“ROMEO: It is my soul, the calls upon my name.
How silver-sweet sound lovers’ tongues by night,
Like softest music to attending ears!
ROMEO: My dear?
JULIET: At what o’clock to-morrow
Shall I send to thee?
ROMEO: At the hour of nine,
JULIET: I will not fail; ‘tis twenty years till then.
I have forgot why I did call thee back.
ROMEO: Let me stand here till thou remember it.
JULIET: I shall forget, to have thee still stand there,
Remembering how I will love thy company.”
“They found Philip a liver?” Theo excitedly asked her mother.
“They still have to make sure it’s a good match and that Margarita can actually be a good donor, but it does look hopeful.” Theodosia smiled at her daughter.
“Thank goodness. I was really scared for him and his family.” Theo said.
“I think we all were.”
“Do you think I could visit Philip before the surgery?”
“I’ll ask his parents while I’m working today.”
“Thanks mom.” Theo smiled and pulled out her phone and went to Nathalie’s contact in her messages.
Theo: They found him a liver! They still gotta make sure it’s 100% good but things look very good right now!
| Nathalie: That’s great. Was it from some random donor or?
Theo: His aunt.
| Nathalie: I thought his neither of his aunts could because one was the wrong blood type and the other donated too much blood for him?
Theo: Turns out the one with the ‘incompatible’ blood type had her blood type wrong. She thought she was A- but she’s actually O-, she heard wrong when she was told what it was like, years ago.
| Nathalie: Well that sure is lucky in a messed up way.
Theo: You can say that again lol. I’m just so grateful that they finally found him one. Things were getting bad…
| Nathalie: I don’t doubt it. When will they be doing surgery?
Theo: Not sure yet. They’re still screening his aunt to make sure she’s a good donor match. They won’t take long though, he kinda doesn’t have the time for them to take forever.
| Nathalie: Are you gonna see him before surgery?
Theo: I hope so. It’s up to his parents.
Theo then got a text from Eliza which she opened.
| Elizabeth Hamilton: They’ve scheduled the surgery for Friday morning. Philip’s friends and family are visiting tomorrow during the day then we going to bring the other children to visit him tomorrow evening, do you want to visit in the evening? If so you are welcome to. They’re picky about visitors for ICU patients as bad as him but in this situation it relaxes because he’s been so sick and is going into surgery
Theo: I’ll come but Mrs Hamilton, you make it sound like he is going to die Friday morning. Is the outlook really that bad?
| Elizabeth Hamilton: They are a bit worried about complications because he’s been doing so bad and he’s been asleep, he isn’t very strong, honestly, we are making sure everyone says goodbye but we’re praying it won’t be necessary. He’ll most likely be okay but one of the worst pains imaginable is not properly saying goodbye to someone before they die
Theo: Will he be awake? He’s been sedated for days hasn’t he?
| Elizabeth Hamilton: They’ve been keeping him asleep yes as a form of pain/symptom control but it’d be cruel to send him to surgery without him even knowing. And he has spent some time awake each day it just hasn’t been much because he needs such strong painkillers when he’s awake they’re scared he’ll develop a dependency on them. He will be awake Thursday evening
Theo: Makes sense. I will for sure be there. Thank you for inviting me.
| Elizabeth Hamilton: Of course. You really do mean a lot to him Theo.
Theo: I really need him to be okay.
| Elizabeth Hamilton: We all do. I’ll see you tomorrow.
The next day Theo was on edge all day. She was flinchy and anxious. She changed her outfit four times, not knowing what was appropriate to wear. She knew it wouldn’t matter a ton because of having to wear a gown thing but she still wanted to look decent. She was barely able to eat and her mom, who was home, felt awful for not being able to do anything for her daughter.
“Theo is there anything I can do to help you? Anything at all?”
Theo shook her head.
“Let me know if there is.”
“I doubt there will be, but okay.”
Theo soon headed to the hospital and met Angelica and Peggy in the parking lot with Angie, Al, and James. James held onto one of Peggy’s hands and one of Angelica’s, Al taking Angelica’s other. Angie came and nervously linked arms with Theo who gave her a small smile to let her know it was okay.
“Mom said that we invited you to come now because of how much he means to you. And because you don’t know his friends.”
“He does mean a lot to me, and I’m sure there’s nothing wrong with his friends but I don’t know them. In this situation it’d be awkward to be doing introductions so your mom invited me to come when I knew everyone who would be there.”
They soon got to Philip’s room. Philip was awake and while he didn’t look anything near healthy, he put on a hopeful and brave face for his aunts, who went to talk to him first before going to get Peggy admitted. He smiled and acted like nothing was wrong for his little brothers, who went in together. For Angie, it was obviously a tough conversation in there, but he was not angry with his sister, his face staying soft the whole time. Then it was Theo’s turn. She nervously went in.
“Theo.” He smiled brightly.
“Philip,” She immediately started to tear up as she hugged him. “I don’t even know where to start.”
“I know things for tomorrow look scary but I’m gonna be fine Theo. I promise. I’ll probably bleed, but I’ll keep fighting to stay alive for you. I’m not gonna die.”
“You better fight to stay alive Philip Hamilton because I swear to god if you don’t,”
“I’ll be fine. Soon this will all be over and I’ll be fine and we can keep living and keep loving each other and your dad will still hate mine but we’ll get past it. We’ll live until we’re old and wrinkly, and we can die when we’re ninety, together and warm in our bed.”
Theo had to fight hard to keep the tears from falling. “That sounds nice.”
“I love you, Theo.”
“I love you too Philip, I always will. If you don’t make it off that operating table tomorrow,”
“I will,” He cut her off.
“Let me finish. If you don’t make it off that operating table tomorrow, I will never stop loving you. Or your family. You’ll leave a Philip sized hole in my heart which will never be refilled. I think I’ll eventually move on, but I’ll always keep you in my heart. Forever. No matter where you go, just know that I will always love you, Philip.”
“I’ll always love you too Theo.” Philip choked out.
Theo hugged him tightly again and he pressed a kiss to her forehead.
“Everything will be alright. I promise you.” He told her.
“It better be, because I don’t want to live in a world where you don’t exist.”
“You won’t have to.”
The words, “Everything will be alright. I promise you.”, stuck in Theo’s brain, and she prayed that they would be true.