways were. Jin had a lot of trial and error after that, but he finally found a method that worked.
And here Jin was on, in front of Jungkook, waiting patiently for the tantrum to subside. Jungkook wasn't a bad kid, in fact, Jin got lucky because Jungkook was a pretty easy kid to love and take care of. But at the end of the day, Jungkook was still a child. And every single child had their moments where they were sad, or angry, or overwhelmed and tired, and they were allowed to act out. They are still children, and Jin wasn't going to punish Jungkook for trying to figure out a healthy way to deal with his emotions.
A couple of minutes later, Jungkook had stopped kicking, and a few minutes after that, the screaming subsided, and Jungkook was sat on the edge of his bed, thumb in his mouth as he hiccuped, still trying to calm down from his harsh tantrum.
"Are you feeling better, Kookie?" Jin asked softly.
Jungkook nodded slowly, a stray tear falling down his rounded eyes. He brought his hand up and wiped it away, hiccuping against his thumb.
"Were you sad you couldn't get a cookie?"
Jungkook nodded again, hiccuping again, sucking his thumb.
"I know you were sad you couldn't get a cookie. I would be sad too, but Kookie, you know that daddy wants the best for you, right, baby?" Jin said slowly, "Daddy didn't give you the cookie because you already had a lot of Oreos before dinner, remember? And you also had chocolate milk with the Oreos."
"Bu-But I wanted co-cookie." Jungkook sobbed around his thumb, big fat tears gathering around the rims of his eyes as he blinked with his long lashes.
"I know baby. I know you did." Jin said, carding his fingers through Jungkook's hair, "But you had a lot of cookies today, and too much sugar isn't good for you or your little tummy. You don't want your tumtum to hurt, right, baby?"
"N-No da-daddy," Jungkook said, shaking his head, words muffling against his thumb.
"Good boy, Kookie," Jin said, leaning forward and kissing Jungkook's forehead.
"Yes baby?" Jin said, standing up.
"Do...Do you still luhbe me? Kookie was bad." Jungkook said softly, huge doe brown eyes staring at Jin, scared.
"Oh, my sweet, sweet baby," Jin said, sitting next to Jungkook, carrying the 4 year old in his arms and placing him on Jin's lap, facing Jin, "Kookie, listen to daddy very, very carefully okay? There is nothing you can do or say that will make daddy love you any less. Daddy loves you more than anything in the world!"
"Anything?" Jungkook asked, unsure.
"Anything and everything!" Jin said with a smile.
"Ev-Even more than cereal, daddy?"
"Even more than Iron Man," Jin told him.
"Woah," Jungkook said, eyes growing in size, "Daddy that's a lot."
"Daddy loves you a million billion trillion bajillion!" Jin said in a funny voice.
"Kookoo promise, daddy?" Jungkook asked, holding out his chubby pinky.
"Promise, baby," Jin said, linking his pinky with Jungkook leaning down and peppering kisses all over Jungkook's wet, salty cheeks and forehead.
"Daddy stop! Stop! I bee-leave you!" Jungkook giggled, squirming away from Jin's kisses.
"I love you very, very much Jungkook," Jin said, hugging Jungkook close to him, "And I will always love you no matter what."
"You're the best daddy, daddy," Jungkook said, hugging Jin back, nuzzling his drying face into Jin's neck, "Even when you don't give me cookies."
Jin laughed, "Thank you, baby."
Jin pulled away, taking Jungkook into his arms and walking into the bathroom, "Let's get you into a bath, okay? We're going to get you squeaky clean and then I will give you a nice glass of milk and you can go to sleep."
"Can I have my duckies, daddy?"
"Do you want your Octopus too?"
"Yes peas." Jungkook said excitedly, practically bouncing in Jin's arms, the smile returning on his face, any trace of the tantrum wiped away.
"You look like shit." Was the first thing Yoongi said to Jin as he walked in, passing him a cup of coffee, sitting down in his office on the chair opposite him.
"Thanks." Jin said, grabbing the cup and immediately taking a sip, hissing out in pain as the hot liquid burned his tongue.
"Oh yeah, careful, it's hot." Yoongi said belatedly, smirking at the withering look that Jin sent his way, "What's got you in a shit mood anyway?"
Jin sighed, leaning back in his chair, "It was just a rough night, that's all."
"What happened? Is everything okay? Is Jungkook okay? Is he sick? Did some-" Yoongi launched into all of the questions that came into his mind.
"He's fine. He's alright," Jin quickly reassured knowing that Yoongi cared about Jungkook like he was his own son. He practically raised him with Jin. "He just threw a tantrum. And I thought that I had it until control, until he asked me if I still loved him because 'Kookie was bad.' I don't know where he ever got the idea that I could ever love him less."
"What was the tantrum about?" Yoongi asked.
"He wanted a cookie after dinner and I said no because he already had a lot of sugar during the day," Jin said, "I think he must have been overtired or like I don't know, but all of a sudden he just started screaming and yelling and kicking and I did the usual things! I carried him and took him into his room and closed the door so he could self soothe himself out of it. I sat there and listened to him cry and scream until he stopped. I acknowledged his feelings just like the books said! I talked to him calmly and explained why he couldn't get a cookie and god, Yoongi, you should have seen his face...I'm clearly doing something wrong if my own son thinks that I don't love him."
"Jin, do you remember in college how you were one of the most popular people? You were at every single party, and how you knew anyone and everyone; and the people you didn't know, you'd make it a point to go up to them, introduce yourself and make them your friend. Not just that, god, Jin, you were top of your class! You had everything going for you! Do you remember that?" Yoongi said.
"Yoongi..." Jin sighed, trailing off, "What does any of this have to do-"
"You had all of that and then one day, seemingly out of the blue, you dropped off the face of the Earth. You didn't come to class, you didn't answer your phone, no one saw you at any parties, and you even skipped exams. No one could reach you...People kept asking me about where you were and what happened to you, but even me, your best friend, knew nothing." Yoongi said, "And then I came over, and I got my answer. You got Jungkook. You dropped everything to take care of him. You sacrificed everything for him! You lost friends, and had to drop out of law school, and yet you didn't blame him. You gave that kid everything that he needed and made sure that he wanted for nothing. I've seen you at your worst with him, and still, you had all the love in the world to give him. You knew nothing about caring for a baby, but you still didn't let that stop you. You did your research, endured the judgment, and put up with the stares and whispers and the rumours that went around. You attended classes on childcare, read blogs, bought books, made sure that you were doing everything right."
Jin felt his breath hitch in his throat, tears pricking his eyes at the sincerity of Yoongi's words.
"You're not just a good dad, Jin. You're the best dad, and I can say that without a hint of biasness, because I was there through it all," Yoongi said, leaning over and placing a supporting hand on Jin's hand, "And I know that Jungkook knows this too. He won't admit it, but I'm pretty sure he loves you more than he loves Iron Man."
"I believed you until you said that he loves me more than Iron Man," Jin laughed, wet, as he tried to blink away the tears.
They laughed, the heavy atmosphere leaking out of the cracks in the door.
When the laughter subsided, Yoongi leaned back in his chair and with a small smile and a sip from his cup of coffee, he said, "You're a good father, Jin. You're just too harsh on yourself. This parenting thing doesn't have a strict set of rules. You can only figure out with lots of trial and error. And so far, you're doing a damn good job and if you don't believe me, just look at the evidence. Look how happy and polite and good Jungkook's turned out."
"I'm scared all the time, Yoongi," Jin admitted, voice barely over a whisper as if someone would overhear.
"And that's okay, Jin," Yoongi told him, "It's called being a parent."
"One day, he's going to grow up and ask me where his mother is, and what do I tell him then?"
"I'm scared, Yoongs. I'm so so scared," Jin said, running his hands over his face.
"I know," He said. "All you can is do your best and you're clearly doing that."
"I don't even know what to do about the job offer...." Jin sighed, feeling a weight on his chest, getting heavier every passing second.
"Did you enjoy the meeting yesterday?" Yoongi asked.
"Yoongi, my happiness doesn't matter here! It's Jungkook! If I take that job-"
"Wait, wait, rewind!" Yoongi said, "What do you mean your happiness doesn't matter?"
"It doesn't." Jin said, "Look, all I care about is Jungkook and his happiness and taking this job means that I would be spending less time with him and the entire routine that we created-"
"Jungkook can only be happy if you're happy." Yoongi said, firmly, "If you're not happy, he'll sense that and that would only create tension and unhappiness in the house and we all know hoe they went last time."
Jin felt the blow of Yoongi's words straight to his chest, "Yoongi. That wasn't fair."
"It's true, Jin! You and I both know it."
"I can't take it."
"You have to stop letting fear control you, Jin. This job opportunity will make you happy! It'll give you a bigger, better office. Your talents will finally be shown. You'll finally have a challenge that isn't this stupid desk job that a goddamn monkey could do! More than that, you'll have a better salary." Yoongi said and in a softer voice, he added, "Insurance payouts don't last forever, Jin. Sooner or later, we're going to have to figure out something else."
"Jungkook's growing up." Yoongi said, "He's going to need more things. School, college, new clothes, books...Insurance can't cover everything."
"The hours are going to be longer...I might not be able to be there for Jungkook all the time and I don't like that." Jin sighed.
"We'll figure it out, Jin. We always do. You're not alone in this, you know that. We can do this together." Yoongi comforted.
"I really want the job, Yoongi..." Jin sighed, "And I know it isn't right that I feel guilty about it, but sitting in that meeting yesterday, I can't explain it, but I got this rush and I could feel myself shine, you know? I loved it. I loved every second of it."
Yoongi stood up with a knowing smile on his face, "I think you know what you have to do, Jin. I can't make this decision for you, but whatever you choose, I'll be right there, supporting you."
"Kookie," Jin called out as soon as he put the leftovers from dinner away into the fridge.
"Yes daddy?" Jungkook said, little feet pitter pattering from his room into the kitchen, looking up at his father as he clutched the Iron Man plushie close to him.
"Come here baby, daddy wants to talk to you," Jin said, carrying Jungkook into his arms, walking out into the living room to sit on the couch.
"Am I in twouble, daddy?" Jungkook asked, rounded eyes growing as he tried to think back on what he did.
"No baby you're not," Jin said, placing a soft kiss on Jungkook's forehead, "You're my good boy. You're not in trouble."
"Then?" Jungkook asked as Jin sat down on the couch, putting Jungkook on his lap, carding his fingers softly through Jungkook's dark brown hair.
"Daddy just wants to talk to you about something."
"Is daddy in twouble? Daddy did you not do your homework? Teacher Jung said we must always finish our homework otherwise we no get a gold star," Jungkook said seriously to Jin.
"I did all my homework, Kookie," Jin said with a laugh, "Daddy did all of his homework so well that my boss actually wants to give me more work and put me in a higher class!"
Jungkook thought seriously about this and then said, "I no want to do homework if it means more homework."
Jin laughed, throwing his head back into the soft pillows of the couch, "You must always do your homework, Kookie, okay?"
"Okay, daddy." Jungkook said with a long, drawn out sigh. "I will do my homework."
"That's my good boy," Jin said, ruffling Jungkook's hair as Jungkook smiled at him, bunny teeth on display, eyes crinkling in happiness, "Now listen to daddy very carefully okay, because daddy wants your opinion on this."
Jungkook scrunched his nose in thought and then stuttered out, "What is op-op-"
He huffed in frustration before asking Jin, "Daddy what is onion?"
Jin chuckled. HIs favourite thing about Jungkook was his curiosity and how he would ask Jin a million questions until he was satisfied with his answer.
"It's opinion, Kookie. Not onion. Opinion. Op-in-e-on."
"Op. In. Eeee. On." Jungkook repeated slowly and then tried it again, "Onion."
"Opinion." Jin corrected. His original plan was to talk to Jungkook about how the kid would feel about Jin's new job, but kids being kids would not stay in a straight line. Jin couldn't blame Jungkook. He was young and didn't really have much of an attention span. If there was one thing that really changed about Jin since getting Jungkook - it would be how much patience he has gained. Jin used to huff and puff and get angry when a certain webpage of the internet wouldn't load in 3 seconds. And now he could endure getting asked the same question over and over and over and over and over again, and still answer it with the same smile that he had the first time the question was asked.
"Onion." Jungkook said with a firm nod, thinking that he had said the word correctly.
"An opinion, kookie, is when someone asks you for your thoughts, like if I asked you what you thought about Iron Man, I would be asking you for an opinion." Jin explained to Jungkook, "Understand, baby?"
"I like Iron Man, daddy! He's my bestestest Avenger! Iron Man is strong and red and that's my bestestest colour!" Jungkook said quickly. "Is that my onion daddy?"
"Yes baby, that's your opinion," Jin laughed.
"Can we do another onion?" Jungkook said, practically bouncing on Jin's lap from excitement.
"Okay Kookie, this is a very important onion-I mean opinion, okay? So really, really think about it. We have to put our thinking caps on and really really think hard okay?" Jin told him, readjusting Jungkook on his lap as he leaned back into the sofa.
Jungkook pretended to put a hat on and then nodded at Jin, "My cap is on, daddy. Kookie's ready to think!"
"Here's the question," Jin said, "What if daddy went to the class and got more homework from my teacher? See, if daddy went to the higher class instead of staying in the class now, daddy would have to spend more time in the office, because daddy would have more homework, which means that daddy may not be able to be with you all the time. But daddy would still spend a lot of time with you, just not as much as daddy is spending now."
"Because of the homework?" Jungkook asked, pout forming on his lips.
"Yeah baby, because of the homework." Jin almost sighed, deciding that he couldn't stand the look of sadness on Jungkook's face.
He wouldn't take the job.
He couldn't. Not when he knew that Jungkook wouldn't be happy. What's the point of all of this if Jungkook wasn't happy.
"Do you like homework, daddy?" Jungkook asked him, leaning forward on Jin's lap.
"I do." Jin said with a nod, "I like this homework very much."
"But you would have more homework? And daddy you always say that no play time until all homework is finished, 'memmember?" Jungkook said, stumbling over the word 'remember'.
"That's right baby, no play time until all homework is finished, which is why I might not be able to play with you all the time." Jin explained.
"But we still play some time?" Jungkook asked him, tilting his head slightly.
"We'll still play. Promise."
"Kookoo promise?" Jungkook said excitedly, holding his pinky up.
Jin wrapped his big pinky over Jungkook's little one, leaning down and kissing their intertwined finger, "Promise, darling."
"Will you be happy if you do more homework?" Jungkook asked him.
"I think so, Kookie." Jin answered.
Jungkook climbed onto his chest and kissed his cheek, "I want you to be happy, daddy, because you're the bestestest!"
It was times like these that Jin remembered what him and Yoongi came up with. They called it 'Picture Perfect Parent Moments.' It was the kind of moments that you couldn't get on camera, because even that wouldn't capture the essence of it correctly. It was the kind of moments you kept locked up in your mind, constantly going back on it whenever things felt like they would never be alright again. They were the moments that could never be recreated, but would always be special.
The first time it happened, Jin and Yoongi were exhausted and Jungkook was 14 months old. He was beginning to teeth and had spent the entire night wailing, screaming and sobbing in pain and nothing that they did helped. They followed every single blog to a T and still nothing helped. They put numbing gel on his gums, they gave him a cold teether toy to bite on, they fed him, they changed him, they gave him a normal teether toy to bite on, they gave him baby ibuprofen that they knew was safe because Jungkook's pediatrician recommended it. They did everything and yet, Jungkook kept on screaming and crying and nothing worked!
When Jin had finally gotten him to calm down and was rocking him in his arms, Jungkook pulled away from his shoulder, and took his thumb out of him mouth and placed his hand on Jin's cheek and in the softest baby babble, he said, "Dada."
"Yeah baby," Jin replied, tears in his eyes as he nodded, "I'm your dada."
And this was one of them. With Jungkook lying on Jin's chest as Jin softly patted his back, feeling Jungkook drift off to sleep, hugging both Jin and his Iron Man plushie close to him, sticking his thumb in his mouth, eyes droopy and heavy, but for some reason, he tried to stay awake, Jin thought to himself that he couldn't lose this. He didn't want to. Jungkook was too important to him.
"Da-daddy?" Jungkook said, drawled out, exhaustion lacing his voice.
"You should be sleeping, Kookie," Jin said, still patting his back, knowing that it soothed Jungkook.
"'M not sleepy," Jungkook said, against his thumb.
"Close your eyes sweetheart," Jin said, "It's sleepy time. You need your sleep so you can have so much energy to play tomorrow."
"Will daddy pway with me too?" Jungkook asked, snuggling up closer against Jin, eyes fighting to stay open.
"Of course baby! Daddy will always play with you. Maybe we can see if Uncle Yoo can play too, okay? But you have to sleep first before we can play." Jin told him, feeling Jungkook shift on his chest and pull his legs up slightly, turning his head against Jin's shoulder.
"Na night, daddy," Jungkook said, sucking his thumb, "I love you."
"I love you too baby," Jin said, placing a kiss on Jungkook's hair, "Forever and always."
"'Eber and all-ways." Jungkook repeated, eyes fluttering shut, sucking on his thumb.
And Jin knew that tonight would be another memory to add to his bank of 'Picture Perfect Parent Moments.'
Jin held Jungkook's hand as they walked out of the subway station to walk to Jungkook's Kindergarten. It was a nice day and he honestly didn't feel like driving, plus they were way ahead of schedule today since Jungkook had slept early the night before.
Jungkook stopped in the middle of the sidewalk and Jin turned to look at him.
With his doe brown wide, bambi eyes, rounded, doubled in size and a small pout, Jungkook held both his hands up, and in the softest voice, he said, "Up."
"You don't want to walk?" Jin asked him.
"Daddy, up." Jungkook said again, pout deepening, eyes big and round.
Jin could resist many, many things in life, but Jungkook's pout and round eyes were not one of them.
He lifted Jungkook in his arms, and continued to walk while Jungkook fiddled with his Iron Man action figure in Jin's arms, safe and warm against the slightly cool breeze blowing the morning.
"Daddy, look! Iron Man is flying! Whooosh!" Jungkook said, moving and squirming as he made his action figure fly.
"Jungkook, don't do that. Daddy's trying to cross the road and it's dangerous." Jin warned, waiting for the pedestrian light to turn green.
"Whoosh! Whoosh!" Jungkook said, not listening to Jin, as he played with his action figure.
"Jungkook, it's dangerous and you could hurt someone. Stop." Jin warned again, lowering his voice so that Jungkook knew he wasn't playing.
"Iron Man fly!"
"Jungkook. Enough!" Jin said, putting Jungkook down on the sidewalk, moving slightly so that people could cross. "What did daddy just say?"
Jungkook put his action figure down, knowing that he was in trouble and pouted.
"What did daddy say?" Jin asked again.
"Not to play. It danje-rose." Jungkook answered, pouting.
"And what did you do?"
"And is not listening the right thing to do?" Jin asked him.
"No. It bad." Jungkook said, looking at the floor.
"And what do we do when we do a bad thing?" Jin prompted.
"Say sowwy." Jungkook said, looking back up at Jin with his wide eyes, "Kookie sowwy, daddy."
"That's okay sweetie." Jin said, placing a kiss on his forehead, "Daddy's not scolding you because he's mad. He's scolding you because he wants you to learn. When you play on the road without looking, it's dangerous not only for you, but for daddy, and the cars, and the drivers of the cars and the other people on the road too."
Jungkook nodded and stood next to Jin as they waited for the crosswalk sign to turn green again. Just before it did, Jungkook pulled on Jin's trousers.
"Yes, Kookie?" Jin said, looking down at him.
Wordlessly, Jungkook held out his arms again to be carried by Jin and with a smile, Jin leaned down and took Jungkook into his arms and placed a kiss on his chubby, pink cheek, holding him against his hip.
"We wait to play, okay Iron Man?" Jungkook said to his action figure as he looped his arm around Jin's neck, but accidentally hitting him in the face with the Iron Man action figure.
"Ouch!" Jin hissed out, one hand instinctively going to touch his cheek where he was hit.
Jungkook's bottom lip trembled, immediately knowing that he was the one who caused his dad to get hurt.
"No!" Jungkook said, tears pooling in his eyes, "Daddy, owie?"
"Daddy's okay, Kookie. Don't worry, baby. Daddy's okay," Jin said, moving to cross the road as Jungkook just stared at the slightly red mark on his cheek.
"Kookie's bad." Jungkook said as he burst into tears, wailing and crying.
"No, no, baby, shhh, shh, it's okay," Jin said, patting Jungkook's back as he kept walking, bouncing him slightly in his hold as Jungkook cried against him, holding his action figure tightly in his grasp as big fat tears rolled down his cheek, onto Jin's neck and shirt.
"Ko-Kookie ba-bad." Jungkook kept repeating against Jin's shirt, as sobs wrecked through his little body.
Jin opened the gate to the Kindergarten and immediately saw Hoseok.
"Hey, Jin are you-oh." Hoseok said, stopping in the middle of his sentence, surprised to see Jungkook crying, "What happened?"
"He's s-a-d because he accidentally h-i-t me with his t-o-y." Jin spelt out, patting Jungkook's back as the little one kept crying and crying.
"Why don't you set him down and we'll see if we can cheer out little KooKoo bun up, hmm?" Hoseok said, crouching down as Jin set Jungkook on the floor.
Jungkook kept hugging Jin, not wanting to let go of him, cries getting louder when he felt Jin pull away from him.
"Shh, baby, daddy's right here. He's not going anywhere, sweetheart." Jin comforted softly, carding his fingers through Jungkook's hair, "Why don't you let daddy see your handsome face, hmm? Don't you want to show daddy your handsome face?"
Jungkook shook his head, sniffling, calming down a little.
"Daddy's not mad at you, baby. It's okay. Everything's okay," Jin whispered words of comfort as he stroked Jungkook's back slightly.
"Kookie, do you want to tell Teacher Jung why you're crying?" Hoseok asked softly, putting his hand on Jungkook's back.
"I-I-I," Jungkook stammered, sobbing and hiccuping.
"Take your time," Hoseok encouraged with a smile.
"Kook-kookie was bad." Was all Jungkook said.
"How?" Hoseok asked, wanting to encourage Jungkook to open up to him.
"K-Kookie no li-listen to da-daddy, the-then Koo-Kookie maked daddy have an owie." Jungkook explained and burst into fresh new tears, hugging Jin tightly around the neck as he threw his Iron Man to one side.
"Jungkook, you threw your Iron Man," Hoseok gasped, reaching over to grab the action figure.
"Ir-Iron Man bad. I-I-I bad" Jungkook declared, burying his face in Jin's neck once again, sniffling as Jin patted his back, trying to get Jungkook to calm down.
"Look Jungkook, Taehyung is here!" Jin said, voice upbeat, "Don't you want to say hi, baby?"
"Maded TaeTae get owie too. I bad." Jungkook said, shaking his head.
Jin's heart broke in his chest. Jungkook was beating himself up and Jin didn't know what to say to make him feel better. Jungkook's never been so harsh on himself before.
"Good morning Taehyung! Are you ready to say hello to the day?" Hoseok greeted with a bright smile.
"Good morning! I'm ready to say hello to the day!" Taehyung said with a boxy grin before he set eyes on Jungkook, hiccuping and sobbing into his father's shirt, "Mister KooKoo's daddy?"
"Yes Taehyung?" Jin answered with a smile.
"Why is KooKoo crying?" Taehyung asked, "Is he sad?"
"Kookie, do you want to talk to Taehyung? He'll make you feel better, baby," Jin said.
"N-No." Jungkook said, hiccuping. "I maked him owie like-like-like daddy."
"Jungkook," Jin sighed, "I'm really okay. I didn't get an owie. You're not a bad boy, baby. You're daddy's good boy, remember? You're my little angel."
"No!" Jungkook said, shaking his head, "Kookie bad. Bad. Bad."
"Mr. Kim? Sir?" Jin said, surprise lacing his voice, "Uhh, what are you doing here?"
"Jimin has an exam this morning so I'm dropping Taehyung off before work," Namjoon answered, eyes landing on a hiccuping Jungkook who was resting against Jin, "Is he alright?"
"He accidentally h-i-t me with his t-o-y and now thinks that he's b-a-d and won't stop c-r-y-i-n-g." Jin spelt out, shooting him a small smile.
"May I?" Namjoon asked, pointing at Jungkook as he crouched down to eye level, "Hey Kookie bun, do you remember me?"
"TaeTae papa." Jungkook answered with a small sob.
"That's right! You're so smart," Namjoon praised, "But I'm not very smart, and I forgot how you look like. Can I see your handsome face?"
Jungkook sniffled, and pulled away slightly from Jin's neck, sniffling again.
"There my handsome boy is," Jin praised, brushing Jungkook's hair away from his face.
"Wow! Jungkook you've gotten so, so handsome since I saw you," Namjoon said with an exaggerated gasp.
Jungkook kept his grip on Jin's shirt, looking down on the ground.
"So," Namjoon said, "I heard you made a little boo-boo."
"Kookie maded daddy owie." Jungkook said, not moving his eyes from the floor, thinking that he would get a big scolding from everyone. He didn't even touch his Iron Man toy.
"Did you say sorry?" Namjoon asked.
"And you don't feel good about giving daddy an owie, right?" Namjoon said, reaching out for the Iron Man that was in Hoseok's grip.
Jungkook shook his head, pout forming on his face that Namjoon wanted to pinch. He was adorable. Namjoon couldn't help but wonder how Jin ever said no to this kid.
"See Kookie, that already makes you such a good person!" Namjoon told him, "You know why? Because bad people don't feel sad about giving other people boo-boo and owies."
"They no feel bad?" Jungkook asked, eyes wide.
"No, they don't and that's what makes them bad," Namjoon explained, and then he held up the iron Man toy, "But you want to know a secret?"
"What?" Jungkook asked, mouth rounded, eyes fixated on Namjoon and the Iron Man toy.
"Superhero's like Iron Man and Hulk, they feel bad for giving people owies! And they want to teach the bad people that it's bad also. But sometimes, they make mistakes too," Namjoon said, "And when they make mistakes, they say sorry and they learn from those mistakes. You made a mistake today too, right? You did a boo boo?"
"And you learnt from that mistake, right? " Namjoon said, You now know to be gentle when playing with Iron Man, right?"
Jungkook nodded fiercely now, letting go of Jin's shirt, walking towards Namjoon.
"See, Kookie! You're not bad at all. You're a good boy!" Namjoon said with a grin, handing him his Iron Man toy, "And Iron Man can learn from you because Iron Man also makes boo boo's sometimes."
"I'm good boy?" Jungkook asked, taking Iron Man from Namjoon, looking around.
"You're my bestestest boy," Jin said with a smile, heart melting at how Namjoon handled that. He had to tear his eyes away from him to look back at Jungkook who was waddling towards him.
"Daddy, I sowwy," Jungkook said, putting his Iron Man toy on the ground before hugging Jin.
Jin's heart clenched at the sight. He hugged Jungkook tightly and placed kisses on his hair, and forehead and cheek. "My bestest boy. Daddy loves you very, very much."
"Forever and always." Jin said, linking his pinky with Jungkook's smaller one.
"Eber and all-ways." Jungkook said placing a wet kiss on Taehyung's cheek.
"I'll clean him up," Hoseok said, standing up and walking over to Jungkook. "So, my little KooKoo bun, are you ready to say hello to the day?"
Jungkook giggled, picking Iron Man up from the ground and holding him close, "Good morning Teacher Jung! I am ready to say hello to the day."
"Say bye to your dads boys!" Hoseok prompted making the two boys wave to their fathers.
"Bye!" Jin said, watching Jungkook walk into class before clearing his throat and standing up.
He didn't think about what kind of an impression that whole scene would leave on Namjoon. First Namjoon saw him drenched in the rain, late to pick his son up, and now Namjoon was seeing him, shirt wet and full of snot, as his kid had an entire breakdown on him. What kind of father did Namjoon think he was?
"He's a good kid." Namjoon said as they walked out of the gate together.
"Yeah. He is." Jin said, nodding, before trying to stammer out an excuse, "Umm, I just...We're not usually this-I mean-You seem to always catch us at a bad time, not that it's your fault or anything. It's just, he's a kid and he's temperamental- Not that it's his fault. Wait, uhh, I just meant-"
"Jin, it's okay," Namjoon interrupted, shaking his head, "I get it. Trust me. I'm a single father too. I know how hard it is."
"Right, yeah, uhh, thanks." Jin said, clearing his throat.
Jin processed his words before his head snapped up to Namjoon. Single father too? Oh.
"How did you get here?" Namjoon asked.
"Did you drive?" He asked, looking around for a car.
"Uhh, no," Jin said, "I was going to take the subway to work."
"Come on. I'll drop you." Namjoon said, already walking to his car.
"Oh, umm, no. That's okay. I was just going to-" Jin said, pointing to the back as if the subway station was right there and not a block and a half away.
"It doesn't make sense for you to take the subway, Jin," Namjoon told him with a smile, "Come on, we're both going to one place anyway. We're saving the environment."
They walked to the car and wordlessly got in. Namjoon started driving with the radio playing softly in the background.
The silence wasn't exactly awkward, but it wasn't the most comfortable either.
"Thank you." Jin said, "For what you did back there. Really, I just- He's a good kid, like a really good kid, and it's...He means a lot to me and it's not that I can't handle him or anything because I can but it's just-"
"Jin." Namjoon stopped him, "You're an amazing father, and please don't think that you're anything but that. I understand how kids are, and as far as they go, Jungkook is honestly one of the best. When he was at my house, he was nothing but polite, and clean, and he didn't throw a tantrum or anything like that. He is a really, really good kid and I can see so much of you in him."
"Oh." Was all Jin could manage.
"I understand why you're hesitant," Namjoon said softly, "I was too. I was scared that Taehyung would grow up without a father. I mean, he didn't have a mother, so can you imagine if I started working long hours too? I wouldn't be able to watch him grow up, or spend as much time with him than I did before. But I decided to take a risk. I mean, this wouldn't just be benefitting me. Tae would have a brighter future too. I'm not going to lie and say everything worked out immediately, because it didn't. There was a lot of readjusting that went on, but at the end of the day, he's a happy kid. And isn't that all that matters?"
"I didn't know you were a single father," Jin said softly, as if he was crossing some kind of line.
"Now you do." Namjoon said, stealing a glance and shooting him a smile.
"Taehyung's a good kid too, you know," Jin said, "Caring and kind, and he honestly has the biggest, most beautiful smile I have ever seen on a child."
"His smile gets me through most of my days," Namjoon said with a fond look and love in his eyes.
Jin paused as Namjoon pulled into the carpark.
At the start of today, Jin was going to turn down Namjoon's offer for the new job. His original plan was to march into his office and tell him that he couldn't do it. He was going to say that Do Hyun's contract was going to be the last case he did of that calibre and that he was happy at his desk jockey job, working normal hours with a normal work load and an average salary. But then he saw the way that Namjoon was with Jungkook. He saw the way that Namjoon smiled at him, softly; spoke to him like an adult, while also treating him like a normal 4 year old who had their occasional breakdowns. He saw the way that adoration immediately seeped into his eyes, and how gentle he was treating Jungkook and immediately, Jin began to trust him. There was something about Namjoon's interaction with Jungkook that pierced his heart in the best possible way, and left him with an emotion that Jin didn't quite recognise.
"If I do this," Jin said as soon as Namjoon lifted the handbrake, "I have some conditions."
"I would be surprised if you didn't." Namjoon smiled softly at him, leaning back, eyes trained on Jin as he listened intently.
"Firstly," Jin started, "Jungkook comes first. I know it's unprofessional of me to say that, but he does. He's my entire life and I'm all he has. So, if he's sick, I'm not coming in. If he has recitals or parent teacher meetings, or anything of importance, I'm either not coming in or coming in late."
"Done." Namjoon said, no arguments.
"Secondly," Jin said, feeling the weight come off his chest, something different settling there just with the way Namjoon was looking at him, "This is a trial. I don't want to be chained down by a full drawn out contract yet. I don't know how this would work and how Jungkook would take the difference yet, so give me a couple of months. That way, if it doesn't work out at the end, I won't be liable and you won't be disappointed because at least we gave it a shot."
"Third." Jin stated out, "I'll draw up the contract myself. I will draft it out by noon and have it sent to you for approval. If you want any amendments that haven't been discussed, we can arrange a meeting."
"I have a couple." Namjoon said, a smirk almost settling on his face.
"What are they?" Jin asked.
"What about it?"
"Your starting pay for the trial will be double of what you're currently earning not including bonuses and commissions from contracts," Namjoon said.
Jin tried not to let his mouth drop. That was way more than what he was originally expecting. He was expecting a 10% rise, not double his pay!
"Non negotiable." Namjoon said.
"Ag-Agreed." Jin stuttered out , cursing himself for not being able to maintain a poker face.
"Last condition." Namjoon said.
"What is it?"
"I want you to work with me." He said, "Closely. Just like we did on the Do Hyun contract."
Before a beat of silence could even pass, Jin found himself speaking without thinking, heart beating faster in his chest.
As if on instinct, he said, "Agreed."
Namjoon broke out into a smile, wide and bright, and said, "I'm looking forward to working with you, Jin."
"Me too, Mr. Kim."
INSIGHTS INTO THE WRITING
so i posted the last chapter of this fic 2 days ago, posted my namkook au update yesterday and now im writing this ahaha honestly i love writing :D
without your arms around me without you on my skin without you on my body im sorry im sorry
Cold - James Blunt
its 1.30am i have gym in 8 hours and class too and i have to study and ahhh busy busy day tomorrow but who cares about a proper sleep schedule
omg writing tantrum kook is sad :( im also basing this off my nephew
1.2k cookie discourse but like fr its important bc yes
scene 1 doneee
oohhh harry style's new album is out
scene 2 doneeee and it's 3am rip
i had korean bbq for lunch and im a happy girl i love pork its my favourite meat
im reediting scene 2 and adding words and angst bc yes
eu-euphoria is playing while im editing how much kookie loves jin i just-
onion. shrek would be proud
it's 12am and i just came back and showered from my night class and i have a 5 hour lecture in the morning non stop with no breaks and i have to be up in 7 hours huhuhuhu m tired but idc im gonna keep writing bc im a sucker for baby kook and this is my destreser
wow im full on sobbing someone pls get me a kid like kook like honestly
hnng the way im listening to kal ho na ho but like the sad version while writing this scene im honestly so CLOSE to sobbing bls
oop one last scene left! the angst and pining start on the next chapter i promise
i just watched the sky is pink and im a sobbing mess which is why this last scene is incredibly angsty and now im sad
ITS NOT HELPING THAT YOURE HERE BY LEE HYUN FROM THE BTS WORLD OST IS PLAYING IM EXTRA SAD
its 1,30am why do i do this to myself i have 10 hours of lecture tomorrow starting from 9am :)
my namjin heart things are finally gonna start i just have a litttttttle more to write
the way im already at 7k words and still not finished i regret nothing this entire fic is completely self indulgent
is that sexual tension in a closed up space :D
aaaaand we're done guys! yaay! it's only 2.45am i just know im gonna complain about being tired in 4 hours i regret nothing
dany, rags if you're reading this i hope you know that im gonna be texting the group complaining about how tired i am and you're gonna have to live with it! :D <3 lyyy
Leave a comment guysss they make my day okay byeee
Namjoon's glasses were on the bridge of his nose, paperwork sprawled out on the brown mahogany office desk in his apartment. A black pen was on his ear, chin jutted out in concentration as he looked over the latest contract that he was going to present with their new client along with Jin tomorrow. He was used to working late, especially after he had put Taehyung in bed. He had created a professional environment in this office too. It helped him concentrate. The only difference between the office at home and the office at work, was the dress code. At home, Namjoon could wear whatever he wanted, and that usually consisted of a tank top and sweatpants, which was a huge difference compared to the white buttoned down shirt, with cufflinks and an expensive watch that he didn't need, paired with black trousers and a blazer.
"Shall pay for services in a lump sum upon satisfactory completion..." Namjoon read, and paused, "No, that could be a point of contention later. What does satisfactory even mean..."
He grabbed a highlighter and highlighted the entire clause and started writing in the margin. He reached over the desk and grabbed a sticky tab, placing it at the end of the page, reminding himself that he would need to discuss this tomorrow with Jin.
"Papa?" He heard from outside his door.
"Tae?" Namjoon said, head immediately snapping up, looking at the clock on the wall.
It was almost 11pm! What was he doing awake?!
Namjoon leaped up, scrambling to get the door, opening it and looking down at his son who was rubbing his eye with the back of his hand, clutching his T-rex plush toy tight in his grasp.
"Hey buddy," Namjoon said, leaning down and picking him up, putting him on his hip, "What's wrong? Why are you awake? Why aren't you sleeping?"
"Papa, had bad dream," Taehyung said, voice wobbly, nuzzling his face into Namjoon's neck, seeking comfort, "Scary monster. Bad."
"Aww," Namjoon cooed, stroking Taehyung's hair, holding him close, "Do you want papa to stay with you until you fall asleep?"
Taehyung shook his head, nuzzling himself deeper into Namjoon, the plushie toy on the ground now, "Sleep papa."
"You want to sleep with papa?" Namjoon asked, bending down slowly to pick the plushie up in hand before walking over to the master bedroom, "Okay TaeTae, you can sleep with papa tonight."
"Rex." Taehyung said, making grabby hands at the toy as Namjoon put him down on the soft mattress.
"Here sweetie," Namjoon said, placing the plushie on the bed beside Taehyung who immediately cuddled up to it.
Namjoon pulled the blanket back and tucked Taehyung in, getting up to turn the light off.
"Papa! No! Scary monster come back! Papa no leave!" Taehyung started to whine, voice shaky and full of fear as he scrambled to get out of bed.
"Shh baby, papa isn't going anywhere. I just want to turn the light off. I'll be right next to you, okay? Count to ten, just like I taught you," Namjoon said, staying in place so Taehyung could see that he wasn't going anywhere.
He saw Taehyung nod and clutch his T-Rex toy just a little closer, cuddling up to it for comfort.
"Start counting, TaeTae," Namjoon said, counting along with him, "One, two..."
"Twee, Four," Taehyung counted, talking into the cotton of the plushie.
Namjoon took a large step to the wall.
"Five, six," Taehyung counted, keeping his eyes on his dad.
Namjoon turned the light off, plunging the room in darkness.
"Papa! Papa! Dark!" Taehyung screamed in fear.
"I'm right here, baby. Keep counting!" Namjoon said, practically running to the bed. "Seven."
"Eig-Eight," Taehyung stuttered, voice shaky, near tears.
"Nine," Namjoon counted, turning the lamp beside the bed on.
"Ten!" Taehyung finished, looking at Namjoon with big, wide eyes, full of fear.
"My brave, brave, baby," Namjoon cooed, getting under the blankets. Taehyung immediately cuddled up close to him, pulling the green plushie close to him, hugging both the soft cotton dinosaur and his dad, finally feeling safe.
"Yes, sweetheart?" Namjoon answered, carding his hair through Taehyung's soft, dark, raven locks gently, thinking to himself that he needed to get Taehyung's hair cut soon. As much as he loved the shaggy hairdo, he saw how Taehyung kept trying to push his hair out of his eyes.
"Will the monsters come now?"
"As long as papa is here, nothing will ever hurt you, Taehyung," Namjoon said, pulling Taehyung closer to his chest, "I'm always going to protect you, baby. I promise I won't let anything hurt you."
"Papa, you're like a superhewo! Just like Hulk," Taehyung said, eyes droopy.
Namjoon leaned down and placed a kiss on Taehyung's forehead, running his fingers through his hair, like he knew Taehyung liked. Things may have been rocky in the start, but he knew now more than ever, that not only would he die for his son; he would kill for him too.
"Goodnight my little angel," Namjoon said, pulling the blanket up the both of them, reaching over to the bedside table and turning the light off.
"Goodnight stars. Goodnight air. Goodnight noises everywhere." Jin read, closing the book after he finished the last sentence.
He looked down at Jungkook who was sleeping soundly, his lips forming a pout around the thumb that was in his mouth, his dark brown hair falling over his eyes as he curled up around his Iron Man plushie. Jin reached down and pushed Jungkook's hair out of his face before he leaned down and placed a kiss on his forehead.
"Goodnight bun," Jin said softly, pulling his starry blanket up and tucking Jungkook in.
"He down for the night?" Yoongi asked as Jin exited the room softly, closing the door behind him.
"Out for the count," Jin answered, flopping down onto the couch, letting out a huge breath as he settled down into the soft cushions.
Yoongi wordlessly handed him a can of beer.
"Thanks." Jin said, taking a long gulp from it, letting the amber liquid burn his throat on the way down, waiting for it to take effect.
"How's the new job?" Yoongi asked, "It's been, what, like two weeks now?"
"Work wise it's been alright," Jin answered, "I don't know about Kook though...I don't know if he's taking it well or not. Yeah sure i still pick him up from school, but when I come home it's been all about work and we have this huge contract thing tomorrow and I don't even know if the contract has been drafted out well and I just-It's a lot, Yoongs."
"You've been doing your best and that's all that matters, Jin," Yoongi said, "Jungkook took a while to get used to the schedule last time too, remember? None of this is going to happen overnight. You have to stop worrying about disappointing everyone and just live."
Jin sighed, "I don't know..."
"Can I make a suggestion?"
"I don't trust your suggestions," Jin teased, cocking an eyebrow, "Remember what happened in college?"
"It wasn't my fault that stupid asshole actually put a firework in his butt!"
"Yoongi you told him to," Jin said.
"Didn't think he would actually listen..." Yoongi muttered, bringing the beer can to his lips.
"Yeah, I'm not listening to you." Jin said, leaning back on the cushion.
"College me and me right now aren't the same person! I'm not going to tell you to put a firework up your ass," Yoongi said.
"Fine. What do you want? What's your suggestion?"
"Let me set you up with someone," Yoongi suggested, "There's this guy who saw you with me the other day when we were at the coffee shop by Jungkook's kindergarten and he's been begging me to set you two up-"
"I'd rather put a firework up my ass," Jin deadpanned, cutting him off.
"It's not a firework I'm trying to get in your ass, Jin," Yoongi said suggestively, bringing the can of beer up to his lips.
"I'm fine! I don't need a date right now!" Jin told him, scoffing.
"When's the last time you got laid?"
"Fine, forget sex for a second. When's the last time you actually went out with someone that wasn't for Jungkook or for work?" Yoongi said.
Jin couldn't even remember the last time he went out with someone.
"You know how much I admire you, and how amazing of a father I think you are. But god, Jin, for once, I just want you to do something for yourself! I just want you to put your happiness first." Yoongi said, putting the finished can of beer on the table, "i'm not saying that I want an answer right now... All I'm saying is that, you deserve to be happy too."
A beat of silence passed between them as Yoongi put his finished can of beer down on the coffee table, the condensation from the cold can running down the side, catching on the black coaster.
Yoongi stood up, grabbing his keys from the coffee table and gave Jin a little wave.
"Yoongi?" Jin called out just as Yoongi was about to reach the front door.
"Can you babysit Jungkook. I don't know the exact date yet but," Jin asked, pausing in between, deciding that he would take a chance, "I think I have a date?"
It had been two weeks since Jin accepted the promotion, or well, 16 work days to be exact, but who was counting.
Things had been different. Very, very different.
16 days ago, Jin packed his stuff from his office on the eighth floor, and walked all the way to the elevator and pressed the button for the ninth floor. He moved in, but still, it didn't feel like his office yet. It felt like he was trespassing in a way; like he wasn't meant to be here. These four walls were much, much bigger than his office downstairs, and yet he felt suffocated. There were folders after folders of yellow manilla just piled up on his desk, begging for attention, but Jin couldn't bring himself to do anything.
This didn't...it didn't feel right. He thought that he would like it and enjoy working these big cases like he did with Do Hyun's case, yet, something about this new job wasn't clicking. Was it the fact that he felt distant? Was it that he wasn't good enough? That he was major unqualified? That he could feel angry, envious stares on his back every single time he walked over to Namjoon's office to work with him on a case?
Whatever it was, Jin wasn't comfortable. He felt like a stranger in his own office.
The shrill ringtone of the phone broke him out of his thoughts. Unconsciously he hung his head, letting out a sigh as he watched the phone rang, wanting it to end. Reluctantly he picked the phone up.
Before he could even say a word, the voice on the other end said, "Jin. Mr. Kim wants to see you in his office now."
And then all he heard was the dial tone.
Jin sat in his chair for a second, just to gather himself and put on a professional face. He had to remind himself that none of this was going to be easy. He was so used to doing just the bare minimum because his old job in the eighth floor was basic work that he could do with his eyes closed. But here, he was being challenged, and as much as he loved it, it was hard. He was doing four times as much work, not counting the endless amount of meetings and pitches and presentations and drafting of contracts and meeting of clients and-
Just as he was about to spiral again, his eyes caught the wooden picture frame that was on his desk. He couldn't help the smile that spread on his face when he saw it. Jungkook. This picture of him was always Jin's favourite. Jungkook had his dark brown hair flopping on his forehead, lips upturned to the biggest grin that he had ever seen as he looked at Jin, holding out his vanilla ice cream cone to him. Melted ice cream was all over his face and Jin was trying to clean him up, smiling down at his son, adoration and fondness shining through his eyes. They were happy and that's all that mattered. That's why he doing this. He was going through all of this stress to give him a better life and make sure that he wants for nothing, and has every single thing that his heart desires.
Jin grabbed the manilla folders necessary for the meeting and walked over to Namjoon's office, smiling at the secretary as he knocked on the door twice. It was his standard procedure now.
"Come in." He heard from behind the door.
He turned the doorknob and entered Namjoon's room, muttering a greeting as he shut the door and placed the folders down onto the expensive wooden table.
Jin didn't bother with pleasantries and shot straight into the details, checking off the pointers in his head as he started.
"Do Hyun's contract has been drafted and I emailed you the first draft, after highlighting all of the amendments that we had talked about in the meeting with him and the ones you mentioned to me three days ago. Here's a physical copy if you need it. I highlighted it here as well. Other than clause 4.4, I don't see a reason why we shouldn't have the full and final signed copy by the end of this week," Jin said, passing him the highlighted copy from the first manilla folder before moving onto the second one, "As for the Trinatas contract, I looked over the facts and figures and I don't think that we should accept such a small amount for a risk that big. Sure, they might be independent contractors and usually liability, if any, wouldn't fall on us, but it's a dangerous job and as the law states, that is an exception to the general rule. I calculated the figure and I think this is the amount we should be aiming for. Nothing lower than 10% of this, or we cancel the contract."
Jin passed Namjoon the figures along with the calculations and cases that he found on the law, just in case Namjoon wanted it.
Namjoon looked incredibly impressed and watched as Jin moved the second folder aside before opening the third one and taking out some more paper.
"And for the Polygrant contract about the satisfactory clause," Jin started, moving some papers around, "I think instead of satisfactory we should go for mutually agreed. I've looked over some of their contracts in the past with different companies and they've all had problems with Polygrant especially when it comes to payment, so just to be safe and protect us from all sides, along with the mutually agreed clause, we should add a 'time is of the essence' clause. That way, if anything goes wrong, we can invoke this and get pecuniary damages along with some other form of protection. I drafted out a couple of clauses here. The one on top is for the mutually agreed, to replace the satisfactory clause, and the ones on the second sheet are for time is of the essence."
Namjoon took the papers from Jin, skimming over them and set them to one side.
"And for the Lib-" Jin started off again, eyebrows furrowed in concentration, wrinkles forming on his head, mouth downturned into a frown.
"Jin!" Namjoon interrupted, wanting nothing more than for all the stress to go off Jin's face. He didn't like seeing him like this. Something in Namjoon's gut wanted to take all these folders and throw them away. He could see that Jin was anything but happy. This wasn't how this was meant to go. Jin was incredibly smart and hardworking and Namjoon appreciated the honest work that he was doing, as well as the lengths that Jin was going to, but he could just tell that he wasn't enjoying it. Namjoon wanted to see the Jin that he saw that day in the conference room with Do Hyun. That was the Jin that he was expecting. Not this one.
"Sir?" Jin said, snapping his head up to meet Namjoon's eyes. Did he do something wrong?
"It's going to be 5." Namjoon said, "Do you want a lift to the Kindergarten?"
"Oh but sir, we still have 3 more to get through and-" Jin said, pointing to the manilla folders on the desk.
"We've done enough for today, don't you think?" Namjoon said with a smile, taking his car keys out from the drawer, "I think we deserve to see our kids."
"Is Jimin not..." Jin said, trailing off.
"He has an early morning exam tomorrow so I told him to take a day off," Namjoon said, "Do you need a ride? I notice that you didn't bring your car in with you today."
"Oh, uhh, no that's okay. I think I'm just going to stay and-"
"Jin. I'm telling you this as your boss," Namjoon said, voice dropping an octave, "You've done enough for today. Now, I don't want to see you in your office till tomorrow. You're going to go pick your son up from school and spoil him rotten."
"Oh." Was all Jin could manage.
"Leave these files here, we can deal with them tomorrow morning." Namjoon said, picking his blazer up from the coat rack, "Come on. I'll drive us."
Wordlessly, Jin got up, knowing that it wasn't worth the argument. Anyway, what was he meant to argue? He didn't want to stay at the office any longer. He wanted to see Jungkook. Plus, he was getting a free ride, so really, shouldn't he be happy?
They entered the lift and Jin could feel the awkwardness ooze off of them. Namjoon reached forward and pressed the button for the basement before settling back in place. Just as he was about to say something, the door to the lifts opened up at the eighth floor and Yoongi walked in, shooting Namjoon a small smile and then lighting up when he saw Jin.
"Hey," Yoongi said.
"Hey. You done for the day?" Jin asked.
"Just one more meeting," Yoongi said, typing furiously on the phone before looking up, "Oh that reminds me. I can come babysit Jungkook tonight after this meeting."
"Babysit? What for?" Jin asked, cocking an eyebrow in confusion.
"Did I not send you Henry's number?"
"Who's Henry?" Jin asked, even more confused.
"The guy who wants to take you out on a date!" Yoongi said, about to go into it when the lift dinged at the ground floor, "I'll text you everything! He wants to meet at Checkers at Oak Street today at 8! I'll text you everything. Don't be late!"
"But Yoongi we didn-" Jin started to say but the doors closed. He let out a huge sigh and hung his head.
"Date, huh?" Namjoon said, suddenly feeling this pit at the bottom of his stomach, but he decided to ignore it.
"Oh, umm," Jin stuttered, "I guess? Yoongi's been trying to set me up forever and I mean...I might as well give it a shot right? I haven't dated in a while and..."
"I know the feeling." Namjoon said, holding the lift door open for Jin as it dinged. He led Jin out, walking to where the car was parked, "I haven't dated in a while too. I mean it's hard enough to get a date, but add a kid into the mix and it gets damn near impossible to find someone. Plus, when you find the right person, you have to think about how your kid would take having to share you and it's a nightmare in itself."
"I'm sure there's many girls who want to date you," Jin said, buckling his seatbelt.
"Trust me, there aren't many girls or guys who want to," Namjoon said with a little laugh .
Jin had to try to keep his poker face on after hearing that Namjoon was bi. He never really thought of Namjoon as being anything but straight, but maybe that was just his prejudice against him, which now, Jin was feeling guilty about.
"We don't really get much time for ourselves, you know?" Namjoon said, cruising on the freeway, eyes on the road, "I'm working day in and day out. On top of that, I have to get Taehyung ready for school, or I'm cooking, or cleaning or doing paperwork. When Tae's back then it's onto making him a snack, or helping him with homework and making sure that everything is okay. And whatever little time I do get myself, I'm not thinking about spending it on me. I'm thinking about Taehyung."
Jin looked at him and the first thing that came to mind was - Someone finally gets it.
"Yoongi doesn't get it when I say this and maybe its degrading or self depreciating in a way, but," Jin said and paused, unsure of whether or not to go on. He's never really opened up to anyone other than Yoongi.
"But?" Namjoon asked, turning to look at him with an encouraging dimpled smile and a look in his eyes that Jin couldn't quite put his finger on, but all he knew was that it made him feel safe.
"But my happiness doesn't matter," Jin said, "And I know it sounds terrible, but, for me, as long as Jungkook is happy and healthy, I don't really care about anything else. Is that weird?"
"No," Namjoon said, shaking his head, "I get it. I completely do. I feel the same way sometimes. It's like you look at your kid and you're just thinking to yourself that, I don't care what happens with me, but if I can keep you happy, and healthy and safe, I'll do whatever the hell I need to."
"It's exactly that," Jin said with a sort of fascination lacing his voice.
He didn't really think that anyone else thought the way that he did. But then again, the only person he's ever talked to, or even remotely opened up to was Yoongi. Jin didn't have many friends. He never had the time to. In college, he was one of the most popular people around, and then Jungkook came. He wasn't blaming Jungkook in the slightest. It was just that, with a child, especially one that wasn't yours, more so, one that you had no idea how to take care of, there wasn't much time to do anything else. That's why he dropped out of law school. It was a decision that he had come to terms with. He didn't have any major regrets over it, and anytime that he did, all he needed was one look at Jungkook's smiling face, and everything else would just melt away.
And now here he was, with someone who shared the same thought pattern as him. What was more surprising was that this person was Kim Namjoon. Someone he thought of as nothing more than a boss. And even with the knowledge that the man sitting beside him right now was his sons best friends father, to Jin, he was still Mr Kim Namjoon. CEO.
"We're here." Namjoon said, parking the car and turning the engine off, "Right on time too."
"Thank you for the ride," Jin said politely, stepping out of the car and onto the sidewalk, waiting for Jungkook to come out.
Namjoon locked the car and walked to stand next to Jin.
"So, uhh," Namjoon said, clearing his throat, "You excited about the date?"
"More nervous than excited," Jin said with a small smile, trying to squirm out of the conversation.
"I'm a little out of practice with this whole dating thing," Jin told him, willing Jungkook to come out faster so that they could leave. There was this pit growing in the bottom of his gut that he wanted to get rid of and something told him that it was partially because of this conversation.
"You're going to be fine," Namjoon reassured, "Something tells me that whoever comes tonight, will be the luckiest person on the planet to even be able to get dinner with you."
"Oh." Jin said, warmth blooming in his chest, "Th-Thank you, sir."
Namjoon unconsciously took a step back, remembering who he was to Jin and how inappropriate it was that he had just said that to him. What was going on with him? First there was this pit that seemingly out of nowhere just kept blooming at the bottom of his stomach, but that immediately disappeared when he started talking to Jin and it replaced itself with this heat...growing in his chest and now all he felt were these cold pricks, washing over him. Was it the weather? Maybe he was coming down with something...
"Right uhh," Namjoon said, clearing his throat again, "I just meant because you're incredibly smart you know? And umm, this great dad and whoever is-"
"Daddy! Daddy!" Jungkook screamed, interrupting Namjoon as he waddled out of class, backpack hitting his back with each step that he took, huge grin on his face and a paper in his hand that was bring slightly crumpled with the sheer force that he was holding it with.
"There's my Kookie," Jin said, crouching down and holding his arms open for Jungkook to run into.
"Papa!" Taehyung called out, grabbing a piece of paper from his bag before running to Namjoon with a wide, boxy grin on his face, "Look, look!"
Namjoon had never been more glad to have a child interrupt him than right now.
"TaeTae, did you show your papa yet?!" Jungkook asked excitedly, paper in his hand.
"No, KooKoo," Taehyung said shaking his head, "Gonna show now!"
"Me too! Me too!" Jungkook said excitedly, turning around to Jin,
"What do you want to show daddy?" Jin asked, carding his fingers through Jungkook's dark brown hair. Jin might just get his hair cut.
"Today Teacher Jung said that we have to do a pa-pa-a drawring and that we no use brushies but we use our fingers," Jungkook explained, wiggling his fingers in front of Jin to show the leftover paint that was on there.
"Wow, Kookie! You did finger painting today?" Jin exclaimed dramatically.
"Yuh huh," Jungkook nodded furiously, "Daddy I got the red paint on this fingy and then the green one here and the blue one felled on my clothes but Teacher Jung put big plastic on us so I didn't get my clothes dirty."
"Remind me to thank Teacher Jung for that," Jin said with a laugh, "So baby, what did you paint today?"
"Daddy lookie!" Jungkook said, shoving the painting into Jin's face proudly showing it off.
"Wow Kookie, this is amazing! I love it!" Jin complimented immediately, "My baby is so talented."
The painting was random blobs of colour all over the paper, one small red handprint in the middle and a blue line right next to the pinky of the red handprint.
"Guess what is! Guess! Guess!" Jungkook said, bouncing up and down excitedly.
"Oh, uhh," Jin said, clearing his throat, unsure of what the painting might actually be, but he did know that it would make for amazing abstract art.
He glanced over at Namjoon, as if he could help out in any way.
"Tae, your cat that you and Jungkook both drew look amazing! Da Vinci would be so jealous of you," Namjoon said loudly, glancing back at Jin with a knowing smile.
"Papa do you really like it?" Taehyung asked, eyes blooming wide in anticipation.
"I really, really, really, love it," Namjoon said, holding the painting and looking over it with Taehyung.
"It's a cat, isn't it, Kookie?" Jin said, shooting a grateful glance at Namjoon.
"Yeah, yeah!" Jungkook said, "Do you like it, daddy? TaeTae and me both maded cat drawrings!"
"Drawings, baby." Jin corrected, "And I love it! I'm going to put it on the fridge when we get home."
"Woah!" Jungkook gasped in amazement, "Daddy love it that much?"
"Hmm, you're right Kookie. The fridge won't be enough," Jin said, humming in contemplation, "Should I put it in every newspaper all over the whole world?!"
Jungkook giggled, hiding his face behind his chubby little hands, "Daddy silly."
Jin stood up, holding the drawing in one hand, and put his other hand on Jungkook's bagpack adorned back, "Say bye, sweetie. We need to go home."
"Tae and I were planning on going to the park if you want to come?" Namjoon said.
Jungkook's head immediately snapped to Jin, small pout forming on his lips, eyes wide and round, "Daddy! Peas!"
"Maybe some other time," Jin said, before turning to Jungkook, "Uncle Yoo is waiting for us at home, and you know how Uncle Yoo gets when he waits, don't you, baby?"
Jungkook nodded at Taehyung, "Uncle Yoo goes grrr when he wait a long, long time."
"Grr like tiger or grr like lion?" Taehyung asked.
"Grr like angry lion at angry tiger," Jungkook said.
"That's very grr," Taehyung gasped.
"It's okay! Uncle Yoo just needs a big bear hug." Jungkook said, "Then he no grr anymore."
"Thank you for the ride, Mr. Kim," Jin said, taking Jungkook's hand in his, "I'll see you tomorrow morning."
"I can drop you if you like," Namjoon offered.
"That's very kind, sir, but its okay. I think you have a very eager kid to take to the park," Jin said.
"Thank you Mr Kim," Jin said, "Have a good day."
Namjoon watched Jin walk away with something of a heavy heart and a growing pit in his stomach.
"Papa, park!" Taehyung said, tugging his hand.
"Yeah Tae, let's go to the park." Namjoon said, stealing another glance at Jin and the bouncing, bubble kid hanging off his arm.
Jin came out of his room for the third time, "Okay, how about now?"
Yoongi looked up from the floor where he was playing with Jungkook and gave Jin a once over.
"See, I told you that the black silk would make your shoulders look bigger," Yoongi told him, going back to playing with the blocks on the floor.
"Isn't it a bit too much for a first?" Jin asked, "I haven't done this in a while and I just don't want-"
"Jin," Yoongi said, "If he cares more about the clothes on your body than he does what you have to say, then he's not worth it. The only reason you're getting dressed up isn't for him; it's for yourself. You haven't taken a break in a while. You deserve this. You deserve to be wined and dined and taken out somewhere else talking about whatever the hell you want to."
"Forget Henry, maybe I should date you instead," Jin joked, grabbing his wallet from the table.
"I'd rather fu-" Yoongi started to say but remembered that Jungkook was right next to him, "I'd rather firetruck a lit firework."
"Anything's a d-i-l-d-o if you try hard enough," Jin said, winking at him.
Yoongi rolled his eyes, "You remember which restaurant, right?"
"Checkers at Oak Street," Jin said, "He's meant to be there by 8, right?"
"Yup! So go, go, go," Yoongi said, shooing him away while Jungkook stacked up blocks, "You don't want to be late."
"Alright, alright," Jin said, "Kookie, come give daddy a hug before he goes."
Jungkook looked up at Jin with wide rounded eyes, "Daddy where go?"
"Daddy's going out for dinner."
"Kookie come!" Jungkook said and stood up, waddling over to Jin.
"Aww baby, I would love for you to come but it's going to be a boring adult dinner and you wouldn't like it," Jin said, crouching down and petting Jungkook's hair, "Now, give daddy a kiss before he goes."
"No! Kookie want come!" Jungkook said, pouting.
"But Kookie if you go then who's going to help Uncle Yoo build a castle?" Jin said, "You have to stay here and take care of Uncle Yoo, okay? Make sure he eats dinner and drinks lot of water."
"I take care Uncle Yoo?" Jungkook asked, tilting his head slightly.
"Oh no, Kookie, the castle is going to fall, what do I do?" Yoongi said dramatically, "Help me!"
"No! Uncle Yoo! No fall!" Jungkook said, running over to the blocks.
"Kookie, give me a hug and kiss before I go," Jin said with a laugh.
Jungkook looked between the blocks and Jin, utterly confused about what he should do first - Save the castle or say bye to his father?
Jin laughed, standing up, "Okay fine save your castle. Daddy will be back soon okay? Be good!"
He was just about to reach for the doorknob to leave the house when he heard pitter patter of feet running towards him. He turned around and saw the blocks fall over as Jungkook ran to him, hugging his leg.
"Bye bye daddy. Love you," Jungkook said, while hugging his jean clad leg tight, looking up at him with a wide smile and big, doe brown bambi eyes.
He met Yoongi's eyes and they were both thinking the same thing - This was another picture perfect parent moment.
"Would you like another glass of wine, sir?" The waitress asked as she came over, holding the menus close to her, sympathy flashing in her eyes.
Jin sighed, looking down at his watch - 8.27pm.
"Sure," He said, shooting her a small smile, humiliation settling down in his stomach. He knew this was a bad idea. He didn't know why he had been excited as well as nervous on his way to the restaurant, or why he had stopped doors away to check if he was actually well dressed, and that no hair was out of place... He just thought it would be a fun dinner.
He didn't think for a second that he would be stood up at all.
Henry didn't show.He didn't call or text or even pick up his phone when Jin had called him. Jin tried texting, but there was no response.
This was a bad idea. He wasn't meant for happiness. He didn't know why he thought otherwise, even for a second. He was just going to drink his last glass of wine, and then go home. His first date in years and it wasn't even a real date.
The waitress came over with a cold glass of white wine and placed it in front of him, shooting him another sympathetic smile.
"Third glass' the charm, right," Jin said with a small smile, bringing the glass close to him by the stem and took a long sip as she walked away.
Dating wasn't for him, and he had come to terms with that a long time ago. He didn't know why he let his hopes soar. He blinked back tears of humiliation, telling himself that there's no reason to be embarrassed even in the slightest. What's the point? This moment won't matter tomorrow. It's just sad right now. He was fine. He wasn't sad. What's there to be sad about? It was just meant to be a small little date. It wasn't even going to progress further. Or maybe it was....He didn't know. Well, he wouldn't get a chance to anyway. Henry had stood him up.
He shook his head, and told himself that after this glass empties out, he would go home. He let himself take another sip, hoping that the alcohol would finally take effect, even after 2 glasses, and yet he felt nothing.
His head snapped up and he hoped and prayed with all his might that the person in front of him was nothing more than an illusion, a drunken image.
"Are you okay?"
"Mr. Kim." Jin breathed out, letting out a humourless laugh, "Somehow you always manage to catch me at my worst. First with the rain, then with Jungkook and now this."
"Is.." Namjoon said, treading carefully, "Is everything okay?"
"I'm sitting here alone, with my third glass of wine, when I'm meant to be on a date," Jin said, scoffing, "Everything's great!"
"I'm sorry," Jin said immediately, pinching the bridge of his nose, "I'm sorry, really. I don't mean to be rude, it's just..It's been a long night and I just- Yeah, I'm going to go home."
"Have you eaten yet?" Namjoon asked, sliding into the seat opposite him.
"Have you had your dinner yet?" Namjoon asked again, flagging down a waitress and getting two menu's.
"Sir, what are you doing?" Jin asked as he slid a menu across the table to him.
"We're not at work. I'm just Namjoon," He said smiling at Jin, "Can I get you another glass of wine."
"What are you doing?"
"Getting dinner with a friend," Namjoon answered, pushing his black glasses up his nose.
"After this dinner we will be," Namjoon said with conviction as he skimmed over the menu, "Oh the black pepper chicken looks great.
"With all due respect sir-"
"Namjoon." He corrected immediately.
"With all due respect, I know what you're trying to do," Jin said, through gritted teeth, "And as much as I appreciate it, I don't need a sympathy dinner, neither do I need whatever this is. I honestly just want-"
"I'm not really in a chicken chop mood," Namjoon said, ignoring Jin's statement, "The pork steak though, wow!"
"Are you just ignoring me or like..." Jin said, getting increasingly annoyed.
"Honestly by sitting here, you're doing me a favour more than the other way around," Namjoon told him, looking over the menu rather than at Jin.
"Sure, the guy who got stood up is doing you a favour by sitting here," Jin scoffed, glaring at the menu since he couldn't see Namjoon's face.
"You are," Namjoon said, finally putting the menu down to look at Jin. He finally understood the meaning of 'if looks could kill.'
"How so?" Jin said, hostile.
"The two weeks since we've been working together, you've done more than literally any other employee has in a month. Not only have we gotten more clients, but they're bringing in their friends and recommending us to many, many people." Namjoon said, "If anything, you're the one helping me. Not the other way around. Think of this as one of your thank you presents."
"Fine." Jin said, picking the menu up, "But only because I'm hungry."
"Of course," Namjoon said with a dimpled smile, glancing down at his glass, "Your wine is almost finished. Do you want another?"
Jin looked over at the little wine that was in his glass. He told himself that he was going to leave once it was empty...He could get up right now and go. But he found himself looking for excuses to stay. He didn't know if it was because of the alcohol, or the free dinner, or...Or maybe it was the company. All he knew was that he wanted to stay.
"Yeah. That would be nice," Jin said with a small smile.
Progress. Was all Namjoon thought as he flagged down the waitress and ordered both of them a glass of white wine each.
They placed their orders and gave the menus back.
Jin looked at his now full glass of wine, swirling around the glass, "Why are you here?"
"Excuse me?" Namjoon asked, placing his wine glass on the table.
"I meant, how did you come here? Like why are you in this part of town? Your house is all the way on the other side." Jin said, almost suspicious.
"Well, I had a business meeting at this coffee shop down the road and since I hardly ever come here, I decided to take a walk and explore the area. I was walking when I saw you through the window and I wanted to come say hi," Namjoon said.
He wasn't lying. He really did have a meeting here. He actually scheduled it when Taehyung was playing in the park. He didn't know why he did, but he did. All he knew was that he wanted to see who the guy Jin was on a date with was. Ever since he saw Jin in action at Do Hyun's meeting, there had been this feeling of warmth that kept blooming in his chest when he was with him. Electricity shot through his skin every time their hands brushed each other, or when Jin would open up to him. And earlier in the car, when Jin looked at him like Namjoon was the only person in the world, Namjoon couldn't help the dusting of pink that bloomed on his cheeks, or the way that he wanted the feeling to never end.
His heart broke when he saw Jin sitting all alone on the table. There was this look in his eyes that Namjoon never wanted to see again. He could physically see Jin going down a rabbit hole of dark thoughts and without thinking, Namjoon stormed in the restaurant. He wanted to scream at Jin, tell him that he was worth more love than there was stars in the sky. But one look at him, and that resolve crumbled. All he wanted to do now was to show him how he's meant to be treated, and spoiled, and wined and dined. If anyone was deserving of love and riches in this world - It was Jin.
"Maybe he took one look at me through the window and left," Jin scoffed, bringing the wine glass to his lips and took a large swig of it.
"Can you blame him? He knew he could never compare to you," Namjoon said, turning the self depreciating words into positive ones, "I mean look at you! You're handsome, smart, caring, kind, have the cutest son, and not to mention is the most amazing father."
Jin shook his head, "You can't get that from just one look."
"Then how do you know he took a look and left?" Namjoon said, "It's his loss."
"Do you always think this lowly of yourself, or is today a special occasion?" Namjoon asked, cocking an eyebrow.
Jin brought the wine glass up to his lips again, not knowing how to respond to that.
"You know, I learnt very early on in life that the mind is pliable. It listens to what we say and then moulds itself to it. The more we think lowly of ourselves, the more we will believe it and the more we think that we're undeserving of love. When we say good things, and compliment ourselves, and are kind and forgiving, we're happier, because our mind believes that we're deserving of all good things." Namjoon said with a smile.
"You should be on Ted Talk," Jin told him.
"Fine, let me explain this another way," Namjoon said, sitting up straighter now, "If Jungkook were to say what you just told me - If he were to say that he was ugly, or that he didn't believe he was worthy of love, would you let him?"
"Then why would you say those things about yourself? Why would you let yourself believe that you're worth nothing?" Namjoon said, leaning forward, "Your happiness matters too, Jin. You're allowed to have a life outside of Jungkook. You're allowed to fall in love, to be wined and dined, to be shown that you're so much more than you think of yourself."
Jin smiled at him, true and genuine, and Namjoon swore that his heart skipped a beat.
"Are you always this wise, or is today a special occasion?" He mimicked Namjoon.
"It's the wine," Namjoon said as he brought his wine glass to his lips.
"Pork steak and Chicken burger?" The waitress said, holding two plates, making them lean away from the table.
Jin cleared his throat, and finished what was left in his wine glass. He didn't realise how much he was leaning in until the waitress came.
"Thank you," Namjoon thanked the waitress before she left. "Dig in."
"So, where's Taehyung tonight?" Jin asked as he bit on a french fry.
"With his grandmother," Namjoon answered.
"Must be nice having grandparents around," Jin muttered.
Namjoon paused for a second before asking, "Jin, can I ask how.."
"How I got Jungkook?" Jin finished for him.
"Yeah. I mean, you don't have to tell me, but-"
Normally, Jin would have snapped. He would have said that it was none of Namjoon's business. He's snapped a bunch of times. He's told people not to pry, that it was none of their concern how he had his son. But strangely enough, he felt himself wanting to open up. He felt himself closer to Namjoon than Namjoon just being his boss...
"It's okay," Jin said, shaking his head.
"Are you sure?" Namjoon asked.
"Jungkook is my sister's son." Jin started off, "I grew up with just my sister. My dad was never in the picture, and my mom died when I was 12 or 13. She was perfectly healthy one day, and the next she just had a heart attack and...and she died. I never felt like I didn't have a mom though. My sister was everything to me. She was my best friend, my rock, my confidante, my mom, and my dad, and she was just always there for me. She got married to this amazing guy and I visited literally every weekend. One day she told me that she was pregnant and I remember that we just sat there, and cried together, and then ate a bunch of waffles until the cafe threw us out. Nine months later, Jungkook was born. He was the cutest little baby and I remember being in the hospital, waiting outside, until the doctor came out and brought me in and let me hold him... Jungkook had just turned 6 months old when they were going to go visit my brother in law's parents. On the way back, they had an accident. No one but Jungkook survived. I've been taking care of him ever since."
"You were 20 when you got him?"
"Going on 21, yeah," Jin answered, taking a bite of his burger, willing the tears to go away. He's always been emotional when it came to talking about his sister. She was everything to him.
"You're amazing, Jin," Namjoon said, "Any other person in your shoes would have given Jungkook away. But you...You put your entire life on hold to take care of him. You dropped out of law school, and learnt how to take care of a child even when you were 20! You sacrificed so much. And look at how that paid off. He's happy! He's literally the happiest, most polite and content kid I've ever seen."
"I'd do anything for him," Jin said, "He's my son."
"He's lucky to have you," Namjoon said, genuine and sincere.
"Can I ask..." Jin said, not finishing his sentence.
"It's only fair isn't it?" Namjoon told him with a smile.
"Don't know if you've noticed, but I'm kind of the CEO of the company-" Namjoon started out with a laugh.
"I've noticed, sir." Jin said with a smile.
"It's Namjoon." He corrected.
Jin just smiled, taking another bite of his french fry.
"Having that title, inheriting it the way that I did...It came with a lot of expectations, and conditions, I guess you would call it,"Namjoon said, eyebrows furrowing as he tried searching for the right word, "I wouldn't say that my parents were homophobic, but they did care a lot about what other people would say. My dad more than my mom. I came out to them as bisexual, just as college was starting. I thought they had accepted it because they didn't really say anything. But it turns out, they didn't care because it meant that I still liked girls. When I came back with my first boyfriend, that's when my dad really couldn't handle it. He made me break up with him. Told me that people would talk too much and if I really cared for him, I would marry a girl and give him an heir to the business."
"I was." Namjoon said, "We were both forced into it. It was a merger of our companies. Neither of us wanted any part of it, but we both knew that we had 'duties' to carry out. When we were both 21 - She gave birth to Taehyung and I started training for the takeover. My dad died a year later. The first thing we did after the funeral was talk about a divorce. With my dad gone, there was no one to impress anymore. My mom knew how miserable we were and never wanted this marriage for us in the first place, and neither did we. We knew that we didn't want this. She never wanted to be a mother and told me to put Taehyung up for adoption. But I couldn't do it. I took one look at his boxy smile that he had, and his eyes, and I knew that I would do anything for him. She left, and ever since then, it's been just me and Taehyung."
"What if she comes back?" Jin asked.
"She won't," Namjoon said with a shake of his head, "We came up with a contract. I told her that she wouldn't be able to get custody if she left, and she agreed. She did say that she would want to meet him one day when he was a little older, but I said that it would be up to Taehyung if he ever wanted to meet her or not. Neither of us except him would have that option of forcing him."
"Those are good terms," Jin said with a nod.
"I thought you might agree," Namjoon said, "You have a good eye for contracts."
"Tae's a great kid," Jin said, "Honestly is. He's one of the most sensitive kid's I've ever met and he has this smile that's just...contagious."
"It's my favourite thing about him," Namjoon confessed, "it's gotten me through some of the worst days."
"Kids have a way of doing that," Jin said, wiping his hands with the tissue in front of him.
"I know it was hard in the beginning, but I honestly can't see my life without Taehyung," Namjoon said, "Raising him alone was hard...harder than anything I ever did."
"But it's rewarding," Jin finished for him, "Like seeing his first steps, or hearing his first words-"
"Or when you're having a bad day and somehow they just sense it, so they come up to you, tell you that they love you and give you this big hug, and suddenly you can't remember what you were ever angry about in the first place," Namjoon said.
"We have a phrase for that at home," Jin said, "We call it Picture Perfect Parent Moments. It's the kind of moment that can't be captured on camera but the kind that you keep in your memory to think back on. It's like those perfect moments you want to savour and play again and again and again."
"Picture Perfect Parent Moment," Namjoon repeated, testing the weight of the word on his tongue. "I like it."
"Excuse me sirs, the kitchen is about to close. Would you like to make your last order?" The waitress asked politely.
"Could we just get the bill, please?" Jin asked with a smile.
"Was the food good?" Namjoon asked as she walked away.
"Thank you for dinner. Honestly, you turned my whole evening around." Jin said gratefully.
"It was more the other way, trust me," Namjoon said with a smile as he looked over the bill.
Namjoon placed some notes on the table and they exited the restaurant.
"This dinner went by quickly," Namjoon said with a laugh.
"Time flies," Jin replied with a smile.
"I had a good time," Namjoon said.
"So did I."
"I'm sorry about your date..." Namjoon said, trailing off.
Jin looked at him with a smile on his face and said, "I'm not."
"I'll see you tomorrow, Jin," Namjoon said with a smile.
HOLY SHIT...did we....did we just get to 2.3k adjksakhsd omg THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH! I can't believe that you guys like this story enough to stick with it and to comment and make my day and kudos and im just im sobbing :(( <3
ONWARDS THE INSIGHTS
i still can't believe it oh my god im crying
my law degree finally came in handy look at me drafting out fake contracts
scene 1 doneee~
the firework in the butt is based on a true story...that is all im going to say
scene 2 doneeee
its 2am im sleeeepppyyyy goodnight gays <3
IM AWAKE AND ITS TIME TO START THE DAY
wait wait wait wait HOLD TF UP TOUR APRIL 2020 AKA MY BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!
is this an excuse to revise my contract and tort law...i think it is
i never really noticed how easy the words for this story just flow out i honestly love writing this au
magic shop is playing while jin realises that hes wrong about namjoon :D m cryin
scene 3 was supposed to go way differently but i couldn't help myself :(( babie's excited about fingy drawrings
grr discourse v v important
the way ive written 5k and still havent gotten to the main part of this chapter i regret nothing
MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS <3
okay ive decided to put off angst for now bc its christmas so enjoy fluff I'll rip your heart out later :D
hero namjoon to save the day
PSA: BE NICE TO PEOPLE IN THE SERVICE INDUSTRY
sad music is playing while im writing this and im CRYING
fking all i ask is playing im so sad
HE CALLED HIM NAMJOON ASKJDHASKJDH
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Ahh the weekend.
Jin loved the weekend. It meant that he could sleep in and wake up later than 6.55am like he had to do for the weekdays. Jungkook knew that Saturdays and Sundays were days that he could sleep in as well, and in the occasion that he woke up before Jin, which he almost always did, he could sit in front of the television and watch it until Jin woke up, which was usually an hour or so after him. It was routine; and Jin had their routines down to a T for the last couple of years. Sure, he had to change it a little after Jungkook got into Kindergarten, and then again when Jin accepted the promotion from Namjoon two weeks ago, but it wasn't a radical change, and the weekend schedules remained the same.
Jin was snuggled comfortably under his blanket that was pulled up to his neck, and was hugging a pillow like he always did, deep in sleep when he suddenly heard a loud clanging from outside followed by a soft, "Owie."
Immediately, he jumped up from the bed, pushing everything aside, grabbing his glasses and putting it on his face as he exited the room.
"Jungkook?" Jin called out, looking around the seemingly empty apartment. The first thing he checked was the door which still had the locks on them and were closed shut. He breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that Jungkook was still in the apartment, "Kookie!"
He saw Jungkook's room door wide open, Iron Man Plushie on the foot of his bed. He darted to the kitchen where the noise came from and found Jungkook with a frown on his face, chubby little hands covering his ears, surrounded by pots and pans, cupboard door opened.
"Hey baby," Jin said, eyes immediately searching the floor to see if anything broke or that there were any sharp objects around.
There were none. There were a couple of pots and pans on the floor, but nothing dangerous.
"Hey sweetie. You're okay," Jin said softly, walking over to Jungkook and kneeling down in front of him, gently moving his hands from his ears, "What happened, Kookie?"
With a frown on his face, and doe brown eyes, Jungkook said, "Was trying to makeded brekky for Daddy like Daddy makeded for Kookie but big owie."
"Are you hurt, sweetie? Did anything fall on you?" Jin asked, thumb gently rubbing the apple of Jungkook's cheeks as he checked his son for injuries.
"Owie in my ears," Jungkook pouted, pointing to his ears.
"Did the noise scare you, baby?" Jin asked softly, "It was too loud, wasn't it?"
Jungkook nodded, pout only growing bigger.
Jin leaned down and placed a kiss on Jungkook's right ear.
"Daddy here too." Jungkook said, pointing to his left one.
Jin smiled as he leaned to place a kiss on Jungkook's left ear.
"Butter." Jungkook said with a wide smile and a nod.
"Better." Jin corrected.
"Bet-tuh-r." Jin sounded out.
"Bet.tuhr." Jungkook repeated.
"Butter." Jungkook nodded, proud of himself.
Jin laughed, placing a kiss on Jungkook's forehead, "You hungry, sweetie?"
Jungkook nodded furiously watching Jin pick the pots and pans up from the floor.
"Kookie make brekky." Jungkook said.
"You want to help daddy make breakfast today?"
"No! No! Kookie make," Jungkook whined.
"You want to make breakfast today?" Jin asked.
Jungkook nodded with a smile on his face.
"What do you want to make?" Jin asked him.
"Pancake!" Jungkook said excitedly.
"Pancakes it is!" Jin said, grabbing the pots and pans from the floor.
"Daddy, here," Jungkook said, holding a pot with both his hands, almost struggling with the weight of it.
"Thank you, baby," Jin said, proud of how helpful Jungkook was.
"Daddy, pancake!" Jungkook reminded as he stood next to him, too short to reach the kitchen island.
"How about you go sit over there and daddy will bring the ingredients we need, okay?" Jin told him, "And then you can stir it up and make the pancakes."
"Kookie do." Jungkook said.
"Yeah Jungkook, you'll do everything. But can I help you? Can I be your assistant?" Jin asked him.
Jungkook gave it a thought for a couple of seconds before he nodded, "Daddy can help."
"Thank you, baby," Jin said, "Now can you go sit over there while Daddy gets everything you need to make the pancakes?"
Jin got out the flour, baking powder, butter, milk, eggs, sugar and salt and placed them on the island before moving to get the mixing bowl so that they could mix all of them in.
"Can you measure out one cup of flour?" Jin said, handing Jungkook the cup and the open packet of flour.
Jungkook nodded and kneeled on the high chair.
"Kookie, careful on the chair," Jin warned him.
Jungkook took the packet of flour and the cup and brought it close to him, a little dusting of flour escaping the packet.
"Slowly with the flour okay," Jin told him gently.
Jungkook's eyebrows were furrowed in concentration, his little tongue poking out of his mouth as he slowly poured the flour with little spillage into the metal measuring cup.
"Daddy lookie! I did it! I did it!" Jungkook said.
"Well done, Kookie. My little chef is so good," Jin complimented, and then said, "Can you measure out half a cup of flour into this cup?"
Jin kept handing over ingredients for Jungkook to measure out and put into the bowl and Jungkook did it with a lot of concentration and some spillage, which Jin wasn't very fussed about. Jungkook kept looking over at Jin with a wide grin on his face every time he poured something out, and Jin would smile back and tell him how amazing he was as a chef and how lucky Jin was to be able to help him.
"Eat?" Jungkook asked once all the ingredients were mixed together to make batter.
"Not yet baby, Daddy has to cook these now in this pan," Jin said, turning the stove on.
"Kookie do! Kookie do!" Jungkook said, climbing on top of the island.
"Jungkook, no climbing on the kitchen top," Jin warned.
"Kookie wanna do!" Jungkook whined, stepping down onto the chair.
"Baby, I want you to do this as well but it's hot and you don't want to get another owie, right?" Jin explained as he poured out batter onto the pan.
"The fire is hot and if you're not careful you'll get an owie and then we'll have to go to the hospital," Jin told him.
"Hostipal?! With the doctors, daddy?" Jungkook asked with wide, fearful eyes.
"Yeah," Jin nodded, "But you can be a good chef and get two plates for daddy to put the pancakes in."
"I go now," Jungkook said, climbing down carefully from the chair, his small, chubby feet pitter pattering into the kitchen to grab a plate. He walked over to Jin and pulled on his pajama bottoms, passing him the plate before he ran to repeat the process.
"Kookie, do you want syrup?" Jin asked as he placed a hot pancake onto the plate, moving it to the other side of the kitchen island.
"Chocky syrup peas," Jungkook said, huffing as he climbed back onto the tall chair.
Jin spooned another ladle of batter on the pan before getting out the chocolate and maple syrup along with a can of whipped cream.
"Daddy what that?" Jungkook asked, pointing at the can.
"This baby," Jin said, spraying some whipped cream in the form on a smile on Jungkook's pancake, "Is whipped cream. Here, try it with your chocolate sauce."
"Daddy issa smile!" Jungkook squealed excitedly, imitating the smile, eyes crescenting and a toothy smile gracing his face.
"It is a smile!" Jin said, copying the same excited tone.
Jungkook scooped up some whipped cream and chocolate sauce with his finger and stuck it in his mouth, "Yummy!"
"Use a fork please, Kookie," Jin told him as he flipped the pancake over.
Jungkook grabbed his fork and struggled with cutting up the pieces of his pancake.
"Do you want Daddy to help you cut your pancake for you, baby?" Jin asked.
Jungkook nodded and slid his plate over to Jin.
"Yes sweetie?" Jin said, looking up at Jungkook.
"Can I have more?"
"You want another pancake?"
"With chocky and whippy cream," Jungkook asked with wide eyes and a smile on his face.
Jin knew he was feeding Jungkook too much sugar, but it was the weekend and he deserved a treat too.
"What do we say when we want something?" Jin reminded him.
"Peas!" Jungkook said, leaning forward with a pout.
"Sure baby, I'll make you another pancake okay?"
"With a smiley?"
"With a smiley and a heart!" Jin declared grabbing the whipped cream as Jungkook giggled in front of him.
Weekends with Jungkook really were the best, even if he didn't get to sleep in.
"Iz a Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, come inside iz fun inside! Iz a Mickey Mouse Clubhouse," Jungkook sang along, sitting cross legged on the floor, intently watching the television while Jin was sitting on the couch, leaned back, going through some work emails.
"Do Hyun should have gotten back to me by yesterday..." He said to himself, opening up a new email to write to Do Hyun and his lawyers.
"Roll call!" Jungkook shouted, throwing his hands up in the air, calling out the names along with the television, "Donald! Daisy! Goofy! Pluto! Minnie! And Mickey!"
Jungkook looked back at Jin, pulling his pajama bottom that Jin never bothered to change out of even after he took a shower, "Daddy! Daddy! Lookie! It's Mickey Mouse!"
"Wow Kookie," Jin said, gasping at the television when it showed Mickey, "Are you going to go on another adventure with him."
"Yuh huh, I said Meeska Mooska Mickey Mouse and the clubhouse was there!" Jungkook said excitedly, "See Daddy! Iz Minnie and Mickey and the doggy and Goofy and Donald Duckie!"
"Hi everybody! Welcome to our Clubhouse!" The television sounded, "Wanna play along with us?"
"I do! I do!" Jungkook answered to the television, grinning, eyes growing double in size.
Jin smiled, ruffling Jungkook's hair before concentrating back onto his laptop, drafting out the email and reattaching a copy of the collateral contract for them to sign.
Just as he was about to press send, Jin's phone rang.
"Hello?" He answered, pushing the phone against his shoulder so he had both his hands free.
"Oh hi!" He said, "I was actually just about to CC you into this email that I was going to send to Do Hyun and his lawyer about the-"
"Jin, it's the weekend. I don't work on the weekends," Namjoon said, and Jin could swear that he could hear the smile growing on his face.
"Right, uhh sorry," Jin said, pressing send on the email anyway, "I'm sure you called for something that isn't work."
"I was actually going to take Taehyung to the park today and he kept asking for Jungkook, so I was wondering if maybe you and Jungkook wanted to join us? There's, uhh, there's a coffee shop like right next to the park so maybe we could grab coffee while the kids play?" Namjoon asked, a hint of nervousness in his voice.
"I'd like that," Jin said, a smile unconsciously growing on his face.
"Really? Uhh, I mean, yeah, sure, yeah that's great! I'll text you the address and meet you there in about an hour?"
"I'll see you there, Namjoon," Jin said and hung up the phone.
"Daddy, who that on the phone?" Jungkook asked, looking up at Jin.
"That was Taehyung's papa," Jin answered, "Do you want to play with Taehyung today at the park?"
"Yes peas!" Jungkook said, jumping up from his spot, the television adventure long forgotten about.
"Turn off the tv and then we'll go change and we'll go, okay?" Jin said gently while shutting his laptop, keeping it on the side table.
"Daddy, I want to wear my blue Avengers shirt," Jungkook told him.
"Sure, sweetheart," Jin said, "But turn the television off first, please."
Jungkook reached over for the remote and turned the television off and then grabbed onto Jin's hand and dragged him to his room.
"What do you want to wear with your blue shirt?" Jin asked as he took the shirt out of the closet.
"Jeans." Jungkook said pointing to the black jeans on the side.
"Will you be able to play in the park with jeans on?" Jin asked, as he took the jeans out.
"Uh huh." Jungkook said, nodding.
"Do you want to change by yourself or should Daddy help you?" Jin asked as he laid both articles of clothing on the bed.
"Kookie can do it! Kookie's a big boy!" Jungkook declared with his chubby fist in the air.
"My big boy," Jin said, can't help resisting placing a kiss on Jungkook's hair, "Daddy's going to go change now, okay? Call me if you need any help."
"Daddy go! We gonna be late to play!" Jungkook whined.
"I'm going! I'm going!" Jin laughed as he exited the room, leaving the door just a little open so he could hear if Jungkook needed him or not.
"And then Kookie's gonna show TaeTae my Iron Man toy and my Spideyman toy and then, and then, and then we gonna play in the sand box and then TaeTae gonna bring Hulk-oh wait," Jungkook said, gripping the two toys firmly in his hand, "Daddy is TaeTae gonna bring Hulk?"
"I don't know, baby, we have to wait and see," Jin said, glancing in the rearview mirror at Jungkook in the carseat.
"Oh no what if TaeTae don't bring Hulk..." Jungkook said like it was the biggest crisis in his life.
"Kookie, you have two toys," Jin pointed out, "Why don't you let Taehyung play with one?"
"But Daddy, this Kookie's toys." Jungkook said.
"But if Taehyung doesn't bring a toy, and you have two toys, isn't it right to give him one so you can share and both of you will be happy playing with toys?" Jin said, "It won't be very nice if you're the only one playing, will it, Kookie? Isn't it fun playing with someone with one toy than by yourself with two toys?"
Jungkook pouted, gripping the toys harder in his tiny hold, "But it's Kookie's toys."
"I know sweetheart," Jin said gently, trying to get him to understand, "But Taehyung lets you play with his toys, right? Remember how he let you play with Hulk?"
"Wasn't that fun playing with him and his toys?" Jin asked him.
"It was fun."
"Wasn't it nice that Taehyung let you play with his toys too?" Jin said.
"It was, Daddy," Jungkook answered.
"See how fun and nice it is to share, Kookie?" Jin said, "I'm sure Taehyung would think it was nice and fun that you would let him play with your toys too, right? Will my best boy share his toys?"
"Kookie will share," Jungkook said with a nod, rambling on excitedly, "TaeTae and me will have so much fun playing Avengers today! And in the sandbox and Daddy I will build a sandcastle for me and TaeTae and Hulk and Iron Man and Spideyman and we will live happily eber after!"
"What about Daddy? Where will Daddy live?" Jin asked as he parked the car.
"At home with Kookie," Jungkook answered.
"But if Kookie lives in the sandcastle, then you won't be at home with Daddy," Jin explained as he unbuckled Jungkook from the carseat.
"Daddy can live with TaeTae's Papa," Jungkook said.
Jin's hands froze. "What?"
"'Cause Daddy will miss Kookie and TaeTae's Papa will miss TaeTae. So Daddy can live with TaeTae's Papa." Jungkook said as if it were as simple as that.
"Or, Kookie can live with Daddy and never go anywhere because Daddy will miss you too much," Jin said, placing a kiss on Jungkook's chubby cheek.
Jungkook held out his hands that were clutching the toys, "Daddy, up."
"Let's go, baby," Jin said as he picked Jungkook up slowly, not wanting a repeat of the meltdown Jungkook had a couple of weeks back, and locked the car once he had everything, before walking towards the park.
"Jin! Over here!" He heard.
"Down! Daddy! Down, down!" Jungkook said, squirming in his arms excitedly.
"Okay, Kookie, one second sweetie," Jin said, laughing at his excitement as Jin put him down and watched him as he ran to Taehyung, hugging him as if he hadn't seen him in years when really it had barely been 24 hours.
"They're excited," Namjoon said, meeting Jin halfway, both of them keeping a close eye on the kids.
"Thank you for the invite," Jin said, "It's nice to be out on a Saturday. We usually stay in, watch some tv, and catch up on sleep."
"Those are the best kinds of days," Namjoon said, "But I get it. Saturdays for us involve Taehyung watching tv while I attempt to catch up on some work. At night, we try to play some games together or even have a movie night."
"Would it be wrong of me to talk about work right now?" Jin said with a cheeky smile.
"On the weekends, I'm unemployed." Namjoon said with a laugh.
Jin laughed, "I totally under- Jungkook! Be careful up there! Don't run on the slide stairs!"
"Parenting's a never-ending job, isn't it?" Namjoon said, glancing over at Taehyung.
"It's one that I don't mind," Jin smiled at him.
"Can I get you some coffee? One of us should be here to keep an eye on the kids," Namjoon said.
"I wouldn't mind an iced latte," Jin said, reaching for his wallet.
"Don't." Namjoon said, placing a hand on Jin's wrist, "This one's on me."
"But you already paid for the dinner that day. The least I could do-"
"It's on me." Namjoon said, cutting him off with a blinding smile before turning around and walking away.
Jin's wrist suddenly felt cold, and lifeless, not like it did a second ago when there was electricity coursing through his veins, wrist warm in the best way possible. There was something about the way Namjoon just took charge that made his heart skip a beat. But he would never admit it out loud.
He sat watching the kids clamber up the stairs of the slide, Taehyung with his Hulk toy in one hand and Jungkook's Iron Man toy in the other giggle as he slid down the slide with Jungkook close behind him.
"'Gain! 'Gain!" Jungkook said while laughing, pulling Taehyung up and back to the stairs of the slide.
"Iced Latte?" Namjoon said, sitting down next to Jin, passing him his drink.
"They having fun?" Namjoon asked, nodding to the kids.
"Lots," Jin said with a smile, sipping on his straw, "Back in the car, I was teaching Jungkook about the importance of sharing."
"That's a battle," Namjoon said with a laugh, "I remember when I talked to Taehyung about that and how sharing was important, he screamed his head off when I tried to get him to share his favourite ice cream with me."
"I thought I was going to have to have another talk with Jungkook, but when I looked over, I saw Taehyung holding Jungkook's favourite Iron Man toy, and now I don't think I have to anymore," Jin said with a proud smile.
"He's a good kid."
"So is Taehyung."
"We're doing an okay job, I would say so myself," Namjoon told him with a laugh.
"More than okay," Jin said, bumping his shoulder with Namjoon, "I mean look at them. They're sharing, they're happy, healthy, just overall really good kids."
"We're killing the parenting game."
Jin looked over at Namjoon with a bright smile and a twinkle in his eyes. All Jin could think while looking at him was - Were his eyes always this shade of brown? Jin swore that he could see something close to fondness when Namjoon smiled back at him, dimpled and deep, gentle...It was just so Namjoon that Jin couldn't explain it. But he was coming to like it.
Jin could feel his cheeks tint pink, so he looked away, taking another sip of coffee, eyes trained on the boys who were now bored of the slide and was walking to the sandbox.
"So, uhh," Jin said, clearing his throat, "What coffee did you get?"
"Oh." Namjoon said, as if embarrassed. He cleared his throat, and moved his drink so that it was out of view from Jin, "I uhh, I mean, I got a drink. I mean of course, you know it's a drink. It can't not be a drink because I'm drinking it. It's a nice drink! It may not be coffee, but it's not like I don't like coffee, because I do. Coffee's great! I drink coffee on the weekdays, because well, doesn't everyone? Not like i follow trends or anything, because that would be - wait no, it wouldn't be bad. I mean- Wait, what was the question?"
Jin smiled fondly, tilting his head slightly as he listened to Namjoon nervously rambling, "What drink did you get?"
Pink dusted Namjoon's cheeks as he softly answered, "Caramel twist without the coffee."
"Cute." Jin mumbled as he took a sip from his coffee, "You have a sweet tooth."
"Sometimes I think I have a bigger sweet tooth than my own son," Namjoon said, leaning down to bring the straw into his mouth.
"Can you keep a secret?" Jin asked turning to look at Namjoon with a mischievous glint in his eyes, "Sometimes when Jungkook's asleep, I take cookies from the cookie jar."
"Thief!" Namjoon gasped exaggeratedly.
"I only feel guilty about it when I don't let him have a cookie on that day. Sometimes he just has way too much sugar and I have to stop him from having more," Jin said.
"I don't know how you say no to that kid," Namjoon said, "I take one look at his big eyes and I'm melting."
"It takes a lot of will power," Jin joked, "He has these huge, devastating puppy dog eyes and I have to remind myself that I'm the adult and that I'm allowed to say no to him."
"Sucks when you have to be both good cop and bad cop, huh?" Namjoon sighed.
"Sometimes." Jin echoed, leaning back on the bench, eyes following Jungkook as he scooped up sand, getting it all over his jeans and shoes.
"Do you ever wish there was someone else?" Namjoon asked.
"On certain days I do," Jin said, "The days where everything seems to be going wrong, and nothing is going according to plan...Those days are the hardest. It's not like I can't raise him on my own, because I can, and I have been since the day he came to me. But sometimes, especially at night, you kind of just want someone there, you know? You want to be able to rant, and scream and cry and at the end of it all, you just want some comfort."
"I know exactly what you mean," Namjoon sighed, trying to push the picture of him cuddled up next to Jin out of his mind, "The nights are always the worst. The bed is too big for one."
"Daddy! Daddy! Lookie!" Jungkook shouted from the sandbox, pointing to the crumbling sandcastle with a leaf on top.
"Wow, Kookie! That looks amazing!" Jin complimented with a smile on his face, "Is that where Iron Man's going to live?"
"Iron Man and Spideyman and Hulk and TaeTae and Kookie!" Jungkook listed excitedly, bringing all his toys to the sandcastle.
"KooKoo make bigger!" Taehyung ordered, pulling his sleeve to get his attention.
"We make bigger than the playground TaeTae," Jungkook said, grabbing more sand.
"Jin." Namjoon called out, setting his coffee down beside him.
"Do you regret that your date didn't show up that day?" Namjoon asked him.
Jin's eyebrows furrowed and a frown settled on his face . Namjoon almost scrambled to apologise when Jin suddenly spoke, "Honestly? No."
"I don't think I can date, in all honesty." Jin said, "And I'm okay with that. I've made peace with that fact a long time ago. Not to say I didn't try it, because I did, a long time back, and it just didn't work out. I'm not bitter about it. I'm okay with not dating. In my situation, when I meet someone, it's not just about me and that person getting along, it's about Jungkook, that person and me getting along, and people my age just aren't ready to date someone with a child. And I get it. I really do. I can't handle the whole getting to know someone, courting them or vice versa and then being ghosted the second they know that I have Jungkook."
"Not everyone-" Namjoon started to say.
"I know not everyone is like that," Jin said with a nod, "But most of them are, and I"m just not willing to take that chance. I don't have time right now to pretend to even have the energy to date. That day was a blessing in disguise, really. I'm kind of glad he didn't show up... Plus, I had fun at the end of the day anyway."
Namjoon immediately perked up, "You did?"
"I really did," Jin said with a smile, "It's nice to sit with someone who gets it, you know? Someone where you don't have to pretend that you're the perfect parent, or that you know what you're doing all the time."
"Even if that someone is your boss?" Namjoon joked.
"Oh. I kind of forgot about that for a second," Jin said, pausing and then bursting out into a laugh.
"For what it's worth, Jin," Namjoon said, looking deep into Jin's eyes, the rest of the world fading away into nothingness, "I think that he missed out on someone really special. There's no one like you, and there's no one like Jungkook either. Honestly, I'm kind of glad he didn't come too. It gave me a chance to get to know you better."
Jin smiled, cheek dusted with the slightest twinge of pink, "I'm glad he didn't come either."
"Daddy! Daddy!" Jungkook said, running over to Jin, cheeks pink from all the activities that he did, "Come push on the swing!"
"You and Tae want to swing?" Jin said, getting up, throwing his empty coffee cup into the trashcan beside the park bench.
"Yeah! Come push!" Taehyung said, sweaty hair matted on his forehead.
"What do we say?" Jin reminded Jungkook as he pulled Jin.
"Peas push," Jungkook said, pulling Jin by his hand.
"I think we're needed," Jin said, looking back at Namjoon who smiled at the two of them, dimpled and deep, while being lead by Taehyung.
It was becoming Jin's favourite thing about Namjoon, second to how good of a father he was.
"This was fun," Jin said, genuinely, carrying a tired Jungkook in his arms, "We should do it more often."
"It really was," Namjoon replied, smiling, Taehyung holding onto his hand, leaning against his leg, eyes drooping, "I think we tired these two out."
"Makes bedtime a little easier, doesn't it?" Jin laughed, feeling Jungkook yawn against his neck.
"I've got to get him home before he sleeps on me," Namjoon said, reaching down and carrying Taehyung into his arms, "Say bye, Tae."
"Bye bye KooKoo and KooKoo daddy," Taehyung said, words slurred, sleepy, the back of his little hand rubbing his eyes.
"Say bye, Kookie," Jin prompted Jungkook, patting his back gently.
Jungkook waved at Taehyung and Namjoon, eyes droopy, barely able to keep them open.
"I'll see you on Monday, Jin," Namjoon said.
"Monday it is, si-Namjoon." Jin said, but corrected himself quickly.
Namjoon couldn't keep the smile off his face as he walked away with Taehyung in his arms, who was falling asleep with every step that they took together.
Jin was strapping Jungkook in his carseat, the child, already sticking his thumb into his mouth. Jin slowly pulled his thumb out of his mouth, needing to break the habit no matter how cute it was.
"Daddy, sleep," Jungkook whined out.
"We're going home soon, baby, we'll sleep then, okay?" Jin said softly, pressing a kiss to Jungkook's forehead before walking over to the driver's seat of the car.
Jin kept glancing at the rearview mirror, and smiling at his sleepy son. Jungkook had his thumb in his mouth, his cheeks flushed pink, pout forming around his thumb and a peaceful expression. He was the cutest kid and Jin couldn't help but coo.
The light turned green the same time his phone started to ring, connected via bluetooth to the car system. He pressed the answer button from the steering wheel.
"Hey! Where are you guys? I tried calling home but no one was answering," Yoongi said, voice crackling.
"We're on the way back from the park. Jungkook's asleep and I'm driving."
"The park? You went to the park on a Saturday?" Yoongi said, surprised.
"Namjoon asked if we wanted to go to the park with him and Taehyung and you know how Jungkook's best friend is Taehyung, so I figured that-"
"Wait, wait, wait," Yoongi said, interrupting Jin, "Namjoon? As in Mr. Kim, Namjoon? The same firetruck suit wearing Namjoon that you couldn't stand?"
Jin paused for a second, feeling heat rise on his cheeks, and sheepishly he answered, "Yeah that one."
"Since when were you on a first name basis with him?" Yoongi asked him. Jin could practically hear the shit-eating grin that was growing on his face.
"Since Wednesday," Jin said, without a thought.
"Wednesday? As in the same day as your date, Wednesday?" Yoongi asked.
Jin stiffened. He hadn't told Yoongi about Henry not showing up and standing him up on Wednesday. When Yoongi asked how his night was when he came home, Jin had replied with a smile that it went better than he thought. Jin told him that he genuinely had a nice time and that the food was actually really nice. Jin didn't mention any names, neither did he say that it was Henry he was with.
"Jin?" Yoongi said when he didn't receive a response.
"What happened on Wednesday that made you get so close to him?" Yoongi asked.
"Before I say anything, I just want to remind you that you're on speaker and Jungkook is asleep in the backseat," Jin said.
"What happened on Wednesday?" Yoongi repeated.
"No screaming, or shouting or swearing," Jin told him.
"No promises." Yoongi deadpanned.
"Before you say anything just remember what I said on Wednesday - I did have a good time and I'm fine!" Jin said as a disclaimer, rambling on to try and calm Yoongi down, "I mean sure, at the time I wasn't feeling great, but then again who would. But I'm fine now and that's all that matt-"
"Jin." Yoongi said through gritted teeth, patience wearing thin.
Jin sighed, knowing that he would have to tell Yoongi sooner rather than later, "Henry didn't show on Wednesday."
"What do you mean he didn't show?" Yoongi nearly yelled, controlling his voice, venom seeping into his words.
"He stood me up." Jin said and then quickly added, "But, Namjoon happened to be passing by the store and he saw me and came in and made the entire night better. He bought me dinner and we talked, and talked, and talked until they practically kicked us out of the restaurant."
"He stood you up." Yoongi repeated, and Jin could practically see the fire of rage stoked in Yoongi's eyes. He could tell that his tongue was poking the side of his cheek, a telltale sign that Yoongi was growing increasingly mad. He could see the furrow of his eyebrows, and the way his fist was clenched. Jin knew Yoongi too well.
"Yoongi, stop," Jin said gently, "Honestly, I'm kind of glad he didn't show. It was nice not to have to pretend for a change."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that, Namjoon gets it. He gets that parenting isn't a science, and that mistakes have to be made. He understands the whole dating thing, and how it's particularly hard. We both had kids at a young age and..." Jin said trailing off, not knowing how to put his thoughts in words, "And he gets me in a way that I think no one ever would."
Yoongi paused for a second, "I'm going to kill Henry."
"I know." Jin said, parking his car.
"I'm also going to keep my eye on Namjoon."
"I know that too, Yoongi," Jin said with an affectionate smile.
Jin could feel Yoongi hesitate before he asked in a soft voice, "Are you really okay?"
Jin leaned back against the seat of his car, eyes unconsciously glancing to rearview mirror, seeing Jungkook in his carseat, peacefully asleep, "I really, really am, Yoongi. I'm okay. Better than ever actually."
Jin's narrow black tie was slightly loosened around his neck, hair mussy from running his fingers through it all day, eyes tired, white shirt slightly crumpled but still neatly tucked into his black trousers as he sat next to Namjoon who, despite the long day didn't have a single hair out of place, nor was his blazer or shirts crumpled in any way shape or form. The only sign that Monday had been a long day, nearing to its end, despite most of the office already gone, was his tired eyes hidden behind his black glasses that was now on the bridge of his nose.
Had this been last week, Jin would have been cursing Namjoon in his mind for making him work overtime, he would made a snide comment about the starch in his clothes and how it was like his personality. But things were different now and they both could feel it. They were sitting in close proximity, something that the Jin from last week couldn't even fathom.
The Jin from last week would have felt out of place, and nervous, and like he didn't belong here. But the Jin right now was organised, comfortable, and dare he say, even more confident than he was in the Do Hyun appointment from weeks ago. His office didn't feel foreign to him anymore. But Namjoon's office felt right. It felt like he was meant to be here.
"I think we should pass the Lindon folder over to the legal team," Jin said, handing Namjoon the folder to look over, "They're not responding to any of my emails, or calls, and I heard from someone on the inside that they were thinking of going to court."
"Court? Why?" Namjoon said, pushing his glasses higher, eyes quickly skimming over the words, "It doesn't look like we've done anything wrong. The contract seems standard, and from these delivery order slips, it looks like we delivered well within time."
"They're contention is that we delivered the items late even though we did warn them three weeks before delivery that there was a problem and that we could only deliver a week after the estimated delivery date," Jin said, "The emails we sent are in the pink tab."
"Did they refuse delivery?" Namjoon asked.
"They didn't respond, so we took that as an okay to continue." Jin said, "We delivered a month before their event date, so I don't see why they're creating such a fuss now. They emailed us 3 days after we delivered saying that they didn't want to pay the full amount because we delivered late. But the weird thing is that within the week that we were meant to deliver, they didn't call or email, or even text anyone."
Namjoon closed the folder, and placed it on the table, leaning forward slightly as he asked, "What do you think we should do?"
"From a legal perspective," Jin said, eyebrows furrowed in concentration, frowning slightly as he thought about the situation deeply, "I don't think we did anything wrong. There was no time is of the essence clause in the contract if I remember it correctly, and even if there was, we did email them weeks in advance which would have given them plenty of time to repudiate the contract or try to negotiate new terms based on our breach,; but they didn't. We delivered the items well before their event, so that's a point in our favour as well. Also, the day of delivery, they could have refused to accept the goods and they wouldn't have incurred any extra costs, nor would they have breached the contract - but they didn't. They accepted it. They only reached out to us once the full itemised invoice was sent, and that too, 3 days after delivery. I think we have a good case on our hands."
Namjoon smiled at Jin, proud. "Do you want to handle this case?"
"What?" Jin asked, mouth agape in surprise.
"If I can get a representative from Lindon to come in, do you want to handle it?" Namjoon asked him.
"Uhh, I'm not a-I mean- I think you should get someone from legal," Jin stuttered, stumbling over his words, "I don't think-"
"I think you're perfect," Namjoon said, cutting him off, quickly realising what he said and then added, "I mean uhh, perfect for this job. You know your stuff and I can see the fire in you, just like there was back in the conference room with Do Hyun. I think you can do it by yourself."
"I might mess up."
"I don't think you will," Namjoon told him with soft eyes and a gentle smile, "You're going to do amazingly. I have full faith in you."
Jin returned the smile, twinkle in his eyes and he nodded, "Okay. I'll give it a go."
"Anything else to get through today?" Namjoon asked, shifting closer to Jin.
"Do Hyun's lawyer hasn't signed the collateral contract yet and it's been three weeks since the meeting," Jin said, looking over the cream manilla folder with Do Hyun's name in it, "I've emailed him, called him and still - Nothing."
"Hmm.." Namjoon hummed, thinking of a recourse, "Have you tried calling Do Hyun?"
"I haven't. I thought it wouldn't be professional," Jin said, "But I have emailed him along with his lawyer."
"If you can't reach either of them by noon tomorrow, tell me and I'll call them myself." Namjoon said, taking the folder from Jin and placing it on his desk.
"I think that's all the updates for now." Jin said, going through the mental checklist in his mind, trying to picture all the folders he had been working on.
"If you didn't stop, I would have stopped you," Namjoon joked, "You work too hard."
"Would you like me to slow down?" Jin said with a cheeky smile, "I mean, I could. I would be like everyone else out there, working one case a week, if you're lucky, I might even work two!"
"You're perfect as you are," Namjoon said, words holding a heavier meaning and they both knew it.
Jin cleared his throat, feeling his cheeks heat up slightly, but he chalked it up to the air conditioning being faulty.
Namjoon looked at his Rolex watch, "It's getting late. We should probably get home to our kids."
"I guess I'll see you tomorrow then," Jin said standing up reluctantly.
"We can go down together? I think I saw your car today," Namjoon said, straightening his tie as he stood up, pocketing his phone.
"Yeah," Jin said with a nod, "I drove today so..."
They walked slowly to the lift, pressing the down button.
"Wow, everyone really did leave," Jin said, looking at the empty office floor.
"It's nearly 9pm," Namjoon said.
"Is Jimin taking care of Taehyung?" Jin asked.
"Yeah. He doesn't have exams till next week and he said Taehyung is a good stress reliever," Namjoon said with a laugh.
"He really is," Jin said with a smile.
"What about Jungkook? Yoongi with him?" Namjoon asked, watching the numbers on the lift go up as it approached their floor.
"Yes." Jin answered, "Yoongi's probably feeding him ice cream with sprinkles even though I said no sugar because I know Jungkook will ask for oreos and chocolate milk for a snack; and Yoongi being Yoongi would give into every whim of that kid. He's weak, honestly."
"I couldn't say no to him," Namjoon said, stepping into the open lift, "He has those puppy dog eyes and this pout and I just really want to squish his cheeks."
"I have a hard time saying no too," Jin said with a laugh, standing beside him in the lift.
"Saturday was fun," Namjoon commented, as the doors closed slowly, "I'm sorry that was random. It's just that you mentioned Taehyung and I mentioned Jungkook and I couldn't help but think-"
"Wednesday was fun too," Jin said, leaning forward and pressing the floor for the basement parking, "Wednesday was...It was amazing."
Namjoon stepped closer to Jin, "You think so?"
"Next time, dinner's on me," Jin told him slowly, as if he was scared that he was crossing a line and reading the signals wrongly.
"Next time?" Namjoon asked, taking another step closer towards him, cocking an eyebrow, smile growing on his face.
"It's only fair I return the favour," Jin told him, taking an unconscious step back.
"Are you doing it to return the favour or do you want to go out because you enjoyed the night?" Namjoon asked.
"What do you think?" Jin said, cheeks dusting pink.
Namjoon leaned down slowly, giving Jin a chance to move back if he didn't want this. But Jin didn't. His eyes fluttered shut, lips almost pouting, waiting for Namjoon.
"I think," Namjoon said, ghosting his lips over Jin's, "That you want me as much as I want you."
"Prove it." Jin said against his lips.
Namjoon pulled Jin closer by his narrow black tie, hanging loosely around his shirt, crashing their lips together. Nothing about the kiss was what Jin expected. From Namjoon's personality, he expected him to be stiff, to be vanilla and boring. But it was the complete opposite.
The kiss was hot and heavy. Namjoon pushed Jin to the metal all of the elevator, pressing him up against it, making a groan escape Jin's throat that he swallowed, He pushed his lips languidly over Jin's, and they flowed like water. It was like they didn't even need to experiment with the pace, or getting to know each other. Once their lips were over one another, something just took over and they moved in sync. Jin slid his hands up to Namjoon's hair, fisting it, pushing him closer if it were even possible. But he didn't care. He wanted to feel as much of him as possible. Their kiss was like fire and water in how it burned him, how it heated him up. He could feel Namjoon pushing against him, rolling his hips softly, gently, experimentally. They moved smoothly together. Jin could feel Namjoon's hands grip his waist so tight, he was sure there would be bruises in the morning, and yet he wanted more.
The lift dinged, and they jumped apart, both smoothening their clothes, running their fingers through their hair as if it would make them look more presentable.
Jin cleared his throat, cheeks flushed, lips swollen and tingling from their kiss, "I'll see you tomorrow Mr.K-uhh, sir-I mean, Namjoo- Uhh."
Jin stuttered, stumbling over his words, still dazed from the kiss.
Namjoon chuckled, low and deep, and Jin swore that his dick twitched at the low rumbling sound.
"I'll see you tomorrow, bright and early in my office, Jin." Namjoon said, walking out of the lift to his car.
The doors to the lift closed slowly, and JIn was left leaning against the cool metal wall of the lift, breathless, wanting nothing more than to pull Namjoon back in and continue their little make out session like horny teenagers.
A minute passed before Jin realised,
"Oh shit that was my floor too!"
Happy New Year everyone! I hope you stay happy, healthy and achieve everything you want to this year! <3 xx
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UMMMM DID WE JUST HIT 3K in 5 CHAPTRRS??? IM SCREAMING holy shit guys thank you so much you honestly have no idea what this means to me! To see you guys like this story as much as i like writing it...honestly my heart is so full im gonna cry :(( thank you again guys
desi armys (or anyone who loves lauv and hindi songs) I have been OBSESSED with this song from the movie good newwz its called dil na jaaneya and i have been listening to it NON STOP ---> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OwrSOPNpPpM
its 10.30 i should probably make dinner but nah i wanna write
am i writing this whole pancake thing because im hungry or because its cute....i dont know
yeah im definitely hungry
lets get it
oh shit i completely forgot i have class today lmao rip i hate night classes ughhh but its definitely better than the 9am to 6pm classes for sure ON THE WEEKENDS
the way im watching mickey mouse clubhouse rn so i get thi factually correct
did you guys know that kids who start potty training at 18 months wont be fully trained until 4 years old but kids who start at 2 years old will be fully trained at 3 years old? i read 2 medical journals about it cause i didnt know if a 4 year old is potty trained or not.. spoiler alert: They generally are
today kids kookie will learn about sharing
henlo its 10.30pm i just came back from night class and i am: tireddd but not too tired to write so leggo
shit's getting deep yall
i think i have 2 more scenes
character development is jin not calling namjoon sir...watch me write a smut scene in the office with jin calling joon sir oops my kinks are being revealed
i dont wanna let go that keep me warm without you im just cold
Cold - James Arthur
HES OKAY YALL IM EMO
oop one more scene :D
its time for my law degree to come in handy again...honestly this is just me revising
my dumbass wrote a whole ass problem question and I had to figure it out bc it was harder than i expected...Examiners hire me im good at this
Lowkey proud I actually did the whole problem and ran through IRAC which is like issue, rule, analysis, conclusion its literally the first thing they teach you in law school
DOM NAMJOON WBK
aaand thats the chapterrrr hehee
comment down below if you liked it! I love hearing what you guys think it genuinely makes my heart go whoooosh~
Jin looked over to the Iron Man clock that was perched on Jungkook's side table.
Jungkook was still clinging to him like a koala, sucking on his thumb as he laid down on Jin's chest with his tiny, chubby arms around his neck. Jin stroked his back lovingly and placed a kiss on his forehead.
"Are you ready to get ready, Kookie?" Jin asked, trying to pull Jungkook away from him so that he could bring him to the bathroom.
Jungkook shook his head and nuzzled closer to Jin, muttering against his thumb, "Don' wanna go."
Jin furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. What was going on with Jungkook? He loved Kindergarten.
"Don't you want to see Taehyung and all your friends? And teacher Jung? And get gold stars, and play in the playground?" Jin said, excitedly, trying to hype Jungkook up.
Jungkook just whined and tried to push himself closer to Jin, nuzzling his head into the crook of Jin's neck. Jin could feel Jungkook's pout against his skin as Jungkook shook his head fervently, "Dun wanna go, daddy. Wanna stay here."
Jin pulled back slightly, ignoring the whine and the tremble of Jungkook's bottom lip.
"Baby, what's going on?" Jin asked, carding his fingers softly through Jungkook's hair, "Did something happen at Kindergarten yesterday?"
Jungkook shook his head, pout only growing against his thumb as he sucked it for comfort.
"Did you have a fight with Taehyung?"
Jungkook shook his head again, trying to get closer to Jin, but Jin held him in place.
"What's wrong, Kookie? What happened? Why don't you want to go to Kindergarten today?"
Jungkook's whine only grew louder.
"Are you sleepy, baby? Is that it? Are you tired?" Jin asked, trying to figure out what was happening with his son.
Jungkook shook his head, thumb still in his mouth, eyes welling with tears.
"Daddy can only help you if you tell him what's happening, baby," Jin said, gently reaching and taking Jungkook's thumb out of his mouth, "Tell daddy what's happening, sweetheart. Hmm.. What's bothering my little Iron Man."
"Daddy no go." Jungkook said.
"Daddy's not going anywhere, baby. Tell me what's wrong," Jin said, pushing Jungkook's hair from his forehead to one side.
"No! No!" Jungkook whined, petulant, tears glossing up in his big eyes.
"Shh, baby, shh," Jin said, taking him into his arms and getting up. He turned the light in Jungkook's room on.
Jungkook whined against Jin's neck, crying about 'daddy no go.'
Jin walked Jungkook around the room and soothingly patted his back, trying to get his 4 year old to calm down. He glanced over at the clock and knew that there was no way he could get to work today, or even get Jungkook to Kindergarten. He had to call into both places and take a day off.
Jin sat Jungkook back down on the bed. Jungkook whined, making grabby hands at Jin.
"Shh, baby," Jin said, wiping the tears away from Jungkook's cheek, "Listen to daddy, okay? You and me are going to stay at home and have a Kookie-Daddy day, okay?"
"K-Koo-Kookie d-daddy day?" Jungkook managed to hiccup out, wiping his tears away with his small, chubby hand.
"Yeah, baby," Jin told him with a smile, "We're going to make breakfast, have a nice long shower, watch movies, read books and eat some popcorn! We can even play with all your toys! Would you like that?"
Jungkook nodded, moving to suck on his thumb again but Jin gently moved his hand away from his mouth.
"First, can you tell daddy what's wrong?" Jin said softly, "Tell daddy why his bestest boy in the whole world is crying today? What's bothering my baby?"
Jungkook pouted, bottom lip trembling again, "Daddy no go."
"We're not going anywhere baby, don't worry." Jin said, reassuringly.
"No! No! Daddy go and- and-" Jungkook said, hiccuping, stumbling over his words.
"And what?" Jin prodded gently, stroking the apple of Jungkook's cheek with this thumb
"And daddy don't come home." Jungkook said, "Kookie alone."
Jin's hand dropped from Jungkook's face, feeling like someone had just punched him in the heart. Jin almost stumbled back, falling on the floor.
"What?" He managed to get out.
"Daddy leave Kookie and Kookie alone." Jungkook said, thumb slipping into his mouth as he sucked against it.
Jin had to take a shaky breath in to calm himself down. He couldn't show how badly it hurt him that Jungkook said that. He never in a million years wanted Jungkook to feel anything but loved, and happy. While he was out last night kissing Namjoon in the elevator, his son was back at home, waiting for him, thinking that he had left him all alone. He knew that taking this job would mean more hours and he did try to explain to Jungkook, but...He didn't think either of them realised how many hours and late nights it would be. As much as Jungkook loved his Uncle Yoo, he loved his daddy too and he missed him. Jin was just now realising how much this job was taking away from him being with Jungkook. After all, they only had each other.
Jin sat down on the bed, and picked Jungkook up, putting him on his lap with a smile plastered on his face.
"No go." Jungkook said against his thumb.
Jin gently pulled Jungkook's thumb out of his mouth and shook his head.
"How could my bestest boy think that his daddy would ever, ever leave him, hmm?" Jin said.
"Kookie bestest boy?" Jungkook asked, doe brown eyes wide and rounded.
"My favourite, most bestestest boy in the whole universe!" Jin said, "Better than Iron Man."
Jungkook gasped, mouth rounding almost as big as his eyes, "Betterer than Iron Man?"
"Million, trillion, bajillion times better than Iron Man," Jin said, fake smile melting away, being replaced slowly with a real one.
Jin carded his fingers slowly through Jungkook's dark brown hair.
"Listen to me, baby," Jin said, more serious now, "Remember how daddy was telling you about the homework that daddy gets? Lots and lots of homework because daddy's in a higher class now?"
Jungkook nodded slowly.
"And daddy said how daddy might not be able to play all the time, because of all that homework?"
Jungkook nodded again.
"Daddy goes to work because daddy needs to do the homework so my little Kookie can get all the ice cream and chocky milk he wants." Jin explained to Jungkook, "Daddy loves you very, very much baby, but daddy needs to work and that means that sometimes Daddy won't be home on time, but that doesn't mean he loves you any less."
"But Daddy," Jungkook said, "I mith you."
Jin brought Jungkook into a hug, trying not to think about whether taking this job was a mistake. Trying not to think about just how much he had come to love this job...
Trying not to think about the kiss he shared with Namjoon yesterday.
"Daddy's not going anywhere, baby," Jin said, gently stroking Jungkook's back.
"Yes, sweetheart?" Jin said, pulling Jungkook away and sitting him back down on Jin's lap.
"Are you doing more homework?" Jungkook asked him.
"Kookie, daddy's going to ask you something okay? And you have to tell daddy the truth." Jin said.
"No lie. Lie is bad." Jungkook said sternly, repeating words he had heard a hundred times before.
"Good boy." Jin said, praising him.
"What quesh-teon?" Jungkook asked.
"Do you want daddy to not get so much homework? Do you want to go back to last time?" Jin asked him.
Jungkook shook his head, "I just wan daddy to read me bedtime stowies like last time."
"So no late nights then," Jin said to himself.
"And play." Jungkook added quickly.
"I'll always play with you, baby," Jin said, "Daddy's not going anywhere, okay?"
"Ma-Maybe we can do homework together gether, daddy," Jungkook said quickly, noticing the frown on Jin's face.
Jin smiled down at him, "I'd like that very much, sweetie."
"Daddy no sad."
"I'm not sad," Jin said, plastering a smile on his face, "How can I be sad when I have you."
"Kookie don't wanna make daddy sad. Kookie just mith daddy but now daddy's here and Kookie's happy!" Jungkook said with a smile, launching himself into Jin's arms.
Jin laughed, hugging Jungkook tightly, peppering kisses all over his chubby cheeks.
"Da-daddy stop!" Jungkook giggled, squirming in Jin's hold, trying to get away.
"But I can't help it. The kissy monster is here and he loves big big cheeks and loves giving kisses," Jin said, kissing Jungkook more.
"No! Kissy monster!" Jungkook giggled, pushing Jin away.
Jin put Jungkook down with one last kiss to his forehead.
"Can you be a big boy for me and go brush your teeth while daddy calls Teacher Jung to tell him you're not going to Kindergarten today?" Jin said.
"Kookie big boy!" Jungkook declared, running into the bathroom.
"Baby, no running!" Jin called out after him, as he watched Jungkook go into the bathroom and climb up his step stool, reaching over to his bunny toothbrush.
Jin's smile fell, as he ran his fingers through his hair, wondering just how long he had let Jungkook feel neglected for. He walked over to his room and sent a message to Hoseok letting him know that Jungkook couldn't make it today. He sent another incredibly professional message to Namjoon telling him that Jungkook wasn't feeling very well and that he was taking a day off. And he sent a message to Yoongi...telling him that he needed to talk as soon as possible, and to come over because he was turning his phone off.
"Daddy! Lookie! I did it! I did it!" Jungkook shouted from the bathroom.
"Coming!" Jin said, putting his phone on silent and down on his bed.
Today was his and Jungkook's day and nothing was going to get in the way of that.
Good Morning Mr Kim. I'm sorry for the short notice but Jungkook isn't feeling well today and as such I will not be coming into work today. If there is anything that needs urgent attention, please do email me and I will attend to it as soon as possible. See you tomorrow morning, sir.
It was 11am and Namjoon still couldn't decipher Jin's message. It was just so..formal.
Not even 14 hours ago, they were up against each other in the lift, furiously making out with each other, and now, Jin was avoiding him and being so formal. What happened? Did Namjoon read the signs wrongly? Was he taking advantage of the power imbalance that existed between them? No. That couldn't be. Namjoon had never once treated Jin like anything other than his equal. Maybe he was reading too much into this. Maybe Jungkook was actually sick and Jin needed to take care of him. But then why did he call Namjoon Mr Kim? After last night, Namjoon was sure that things were going to change between them. Maybe not right away, but he at least didn't want the formalities to exist.
They had just started to find their groove. They had just started to feel comfortable with each other. Namjoon could see that Jin's walls that were once built so high and out of metal rather than brick, was starting to lower now. He often stole glances at Jin while he worked. Occasionally, he would smile at a contract when it was well drafted. He always did appreciate a challenge. When Jin found something confusing, or legally ambiguous, his eyebrows would furrow as he gnawed on his bottom lip, twirling his pencil around while he tried to figure out what the words meant. And when he did, you could pinpoint the moment where the light bulb almost goes off in his head. He would lean forward and start jotting down notes. Jin loved a challenge. He loved to look over contracts, and documents and try to come up with arguments that suited them. The way his eyes sparkle, the way every word that comes out of his mouth is well thought out, the way he makes arguments for both sides before coming to a conclusion was fascinating.
Namjoon liked him. He really, really liked him. But he could also tell that there was more to Jin that meets the eye. There was more than just his sisters death, or raising Jungkook alone. There was something eating away at Jin that made him think that he couldn't be happy, and Namjoon wanted to find out. He needed to. If not for anything, then at least for Jin. He just wanted to see him happy; even if that meant that he wasn't happy with him.
Namjoon's office line beeped.
"Yes?" He called out as he pressed the button.
"Mr Kim, Mr Min Yoongi is here to see you." His secretary said.
"Send him in."
Namjoon begrudgingly put his phone face down on the table as Yoongi walked in, closing the door behind him with a stack of papers in his hand.
"Good morning, Mr Kim." Yoongi said as he walked up to the table, standing in front of it.
"Morning, Yoongi," Namjoon said with a smile, pushing his black glasses up the bridge of his nose, "Please, sit down."
"Thank you sir."
"What can I do for you today?" He asked.
Yoongi put the contract down in front of Namjoon, "This is the contract for the Veristas folder. Usually, I would get Jin to look it over but he isn't in today. I would have gone to the legal team but apparently they're on some team building retreat. So I was wondering if you could maybe look at it for me? I made some amendments to it after the meeting with the heads of the departments. Those amendments are tabbed with the pink notes, and those tabbed with the green ones are all pre-approved."
Namjoon nodded along Yoongi's explanation, flipping briefly through the contract.
"If everything is alright, I can courier this out today and we should have the fully signed contract by Friday," Yoongi said, "I can register the contract by Monday and we can officially start on the project by Wednesday.
"I can get this back to you after lunch," Namjoon said, placing the contract on his desk.
"Thank you, sir." Yoongi said, getting up.
"I hope Jungkook gets better," Namjoon said, knowing how close Yoongi and Jin are.
"Jungkook?" Yoongi looked at him quizzically, before a slight panic settled on his face.
"Jin said that Jungkook wasn't feeling so well which is why he didn't come today?" Namjoon asked more than he said, as if needing some reassurance that he wasn't just overthinking. Judging by Yoongi's reaction, maybe his thought process wasn't so farfetched.
Yoongi pursed his lips, standing in Namjoon's office, looking like he wanted to say something but then thought the better of it.
"Well then..." Namjoon said, trailing off, "I guess I'll just see him tomorrow."
Yoongi opened his mouth but quickly closed it, choosing to just nod at Namjoon instead.
"I'll get this back to you after lunch." Namjoon said, grabbing a pen and an empty piece of paper.
Yoongi started to walk to the door, hand on the doorknob, ready to go out before he sighed.
"Sir." Yoongi said,
"Yes?" Namjoon answered, looking up from the stack of papers that littered his desk.
"May I be a little blunt?" Yoongi asked politely.
"I mean, can I speak to you as Min Yoongi, Jin's friend, and not Min Yoongi, your employee?"
Namjoon looked at him with furrowed eyebrows but nodded anyway.
Yoongi took a couple of steps towards Namjoons desk, dropping his hand to rest on his sides as he nervously played with the frayed threads of his blazer.
"I've known Jin a long time; since college actually. We've been best friends ever since. i've seen him when he was incredibly popular, and when everyone wanted to be him and be friends with him, when he was at the top, constantly number one, while also being at every party and social event. And I've also seen him when he dropped off the face of the Earth. I've been with him through it all," Yoongi said, "Jin is one of the most selfless people I know. He's been through so much for someone who's only 25. Jungkook is the most important person to him. He will put that boy above anything and everything else, including himself. He wants nothing more than for Jungkook to be happy, and I'm sure he's mentioned it every chance that he can get. But, I don't think you realise the extent he will go to, to make sure that happens. Jin's had a bad experience, and it's not my place to tell, but it's the entire reason that he thinks that he's unworthy of love and happiness. Just...I don't know what's happening between you two...But, he's, for lack of better word, fragile. And he scares easily."
Yoongi stepped closer to the door, "Please, just, be patient with him. He really is worth all the love in the world. He, more than anyone else, deserves to happy after everything that's happened."
Jungkook stood on his tippy toes, glancing over at Jin as he tried to sneak in a packet of marshmallows into the shopping cart. He moved slowly but deftly, trying not to get caught.
"Don't even think about it, Kim Jungkook," Jin said, not even looking back as he scanned the shelf for sugar.
Jungkook gasped, "Daddy, you have superpowers like the Avengers!"
"I have eyes everywhere," Jin said with a smile on his face grabbing the sugar from the third shelf, and putting it in the cart.
Jungkook just looked at him as he held out the colourful packet of marshmallows with big, brown rounded eyes and a small pout on his face, and in the softest voice, he said, "Peas."
"Baby, you tried the same thing with the gummy worms and I already let you have that," Jin said, looking at Jungkook with an amused expression.
"But-But daddy, that's the gummies! This iz marshymellow. They are not the same, daddy." Jungkook said, making a very strong case. He inched the packet closer to the cart, pout only growing on his face.
Jin sighed and nodded. He always was a sucker for Jungkook's pout.
"Yay!" Jungkook cheered, standing on his tippy toes as he placed the marshmallow packet on top of the gummies.
"But that's the last one, Kook." Jin said, getting behind the trolley to push it, "Come on, we have to get a lot more items. Stay close."
Jin went through the list, walking from aisle to aisle, picking things up and placing it back in the cart, having to tell Jungkook more than once that he had enough sweets and didn't need anymore. He was at the dairy aisle which was his last stop before checking out.
"Full cream milk, semi skimmed milk," He said to himself, putting both in the cart, "And chocolate milk for Kookie. Jungkook, do you want the cow one or the one with the bunny on it?"
Jin turned around for Jungkook's answer but couldn't find him.
"Jungkook?" He called out, turning his head to see if he was nearby.
But Jin couldn't spot him.
Panic started to rise up in his chest. He practically dumped the two jugs of chocolate milk back at the aisle and started walking around the grocery shop.
"Jungkook! Kookie?!" Jin called out, fear and panic filling him, a cold shiver running down his back at the millions of unthinkable thoughts running through his head. "Jungkook, where are you?"
Jin was frantic at this point, almost running around the entire grocery store when his phone started to ring.
He picked it up without looking at the screen, sniffling as he did, "Look, this isn't a good time-"
"I can't-" Jin started to say, panic filling his chest, constricting it until he almost couldn't breathe.
"Jungkook's with me."
Jin pulled his phone away from his ear to look at the contact, "W-What?"
"Aisle 7 by the detergents."
"Stay right there." Jin said, hanging up, sprinting to the aisle, ignoring the dirty looks and the muttering of curses by everyone he nearly bumped into.
"And-and-and then, daddy and i watcheded a movie! There was Iron Man and then the Hulk and then the wizard with the hand circles and then there was Groot! But Groot was a baby and he was like a sticky and daddy said that the big groot had to go to heaven where the angels and the stars are-" Jungkook rambled on excitedly, "And then daddy makeded pop pop with butter and we haded mac and cheese!"
"That's very nice, Jungkook. What else did you do?"
"Daddy and I played with crayons!" Jungkook said excitedly, chubby little hand in a fist as he started to explain his drawing.
"Jungkook!" Jin breathed out in relief, running to him, kneeling down slightly, pulling him into a hug. He breathed in his scent, feeling himself get calmer and calmer by the second by just holding him.
"Daddy lookie who I saw!" Jungkook said, not realising what he did.
Jin pulled away with a stern look, anger flooding the places that panic and fear used to once live, "Don't you ever, ever do that again! Do you know how worried I was?! You cannot walk away from daddy without telling me where you went! You could have gotten lost and then I would never see you again! Is that what you want, Jungkook?"
Jungkook recoiled slightly from the scolding, frowning, bottom lip trembling as he was getting scolded.
Jin sighed, rubbing his hand over his face. He knew he shouldn't have yelled at Jungkook like that, but he was scared and Jungkook needed to know that what he did was wrong.
"Listen baby," Jin said, softer, gentler now, "You cannot just run off like that. It's dangerous, and you would get hurt and daddy would be very, very sad if something happened to you. Can you promise you'll never go anywhere without telling me first?"
Jungkook nodded, a small pout on his face, knowing he did something wrong.
"Kookie sowwy." Jungkook said, looking down on the floor.
"Come here, baby," Jin said, pulling him in for another hug, closing his eyes, relief washing over him.
"Sowwy daddy." Jungkook said against Jin's neck.
"It's okay sweetheart. I know you didn't mean it. You're my good boy. My bestest boy." Jin said as he picked Jungkook up, settling him on his hip.
Jin finally looked up, "Thank you."
"It was nothing," He said, hand settling deep into his pocket.
"If it wasn't you he ran into, I don't know where-"
"Don't." He said quickly, cutting Jin off before he could say anything else, "He's here and he's safe. That's all that matters, right? He knows now not to run off like that."
Jin nodded, not knowing what else to say. He wasn't prepared to meet him here.
"I guess I'll see you tomorrow Mr-"
"Namjoon." Namjoon corrected. "It's Namjoon."
"Right." Jin said, feeling that awkwardness he thought he would never feel again around him.
A beat of silence passed before Jin spoke up again.
Namjoon shook his head, "It's okay. We don't have to speak about it if you don't want to. We never have to bring it up if you're so uncomfortable about it."
"it's not that.." Jin said, not knowing what else to say.
Namjoon stepped forward slightly, "Jin, it's okay. I understand what it's like. You have a kid. I'm your boss, who also has a kid that your child's best friend. Our situation isn't like most, wouldn't you agree?"
"It's more than just that." Jin said, unconsciously stroking Jungkook's back, "I just..."
"Need some time to figure it out?" Namjoon finished for him.
"Just a bit."
"Take as much time as you need," Namjoon said with a dimpled smile and crescented eyes behind his thick black glasses, "I'm not going anywhere."
Jin couldn't help but think about everyone else who left him.
He just hoped that Namjoon wouldn't be one of them.
The next few days at work were awkward for Jin. He didn't realise how accustomed he had gotten to working beside Namjoon, both physically and otherwise. He hadn't realised how often he was at Namjoon's office and not his own. Being in his own office, only ever seeing Namjoon when it was incredibly necessary, and only talking to him over the phone or over emails, was surprisingly harder than Jin was expecting. He didn't realise how empty his office was, or how he much rather be working beside Namjoon, and seeing dimples grow wider with his smile, deeper, when he was happy with something that Jin did, or he did. He didn't realise how much he had wanted to see Namjoon push up his glasses when he was done reading a page, or how he had gotten so used to Namjoon fidgeting with his tie when he was frustrated, or how he would much rather with a pencil than a pen. Or how when he was particularly annoyed, he would huff, look up at the picture he had of Taehyung and him smiling wide and goofy at the camera, and how his stress would immediately melt away.
He had grown so fond of Namjoon, and he didn't even know when it started. And the worst part wasn't that Jin was beginning to fall, but it was that he ended it before he even had the chance to.
It was the weekend now, and Jin couldn't be more relieved. He needed some space to work his thoughts out, and he definitely needed to give Jungkook more attention. So he dedicated the whole weekend to his little Kookie.
Jin was crouched down near the fridge, trying to find some ingredients to bake with. He had found the butter, sugar and eggs and all that was left was to find some flour and chocolate chips. He was rummaging around when he heard the soft pitter patter of Jungkook's feet against the floor.
"Shh, Iron Man," Jungkook said, although he thought that he had whispered it, "We gonna scare daddy."
Jin smiled against the cool air of the fridge.
He heard Jungkook creep up and with an exaggerated sigh, Jin said, "I sure hope no one scares me. If anyone did, I would be too scared to bake the cookies I wanted to bake."
The footsteps stopped, and Jin heard Jungkook pipe up.
"What kinda cookies, daddy?"
"Ahhh!" Jin said, pretending to be scared, scrambling and then dramatically falling on his butt against the tiles of the kitchen.
"Oh no! You scared me! Now I can't make any cookies!" Jin said.
"What kinda cookies making?" Jungkook asked.
"Well, I was going to make chocolate chip cookies..." Jin said, trailing off.
"Those are my bestestest cookies, daddy!" Jungkook said, running up to Jin with his Iron Man toy excitedly, "Geddup Geddup! We gots to make the cookies!"
"No! I can't!" Jin said dramatically against the floor, "I'm too scared to make the cookies."
"No, no! Daddy! Geddup! Kookie help make cookies," Jungkook asid, trying to pull Jin up but only managing to lift his hand.
"The cure to being scared is one hug and two kisses," Jin said.
Jungkook practically jumped on Jin and gave him a huge hug and then pulled away and kissed his right cheek twice, "Muah!"
Jin tapped his left cheek with a smile on his face and Jungkook gave him another small kiss to his cheek, "Two!"
"Iron Man Kookie saved me!" Jin said, holding Jungkook tightly as he stood up, "Kookie is a superhero!"
"Iron Man!" Jungkook giggled excitedly, holding up both his hands as if he were flying.
Jin settled a giggly Jungkook on his hips and placed a kiss on his chubby, slightly pink cheek, "Shall we bake some cookies now, baby?"
Jungkook clapped his hands together once, "Peas."
"Let's go!" Jin said, placing Jungkook on the chair, "Stay here while daddy gets all the ingredients, okay?"
"Yes baby?" Jin said, placing the butter, sugar, eggs, and flour on the table before looking for the baking powder and vanilla extract.
"What's ingrebibiens?" Jungkook asked, trying to pronounce ingredients, feeling proud when he got the word out.
"Ingredients." Jin corrected on instinct.
"In-Bi-bi-ants." Jungkook said, dragging the Iron Man action figure across the table.
"Ing. Gree. Dee. Ents." Jin sounded out placing the last of the ingredients on the table.
"Bi bi ants." Jungkook said, not wanting to try anymore, more curious about what it was than the pronunciation, "Daddy, what is it?"
"Ingredients are the things you need to make something," Jin explained, getting the mixing bowl and the whisk out, "Like these are the ingredients to make chocolate chip cookies."
"But daddy why not we just get a cookie and put chocky chippies in it?" Jungkook asked, eyes rounded with childhood innocence, curious.
"We could do that," Jin said, "But we're going to make it from scratch!"
"Daddy, don't hurt the cookies." Jungkook gasped out, "Iz not nice to scratch."
"No-Well yes, you should never hurt anyone, Kookie," Jin said, "But making something from scratch means to make it all yourself from the beginning."
"No hurty the cookie?" Jungkook asked.
"No, baby, we would never hurt anything, right?"
"Hurt people make them have an owie." Jungkook said.
"Good boy." Jin said, reaching over and ruffling Jungkook's hair, "Ready to start?"
"Yes peas!" Jungkook said excitedly, putting his Iron Man down beside him.
"Can you measure out one cup of brown sugar in this cup over here?" Jin said, passing Jungkook the opened packet of sugar and a metal measuring cup, "Be gentle, okay?"
"Kookie can do it!" Jungkook said, pulling the packet towards him, slowly pouring out the sugar into the cup.
Jin kept glancing over to him as he cut up the butter into squares.
"All done!" Jungkook announced, proud of himself as he looked up to Jin with a grin on his face and excitement in his eyes.
"Well done, my little baker," Jin said, pushing the metal bowl towards Jungkook, "Can you pour the sugar, very gently, into this bowl?"
Jungkook nodded furiously, moving to kneel on the chair.
"Jungkook, wait." Jin said, walking to Jungkook's chair, "Come here, baby."
He carried him and placed Jungkook on the counter so that he wouldn't fall trying to kneel unstably on the chair.
"Don't move towards the edge, okay?"
"I won't." Jungkook promised, "Put sugar now?"
"Yes please," Jin said, reminding Jungkook, "Slowly, baby."
Jungkook stuck his tongue out, furrowing his eyebrows in concentration as he poured the granulated sugar slowly into the bowl that already held unsalted butter in it. "Daddy! Daddy! I did it all by myself!"
"You did!" Jin said excitedly.
"Kookie scratching cookies!" He said with a toothy grin, nose scrunched up as he crescented his eyes in happiness.
Jin laughed, "Sure baby."
"Can you pour just a little bit of white sugar into this small cup?" Jin said, putting the small packet of white sugar and the small measuring cup in front of Jungkook before moving the brown sugar to the side to avoid any spillage.
Jin mixed the ingredients in the bowl while Jungkook poured them out into the measuring cup, occasionally spilling some on the countertop. Everytime Jungkook would spill, he would gasp softly and mutter out a little, "Oopsies." Jin would smile at him, and tell him that he's doing an amazing job, and that spillage is part and parcel of baking.
"Can I pour the chocky chips yet?" Jungkook asked, pulling the bag towards him.
"Almost, baby." Jin said, whisking the ingredients together, having to only add the egg and the chocolate chips now, "Do you want to taste some?"
Jungkook nodded and opened his mouth, waiting.
"Here." Jin said, "Dip your finger in the spoon."
"Mmm." Jungkook said against his fingers, "Nyunny."
"Nyummy right?" Jin said with a smile, cracking an egg into the batter, and then pushing a metal measuring cup towards Jungkook, "Can you pour out one cup of chocolate chips in this, please?"
As Jin was mixing the batter, the doorbell rang.
"Daddy, bell." Jungkook said, concentrating on pouring out the chocolate chips into the cup.
"Can you stay here while daddy goes to answer the door? Don't move, okay? Daddy will be right back." Jin said, putting the whisk down as he walked to the door, keeping his ears out for any sound in the kitchen, just in case.
"Hey." Jin said immediately, as he opened the door, "Come in, come in. I left Jungkook in the kitchen so I can't stay here long."
"What's he doing in the kitchen?" Yoongi asked, walking with Jin.
"He's on the counter top." Jin answered, "We're baking."
"Yoongs, he's fine!" Jin insisted, rolling his eyes at how protective Yoongi was being, "Kookie, look who came to visit you! It's Uncle-What are you doing?"
"Nuffin'." Jungkook said, quickly shutting his mouth, looking at the two adults with a smile and an overly innocent expression.
"Are you eating the chocolate chips?" Jin asked, hand on his hip.
Jungkook shook his head, remnants of the chocolate chips on his top lip.
"Are you lying to daddy?" Jin asked, cocking an eyebrow.
"Iron Man said I could!" Jungkook said, pointing to his Iron Man action figure beside him.
Yoongi laughed beside Jin, "Are you having fun, Kookie?"
"Hi Uncle Yoo! We scratch cookies." Jungkook said, holding up a small fistful of chocolate chips.
"You're what?" Yoongi said, walking to stand in front of Jungkook's side of the countertop.
"Making cookies from scratch," Jin answered, walking back to the mixing bowl, "No more chocolate chips for you, mister."
"But daddy," Jungkook said, pouting, eyes growing double in size as Jin took the chocolate chips from his squeezed fist, "Chocky chips."
"You're going to have the chocolate chip cookies later, baby," Jin explained softly, "You cannot fill up on chocolate chips now."
Jungkook turned to Yoongi with his bottom lip jutted out in a pout and wide, rounded, doe brown eyes, "Uncle Yoo...Peas."
"Jin-" Yoongi started to say.
"You're weak." Jin said as he whisked the batter.
"He said please!" Yoongi argued.
"He's had enough."
"Daddy, peas." Jungkook asked again, "Just one."
Jin sighed, "One."
"Yay!" Jungkook celebrated as he took one chocolate chip and put it in his mouth, "Nyummy."
"Who's weak now, huh?" Yoongi said with a smirk.
"Firetruck you." Jin muttered under his breath.
"I like chocky chip!" Jungkook said with a nod and a grin, turning around to face Yoongi.
"It's yummy, huh?" Yoongi said with a gummy smile, practically melting on the spot.
"Okay Kookie bun. This is our last step," Jin said, "Can you show Uncle Yoo how good of a baker you are and pour the chocolate chips into the bowl?"
"Uncle Yoo, lookie," Jungkook said, looking over to Yoongi to see if he was looking.
"I'm looking," Yoongi said, with a nod, reassuring Jungkook.
Jungkook poured the chocolate chips into the bowl with no spillage and excitedly looked around to the two adults for praise, "Did you see?"
"Wow! Jungkook is the bestest baker around! Where are the newspapers?! Everyone must know how amazing our little Kookie baker is!" Yoongi complimented immediately, reaching out to pat Jungkook's head.
"Well done, baby," Jin said, whisking the ingredients together.
"Eat now?" Jungkook asked.
"We have to put this in the oven to bake, but after that we'll eat it, okay?" Jin said, taking out the baking tray, "Do you want to go play?"
"Play." Jungkook said, grabbing his Iron Man toy from the countertop and holding out both his hands, "Uncle Yoo, down."
"Aren't you forgetting something, Jungkook?" Jin reminded in a stern voice.
"Down peas." Jungkook said, smiling at Yoongi.
Yoongi carried him and put him on the floor, sneaking Jungkook some chocolate chips and put his finger over his mouth to keep it a secret.
"Tank you." Jungkook said with an excited grin as he put the chocolate chips in his mouth and ran off to his room to eat it without getting caught by Jin, who was smiling at them.
"You spoil him," Jin said, shaking his head as he formed balls with two spoons, placing it on the baking tray.
"I'm his uncle. It's practically law that I do."
"Are you staying for dinner?" Jin asked as he put the baking tray full of cookie dough into the oven.
"I could." Yoongi said with a shrug.
"Spoon?" Jin offered the spoon with leftover batter.
Yoongi accepted it and started eating cookie dough straight off the spoon, "We're going to get salmonella."
"I have an extensive health insurance plan," Jin said.
"Courtesy of one Kim Namjoon." Yoongi said as he ate a leftover chocolate chip from the spoon.
Jin stiffened at the name, but continued to eat the leftover dough anyway.
"Are you going to talk about why exactly it is that you're making chocolate chip cookies or am I going to have to extract it out of you?" Yoongi said, glancing up from his almost clean spoon.
"What are you talking about?" Jin asked, confused.
"Chocolate chip cookies are your go to when you're confused about something," Yoongi said, "And judging from the last week and how you practically looked panicked when I mentioned his name two seconds ago, I'm going to go ahead and say that these cookies are because of Kim Namjoon."
"No." Jin answered immediately.
"I'm a genius." Yoongi said proudly, reaching over and dropping his now clean spoon into the sink.
Jin continued to lick his spoon despite the fact that it was clean.
"What's going on?" Yoongi asked, pinching the spoon out of Jin's grasp and putting it into the sink with a clang.
"We kissed." Jin muttered under his breath.
"You what?" Yoongi asked, mouth falling open, "What? How? When?"
"It was on Monday-"
"You made me babysit while you were out getting mega dic-" Yoongi teased, before cutting himself off and looking around, "Mega dinner."
"Nice save," Jin said with a laugh.
"How did it happen?" Yoongi asked.
"I don't know. I mean one second we were talking in the elevator and the next thing I know I was pushed up against the wall with him on top of me doing that thing with his hips..." Jin explained, unconsciously biting his bottom lip.
"Don't get a boner. There's a child in the house and that would be a hard one to explain," Yoongi said, and with a smirk, he added, "Pun completely intended."
"Daddy?" Jungkook called out from his room.
"Yes, baby?" Jin answered.
"It's not done yet, baby," Jin answered.
A beat of silence passed as the two adults waited to see if Jungkook wanted anything else.
"Do you regret it?" Yoongi asked, "The kiss between you. Do you regret it?"
With a sigh, Jin answered, "It's not that simple."
"It's a yes or not question," Yoongi said, "It's literally simpler than multiple choice. There are two answers here. Pick one."
"What is it, Jin? Why aren't you allowing yourself to be happy?" Yoongi said, "Why are you overcomplicating things? You clearly like him, he clearly likes you. What's the problem here?"
"Do you remember the day I didn't come to work?" Jin said, "Do you know why I didn't come?"
"Jungkook wasn't feeling well." Yoongi said with a shrug.
"No. It was because told me that he was feeling alone. He literally said, 'Kookie alone.' and that I left him alone. That happened the morning after the kiss." Jin deadpanned, "Do you know what that's like? My own son thinks I don't spend enough time with him. While he was feeling neglected, and alone, I was out there making out in an elevator like some teenager with my boss!"
"Don't." Jin said, voice dripping with venom, eyes dangerous and low, "Don't feed me some bullshit about how I deserve to be happy and all of that crap! You've been here since day one, haven't you? You saw what happened the last time I thought I could be happy. And you saw what just happened when I tried to be happy now...He told me he was lonely, Yoongi. What kind of shit father am I that I let my own son feel that way? How long has he been feeling this way? How did I let it get so..."
"You're not a bad father," Yoongi said, placing a comforting hand on Jin's shoulder, "You know I don't sugarcoat anything, especially if it's about Jungkook. He's a kid, Jin. He's just a child. He-"
"Daddy!" Jungkook called out again, running towards his room door, opening it.
Jin sniffled, plastering a smile on his face, looking at Jungkook as he stepped out with a Spiderman action figure in one hand and an Iron Man action figure in the other.
"Yes, baby?" Jin answered.
"Spideyman say he want cookie." Jungkook said, holding out his action figure for proof.
"Well, you can tell Spiderman that the cookie's aren't ready yet," Jin answered, the fake smile slowly being replaced with a real one. Jungkook just had that effect on him.
"No ready yet, Spideyman. Must wait." Jungkook said sternly to the action figure. "Iron Man ask me to ask daddy when can eat cookies."
"Yoongi, what's the time?" Jin asked him.
"When the Iron Man clock in your room shows you the numbers 6, 3 and 0, then we can eat the cookies, okay?" Jin said, "Can you show me which number is 6?"
Jungkook put both his toys on the floor gently, and held up six fingers.
"That's right, baby!" Jin said with a beaming, proud smile, "Now, show Uncle Yoo which number is 3."
Jungkook looked at his fingers for a second and put one hand down and held up three fingers.
"Kookie's a little genius, isn't he?" Yoongi said with a gummy smile.
"Tank you." Jungkook said with a big smile, the apples of his cheeks puffing up.
"Now show us which number is 0."
"Zero means no number." Jungkook said, "Iz zero, one, two, tree, pour, and then its fhive."
"Well done, baby!" Jin said, "Now you know which numbers the cookies will be ready, right?"
"Six, tree and zero." Jungkook said, picking his toys from the floor.
"Do you want to play here or in your room?" Jin asked him.
"In my room, peas."
"Okay baby. Go play." Jin said, watching Jungkook leave the room with his toys.
"Look at him and tell me that he's lonely and sad." Yoongi said.
"I didn't say it, Yoongi. He did. He was the one who told me that he was." Jin said.
"With us here-"
"I almost lost him once, Yoongi! He was literally almost ripped from my arms!" Jin nearly screamed. Tears welled up in his eyes at the mere memory of it, "I can't go through that again, Yoongi. I can't. He means everything to me."
"I know." Yoongi said, "I know, Jin. But that isn't going to happen again. Look, you have a house, you're paying rent early every month, you have a stable job, Jungkook is healthy, and happy, and he's in a good school.. What happened last time isn't going to happen again."
"I can't take the chance." Jin said, "After the probationary period, I'm going back to my old office. I can't be in the same room as him."
"You're making a mistake." Yoongi said.
"It's my mistake to make."
"Are you ever going to let yourself be happy?" Yoongi said, feeling bad more than angry.
"I can't." Jin said, a small, sad smile on his face, "Bad things happen when I'm happy."
Woop it's been a hot minute hasn't it? Sorry guys, the bar is not easy and we're having extra classes almost everyday now cause they dont think they can finish the syllabus in time which is fun...ANYGAY onward the insights
INSIGHTS INTO THE WRITING
just came back from class on a saturday and it's 10pm love that for me
kookie crying makes me sad :( My baby is sad so im sad :((
GUYS BEFORE I CONTINUE
can we talk about the amazing music we've been blessed with this week?!
Winter Flower (which is literlly playing rn)
askdhaskjd i cannot
oop the namgi scene is here
shoutout to frayed threads my namjin 5+1 au hehe
scene 2 done oh my poor baby jinnie
Dany that 'peas' in the third scene is for you
its currently 1.30am and im rewriting this cause im not happy with it ahh the plight of a writer ahaha the music is hella lit i regret nothing id rather rewrite a million times and be proud than put out something subpar :D
today kookie learnt about how much his dad loves him and also about safety in a grocery store
its 3.30am i finally perfected the sceneee im happy scene 3 doneeee
today kookie will learn how to make cookies. this is cannibalism
im such a sucker for baby kook oh my god
:( i want a cookie too
lowkey want to put a shadow reference in...
i live for puns
mikrokosmos is playing i am: soft
this wasn't supposed to be angsty but then like... cant help falling in love with you started playing and then i remembered my mced jikook fic and that's why its angsty so yay :D
The door opened up with a slight squeak, the light shining in, chasing the dark out almost immediately.
Jin groaned, and rubbed the sleep from his eyes, glancing over at his bedroom door at the tiny silhouette.
"Kookie?" Jin said, groggy, voice low and hoarse from sleep.
"Daddy," Jungkook pouted, small and scared, clutching his Iron Man plushie close to his chest like a shield.
"Sweetheart, what's wrong?" Jin asked, eyes immediately snapping open, pushing his blanket off his body, ignoring the goosebumps from the cold air as he walked over to Jungkook.
"Bad dream." Jungkook said with a pout, burying his face in the soft cotton of his Iron Man plushie.
"Aww, my darling," Jin said, pushing Jungkook's hair away from his eyes, swooping it to one side, "Do you want daddy to come to your room and wait till you fall asleep?"
Jungkook shook his head adamantly.
Jin glanced over at the digital clock, screaming the time in bright red numbers.
"Do you want to stay with daddy in his room?" Jin asked, watching Jungkook lift his head from the plushie, "Yeah? Do you want to cuddle with daddy tonight?"
Jungkook nodded, holding his hands up for Jin to carry him.
"Come here, baby," Jin said, carrying Jungkook. He closed the door with his foot and walked the both of them to Jin's bed, placing a kiss on his forehead as he set him down onto the bed, getting in himself.
"Daddy?" Jungkook called out, voice tired and scared.
"Yes, Kookie?" Jin asked, hand reaching over to Jungkook, slowly patting his back for comfort.
"Will the monsters come here too?"
"Of course not, baby," Jin said, "You know why?"
"Because you have superheroes here to protect you."
"The Avengers are here, daddy?" Jungkook gasped out in excitement.
"These superheroes are better than the Avengers!" Jin said.
"Betterer than the Avengers?" Jungkook said in disbelief, gasping, holding onto his Iron Man plushie tight.
"You want to know who they are?"
"Yes, yes, yes," Jungkook said excitedly.
"There are three of them!" Jin said, "One is your Iron Man plushie who has special powers even Iron Man doesn't have. He can keep all the monsters away! All the monsters are scared of him."
"But daddy Iron Man was with me just now and monsters came," Jungkook said with a pout, the fear returning in his voice. He moved away from the edge and further into Jin's touch.
"Some monsters are just a little bit stronger than the others, which is why you have the second superhero!" Jin told him, carding his fingers through Jungkook's soft hair, thinking to himself that he really, really needs to get his hair cut.
"Who is it, daddy?"
"The second superhero is me!" Jin said with a grin on his face, "No monster can ever defeat me! I'm SuperDaddy!"
Jungkook giggled, the laugh tumbling out of his lips, high pitched and slightly muffled as he moved to cuddle more into Jin's side.
"Daddy silly." Jungkook said as he leaned into Jin's chest.
"You want to know the third superhero, baby?" Jin said, slowly patting Jungkook's back as he snuggled into Jin's side, eyes droopy.
"Wha's'it?" Jungkook barely managed to get out.
"The third and bestestestest superhero, is you, Jungkook." Jin said, leaning down and placing a kiss into Jungkook's hair, "My bestest boy who is so, so brave. No monsters will ever hurt you, baby."
"Kookie superhero." Jungkook mumbled out, bringing his thumb into his mouth in a pout as his eyes drooped down from sleep.
"My favourite superhero."
"And then, and then, and then Iron Man went Boom! Blam! to the bad guy," Jungkook said with his mouth slightly full as he chewed while he ate his breakfast.
"That's nice sweetie, but you shouldn't speak with your mouth full. It's bad manners," Jin said, leaning against the counter, waiting for his coffee.
Jungkook attempted to chew faster to finish telling Jin his story.
"Jungkook." Jin warned, shooting him a look.
He slowed down, chewing slower now.
"Good boy." Jin said with a smile. He was lucky to have such a good kid.
"And then," Jungkook started back up and Jin laughed.
"And then what happened?" Jin asked, turning around, pouring the coffee from the jug into his mug.
"And then daddy Iron Man said that I could help him with the bad guys. So then I went punch! Kick! Boom! And then, and then- Daddy, you're not lish-ening!" Jungkook said with a whine, and from the kitchen counter, Jin could practically see his little pout.
"Daddy's listening baby," Jin said, "I'm just pouring some milk into my coffee."
"Chocky milk?" Jungkook gasped out.
"No baby, normal milk." Jin said, turning around, paying full attention to Jungkook, "What happened after you punched and kicked the bad guys?"
"Boom!" Jungkook said, lifting his chubby little fists over his head, sending sprinkles of milk all over himself and the kitchen table, "And then, and then there was a big explo-shun, daddy! The big fire go everywhere!"
"Oh no! And then what happened?" Jin asked, blowing on his hot mug of coffee.
"Then Iron Man and Kookie go save everyone, daddy. Iron Man say Kookie best superhero." Jungkook explained with a proud smile on his face.
"Kookie's the bestestest superhero! Better than Iron Man," Jin said, leaning forward and ruffling his hair.
Jungkook giggled, his tiny dimples appearing on his cheek as he spooned more cereal and milk into his mouth.
"What do you want for dinner tonight, sweetie?" Jin asked, taking a sip from his coffee.
Jungkook chewed slightly faster to answer Jin's question.
"Spaghetti?" Jin asked.
"With sausage, peas," Jungkook said with a smile.
"Spaghetti it is," Jin said, "And thank you for using please. I'm proud of you."
"Well-cah." Jungkook said with a happy smile, spooning another bite into his small mouth.
Jungkook finished his breakfast and pushed the bowl closer towards Jin, shimmying off the tall chair and jumping off.
"Don't forget to get your school bag too, Jungkook." Jin called out as he placed the dirty dishes into the sink.
Jungkook ran back outside to the living room with his big bag hitting his back with every step.
"Kookie, no running in the house." Jin reminded him, sounding like a broken record at this point.
"Daddy, can I ask you a quesh-teon?" Jungkook said, looking up at Jin.
"Of course," Jin said, rinsing off the soap off Jungkook's Avengers cereal bowl.
"Is there anymore chocky chippy cookies?"
"Yes there are, Kookie. But you cannot have chocolate chip cookies so early in the morning," Jin told him, "You can have them as a snack when you come back from Kindergarten, alright?"
"S'not for me, daddy," Jungkook said, shaking his head adamantly, "I wanna give it to Teacher Jung and TaeTae and ChimChim and TaeTae papa. 'Cause, cause, chocky chippy cookie makeded Kookie and daddy happy and if Kookie share then my fwens would be happy too."
Jin smiled as he pat Jungkook's hair gently, smiling proudly, "That's right, baby. Sharing makes everyone happy. Daddy will pack the cookies now and you can give them out when we see them, okay?"
"Daddy! Give Uncle Yoo too!" Jungkook said, trodding along behind Jin as he got the cookies out.
"Do you want daddy to give the cookies to Uncle Yoo or do you want to do it?" Jin asked as he divided up the cookies, "I can give them to him today when I see him in the office or you can give them to him when he comes over next."
"Kookie give," Jungkook said, watching Jin pack the cookies.
"Turn around sweetie. Let me put these in your bag and then we can leave for Kindergarten, okay?" Jin said.
"Kookie makeded the chocky chip cookies." Jungkook said proudly, a bright smile on his face, accompanied by his wide, doe brown eyes sparkling with excitement.
"Yes you did," Jin said, zipping the bag up and stretching his hand for Jungkook to take, "And you can tell everyone there that you made the cookies and give it to them, okay?"
"Daddy let's go, let's go! We're gonna be late for Kindygarden!" Jungkook said, pulling Jin to the front door.
"Teacher Jung! Teacher Jung!" Jungkook called out, running as fast as his little legs would take him as soon as Jin set him on the ground.
"Kookie, don't run!" Jin said, quickly locking the door, eyes on Jungkook the entire time before running behind him.
Hoseok watched with a toothy grin as the child ran up to him.
"Good morning Jungkook. Are you ready to say hello to the day?" Hoseok greeted, kneeling down in front of him.
"Good morning Teacher Jung!" Jungkook said with an excited smile, "I'm ready to say hello to the day."
"Jungkook, what have I said about running away from daddy?" Jin chastised.
"Sowwy daddy," Jungkook apologised, pouting at Jin.
Jin patted his head, knowing that Jungkook was just excited.
"Do you want to give Teacher Jung the present?" Jin asked.
"Yes peas!" Jungkook said, clapping his little hands as Jin opened his bag.
"You got me a present?" Hoseok gasped out.
"Kookie makeded it myself," Jungkook said, nodding proudly.
"Wow! I can't wait!"
"Close eyes peas." Jungkook said before Jin could take out the little packet of 2 cookies for Hoseok.
Hoseok closed his eyes and extended his hands.
"Ta da!" Jungkook said placing the small packet into Hoseok's hands.
"Wow Jungkook. Thank you so much! I love it!" Hoseok said, genuinely touched, "Chocolate chip cookies are my favourite cookies."
"Kookie makeded!" Jungkook said proudly, hands clasped together, slight pink flush on his chubby cheeks.
"And here we are TaeTae," They heard Jimin say followed by a squeak from the gate, "Safe at school."
"I'll be right here when you finish, okay?" Jimin said.
"TaeTae!" Jungkook shouted, running up to him.
"KooKoo!" Taehyung said, matching his excited tone, holding his arms out to hug as much of him as possible with his short, chubby arms and Jungkook's giant bag still on him.
"I goteded you a present," Jungkook said.
"Prezzie for me?"
"I makeded all by myself," Jungkook said, shrugging his bag off, "Close eyes peas."
Taehyung shut his eyes tightly.
"No peekie." Jungkook said, bending down to see if Taehyung was peeking
"No peekie." Taehyung repeated, eyes screwed tightly.
"Ta da!" Jungkook said holding out the packet of cookies for Taehyung.
"Cookies!" Taehyung said, taking the packet from Jungkook with a grin on his face, "Tank you, KooKoo!"
"Well-cah!" Jungkook said, teeth on display with his grin.
"You have one more packet to give, Kookie," Jin reminded him, a big, proud smile on his face.
"Oopsies I forgot," Jungkook said, walking up to Jimin, "ChimChim, close eyes peas."
"Hmm I wonder what Kookie will give me," Jimin said.
"No peekie." Jungkook said, taking the packet of chips out and placing it on Jimin's outstretched hands, "Okay open eyes now."
"Thank you so much Kookie," Jimin said, bringing Jungkook in for a hug.
"Kookie makeded!" Jungkook proclaimed proudly.
"I bet these are the best cookies in the world!" Jimin said.
"Teacher Jung, open," Taehyung said, holding the cookies out to Hoseok.
"We can have these for snack time, okay?" Hoseok said, "Now say bye boys. It's circle time."
"Give daddy a hug, sweetie," Jin said, kneeling down with his arms open as Jungkook hugged him.
"Bye bye daddy," He said in the sweetest, softest voice, kissing Jin on the cheek.
"Daddy don't forget to give TaeTae papa the cookies, okay?" Jungkook said, "And tell TaeTae papa to close eyes peas and no peekie."
"I'll try, Kookie."
Jungkook put both his small, chubby hands on both of Jin's cheeks and stared him down as he said, "No try, daddy. Do."
Jin's eyebrows were furrowed, eyes trained on the screen, occasionally glancing down at the keyboard as he typed, concentrating on the task at hand.
He was so concentrated that the knock on his office door startled him, causing him to jump slightly. He composed himself just as quickly, before saying, "Come in."
"Hey. Sorry I didn't mean to bother you-"
"Mr Kim?" Jin said, surprised, "Is everything alright?"
"Yeah," Namjoon said with a nod, closing the door behind him, "Why wouldn't it be?"
"Oh. It's just that you're here, in my office...Usually you call me up to yours..." Jin said, awkwardly.
"Just needed a change of scenery, I guess," Namjoon said with an almost shy smile and a crinkle of his eyes behind his glasses.
Jin smiled at him, genuine and real, "You're welcome here anytime."
"What are you working on?" Namjoon asked.
"A letter of demand for the MBF Builders folder," Jin said, eyes scanning over the words, "They've been dodging our calls, ignoring emails and requests to meet even though they took the deposit we sent them to start the work. They maybe completed just the foundation and then abandoned the work completely. So I'm sending a letter detailing all of this and informing them that if they either don't return us the deposit including cost of products and the loss we incurred from their negligence, or they have the other option of continuing the project while reimbursing us for the loss of time. If they don't do either of this, we're suing them in court and we're going to claim double damages. I'm also sneakily incorporating how we are mitigating our damages so that if we do end up in court we won't be seen as trying to unjustly enrich ourselves with the damages that we're claiming for. What do you thin-oh."
Jin finally looked up from his screen after passionately explaining what he was thinking about doing. He didn't expect Namjoon to be so close to him.
Namjoon was leaning forward on the desk, resting his weight on his palms, black narrow tie hanging off his shirt, towards the desk, smile on his face as he listened to Jin talk on and on about law. Jin couldn't help the hitch of breath at the sight of Namjoon's lust blown eyes. He swallowed harshly, tongue darting out to lick his lips as his eyes scanned Namjoon's face. He felt himself leaning in slowly, wanting nothing more than to repeat what happened in the lift the other day. He wanted to feel Namjoon's plump lips against his, taking him, grabbing him, making Jin swoon. He wanted to feel Namjoon grind his hips against Jin's, feeling his own cock chub up with every press of his hips.
He wanted to feel Namjoon again.
"Si-Sir." Jin couldn't help but stutter out, feeling his cheeks flush pink.
"Jin." Namjoon said in a low, hoarse voice that made Jin swallow harshly.
Namjoon leaned forward, making Jin do the same. Namjoon smiled, watching Jin flutter his eyes shut, leaning forward, waiting for Namjoon to do something. Namjoon ghosted his lips over Jin's once, twice and then a third time.
"Please." Jin breathed out against Namjoon's lips.
And all at once, there was nothing but cold air against Jin's lips.
Jin snapped his eyes open and watched as Namjoon straightened up, fiddling with his tie with a shit eating grin on his face, smiling at Jin, "The letter sound good, Jin. Email it over to me once you're done and I'll sign it and have my secretary post it over."
"But-I-What?" Jin stuttered out, stumbling over his words.
Namjoon just smirked at him and walked out of Jin's office, leaving him breathless in his chair.
Jin leaned back against the black leather, chest heaving up and down, pants uncomfortably tight as he tried to think back to what the hell just happened in his office.
His eye caught the small packet of chocolate chip cookies on his desk and he groaned.
"Twee! Two! One! Go!" Jin heard Jungkook say from his room before an excited, "Whoosh! Spideyman run first then Iron Man and Iron Man win! Yay!"
"Kookie," Jin called out from the living room.
"Wait here, Spideyman. Iron Man and Kookie have to go," Jin heard Jungkook say in a serious tone before Jungkook pitter pattered his way from the room into the living room with the Iron Man action figure in his hand, "Yes Daddy?"
"Did you take your snacks into your room?" Jin asked with a cocked eyebrow.
"Just a little bit," Jungkook said, knowing he was wrong, "Little bit only. Kookie was care-pull. I no spill anywhere."
"Baby, you know you can't eat in your room," Jin said, "If there are any crumbs anywhere, the room will be full of ants and rats. You don't want to sleep with ants and rats, do you?"
"No daddy. Yucky." Jungkook said, shaking his head.
"No more eating in your room, okay?" Jin said.
"Not-Not even one chocky chip?" Jungkook said more than he asked, eyes wide, lips forming into a pout, "Kookie won't drop. KooKoo promise."
"Kim Jungkook." Jin warned, reminding himself that he was the adult and as cute as Jungkook was, he could not give in to his every whim.
"But Iron Man said-"
"Jungkook. No more eating in your room or else daddy won't give you anymore Oreos for snack time." Jin said, tone firm and hard.
Jungkook pouted, mouth downturned into a frown as he looked at the floor, dejected because of his scolding.
Jin sighed and stood up from where he was sitting, kneeling in front of Jungkook. He pushed his hair out of his eyes, and said, "Daddy's not scolding you, baby."
"No sweetheart. I'm not scolding you. You're my bestest boy and sometimes daddy has to tell you things. But when you don't listen, daddy has to get you to listen, right?" Jin explained.
"No more eating in Kookie's room." Jungkook said.
"Good boy." Jin said, placing a kiss into Jungkook's hair, "Now, can you go get your bag and homework diary. It's homework time."
"I go now." Jungkook said, gripping his Iron Man toy harder in his chubby little fist as he ran into his room.
"Kookie, no running in the- Why do I bother?"
Jungkook dragged his bag into the dining room where Jin was sat and rummaged through it until he found his little pink homework diary and handed it to Jin. Their homework diary was where Hoseok got the kids to paste or occasionally write down what their homework was, or any other important information that he needed the parents to know about the kids or the school.
"Math and English," Jin said, "We can do that, right?"
"Yes we can." Jungkook said, settling into the chair with Iron Man on the table next to him.
Jin reached out to get Jungkook's blue math book with the worksheet already pasted into it.
"Where's your pencil box, baby?" JIn asked him.
"In my room."
"Go get it, please." Jin said as he flipped through Jungkook's math book, noticing that he was having trouble with subtraction.
"Here it is!" Jungkook said, running back into the dining room.
"Good boy," Jin said, "Come sit here. We're going to do this together, okay?"
"Ready!" Jungkook said with a pencil in his hand.
"The first problem is five minus two," Jin said, pointing it out on the worksheet, "What do you think the answer is?"
"Phive rockets take away two rockets," Jungkook muttered to himself, "Twee?"
"Good job, baby," Jin said, "Can you write out three in the little box?"
With his tongue poking out and his eyebrows scrunched in concentration, Jungkook drew out a wobbly big three in the box.
"Try this next one," Jin said, "Eight take away one."
Jungkook looked at the problem and frowned. He scratched his head a little and pouted at the question as if the answer would suddenly strike him. With a small unsure voice, he looked at Jin and softly said, "Six?"
"Good try, baby. But that's not quite the answer," Jin said, "Daddy will help okay?"
Jungkook nodded, gripping his pencil and looking at Jin.
"If daddy holds up eight fingers," Jin said, holding up eight fingers and then taking one away, "And I put one finger down. How many fingers do I have?"
"One, two, tree, pour, fhive, six, seven." Jungkook counted slowly, "Seven! Daddy, has seven fingies!"
"Well done baby," Jin said, "Can you write seven down in that little box in your best handwriting."
Jungkook gripped the pencil tightly and pressed down on the piece of paper, his hair falling over his eyes, tongue darting out as he focused on getting the number into the box.
"Only three more problems and then we move on to shapes and then English, okay?" Jin said, reading out the next question.
Namjoon knocked twice on Jin's office door, walking in, eyes scanning the documents in the cream manilla folder he was holding in his hands as he walked in.
"Jin about the contract in the Swant Builders folder-" Namjoon said as he walked in, "Oh. You're not Jin."
"No, TaeTae Papa. My name is Kim Jungkook." Jungkook said with a bright smile as he waved at Namjoon from the big leather chair in Jin's office.
"Hi Jungkook." Namjoon said, smile immediately appearing on his face, "Where's your daddy?"
"Daddy's said to not tell anyone he went to make coffee. He said that if anyone came in the office that Kookie should say he was doing impotent docky-mans."
Namjoon struggled to stifle his laugh, "Impotent docky-mans."
"Yes Taetae Papa," Jungkook said with a nod as he sat in Jin's black leather chair behind the desk, practically being engulfed by the leather.
"Did Jin say when he was coming back?" Namjoon asked.
"After making his coffee and getting snacks for Kookie," Jungkook said, holding out his Iron Man, "Do you want to see my Iron Man?"
"I would love to see your Iron Man," Namjoon said, closing up the folder and walking to the desk with a smile on his face towards an excited Jungkook.
"Iron Man can go whoosh and boom boom punch and-and-and that day when I had a bad dream about big scary monsters, Daddy said that Iron Man and Kookie are superheroes! And that superheroes can punch the monsters away so no scared no more!" Jungkook said excitedly as made his action figure fly as high as his hand would take it.
"Can I tell you a secret, Jungkook?" Namjoon said, leaning in.
"Kookie likes secrets!" Jungkook said, leaning forward as much as he could.
Namjoon dropped his voice to a whisper as he leaned in, "This is a very, very important secret. You cannot tell anyone."
Jungkook gasped and covered Iron Man's ears, dropping his voice to a whisper too, "What is it, TaeTae Papa?"
Namjoon looked around the empty office for added dramatic effect and whispered to Jungkook, "Your daddy is actually a superhero."
"My daddy?!" Jungkook gasped.
"Shhh," Namjoon said, looking around as if someone had heard it, "He's a superhero and he's the best superhero there is. He's always making sure that you're safe and that no monsters will ever harm you."
Jungkook looked at Iron Man and then back at Namjoon, "Superhero just like Iron man?"
"And Spiderman and Hulk and all of the Avengers."
"Daddy Avenger?" Jungkook asked, mouth agape.
"He's better than the Avengers," Namjoon said, "The Avengers go to your daddy for help."
"Daddy knows Iron Man?!"
"Your dad is a very, very special superhero, Jungkook," Namjoon said, patting Jungkook's head gently, "Anyone who gets to know him is lucky."
"You know daddy," Jungkook said, "You lucky too like Iron Man?"
"The luckiest, Jungkook," Namjoon said with a fond smile.
"Daddy's sorry for leaving you for so long baby, but daddy's got your favourite chocolate chip cookies and- Mr Kim!" Jin said, eyes practically bulging out of his eyes, "I can explain."
"Daddy! TaeTae Papa and I have fun!" Jungkook said, jumping out of the black leather chair onto the ground, his Iron Man toy on Jin's desk as he bounded up to Jin.
"I'm glad, baby," Jin said with a small smile, snacks still in hand.
"He's really a joy to talk to," Namjoon said, can't help but smile when he saw them.
"Mr Kim, I know it's unprofessional of me but I couldn't help it. Jungkook didn't tell me that there was no Kindergarten today because he thought that if he didn't tell me, the Kindergarten would go on as normal and I didn't have time to find a babysitter. I promise he's a good kid and won't cause any trouble." Jin quickly said as Jungkook bit off a chocolate chip from the cookie, happily swinging his legs from the black leather chair, "It's just for today and I-"
"I think our kids planned this," Namjoon said, cutting him off.
"I was in charge of dropping Taehyung off today because Jimin has a presentation until lunch, and Taehyung didn't tell me about Kindergarten being on holiday today." Namjoon said, "He's up in my office right now."
"Oh." Was all Jin could manage out.
"Jimin's coming to pick him up when he finishes his presentation," Namjoon said, "He could take Jungkook back home too and I could give you a lift back, if you'd like."
"That's very kind but-"
"It would give Jungkook a chance to play with Tae too. You know, so he's not bored in this office all day," Namjoon said.
Jin looked over at Jungkook who was swinging his legs from the chair, crumbs all over his mouth, looking around the office, not having anything to do.
"I could take care of Jungkook and Taehyung now, and Jimin can look after them later," Jin said with a smile.
"I'll bring Taehyung down," Namjoon said with a nod and a smile.
Just as Namjoon was about to leave, Jin said, "Umm, sir?"
Namjoon ignored the way his dick twitched at the way Jin said that word.
"Was there a reason you came down to see me?" Jin asked.
"We can talk about that once the kids are gone, Jin."
Jin smiled at Namjoon, cheeks dusting pink.
Namjoon smirked at Jin and closed the door behind him.
"Daddy. Why are you all smiley?"
"Because Daddy really likes doing his homework," Jin said as he walked towards his desk, brushing the crumbs off.
"I like TaeTae papa," Jungkook said.
"Yeah? What did you guys talk about?" Jin asked, carrying Jungkook off the chair and onto his lap.
"I told him that you said you were doing impotent docky-mans," Jungkook said with a firm and proud nod.
Jin laughed, "I'm sure he loved that."
"And he told me a secret."
"Oh yeah? What did he say?" Jin asked.
"Can't tell you, daddy. Issa secret." Jungkook said, keeping a hand over his mouth.
"What about if I give you whipped cream and chocolate syrup pancakes for a snack today? Daddy will even put sprinkles on it."
Jungkook contemplated it for a second, deep in thought before he shook his head, "No, no. Issa secret."
"Wow, it must be a very important secret if even chocolate syrup won't make you tell me."
"Impotent secret," Jungkook said with a dimpled smile.
Jin couldn't help but lean down and give Jungkook's chubby little cheek a kiss, before he said, "Do you want to help daddy do his homework?"
"Yes peas." Jungkook said.
"Can you get out your colouring pencils from your bag, baby? There's a very, very important picture I need you to colour for me." Jin said, putting Jungkook down on the floor before searching the internet for 2 colouring pictures - One for Jungkook and one for Taehyung. "I also have a very important person coming to help you."
"Who coming, daddy?"
"It's a secret." Jin said with a smile.
The office was quiet now that Taehyung and Jungkook were gone, and Jin hated it. It was so quiet that his thoughts were all over the place and he couldn't concentrate. He missed the kids and he wanted them back here giggling, laughing while debating what colour the sky should be, or if Iron Man's belt was black or blue, or if Mickey Mouse and Minnie Mouse were better than Goofy and Pluto. He needed some kind of noise that wasn't just the tip tapping of his pencil against the desk, or the clicking of the mouse, or the sound of his keyboard every time he pressed a key down.
There was a rap to his door.
"Mr Kim." Jin said, nearly breathing in relief . He needed the distraction, and, weirdly enough, found himself welcoming Namjoon as a much needed one.
"Jin." He greeted with a smile, two cream folders in his hands as he walked to sit down. "Busy?"
"Trying to be," Jin said with a little, awkward laugh, "The office is so quiet not without them."
"I know what you mean," Namjoon said, "I felt the same way after I dropped Taehyung off down here. Could barely concentrate without the background noise."
"What can I help you with, Mr Kim?" Jin said, with a smile, pulling himself forward closer to the desk.
"Swant Builders." Namjoon said, pushing the case folder towards him, "He bought a piece of land from us solely through the emails that we sent back and forth. We were meant to draw up a whole contract and have it signed before we sold the land but due to some oversight by someone who has now been fired for stealing data from the company, we didn't have a fully drawn up contract. The deposit has been paid and title has even been transferred to him, but now he's refusing to pay the rest of the money."
Jin scanned through the folder as well as the emails, "From a first glance, I can tell you that generally, there is no sale without a contract. Especially for land. But, these emails are pretty detailed and they do provide for a full contract, which is bad for us because the other side can argue that there is a contract and therefore the sale is valid and the land is legally his. The fact that he paid the deposit could also be a factor here. Our biggest point that we're going to fight on would be the fact that if he wanted the property so badly, and even paid a deposit for it, he should be paying the full amount as well. If he goes to court at all, he would be the one in the wrong. He can't ask for any equitable remedies, nor would he get any. I think we have a good case in hand. I say we send him a letter of demand to get the ball rolling and then we can go straight to a summary judgment. It would barely incur us any cost and we can get a good, hefty sum over and above the price of the land. What do you think, Mr-Oh."
Deja vu hit Jin almost immediately as soon as he set down the folder and saw Namjoon leaning in.
"Si-Sir?" Jin stuttered out, shifting in his seat, wanting to lean forward but not wanting to get teased again.
"God, I love when you call me that," Namjoon muttered.
"Are you actually going to do something this time or are you just going to tease me again?" Jin said, swallowing harshly, the confidence he had to ask that question slowly dissipating.
"I want to. I really, really, want to,"Namjoon said.
"I sense a but coming," Jin mumbled under his breath, eyes never leaving Namjoon's.
"But I want to do this right," Namjoon said.
"What does that mean?"
"It means that I don't just want stolen kisses in elevators, or stolen glances pretending that I don't want you. Because I do. I really, really do." Namjoon said, "So I want to do all of this right. I want to take you out, Jin. On a real date."
"We had a date," Jin said.
"We didn't." Namjoon said, shaking his head, "I want a real date. It doesn't even have to be just me and you. Our situations aren't like most, wouldn't you agree?"
"You want a family date?" Jin asked, mouth dropping slightly.
"I don't care what you call it, Jin," Namjoon said, "I want you and Jungkook, both, in my life."
"You do realise what you're asking for, right?" Jin warned him, "If you think I'm a lot, then when you get me with Jungkook it's-"
"Perfect." Namjoon interrupted, "Both of you are."
Jin sunk back down in his seat, all of this becoming too real.
"So, Kim Seokjin," Namjoon said with a smile, "Will you go on a date with me?"
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INSIGHTS INTO THE WRITING
Im currently obsessed with Any Song by Zico so much so i even learnt the challenge video choreo bc yes
henlo i just had the best day ever and im so happy <3 I cant wait to write
scene 1 was completely self indulgent cause i had a nightmare yesterday and it was scary
everyone say kookie bestest boy
scene 2 doneee
Dany, Rags if you're reading this...fancy just came on and I blame you entirely my dumbass stopped writing to do the dance and i just-
its 11.36pm oops i regret nothing
writing kookoo and taetae is making me uwu
motivtional speaker kookie we stan a 4 year old king
well im glad my law degree is coming in handy here
sexual tension in the office yall haaayyyy
namjoon's a teaseeee
i have class in like 2 hours i dont wanna goooooo
were homework diaries just like a thing i had over here? idk im putting it in anywayyy
jinkook doing homework bc yes - this entire chapter is completely self indulgent im not sorry
impotent docky mans why is tht hilarious to me
this entire chapter is so self indulgent
i lost count of what scene this is but yaaas im living
time for my law degree to come in handy again
can i just say i set that whole problem question and my dumbass didn't know how to solve it i had to go through civil, land and contract like???
dont we love cliffhangers?! :D
hehehe let me know what you thought of this chapter yall your comments literally make my day ^o^