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For a millennium Jensen had ruled as Death. He would say he was pretty good at his job to. There had never been a soul he couldn't reap, never a person he couldn't influence. Before that though he had been simply known as Jensen Ackles. He died in the year 1018 from smallpox and lived in Denmark. He was 33 when he died. Jensen had a hard life, Medieval Times will do that to you. He had seen more than anyone, had been through different decades, seen the rise of Hitler, watched the fall of the Romanov empire, and discovered types of fashion. He was chosen to be the head honcho simply for the fact that Jensen Ackles never gave up. His life was never easy. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he was left to raise himself and being a blacksmith wasn't easy. There was nothing he hadn't seen and nothing he couldn't do.

Till the day Jared Padalecki was born.

Being Death, the Grim Reaper, whatever you want to call him he had his book of life. He knew when everyone was born and he knew down to the minute when they would die.

Jared Padalecki was only two years old when he was written down in Jensen’s book of Death. He felt a little solemn about the whole thing, he hated reaping kids. But it was his job. Jared was supposed to die in a freak car accident. His mom and dad would follow leaving only his big brother Jeff.

So Jensen showed up on the scene that cold Friday night, his scythe ready and found a shocking sight. The mom and dad were both dead like they should have been, blood rushing from their heads, their eyes wide open, the moms hand reaching towards the back--as if for Jared.

But there sitting in the back in his car seat was Jared, fat tears rolling down his chubby cheeks and a bloody gash on his forehead.

Jensen stood baffled in the middle of the highway. He opened his book and checked the list again...he was still on it, 9:10. Jensen checked his watch and noted the time. 9:15.

He shook his head and looked up at the sky in confusion “what the hell is going on?”

As a loud cry pierced the night Jensen moved closer to the car and carefully pulled the baby out who quickly snuggled in his embrace. Jensen huffed and rocked him gently as he looked around and quickly, yet tenderly made sure his parents were really dead.

He took his scythe and looked down at the dozing baby and slammed the stick on the ground and watched as balls of light faded from Sharon and Gerald's chest’s and molded into the metal blade.

He wasn't sure what he was supposed to do here. Jared Padalecki should have died on Friday, November 5th at approximately 9:10 p.m.

So why didn't he?

 

When Jared was 6 he showed up on the list again and this time Jensen was determined to reap the little boy.

After the accident he and Jeff moved in with their grandmother, a nice woman who cared for them well enough. Jeff of course being the older brother and 12 had hit his rebellious streak and Jared being young loved to copy his brother.

They had both gotten new bikes for Christmas and loved to race them down the big hill behind their grandmas house. Well Jared’s bike chain broke loose and he went flying down the hill and crashed into their neighbors mailbox, hitting his head on the pavement, his head busting open.

Jeff rushed up to the house carrying his little brother in his arms, blood spilling from Jared's head and running down his own arms, tears flying as he put him in the car, their grandmother panicking behind the wheel.

Jensen stood ready by the hospital bed as the Doctors pulled the paddles out and tried to revive the little boy.

And just as Jensen lifted his scythe, ready to take another soul, his eyes gleaming with satisfaction that he was finally gonna get this boy he heard--

“We got a pulse!”

He paused in disbelief as he watched Jared's chest rise and fall slowly.

You gotta be fucking kidding.

He yelled out in frustration and slammed the scythe down hard making the room rumble, and the lights flicker and everyone look around confused.

Does this kid have nine lives or something? He looked back down at his list and shook his head and clicked his tongue in aggravation.

This was getting old.

All he wanted was to fucking reap the little boy and move on with his damn life and this kid was determined to be a pain in his ass.

He had tried getting answers from higher powers but nothing ever came back. He was given vague answers, knowing smirks, and wondering eyes. He had even tried to have a few conversations with the big man himself but he was never seen.

He was growing restless and he knew it was only a matter of time before the boy showed back up on his list and he wasn't sure if he could take it. This boy had humiliated him, made a fool of him, mocked him.

His reapers were beginning to think he was weak and unfit for the job. They were disobeying him, acting reckless, going rogue. He had to let some go and letting reapers go was an ugly business.

It was this boys fault and one way or another he was gonna get this boys soul.

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8 years go by and Jensen begins to think maybe he wont see Jared for awhile. He actually misses the little shit.

But when Jared is 14 his name pops back up and Jensen feels a sense of dread. Once again he’s gonna be made a fool of but for some reason he doesn't mind so much. That is until the cause of death pops up and Jensen feels like he might be sick.

Jared is 14 when he almost dies for a third time.

His brother Jeff is now 20 and in college and also a full time care giver. Their grandma had to be put in a nursing home making her unfit to care for Jared and since his brother was now of age Jeff took over.

Every once in a while Jensen would peek in to see how Jared is doing but he never saw him. He would however check in with the updates he was given. Despite his best efforts it seemed Jared was full of life.

It was summertime and Jared was an excellent swimmer. He still isn't sure how it happened. His brother Jeff and a few of his friends decided to go to the beach on a short trip and Jared had been splashing in the ocean.

He had been out chest deep swimming around, his brother had gone to shore to lay out with his new girlfriend and he stayed in the water alone.

He was wiping water from his eyes when he saw a shadow lurking near him and thought maybe it was nothing but a fish. He didn't see till the last minute but suddenly the only thing in his vision was black eyes, sharp teeth and rubbery gray skin.

He tried screaming as he was dragged under the water but his lungs filled and his eyes burned from the salt as sharp teeth embedded in his side. Crimson blood filled the water and flowed to shore where Jeff was screaming as he was sloshed around like a rag doll.

He gasped for air as he broke to the surface and tried digging his fingers in the sharks eye but all he got was the pain intensifying and the sharks mouth clamping down. He cried out loudly as he tried to find his brother “Jeff!” his voice cracked and gurggled and he could feel blood in his lungs.

God he was gonna die.

And then suddenly the shark threw him like it was sick of him and it swam away. He floated to shore, his vision blurring and his body going numb as the blood pumped from his body.

His brother pulled him in his arms his big hands tangling in his wet hair as he pleaded for Jared to stay awake. His bottom lip shook and he whimpered as he looked up at his terrified brother “Jeff...I don't wanna die.”

Hot tears seeped from his brothers eyes as he sobbed and began to pet Jared's head “your not gonna die little brother your not I’m gonna take care of you like I always do huh? Your gonna be fine Jaybird I promise...I love you little man.”

Jared opened his mouth to answer but sharp pains hit through his body and he began to shake, his eyes rolling in his head as he stiffened up.

He could hear Jeff yelling as his eyes rolled back but all he saw was a man standing behind him dressed in all black, bright green eyes staring down at him with sadness filling those gorgeous irises.

He smiled gently at Jared and rubbed his fingers down his own face, his eyes slipping shut and then looked at Jared and made the movement again and he faded into darkness.

 

When he woke again he was hooked up to machines, an oxygen mask on his face. He squinted against the light and struggled to move his heavy arm as he knocked the mask from his face and gasped for air.

As he lifted his body a sharp pain shot up his side making him cry out. He tugged the blanket back and saw a big white bandage covering his side and flashes lit up behind his eyes.

He remembered struggling, dark blood, and rubbery skin. He let out a hacky cough and tilted his head back on the scratchy pillow and groaned.

“Jay?”

Jared opened his heavy eyes and looked up as his brother bent over him, worry written across his face “oh thank god you scared the shit out of me lil bro.”

Thick fingers pushed his sweaty hair back and he sniffed “shark?”

Jeff bit his lip and nodded “it was unreal Jay...you hear about em you know? But you don't actually believe it could happen and then...God Jay I was on that beach and all I could hear was you screaming and the blood there was so much blood.”

Jared winced and settled back down “a man...did you see a man?”

Jeff frowned “a man?”

“Yeah he...he was in black he was...I don't know.”

Jeff gave him a look and felt his forehead “no Jay there was no man maybe the blood loss got to you?”

Jared wasn't so sure. That man he looked so real, how could he have dreamed him up? His brother stood and called for a nurse as Jared sank back in the bed and thought back to the green eyed man.

He had seemed so real.

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When Jared was 16 his grandma died. They had been waiting for a couple months now, her cancer had progressed rapidly and the doctor told them he was surprised she had survived this long.

They gave her a small ceremony surrounded by close friends and the small family they had left and then they packed up their bags and they left their small town. Jeff had recently graduated college and had gotten a job in Boston, MA at a local architectural firm. Jared hadn't been to upset about the move. He was ready to get out of small minded Texas ans head somewhere that accepted him for who he was.

Gay and a geek.

As for the gay part it hadn't taken long for him to figure it out but he came out to Jeff not long after his shark attack. Ever since that day he tried to be honest and live his life to the fullest. Plus the green eyed man all dressed in black might have helped.

Almost every night Jared dreamed about the older looking man, imagined him pulling him into his strong arms right there on the beach and kissing him, bringing him back to life. It was silly he knew and the one time he made the mistake of telling Jeff about it he got laughed at. And no matter how crazy his brother says he is he knows he saw the man that day.

Jared had been made fun of endlessly back in Texas. Sure there were some gay people there but they either didn't admit it or kept it to themselves and Jared wasn't about to hide who he was. Jared was also rather geeky. He loved books and spent most of his time reading he also loved archaeology. He loved the study of old bones, learning about their history and how they died. He even liked to make up stories about them.

His brother just smiled and ruffled his hair and bragged to his co workers about how smart his brother was. He had even enrolled Jared in an archaeology 101 class at the local community college for extra credit.

Jared had made a lot of new friends at his new high school. Everyone was open minded and welcoming and he was thankful for that. His best friend Chad was a complete idiot but the best thing that had ever happened to him.

Chad was protective and a goofball. He had Jared out of his shell after the first week and introduced him to new things. He pulled him out of his books and took him to parties and introduced him to people.

But sometimes life with Chad was to exciting.

They had been in Boston for 3 months when it happened.

They had been at the Improv Asylum watching someone Chad knew and after a night of laughter and good food they walked out into the cold December air and started home. Thankfully Chad lived in the same apartment building that he and Jeff did so he wouldn't have to go home alone.

They had rounded the corner when the man came out from the alley way with a rusty knife and twitchy hands.

Jared had gasped and backed up as Chad held his hands up and tried talking the man down. The man shook his head quickly and snarled like an animal as he looked over at Jared just pissing Chad off.

The man lunged and knocked Chad to the ground and Jared turned to get away but suddenly a sharp pain shot up his backside and stars blurred his vision as he fell to the cold ground and tried, pathetically to crawl away.

The only thing that saved him was Chad’s tazor his mom stored in his pocket. As sirens grew louder in the background Chad’s panicked words faded and the cold didn't seem so bad anymore.

And as his eyes slipped closed he saw the green eyed man again.

 

Jared popping up on his list had been a last minute event. Jensen had been busy giving his daily lecture to his fellow reapers about the statistics and who had reaped more that past month when his book flipped open, the pages flying before settling.

Jensen walked over and his eyes widened as he spotted the name.

Jared Padalecki, Friday December 15th, 2018 11:30 p.m. Cause of death stabbing.

Jensen didn't need air to breathe being dead and all but in that moment he felt the breath get knocked right out of him like something hard had rammed into his chest.

He grabbed the book with shaky hands and cleared his throat as the others around him stared in confusion “I’m sorry it...it seems something has come up. Chris if you would take it from here that would be great.”

Without another work he kicked his long back coat up and turned to find Jared.

He appeared on a empty corner in Boston. Jared was lying on the ground in a blonde mans arm, hot tears rolled down the mans face as he looked down at a pale Jared and even Jensen found himself staggered at that moment.

Jared's eyes were lidded and barley open, like he was forcing himself to stay awake just because his friend was asking him to. His body was limp and he didn't even flinch as his friend cried out for help.

Jensen bent down next to a trembling Jared and carefully stroked his cold cheek and swallowed down the emotion as Jared's eyes flickered open and landed on him. Jared's breathing cracked and slowed as he blinked up at the man with doe like eyes.

His friend carefully laid him down, his hands smoothing over Jared's body as he promised that he would be back, that he had to find help and then he ran off screaming.

Jared closed his eyes and gurgled before opening them slowly “you...”

Jensen cocked his head as he gently rolled Jared to look at his back and winced at the wound “me...you remember me?”

Jared smiled weakly, blood leaking at the corners of his mouth “I do...are you an angel?”

Jensen made a strange noise and looked away “I’m no angel kid.”

Jared frowned “but you saved me.”

Jensen shook his head but didn't argue as he stroked Jared's hair “it’ll be over soon Jared don’t worry.”

Jared reached up with a icy hand and gripped Jensen's arm and gave him a pleading look “I can’t--can’t die my brother he...he needs me. Please, please don't take me, not yet.”

“I’m sorry kid that's not up to me I just do the reaping.”

Jared drops his hand and arch's his back as he groans in pain, his sweater lifting up and Jensen gasps at the sight.

There on his side in a mangled, jagged scar are sharp teeth like indention's that run from his hip up to his nipple. The skin is red and jagged obvious that he had been sewn up and Jensen doesn't have to ask what its from.

“You know I’ve known you since you were two...I was there when your parents and you should have been taken with them but you lived. And then again when you were six and slung yourself off you bike crashing into the mailbox like a fucking lunatic. And then this,” Jensen trails his finger down the smooth scar something swirling in him as Jared's breath hitches at the touch. “You’ve been a tough son of a bitch to kill Jared hell this probably isn't even the last time I’ll see you.”

Just as he says that his friend comes running back with paramedics in tow and Jensen smirks as he stands up and looks down at Jared whose eyes are slowly closing.

Oh yeah, he’ll see the kid again

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When Jared wakes up its to loud beeping and scratchy sheets, a feeling he’s used to. He blinks his eyes open and squints at the light and turns his head in his pillow, his eyes landing on his brother.

Jeff is bent down in his chair and with his tall stature its a funny sight but Jared can’t find it in himself to laugh. His brothers eyes are red and his face is pale and its obvious he’s been here a while.

Jared gulps and reaches his hand out and grips his brothers big hand and watches as he jerks up at the touch, his eyes bleary as he glances around before landing on Jared and shooting out of his chair.

“Oh my God your awake, nurse!” Jeff turns and yells before looking back at his brother “fuck Jared you gotta stop doing this to me man.”

Jared makes a face “don’t blame me blame death.”

Jeff shakes his head, he dosen’t know Jared really means that. After talking to the green eyed man, and forgetting to ask his name, he has come to the conclusion that its death he keeps seeing.

But he won’t tell Jeff that.

His brother tells him Chad ran for 10 blocks before he found help and the man who stabbed him is in custody just waiting for Jared to identify him. When he’s ready of course.

He tells Jared he’s never going out again and he’s grounded till he is 21 and Jared smiles as his brother tells him this as he feeds him chocolate pudding.

They keep him in the hospital for a couple days and when he goes home his brother dotes on him. He keeps him out of school and only allows Chad to visit for an hour beore sending him home. He lets Jared eat only soft foods and fills him up bubble baths.

Its been a week when his brother comes home with more ice cream that he tells him he’s losing his mind.

“Jeff I need to go to school, I’m missing so muhc not to mention my college class and at the end of the year Professor G is going to chose someone to go with him to a dig site in Egypt.”

Jeff scoffs “as if your going to Egypt you’ll probably fall in a fucking hole and break something--”

“But its The City of the Dead! I have to go!”

Jeff rolls his eyes and fills Jared's bowl with chocolate chip cookie dough and shuts him up with a look and puts on a movie.

Jared goes to school that Monday.

When he gets home he bits his lip and spins around in his chair as he thinks about the green eyed angel of death and stops. He looks up at his ceiling and thinks.

“Um...excuse me? I don’t know if you can hear me but I would like to talk to you. I mean I think its rather unfair you know me and I don’t know you...all I know is that your like an angel of death or something--”

“I told you I’m no angel.”

Jared jumps and turns at the deep, rough voice his heart beating fast as the man stands before him in black pants and matching button up, a long black overcoat, the collar lined with dark fur. His hair is a cinnamon color with honey like streaks running through it at the spiky ends and his skin is pale and covered in freckles.

Jared stands on shaky legs and looks him over “you are real...I thought Jeff was right and maybe I was crazy.”

The man smiles “your far from that Jared.”

“Whats your name?”

“Jensen.”

Jared whispers the name and looks up with shy eyes “you look awfully young to be a...what was it?”

Jensen folds his arms behind his back and stands tall “a reaper and I don't believe there is a certain age qualification you have to meet to be one.”

“How old are you?”

Jensen smirks “A little over a thousand.”

Jared's eyes go wide in shock as he looks Jensen over “I was gonna say thirty...oh my God that means you were born in medieval times?”

Jensen grins as he sits down on his trunk and crosses his leg “that's right, I was 33 when I died so I take that as a compliment.”

Jared reaches back and brings his chair closer to sit down “wow...what was it like?”

“Dirty. Your time is much nicer. I do miss the 20’s though, that was a good time.”

Jared laughs and cocks his head “so you’ve reaped a lot of people?”

“Well over a million probably that's why they call me death, the big man in charge.”

“But not me.”

Jensen smacks his lips and raises a brow “right.”

“Why?”

“that's a good question. I’m not sure of it myself it is highly unusual I’ve never had this much trouble trying to reap a soul before.”

“Maybe I’m not supposed to die?”

“Oh you will one day when its really your time.”

Jared frowns and leans forward “whats it like? Dying?”

Jensen clears his throat and looks thoughtful “well I suppose its different for everyone. For me it was rough, I had smallpox and the whole thing was dreadful I was ready for death to come honestly. And when it did I felt at peace.”

Suddenly Jensen stands and tilts his head like he’s listening for something and then sighs “I must go now, duty calls.”

Jared watches as he turns and he stands “can I see you again? I mean you know me but I don't know you.”

Jensen pauses and looks over his shoulder “will see kid.”

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“So...how did you die?”

Jensen looks up with startled eyes and chuckles “man your a blunt one, diving right into the hard stuff huh?”

Jared blushed and leaned back against his headboard “I just...I never thought something like this could happen you know? I mean this is crazy your death and your here talking to me like its an everyday thing so I just...I want to know more.”

Jensen smiles, his eyes crinkling “well I was 33 I lived in Denmark and I was a blacksmith. My parents died when I was 13 from fever so I raised myself. I had my own land and I worked outside quite a bit which resulted in me getting smallpox I died 3 weeks after.”

Jared looked down with watery eyes and sniffed “I’m sorry you had such a hard life.”

Jensen waves his hand nonchalantly “that's in the past honestly I don't remember much from that time.”

“I don't remember my parents either.”

Jensen looks up, guilt flashing through him “I’m sorry Jared...”

“You couldn't have done anything?”

“Its not my place. I don't decide when you die or how you die God does. It was their time.”

“But then...why haven't I died?”

Jared's eyes are so wide and innocent that Jensen feels himself melting. Years ago he wanted nothing more than to take this kids soul and get on with his life and now he wants nothing more than to make sure he stays alive.

“I guess God has a bigger plan for you. Plus he likes yanking my balls.”

Jared laughs loudly, deep dimples in his red cheeks and Jensen feels something stir in his belly and he shifts in his chair and clears his throat as he stands “well I hate to run but souls to reap.”

Jared nods slowly and bites his lip “can I come?”

Jensen chokes “what?”

“Can I come with you?”

“I don't think that's wise...”

Jared pouted, his lip rolling out as he looked up at Jensen with round, doe eyes “oh come on Jensen I just wanna see what you do. I promise I wont bother you. You wont even know I’m there.”

Jensen cracked.

He took Jared’s hand and in a cloud of black smoke they vanished into thin air before reappearing in a hospital room next to the bed of an old woman.

Jared looked around and noticed family members gathered by her, a young boy holding her hand and Jared’s bottom lip quivered in sympathy for them. He’s been here before.

“You ok?”

Jared sniffs “yeah I just, I know what this feels like.”

Jensen watches as Jared stares at the family, his hazel eyes full of tears and he takes a deep breath and takes Jared's hand, startling the boy from his sadden thoughts. Jared looks up at him, his eyes round and child like.

“I’m sorry Jared I shouldn't have brought you here.”

“No I wanted you to, I wanted to see what you do. Its not bad Jensen your helping people move on, no matter where that is. They know their suffering is over when you arrive.”

Jensen feels his heart constrict at Jared's soft words. Not that any normal mortal could see him, unless he wanted them to, but no one had ever viewed his job in that light before. Everyone saw him as the death bringer, they blamed him but it wasn't his fault. If you wanted to be technical about it God decided your fate in the Book of the Lamb he just carried through.

Suddenly the old woman looked up through saggy eyes and wheezed out a breath as she held out a shaky hand “take me home,” she croaked.

Jared held Jensen's arm tight as the older man held up his scythe and smiled down at the woman with genuine kindness before banging it down on the ground, a ball of light leaving her body and the machine flat lining.

Jared winced and pressed his face to Jensen's soft black coat “can you take me home now?”

Jensen leans down and presses his lips to Jared's shaggy hair “yeah...yeah, lets go Jay.”

 

“Jeff?”

His brother hums from where he’s hunched over his drawing table, his hand moving rapidly as he sketches out a new building for a local business. Jared moves closer and sits down on the couch and sighs “do you believe in Heaven?”

His brother pauses, his hand freezing the led from the pencil digging into his sketch paper as he looks up, shocked “what? Jared why are you asking me that?”

Jared shrugs and looks down and toys with the blanket on the couch “I don't know I just...I’m curious.”

“Do you believe in Heaven and Hell Jared?”

Jared bites his lip and leans back against the cushion “I do I think I always have I guess it comes with the death experiences.”

Jeff chuckles and drops his pencil and really looks at his little brother “I believe there is a place we go to when we die whether that be Heaven or Hell or some other place. And I think mom, dad, and nana are somewhere good. So if that's what your worrying about don’t. They were good people Jaybird, they did good things and they loved us. The only thing you need to worry about is to stop dying on me. I cant loose you little brother.”

Jared smiles brightly and hops off the couch and runs over to his brother, throwing his slender arms around the taller man and sighing at his brothers tight squeeze “I’ll try...but if its any consolation I don't think that's gonna be a problem.”

Jared smiles as he thinks about the tall, rust blonde freckled man that sits with him on a daily now and tells him about his life and what he hopes for Jared. The man who invades his dreams at night and blurs his vision during the day. The man who acts hard and cold but is really caring and sincere. Who will do anything to make sure Jared stays alive.

The man who he’s in love with.

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Since Jared had come to realize his feelings for Jensen he wasn't sure how to act around him. This man was older than him, like a century older than him. This man was dead. It wouldn't exactly be a normal relationship.

Besides who was to say Jensen felt the same? With his age he probably saw Jared as nothing more than a kid, he sure said it enough. Jared always thought he had been mature for his age. He went through things normal kids didn't and saw things others didn't. But he knew this was one situation that his maturity didn't matter. He and Jensen could logically never be.

Jensen had gotten into the habit of taking him places. With his ability to appear anywhere he would take Jared's hand, ask him where he wanted to go and suddenly they were there. When Jensen dropped his hand Jared's ached and he would reach up and hold it in his grasp and try to ease the pain away.

It had been late when Jensen popped in his room, woke him from his sleep and gave him a secret smile and told him to get up, they needed to be somewhere. Jared grumpily puled himself out of bed and threw on a hoodie and took Jensen's hand, to tired to freak out at his touch, and leaned into the older man.

“Jared, were here.”

Jared yawned and rubbed his eyes as he looked up and suddenly the sleep faded. They were standing on top of a hill in a lusciousness meadow, the sun just beginning to rise in the sky creating a variation of red, yellow and orange making his heart soar.

He smiled at the beauty of it and turned to look at Jensen and his heart stilled in his chest. The light was shining brightly over the mans face, his freckles appearing like crystal dots scattered across his face like raindrops. His green eyes were shining and his hair had never looked blonder than in that moment.

It would have been perfect but he was to afraid to ask him. To ask him the question that has been on the tip of his tongue because Jared already knew the mans answer. He just wasn't ready to hear it.

So he smiled sadly at the man and turned back to look at the sunrise as a heavy sadness filled his heart. He felt as though he had lost all breath, like he was drowning on the inside. And he didn't like it.

 

After the viewing of the sunrise he tried to ignore Jensen the best he could. When the man would appear Jared would pretend to be busy with homework, or sleeping. He had taken up his time with Chad spending almost every moment with him just so Jensen wouldn't bother him. He could almost feel the hurt and confusion from the older man. But it was for the best. He loved a man that couldn't love him back.

It had been a week when Jensen showed up just as Jared was running out the door, late for his study group.

Jared blinked as Jensen moved to block the door, his large frame intimidating as he stared at him with dark eyes “Jared...what the hell is going on?”

Jared looked down and shoved his bag up higher on his shoulder “I’m late for study group Jensen so if I could just--”

He tried moving past the man but was pushed back. He watched as Jensen's face hardened, anger clear in his eyes “your avoiding me, why?”

“I’m not--”

Jensen scoffs and rolls his eyes “don't give me that bullshit ok? I’m 1,000 years old I think I know when someones avoiding me. I would say like the plague but I think that would just be bad character.”

Jared crosses his arms “I don't have time for this Jensen--”

“Well you better make time Jared. I don't understand whats going on with you I mean a week ago you were fine. So what is it? Found someone better? Is there another Angel of Death you've chose to occupy your time with? Or is Chad just the better choice? I’m not stupid Jared I see the way you've been flocking around him so if that's it than just--”

“I love you ok!”

Jared gasped as those dreaded words slipped from his mouth in a hurry haste, his stomach instantly churning and his skin sweating as Jensen’s face molded into shock, his eyes wide and his mouth slack.

“What?”

Jared stomped his foot and whined at his foolishness and dropped his bag to the ground “oh shit...that wasn't supposed to come out.”

He can hear Jensen gulp and his heavy boots move forward “Jared...you know you cant--”

“I know!” he yells as he whirls back around, his hair hitting his face “you think I don't know that? Your dead, I’m not. I know you don't want me I know this could never work but...I didn't mean to fall in love with you, but I did. And you didn't meant to hurt me...but you did.”

Jensen's face wilts and he turns his head, avoiding Jared’s teary gaze “Jared if it were any other case I would...but its not. You were only ever supposed to be a job and I admit its turned into something more but it cant. This is my job and you are a human. You shouldn't be falling in love with someone like me. You cant.”

“don't you dare tell me what I can and cant do! These are my feelings Jensen not laws you abide by! I’m sorry that I’m just a stupid naive little boy but I love you Jensen i do and no logical rambling bullshit is gonna change it.”

Jensen huffs and tilts his head back “Jared I am a reaper I am not mortal I do not...I should not,” he growls and closes his eyes “you make me feel...you make me feel. And I don't like it. I want you to stop. Now.”

Jared moves forward and takes advantage of Jensen's blind state and slowly trails his fingers up to the mans broad shoulders “I don't wanna stop...I love you Jensen and I think you do to. Please” he presses his forehead to the mans shoulder and lifts up, his breath hitting his neck and Jensen squeezes his eyes shut and shoves away.

“No Jared this cant happen...”

Jared blinks and looks down as tears fill his eyes “then get out.”

“Jared--”

Jared shakes his head and lets out a shaky sigh “get out.”

Jensen purses his lips and nods jerkily before turning on his heel and disappearing, leaving Jared alone.

 

It happened 3 days later.

He was walking home from school when the car hit him.

He was taking the route he took everyday, crossing the street when the walk sign said he could. He had his headphones in so if anyone did try and yell for him he wouldn't have heard.

The pain was instant as it crashed into the side of his body, throwing him over the SUV at a high speed before his head crashed against the pavement. Gasping breaths struggled out of him as his body twitched on the road. He could distantly hear people yelling, could hear sirens as a crowd gathered around him.

Then suddenly everything went quiet and the world froze in a blur as Jensen appeared before him, his face pale as he crouched down and gently pulled Jared in his arms, panicked breaths leaving “you idiot you freaking idiot.”

Jared blinked sluggishly as he choked for breath. He could feel his heart slowing down as Jensen rambled in his ear and he wondered if this was really it. He wouldn't see his brother again. wouldn't hear him sing off key in the morning when he made breakfast. wouldn't listen to Chad’s endless chatter and bad pickup lines. And he wouldn't see Jensen.

“Hey you look at me,” Jensen cradled Jared's cheeks and leaned down “your gonna be ok baby I promise ok? Come on Jared I...I love you to.”

Jared gulps and lifts a shaky hand up to trace Jensen's scruffy cheek, a weak smile on his face “you said it...” he hums softly and closes his eyes and then the world fades to black.

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When he wakes his legs are aching and his head feels like its been pounded with a hammer. He squints his eyes and groans as he turns his head into the scratchy white pillow, something hard poking into his nose.

When he opens his eyes a bright light shines and he closes them quickly and lifts his hand to cover his face before carefully opening them again. His brother is asleep next to him in the hard hospital chair and Chad is on his other side his body scrunched in his chair and his head tilted back, mouth open.

Jared swallows, his mouth dry and tacky and turns his head slowly and tries reaching for the water container only for his hand to slip and bang on the nightstand causing his brothers head to shoot up.

When his eyes land on Jared he chokes for breath and stands and rushes him “oh my God Jay your awake,” his big hands smooth over Jared making him wince as he rubs against bruises and from what he can tell cracked ribs.

“You little fucking prick what the hell did I tell you huh?”

Jared frowns as his nasal cavity digs in his nose “wasn't my fault,” he makes a face at his scratchy voice and looks towards the water, his brother getting the point. Once he’s satisfied he sighs “the car came out of nowhere, my light was green.”

Jeff shakes his head “well the fucker is in custody right now, their looking over the light camera and you best believe I’m gonna make sure that fucker goes down. You could have died, you almost did. They had to stabilize you twice. That's 4 times you’ve almost died on me.”

“Don't blame me,” Jared huffs under his breath.

Jeff looks at Chad and rolls his eyes before picking up a plastic cup and hurling it at him making the blonde snort, a string of curses leaving him as he looks around before they widen “holy hell man! I could fucking kill you!”

Before either of them can reply the doctor comes in, a man Jared knows well. Dr. Austin smiles “hey there sleeping beauty we’ve been waiting on you. Your making quite the impression around here.”

Jared blushes as the Doctor sits down and checks him over. “Now thankfully nothing is broken, except some ribs but you do have a sprain to your ankle it twisted something awful when the car hit you. You’ve got some bruises and cuts, we had to stitch up your forehead and you got a pretty bad concussion from hitting the pavement. Honestly you should have came out of it worse than you did. There was some bleeding but we fixed that up for you. Now I’m gonna keep you overnight make sure your ok and then you can go home but I recommend no school for a couple days.” The doctor stands and looks around “also visiting times over boys you can come back in the morning.”

Jared smiles softly as his brother kisses his forehead and Chad carefully pats his shoulder and they leave. And then he thinks about Jensen. He’s almost positive the man showed up, that he even told him he loved him.

Or was that a dream?

Jared frowns in the darkness and turns to look out the window into the night sky and just as he’s about to fall asleep the sound of wings flapping stirs him.

He stays perfectly still as heavy boots sound across the floor before stopping by his bed. He can hear the heavy breaths, their shaky and uncertain and he finally turns around and looks up.

Jensen's looking down at him with despair in his watery green eyes, his skin is paler than usual and his eyes look a little red. He looks nothing like himself.

Jared squirms in his bed and bites his lip as he lifts his hand, the IV poking his skin and reaches for Jensen.

The man cracks.

He falls to his knees by the bed, one hand gripping the sheets and the other reaching for his hip and holding on for dear life as he presses his forehead to Jared's leg as trembling breaths seep out “I’m sorry Jay, I’m so sorry this is all my fault.”

Jared shakes his head and digs his fingers in Jensen's gelled hair and gently strokes his head “its not Jen...it was the mans fault no one else's.”

Jensen shakes his head and wipes at his face angrily and looks up, clear tears sliding down his cheek “no if I would have just told you how I felt--”

Jared groans as he tries to shift and reaches out to grab Jensen's shoulder and pull him closer “Jensen get it through your thick head it wasn't your fault. Telling me you loved me wasn't going to change that. But it can now. Did you mean it?”

Jensen looks at him quietly, his eyes scanning over him like he’s trying to dig deep into his soul and it makes him feel naked. Then he sighs and finally crawls on the bed and presses himself close to Jared and looks into his hazel eyes “I knew the second I met you that there was something about you I needed. Turns out it wasn't something about you at all. It was just you.”

Jared smiles, his split lip twinging but he doesn't care less as he buries himself in Jensen's arms and presses a kiss to his neck before he’s being pulled back and rough hands are cradling his face, moss green eyes staring at him. “I love you Jared, always.”

“I love you to Jen.”

Jensen leans in, their breaths mingling as he presses their lips together and Jared swears the Heavens sing as he molds himself into Jensen body and wraps his arms around the mans neck as he’s tipped back onto the bed. Jensen's mouth was parting his shaking lips, the kiss soft at first before deepening as their heads turn, their mouths opening wide, tremors shooting down Jared's body in a blaze. When he pulls back Jared's panting, his world spinning and his vision blurry before it settles back on Jensen.

Always Jensen.

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Jensen seemed to be everywhere now. Not that Jared minded.

He was completely at Jared's beck and call. With Jeff at work and Chad at school Jared was forced to stay home alone, so when Jensen was free he stayed. He got him food, laid with him, watched movies with him.

Jared could almost pretend they were in a normal relationship. Jared watched from under the covers as Jensen bent down in front of his TV and popped in another DVD before turning with a smile “you ok? Need more blankets?”

Jared smiles and shakes his head “no but I could use some body heat.”

Jensen’s eyes twinkle as he crawls in next to Jared instantly pulling the boy in his arms and burning his face in his hair “I can do that.”

“Hey Jensen?”

Jensen looks down and brushes his hair back “yeah?”

Jared can feel the red heating his cheeks as he plays with Jensen's shirt “don't you think its time we tell my brother?”

Jensen's eyes widen and the panic is written clear on his face “Jared I don't think its wise to tell him that I’m--”

Jared laughs and slowly sits up “not that your a reaper dummy I mean that were together. I mean I know your older or whatever but eventually I’m gonna get tired of sneaking around you know? Besides Jeff will never let me out of his sight now.”

“And he shouldn't. Its like you have a kill me sign written on your forehead.” Jensen frowns to himself and sits up as well before looking at Jared, getting in his face as he tries to peer closer “what if you do?”

Jared pulls back “what?”

“What if there's something deeper going on? I mean come on Jared this is the fourth time you’ve almost died no normal person has that many near death experiences, its just not natural plus God wouldn't--” Jensen scoffs and snaps his fingers “God...” Jensen turns and plants a rough kiss to Jared's forehead and with a quick I love you he’s gone leaving Jared dumbfounded in his empty room.

 

Jensen barges into the golden room with a determined stance and narrowed eyes as he stalks up the steps to the big desk sitting in the center of the room where a man with a short bead and long curly brown hair sits.

Without saying a word Jensen slams his Book of Death down hard on the desk and crosses his arms as God looks down at the book and up at him “Jensen...how are we today?”

Jensen rolls his eyes “cut the crap I think we both know why I’m here. What the hell is going on?”

The man sighs and tries to push the book away but Jensen shoves it back and flips it open to Jared's name where four strikes sit next to it in bold, black lines “Jared has almost died five times...in five different, horrifying ways. What is going on?”

God drops his golden pen and turns in his chair and gives Jensen a firm look “when I assigned you this role I did so knowing how serious you took your business. For years Jensen you’ve done everything I’ve asked, a little too well and you don't take breaks. You’ve become hard Jensen. When Jared was created I did so with you in mind. Jared is special I have something very special in mind for him and that’ll come later and I’m sorry but I cant let you in on it.”

Jensen opens his mouth to argue as a large, tan hand shoots up and his mouth shuts. “Now like I said you are the best reaper I’ve got which is why I put you in charge but that dosen't mean others are happy about it. Your getting things that others don't Jensen. Out of everyone that does my bidding I chose to give you a soul-mate. You see when you were human you didn't have one I always had this in mind for you. Its what I do. I wanted to see how well you worked, how committed you were be before I made Jared but I wont lie. His first death experience was just that an experience, a glimpse if you will. The second? A twist of fate. The third? Well that should have been it for him. The last two? Well Jensen he shouldn't even be here anymore. But because I do have something special in mind for him I keep giving him more chances.”

“Its you? Your the one bringing him back?”

God smiles, his eyes twinkling with a secret “I am. You see only I know when his time is. You get estimations until the exact time comes you only have a guess. I decided at birth what would happen to Jared and no underdog is going to go against me.”

Jensen blinks, confused “you think someones trying to kill him?”

“Oh I know it.” God stands and adjusts his white robe as he walks behind the desk to a podium where The Book of The Lamb sits encased in a force shield. “I haven't quote located the perpetrator yet but when I do,” the man turns, his eyes dark “well lets just say I hope my son will accept him when I’m through.”

“So what? How many more times is this gonna happen? I mean I’m surprised Jared's not traumatized already.”

God waves his hand in the air, a shimmer floating around before sitting back down and flipping a page in a book open with a satisfied smile “there should be a protection cloak around him now, he shouldn't pass till its his time. Now that's not promising there wont be accidents along the way but death? He’s good.”

Jensen snorts, his shoulders lifting “just like that?”

“Have you met me?”

Jensen’s brows furrow and he huffs as he looks around “so he’s good? I can go now?”

“Yeah...but Jensen? Don’t forget to watch your back got it?”

Jensen nods and turns on his heel and marches past the other angels. He dosen’t care what he has to do he won’t let anyone hurt Jared, not anymore.

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“Where are we?”

“My place.”

Jared turns with wide, shocked eyes, his brows raised “your place?”

Jensen shrugs as he flips the lights on revealing a very simplistic yet modern style loft with expensive furniture and weird art hangings “yeah were did you think I stayed? Besides I do love the pleasures of the mortal world, its developed quite nicely since my time here.”

Jared snorts and smiles with wide dimples “well I would think its come a long way since Medieval times.”

Jensen tosses him a look over his shoulder and peels his long black coat off and tosses it on the sleek white couch and stretches his arms “you hungry?”

Jared drops his duffle bag and looks around “you eat?”

“I don't have to but I do enjoy it...especially pasta, any pasta really. Oh and pizza.”

Jared bites his lip as he faces Jensen again “anything sounds fine to me...can you cook?”

Jensen walks into the kitchen and pulls out a drawer full of take out menus “I can but I would rather not tonight...what do you feel like?”

Jared walks up behind him and leans over his shoulder to watch Jensen flip through the menus before reaching out and grabbing the Italian menu swiftly “you said pasta and now I want it. I’ll take the baked ziti please, with a ceaser salad.”

Jensen nods and dials the number ordering Jared's and then a lasagna and garden salad for himself with two cheesecakes, checking over his shoulder to make sure Jared even likes cheesecake, and finishing up the order.

“Should be here in 30 minutes...you wanna get settled?”

Jared sucks in a nervous breath and glances down at his bag again. They had decided since Jensen spent so much time at his place it was only fair for him to be invited here. Of course Jared didn't even know Jensen had his own place till 5 hours ago. He just figured death would appear and disappear when needed. Apparently that wasn't the case.

He wasn't sure what was gonna happen tonight or if anything they had been together only for a month but then again Jared has known this guy practically his whole life...he just didn't see him.

Jared picks his bag up and walks up the stairs to his open bedroom and changes into his pj’s quickly before slauntering back downstairs where Jensen is fiddling with the TV. Jared plops down on the couch and pulls the fleece blanket off the back and wraps it around him “so...how many supernatural creatures live in the city exactly?”

“By count? I only know of about 200.”

Jared choked and let out a breathy laugh “200? Are you kidding me?”

“No...why would I kid about that?”

Jared raises a brow and opens his mouth to answer when the doorbell rang and Jensen walked over, pulling out a wallet and handing to guy a fifty when he passes over the food. He turns with a wide grin “ready to eat?”

 

They eat and end up watching some action movie that he almost falls asleep during even though he can tell Jensen is totally into it, his eyes glued to the screen as he stuffs his face with pasta, his wine glass empty.

When the movies over and the food is gone he gets nervous again. Its ten now and their both dressed for bed, he in his t shirt and sweatpants and Jensen in a black shirt and plaid pj pants.

Does Jensen even sleep?

He’s not sure whats going to take place tonight and watching as Jensen rises from the couch and stretches he feel his heart stutter. Jensen turns and gives him a look over his shoulder and holds out his hand “you ready for bed?”

Jared gulps and looks down at Jensen's hand before letting out a breath and taking it. He follows slowly behind Jensen as they walk up the stairs, his eyes stopping on everything they pass. He sits down on the plush bed and pats the blankets before smoothing them out and crawling under the covers.

He watches with nervous eyes as Jensen crawls in next to him and turns his body to face him, his green eyes locked in on his own. He bites at his lip and closes his eyes for a minute before moving his hand across the sheets and tangling his fingers in Jensen's shirt and pulls himself forward till their pressed close together.

Jensen's hot breath hits his cheek and he shivers and noses under his chin making Jensen tilt his head back so Jared can bury himself there. Strong arms wrap around his waist and hold him tight and he thinks they might just lay there.

But then Jensen rolls them till he’s on top and Jared is under him, their bodies lined perfectly, something hard pressing against his inner thigh and he gulps. He blinks up at Jensen with wide, innocent eyes and the man groans.

He’s not sure what to do here. His had sex class, his brothers given him the talk sure and he knows the basics he knows whats going to happen but that dosen't mean he’s ready, that dosen't mean he knows. He puffs his cheeks out and slowly moves his trembling hands up Jensen's arms till he gets to his shoulders and he squeezes.

He’s almost sure he looks terrified as Jensen lowers his head and their lips mold together. Jensen's tongue slips in his mouth and moves around his in a slippery haste and Jared moans at the feeling. The kiss is rough yet gentle at the same time as hands bend underneath him and lift him higher in Jensen's arms. He can smell the hot musk coming from Jensen and it makes him blush as the man moves against him now, his hips thrusting down as Jared tries to keep up.

He knows Jensen dosen't have to breathe but he can feel himself turning red but he dosen't want to pull back, he dosen't want it to end. The hot feel of Jensen's tongue, the strong pants from his nose hitting his face, the feel of wandering hands, and the low groans coming from the older man. But then Jensen parts and he sucks in a large breath, his lips shaking as he looks up at Jensen with fluttering eyes.

Jensen tilts his head, his thumb coming down to smooth across Jared's red lips and he shuts his eyes and lets out a pained groan before diving back down and Jared swears this time he wont need air. He could feel spit dripping from the corner of his mouth and sliding down his chin and he knew it should feel disgusting but it only made him press up harder as Jensen's hips rolled against his.

He moved his arms down and pushed his hands under Jensen's shirt and dug his nails in the toned back above him and arched his body up into the warm touch. God he wanted. He jerked back, their lips parting with a wet smack and yanked Jensen's shirt off before pulling his own off.

Jensen leaned up and shucked his pants down and looked down at Jared, his eyes slipping down his body before meeting his eyes. Jared nods quickly and lifts his hips as Jensen pulls everything down and the cold air hits him and he blushes.

He can feel the hungry eyes trailing over him without even looking at Jensen but he reaches his hands up and tangles them in messy hair and yanks him down anyway. But instead of going for his mouth Jensen dodges and latches onto his neck and bites down before pressing deep sucking kisses.

He slam's his hand down on the bed and curls his fingers in the sheet and pulls as he tilts his head back further and further sure its going to break but he dosen't care right now. There's a beautiful man sucking at his neck.

Jared lets out a low moan as hot lips trail down his neck to his chest and stop at his nipples, a tentative tongue peaking out and licking a stripe up and he gasps at the slickness and looks down and finds Jensen's already staring at him with dark eyes.

He opens his mouth to say something but he isn't sure what, he’s not sure he can even find words right now.

Hard working hands slip down his thighs and grip his hips and Jared bites his lip and buries half his face in Jensen's pillow, the smell of his cologne seeping in his nose and he breathes in deep.

Jensen presses one last kiss to his belly and moves back up and smashes their lips together and Jared moves his hands to pull at his neck like a hungry kitten, his legs moving up to wrap around the mans waist and grip him tight.

Jensen detaches and presses their cheeks together and pants, his body shaking and it makes Jared smiles at he combs through his hair “your shaking...”

Jensen huffs out a breathy laugh and looks down at him, his hand coming up to brush Jared's sweaty bangs back “I just...I love you so much.”

Jared smiles again and caresses Jensen's scruffy cheek “then will you make love to me now?”

Jensen closes his eyes and butts his head down against Jared's before reaching over to his nightstand and jerking out the bottle of lube. He grabs a condom and looks down at Jared but the boy shakes his head its not like he can catch anything from him anyway.

Jensen tosses the condom back in the drawer and pours lube on his fingers and moves his hand down low and traces a finger around his hole and he shiver and the coldness. The fingers move gracefully and skillfully inside him and before he knows it Jensen is slicking himself up and pressing against him and the nerves kick back in.

But then Jensen gives him a loving smile and drops to his elbows next to Jared head and presses a kiss to his shoulder and slides his wet lips up to his neck and huffs near his ear “its ok baby, I promise.”

And he knows it will be so he nods and and digs his nails in Jensen's back as the man pushes in, his face scrunching as a throbbing pain shoots through him and settles in his lower half. If this is what labor feels like he feels sorry for the poor women that have to go through it.

He can feel himself sweating as he looks up at Jensen whose eyes are filled with love, safety, and patience and he can feel the pain melting away as he bites his lip again and nods “you can move.”

His mouth drops as a moan shoots through him as Jensen's hips move slowly against him, his head dropping to rest against Jared's, Jensen's face slack with bliss and it makes Jared love him more.

He presses kisses to the slack mouth before Jensen gets with the program and presses demanding kisses to Jared's own, their tongues swirling together and Jensen hikes himself higher, Jared's mouth wide open.

Something warm spreads through him as Jensen's thrusts speed up and Jared can hear their flesh slapping together and his face redden as he grips Jensen's arms and stares at dark eyes.

“I--I’m gonna,” Jared squeezes his eyes shut and turns his head into the pillow his mouth dropping in pleasure as Jensen twists his hips and pushes his legs up, his wet lips biting at Jared's ear “come on baby, cum for me, fuck love you so much.”

And that's all it takes before he’s shooting against Jensen's tummy the older man growling with pleasure, his hips stuttering before he cums deep inside Jared, the boy gasping at the wet feeling.

The whole what happens after part is better than he would have imagined. Jensen presses tender kisses to his temple before reaching over and grabbing tissues and wiping them down and pulling Jared in his arms “go to sleep now baby.”

Jared smiles and kisses Jensen's sweaty chest and settles in as sleep moves over him. If this is what Heaven feels like, he wouldn't mind staying here.

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Jensen cracked his neck and sighed as he rubbed his eyes and looked back down at his list of names that were to be reaped. He took out a marker and started assigning his reapers to the souls they should reap when the sound of high wind lit up behind him and he turned.

“Adam what are you doing here?”

Adam, his right hand, ducked his head and avoided his gaze “sir I am here to inform you that a group of reapers are on strike...they refuse to reap the souls they’ve been assigned.”

Jensen's eyes narrow into thin slits and he stands so fast his chair falls back with a loud thump making Adam jump “who?”

Adam gulps “um Nikki, Hal, and Veronica sir. There's already a backup...its not good.”

Jensen growls lowly in his chest before snatching his book up and pulling on his long black coat “well it looks like we need to have a little meeting...get everyone rounded up and make sure their ready in 10 minutes.”

Adam nods quickly and vanishes.

Jensen can feel the anger coursing through him at the thought of his very own reapers disobeying him, though he did wonder when this would happen. Had he been slacking? No. There was no excuse, and there would be none.

There was a middle ground, a limbo if you will, where they held their meetings. A dark place Jensen didn't like visiting often, it reminded him to much of his own time period and he hated gloomy.

Everyone's huddled in a group when he arrives and he cant help but compare them to cattle, which they will be when he’s through.

Nikki, Hal, and Veronica are isolated in the front and he grows angrier at their sight.

He clears his throat and calms his features “I have been informed that some of you are not doing their jobs correctly. I don’t think I need to remind you what happens when a reaper is let go but I will. When a reaper is let go or refuses to work they are reaped themselves. And I am not known to be forgiving when it comes to my owns reaping. You are there for a reason. I will rip you apart, limb from limb and I’ll make sure you can feel it. Then I’ll put you back together and do it all over again. And then when I’m through I’ll crush your soul and there will be nothing but darkness. Do I make myself clear?”

He watches their faces grow pale as silent whispers fill the air and the group huddles tighter but Nikki’s face is still hard set and he dosen’t like it.

“Nikki if you could step forward.”

The black headed woman looks back at her friends before schooling her features and doing as told, her eyes boring into his own and he smiles before shooting his hand out and gripping her neck tightly, enjoying the way her eyes bulge.

He jerks her closer and butts his forehead against hers as he hisses, spit flying “you listen to me you rat I own you. When you passed you made this choice, you pledged yourself to me you don’t get to back out of it. If you ever disobey me again I’ll throw you in the pit understand?”

Her eyes are wide with fear and she chokes as she tries to nod and he throws her down to the ground, savoring the heavy coughs leaving her. He then looks up, eyes blazing “now get the fuck back to work!”

One by one they vanish in a cloud of smoke till he’s left alone wondering why the hell he signed up for this.

 

Jared picked up his phone and checked the time again before sighing and tossing it gently at the foot of his bed before falling back on his pillows with a pathetic huff. It was already nearing midnight and Jensen was supposed to be there 3 hours ago.

How do you get stood up in your own home?

He kicks the covers down roughly before sliding underneath them and flicking the light off and throwing himself back on his bed.

His laid there for an hour, he’s halfway asleep when he hears the sound of wind rushing through his room and his eyes shoot open and skip over to where Jensen is standing next to his bed with a tired look on his face.

He rolls over and narrows his eyes from behind his covers he has hiding his face “your late.”

“I know I’m sorry I had some-things to deal with first, it couldn't wait.”

“Is something wrong?”

Jensen makes a face, his lips twisting at the corners before he peels his clothes off and crawls in next to Jared “not anymore There's not, or at least there better not be. Wont be if they know whats good for them.”

Jared purses his lips and pushes himself closer to Jensen till he’s snuggled in his arms “do I wanna know?”

“Well lets see shall we? Some of my fellow reapers were trying to go against me, trying to rave against me, refusing to collect their soul which will cause a backup and eventually utter chaos here on earth. So I had to hold an emergency meeting which hasn't happened in a good 500 years to threaten to rip them apart in order for them to work. Still wanna know?”

He makes a face and wiggles down under the covers. He should have kept his mouth shut. “Have you done that before? Gotten rid of a reaper?”

Jensen shifts on the bed and rolls on his side, his hand smoothing down Jared's back till their chest to chest “yes...thankfully I’ve only had to do it once, it was a couple hundred years ago. You see sometimes There's one rotten apple in the bunch. Sometimes it wants to be cleansed, to be like everyone else and sometimes it wants to be bad, to branch out from the group. As the leader I cant allow this to happen. It was only one...he was irrational, selfish, cocky a bad combination for a reaper. Were supposed to be understanding, firm, it is not our job to judge others were simply here to take souls for judgment. But Derick wanted more power. He wanted to be me, to guide souls to judgment and from there to the place they would spent eternity. But you see Jared only death himself is allowed insight to the afterlife. So I forbade it and he acted out. Long story short, he is no longer with us, nor is he anywhere else.”

Jared’s eyes widen and he lowers his head and lets out a breath as he scoots closer, his arm going around Jensen’s wait and pressing his nose to the freckled one before him “alright then.”

Jensen nods and brushes Jared’s hair back behind his ear and kisses his forehead “alright then.”

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Jared watches from his bed, his eyes scanning curiously over Jensen who is sitting at his desk, his leather boot clad feet propped up on the wood as he leans back and looks over his large book, humming every once in a while.

Jared scrunches his nose and leans back against his pillows and sits his book down on his lap, forgotten, as he watches Jensen.

It had been a couple days since Jensen informed him of some of his duties and he didn't want to say he viewed him in a new light or that he was even afraid of Jensen he wasn't. It was more like he was more aware that Jensen wasn't just Jensen.

“Have you found what your searching for yet?”

Jared blinks and snaps out of his stupor, red spotting his face as he looks at Jensen who is now smirking at him “what?”

“You’ve been staring at me for the past 20 minutes and if you haven't found what your searching for yet were in serious trouble. If I could blush I would be right now.”

Jared ducks his head and falls back flat on his bed and squeezes his eyes closed “I’m sorry.”

The bed dips as a new weight settles and lays over him “wanna tell me whats going on inside your head? I’m not a mind reader.”

“Its nothing...its stupid.”

“Well its enough to bother you so.”

Jared sighs and looks up into green eyes “its not bothering me I just...I guess I didn't realize what you did I mean I just thought you took care of souls I didn't realize you were...that you--”

“Killed?”

Jared turns his head away “I didn't--”

Jensen sits up and nods his head “you didn't have to. Listen the reason I don't tell you everything I do is so I can avoid that look on your face right there.”

Jared reaches a hand up and rubs at his face and wills it to be neutral “I’m sorry Jen I didn't mean to--”

Jensen holds his hand up and moves back on the bed “listen this is who I am you knew that when we met. The fact is I am not an Angel. I don't have wings or a halo. I have a scythe that collects souls. I have dark powers that I use to keep my reapers in line. We don't host holiday parties were not even supposed to feel but for whatever reason I do for you. I am death nothing else comes after that.”

Jared gulps and takes a deep breath “I’m sorry Jensen I didn't mean to make you feel like you had to explain yourself.”

Jensen turns his head and stands, straightening his coat out “well it just so happens I have some work to do anyway.”

“Jensen please don't leave I’m sorry--”

“No I really do have to go I promised the big man I would be there for judgment today so I’ll see you later ok?” he reaches down and trails a finger down Jared's cheek before smiling slightly and vanishing into a cloud of black smoke.

Jared closes his eyes and smacks at his head as he falls back “stupid, so stupid.”

 

An hour later he finally trails out of his room still feeling like shit. He hadn't meant to judge Jensen or make him feel like he was a monster he was the complete opposite of that. In some way Jensen had been saving him and Jared is stupid.

He flops down face first on the couch and Jeff looks up from his work and raises a brow at his dramatic little brother “you ok there?”

Jared groans and muffles into the cushions and Jeff shakes his head before reaching out and rolling his brother over “wanna try that in English now?”

Jared makes a face “I’m an idiot.”

“Ok...and before I put my foot in my mouth you wanna tell me why?”

Jared sighs and sits up “ok this is gonna come as a shock but I’ve been seeing someone for about 2 months now and I love him, a lot. And today we had a fight, well I don't know if it was a fight he did that thing you know? Where I make a fool out of myself and he acted like everything was ok so I didn't feel even worse. But I know I upset him.”

Jeff nods slowly “ok...and this guy what did you say to him.”

Jared looks down “I guess I sort of made fun of his lifestyle?”

“And that is?”

“He works hard he really does, he’s the boss actually and I made him feel like he...I guess what he did was--”

“Not important?”

“No it is important I just made him feel like God I don't even know how I made him feel! I’m a terrible boyfriend!” as Jared tried to flop back on the couch Jeff grabbed his arm and kept him upright.

“Alrighty well your right you are an idiot. You need to apologize to him--”

“I did!”

“And mean it. Yo u wounded the mans pride Jared you hurt his ego he is a man we all work the same.”

Jared frowns and looks down...he is a man.

“Speaking of who is this guy and why am I just now hearing about him?”

“Well I’ve been keeping him under wraps because he might be a little...older than me.”

“And how old is that?”

Jared smiles sheepishly “well I guess a good...17 years give or take.”

Jeff’s eyes widen and his jaw drops in shock as he falls against the couch for support “you’ve got to be kidding me Jared your dating a 33 year old man? A man that's older than me?”

“It sounds bad but it--”

“Bad? Jared that's illegal your underage your only 16! Oh my god have you--”

Jared blushes and shoots up “that's none of your business!”

Jeff sinks down and groans “oh my god you have! You had sex with him?”

“Jeff!”

“Mom and dad would kill me, they would hang me up on the clothes line! And nana Jesus Jared she would have a heart attack do you know how serious this is? You are a kid and he is a man! An actual man!”

Jared rolls his eyes “your being stupid Jeff I love him dosen't that matter?”

Jeff scoffs “love Jared your to young to know what love it! You don't love him and he dosen't love you--”

Jared reaches out and shoves his brother back till he falls in the floor and stands over him with teary eyes “shut up! You don't know anything about me and Jensen or how we feel about each-other! You wouldn't though would you? Mr. Fuck em’ and leave em’! You are the last person I’m going to listen to if mom and dad would kill you for anything it would be that!”

Jared shakes his head and grabs his jacket as he stomps out the door, Jeff scrambling on his feet “and where the hell are you going?”

“Figure it out!” Jared yells before he slams the door and tries to make his way to Jensen's apartment.

Of course the man isn't there when he arrives and sneaks in with the key Jensen had given him so he lays down on Jensen's bed and buries his face in the mans pillow, the smell of his cologne waving up his nose sending him right to sleep.

 

A gentle shake on his shoulder rouses him. He groans in protest and rolls on his side, his eyes blinking open sleepily to see Jensen leaning over him with a soft smile “hey...what are you doing here?”

Jared looks around with bleary eyes “oh...Jeff and I got in a fight and i just...I didn't know where else to go.”

“What did you fight about?”

“You.”

Jensen brows shoot up “me?”

Jared nods and reaches up to rub at Jensen's arm “I told him about you and he wasn't to happy I was dating a man 17 years older than me.”

Jensen snorts “I think you mean a thousand.”

“He dosen't have to know that.”

Jensen shakes his head and toes his boots off and his jacket before laying down next to Jared “I’m sorry.”

Jared shakes his head and presses his body to Jensen's, their foreheads butting together “no I’m sorry I shouldn't have said that to you I know what you do is important and vital. I’m sorry if I made you feel it wasn't or that you were the bad guy I know your not.”

Jensen smiles and reaches a hand out to brush his cheek gently before leaning in and pressing their lips together, his hands running down Jared's side making him sigh and press closer, his fingers tangling in short, rusty blonde hair.

He pulls back, his eyes still closed and smiles against Jensen's lips “I love you.”

Jensen hums and lifts the covers higher over them, as if he’s wrapping them up in a net of safety and warmth, “I love you to.”

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Jared tip toes in the apartment a night later. He had spent the night with Jensen and the rest of the next afternoon before the older man finally convinced him to return home and talk to his brother. But Jared being the chicken that he is instead left Jensen's house and headed for Chads till nightfall and now he was sneaking through his house at midnight like some delinquent kid out after curfew.

The lights were off and the apartment was silent as he carefully slid down the hall and to his room, successfully creaking the door shut and letting out a breath of relief as he dropped his bag.

He was digging through his drawer for some clean underwear when his door swung open and Jeff stood in the doorway in only his boxers and some band t shirt, a pissed off look on his face “where the fuck have you been? I’ve called you a hundred times, texted you, I even called Chad! You were with him weren't you? Your sugar daddy?”

Jared's face snarls in disgust and he slams his drawer shut “sugar daddy? Are you kidding me? What are you 12?”

“I could ask you the same-thing. You know better than to not call Jared after everything you’ve been through I thought something happened to you!”

Guilt hit Jared like a wrecking ball and he ducked his head in shame “I’m sorry Jeff I should have called I was just angry.”

“And I get that but your 16 Jared its time to act like it.”

Jared huffs and blows his bangs up before throwing his underwear down and puts his hands on his hips “what is it you really wanna say to me?”

Jeff stands there for a beat just staring at his little brother before he narrows his eyes “I think your screwing your life up by being with this dude. Mom and dad wanted me to take care of you if anything ever happened to them. When nana died she left you in my care you are my responsibility and now your off with some older guy! What would they think Jared? I’m supposed to protect you! I get that your not a little kid any more and your independent and headstrong and I like that but your not an adult Jared and you still have to follow my rules. Which means I don't want you seeing this guy again.”

The breath flies from his body and his heart constricts tightly in his chest as a loud beeping noise blares in his ears. “You cant do that--”

“I can. I’m your brother, I’m your guardian I could call the cops on this guy--”

Jared snorts “you could try. I doubt you’ll have much luck.”

Jeff frowns “what the hell does that mean? God Jared are you fucking a cop?”

Jared's jaw drops at his brothers crass language and he steps back with a disgusted scoff “have you lost your damn mind! No I’m not screwing a cop you moron!”

“Then who is it? Who the hell is it?”

Jared turns away and tries for the bathroom “this is ridiculous I don't have to--”

Jeff reaches out and jerks Jared back making him stumble and look up with wide eyes “I don't think so your gonna tell me who it is Jared and I mean it.”

Jared gulps. He and Jensen haven't even had this conversation. He dosen’t know the rules about who he can tell and who he cant but right now his brothers standing in front of him wearing a face of rage that Jared’s never seen before, and demanding some type of answer and he feels like panicking.

He pulls his arm away and rubs at his elbow, staring at his brother with wide eyes “you can’t keep me away from him, not even if you try it wont matter.”

“Who is it Jared? I’m not fucking kidding around anymore!”

Jared takes a deep breath and cuts his eyes over to the bathroom door and counts on his short track phase to kick in and takes off for the door.

He can hear his brothers socks slip on the floor as he rushes for the door and barrel's against it before slamming it closed and locking it, his brother banging on the other side. Jared sighs and slides down the door with a loud breath and bangs his head on the wood.

This is not what he expected to come home to tonight.

His never called for Jensen before but he figures he should give it a go.

He whisper yells the mans name a few times before a puff of dark smoke appears and Jensen stands before him in black sweatpants and a shirt, his hair rumpled “Jared? Whats going on?”

The banging on the door hasn't slowed and Jensen moves closer, his hands already up but Jared stands “its ok its just my brother.”

Jensen frowns “your brother?”

“We fought again.” Jared's eyes fill with tears “he told he didn't want me to see you again and then he wanted me to tell him who you were and I don't know the rules so I didn't and I ran in here.”

Jensen blinks and nods slowly before reaching out to brush Jared's hair back “its ok Jay.”

Jared sniffs and nuzzles his cheek in Jensen's rough palm before sighing and pausing as the banging stops “he must have gotten tired...”

Jensen helps Jared up and turns the shower on “get in it will help you relax--”

Jared smiles wetly “will you get in with me? Please?”

He watches Jensen strip slowly before climbing in behind him, his arms wrapping around his waist and pulling him back so he could rest his head on the broad shoulder, his eyes slipping closed as the hot water beat down on them.

“don't leave me.”

Jensen paused and leaned back so he could look Jared in the eye “I’m not going anywhere baby I promise.”

Jared smiles and presses their foreheads together and sighs. His life might be in ruins, his brother might be crazy but at least he had Jensen.