Chapter Text
[ private chat Hobihobi and Jiminie ]
Hobihobi:
Jiminie
I need you to get me from the hospital
sorry, I didn't want to ask Tae to get me
> 02:17am
Jiminie:
really?
now?
hyung, it's past 2am
what did you get yourself into again?
> 02:31am
Hobihobi:
just some asshole
Jiminie:
it's always just some asshole
this needs to stop, hyung
Hobihobi:
yeah yeah
can you get me or not?
Jiminie:
fuck
yeah, I'll be there in half an hour
Hobihobi:
thanks man
you're the best
Jiminie:
remember this when I drive you over with my car
Hobihobi:
your car won't drive up hills
so how would it get over me?
Jiminie:
don't make me try it
Hobihobi:
you wouldn't do it anyways
Jiminie:
don't be so sure about that
Hobihobi:
yesterday I saw you save an ant
Jiminie:
it was lost, okay?
there were no other ants and I didn't want it to be alone and forgotten
Hobihobi:
yeah, of course
just hurry
Jiminie:
omw
Hobihobi:
have you heard from Tae?
fuck my arms hurts
Jiminie:
what did you do..
no, he won't leave his room
Hobihobi:
fuck
I will kill that asshole
Jiminie:
don't Hobi
this won't make things better
Hobihobi:
I don't give a fuck
he hurt Tae
Jiminie:
I know
I'm just as mad as you are
Hobihobi:
whatever
this nurse is hella annoying
Jiminie:
just a little longer
ㅡ
It wasn't the first time that Jimin had received a message from his hyung in the middle of the night. In fact it was something that happened every other week. It became something similar to habit to him, and nowadays Jimin was just waiting for his phone to ring whenever Hoseok was out late. This night was one of these yet again.
He groaned heavily when he got up from his bed and his feet touched the cold floor. He hated getting up in the middle of the night, especially when he and his roommates, Hoseok and Taehyung, decided to turn off the radiators because it was too expensive. However, once he got out of his bed it didn't take him long to get ready. After he put on some clothes he left his room and then passed by Taehyung's door. He sighed heavily as he heard whimpers coming from the other side of the door yet again.
Taehyung had refused to come out of his room for days now. All thanks to his stupid ex-boyfriend by the name of Kim Seokjin. Honestly, whenever Jimin thought of the elder he just wanted to punch him right in the face, like Hoseok always talked about. Seokjin broke his best friend's heart, and he would make sure he would have to pay for what he had done to the literal sunshine. Neither he nor Hoseok were allowed into the younger's room. He didn't even answer them whenever they called for him or wanted to bring him food. They knew he left his room to go to the toilet. However, Jimin was worried that he and Hoseok would have to break down the door one of these days, simply to make sure Taehyung was eating and drinking enough.
A shiver run down his spine as soon as he took a step out of his apartment complex. He knew it would be cold due to it being in the middle of the night. However, the upcoming winter didn't help in any ways, in fact it just made things worse and Jimin cursed himself for not putting on more clothes. He sighed once he reached his car, but then reality seemed to hit him for the first time that night. Hoseok was hurt and at the hospital once again, and Taehyung locked himself away in his room because he was deeply hurt on the inside. He sighed once more, though this time in worry. His friend were hurting, again, and he couldn't do anything about it. He hated feeling like that, helpless, though he knew that he could do nothing besides talking to them if they allowed him to.
He reached the hospital within the next twenty minutes, and once he got out of his car he headed straight for the ER. He knew where to go by now since he had had to get Hoseok often enough already. He knew he would have to wait for another hour until Hoseok would be allowed to leave for sure since he would have to talk to the police, once again.
Jimin knew in his heart his hyung didn't do all the shit he did because he wanted to. Hoseok did all this shit, getting into fights, get drunk off his ass or high because he couldn't help himself. Jimin understood the older needed some way to get all the pent up frustration out of his system, though he hoped each day a miracle would happen and the older would just resume to getting the frustration out of his body by dancing. Hoseok always did that, though when the pressure got too much he started using other methods to get rid of those unwanted feelings. Jimin hated it. Taehyung hated it. But these days Hoseok seemed to live off of hate, and that Jimin hated even more. He was worried about his hyung. He remembered his hyung being a sunshine, just like Taehyung, but then one day he changed and to this day he didn't get to know why. Hoseok just wasn't Hoseok anymore and it scared him, but he loved his hyung and he would never leave him. Never. Hoseok saved him and Taehyung far too many times.
"Hyung!" Jimin called as soon as Hoseok came out of one of the emergency rooms, his right hand bandaged as well as his forehead. Jimin sighed once more that night as Hoseok's eyes landed on him, revealing that the older probably didn't even really realize what had happened to him again. This was just another part of it. Hoseok never really realized what happened until much later, after he had slept for at least a few hours. That was if he could sleep. Hoseok never really slept thanks to his insomnia, and Jimin guessed it was just another reason for the sudden change within his hyung. It had all started at pretty much the same time.
"Jiminie." The older smiled at him after some seconds passed by. Jimin guessed it took the older a little longer to recognize him. He walked over to his hyung and hugged him. Hoseok chuckled quietly as Jimin hit his head, though the chuckle soon became a low groan. "Stop doing that." The older complain, though a smile was still on his lips. Jimin smiled back.
"How much longer until we can leave?" Jimin asked as he noticed two police officers walking towards them. Hoseok sighed in annoyance as he noticed them as well. His whole posture changed within a second and Jimin could tell he was tense. "Hyung." He reached to touch his arm, but Hoseok flinched away. Jimin took a step back and then the officers were already there.
"Jung Hoseok?" one of them asked. Hoseok just nodded as a response and then followed them as they asked him to follow them to a quiet corner. Jimin knew Hoseok probably hadn't started the fight, but as always he would be the one to be blamed for staring it. He never understood why Hoseok allowed all this to happen to him, though there wasn't much he could do anyways. He tried to keep his attention on Hoseok and the officers, however suddenly there was someone passing by him whom he thought he wouldn't see that soon again. He stared at the person's back, his stomach clenching as well as his fists. He didn't even notice when he got up from the chair he had been sitting on and started following the person. There was anger rushing through his whole body, and all he wanted to do was yell at him. He could barely contain his anger and for a moment he asked himself if that was what Hoseok felt like on a daily basis.
He followed him down the corridor, and then another one. The question why that man was at the hospital at that hour didn't even cross his mind. He was just so damn angry. After following the other down yet another corridor he stopped abruptly in his tracks as he saw the man smiling at another one.
However, as much as he wanted to walk up to the asshole, he just stood there, staring at the other one who was smiling at the reason of Jimin's anger. Jimin was mesmerized by the man's smiled. About a thousand thoughts crossed his mind, and each of them contained the words 'cute'.
"Jinnie hyung!" he heard the man say, and he melted then and there. The sound of the guy's voice was so damn deeps, though soft and boyish at the same time. Jimin could barely contain the smile that was about to make its way onto his face. He wanted to be angry at the man in front of the most beautiful man he had ever seen, though all he could do was stare, and that he did until both of them moved into the room and the door closed behind them.
He had no idea why Kim Seokjin would be at the hospital at that hour, however if it was for the angel Jimin had witnessed meeting him he couldn't blame the older. He maybe was angry at Kim Seokjin, maybe even hated him a little for hurting Taehyung so badly, but seeing him with that angel just kind of made him think that the older couldn't be that bad. At the back of his head he knew of course that that was utter bullshit, because Seokjin was an asshole indeed, though at that moment he couldn't think anything but remotely good of him.
The possibility that Taehyung had left Seokjin because of the man, or angel, never crossed Jimin's mind until Hoseok came looking for him, telling him that he was finished and that they could finally go home.
"Hobi, this needs to stop." Jimin stated once they were sitting in his car, on their way back to their apartment. Hoseok groaned in response and didn't budge to actually respond with words for a few minutes. For a while Jimin believed the older wouldn't talk to him again that night.
"I know, but I can't." Hoseok finally answered. Jimin took a quick look over at his hyung, sighing quietly as he found Hoseok leaning his head against the window, his eyes closed. He looked almost calm, as if he was about to fall asleep, but Jimin knew better. His hyung probably wouldn't sleep that night either.
"I know you do it because of them." Jimin dared to state. Normally Hoseok would start to curse at him, them, and basically anyone for simply bringing up the topic. Though for whatever reason his hyung remained silent, and that scared Jimin even more than Hoseok's rage fits.
"Jimin." Hoseok sighed after they spent minutes in silence. Jimin almost jumped at his name being said.
"Yeah?"
"I did something really stupid."
Notes:
help. i started another one. sigh.
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Chapter Text
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
did you see that Jung kid this morning?
Joons:
yeah
I saw him when he came in to use one of the production rooms
Yoongs:
he was all patched up again
Joons:
can't believe he got himself into some shit again
Yoongs:
fuck he's so damn annoying
Joons:
yeah
Yoongs:
one of the freshmen told me he got into a fight with one of the leaders of that one stupid fraternity that's super popular atm
I don't even remember their name
Joons:
probably some random greek letter
fuck
he's so fucking stupid
Yoongs:
yeah
I mean who would get into a fight with one of those jocks
just leave them the hell alone and they will leave you alone
Joons:
I know
but honestly I'm not even surprised
Yoongs:
yeah actually you're right
me neither
Joons:
serves him right if he thinks it's a good idea to be a dick
Yoongs:
he always act like he's so special
Joons:
he probably thinks he's special
Yoongs:
I think he was at that party a few nights ago
Joons:
ugh
stop talking about that
my back still hurts
Yoongs:
what did you even do?
I didn't see you fall or something like that
Joons:
you were drunk off your ass
you wouldn't remember even if Dahyeon tried to suffocated you with her breasts
Yoongs:
right
as if I'd be into that
Joons:
man you can never know
Yoongs:
my ass hurt for days
I don't even remember what I did
Joons:
we probably got into shit together
or fell over
wouldn't be the first time
Yoongs:
hah yeah I remember that one time
that was one hell of a night
Joons:
ya
Yoongs:
what
Joons:
I forgot to tell you something
Yoongs:
what
Joons:
the night after the party I had a number written on my left forearm
and I saved it for some reason
thought it might be a new dealer or something
Yoongs:
fuck
I had a number written on my arm too
Joons:
did you write down the number??
Yoongs:
yeah
xxx-xxx-xxx
Joons:
fuck
Yoongs:
what
Namjoon:
got the same number
creepy
Yoongs:
that doesn't have to mean anything
as you said probably a new dealer
Joons:
Yoongs
what if we did shit together?
Yoongs:
never
you're my best bro
I would never dare to do something like that
just because I'm more into dicks than titties doesn't mean I'm in for yours
not even while drunk
Joons:
same here
Yoongs:
good to know
on a more serious note
ya wanna get high next weekend
Joons:
sure thing
when and where?
Yoongs:
my place
Joons:
okay
let's text the new drug dealer
I wanna try his stuff
Yoongs:
okay
you text him
I wait
Joons:
why do I have to contact him?
Yoongs:
because I did it last time
Joons:
last time was me introducing you to an acquaintance of mine who just happened to sell stuff
Yoongs:
yeah
but I asked him
you just stood there like a palm tree
Joons:
why the fuck a palm tree?
Yoongs:
because you're hella tall?
Joons:
wtaf
Yoongs:
so did you text him already?
Joons:
no?
Yoongs:
what's taking you so long
Joons:
fuck you I have a life
Yoongs:
I'm your life
so shut up and do your work
Joons:
rude
Yoongs:
it's true tho
Joons:
unfortunately
ㅡ
[ private chat unknown number and xxx-xxx-xxx ]
unknown number:
yo, I found your number on my arm
what do you sell?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
excuse me?
unknown number:
what do you sell?
and how much do you sell it for?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
sorry
I have no idea what you're talking about
unknown number:
wtf
dude, you can trust me
xxx-xxx-xxx:
honestly
I have no idea what you're talking about
unknown number:
you're a dealer, aren't you?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
no?
unknown number:
wtf then who are you?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I'm not a dealer that's for sure
unknown number:
fuck just tell me
xxx-xxx-xxx:
no
tell me who you are first
unknown number:
why the hell should i?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
you're the one texting me?
unknown number:
I had your number written on my forearm so tell me who you are, asshole
xxx-xxx-xxx:
wow okay chill dude
what the fuck's your problem?
unknown number:
I wanna know who you are and why your number was written on my arm
and on the arm of my best friend
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I have no idea???
go ask your best friend
unknown number:
he doesn't know either
xxx-xxx-xxx:
how do you know?
unknown number:
I asked him?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
wtf
were you drunk or what?
unknown number:
yeah, in fact we were
xxx-xxx-xxx:
well, I can't help you
unknown number:
tell me who you are
xxx-xxx-xxx:
tell me who you are first
unknown number:
fuck okay I'm Kim Namjoon
xxx-xxx-xxx:
the music production major?
unknown number:
yeah how would you know?
[ unknown number has been changed to Kim Namjoon ]
xxx-xxx-xxx:
who doesn't know the Kim Namjoon?
best friend of Min Yoongi
sometimes I wonder which one of you is more popular
Kim Namjoon:
so you know us
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I saw you a couple of times, yeah
but I've never spoken to either of you
Kim Namjoon:
so how did your number end up on our forearms?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
sorry, I have no idea
Kim Namjoon:
how could you not know?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
because I don't remember getting drunk these past few days and surely I don't remember giving anyone my phone number
especially not the two wonders of our university
Kim Namjoon:
thank you for calling us that but I would still like to know how your number ended up on our arms
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I don't know, Kim Namjoon
maybe somebody who knew me wanted to shit with you
or me for the matter of you calling me a dealer
Kim Namjoon:
sorry for that
I really thought you'd be a dealer
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I'm not
Kim Namjoon:
I noticed that
xxx-xxx-xxx:
good
Kim Namjoon:
so, who are you?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I'm nobody, Kim Namjoon
just delete my number
and tell Min Yoongi to delete it too if he didn't do so yet
Kim Namjoon:
nobody?
honestly?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
honestly
there's no need for you to know who I am
I'm nobody
Kim Namjoon:
if you say so
xxx-xxx-xxx:
goodbye, Kim Namjoon
Kim Namjoon:
bye?
ㅡ
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Joons:
okay so he isn't a dealer
Yoongs:
he's not?
Joons:
no he isn't
Yoongs:
then who is he?
Joons:
he wouldn't tell me
Yoogs:
wtf
Joons:
he said he never talked to us and didn't give us his number so whatever
Yoongs:
and you believe him just like that?
Joons:
well why shouldn't I
somebody just wanted to fuck with him so why should I care
Yoongs:
this sounds strange to me
Joons:
he had no idea who I was so it really was probably nothing
Yoongs:
I don't trust this
Joons:
he told us to delete his number
Yoongs:
well, I'll do that
Joons:
yup
Yoongs:
so, next weekend?
Joons:
the usual I guess
Yoongs:
okay
ㅡ
[ private chat unknown number and xxx-xxx-xxx ]
unknown number:
listen here, you little fuck
if you dare to fuck with either me or Namjoon I'll rip your ass off
xxx-xxx-xxx:
wtf
unknown number:
I warned you
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I assume you're Min Yoongi, right?
unknown number:
fuck yeah you bet I am
[ unknown number has been changed to Min Yoongi ]
xxx-xxx-xxx
listen, Min Yoongi
I already told your best friend that I have no idea how you got my number or why
just delete my number and forget all of this has happened
I don't know what else I'm supposed to tell you
Min Yoongi:
remember my words
xxx-xxx-xxx:
of course
everything to sooth the mighty Min Yoongi's feelings
Min Yoongi:
what the fuck
xxx-xxx-xxx:
sorry, that has been uncalled for
Min Yoongi:
you bet it was
xxx-xxx-xxx:
I'm nobody, Min Yoongi
you do not have to care about this incident at all
Min Yoongi:
whatever
you have been warned
ㅡ
[ xxx-xxx-xxx has been changed to Nobody ]
Notes:
this is gonna be so much fun to continue.
and probably a little painful ;)
ME.
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Chapter Text
[ private chat Hobihobi and Jiminie ]
Jiminie:
hyung, I know you've come home late again
have you seen Tae when you got home?
Hobihobi:
hey, yeah, he was out when I came home
I think he got something to eat
Jiminie:
how did he look?
Hobihobi:
not good, but better
I think it will take him quite some time to deal everything that happened
Jiminie:
I'm so worried, hyung
Hobihobi:
it will be okay, Jiminie
Jiminie:
I know he will eventually
I'm worried about you
Hobihobi:
why me?
Taehyung's the one who has been played by that asshole
Jiminie:
I know, I'm worried about him too
but you got back late again
and I found your bloody shirt in the garbage can
Hobihobi:
I told you and Tae months ago to not go through my things
Jiminie:
how could I not if there were blood stains on the kitchen counter!?
Hobihobi:
mhm I thought I got them all
Jiminie:
you didn't
Hobihobi:
figured that
Jiminie:
so, will you tell me what happened?
Hobihobi:
you know it's better for you to not know anything
Jiminie:
hyung
please
Hobihobi:
I'm okay
Jiminie:
you're not okay
Hobihobi:
listen, I can't afford to stop what I'm doing
Jiminie:
I'm just scared that one night you won't come back home
Hobihobi:
I will always come back home
I have to look after you and Tae after all
Jiminie:
we can look after ourselves just well ;-;
Hobihobi:
can you now?
when did that happen?
Jiminie:
okay
you're right
Hobihobi:
Jiminie, you're an angel and I want to keep you innocent
neither you nor Tae need to know what I'm doing or what shit I get myself into
Jiminie:
don't you think it would be good for you to go to therapy?
Hobihobi:
talking won't help me
Jiminie:
I just thought that maybe you should take to somebody
since you don't want to talk to me or Tae
Hobihobi:
thank you for being worried
but I'm okay
Jiminie:
I don't believe you
Hobihobi:
then don't
Jiminie:
hyung
Hobihobi:
I have to go now
ㅡ
[ private chat Kim Namjoon and Nobody ]
Kim Namjoon:
it's been a few days
will you tell me now who you are?
Nobody:
you kept my number?
Kim Namjoon:
I did
Nobody:
why?
Kim Namjoon:
you know me, I don't know you
and yet your number ended up on my forearm
Nobody:
Will you ever let that go?
Kim Namjoon:
not likely
Nobody:
maybe I should warn you to stay away from me
Kim Namjoon:
and why would you do that?
I don't even know who you are or what you look like to begin with
Nobody:
let's keep it that way
your bestie texted me, warned me about not fucking with you or he would fuck me up
Kim Namjoon:
Yoongi did?
Nobody:
yeah
surprised?
Kim Namjoon:
a little
Nobody:
something bothering you?
Kim Namjoon:
maybe
but I won't tell you
Nobody:
you don't have to
but you could
Kim Namjoon:
I don't trust you
I don't know you
Nobody:
I'm nobody
not just for you but for everyone
Kim Namjoon:
still you could tell people
Nobody:
I won't
but it's your decision anyways
ㅡ
Kim Namjoon:
hey
Nobody:
you still didn't delete my number?
Kim Namjoon:
can we talk?
Nobody:
if you want to
Kim Namjoon:
can we meet?
Nobody:
no
Kim Namjoon:
why?
Nobody:
I want to stay a nobody to you
Kim Namjoon:
why?
Nobody:
I think if you knew who I am you wouldn't talk to me
Kim Namjoon:
how bad could it be?
I talk to everyone
Nobody:
do you now?
Kim Namjoon:
yeah?
Nobody:
you're a liar, Kim Namjoon
I know you don't
Kim Namjoon:
how would you know?
Nobody:
you never talked to me
Kim Namjoon:
I don't even know who you are
Nobody:
yeah, and it's better that way
trust me
Kim Namjoon:
I don't trust someone I don't know
Nobody:
and yet you were the one to ask me to talk
Kim Namjoon:
how good are you at keeping secrets?
Nobody:
very
Kim Namjoon:
how?
Nobody:
I got hit by a guy because he wanted me to tell him some.. personal stuff about one of his 'friends'
I didn't tell him
Kim Namjoon:
so, you're a guy?
Nobody:
why do you think so?
I could be a girl as well
Kim Namjoon:
a man wouldn't hit a woman
Nobody:
I see
you live in a naive and innocent world, just like one of my best friends
Kim Namjoon:
will you tell me your friend's name?
Nobody:
no
Kim Namjoon:
why?
Nobody:
you know him
if you know who he was your probably figure out who I am
and I don't want that
Kim Namjoon:
how come you know so much about me?
Nobody:
who on campus doesn't, Kim Namjoon?
Kim Namjoon:
okay, right
Nobody:
so, what is it you wanted to talk about?
Kim Namjoon:
Yoongi
Nobody:
Yoongi?
Kim Namjoon:
yeah
Nobody:
okay, go on
Kim Namjoon:
you know he's my best friend
we grew up together, I can't even remember a day I have been without him
but nowadays it feels like were growing distant
Nobody:
why do you think so?
Kim Namjoon:
we used to live together but since this semester started we live at separate places and we only habg out after school to work or get high
we used to be together just because we could
Nobody:
and get drunk together
Kim Namjoon:
yeah
I know this is weird but I miss him
I mean I see him all the time.. still.. but it's just not the same
Nobody:
there's nothing weird about it
you're afraid you might lose him
Kim Namjoon:
yeah
Nobody:
I'm sure you won't, Namjoon
Kim Namjoon:
what makes you so sure about that?
Nobody:
the way he looks at you
you mean a whole fucking lot to him
Kim Namjoon:
he has a weird way of showing it these days
Nobody:
it's maybe just a phase
he will come around
maybe try talking to him
Kim Namjoon:
I can't
he will think I'm some kind of sap
Nobody:
would that be so bad?
Kim Namjoon:
yes, I'm not a sap
Nobody:
I don't think talking makes you a sap, but okay
what else bothers you?
Kim Namjoon:
he's constantly hooking up with someone
he even started flirting with our hyung for fun
Nobody:
Kim Seokjin?
Kim Namjoon:
yeah, how do you know?
Nobody:
I saw them flirting
and I saw when he broke somebody's heart
Kim Namjoon:
that kid, I think his name was Taehyung
I like him, he has a really nice voice
Nobody:
yes, he does
Kim Namjoon:
I think Seokjin hyung was just a joke for Yoongi and hyung knew it
Nobody:
apparently Taehyung was a joke to Seokjin too
Kim Namjoon:
you seem angry about that
do you know the kid?
Nobody:
I do
Kim Namjoon:
is he a friend of yours?
Nobody:
yes, you could call him a friend I guess
Kim Namjoon:
ugh
I don't know what to do about Yoongi
Nobody:
you can either wait for him to come around or talk to him
I would suggest you go talk to him
Kim Namjoon:
maybe I will
Nobody:
do you have class now?
Kim Namjoon:
yeah and I'm annoyed
Nobody:
why?
is the lecture that bad?
Kim Namjoon:
no, but that stupid Jung guy came late again and destroyed the whole atmosphere
Nobody:
Jung?
Kim Namjoon:
Jung Hoseok?
I'm not sure if that's his name
Nobody:
oh it is his name
Kim Namjoon:
you know him too?
Nobody:
...
talked to him a few times
Kim Namjoon:
I never talked to him
Nobody:
I know you didn't
Kim Namjoon:
I don't like him
Nobody:
that I know too
I can tell by how you look at him, you're disgusted
Kim Namjoon:
he always gets into fights
he will destroy our reputation if he keeps trying to major in music production
Nobody:
you judge him by his appearance then
Kim Namjoon:
not really, but I have heard stories
Nobody:
sometimes there's more to a book than just its cover
Kim Namjoon:
you're defending him
Nobody:
I'm not defending him, not for what he did and for what he's doing at the present time
but I know how he was before
Kim Namjoon:
before what?
Nobody:
well, that's another secret I have to keep
and I won't talk to anybody about your feelings for Yoongi
Kim Namjoon:
what feelings?
Nobody:
your like him, more than you think
more than you've realized
Kim Namjoon:
he's my best friend
Nobody:
and yet he's also so much more
Kim Namjoon:
thank you
Nobody:
you can always come and talk to me
Notes:
oh, if Namjoon only knew who he's talking to.
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Chapter 4: 004
Notes:
i really need to stop listening to sad songs while writing new chapters. no wonder all my stories are so fucking angsty.
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Chapter Text
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
I saw you texting that number again
Joons:
I did
Yoongs:
why?
Joons:
I'm just curious
I wanna know who they are
Yoongs:
it was probably just some weird joke
can't you just let it go?
Joons:
hey, you don't have to talk to them
if I want to just let me
Yoongs:
wow there big boy
no need to get all snappy
Joons:
fuck off, Yoongi
Yoongs:
damn, what got up your ass today?
Joons:
nothing
I'm just a little annoyed
Yoongs:
you call that a little?
Joons:
okay I'm very much annoyed
Yoongs:
yeah, seems more like it
what got you all winded up?
Joons:
too many things in my head
also, earlier when I left the studio I heard a song.. and I really liked it
Yoongs:
so what?
Joons:
it was one of Jung's songs
Yoongs:
well damn
that's shitty
Joons:
no man you don't understand
the track was really good
Yoongs:
what kind of good?
Joons:
like that kind of good that got you several gigs last december
Yoongs:
shit
Joons:
yeah, I might just start thinking it's right that he's a music production major
Yoongs:
never say that again
he's like the flu
Joons:
what if we're judging him just by what he seems to be?
Yoongs:
I know what he is, an asshole
I have heard and seen enough to be able to judge him
Joons:
have you really ever seen him get into shit?
Yoongs:
yeah, I have
Joons:
when?
I haven't so
Yoongs:
you know
sometimes I do things without you
Joons:
I noticed
Yoongs:
what's that supposed to mean?
Joons:
it means that you'd rather spend your time with Jin than with me
Yoongs:
that's not true
Joons:
ah, so how many times have you met Seokjin last week?
Yoongs:
like three times?
Joons:
exactly
and how often have we met?
Yoongs:
like every day
Joons:
yeah in school
doing school stuff
Yoongs:
that still counts
Joons:
does it?
Yoongs:
we're in most lectures together
we produce music together
we spend our weekends together
what else do you want?
Joons:
tbh, if I think about it I really don't know
Yoongs:
yeah well better think twice before you say shit
Joons:
you know what?
talk to me again when you're able to talk normally
Yoongs:
fuck honestly
fuck off
ㅡ
[ private chat Kim Namjoon and Nobody ]
Kim Namjoon:
I really need another name for you
Nobody:
hello there
Kim Namjoon:
so?
Nobody:
what do you want to call me?
Kim Namjoon:
I want to call you by your name
Nobody:
you know that's not possible
Kim Namjoon:
I don't want to call you Nobody for life
Nobody:
I'm sure I won't be around that long
Kim Namjoon:
who knows
Nobody:
I know
Kim Namjoon:
how?
Nobody:
I'm nobody, you're Kim Namjoon
Kim Namjoon:
give me a name
Nobody:
call me Hobi
Kim Namjoon:
Hobi?
what's that short for?
Nobody:
nothing
you want me to give you a name
that's what some people call me
Kim Namjoon:
so, if I tried to find you with that name.. I could?
Nobody:
yes, you could
but you won't
Kim Namjoon:
and why wouldn't I do that?
Nobody:
because you won't like the result
Kim Namjoon:
what makes you so sure about that?
Nobody:
let's just say I belong to the kind of people you don't like
Kim Namjoon:
I don't believe you
Hobi
[ Nobody has been changed to Hobi ]
Hobi:
so, why did you text me?
Kim Namjoon:
does there need to be a reason?
Hobi:
I know there is
Kim Namjoon:
what if there isn't
Hobi:
you and Yoongi have been going separate paths today
something tells me you wanna talk about that
Kim Namjoon:
what the
how often do we actually see each other
Hobi:
I get to see you many times, but you always just look at Yoongi
which is kinda cute
Kim Namjoon:
is it that obvious?
Hobi:
what? that you like him a whole lot?
Kim Namjoon:
what??
no, I'm just watching out for him!
Hobi:
keep telling yourself that
Kim Namjoon:
what would you call it?
Hobi:
I would call it infatuation
Kim Namjoon:
he's my best friend
I don't like him that way
Hobi:
are you sure about that?
Kim Namjoon:
yes
Hobi:
okay, if you say so
Kim Namjoon:
he's pushing me away
Hobi:
why do you think so?
Kim Namjoon:
he doesn't see that we're growing apart
he always spends time with Jin
we work together, yes, but we barely talk
all we do is get high and complain together
Hobi:
about Jung Hoseok?
Kim Namjoon:
well, about him too
he also has a problem that I'm talking to you
Hobi:
that doesn't surprise me at all
he thinks I'm competition
Kim Namjoon:
competition?
for what?
Hobi:
your attention
Kim Namjoon:
what?
why?
Hobi:
up until now he was used to have your full attention
you texting me is probably driving him crazy
Kim Namjoon:
his behavior has started even before we started texting
Hobi:
there must have been a day that changed things
do you remember anything?
Kim Namjoon:
do you really think there's a reason that he started being distant?
Hobi:
people don't just change without a reason
Kim Namjoon:
even if there was
I don't remember a thing
Hobi:
he will come around
Kim Namjoon:
what if he won't?
Hobi:
don't worry about something that might never happen
Kim Namjoon:
I used to be the one with rational thinking
Hobi:
this is about Yoongi, so there's nothing rational for you about that
Kim Namjoon:
why do I feel like you want me to feel more than friendship for Yoongi?
Hobi:
I don't want anything
Kim Namjoon:
you sure about that?
Hobi:
actually, I am
Kim Namjoon:
I don't believe you
Hobi:
you don't have to
Kim Namjoon:
I honestly don't know what to do
Hobi:
he's your best friend, Namjoon
I'm sure he'll come around
just give him some time
Kim Namjoon:
how are you so sure about that?
Hobi:
because I heard him talking to one of his friends today
Kim Namjoon:
what did he say?
Hobi:
that he misses you
Kim Namjoon:
I miss him, too
Hobi:
I know you do
"I know you do." Hoseok muttered as he typed his last reply to Namjoon. He had no intention on dragging the conversation out any longer. He had honestly answered the slightly younger male, and he was sure Namjoon was feeling better. Maybe, at least a little. Hoseok smiled as he realized that he managed to maybe help the younger a little. That's all he ever wanted after all, helping those who were important to him.
"H-Hyung?" he heard his name being called from somewhere behind him. He tturned around to find Taehyung looking at him, leaning against the doorframe. He smiled softly as he watched the younger fidget with his hands.
"What's up, Tae?" Hoseok asked, beckoning the younger over to him. Taehyung didn't have to think twice about the invitation, almost running over to the older. Taehyung threw himself into his hyung's arms and Hoseok hugged him closely to his chest.
"Where's Jiminie?" he asked. Hoseok could hear the slight tremble in the younger's voice.
"I don't know, Taetae." Hoseok kissed the younger's temple. "I will ask him." he continued, already reaching for his phone again.
Taehyung turned slightly in his arms, looking up at him. Hoseok knew the younger was studying his face, but he decided to not comment on.
"Will you tell me why you cried?" Taehyung muttered, reaching up with one hand to wipe away the last tear that made its way down Hoseok's right cheek.
"It's not important."
ㅡ
[ private chat Hobihobi and Jiminie ]
Hobihobi:
Jiminie, where are you?
Jiminie:
did something happen?
Hobihobi:
no, I just wanted to know where you are
Jiminie:
well
I'm at the hospital
Hobihobi:
fuck!
did something happen to you!?
tell me who it was and I will kill them!
Jiminie:
ah, nonono hyung
don't worry, I'm fine
Hobihobi:
then what happened!?
Jiminie:
well, there might be something I forgot to tell you?
Hobihobi:
Jimin
Jiminie:
I know I know
Hobihobi:
spill
Jiminie:
do you remember last time I got you from the hospital?
Hobihobi:
yeah, you were gone for some time when I talked to the officer
Jiminie:
oh, you noticed?
Hobihobi:
what do you think
Jiminie:
okay, yeah, sorry
anyways, so Seokjin was there and I followed him
Hobihobi:
what the fuck!?
- why would he be there at that hour?
- why would you follow that asshole!?
Jiminie:
I wanted to scream into his face for what he did to Tae, but then I saw someone
Hobihobi:
someone?
Jiminie:
yeah, apparently Seokjin was there because of him
Hobihobi:
fuck
another one of Seokjin's boy toys?
Jiminie:
I don't think so
they seemed to brotherly with each other
Hobihobi:
so, is the boy his brother?
Jiminie:
no, they look nothing alike
and they have different names
Hobihobi:
maybe different mom or dad?
Jiminie:
I really don't think that they're related
Hobihobi:
what makes you think that?
Jiminie:
I don't know
I just got the feeling
Hobihobi:
Jimin
why are you there now?
Jiminie:
well, so maybe I've been coming here daily since I got you back then and well, maybe I'm watching him?
Hobihobi:
you mean stalking?
Jiminie:
no, nonono not stalking
of course not!
I would never do that!
Hobihobi:
you don't know him, but you're watching him every day?
Jiminie:
okay
so, can you please not laugh at me if I tell you something?
Hobihobi:
I'm sure we'll find out within the next minute
Jiminie:
hyung, I'm serious
Hobihobi:
me too
Jiminie:
ugh whatever
so, when I first saw him I felt like I need to be at his side?
Hobihobi:
like the love-at-first-sight kinda thingy?
you know I don't believe in that
Jiminie:
hyung, please
I don't know what it is, I just know that I want to spend my time with him
Hobihobi:
and because of that you decided to stalk him?
Jiminie:
he's a patient at a hospital
Hobihobi:
and?
Jiminie:
I can't just go talk to him
Hobihobi:
so, you want to keep stalking him until the right opportunity shows and then he'll look at you and fall in love and you'll have your happy ever after?
Jiminie:
sigh
I don't know what to do, hyung
Hobihobi:
I tell you what to do
Jiminie:
I'm listening
Hobihobi:
find out something that interests him, and then ask him about it like you were just passing by
smile that angelic smile of yours at him
nobody can resist that
Jiminie:
somewhere deep inside you slumbers a helpless romantic
you're so cute
Hobihobi:
everything cute about me is dead, Jiminie
Jiminie:
that's not true
Hobihobi:
whatever
Jiminie:
also, you do believe in it
Hobihobi:
in what?
Jiminie:
love at first sight
Hobihobi:
and as we both know it brings me nothing but pain
Jiminie:
so you still love them?
Hobihobi:
did I speak in the past tense?
Jiminie:
I'm so sorry, hyung
Hobihobi:
don't be
it's no use anyways
Chapter 5: 005
Notes:
well, hello there :) thanks for coming back.
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Chapter Text
[ private chat Min Yoongi and xxx-xxx-xxx ]
Min Yoongi:
will you stop texting Namjoon?
xxx-xxx-xxx:
you still have my number
Min Yoongi:
why wouldn't I?
thanks to you I have to fear for my best friend's safety on a daily basis
xxx-xxx-xxx:
don't worry
I would never hurt him
Min Yoongi:
how can I believe you?
for all I know you could be a creepy ass serial killer who's after Joon's kidneys
xxx-xxx-xxx:
exaggerating much
Min Yoongi:
you're a stranger to the both of us and Namjoon told me you wouldn't tell him who you are
xxx-xxx-xxx:
because there's no need for him or the both of you to know
Min Yoongi:
tell me your name at least
your real one
I already know what Namjoon calls you
xxx-xxx-xxx:
Hobi
Min Yoongi:
I told you to tell me your real name
xxx-xxx-xxx:
this is very much my real name
after all some of my friends call me that
Min Yoongi:
that's not good enough
xxx-xxx-xxx:
too bad because you won't get any more
Min Yoongi:
you're an asshole
xxx-xxx-xxx:
well, that's not my problem
[ xxx-xxx-xxx has been changed to Hobi ]
Min Yoongi:
wtf
then tell me what you talk about with Joons
Hobi:
stuff
listen, Min Yoongi, I won't talk with you about your best friend's secrets
Min Yoongi:
so, he tells you personal things
Hobi:
he does
Min Yoongi:
why would he do that?
you're a fucking stranger
Hobi:
I am, but I'm also a good listener and won't spill secrets
Min Yoongi:
how can he be so sure
damn, I don't understand why he would tell you his secrets
Hobi:
maybe if you'd spend more time with him, he would talk to you instead of me
Min Yoongi:
what the
we basically spend every day together, what even is his problem!?
Hobi:
the two of you should just talk, I'm sure that would help
Min Yoongi:
what do you mean?
Hobi:
I mean you two should talk?
like to each other?
Min Yoongi:
ha ha very funny
about what?
everything's just fine
Hobi:
if you say so
Min Yoongi:
what the fuck do you mean, 'Hobi'
Hobi:
whenever I see the both of you together, you're working, you're not even talking
Min Yoongi:
but we're together
Hobi:
like coworkers, not best friends
Min Yoongi:
we do talk
Hobi:
oh, do you?
Min Yoongi:
yeah
Hobi:
all I see you two do is look at each other whenever the other isn't looking
Min Yoongi:
wait
so, we actually know you?
Hobi:
no, you don't
Min Yoongi:
but you see us, which means your major must have at least something to do with music
Hobi:
maybe
maybe not
Min Yoongi:
will you ever tell us who you are?
Hobi:
I don't think so
and I don't believe it would be wise for me to do so anyways
Min Yoongi:
why?
Hobi:
I'm nobody
I have to go now, but if you ever want to talk to me then you can do so
Min Yoongi:
why do you do this?
Hobi:
because there's nothing else I can do
Min Yoongi:
I don't understand
ㅡ
[ private chat Jiminie and Taetae ]
Taetae:
Jiminie, is Hobi hyung still out?
Jiminie:
yeah, I think so
he told me he would work on his new track until late at night
Taetae:
Jiminie
I found him crying yesterday
Jiminie:
he cried? why??
Taetae:
he wouldn't tell me why
Jiminie:
a few nights ago he told me that he did something stupid
but he wouldn't tell me what either
maybe that's what he cried about
Taetae:
I haven't seen him crying in over a year
Jiminie:
me neither
I'm worried
Taetae:
me too
he also seems even more tired than he usually already is
Jiminie:
I think his insomnia is acting up again
Taetae:
isn't it 'acting up again' all the time?
Jiminie:
maybe we should try talk to him about therapy again?
Taetae:
you know how he is
he won't go, like ever
hell would have to freeze before he'd even consider going to therapy
Jiminie:
fuck I know
but the fights got more as well
he's in trouble all the time and I feel like he's doing it on purpose by now
Taetae:
do you think there's something he doesn't tell us?
Jiminie:
besides the stupid thing he apparently did not too long ago?
yeah
Taetae:
shit
we should talk to him
Jiminie:
you know him just as well as I do
he always tells everybody to just talk things out but he's the one never talking to anyone
expect for when he uses his fists
Taetae:
he knows better
Jiminie:
he does, but he doesn't care either
Taetae:
yeah..
uhm, could you do something for me?
Jiminie:
sure
what do you need?
Taetae:
could you go tell Yoongi to stop bothering me
Jiminie:
does he still want you to sing for him?
Taetae:
yeah
I don't want to but apparently my voice fits that new song of his so well and he needs it for a project?
Jiminie:
maybe you should just do it?
Taetae:
I don't want to help him
you know why
Jiminie:
yeah, because of Seokjin
Hobi threatened to hurt him
Taetae:
Hobi's the cutest <3
Jiminie:
what about me?
Taetae:
you're cute too!!
Jiminie:
I'll accept that
also, that night I got Hobi from the hospital I ran into Seokjin
Taetae:
oh?
Jiminie:
is me talking about him bothering you?
Taetae:
not really
go on
Jiminie:
I followed him
and then I saw an angel
an actual angel, Taetae
Taetae:
I need more details!
Jiminie:
wait, earlier I took a picture of him
Taetae:
show me show mE!!!
Jiminie:
Taetae:
wow
the quality of this picture is just wow
Jiminie:
not everyone can be a photography major
also, I was in a rush
Taetae:
omg why?
Jiminie:
I had to hide???
Taetae:
what? why??
did you two play hide and seek?
Jiminie:
no?
Taetae:
why were you hiding then?
Jiminie:
because I'm pretty sure he knows by now that I'm watching him?
like
daily?
Taetae:
wait
does he even know who you are?
Jiminie:
nope
Taetae:
you're a creepy creep
Jiminie:
he's so soft
I don't know how to talk to him
Taetae:
you could say hello instead of stalking him?
Jiminie:
I can't
Taetae:
ugh
do you know why he's in the hospital?
Jiminie:
not really
but I once overheard Seokjin talking about the nerves in his legs not working properly
Taetae:
poor boy
also, could we maybe not name Seokjin even though I was alright with us talking about him?
Jiminie:
I thought it didn't bother you
Taetae:
it does now
Jiminie:
okay then
I guess
Taetae:
what's his name?
Jiminie:
the one who shall not be named calls him Kookie
and I think his name is Jungkook
Taetae:
you think?
Jiminie:
yeah
actually I'm pretty sure
Taetae:
so, you're officially also a stalker of my ex
Jiminie:
I'm not
Taetae:
you totally are
Jiminie:
uhm
no?
Taetae:
you denying it doesn't make it any less true
Jiminie:
whatever
he's so cute, Tae
I think I'm in love
he looks so soft
Taetae:
what even is he to my ex?
Jiminie:
I don't know
Taetae:
actually
I think I know that boy
Jiminie:
wait
how!?
Taetae:
my ex once talked about him when we were at his place
and another time that boy came by
they started fighting and then my ex was gone for over an hour
Jiminie:
maybe that was when he took him to the hospital?
Taetae:
actually, I'm pretty sure the boy lives there
Jiminie:
what!?
Taetae:
I once heard Jin talking on the phone.. saying something along the lines of it being too dangerous for him to not be there
Jiminie:
my poor angel
Taetae:
you should talk to him, Jiminie
Jiminie:
Hobi hyung said so too
Taetae:
well, then you really should talk to the boy
what are you waiting for?
Jiminie:
the right moment?
I can't just go up to him and say hi
I mean I'm pretty sure he knows that I'm watching him??
Taetae:
then talk to him before he's completely weirded out by you
Jiminie:
you're like no help
Taetae:
my ex cheated in front of my eyes, telling me to 'not bitch so much about it'
I'm really not one to ask for relationship advice
or how to start one
or how to keep an actual boyfriend
Jiminie:
I'm so sorry for what he did to you
Taetae:
it wasn't even the first time
but, you know, who cares?
Jiminie:
I do
Hobi does too
Taetae:
I'm done with him
Jiminie:
are you?
Taetae:
could we like talk about flowers now? or about the project I have to do for that one class?
Jiminie:
who's gonna be it this time?
Taetae:
I think I'll go with both of you this time
I wanted Jin to do it with me
but, oh well
Jiminie:
sigh
okay
Taetae:
will you talk to Yoongi?
Jiminie:
yeah..
Notes:
the real question here is if Yoonie and Joonie will ever realize who Hobi is.. ah, that's gonna be so much fun to write.. or not.
Chapter 6: 006
Notes:
i'm back! don't know if that's a good thing tho..
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
[ private chat Hobi and Kim Namjoon ]
Kim Namjoon:
hey
do you have some time rn?
Hobi:
I'm in class but it's alright
Kim Namjoon:
I don't want to bother you tho
Hobi:
I told you it's alright
Kim Namjoon:
what class do you have?
Hobi:
'do squirrels purposely hide their nuts on mars? or is it just a clever way to make sharks believe they can fly? - an introduction'
Kim Namjoon:
...
so
you won't tell me about your lectures either?
Hobi:
do you wanna learn about squirrels hiding their nuts on mars?
I think they don't, but it would explain a lot
like why they forget where they hid them before winter arrived and shit
also, flying sharks?
I'm not sure, but it does sound like something that could be real
Kim Namjoon:
are you fucking kidding me?
Hobi:
nope
this is a serious issue
Kim Namjoon:
can't you be serious about this?
Hobi:
that's right genius
Kim Namjoon:
okay
I already hate this
why won't you tell me who you are?
Hobi:
I just don't want to
enough about squirrels on mars and flying sharks
I think you wanted to talk to me?
Kim Namjoon:
yeah
I wanted to ask you if you could do me a favor?
Hobi:
depends
who do you want me to kill?
or just hurt slightly?
I can do both too, but it will cost you..
Kim Namjoon:
you know I can just go fuck off too
Hobi:
you could
but alone it's just half of the fun
Kim Namjoon:
why did I text you again?
Hobi:
nah, lecture's just really boring and I felt like being a dick for a sec
Kim Namjoon:
noticed
Hobi:
what do you want from me?
Kim Namjoon:
could you listen to one of my new tracks and tell me what you think about it?
Hobi:
are you serious?
Kim Namjoon:
as serious as I possibly can be
Hobi:
that mustn't be that serious then
Kim Namjoon:
honestly
why do I even bother asking you asshole
Hobi:
whoa
there are kids around Kim Namjoon
Kim Namjoon:
omg fuck off
Hobi:
as I said: only half of the fun
Kim Namjoon:
seriously
can you do that for me?
Hobi:
yeah, I can
but why don't you ask Yoongi?
isn't that what you usually do?
Kim Namjoon:
yup
but lately I don't feel like showing him my stuff
he has way much too do anyways
Hobi:
the smell of sarcasm
I love it
Kim Namjoon:
seriously
all he does is work on his own shit
bullshit the stuff we usually do together
and then go hang out with Kim fucking Seokjin
Hobi:
'hang out'
I'm sure they do
Kim Namjoon:
so you think they're hooking up too?
Hobi:
nah, I'm not sure
I was only told that there may or may not have happened something between them at that party
Kim Namjoon:
Jin was drunk off his ass
he even forgot his boyfriend was there
Hobi:
his ex
Kim Namjoon:
ex?
so Taehyung really broke up with him?
Hobi:
he sure did
Kim Namjoon:
I was there too
but I can't remember shit besides watching Yoongi and Jin cling to each other like newly weds
Hobi:
it annoys you, doesn't it?
Kim Namjoon:
as much as I hate it but yes
it really does annoy me
Hobi:
because of the Jin part or the Yoongi part
Kim Namjoon:
Yoongi part
as much as I love Jin as a friend, I couldn't care less about who he plays with
Hobi:
you don't want Yoongi to be heartbroken huh?
Kim Namjoon:
I don't want him to get hurt at all
but it would be nice if somebody could hit him in the face with a chair because he's bullshitting our whole project and it's even more work now than before we started working on it in the first place
Hobi:
so you want him to get hurt?
Kim Namjoon:
just this once
I need his brain
Hobi:
and his attention
obviously
Kim Namjoon:
what do you mean?
Hobi:
you're jealous and want him to yourself
Kim Namjoon:
you make it sound like I'm a jealous ex-girlfriend
Hobi:
ex-boyfriend
Kim Namjoon:
honestly
what the fuck?
Hobi:
what?
you used to have all his attention, and suddenly there's another boy he's interested in
sounds like a jealous ex-boyfriend to me
Kim Namjoon:
maybe Jin's just his side hoe and he'll come crying back to me once I start ignoring him
are you fucking serious rn??
Hobi:
sure
try that
I wouldn't mind Kim Seokjin being hurt for once
Kim Namjoon:
okay
let's go through all this again
Hobi:
sure
you question, I answer
Kim Namjoon:
do you think Yoongi's into guys?
Hobi:
I know he never had an girlfriend, just one night stands with girls and I've only been told about that
however, I know he did some things with boys
he might just be bi
or curious
Kim Namjoon:
how would you know?
Hobi:
saw it
Kim Namjoon:
when?
Hobi:
several occasions
mainly when he was drunk tho
Kim Namjoon:
okay, good enough
do you think he and Jin are hooking up?
Hobi:
could be
they're close so it surely is possible, but who can tell for sure?
Kim Namjoon:
why do you call me an jealous ex-boyfriend?
Hobi:
...
isn't it obvious?
Kim Namjoon:
no?
Hobi:
sigh
you're totally into him and you can't deal with the fact that he's giving another man his attention
additionally to that he's messing up the things u do together, the time you spend together, limiting it to the time you have to spend together
Kim Namjoon:
I'm so not into him
Hobi:
go on, keep lying to yourself
honestly
to me it looks like you're into him and he's into you, but he has no idea how to deal with it so he's seeking out another guy to make sure it's just his imagination
Kim Namjoon:
this sounds like copied from the description of a teenage love novel
Hobi:
it surely feels like one
Kim Namjoon:
I'm not into him
and he's not into me
Hobi:
as I said
keep lying to yourself
Kim Namjoon:
what even makes you believe you can other people's feelings so accurately?
Hobi:
various psychology lectures, criminal minds and not being blind
Kim Namjoon:
I'm sure you dropped all those psychology lectures after two weeks of sleeping in class
Hobi:
that's right
and due to that I'm absolutely qualified to tell you what you two are feeling
Kim Namjoon:
criminal minds is a legit source tho
Hobi:
obviously, duh
Kim Namjoon:
you didn't just
'duh'
lmao
Hobi:
laugh at me
but don't come crying to me when Yoongi breaks your little lovesick heart
Kim Namjoon:
fuck
what if you're right?
Hobi:
if I was you I would start thinking about the possibility that love is in the air
on both ends
Kim Namjoon:
fuck
fuck
f u c k
F u C K
F ÜÜÜÜÜ CK
Hobi:
no matter how many times you write fuck
it won't get any better
Kim Namjoon:
what am I even supposed to do????????????????????????????ßß
Hobi:
talk?
you can't do anything besides talk to him
Kim Namjoon:
he'll just laugh at me and tell me off
Hobi:
you can also get him drunk and make out with him
that surely does work magic
Kim Namjoon:
sounds like you have experience
Hobi:
I surely wasn't the reason they were drunk, but it was fun in the end anyways
I have to thank whoever made them drink so much they can't remember shit
Kim Namjoon:
ugh
not remembering a night sucks a whole lot
Hobi:
I can imagine
Kim Namjoon:
aaaaaah what do I do????????
Hobi:
you could also ask Kim Seokjin if there's something going on between them
Kim Namjoon:
okay
maybe later this week
first I need to wrap my head around the idea of being in love with Yoongi
Hobi:
wow
that sounds serious
Kim Namjoon:
it was your fucking idea
anyways
why do you dislike Jin so much?
Hobi:
he hurt my best friend
Kim Namjoon:
wait
do you mean Taehyung?
Hobi:
I told you me and him are friends
didn't I?
Kim Namjoon:
how come I don't know you then?
Hobi:
who knows, Kim Namjoon
send me that song of yours
I need to get to my next class now and I have a little bit of time
Kim Namjoon:
[new_song.mp3 attached]
thanks
Hobi:
np
Notes:
it actually wasn't Hobi feeling like being a sarcastic asshole, that was just me. i love sarcasm........ and sometimes being an asshole.
(as we all know due to the shit i write, lol.)
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[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
wtf do you think you're doing?
Joons:
what do you mean?
Yoongs:
sending your new song to that weird guy you don't even know
Joons:
I can send my songs to whoever I want
Yoongs:
wtf
you don't even know him
Joons:
and?
Yoongs:
and
and??
what do you think??
Joons:
what is your problem?
Yoongs:
that guy is my problem
you don't know him
why would you send your song to him
Joons:
he had some time to listen to it so I sent it to him
Yoongs:
he probably doesn't have an ounce of understanding for good music
Joons:
maybe
but his critic would still be helpful
and he had time
Yoongs:
why do you keep on mentioning time??
Joons:
what?
he had some free time so I sent it to him
what's the big deal?
Yoongs:
that you sent it to a person you don't even know
he could use it and say he edited the song
Joons:
yeah
because he would do such a thing
Yoongs:
you
don't
know
him
if it's even a him.. or a guy who's really a student at our uni
Joons:
come on, Yoongi
what's your real problem?
Yoongs:
okay
wtf do you mean?
Joons:
could it be that you're mad because I sent it to him rather than you?
Yoongs:
wtf why would I care?
you can do with your shit whatever you want
Joons:
good
so what's the point of you complaining?
Yoongs:
my point is that you don't know him
Joons:
you're not making any sense, Yoongs
you just said that you couldn't care less
make up your mind
Yoongs:
why would you even text him
he's a stranger
probably some crazy ass, looking for attention and picking the both of us because he's such a loser
Joons:
okay, so honestly?
I wouldn't even care
he listens and actually he never texts me first
I honestly think that he's just a normal guy and some random idiot thought it would be fun to write his number on hour arms
Yoongs:
I mean you could be right
Joons:
obviously
Yoongs:
but why won't he tell you or us who he is?????
Joons:
I don't know
and frankly I don't even care anymore
Yoongs:
why?
Joons:
as I already mentioned
he actually has some time for me
Yoongs:
what's that supposed to mean??
could you stop talking about time again and again
Joons:
it means that you don't have time
bullshit our projects
and fuck with Kim Seokjin
Yoongs:
what
what??
and WHAT????
Joons:
what?
it's how it is and I'd rather spend my time talking to sb who doesn't run away the second we don't have to work together anymore
Yoongs:
I never bullshit anything related to music, you asshole
I don't fuck with Jin and I surely don't run away
Joons:
u huh
sure
of course
can you smell the sarcasm too?
because I can
Yoongs:
wtaf????
what's your problem man
Joons:
my problem is that you never have time for me and actually run away each single fucking time
Yoongs:
I never did that
Joons:
how do you even know I sent him the song?
Yoongs:
I watched you doing it?
Joons:
how come you keep watching me, but then always run away?
Yoongs:
I fucking never run from anything or anyone
Joons:
you know what?
sure
you're right
Yoongs:
Joons, you need to tell me
Joons?
Namjoon?
bro, I don't get it
what's your problem
and why would you even think that I fuck Jin???
Joons??
ㅡ
[ group chat TRINITY OF CHAOS ]
Hobi:
so, I think we have a problem guys
Taetae:
what do you mean??
problem???????
Jiminie:
okay, I wanted to keep a cool head but for whatever reason Taetae just managed to make me feel threatened?
Hobi:
so, I came home about 10 minutes ago
Taetae:
uhoh
Jiminie
Jiminie:
yeah, Tae
I know
Taetae:
do you think he noticed??
Hobi:
and the last 7 minutes I have been cooling down my head
Jiminie:
...
I think he did
Taetae:
then we're toast
Jiminie:
oh, we're so toast
Hobi:
you're damn right
what did you even think???
leaving the apartment like that!?
Taetae:
I swear the pizza was already on the floor when we got home
Hobi:
sure
and you didn't think picking it up would be a good idea?
Jiminie:
oh, and the clothes have been there all week long so I guess that's not a big problem then, right??
Hobi:
last week you told me you would do the laundry
last monday you told me you would do the laundry
this morning you told me so too
Taetae:
Jiminie
I think you'll be toast before me
Jiminie:
I think so too
listen, I'm sorry I didn't do it yet
Hobi:
the thing I really don't understand is why our clothes are spread all over the apartment
Jiminie:
hahaha
you know, funny story!!
Kookie texted me to come visit him, so I did and yeah, hahaha
Taetae:
I know I should feel sorry for the pizza thingy
but right now I AM JUST SHOCKED!?
HOW COULD YOU NOT TELL US THAT YOU MOVED ON WITH THAT KOOKIE GUY!?
Hobi:
the guy Kim Seokjin keeps on visiting?
Jiminie:
yeah
uhm, we kinda are friends now??
Taetae:
HOW DID THAT HAPPEN!? AND WHEN!? AND WHERE!?
Hobi:
okay, Tae is excited
keep on talking
Jiminie:
well, I may have run into him when I was actually running away from him, trying to hide
and I may have tripped over him in his wheel chair
and he may have looked down on me, asking something like "hey, so you finally stopped running?"
and then I kinda wanted to cry, but he smiled down on me like the angel he is and I just had to smile and then we talked for some time and then he gave me his number and now we're texting
and that may have happened last week
and it could be that I'm visiting him every day now??
Hobi:
that are a whole lot of ands
did you run out of other words to connect/start your sentences
Taetae:
give him a break, hyung
he's high on Kookies
Hobi:
on one special Kookie you mean
Taetae:
that wasn't even funny but I'm laughing anyways
Jiminie:
ersiously?
you won't even jump on the fact that I tripped over him in his wheel chair
Hobi:
nope
Taetae:
not even the slightest bit surprised
Hobi:
it was bound to happen sooner or later
Jiminie:
what??
embarrassing myself like that??
Hobi:
you always do shit like that
Taetae:
honestly, nobody is surprised
Hobi:
are you with him now?
Jiminie:
I am
and I'm afraid our friendship is in danger
Taetae:
why?
Jiminie:
because my two best friends are jerks
Hobi:
oh, what a surprise
Jiminie:
I hate the both of you
Taetae:
we love you too <3 <3 <3
now go back to your lover boy
Jiminie:
he's not my lover
Taetae:
but you want him to be
Jiminie:
I don't even know if he's into guys
Taetae:
well then find out?
Jiminie:
what do you think I'm doing??
Taetae:
wasting your time??
Jiminie:
...
I really do hate you
Hobi:
and I am contemplating looking for new roommates
cause mine suck
Taetae:
yeah sure we all know you need to get laid
Jiminie:
...
Hobi:
Jimin, I think we really do need a new roommate
Jiminie:
how about Kookie???
Hobi:
nope
I won't listen to you doing shit
also, this kid means Seokjin isn't far as well so nope
Jiminie:
:(((((
Hobi:
that won't work on me
Jiminie:
I know
but I still wanted to try
Taetae:
I am incredibly sorry
Hobi:
yeah
I thought so too
Taetae:
so
is that pizza still lying around?
I'm kinda hungry
Jiminie:
...
Hobi:
seriously
I need new roommates
Notes:
hello, it's me. i was wondering if after all these chapters you'd like to tell me if you like the story? :D
just imagine the song still fits the text..
forgive me..
please?..
me: -being hobi-
you: -being jiminie-
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[ private chat Jiminie and Kookie ]
Kookie:
hyung, good morning
Jiminie:
good morning Kookie
how did you sleep?
Kookie:
good :)
Jiminie:
that's nice
^___^ maybe me being with you all afternoon did help you
Kookie:
it sure did
you kept me busy and my mind off things
thanks for that again, hyung
Jiminie:
for you always, dear Kookie
Kookie:
I still can't believe you ditched your best friends and university work for me
Jiminie:
well, one has got to set priorities in life
Kookie:
so
I'm a priority??
Jiminie:
most definitely
Kookie:
that's nice, hyung
but please don't forget about yourself and the things you actually have to do instead of bearing with me
Jiminie:
I'm not bearing with you
I enjoy being with you
Kookie:
anyways
I wanted to ask you something..
Jiminie:
shoot
Kookie:
did you leave all of a sudden because of Jinnie hyung yesterday??
Jiminie:
well yeah to be honest I did
Kookie:
may I ask why??
Jiminie:
I know he means a lot to you.. but I just don't like him..
Kookie:
he's such a nice guy
I don't understand how anybody's able to dislike him
Jiminie:
I know he's something like a brother to you
and I'm pretty sure he wants to keep you safe and sound, so he doesn't show you what he's really like..
or can be
Kookie:
what did he do to you?
besides you he really is the nicest person I know
well, except for my parents!!
Jiminie:
I don't wanna lie to you uuuuugh
he hurt one of my best friends real bad
Kookie:
what?
which one?? did you show me pictures of them???
wait!
Imma go check out instagram!!
Jiminie:
chill, boi
he hurt my dear Tae baby
Kookie:
the one with the boxy smile??
Jiminie:
that's the one
Kookie:
what did Jinnie hyung do??
Jiminie:
I think it's better if you ask him that yourself
Kookie:
why would he hurt him??
Jiminie:
believe me
I would love to know too
Kookie:
it's hard for me to believe that my hyung could hurt anybody
I never ever saw him kill a spider
he always saves them
he's like an angel
Jiminie:
he does look like an angel
Kookie:
he's so soft and caring
it's really hard to believe that he could hurt anyone
Jiminie:
I'm sorry, Kookie
I didn't want you to doubt your hyung
I'm sure he's nice to and around you
Kookie:
do you think it would be weird if I ask him rn?
Jiminie:
he saw me with you
I guess he wouldn't even be surprised if you ask him what happened
Kookie:
mmh maybe
ㅡ
[ private chat Lord Jin and Kookles ]
Kookles:
hey hyung
Lord Jin:
hey little one
how are you feeling?
Kookles:
I'm fine, don't worry
Jiminie's a great way to get my mind off of all this shit
Lord Jin:
I noticed he's come visit you a few times now
Kookles:
yeah, he's great
Lord Jin:
I'm glad the both of you get along so well
Kookles:
I wish I could spend time with the both of you
at the same time
Lord Jin:
well, I guess that's not an option
Jimin and me aren't on 'friend' terms
Kookles:
yeah, he mentioned it to me once
Lord Jin:
I'm sure he told you just the best things about me
Kookles:
actually, he didn't really tell me anything
except for the fact that you hurt his best friend
I don't even know what you did
Lord Jin:
so he didn't rant about me to you?
Kookles:
no?
why would he do that?
Lord Jin:
because he's mad
Kookles:
I guess he is..
you really hurt his best friend?
Lord Jin:
I did
Kookles:
I can't imagine you hurting anybody
Lord Jin:
yeah, well I did
Kookles:
why would you hurt him?
did he hurt you before?
Jiminie told me Tae can be a little.. extra sometimes?
Lord Jin:
nah, both Tae and Jimin are fine
it really was me who hurt Tae
Kookles:
Tae
you never use nicknames for people you don't reaaaaaally like
Lord Jin:
...
that's not true
Kookles:
it's true
I think the only people you actually use nicknames for are Yoongi hyung and Namjoon hyung
well, and me
Lord Jin:
I never noticed
Kookles:
so, what about Tae?
why did you hurt him? and what did you do?
Lord Jin:
I've been in a relationship with him
Kookles:
...oh
Lord Jin:
yeah, oh
Kookles:
did it get in the way again?
Lord Jin:
it did
but this time it's different
Kookles:
different how?
Lord Jin:
I can't get over it..
over what I did to him
Kookles:
Jiminie told me Tae genuinely liked you
he didn't tell me any details, but as far as I know he and their other best friend had to make sure he was eating for several days
Lord Jin:
that bad?
fuck
I screwed up
Kookles:
how bad did you screw up?
I'm sure it can't be that bad
Lord Jin:
even though you know about all my past relationships??
Kookles:
yeah
Lord Jin:
we were at a party
and I did things right in front of him with another guy
Kookles:
you cheated on him?
right in front of him????
Lord Jin:
yeah
Kookles:
hyung
why would you do that?
Lord Jin:
I don't know
I was just so afraid
and it just happened
Kookles:
did you apologize??
Lord Jin:
nope
Kookles:
hyung!!
you need to apologize!!
you can't just hurt him like that and then make yourself hurt!
I mean apparently he means something to you
Lord Jin:
god, he does
Kookles:
I knew you two spent a lot of time together from the times I've seen him at your place
but I never imagined it to be such a deep and serious thing
Lord Jin:
I never intended it to be 'deep' or 'serious'
it just kinda happened
and then I just slipped into my usual paradigm
and now he's gone
Kookles:
hyung..
Lord Jin:
I really thought I could change for him
apparently I can't
Kookles:
you can still change for him
Lord Jin:
I cheated on him while he was sitting right beside me
I'm not sure there's something left for me to save or change for
Kookles:
you can still try
Lord Jin:
ah, my dear Kookie
you're too sweet and innocent for this world
Kookles:
that's because I'm stuck in hospitals all my life long
Lord Jin:
we'll get through this, Kookie
Kookles:
maybe, I don't really care anymore
Lord Jin:
what about Jimin?
Kookles:
he's nice
I really like him
Lord Jin:
like ;)))
Kookles:
stahhhhhhhpppp!!!!!!!!!!
Lord Jin:
what?
I didn't say a thing
Kookles:
sure
anyways, you really should apologize to Tae
Lord Jin:
maybe I will
ㅡ
[ private chat Hobi and Min Yoongi ]
Min Yoongi:
hey
Hobi:
what did I do wrong this time?
Min Yoongi:
sigh
a hello back would have been nice tho
Hobi:
usually out conversations start wth you complaining to me about me
or Namjoon
Min Yoongi:
mhm maybe
Hobi:
sigh
what's up?
Min Yoongi:
I want to know more about you
Hobi:
where's that coming from?
Min Yoongi:
listen
Namjoon won't really talk to me atm and he seems to like you and I thought I'd just text you and get to know you
Hobi:
whipped fucker
Min Yoongi:
what the fuck
Hobi:
sure
get to know me
Min Yoongi:
so what's your major
Hobi:
okay, before we start all this
don't ask me about my name or my studies or whatever
I won't reveal myself to either one of you
Min Yoongi:
but you told Joons about your best friends
and he knows them
Hobi:
that's right
but my best friends have a lot of friends so that's not really a problem
Min Yoongi:
why won't you tell us who you are?'
Hobi:
I have my reasons
didn't I tell you that already?
Min Yoongi:
might have mentioned it
Hobi:
great then
Min Yoongi:
what are you afraid of?
Hobi:
myself
anyways, getting to know each other?
Min Yoongi:
Joons sent you one of his songs, right?
Hobi:
he did
Min Yoongi:
what was it like?
Hobi:
he didn't show you?
Min Yoongi:
no, he didn't
Hobi:
I'm not sure if I'm allowed to talk about it
Min Yoongi:
well, that's okay
mind listening to one of mine too?
Hobi:
what??
why the sudden change of mind?
Min Yoongi:
I'm just curious what you think, say and feel about it
if it's okay for me then I guess you can't be such a bad person
Hobi:
I don't know if I should relieved or offended
Min Yoongi:
[nevermind.mp3 attached]
do as you please
Hobi:
okay
I'll listen to it
Min Yoongi:
thank you
Hobi:
sure
Notes:
finally some Seokjin. I was waiting for this :)
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[ private chat Hobi and Kim Namjoon ]
Kim Namjoon:
Hobi
you have some time?
Hobi:
sorry, Namjoon
I'll text you later
Kim Namjoon:
oh, sorry
did want to bother you
Hobi:
you're not bothering me
I'm just at work
Kim Namjoon:
what do you work as?
Hobi:
later, Namjoon
I have a shift now
Kim Namjoon:
oh
yeah, sure
ㅡ
[ private chat Hobihobi and Jiminie ]
Jiminie:
okay
where the fuck are you!?
Hobihobi:
at work
where else would I be at this hour?
Jiminie:
wtf
Hoseok
Hobihobi:
that's my name
Jiminie:
didn't you promise to stop!?
Hobihobi:
I never promised to stop
after all I need the money
Jiminie:
you do realize you could just get a normal job like the mortal rest of us???????
Hobihobi:
sure
but what's the fun in that?
Jiminie:
it doesn't have to make fun
it's important that you don't get yourself almost killed over and over and fucking over again
Hobihobi:
calm down, Jiminie
you know I'm careful
Jiminie:
you're a freakin idiot!!
me and Tae are sitting at home, waiting for you
we're always so damn worried about you
Hobihobi:
I already told you
if I could afford it I would move out
Jiminie:
this isn't about you fuckin moving out
you know we want you to live with us
Hobihobi:
yeah
sure
Jiminie:
Jung Hoseok
Hobihobi:
anyways
you're gonna have to wait a while longer until I'm home
Jiminie:
fuck, no
you're not gonna fuckin participate in another round
Hobihobi:
nah
I can't really anyways
Jiminie:
what do you mean?
Hobihobi:
I'm at the ER again
Jiminie:
I seriously feel like killing you myself
Hobihobi:
go for it
I don't really have a problem with that
Jiminie:
god damn it
why do you have to be so addicted to dying!?
Hobihobi:
pretty sure that's not possible
Jiminie:
SHUT UP
IM GONNA GET YOU
Hobihobi:
I can just take the bus
Jiminie:
nope
noooope
already omw down
Hobihobi:
sure
whatever you want
Jiminie:
be nice and don't get yourself into even more shit
Hobihobi:
sure
ㅡ
[ private chat Hobi and Kim Namjoon ]
Kim Namjoon:
it's been almost five hours
are you free now?
Hobi:
oh, sorry I forgot to text you
Kim Namjoon:
did something happen?
Hobi:
no, not really
Kim Namjoon:
what do you mean not really?
Hobi:
had to go to the emergency room
again
Kim Namjoon:
what do you mean again!?
are you okay!?
Hobi:
yeah, nothing too bad
I'll be okay in no time
Kim Namjoon:
why again tho!?
Hobi:
happens all the time
Kim Namjoon:
what the fuck are you working as!?
Hobi:
too many ! and ?
Kim Namjoon:
seriously
Hobi
Hobi:
don't worry about it
Kim Namjoon:
aw, come on
Hobi:
Namjoon
I don't really wanna talk about it
I mean about my work
Kim Namjoon:
mhm
guess, I can't make you talk to me
Hobi:
we can talk about literally anything else
Kim Namjoon:
is anybody gonna come get you?
Hobi:
yeah
a friend of mine's gonna come get me home
Kim Namjoon:
somebody I know
Hobi:
mhm, pretty sure you do
Kim Namjoon:
but you're not gonna tell me who, right?
Hobi:
it doesn't really matter
how are things with Yoongi?
Kim Namjoon:
I don't really know
I miss spending time with him and I think he does too
Hobi:
I'm sure he does
Kim Namjoon:
what makes you so sure about that?
Hobi:
he sent me a song of his, pretty awesome
the lyrics were pretty depressing
and abut missing somebody he really likes
or loves
Kim Namjoon:
could be anyone
Hobi:
pretty sure it's about you
Kim Namjoon:
why?
Hobi:
he does mention his best friend
and as far as I know that's you
Kim Namjoon:
oh
okay
Hobi:
yeah
Kim Namjoon:
I had no idea
also, stop giving me hope
Hobi:
about what?
Kim Namjoon:
about him liking me back
Hobi:
so, you finally accepted that you like him
Kim Namjoon:
maybe
Hobi:
sigh
Kim Namjoon:
okay
yeah, I accepted the possibility that I might be in love with my best friend
Hobi:
might
Kim Namjoon:
okay, that I am in love
Hobi:
better
I think it's funny how the both of you keep writing songs about each other without the other realizing
Kim Namjoon:
so, you noticed I mentioned him in my tracks before?
Hobi:
obviously
Kim Namjoon:
I didn't think it would be so obvious
Hobi:
I think to the general public it's not
you have to really listen and watch to understand
Kim Namjoon:
sometimes it's actually a little creepy how you're able to read us
without either of us noticing
Hobi:
it's part of my job
so, I'm used to doing it
Kim Namjoon:
I really wanna know about your job
Hobi:
you won't
like
ever
Kim Namjoon:
why tho?
Hobi:
it's better like that
and it makes sure that neither of you realizes who I am
Kim Namjoon:
you have to get rid of that 'precaution' of yours
Hobi:
nah
it keeps me safe
Kim Namjoon:
you sure about that?
Hobi:
okay
Jimin just arrived
gotta go
Kim Namjoon:
Jimin, huh?
Hobi:
yeah
bye
Kim Namjoon:
bye..
ㅡ
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Joons:
Hobi told me you sent him a song of yours
Yoongs:
yeah, I did
did he say anything about it to you?
Joons:
just that he really liked it
and that it's got interesting lyrics
Yoongs:
interesting, huh?
it's the same I always use
Joons:
he mentioned something about them sounding quite depressing
Yoongs:
mhm, possible
Joons:
are you okay, Yoongs?
Yoongs:
I'm generally okay
just feeling a little weird lately
Joons:
why?
Yoongs:
I'm honestly not sure
I don't even know how to put it into words
Joons:
you know
I'm here for you if you ever wanna talk about it
Yoongs:
thanks, bro
Joons:
sure thing
Yoongs:
so
are you free today after classes end?
Joons:
yeah
just planned on going to the studio
Yoongs:
yeah, let's meet there
Joons:
alright
Yoongs:
tfghhhhhhhhh
sorry
Joons:
what the
what happened
Yoongs:
that fucking Jung ass walked into me
Joons:
wtf
Yoongs:
can't he just look where he's going
fucking asshole
Joons:
I saw him this morning
seemed like he's gotten himself into some shit again
Yoongs:
I seriously don't even wanna know what
fucking idiot should just watch where he's going
like
I was busy texting
Joons:
maybe, somebody kicked his ass
would explain why he'd run into you
Yoongs:
yeah
fuck
Joons:
seriously
what's his problem
he walks around like he owns the fuckin university
Yoongs:
yeah
and at the same time he's dragging our reputation down
like wtf
we're not working this hard for nothing
Joons:
I'm so done with this shit
also
I just walked past the studios
apparently he'll be there later too
Yoongs:
fuck this shit
I swear if he just breathes into my direction I will hurt him
Joons:
it's not like he'd feel it
Yoongs:
still worth it
Joons:
haha yeah
Notes:
uhm, I guess this chapter's shorter than the others but yeah :D it's an update.
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Chapter 10: 010
Notes:
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Chapter Text
[ private chat Jimjams and Jooner ]
Jooner:
Jiminie cricket
Jimjams:
hey Jooner
Jooner:
could I ask you something real quick?
Jimjams:
sure
but, it you want me to sing for you again then you should have told me sooner
this week is crazy
Jooner:
nope
not that
Jimjams:
oh?
too bad
Jooner:
I'm sure I'll need ur voice again soon enough
Jimjams:
sure
so, what's up?
Jooner:
do you know a certain Hobi?
Jimjams:
of course I do o.o
why would you even ask me that?
Jooner:
just checking
Jimjams:
why?
Jooner:
he told me you were friends and I just wanted to make sure he isn't lying to me
Jimjams:
he isn't
he's my best friend
Jooner:
okay then
that's all I wanted to know
Jimjams:
why wouldn't you believe him tho?
Jooner:
well, it's not like he's telling me who he is or whatever
all I know is that he's your and Tae's friend
Jimjams:
oh dear
what is he doing now
Jooner:
???
Jimjams:
nothing
Jooner:
u sure?
Jimjams:
ah, yeah
wrong chat
Jooner:
I don't believe you
Jimjams:
hey, yeah
gotta go
have a class now
Jooner:
uhm
sure
ㅡ
[ private chat Hobihobi and Jiminie ]
Jiminie:
what the fuck are you doing?
Hobihobi:
???
Jiminie:
that whole 'not telling Namjoon who I am' shit
Hobihobi:
huh
how do you know about it
Jiminie:
he just asked me if we really were friends
wtf, Hobi
what the hell are you doing!?
Hobihobi:
huh, interesting
nothing
Jiminie:
doesn't look like nothing to me
Hobihobi:
there's a lot of shit going on okay
Jiminie:
yeah
well
I know
I'm your best friend
we live at the same apartment
do you really think I wouldn't notice shit when it's in front of me
Hobihobi:
u usually don't
Jiminie:
fuck
Hoseok
Hobihobi:
it's just nice to talk to them normally
Jiminie:
what the fuck
Hobihobi:
you know how much they hate me
Jiminie:
yeah
I also know how much you're in love with them
Hobihobi:
they're in love with each other
Jiminie:
what???
Hobihobi:
yeah, Namjoon acknowledged it
Yoongi didn't get the message yet tho
Jiminie:
what
the
fuck
are
you
doing
Hobihobi:
helping them get together
Jiminie:
by playing someone you're not????
Hobihobi:
how else am I supposed to do it?
they're blind
I want them to be happy
Jiminie:
they're assholes to you
for no reason at all
and you just love them so much
and I don't get it
Hobihobi:
you know they're assholes and yet you're friends with them
it's the same thing, just green
Jiminie:
it's not the same thing
you love them
love
Hosoek, that's something completely different
Hobihobi:
it's not
Jiminie:
it is
and you're ruining yourself
Hobihobi:
as if I care
I'm doing it day after day after day
it's nothing new
Jiminie:
there's a difference in hurting mentally and physically
Hobihobi:
both things hurt
both things turn numb after some time
so, what should I care about all that shit
Jiminie:
I can't believe this
I need to get Tae into this
maybe he can talk some sense into you
Hobihobi:
sure
why not
ㅡ
[ group chat TRINITY OF CHAOS ]
Jiminie:
Tae
help
Taetae:
what's the matte?
Jiminie:
Hobi's texting Yoongi and Namjoon without telling them who he is
he wants them to be happy or some shit
Taetae:
oh, Hobi
why would you do that?
you love them so much..
Jiminie:
that's what I told him
he'll just ruin himself
Hobi:
hey
thanks for the nice words, bros
Taetae:
you're a fool if you believe you'll get out of this without any shitty side effects :/
Hobi:
already in too deep
Jiminie:
obviously
god
what did you think!?
Hobi:
honestly?
just that they need to be happy
they make each other happy
the way they look at each other
it's so nice to watch
Taetae:
it's one thing to watch
but another to wish to be part of it
Hobi:
I would never wish for such a thing
Jiminie:
as if
me and Tae both know how often you get lost in your daydreams
Hobi:
listen
Yoongi will be graduating in like two semesters
Namjoon and I still have 3 more to go after this one
that's not that long
I'll be okay
Jiminie:
do you really think you'll be able to hide this from them for that long?
Taetae:
they might hate you more if they find out..
Hobi:
I don't care if they find out one day
I just want them to be happy together
the rest can go fuck off
Jiminie:
Hobi
you are the rest..
Hobi:
yeah
whatever
I'll go fuck off if they find out
Taetae:
I hate what you're doing
Jiminie:
me too
Hobi:
uhm, yeah
sure
also, gotta go to the studio now
Taetae:
Hobi
I want you to stop this
Hobi:
bye
ㅡ
[ private chat Jimjams and Jooner ]
Jimjams:
Jooner
you have to promise me something
Jooner:
welcome back
sure
what is is?
Jimjams:
if you ever find out who Hobi is
please, don't hate him
Jooner:
why would I?
Jiminie:
just sayin..
Jooner:
yeah
sure
ㅡ
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
Joons
he's here
Joons:
fuck
yeah, I'll be there in five min
Yoongs:
hurry damn it
don't wanna be alone with him for so long
who knows, maybe he starts hitting me
Joons:
I don't think he would, but sure
I'm gonna hurry
ㅡ
Yoongs:
do you see that?
Joons:
what?
Yoongs:
the way he's nodding his head to whatever he's listening to?
it's annoying
Joons:
mhm
just ignore him
Yoongs:
yeah
fuck
anyways
did you send Hobi that new song?
Joons:
the one we finished three days ago?
Yoongs:
yeah
Joons:
nope
not yet
should I
Yoongs:
yeah, why not?
he's got good taste
Joons:
wow
could it be that you like yet another human being
Yoongs:
don't know
don't really care either
I don't know him
and oddly enough it makes shit easier to talk about with him
Joons:
yeah
I feel the same
Yoongs:
gonna send it?
Joons:
yeah
Yoongs:
tell me what he says
okay?
Joons:
wait
I have a better idea
ㅡ
[ SINGSONGS was created by Joons ]
[ Joons added Yoongs and Hobi to SINGSONGS ]
Yoongs:
singsongs?
you must be kiddin me
Joons:
had no better idea
Yoongs:
yeah
sure
you're just an idiot
Joons:
hey!
Hobi:
oh, hello
can I help you?
Yoongs:
yeah
Joons:
yeah
Hobi:
okay
and?
Yoongs:
we finished a new song
want your opinion on that
Hobi:
send it to me?
Joons:
wait a sec
ㅡ
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
I mean
I'm sure it's just a coincidence
but it kinda freaks me out that the asshole's phone's vibrating at the same time we send messages to Hobi
Joons:
so
you noticed too?
Yoongs:
yeah
oh, wait
he's leaving
Joons:
u sure?
Yoongs:
yeah, he's packing up his stuff
Joons:
okay
whatever
gonna send that song to Hobi now
Yoongs:
do that
ㅡ
[ group chat SINGSONGS ]
Joons:
rm_ad_new_song.mp3 attached
Hobi:
gonna listen to it as soon as I'm out of the university building
Joons:
where are you now?
Yoongs:
had a class?
Hobi:
mhm, yeah something like that
Yoongs:
you won't tell us that either
Hobi:
nah, was just doing nothing special
Joons:
I literally asked Jiminie who you are today
Hobi:
yeah
I know
Joons:
wtf
how???
Hobi:
he texted me?
I mean, he has a phone you know
and so do I
Yoongs:
hahaha
I really start to like you
stranger
Hobi:
wow
what an honor
Joons:
it really is an honor
I think you're like the 6th person besides his family that he actually likes
Hobi:
6th, huh?
wow
Yoongs:
do I smell sarcasm???????
Hobi:
nope
Joons:
nope
Yoongs:
I hate thje both of you
Hobi:
sure
you want me to tell you what I think about your song or not?
Yoongs:
yes, please
Joons:
yeah
Hobi:
good
then shut up
Yoongs:
hey, the asshole forgot his notebook
ugh, fuck
Hobi
wrong chat
Hobi:
sure
np
Joons:
yeah, uhm
I'm gonna take it with me and give it to him tomorrow
Yoongs:
why?
Joons:
he might be an asshole
but, I'm not
Hobi:
who's this about?
Yoongs:
Jung Hoseok
he's an music production student like us
Hobi:
ah, I know him
just leave it there, I'm sure he'll get it later
Yoongs:
how do you know?
Joons:
u sure about that?
can't just leave it there
Hobi:
yeah, we know each other pretty well
he hates to lose his shit
and when he can't find it he gets even more annoying
Yoongs:
you have problems with him too?
Hobi:
doesn't everyone?
Joons:
Jiminie and Tae surely don't
Hobi:
they're too good for him
anyways, just leave it there
Yoongs:
why do you know so much about him tho?
Hobi:
guess we used to be friends or something like that
Joons:
wow
okay
Yoongs:
was he always like that
Hobi:
like what?
Joons:
all cold looking, always bruised and shit
Hobi:
he once was a nice guy, I guess
shit happened
and now he's how he is
Yoongs:
what happened?
Joons:
^^^
Hobi:
something about his family or whatever
I don't really know myself
Yoongs:
oh
okay
Joons:
so, how do you like the song
Hobi:
honestly?
Yoongs:
yeah
Joons:
yeah
Hobi:
I like it
but something seems to be off about it
like the both of you couldn't decide with which flow you should go
it doesn't harmonize like your songs usually do
Yoongs:
fuck
Joons:
fucking shit
he's right
Yoongs:
yeah
just noticed
Hobi:
give me an hour
I'll do some editing shit and send it to you
Joons:
ugh
sure
Yoongs:
you want the project file?
gonna be easier
Hobi:
wow
you trust me with your files?
Yoongs:
yure
I'm desperate
Joons:
he really is
we worked on that song for too long
Hobi:
yeah
okay
found the main problem
gonna send it to you later
Yoongs:
project.file attached
Hobi:
thanks
give me an hour
or two
Joons:
thanks, bro
Yoongs:
^^^
Hobi:
sure
ㅡ
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
he's nice
Joons:
who?
Yoongs:
Hobi
Joons:
yeah
too bad he won't tell us who he is
Yoongs:
yeah
maybe we should as Jiminie or Tae?
Joons:
nah
I don't think they'll tell either one of us
Yoongs:
that close huh?
Joons:
yeah
Notes:
uhm, yeah. they're idiots. do I need to say more?
actually, yeah.
I had the idea to make mv reviews and fanfic reviews on youtube as well, since I can't play games every day ㅠㅠ what do you think about that idea? would you watch that?
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Chapter 11: 011
Notes:
hello there, again.
i felt like updating again, so here it is, yet another chapter ;D
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
[ private chat Jinnie and Tae ]
Jin:
hey
Tae:
what do you want?
Jin:
I wanted to talk
Tae:
go talk to someone else
Jin:
please..
Tae:
nah
don't wanna talk to you
also, Jiminie and Hobi forbid me to, so
bye
Jin:
please, Tae
I want to apologize
Tae:
what for?
the fact that in public I had to act like we weren't boyfriends
or that you actually complained about me to other people just to 'keep up your reputation'?
or all the times I had to hide from people?
or for all the times you walked away from me to do whatever?
oh, wait no, you want to apologize for all the times you cheated on me?
that must be it
Jin:
I only cheated on you once..
Tae:
wow
Jin:
Tae..
Tae:
that makes me feel so much better -.-*
as if once isn't bad enough
Jin:
I wasn't thinking
Tae:
is that supposed to make me feel better?
honestly, fuck off
Jin:
no, I know
I'm so sorry, Tae
Tae:
sure
I bet you are
Jin:
there's something I never told you
and it's the reason for everything
Tae:
listen
we've been together for months
prior to that I've been you friend with 'certain' benefits
there were plenty of times you could have told me whatever you want to tell me now
I don't want to hear it
not anymore
Jin:
Tae, please let's talk
I'm terribly sorry
Tae:
fuck
off
Jin:
I love you
please
Tae:
fuck
do you even know what love is????
Jin:
I do
Tae:
love is when you want to be with the other NO MATTER what
love makes you desperate for the other and, spoiler alert, I've been desperate to be with you
to just be loved in return
Jin:
I've made mistakes
and I want to apologize
I was a dick
but there's a reason
Tae:
I don't care anymore, Seokjin
Jin:
please, Taetae
Tae:
don't call me that
you lost that privilege
Jin:
I never wanted to hurt you
Tae:
yet you did
Jin:
I never wanted to leave you alone
Tae:
and yet you did
Jin:
Tae, there's something in my head
telling me to stay away from people
Tae, it hurts so much
Tae:
yeah
I've been hurting too
tell Yoongi your excuses
I don't care
Jin:
me and Yoongi aren't a thing
Tae:
believe me I know
Jin:
we were drunk
Tae:
you weren't anywhere near drunk
you just acted like you were drunk so people wouldn't judge you as hard
Jin:
that's not true
Tae:
u sure?
Jin:
no
Tae:
that's what I thought
Jin:
Tae
I'm so, so sorry
Tae:
Jin, please
just stop
I don't want to hear it
you used me for months
you knew that I've been in love with you for over two years now
I'm done with your play
you have to look for someone else
Jin:
Tae, please
I love you
Tae:
you love nobody
and I don't want to end like Hobi, pretending that I can do something I clearly can not do
Jin:
Hobi?
ㅡ
[ private chat Lord Jin and Kookles ]
Lord Jin:
Kook
I fucked up
Kookles:
yeah
good morning to you too, hyung
Lord Jin:
fuck, Kookie
I can’t right now
Kookles:
wtf happened
Lord Jin:
Tae won't even let me apologize to him
Kookles:
well
you did fuck up
Lord Jin:
I don't need you to tell me what I already know
I need you to give me advice
Kookles:
I'm sorry, hyung
but I don't think there's much you can do
Lord Jin:
I need to do something
I need him
I fucking love him
I'm desperate to be with him
fuck
Kookles:
then, I think it's time to change
to be honest
to him and yourself
Lord Jin:
fuck
I don't want to go to therapy again
Kookles:
you've been good back then when you've been to therapy
Lord Jin:
I don't want to deal with my feelings anymore
Kookles:
if you really love Tae then you will deal with them
you have to
Lord Jin:
fuck
Kooks
Kookles:
hyung, I know you like to hid behind that facade you built
but, you have to let people see what's behind it, at least some people
you have to tell Tae, and you have to deal with whatever's in your head
Lord Jin:
I fucking hate that fucking anxiety shit
Kookles:
and I hate that you're swearing so much
Lord Jin:
Tae made me
Kookles:
I'm glad somebody finally managed to kick your ass
without even knowing
this is funny
Lord Jin:
I hate you
Kookles:
hate you too
Lord Jin:
I'm gonna come visit later
Kookles:
okay, lemme know when you're here so I can tell my doc to come as well
Lord Jin:
fuck
u sure I should do that?
Kookles:
yeah, you'll go back into therapy
and we'll discuss that with my doc because he's awesome and knows his shit and people
Lord Jin:
language
Kookles:
says you
Lord Jin:
brat
anyways, do you know a certain Hobi?
Kookles:
Hobi?
Jiminie talks about his best friends pretty often, and one of them is called Hobi
why?
Lord Jin:
Tae mentioned something about him that didn't sound so great
Kookles:
mhm, Jiminie once told me that Hobi isn't okay, but he always pretends to be
you know.. in order to keep him and Tae happy
Jiminie feels pretty bad because he can't really help him
Lord Jin:
I think I'll have to have a word with that Hobi
Kookles:
see, that's the Seokjin I know
the caring one, the one that's worried about everyone
even the people he doesn't even know
Lord Jin:
oh shut up
Kookles:
make me
Lord Jin:
brat
Kookles:
but, hyung
Lord Jin:
yeah?
Kookles:
I'm pretty sure you can't help him
so, please, don't get too invested
Lord Jin:
why would you say that?
Kookles:
Jiminie told me that Hobi's been to several therapies before
none of them helped him
and Jiminie's worried that it's gotten to the point where there's nothing left besides Hobi destroying himself
Lord Jin:
I don't know him
but, I really want to help him
Kookles:
same here
Lord Jin:
is Jimin gonna come visit today as well?
Kookles:
I don't know yet
let me check
ㅡ
[ private chat Jiminie and Kookie ]
Kookie:
hey, hyung
Jiminie:
hey, little one
Kookie:
are you gonna visit today?
Jiminie:
I don't know yet :/
Kookie:
is it because it's Jin visiting day today?
Jiminie:
no, not because of that
Kookie:
then what is it?
I wanna see you..
Jiminie:
oh, Kookie, I wanna see you too
but first I need to find Hobi
Kookie:
why?
what happened?
Jiminie:
he didn't come back home yesterday
Kookie:
fuck
Jiminie:
yeah
and he isn't picking up his phone either
Kookie:
do you want me to check if he's here in the hospital?
Jiminie:
yes, please
that's pretty much the only place I haven't been to yet
Kookie:
okay, wait a min
Jiminie:
I even went to the fighting sites he frequents
Kookie:
fighting??????
Jiminie:
ugh, yeah
he makes his money by participating in street fights, street races and whatever other battles I don't know about
Kookie:
wow
Jiminie:
yeah
Kookie:
that's actually cool
Jiminie:
I guess it would be if he wasn't so desperate to die
Kookie:
wait
what
Jiminie:
sigh
yeah, he's well you know
he isn't afraid of getting himself in danger and ugh
Kookie:
okay, I thought he really wanted to end his life
like literally
Jiminie:
oh
he tried to
Kookie:
wait
what!?
Jiminie:
yeah, he tried to
but he's afraid to do it himself
that's why he's always getting himself into shit
because he hopes it would be the last time
and every fucking day I'm fucking worried that he finally succeeded in his plan
and fuck I'm so worried
Kookie
what if he's dead
Kookie, what if I lost my best friend????!?!?!?
I can't do that shit
god
how am I supposed to tell Tae
fuck
Kookie:
wait
hyung, he' here
Jiminie:
are you fucking shitting me?
Kookie:
I mean I don't know
what's his full name?
there's only one person with a name that would come close to 'Hobi'
Jiminie:
Jung Hoseok
Kookie:
okay
must be the same guy
he's here, hyung
Jiminie:
fuck
I'm on my way
Kookie:
he's been delivered to the ER last night as far as I can tell
Jiminie:
what the hell did he do now
fuck
and how do you even know
Kookie:
the nurses are gone
and I've spent enough time in this hospital to know where all the documents are
Jiminie:
sneaky
Kookie:
that's me
Jiminie:
ugh
I swear I'm gonna hurt his sorry ass for worrying me to death
Kookie:
don't die
I need you
Jiminie:
aaaaawww
I need you, too
Kookie:
>/////<
ㅡ
[ private chat Kookles and Lord Jin ]
Kookles:
Jimin's coming
Hoseok's been taken to the ER last night
Lord Jin:
Hoseok
Kookles:
ugh
meant Hobi
Lord Jin:
so, his name is Hoseok?
Kookles:
yes
Lord Jin:
Jung Hoseok?
Kookles:
uhhh
yeah?
Lord Jin:
I know him
Kookles:
I get the feeling that everyone does..
Lord Jin:
he's quite popular underground
and on campus
Kookles:
wait
you know about him fighting underground and shit?
Lord Jin:
yeah, of course I do
why do you know tho?
Kookles:
Jiminie just told me..
Lord Jin:
okay
you, Jimin and I will have to talk
Kookles:
I'm not sure Jimin's gonna like that
Lord Jin:
I don't care
this is about Hobi
Kookles:
wait
hyung, why do you really know him?
Lord Jin:
we used to be friends, good friends
now we just talk sometimes
I had no idea he's doing so bad
fuck
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[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
did Hobi text you already?
Joons:
nope
Yoongs:
he said it would take him an hour..
Joons:
maybe something happened?
Yoongs:
mhm
hope he's okay
Joons:
me too..
Notes:
a new chapter with a whole lot of information and thing's going on even without the rapline drama.
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Chapter 12: 012
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Chapter Text
[ private chat Jiminie and Kookie ]
Kookie:
hyung?
where are you?
hyung..
Jiminie:
sorry, Kookie
Kookie:
Jinnie hyung is already here
Jiminie:
I promise I'll be there as soon as I can
I just have to make sure Hobi's okay
Kookie:
have you found him yet?
Jiminie:
yeah, but they won't let me visit him
since I'm not part of his family
Kookie:
fuck :/
what are you gonna do now?
Jiminie:
I told them that I'm his emergency contact
then they told me they would check and if everything's alright they will let me see him
Kookie:
at least something
Jiminie:
yeah
they just take so long..
ugh
I wanna make sure he's okay
Kookie:
Jinnie hyung wants me to ask you why you're his emergency contact
Jiminie:
oh
uhm, I don't know if I should talk about that
Kookie:
nah, it's okay
don't worry
Jiminie:
it's just
he doesn't really have a family anymore so..
Kookie:
what!?
what happened???
OMG YOU DONT HAVE TO TELL ME
Jiminie:
car accident
he was the only one who survived
Kookie:
oh fuck
I am so sorry
Jiminie:
don't tell him that I told you
Seokjin has to promise to not tell him either as well
Kookie:
we both won't tell him
or anyone else
Jiminie:
god
I will kill his ass if he's badly injured
Kookie:
I don't think that will do you any good
or him
Jiminie:
whatever
just need to kick his stupid ass
god, why does he always have to get himself into so much trouble
Kookie:
:/
Jinnie hyung is crying
Jiminie:
what
why?
how the fuck is it even possible that Kim Seokjin's crying????
Kookie:
he's actually the softest person besides you that I've ever met
Jiminie:
honestly
wtf
Kookie:
it's true
Jiminie:
uhm, okay
and why the hell is he crying
Kookie:
because of Hobi hyung
Jiminie:
tell him he can stop faking shit
Kookie:
he isn't faking anything, hyung
Jinnie hyung really is a caring person
Jiminie:
who dat?
I dunno him
Kookie:
honestly, hyung
Jiminie:
all I know from him is his typical cold asshole way of living
thanks but I can't believe it
Kookie:
you really do have to get to know his real self
he does a whole lot of shitty stuff, true
but he's just protecting himself
in a way he's like Hobi hyung
Jiminie:
sorry if I'll get mad if you dare to compare the both of them again
Kookie:
but hyung..
Jiminie:
no, Kookie
I love you, but that's too far
Hobi has never hurt anyone's feelings on purpose just to protect himself, he hurt himself in order to get away from everyone to 'protect' them from himself
can't say that about Kim Seokjin
Kookie:
you love me?
Jiminie:
...
uhm
the doctors just told me that I can go see Hobi now
ttyl
Kookie:
hhyung, hyunghyunghyuuuuuuung
do you really love me???
hyuuungie
also, you really have to get to know Jin hyung
you have no idea what he's doing for me ever since I've been little
hyung
hyuuuuung
H Y U N G
...
okay
I love you, too
// read
ㅡ
Kookie:
hyung
is Hobi hyung okay?
Jiminie:
sorry, Kookie
yeah he's okay
Kookie:
are you okay?
Jiminie:
not really
Kookie:
what happened?
Jiminie:
one of the street fights got out of hand and the dude he had to fight called his boys in to gang up on Hobi
Kookie:
wtf!?
why didn't anybody help him!?!?!
Jiminie:
Hobi isn't part of any gang, so he has to do shit on his own
and those people he sometimes works together were too afraid apparently
Kookie:
I can't believe humans sometimes
Jiminie:
I'm just glad he had no problems at the race
Kookie:
wait
what
race?
Jiminie:
yeah, before he joined the street fights he participated in a street race
Kookie:
...
did he win?
Jiminie:
...
yeah
Kookie:
I feel bad but it sounds so damn cool
Jiminie:
it really isn't
okay, it sounds cool but it really isn't
Kookie:
still, one day I want Hobi hyung to take me with him
Jiminie:
one day
I'm so worried
Kookie:
hey, uhm
is he up to travel to my room?
Jiminie:
yeah I think so..
wait, I'm gonna ask him
Kookie:
I really wanna get to know him
and I dunno but Jin seems to really wanna met him again too
Jiminie:
he said 'sure'
I'm gonna grab a wheelchair real quick and then we're gonna get up to your room
Kookie:
yaaaay ^.^
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"Do you really think that's a good idea?" Jimin asked his hyung as he watched him getting out of the bed and into the wheelchair on his own. Jimin had offered to help, but the older had just told him to 'fuck off' since he was very obviously able to do it himself. Jimin had just sighed at that.
"Since you won't let me go with my own two legs," Hoseok started, sighing as he finally made it into the wheelchair. "Lemme have at least some of my dignity." he continued to complain, though there was a little smile on his face thanks to which Jimin knew that both of them were alright. Jimin sighed theatrically and walked behind the wheelchair, pushing his hyung out of the room.
They didn't talk the whole chair to the elevators. Hoseok just watched all the doctors and nurses passing by, sometimes there were patients too, but he didn't pay them too much attention. He couldn't tell why but they weren't nearly as interesting as the doctors and nurses. Jimin on the other hand just concentrated on not accidentally push Hoseok over some random person. However, at the back of his head there was also this well-known voice which was yelling at him to find a way to help his hyung. Somewhere deep down he got the feeling that Hoseok and his whole behavior slowly got out of hand, gradually getting faster since he started texting with Namjoon and Yoongi. Jimin really liked them, he even considered them his friends, but they were just idiots to Hoseok. He couldn't understand why Hoseok would fall in love with the both of them, but then again, he also didn't understand why they seemed to hate Hoseok so much. He had never ever done them any wrong, and in return they were just judgmental assholes. Jimin knew he could make it all right by talking to them, but he promised Hoseok quite some time ago that he won't tell them anything about him.
He could understand why Hoseok didn't want them to get involved with him, he really did, but he was terrified by the consequences. He knew Hoseok was thinking about leaving this world in a foreseeable time, which was terrifying Jimin even more. Hoseok was trying his best to just get it over with, and each day Jimin silently thanked the heavens that he got another day with his best friend. He felt helpless at times. He knew what was wrong with the older, but there just seemed to be no way to help him. He wished for something to change, for something to happen or someone to show up that would make him wanna stay. Apparently he and Taehyung weren't enough reason anymore, but he wasn't mad at Hoseok for that. Sometimes people just needed to experience something or someone new to find back to themselves. Each day, each night, Jimin prayed, and he knew Taehyung was praying too.
ㅡ
"We're almost there, hyung." Jimin said as they were walking, or rather rolling, down the hallway to Jungkook's room. Hoseok looked back at him and smiled softly. Jimin instantly felt like melting, he just loved his hyung's smiles so much. They remembered him of a time when things had been good, real good, when Hoseok had been a different person.
"Hyung!" they suddenly heard someone calling enthusiastically and then someone was rushing past Hoseok and jumping right onto Jimin. Hoseok just blinked at what was happening mere centimeters away from him. Jimin struggled to get air into his lungs and Hoseok laughed at his loud complaints. Jungkook, however, just kept on hugging him until he suddenly let him go to smile at him. "You're finally here! I missed you!" he stated, just as enthusiastically as before. Jimin rubbed his neck at that, and Hoseok couldn't stop himself from smirking knowingly as Jimin turned twenty shades of pink. Jimin then pointed at him, and suddenly Jungkook turned around and Hoseok had a lap full of Jungkook. For a moment he didn't know what to do, but he just decided to hug the youngest back as Jungkook was squeezing the living shit out of him. He understood why Jimin had been complaining, that kid was surely one strong boy. Fuck, what did they feed him here? Hoseok would probably never understand.
In the corner of his eye he saw somebody approaching them, and he immediately knew who it was even though his eyes hurt, were slightly blurry and he couldn't really see him. Kim Seokjin. Hoseok sighed internally at that. He hadn't had a normal, civilized conversation with the older in quite some time, and Hoseok honestly wasn't so sure if that was possible ever again. The truth was, they didn't split in a fight, or ended their friendship due to a major reason. It just, time changed, shit happened to the both of them and suddenly they hadn't been able to be in each other's vicinity anymore. There was too much pain and frustration stocked up in the both of them, and they would have been each other's end if they stayed together. In the end, both just wanted to live, to somehow continue and see if life had anything to offer them after all the shit that had happened. Hoseok doubted it, Seokjin obviously did so too, and eventually both of them changed to their own worst enemies. He hadn't had a conversation with Seokjin in far too long, but he had heard enough stories, and Hoseok could tell Seokjin was doing the same as he himself was. Just not as life threatening. Suddenly, Hoseok was kinda proud of himself.
"Hoseok, haven't seen you in a while." Seokjin said as he reached the three others. Jimin looked back and forth between the both of them, and Jungkook smiled up at Seokjin. Hoseok nodded curtly.
"Hyung. Well, you've been busy breaking my best friend's heart, so, yeah, obviously you were too busy to call." Hoseok stated, sounding almost bored though there was a smirk on his face. Seokjin didn't really know how to react, he knew he deserved it, and at the same time he also knew Hoseok, knew that younger wasn't out to antagonize him on purpose. It was just another one of his automatic defense strategies made up by his mind to protect what was left of him. Seokjin then just laughed. Hoseok started to laugh too. Jimin and Jungkook, however, were left confused as they had felt terribly uncomfortable until seconds ago. Jimin wanted to start complaining about them laughing about such a serious topic, but Hoseok just waved him off. Usually, Jimin would start to complain even more at that, but this time he decided to just shut up.
Jungkook got up from Hoseok's lap, grabbing Jimin's hand and pulling him towards his room. Jimin looked back at Hoseok in apology. He wanted to help the older, but Jungkook just wouldn't let him go.
"Don't worry, I'll take him." Seokjin stated as he noticed the evident worry in Jimin's face. He didn't really know the younger, but the worry for Hoseok was an expression that was pretty much the same on everyone's face that cared about Hoseok in some way. Hoseok looked up at him at that, bending his head slightly in question.
"Thanks, hyung." Hoseok stated quietly. Seokjin then moved behind him, pushing him towards Jungkook's room. Both of them watched the two in front of them. Jungkook was pulling Jimin with him, turning around now and then to softly smile at the older. Hoseok smiled at that, and he knew Seokjin was smiling too.
"They're good for each other." Hoseok stated after some seconds in silence.
"Yeah. I haven't seen Jungkook this happy in quite some time." he said. Hoseok could hear the relief in the elder's voice. "He's finally getting better." he added. Hoseok remembered when Seokjin seemed to disappear for hours, only for Hoseok to find out hours later that the older had been visiting his cousin again. Sometimes at the younger's home, but more often at yet another hospital. He remembered when Jungkook had been a little boy, hanging onto Seokjin like he was the only person keeping him from drowning in all the frustration and the sorrow. In Hoseok's mind Seokjin had been the strongest person, taking care of Jungkook from a young age when the younger's parents decided that enough was enough and gave up any hope on their son ever being cured. Hoseok had been in awe of Seokjin's strength, but there was a time when it started to wilt, and then Hoseok's life changed within only a few seconds. Things went downhill from then on. He didn't like to think back, but watching the younger brought memories back he never wanted to think of again.
"He seems to have forgotten about me." Hoseok stated after the two boys in front of them disappeared into Jungkook's room. Seokjin chuckled behind him.
"Please, don't take it the wrong way. We had to deal with memory loss several times." Seokjin explained. When Hoseok looked back at the older in surprise there was a soft smile on the elder's face, though his eyes screamed worry. Hoseok immediately felt bad for leaving the both of them to their own devices.
"So, they still don't know what it is?" he dared to ask after some time.
"Nope, but the doctors said that he was getting better ever since he met Jimin. Apparently, Jimin's stimulating his mind in a certain way and it's overwriting whatever is harming him." the older sighed. "It's really confusing. I didn't understand shit when the doc tried to explain." Hoseok laughed at that.
"You're good."
"Thanks."
"I'm sorry."
"Yeah, me too, Hobi."
"You remember our promise?"
"I would never forget."
Notes:
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Chapter 13: 013
Chapter Text
[ private chat Hobi and Jinnie ]
Jinnie:
I honestly never thought we would talk to each other again
especially not after the Tae thing..
Hobi:
you mean the thing where you cheated on my best friend right in front of him?
Jinnie:
don't remind me
I hate myself for doing that
god
what was I thinking?
Hobi:
I don't know
probably not much
Jinnie:
well, one thing's for sure
Hobi:
and that is?
Jinnie:
you've become a major asshole
Hobi:
thanks
I hear that quite often
Jinnie:
what happened to the soft boy from when we were younger?
Hobi:
he died in a car accident
Jinnie:
oh, Hobi
Hobi:
I'm over it
Jinnie:
it surely doesn't sound like it
Hobi:
and it surely doesn't feel like you wanna make me remember shit
Jinnie:
I'm sorry
Hobi:
nah, it's good
Jinnie:
I'm glad we're talking again
Hobi:
same
Jinnie:
I never really got over us breaking up
you know
like bros
Hobi:
sure
totally like bros
Jinnie:
yup
Hobi:
definitely
Jinnie:
of course
Hobi:
you were good though
Jinnie:
thanks
I hear that quite often ;D
Hobi:
I don't even wanna know
Jinnie:
hah
thought so
Hobi:
ugh
Jinnie:
how is Tae doing?
Hobi:
I knew you would ask me that
Jinnie:
yeah
so predictable
how is he?
Hobi:
he's getting better
but I honestly think he's still not over you
Jinnie:
I honestly don't want him to be over me
Hobi:
asshole much?
Jinnie:
nonononooo
I just want him back
Hobi:
good luck with that
you know how stubborn he can be
Jinnie:
I want him back, Hobi
Hobi:
u sure?
Jinnie:
I've never been so sure about anything in my life before
Hobi:
wow
I'm having a deja vu
haven't you said that before I took ur virginity?
Jinnie:
.................................................
and I took yours
shut up
Hobi:
I didn't say shit tho
Jinnie:
I WAS NERVOUS OKAY!?
Hobi:
yeah
I remember
I also remember you hiding in the bathroom for twenty minutes
Jinnie:
.....................
I wasn't hiding
Hobi:
sure
Jinnie:
REALLY!
Hobi:
yeah
sure
so, Tae?
Jinnie:
I really want him back, Hobi
what do I do?
Hobi:
maybe you should ask Yoongi
after all you two seemed to be pretty close
Jinnie:
god
can you stop?
Hobi:
can I?
hmmmmmmm....
no
Jinnie:
I hate you
Hobi:
same old
nothing new
Jinnie:
oh, right
haven't you been there too?
Hobi:
where?
Jinnie:
the party?
Hobi:
oh, yeah
been there
Jinnie:
yeah, I remember you being with Namjoon and Yoongi
you seemed close
I don't remember much of that evening but I do remember the way you talked and had fun
Hobi:
they were drunk
I was drunk
Jinnie:
I REMEMBER THE THREE OF YOU LEAVING TOGETHER!!!!!
Hobi:
that never happened
Jinnie:
no!
I'm sure the three of you left together for the second floor
Hobi:
yeah
Jinnie:
so
what did you do?
Hobi:
guess
Jinnie:
NO YOU DIDN'T!!!!
Hobi:
I did
we did
Jinnie:
but
they hate you
like, I don't get it but they do
I was so confused
I'm still confused
but
they slept with you
Hobi:
as I said
they were drunk off their asses and it was the only way to make them confess to each other
Jinnie:
wait
they confessed????????
Hobi:
they did, but they were too drunk to remember shit afterwards
or else it would be so much damn work now
Jinnie:
FUCK
this is big
and bad
Hobi:
maybe
Jinnie:
Hobi..
Hobi:
wassup?
Jinnie:
you looked at them like they were your world
Hobi:
they are
Jinnie:
wait
u serious?????
Hobi:
yup
Jinnie:
fuck
this is so messed up
Hobi:
nah, it's okay
Jinnie:
this is not okay, Hoseok
this is gonna hurt you so bad
fuck, I'm sure it already does
Hobi:
look at that
you're still great at stating the obvious
Jinnie:
fuck
Hoseok
what were you thinking??????????
Hobi:
for once they loved me back
was fun
Jinnie:
fuck
shit
Hoseok
Hobi:
promise me you'll never tell them
Jinnie:
omg NO
but you have to!!!
Hobi:
no
I don't
Jinnie:
why wouldn't you tell them?
this is big
they need to know
Hobi:
one day I'll tell them that they already did the nasty with each other
Jinnie:
what about you?
Hobi:
what about me?
Jinnie:
you're totally in love with them
Hobi:
das tru
Jinnie:
you need to at least tell them
Hobi:
look, things are gonna change soon anyways
and I don't plan on staying at the university anyways so whatever
Jinnie:
you wanna stop!?
Hobi:
yup?
I mean it doesn’t really do me any go anyways
it's just taking up time
Jinnie:
Jung Hoseok
you can't keep on making money by fighting
Hoseok:
it's good money
and that way I can buy food, pay my rent and pay for all the debts my parents left me
Jinnie:
why won't your grandparents help you?
Hobi:
they wanted to
but I told them t stop
they're old
they need the little money they get
Jinnie:
fuck
this is so messed up
Hobi:
who ever said life would be something that's in perfect order?
Jinnie:
I know it isn't
but if I would have known then I would have helped you
Hobi:
I wouldn't have let you anyways
Jinnie:
here I am
crying for you because of all this shit
Hobi:
as I said
it's okay
Jinnie:
honestly
what's your plan?
Hobi:
I got Namjoon and Yoongi to admit their feelings, now I just have to get them to confess to each other
after that I'm gonna stop all my studies and concentrate on making money
Jinnie:
this is not a plan
this is a death sentence
Hobi:
sounds like a plan to me
Jinnie:
fuck
what do Tae and Jiminie say?
Hobi:
they have no idea
I never told them
so keep your mouth shut
Jinnie:
you're being a stubborn idiot, Hobi
you should tell them
I mean all of them
including Namjoon and Yoongi
Hobi:
I won't, Jinnie
you have to understand me
whatever this is will be gone soon anyways
I'll be gone soon anyways
I'm not planning on staying after I'm done with shit at university
Jinnie:
you're such a stubborn asshole
I just got you back
I don't wanna lose you again
Hobi:
it's what it is
anyways, I think it's funny that Kookie doesn't really remember me
Jinnie:
...
oh, he does remember you
just not as good as he would like to
Hobi:
whatever this is
it really is time that those fucking doctors find out what's causing him all the pain
Jinnie:
they've been trying for years
I doubt they'll find out..
Hobi:
is there something you're not telling me?
Jinnie:
nope
Hobi:
Kim Seokjin
Jinnie:
well, they actually do know what it is but we don't wanna tell him
Hoseok:
fuck
what is it?
Jinnie:
do you remember when he fell down that tree years and years ago?
Hobi:
yeah
he had been so proud to make it up there on his own
Jinnie:
yeah, and when he fell down he fell on his head
apparently back then the doctors made a mistake when they were checking up on him at the hospital
it didn't worsen for quite some time but eventually it did
Hobi:
talk to me
Jinnie:
do you remember the blood?
Hobi:
yeah
he fell on several little stones
Jinnie:
yeah.. some of them actually stuck to his skull and obviously they forgot one of them that was too deep and eventually over time it kept on pushing against some of the nerves in his brain
not bad enough to actually hurt him seriously or kill him but enough to make him lose his memories and get him that major migraine and all the other shit
vomiting without any reason and whatever
they found it now
and they told me that they would have to operate on him
but they can't tell if it's the best idea
Hobi:
Jin
he can't live with all the pain for all his life
Jinnie:
yeah, but if they take it out it might get worse
there could actually be some severe damage and nobody can tell what that will cause to him
Hobi:
so, there's a chance that he's gonna be okay?
Jinnie:
yeah.. they think there's pretty much a 50/50 chance
Hobi:
wouldn't it be better then if they just tried?
Jinnie:
I don't know how to tell him
they said something about him losing the ability to walk or whatever and I can't take that from him
Hobi:
it's his decision
you have to let him decide
Jinnie:
I don't know how
I honestly wish Jiminie would help me tell him
Hobi:
did you tell him?
Jinnie:
he was there when we got the results
Kookie was asleep
Hobi:
he will help you for sure
Jinnie:
he was crying so much
so, so much
my heart was breaking
Hobi:
Jiminie really likes him
Jinnie:
I thought so
it's quite obvious
they're so cute together
like I wanna shield them from all the pain in the world
Hobi:
you have to tell him
or tell him with Jiminie
Jinnie:
I guess I have to.
Hobi:
Jin?
Jinnie:
god
yes
he's got pretty bad nightmares ever since he met Jiminie..
Hobi:
fuck
Jinnie:
yup
he never told me what they're about but he's pretty clingy towards Jiminie
Hobi:
Jiminie's good for him
Jinnie:
that's true
but the nightmares..
Hobi:
it'll get better
I'm sure of it
Jinnie:
I need help with all of this
Hobi:
are you gonna go back into therapy?
Jinnie:
yes
I wanna get better for Tae
and you should too
Hobi:
no
I can't and I won't
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Chapter 14: 014
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
[ group chat SINGSONGS ]
Yoongs:
hey, shithead
are you gonna let us know about the song or not?
Joons:
wow
good going, hyung
Yoongs:
don't 'hyung' me
you know it makes me feel old
Joons:
stop being so sensitive
Yoongs:
stop talking
Joons:
can't
Yoongs:
do I even wanna know why?
Joons:
not sure ;DD
Yoongs:
I hate you
Joons:
love you too
Yoongs:
omfg
stahp
Joons:
nope
Hobi:
sassy
what a nice way to be woken up
Yoongs:
you shithead have been sleeping while we have been sitting here waiting for you ass to share the news????
Joons:
...
good morning, Hobi
Hobi:
good morning
Joons:
I hope you slept well
Hobi:
could have been better :/
Joons:
oh?
why? :((
Hobi:
dunno..
still tired and shit
Joons:
aaaahh.. I hate waking up just as tired as when I went to sleep
like what's the point of sleeping??
Hobi:
tru
Yoongs:
are you seriously gonna ignore me?????
Joons:
what?
you sleep like a rock
everybody knows that so there's no reason for us to talk about you
or add you to the conversation
Hobi:
and up until now it has been working just fine so yeah
Yoongs:
you're assholes
Joons:
you're welcome
Hobi:
my pleasure
Joons:
our***
Hobi:
okay
our
Joons:
thanks
Hobi:
also, here
project.file attached
Joons:
wow
you kept your promise
Yoongs:
better late than never I guess..
Hobi:
I always keep my promises
Joons:
we're gonna listen to it in a bit
Hobi:
sure
don't stress yourselves
I'm not going anywhere
Joons:
sure, you're a text away
but still
Hobi:
:)
Yoongs:
did something happen?
Hobi:
can't really say no
so, yeah
Joons:
omfg
what happened?
Hobi:
had a little accident
and now I'm trapped in a hospital for a while
being bored and shit
Yoongs:
wtf happened???
Joons:
fuck
are you okay???
Hobi:
sure
I'm okay, nothing too bad happened anyways
Joons:
if it wouldn't be bad then you wouldn't be in a fucking hospital
Hobi:
well, shit happens
Yoongs:
you need anything?
Hobi:
nope
I'm good
Yoongs:
you sure?
Hobi:
yup, I'm sure
Joons:
...
I don't believe you
Yoongs:
me neither
Joons:
I'm just gonna ask Jimin
Yoongs:
good idea, Joons
Joons:
I'm full of good ideas
Yoongs:
whatever
Hobi, we're gonna ask Jimin
Hobi:
he was here just a few hours ago
I'm fine
stop this useless worrying about shit and stuff
Yoongs:
shut up
let us worry if we want to
Joons:
yeah
Hobi:
fuck off
worry about something else
and just listen to the track and tell me what you think
ㅡ
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
fuck
Joons
Joons:
yeah
fuck indeed
Yoongs:
have you listened to the song yet????
Joons:
yeah
Yoongs:
it's
fucking
good
as
hell
Joons:
it's fucking perfect
how the fuck did he do that!?
Yoongs:
I can't believe that he did that for us
it sounds so damn nice and fuck
did he add stuff?
Joons:
I think he did
I know that voice in the background but I can't tell who it is
Yoongs:
maybe it's him?
Joons:
I doubt he would do that
he doesn't want us to know who he is after all
Yoongs:
I still wanna ask
fuck I can't believe how good it sounds now
the fuck did we do before??????
Joons:
I have no idea
but it surely was bullshit
Yoongs:
so damn true
what is this
I can't believe this
Joons:
we should ask him to check our stuff more often
Yoongs:
fuck
yeah
ㅡ
[ group chat SINGSONGS ]
Yoongs:
fuck
Hobi, you did such a nice job I can't even believe what you did there it's crazy
Joons:
you managed to make the both of us fucking speechless
that's wow
Hobi:
hope you like it
and, please, don't fuck speechless
some sounds are nice
Joons:
..........................................................................................................................................
Yoongs:
I'm just gonna ignore that and continue going crazy over that track
......
I fucking love it what the fuck even is this!?!?!?
Joons:
^^^^^^^^^^
Hobi:
I didn't do much
I just changed what sounded off to me in the first place
it wasn't much tbh
Joons:
it's still our song, sure
but it sounds way better now
you also added another voice
Hobi:
again, I didn't change much
just some adjustments
and, yup, I actually added two voices
Yoongs:
yours?
Hobi:
nope
a while ago I wanted to make a new track and asked Jimin and Tae to sing for me
I didn't finish the song, but the melody in their voices matched your track pretty good so I added them since it would have been a waste of their talent if I didn't use it
Joons:
wow
it honestly sounds so damn nice
Yoongs:
we actually wanted Tae to sing for us again but he always refused to
Hobi:
guess that's because of Seokjin
Joons:
thought so
since we're friends and all
Yoongs:
fuck
I don't even remember that evening
Hobi:
it doesn't matter now anyways
anything I should change again?
Yoongs:
about the song?
Hobi:
yeah?
Joons:
fuck no!
leave it the way it is!!
Yoongs:
it's perfect!
Hobi:
glad I could help you two :)
Joons:
I can't believe we don't know who you are
you're a fucking genius
this makes me regret my life choices
Yoongs:
you're amazing
honestly
Hobi:
thanks
that's nice to hear, but believe me it's better this way
Yoongs:
I still don't fucking know why
Joons:
I guess we don't have another choice than to keep it this way
Hobi:
thanks
just trust me with this
Yoongs:
give us one good reason
please
Joons:
fuck
he said please
Hobi:
there are a lot of reasons
Yoongs:
just name one
Hobi:
I belong to a group of people you don't really like
Joons:
how is that even possible if Jimin and Taehyung are your best friends?
Hobi:
things happen
Yoongs:
I'm not happy with that answer
Hobi:
well, it's all you'll get from me
also, I have another examination now so I gotta go meet the doc
Joons:
let us know if we can somehow help you
Yoongs:
yeah
ㅡ
[ private chat Yoongle and Jin ]
Yoongle:
hey Jin
Jin:
Yoongle Boongle
what's up?
Yoongle:
I have a question
Jin:
shoot
Yoongle:
do you know someone called Hobi?
Jin:
why?
Yoongle:
because a 'Hobi' is Tae's best friend and since he was your loverboi I thought you might know him
Jin:
love of my life**
Yoongle:
what?
Jin:
Tae's not my loverboi
he's the love of my life
Yoongle:
wow, seriously??
Jin:
yes
Yoongle:
fuck
I had no idea it was that deep
Jin:
yeah, and thanks to you and my own stupidity I can't have him
Yoongle:
I've heard rumors, but I wasn't quite sure if I should believe them or not..
did we
you know
Jin:
make out?
in front of him?
yup
Yoongle:
fuck
what the fucking fuck
what the hell
JIN
you know how much I hate cheating assholes
Jin:
yeah well you were part of it to so don't act like it's all my fault
Yoongle:
it probably is tho
I mean
everybody knows how much you love playing with peoples' feelings
Jin:
used to
Yoongle:
fuck
is it really that deep???
Jin:
I'm back in therapy
I wanna become a better man for him
I love him
Yoongle:
wow that's fucking deep
do you need any help?
Jin:
nah, not really
I just need help with trying to convince Hobi to go back into therapy as well
Yoongle:
so
you do know him?
Jin:
fuck
yeah, I know him
Yoongle:
how long?
Jin:
my whole life
Yoongle:
I basically know nothing about your life before uni
except for the Kookie part
Jin:
yeah, well
we haven't been talking for quite some time
Yoongle:
why?
how's Kookie btw?
Jin:
Kookie's doing fine
and, well because shit happened
Yoongle:
I really gotta visit Kookie again
Jin:
yup, he misses his hyungs
Yoongle:
Jin
Jin:
yeah?
Yoongle:
can you tell me who he is?
Jin:
who?
Hobi?
Yoongle:
yup
Jin:
I'm sorry, Yoongs
I promised him to never tell you or Namjoon who he is
Yoongle:
why?
why is he so set on that we won't ever find out?
Jin:
he actually has a pretty good reason
Yoongle:
everybody gives me the same damn answer
Jin:
it's his decision, and I will support him
even if I think it's just gonna hurt him more than he probably thinks it ever will
Yoongle:
fuck
who is he?
I need to know
Jin:
sorry, Yoongs
Yoongle:
he was there
at the party I mean
Jin:
yeah
Yoongle:
me and Namjoon had his number on our arms the morning after
Jin:
yeah, he told me
Yoongle:
I want to remember
Jin:
why?
so you can just hate on him more than you already do!?
Yoongle:
wait
what!?
hate?
Notes:
do you think Yoongi will realize who it is? ;D
wanna know what I look like? maybe I'll show you with the next update haha.. felt like it. I'm weird.
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Chapter 15: 015
Notes:
welcome back, but beware, shit is gonna go down.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
[ private chat Yoongle and Jin ]
Jin:
fUCK
Yoongle:
hate?
Kim fucking Seokjin what do you mean!?
Jin:
nothing
Yoongle:
this surely doesn't seem like nothing
Jin:
I said too fucking much already
Yoongle:
hyung, I hate a lot of people
Jin:
yeah, that's what you say
in reality you're just a marshmallow who wants to be loved by Namjoon tho
Yoongle:
you say so too, huh?
Jin:
well, who else said so?
Yoongle:
...
Hobi
Jin:
well, surprise
isn't it obvious that you're head over heels for Joons?
Yoongle:
fuck fuckfuckfuckfuuuuuuck
Jin:
right
what you wanna do with him
Yoongle:
shut the fuck up, Jin
I fucking hate only one person for real in this god damn world
Jin:
I won't tell you who Hobi is, Yoongs
Yoongle:
no need to
I think I know
fuck
if it's him I'm gonna slap a bitch
Jin:
Yoongi
Yoongle:
don't 'Yoongi' me
Jin:
why do you hate that boy anyways??
he never did you any wrong
Yoongle:
that's what you think
Jin:
alright, explain it to me
what has he ever done wrong to be hated by you and Joons??
Yoongle:
he's a disgrace to the status of our department of the university
me and Namjoon fucking made the music production what it is now and then he comes along and now people are fucking scared to come over and support us because they're fucking afraid of this Hoseok asshole
everyone now thinks the music department is full off aggressive assholes who just do drugs and fight and shit
they don't want to support people like this
and then he walks around like he owns the whole fucking place, like he doesn't give a shit about dragging us down with him
Jin:
Yoongi
that's a joke right?
Yoongle:
nope
fucking no
Jin:
you do realize that's fucking bullshit, right?
Yoongle:
fuck no it is not
me and Joons have worked our asses off and then he comes along with his stupid smirks and drags everything with him in the dirt
honestly, if he wants to be hit onto the ground so bad then, please, go for it
but don't drag the whole uni department with you
Jin:
he never did that, Yoongi
he has only ever minded his own business
he has never even once mentioned that he's a student at your department
hell, he doesn't even talk to anyone there, except for his friends, who know who he really is
Yoongle:
the fuck are you defending him for?
Jin:
he lives two separate lives, Yoongi
he has to
Yoongle:
wtf
why?
Jin:
Yoongi, my dear blind, oblivious, lovesick, ignorant and dumb friend
he's J-Hope
Yoongle:
wait
fuck what
Jin:
Jung Hoseok is J-Hope
Jung Hoseok is the one everyone hates, Jung Hoseok is who he himself hates
Jung Hoseok is who's getting into street fights, and street races to earn money to pay for his rent, tuition, and all the debts his parents left him when they died in a car accident.. and probably for all the other shit he got himself into.. like hospital bills and shit
J-Hope is who he wants to be, who studies music production and dance in order to fulfill his dreams, in order to have some kind of a future and to show that he's more than his broken self
and then there's Hobi, the friend that everyone loves, the part of him that's left from a time when his world has still been good, when his parents have been alive, when his sister was alive, when me and Hobi used to be best friends
he used to be a fucking sunshine
now he just wants to die
Yoongle:
if he wants to die so bad, why's he trying to build his future as J-Hope then?
this fucking doesn't make sense
Jin:
I can't fucking believe you
just ask him
if he hates me for telling you, fine
but at least you two and he will have to talk
that's all I ever wanted
Yoongle:
I fucking don't get this whole bullshit anymore
Jin:
you don't fucking get a lot of things!!
ㅡ
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
FUCK
FUCKDFUCKFUJFKCFUUUUUUCK
Joons:
okay
what the hell happened!?
Yoongs:
I fucking know who 'Hobi' is
Joons:
wait
what!?
Yoongs:
Jin talked a little bit too much
Joons:
fuck
why do I feel like I won't like this all of a sudden
Yoongs:
because you don't
Joons:
wtf why!?
Yoongs:
Hobi is fucking Jung fucking Hoseok
Joons:
the fuck??
Jin must be joking
Yoongs:
nope
he even went as far as saying that Jung Hoseok is also J-Hope
Joons:
sure, of course he is
and I'm not gay as fuck
Yoongs:
I mean it makes sense
Joons:
what?
that all three names fit together
like
perfectly?
Yoongs:
fucking yes
I mean come on
it could be any other name with an H, a J and an O somewhere in the name
Joons:
true
the fact that I can't think of another name right now is definitely no evidence at all
and Hobi being all weird about him not wanting to know us who he is
I mean it could be everyone??
Yoongs:
yup
or the fact that he told us that he belongs to a kind of people we don't like
no fucking evidence at fucking all
Joons:
you say fuck or fucking awfully lot today
Yoongs:
because I fucking DONT KNOW HOW TO FUCKING FEEL ABOUT ALL OF THIS FUCKING SHIT
FUCK
Joons:
honestly, Jin must have been shitting with you
Hoseok, Hobi and J-Hope are three completely different people
Yoongs:
yeah, I mean what do they even have in common except for their names sounding alike???
Joons:
J-Hope is a well-known rapper and dancer, and he always wears a mask, like always
Hobi's caring, sweet and funny.. and yeah, maybe he's awfully good with music and he mentioned that he's studying something along music as well
but, Jung Hoseok.. except for the fact that he is in fact studying music production there's no fucking connection
Yoongs:
he's studying music production and dance.. or choreography or whatever
Joons:
fucking hell shit
Yoongs:
yeah
same
Joons:
they're the fucking same person
Yoongs:
yes
also, this is what Jin told me
screenshot attached
screenshot attached
Joons:
...
fuck
Yoongs:
yeah
fuck
Joons:
Yoongs
I think we really did him wrong
Yoongs:
well, no shit stating the obvious like an idiot
Joons:
you're a fucking idiot too
Yoongs:
I guess
whatever
Joons:
what the fuck are we gonna do about all this?
Yoongs:
I guess talk to him?
Joons:
and what are we supposed to say???
'sorry we've been hating on you like a bunch of jealous teenage girls'?????????????
Yoongs:
I mean it would be something
and about the girl part
'jealous gay assholes' would be more like it
Joons:
okay, this is the first time you openly said that you're gay, I'm proud, finally you got the memo too
but, what the fuck are we really supposed to do about Jung Hoseok aka J-Hope aka Hobi???
Yoongs:
I have no fucking clue
Joons:
should we ask Jimin???
or Tae???
or JIn???
or maybe even Kookie?????? because if he and Jin had be friends then Hobi obviously knows Kookie too
Yoongs:
fuck
all of this is a fucking mess
Joons:
yup
Yoongs:
fuck this shit
I'm making a gc
Joons:
okay
ㅡ
[ Yoongs created the group chat HELP OUR ASSES ]
[ Yoongs added Joons, Jiminie, Jin, Kookie and Tae to HELP OUR ASSES ]
Jiminie:
okay
what the fuck is this shit??
Tae:
^^^^
and why is he here?
Jin:
Tae..
Tae:
don't fucking 'tae' me
Jin:
I'm so, so sorry
Kookie:
he really is!!
he even got back into therapy!!
Jin:
Jeon Jungkook!!!
Kookie:
whoopsie
Tae:
what
Seokjin, do you maybe wanna explain?
Jin:
later, and privately
first we need to talk to Joon and Yoongs
I think I know what this is about.................
Jiminie:
this is a mess
but, I wanna know
Joon:
we know who Hobi is
Yoongs:
yup
Tae:
...
shit
Jiminie:
w
t
a
f
you fucks can't be serious
Kookie:
didn't Hobi say that he doesn't want them to know??
Jiminie:
that was the plan..
who the fuck told you!?
Jin:
I'm sorry
Jiminie:
okay
I fucking forgive you for all this shit you've done and pain you've caused and the next best thing you do is go and tell one of the two biggest assholes on campus who Hobi is?? the one person they hate more than whatever they hate the most and that make him feel miserable and the one he wants to be happy more than anything in the world!?!??!?!
Joons:
wait
Yoongs:
what
Jiminie:
F U CK
Tae:
oh, we're all so dead
if Hobi has another episode we gotta run
Jin:
he still has them?
Jiminie:
fucking worse than ever
Tae:
they don't get better, hyung
rather worse
Jin:
FUCK
Kookie:
Hobi hyung..
Joons:
would you maybe be so kind and tell us what this shit is about???
Yoongs:
^^^^^
Jin:
sigh
Jiminie:
wait
Jin:
okay
[ Jiminie changed the group chat name to BUNCH OF ASSHOLES ]
Jimine:
now you can talk
we're dead anyways
Tae:
true words
Kookie:
so true
Jin:
Yoongi, you remember how I told you about him keeping his lives separate.. like a few minutes ago??
Yoongs:
yeah??
Tae:
well, he has to
Joons:
what do you mean??
Jiminie:
Hobi has this condition where he switches between his alter egos depending on the situation or environment
Joons:
like a dissociative disorder?
Tae:
kinda, but also not really
it's not like they’re different people.. just different mind states of him.. but all of them do have their own personality and shit
it's really hard to explain
Joons:
no
I think I get it
Yoongs:
yeah, it's not too hard to just add one and one up
Jin:
well, you two oblivious assholes haven't been good with that in the past so we're just taking precautions
Joons:
I can't even be mad
Yoongs:
same
Jiminie:
well, usually he has control over the whole 'switching' process
more or less
he used to be able to completely keep his alter egos down at all times, but since a few years now he gives in to them rather easily
Tae:
he once said that life's easier that way, and also that he's not able to keep them down anymore
like inside his head
Jin:
I remember he always called them his 'villains'
Jiminie:
he still does, but now he accepted that they're him as well since they actually are him..
and now with the 'episodes' he sometimes get, he has even less control over it
Tae:
he sometimes even forgets about what he was doing during those episodes
and more often than not he gets a little bit.. very violent
Jiminie:
afterwards he feels so bad every single time
Tae:
yeah
and nowadays they happen more often than they used to
Jin:
fuck
I had no idea it was this bad already
Kookie:
I remember him trying to convince himself to have like literal other persons inside him and wanting to get medication
Jin:
yup, therapy used to help him
Joons:
why doesn't he go back into therapy?
Jin:
therapy's expensive, and he already needs all the money he gets for other stuff
Yoongs:
so, to make it short
we were hating on a person that just tried to somehow survive, without looking behind the facade
Jin:
yup
Jiminie:
yup
Tae:
yup
Kookie:
yup
Joons:
well, fuck
Yoongs:
shit
Joons:
what I really don't get tho is why he wants me and Yoongs to be happy?
Jiminie:
I can't believe we have to do this for him
Yoongs:
what?
Jiminie:
Hobi wants you guys to be happy because he knows how much in love you two are with each other
but you're so damn oblivious and he just wanted you two to be together
Jin:
yeah, and because of that he thought of a way to get you two to admit it even though he knows how much you hate him
that's how you got his number on your arms after the party
Jiminie:
god, I didn't know about that part
he's so stupid
I wanna punch his ass
Joons:
we were drunk
he knew we wouldn't remember shit
or him
Yoongs:
how the fuck did he manage all this
fuck
Jiminie:
there 's a whole other stuff to tell you or explain to you
but to be honest it's already shitty enough that we're the one you get to know this from
it's his business and we shouldn't be doing all this
Tae:
yeah, he will be hella hurt and I already fear the next few days
Jin:
I'll tell him it's my fault
don't worry
Tae:
Jinnie
you don't have to do this
we're in this shit together
Jin:
Jinnie..
it's been so long
Tae:
well, don't get used to it anytime soon
Jin:
I'm sorry
Jimine:
we get it, Jin
Joons:
fuck
what the fuck are we supposed to do?
Kookie:
you have to talk to him
there isn't much you or any of us can do
it's his decision how all of this will work out
ㅡ
[ group chat SINGSONGS ]
Yoongs:
okay, I can't do this any longer or wait any longer
Hobi, we know who you are
Hobi:
good joke
Joons:
it's not a joke, Hobi
Hobi:
you two can stop now
I won't tell you who I am even if you try with lying
Yoongi:
Hobi..
Joon:
Jung Hoseok
J-Hope
Hobi
we know who you are
Hobi:
fucking shit
fuck all of this
Yoongs:
please, we just wanna talk
Hobi:
who?
Joons:
...
Yoongs:
uhm..
Hobi:
w h o ?
Joons:
Jin, Jimin, Tae and Kookie
Yoongs:
fuck, Joon!!!!!
Hobi:
well, shit
this is just great
Joons:
Hoseok
we want to talk to you and apologize
Yoongs:
yeah
we've been fucking assholes
Hobi:
don't
just don't
I don't want your pity or you apologies
[ Hobi left the group chat ]
Joons:
fUCK
Yoongs:
SHIT SH IZ
ㅡ
[ group chat BUNCH OF ASSHOLES ]
Jiminie:
worst case scenario is that we won't see him again
like ever
Tae:
please, don't tell him
I'm so scared he'll just leave
Joons:
it's kinda too late for that
Kookie:
what do you mean?
Yoongs:
we already asked him..
and told him..
Jin:
FUCK
Notes:
:D oh, the ideas in my head are blossoming like flowers in spring.
also, this is me.. I really wanted to post a selfie of me here.. but sources from IG won't work here with html editing so.. sorreh..
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Chapter 16: 016
Chapter Text
[ private chat Jiminie and Taetae ]
Jiminie:
Taetae
have you heard anything from Hobi yet?
Taetae:
nope :/
his phone's still turned off and ugh
I hate it
Jiminie:
I'm so damn worried
and frustrated
Taetae:
yeah, me too
Jiminie:
I hope he'll come back home soon
it's been five days already
Taetae:
he's been staying away for way longer before
I just hope he won't get himself into some stupid shit again
Jiminie:
we've spent the last few days looking for him everywhere
what if he left for good?
Taetae:
nah, I don't think so
Jiminie:
why?
Taetae:
he wouldn't just do that..
Jiminie:
I wouldn't be so sure about that
Taetae:
he left his notebook behind
he usually never leaves without it
Jiminie:
this isn't one of these 'usual' situations tho
Taetae:
tru, but if we aren't enough reason for him to come back home then the notebook will be for sure
Jiminie:
I really hope you're right
Taetae:
we'll see
Jiminie:
tbh, I still hope that we're enough reason for him to come home tho
Taetae:
yeah
same here
wold hurt a fucking lot if it were different
Jiminie:
sigh
I'm worried
Taetae:
actually
there's something I meant to ask you
Jiminie:
shoot
Taetae:
why didn't you tell me that you've been meeting up with Jin?
Jiminie:
oh, please
Taetae not this again
Taetae:
I really wanna know, Jiminie
Jiminie:
ugh, alright
I've already told you that I only met him when he's been visiting Kookie at the same time as I did
we haven't been in contact besides that
Taetae:
meh, I believe you
it's just.. I dunno?
I wish you had told me?
Jiminie:
I wasn't sure if you were ready to know?
I didn't wanna hurt you
and tbh, the things he told me are things you two should talk about
Taetae:
what if he lies to me again?
Jiminie:
I don't think he will
he's trying real hard, Taetae
Taetae:
I don't know
I can't really trust him
not anymore
Jiminie:
you don't have to trust him, at least not yet
have you even tried talking to him yet?
Taetae:
nope
I mean, he has been texting me because of Hobi and well.. he has been asking me to meet with him and talk but I don't want to see him yet
Jiminie:
you don't have to meet him
just call him
Taetae:
I don't wanna hear his voice
Jiminie:
Tae..
Taetae:
okay, I don't want him to hear me
I don't trust myself with him
and I don't want him to know if I start crying again
Jiminie:
then ask him if texting would be fine with him too
Taetae:
maybe I should just wait
Jiminie:
waiting doesn't make anything better
you two really need to talk
you're both grown ups after all
Taetae:
I don't know
Jiminie:
about what?
being a grown up?
well, in your case I don't know either tbh
Taetae:
wow
just wow
Jiminie:
he's honestly trying, Tae
Kookie keeps me updated about the status of his therapy and it's going fine
at least try to talk to him
Taetae:
mhm, okay
Jiminie:
by the time you two finished talking, Hobi might be back already
Taetae:
I hope so
Jiminie:
now go, talk
Taetae:
btw, what about you and Kookie?
Jiminie:
byebye~
gotta go~
Taetae:
JIMINIE!!!!!!!!!
ㅡ
[ private chat Seokjin and Tae ]
Seokjin:
Tae, do you know where Hobi is?
or maybe Jiminie?
Tae:
nope
neither one of us knows
Seokjin:
Tae
you texted back
Tae:
yeah, I did
surprise
Seokjin:
are you maybe ready to talk?
Tae:
only on one condition
or rather two
Seokjin:
sure
everything
Tae:
no talking, only texting
and you have to be completely honest with me, and in return I'll be completely honest with you too
Seokjin:
of course, Tae
Tae:
uhm, I don't really know where to start..
Seokjin:
well, you don't really have to say anything anyways..
I'm the one who has to do the talking after all
I fucked up
not you
Tae:
okay
Seokjin:
you see, I want to apologize a hundred more times than I already did.. and it probably still won't be enough, but I want you to know that I’m sorry
really sorry
and I want to be completely honest with you, just like you asked me to
Tae:
okay
has it something to do with you being in therapy?
Seokjin:
yeah
I have been in therapy before when I was younger..
actually I've been to therapy two times already
the first time I went to therapy I actually got to know Hobi, back then we were really young
Tae:
Jin, why?
Seokjin:
ever since I've been little I had this problem with trusting people.. when I was younger I even had trouble talking to people and, one day, my parents sent me to some kind of speaking therapy because they thought that's what I needed and what would help me
however, the therapist noticed that me stuttering all the time and whatever wasn't the real problem after all
and as I grew older, this distrust in people changed into something similar to anger
I constantly felt like they were being fake, using me and all this bullshit
and the combination of it all resulted in me 'paying it back' to them by using them and hurting them emotionally because I knew I was good at it
Tae:
but, I never did anything to hurt you
Seokjin:
that's completely true
you never did anything to hurt me in any way, but I hurt you and I knew I hurt you.. which turned into regret and pain and this resulted in me doing even more shit because I wasn't good enough
and even though I loved you so much, it wasn't enough to make me break my old habits
and I hated myself even more for that
which, again, caused me to do even more bullshit
Tae:
so, this whole distrust evolved throughout the years and resulted in self-hatred?
Seokjin:
not hate, rather anger towards myself.. I think you could also call it disappointment?
in the end, I just didn't want to seem weak, or like anybody could control me
Tae:
this turned from something small into something really big, Jinnie
Seokjin:
yeah, but I didn't really have any control of it
it's not like I wanted it all to happen
Tae:
you must have noticed the development within you tho
Seokjin:
I did
but, I refused to accept it because it made me look weak, or feel weak, and then I would get angry and disappointed again
and all this shit would just start over again
Tae:
so, in order to prevent me from hurting you one day.. you hurt me instead to protect yourself from the pain and to somehow find an excuse out of all of this instead of facing what's important?
Seokjin:
yeah
you could put it like that
Tae:
that's stupid
you knew how much I liked you
Seokjin:
and I liked you just as much back
I just wasn't able to trust you, or myself with you
it just wasn't enough
Tae:
you could have just talked to me instead of cheating on me
right in front of me
Seokjin:
I wanted to
I even tried, but in the end I never managed to
Tae:
I would have helped you
Seokjin:
and I'm so damn thankful for that
Tae:
so, how are you now?
Seokjin:
I don't know
I just started taking medication but it will take some time until they show any effects
Tae:
can I somehow help you now?
Seokjin:
mhm, if you're okay with it I would like to meet you.. and talk to you in person again
spend some time with you
Tae:
I don't know if I can do that just yet
I really want to help you, but I don't know if I can do that
Seokjin:
sure, don't worry
I will wait for as long as it will take you to be okay with it, or with me
Tae:
thanks
you honestly hurt me, so so much
I loved you so much, and you just threw it away like it was nothing
Seokjin:
I know
and I regret what I did
Tae:
I've been crying so much
I knew how you were before we started dating, people warned me, but in my head you were still the right one
Seokjin:
and I will do anything to make you think that again
Tae:
I'm not that easy, Jinnie
we may be on some kind of talking basis again, but we're far from anything remotely similar to lovers or even friends
Seokjin:
as I said, I will wait for as long as it takes
Tae:
you really want me back?
Seokjin:
more than anything in the world
Tae:
Jinnie, please
don't make me cry
not again
Seokjin:
I'm so sorry!
I never wanted to make you cry!!
Tae:
Jinnie..
Seokjin:
yeah?
Tae:
I miss you
I miss Hobi..
Seokjin:
I miss you too, babe
and I miss Hobi too
Tae:
I want him to come back home
he has been gone for far too long now
Seokjin:
he will
Tae:
I'm not so sure about that
even if I told Jiminie that I was
Seokjin:
you're a good friend
Tae:
but I need to be a better one
Notes:
the next chapter will finally be a sugamon one.
also, now that namjoon changed his stage name.. did people come up with new ship names for him???? i mean, it's been some time already but up until today i never actually asked myself that..
Chapter 17: 017
Notes:
aka. the chapter with the title 'how to properly use the word 'fucking' in sentences of any kind.'
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
[ private chat Joons and Yoongs ]
Yoongs:
Joons
Joons:
yeah?
Yoongs:
have your heard anything from Hobi?
Joons:
nah, unfortunately not
I sent him like 50 messages
but he didn't answer
hell, he didn't even read them
Yoongs:
yeah, same here
except I sent him about 70
Joons:
hyung
this is not a fucking competition
Yoongs:
I know
but it's also the truth
Joons:
you really do feel bad, huh?
Yoongs:
well, of course
don't you??
Joons:
I feel terrible
everyone's just pissed and sad since he left
Yoongs:
fuck
it's like earth swallowed him whole
Joons:
I honestly am worried about him
Yoongs:
yeah, me too
I also want to fucking apologize to him
Joons:
fuck
why did we ever start being such assholes to him!?
Yoongs:
probably cause everyone was as well
Joons:
that's not even true tho
Yoongs:
yeah, I know
Joons:
the both of us did a whole fucking lot so people would hate him even more
Yoongs:
fuck
I know
can you please shut up!?
Joons:
no, damn it
we basically made his life a living hellhole
Yoongs:
can you please stop talking about it?!?!
it's already fucking bad as is
I feel terrible
Joons:
yeah, me too
Yoongs:
what the fuck are we supposed to do??
Joons:
I honestly have no fucking idea
Yoongs:
have you been in contact with the others?
Joons:
kinda
Yoongs:
?????
Joons:
well, Jin's kinda busy with therapy himself and in his free time he's roaming the streets with Jimin, looking for Hobi whenever they're not with Jungkook
Yoongs:
what about Tae?
Joons:
Jimin told me a few days ago that Taehyung was so worried that he actually got sick because of it
he's on bed rest now
Yoongs:
fucking christ
Joons:
yeah
and Jungkook is basically freaking out because he wants to go looking for him but he isn't allowed to leave the hospital
Yoongs:
how about the both of us go check the city tomorrow?
Joons:
we have classes tomorrow, hyung
Yoongs:
Hobi is more important than classes
Joons:
Yoongi
Yoongs:
yeah?
Joons:
do you honestly believe we
as in the both of us
are actually allowed to be worried about him??
I mean we have been assholes to him
Yoongs:
maybe we aren't allowed to hope for him ever forgiving us
but I wouldn't ever forgive me if I would do nothing in order to find him
I need to at least try
Joons:
yeah
okay, okay, you're right
Yoongs:
actually
Joons:
what?
Yoongs:
I think before we actually go looking for Hobi we should talk about the both of us
Joons:
you mean the obvious problem everyone has been seeing for quite some time except us?
Yoongs:
I think we just never wanted to see it
Joons:
that's your opinion maybe
Yoongs:
wtf
if it wasn't' for Hobi neither one of us would know today
Joons:
actually, I did know
and I accepted it
Yoongs:
why the fuck didn't you talk to me about it then?
like
I thought we were best friends
Joons:
we were, we are
but I just couldn't risk it
Yoongs:
you wouldn't have risked shit tho
Joons:
you only accepted it because of Hobi
honestly, if it weren't for him then I'm pretty sure you would have run away screaming if I ever dared to say shit to you
Yoongs:
I always fucking loved you
Joons:
maybe that's true
however, for the most part it has been something along the lines of brotherly love
Yoongs:
oh, you have no fucking idea at all
Joons:
well, you never fucking talked to me
all you did was sleep with person after person
one night stands everywhere
and your usual cold behavior didn't help at all
Yoongs:
okay, now you're acting like you haven't know me at all throughout the last few years
Joons:
the both of us have been idiots okay
Yoongs:
yeah
and it needed a beautiful soul to be destroyed in order for us to figure it out
Joons:
we fucking need to find Hoseok
Yoongs:
yeah, we really do need to
and we need to apologize
and maybe try making him our friend
Joons:
I wanna fucking help him through shit
Yoongs:
yeah, me too
Joons:
what if he's gone tho?
Yoongs:
don't even talk about that shit tho
Joons:
it's just that when the others talked about him to us it seemed like he was about to just end it all any day now
Yoongs:
fucking shut up okay
I need him to be okay
Joons:
fuck
Yoongs:
Joonie
Joons:
yeah?
Yoongs:
I fucking am in love with you
Joons:
fuck
I'm in fucking love with you too
Yoongs:
fuck
my heart
it's in pain
but i also feel happy
fuck
I hate all these feelings
Joons:
do you wanna come over?
we can try coming up with ideas on where to look for Hobi first?
Yoongs:
sure
can I sleep over at your place?
Joons:
of course
Yoongs:
okay
gotta get ready for ma boi then
Joons:
ma boi
fuck
is this happening?
like for real?
Yoongs:
I just thought the same fucking thing
Joons:
is this real?
Yoongs:
I don't know
but I need it to be real
I need you to be real
Joons:
fuck
why are you so damn cute
and why am I blushing?!
Yoongs:
damn all this
I need to see you
and the pink on your cheeks
Joons:
are you coming soon?
Yoongs:
already left my fucking home
Joons:
hurry the fuck up
Yoongs:
I
am
sprinting
Joons:
you're not sprinting fast enough asshole
Yoongs:
fucking bitch shut up
Joons:
I love you
Yoongs:
I love you too
ㅡ
Yoongs:
okay
boi
where did u go!?
Joons:
toilet
Yoongs:
omg
tmi
Joons:
u fucking wanted to know where I went
Yoongs:
yeah, because when I woke up you were gone
Joons:
again
toilet
Yoongs:
again
tmi
Joons:
you make no fucking sense
Yoongs:
yeah, well us being in love with each other doesn't make any sense either
Joons:
yeah
I know
Yoongs:
fuck
Joons
Joons:
yeah?
Yoongs:
I had a fucking weird dream
Joons:
what was it about?
Yoongs:
I can't tell you
Joons:
why??
Yoongs:
cause I just can't
Joons:
uhm, okay then
was it a bad dream or a good dream???
Yoongs:
I'm not sure about that tbh
Joons:
did something special happen?
Yoongs:
well, yeah
and it was weird
Joons:
honestly, I kinda wanna be mad at you for starting something and then not telling me about it
but for whatever fucking reason I just can't be mad at you
Yoongs:
that's because I'm so sweet
Joons:
****too sweet
Yoongs:
aaaaw
aren't you a cutie pie??
Joons:
I don't know about me but what I do know is that I like your sweet ass
Yoongs:
oh shut up
you didn't even get any
Joons:
doesn't change the fact that I like your sweet ass
Yoongs:
keep on dreaming boi
Joons:
I will ;D
Yoongs:
naughty one you are
Joons:
aaaaaaaaaanyways
back to your dream?
what was it about? honestly?
Yoongs:
it was just you and me and
Joons:
and what?
Yoongs:
Hobi
Joons:
oh, okay
Yoongs:
I promise I don't know why he was there!
Joons:
please
don't worry about it
Yoongs:
I don't know
Joons:
what di we do?
Yoongs:
nothing much tbh
we were in your room, right here
all three of us on your bed and we were talking
well, Hobi was talking
and he was crying
and neither one of us seemed to really care
Joons:
this sounds an awfully lot like reality
I mean kinda
Yoongs:
he was crying
and we didn't listen
and then he just stood up and walked away
we watched him leave
then you got up and left as well
and then I woke up and you were gone
Joons:
so you were freaking out because I wasn't sleeping beside you?
Yoongs:
yeah
and because Hobi just walked away and we didn't care
like at all
Joons:
again, it sounds like reality
Yoongs:
I feel so bad for how we made him feels
Joons:
he wanted us to be happy
Yoongs:
he did
Joons:
I am happy
just not completely happy
Yoongs:
yeah
me neither
Joons:
how are we supposed to find him
Yoongs:
I don't know if we can
Joons:
we can try
Yoongs:
yeah, and we will
ㅡ
[ group chat SINGSONGS ]
Joons:
Hobi?
I don't know if you're reading this
but we want you to know that we want you to come back
Yoongs:
everyone just wants you to come back
we want you to be safe and know that you're okay
and just simply with us
please
Joons:
please
Notes:
aaaaaaaahhhh, I have the next few chapters kinda planned out, but at the same time it's kinda hard to write them atm. no idea why, honestly. it's just hard.
Chapter 18: 018
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
[ group chat BUNCH OF ASSHOLES ]
Jin:
whoop whoop GO KOOKLES
Joons:
wait
did I miss something?
Yoongs:
^^^^
Jiminie:
Kookie's got surgery today
Tae:
oh fuck
Jin:
don't worry, Taetae
he'll be fine
Tae:
don't call me that
Jin:
sure
I'm sorry
Jiminie:
god
could you like maybe talk about your love problems somewhere else?????
this chat is now only about Kookie's surgery
Yoongs:
and how much you love him
Jiminie:
THAT NOBODY HAS TO KNOW THANK YOU VERY MUCH
Kookie:
I know tho
Jiminie:
I know you do
I made sure of that ;)
Jin:
okay
okay, no
what'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN!?
Joons:
it means that they fucked
Jiminie:
we didn't!!
Kookie:
yeah, it was nice
Tae:
HELLO HELLO WHAT EVEN IS A BEST FRIEND I AM SHOOK
Yoongs:
did you mean 'Jungshook'?
Jin:
I DID NOT WANT TO KNOW THAT
I AM NOT OKAY
Tae:
ME NEITHER
Joons:
I can see why they dated
Yoongs:
^
Jiminie:
^
Kookie:
^
Tae:
shut up everYONE
we're not dating anymore and now shush
Jin:
I want to date you tho
Yoongs:
uuuuuh, the juice
Joons:
suddenly I wanna break up with you
Yoongs:
your bad
you're stuck with me now
Kookie:
okay okA Y WHAT DID I MISS
Jiminie:
this chat should have been about Kookie and his surgery only
however
suddenly
I feel the urge to tell all of you how much I hate you
Jin:
wow
this whole chat thingy here is just one big mess
Yoongs:
yeah
this chat should only be about Hobi tho
Joons:
Hobi..
Jiminie:
YOU ASSHOLES STAY AWAY FROM MY BEST FRIEND
Tae:
EXACTLY
STAY AWAY FROM HIM!!!!
Yoongs:
well
it's not like we have another option atm
Joons:
^^^
Kookie:
uhm
okay
sure if you say so
keep telling yourself that
Yoongs:
well, did he respond to any of you!?
Joons:
nope
Jin:
that he isn't responding to the both of you is no surprise at all
but he didn't respond to me either
Jiminie:
no
and it makes me cry on a daily basis
so shut up
Kookie:
Baaaabe :((
but me neither
Tae:
I see
I missed a whole lot of things
one of my best friends is gone and doesn't respond
the other one keeps secrets
I feel like I'm done with all of u guys
seriously
Jin:
oh no Tae please
please
just give me another chance
Joons:
again
do your relationship somewhere else
Tae:
oh shut the fuck up you brain
Yoongi:
brain
what an insult
you got roasted, Joons
roasted
Jiminie:
and you Mister 'I don't give a shit, I don't give a fuck about hurting other people even though they just ant me to be happy' can go suck Joons dick somewhere else cause I'm done with you and I kinda wanna hurt the both of you for hurting my sunshine and I am rambling because I am screaming at my phone and I really hope you can hear it all through seoul because I am about to leave this fucking apartment and come kick your sorry asses because I am super mad at the both of you and I am sure Kookie, Jin and Taetae would be glad to help me you sorry excuse of a motherfucking human being
Tae:
wow
okay
I'm helping
Jin:
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Kookie:
you hurt bae = you dead
you make bae scream = you dead
honestly whatever you do to bae = you dead
so ^^^^^^^^^^^^
Jin:
that’s the spirit!!!
Joons:
Yoongs
I think we are royally fucked
Yoongs:
oh, please
a walking mochi and his friends can't scare me
Joons:
Yoongs
you're a fool if you believe Jiminie can't rip you apart
Yoongs:
ugh
whatever
come at me mochi
Jiminie:
you'll regret that
Tae:
ANYWAYS
back to the Kookie-Jiminie-Fucking-Thing
Jin:
NO
N O
NONONONO
NOPE
Tae:
shut up
I wanna know
like
did you do it at the hospital
like in your bed
like in your room
Jiminie:
oh my god
Tae
nooooooo
also, didn't you say you don't wanna know???????
Tae:
first, that was several minutes ago
second, Kookie, please, talk
Kookie:
uhm
yeah
hospital
Jin:
OMG NOOOOO
ALL THE INNOCENCE IS GONE
HELLO IT'S MEEEE
Tae:
ignore him
go on
details
Jiminie:
OMG NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Kookie:
there's nothing much to talk about
it just happened
in my bed
and Jiminie is fucking cute
Jiminie:
o///////////o
Yoongs:
suddenly I wanna know more too?
Jiminie:
fuck
off
asshole
Joons:
oh, lord
Jin:
I am screaMING
Tae:
yeah, yeah
anything juice to tell us?
Kookie:
well
we couldn't lock the door so I guess it was a little daring?
Jin:
OHHHHHHHHHH MY GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWD I COULD HAVE WALKED INTO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU FUCKINGG!=!=!?!`??!E$ZHEJ
Jiminie:
actually, you kinda did
Jin:
wait
wHAT!=/&%&??????????
Jiminie:
well, you called Kookie to tell him that you were coming to visit why we were still at it
had to finish rather quickly afterwards
was good tho
Kookie:
and most definitely not the only time
Jiminie:
hahaha, yeah
I just remembered he walked into the room once while we did some other shit
Jin:
ypou
did
WHAT!?
Joons:
I mean it could be anything those two are into
but I bet it involved at least one dick
Jiminie:
at least
yeah
Tae:
ohhhh I love my best friends
both of them get just perv and dirty sometimes~~~~~
Yoongs:
what do you mean both of them?
Tae:
o.o'
Jiminie:
HE DIDN'T MEAN ANYTHING BY THAT BYEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Joons:
so, Hobi can be a perv too?
Jiminie:
maybe
but he's not here SO WE'RE NOT TALKING ABOUT THAT
and also not about me, okay????
okay
Tae:
hey
we're three guys living under the same roof, who don't have a problem with helping each other out
yeah
love it
Jin:
I suddenly wanna cry and then jump outta window
Tae:
sure
go for it
Yoongs:
wow
Joons:
can you feel the love tonight?
Jiminie:
Tae
that was harsh
Tae:
and I should care why?
he didn’t care while cheating right in front of me
Jin:
I am so sorry
Tae:
sometimes sorry doesn't do it
Jiminie:
okay, I am mad at Kim Seokjin again
fucker
Kookie:
this whole thing is a mess
I want this to be about Hobi again
and how we can make him come home
Jiminie:
Hobi..
Tae:
oh noooo
Jiminie please don't cry!!!
Joons:
we rally gotta get him back
Yoongs:
yeah
I just don't know why
Kookie:
fuck
the surgery is in an hour
Jin:
don't worry about it, Kookles
everything will be alright
Jiminie:
I'll be waiting here until you come out of surgery, love
Kookie:
thank you
Taetae:
don't worry about it
I'm sure it will be just fine
Joons:
yeah, kid
you're strong
Yoongs:
I'm sure you'll be just fine
Kookie:
I really wanna talk to Hobi now
he always managed to make me feel better
Jiminie:
yeah..
Jin:
I'll text him
ㅡ
[ private chat Hobi and Jinnie ]
Jinnie:
hey, Hobi
I know you haven't been talking to either one of us for quite some time now, and I won't try to make you talk to us either
however, I wanted to let you know about Kookie's surgery..
well, he's going into surgery in about an hour and I just wanted tou to know that
and don't worry!
he'll be okay!
Hobi:
thank you
I'll make sure to talk to him
Jin:
thanks
ㅡ
[private chat Hobi and Kookie ]
Hobi:
good luck for your surgery today
I'm sure everything will be just fine
Kookie:
hyung?
I can't believe you texted me
Hobi:
don't get used to it
I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you
Kookie:
will you come visit me?
if I survive I mean
Hobi:
you'll be fine, Kooks
Kookie:
I don't know..
Hobi:
trust me
Kookie:
I do
Hobi:
well, then
Kookie:
will you come visit me?
Hobi:
too much of a risk
Kookie:
please?
Hobi:
maybe
if I'm sure neither one of the others might come visit as well
Kookie:
they don't have to know you're with me
Hobi:
maybe
Kookie:
I can tell them to not come visit me for a while
something about being tired or whatever
Hobi:
sigh
okay, I'm gonna visit you once you're awake
Kookie:
thank you, hyung!
Hobi:
promise me you won't tell tho
Kookie:
I promise
Hobi:
good
Kookie:
but, hyung
Hobi:
yeah?
Kookie:
they really miss you
Hobi:
that's not my problem, Kooks
Kookie:
I know
I just wanted to let you know
Hobi:
sure
thanks
Notes:
hey, so, yeah.. kinda important chapter and kinda just a filler :D
Chapter 19: 019
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
To be honest, there were a whole lot of things that could have gone wrong that day, and Hoseok was also aware of the fact that that day could downhill within seconds. However, he couldn't just ignore the fact that it's been several days after Jungkook's surgery. He was feeling like he was sitting on needles, he just needed to know if Jungkook was okay, even if that meant that he would have to take the risk of possibly running into one of the people he didn't want to see. All of this was for Jungkook, and for Jungkook he would be able to take the risk of seeing either Yoongi or Namjoon.
It's been weeks since he had left all of them behind, and throughout all this time it seemed that the six of them have been growing closer day after day. Hoseok didn't mind at all. To be frank, he enjoyed watching them for a distance and checking up on them to make sure they were doing alright. He couldn't stand being anywhere near them, especially anywhere near Yoongi and Namjoon, but the want within them to make sure they were okay and safe was stronger than the pain he was constantly feeling.
Jungkook was more important than any kind of pain he could ever be suffering from, and so he found himself in front of the big hospital in which Jungkook still resided after all this time. He had tried to get to know how Jungkook was without the others finding out about him stalking them. However, for whatever reason, nobody seemed to talk much about it, not even Jungkook himself. And t scared him. Honestly, he didn't know if that was a good sign or a bad one, and in the end, his worry for Jungkook got the best of him.
He looked up the façade of the building, shivering as he remembered all those times he had been there, being patched up by nurses and doctors, whoever's had time for him. A bitter feeling run through his whole body, causing him to shiver again and suddenly he was angry. Though, he swallowed his anger down, trying not to think of all the things that made him feel constantly angry these days. He didn't really know what was going on with him, what was wrong with him, but surely something was, and more often than not those god awful headaches he has had as a teenager returned. He had been in therapy back then, he remembered like it was yesterday, and yet, at the same time, he couldn't remember a thing. He took a deep breath in and then sighed. His head was confusing, even to himself though he had been living with it his whole life. These days his mind seemed to make even less sense with each passing day, and maybe under all the anger he was feeling lately, there was also a part of him that was afraid, afraid of what was happening to him, and if there was a possibility that he was losing himself, again, and again, and again, and again, and gain, and again..
He shook his head sharply, rolling his shoulders until he felt his neck cracking a few times. Something similar t relief washed through his veins, and then he finally took the steps into the hospital.
He hated everything about that place, from those awfully monotone white walls to the smells of sickness and even death. What he hated about the place even more though, were the people who were obviously really sick, maybe even at a stage were their death was imminent and they were just waiting for death to finally come and take them. He felt bad for them, but he also hated them, because it seemed like to them he was an open book. They looked at him as if they could see right through him, through all the pain, the anger and sadness. They made him feel uncomfortable, and somewhere at the back of his mind he knew that they couldn't do anything about it. They were innocent, poor human beings, and yet he hated them.
He felt sorry for them.
He felt bad for hating them.
And yet he couldn't stop.
They angered him.
He didn't even realize when he arrived at Jungkook's room, he just stood in front of it. He didn't know how long he's been standing there, though suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder and he shot around to look at whoever dared to touch him. He would hurt them, he would make them pay. However, as fast as the anger seemed to take over him, it dissipated again as he found Jungkook looking at him, worry written all over his face. However, Hoseok also noticed other emotions in the younger's eyes, something similar to confusion, but also relief? Maybe because he was there, with the younger. Maybe because Jungkook finally knew that he was okay? Hoseok didn't know. He didn't care. He was just happy that Jungkook seemed to be okay, and on his feet.
He was on his feet.
"Fuck! Jungkook! Y-You're w-walking!" Hoseok exclaimed in surprise, and maybe a little bit too loud as suddenly people started to stare at the both of them. He decided to ignore them, and obviously Jungkook did as well as he just smiled at his hyung.
"Let's go inside." The younger said, motioning towards his room with the hand that wasn't still resting on Hoseok's shoulder. Hoseok then nodded after a few seconds of being in a weird stupor.
As soon as both of them entered the room, Jungkook closed the door behind them, sighing heavily. Hoseok wanted to turn around again to repeat what he had said seconds ago, though suddenly Jungkook was rushing past him towards the windows, opening them in a hurry as if he was suffocating. Hoseok blinked a few times, again in a stupor and just watching the younger. Jungkook visibly relaxed after the windows in his room were completely open and a soft breezing followed. Jungkook then turned arou7nd, and as fast as he has been at the windows, he was suddenly right in front of Hoseok, hugging him close. For a second Hoseok had no idea what to do, but it didn't take him too long until he closed his arms around Jungkook's body.
They spent a few seconds like this until they parted, Jungkook moving back to his bed and sitting on it. Hoseok stayed in place, watching the younger. Jungkook then turned his face towards him, smiling brightly, and for the first time in weeks, Hoseok felt something similar to being home.
"Hyung, I'm taller than you!" Jungkook exclaimed happily, still smiling at the older. Hoseok laughed at that, finally moving over to sit down beside Jungkook. He reached up to ruffle the younger's hair.
"How are you feeling?" he asked, smiling back at the younger, bathing in his happiness.
"Honestly?" he started, sighing but he was still smiling. "Exhausted!" he said, falling back onto his bed, and the bed creaked. Hoseok followed him with his eyes, watching his every movement.
"Why?" he ended up asking. Jungkook looked at him and then sat back up to look down at his feet.
"I haven't been able to walk properly for quite some time, and before that I've always been in pain because of y damaged nerves." The younger said. Hoseok could hear the exhaustion in the youngers voice, but there was also happiness.
"I'm so proud of you." Hoseok stated after they spent several minutes in silence, just enjoying each other's presence and looking out of the window.
"Thank you." Jungkook answered. "I wasn't sure if I'd make it." He continued. Hoseok felt a sharp pain flashing through his heart at that, though he didn't flinch. He didn't want to make the younger worry about him. Though too late he realized that Jungkook still caught it an something was flashing in his eyes, something similar to realization. Hoseok didn't know though what the younger could have possibly realized. Hoseok choose to ignore it.
"I told you, you'd be okay."
"I know, but still-"
"Nah, stop. I told you, and here you are. All well and rested and even walking on your own feet."
They spent the rest of the day together, talking about nothing much. Hoseok knew Jungkook wanted to ask him about where he's been all these weeks and what he's been up to. Though, every time Hoseok thought Jungkook would finally asked him, the younger ended up asking him about anything else about that. Hoseok figured that the younger was able to relate to him in some way, and thus decided to keep his distance.
"They miss you, all of them." The younger said, looking at his hands. "I miss you." He continued. Hoseok felt bad at that, and yet the anger was back, flaming up inside him and making him want to run as fast and as far away as possible.
"Kookie, you can't miss someone you don't even know." He answered, swallowing down the anger within him once more. He then got up, looking at the clock, realizing that he should have left over an hour ago. Jungkook shot up beside him, taking his hands in his own.
"Please, don't leave again! We miss you so, so much!" the younger whined. It broke Hoseok's heart, though he pulled away, smiling weakly at the younger.
"You can't miss someone you don't even know." He repeated before he turned and then left. He knew Jungkook was okay, and that was enough for him. It was enough. It surely was enough. He knew it was enough. He was pretty sure it was enough. It was enough.
It wasn't enough.
It wasn't enough.
It wasn't enough.
It wasn't.
Again, and again, and again, and again, and again..
It wasn't enough.
He wasn't enough.
Notes:
surprise.
Chapter 20: 020
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
[ private chat Hobi and Kookie ]
Kookie:
why did you leave so suddenly?
I couldn't even really say bye to you
Hobi:
visiting hours were over
Kookie:
we both know that's not what made you leave
Hobi:
Kookie
if I'd have wanted to keep talking about it, I would have stayed
Kookie:
I know
it's just that
I meant what I said
I miss you
all of us miss you
it's just not the same without you
Hobi:
you do realize there has never been a 'we' or 'us' until after I left?
Kookie:
I know it may have never seemed like it
but in the end there has always been an 'us'
like from the beginning
the 'us' just grew over time
and unfortunately also shrunk over time
but now we're all back together, where we should be
all of us except for you
Hobi:
Kookie, you can talk all you want
it won't change a thing
I have to go now
Kookie:
please, stay
Hobi:
there are things I have to take care of
Kookie:
like what?
Hobi:
like making sure I get some money
Kookie:
please, hyung, don't get yourself in even more trouble
Hobi:
bye
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[ group chat SINGSONGS ]
Yoongs:
Hobi
I really don't know if you're reading these or just leaving us on read but we really need to talk to you
Joons:
yeah
you've been gone for such a long time
we honestly don't know what to say or do anymore to get you back
Yoongs:
yeah
however, this is about something else
our music production professor asked us if we knew where you've been
because apparently he's got a song you edited a while ago and he wanted you to have it back?
I don't know why he won't just send it to you..
Joons:
he didn't tell us why he had your song, don't worry about that
he just told us to tell you that you should reach out to him because he wanted to talk to you about the lyrics?
Yoongs:
he seemed pretty worried and yeah
we just wanted to let you know
Hobi:
thanks for letting me know
Joons:
omg
Hobi!
Yoongs:
don't scare him away!!
how are you??
Hobi:
guess, I'm alright
dunno
Yoongs:
oh, uhm sure
Joons:
where are you?
Hobi:
honestly
I don't really know
not that I care, really
Yoongs:
what do you mean?
Hoseok where are you?????
Hobi:
again, I dunno
woke up here after some shit went down yesterday
anyways
did he tell you how I'm supposed to contact him?
Joons:
he wanted to talk to you in person if I remember correctly
Hobi:
oh well
guss I'll have to come visit university
fun
Yoongs:
could we meet up?
Hobi:
honestly, nope
Joons:
please
Hobi:
no, thanks
I really don't want to
Yoongs:
please, we just wanna apologize in person
Hobi:
I don't need your apologies
Joons:
please
we miss you
Hobi:
it's funny how everyone suddenly tells me they miss me
they didn't before
you didn't before
yo hated me
for no fucking reason
and now you fucking tell me you miss me?
go fuck off
Yoongs:
but we really do miss you
Hobi:
I said it before and I'll do it again, one last time
you can't miss someone you don't even know
Yoongs:
we do miss you tho
Joons:
yeah, we really do
Hobi:
honestly
how dare you fuckers tell me you miss me after all the shit you put me through
I helped your sorry asses and all I get is your hate
at least I'd rather dal with hope than no feelings at all
Yoongs:
please
Hobi..
Hobi:
shut up
I need to go
Joons:
tell us where you are so we can get you home
Hobi:
again
I don't know where I am
and fucking shut up
leave me alone
Yoongs:
I'll just ask Jimin and Tae
maybe they know where you are
Hobi:
they don't
stop looking for me
Joons:
but we want to find you
Hobi:
and I don't want you to find me so fuck off
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[ group chat BUNCH OF ASSHOLES ]
Yoongs:
so, Hobi finally replied to us
Tae:
omg he did!?
Jiminie:
how is he???
is he alright???
please, tell me he's alright!!
Joons:
we honestly don't really know
Yoongs:
all we know is that he seems to have had an eventful night and now doesn't know where he is
he also doesn't want us to find him or even look for him
Kookie:
oh, he visited me a few yesterday
Jin:
why the hell didn't you tell us???????
Kookie:
I don't think he would have liked it if I told you
Jiminie:
I need to see my best friend and make sure that he's okay
Tae:
same here
I haven't seen him in way too long
Joons:
do you have any idea where he might be?
Jiminie:
probably somewhere downtown
I guess he's been out fighting again, or doing drug stuff
Joons:
he does drugs?
Jiminie:
he doesn't do them
he just sells them sometimes when he doesn't have enough money left
Yoongs:
how the fuck does he do it
Jin:
and how the fuck did he get involved into all that
Tae:
well, it's a rather long story
and not really our place to tell
Joons:
well, it doesn't matter now
do you have any idea where he could be?
Jiminie:
there's a club he went to rather often
I don't remember the name
Tae:
me neither
but I know that's where he got his jobs and stuff
Yoongs:
do you have any idea where it is?
Jin:
a club?
Kookie:
I know where it is
Jin:
what??
how??
Jiminie:
^^^^
Tae:
^^^
Joons:
where?
Kookie:
when Hobi hyung left last night he lost some paper thingy
like a business card
Jiminie:
okay
tell us
Kookie:
the club is called Cypher
the address is xxxxx
Yoongs:
fuck
I know that place
okay
good
me and Joons gonna get Hobi
Jiminie:
make sure he comes home
me and Tae need to make sure he's okay
Jin:
wh about me and Kookie?
do you expect us to just stay at home and wait????
Joons:
go to their place and wait there for us
Kookie:
make sure you get Hobi hyung
Yoongs:
we will
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[ group chat SINGSONGS ]
Joons:
we're coming for you
Yoongs:
we'll find you
no matter how long it takes
Hobi:
you're idiots
you won't find me
Notes:
okay, so I kinda lost track halfway through writing this and it ended up here. surprise.
Chapter 21: 021
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
It was weird to them, driving through a part of the city which they've used to frequent and then suddenly stopped to frequent, just because time changed, and time changed them. They couldn’t even remember if there had been any reason for them to stop going there, to the club Hoseok seemed to frequent quite often. It all just changed, and years later they found themselves again, in the same neighborhood they thought they had escaped from.
Escaped.
Neither Yoongi nor Namjoon were sure if they did indeed manage to escape a place like that, a place where their careers started, a place where they started. A place where they were slowly tearing themselves and each other apart until nothing much of them was left. Differently to Hoseok, they had apparently managed to get as far away as they could from there. But, no matter how much they thought about it, except for tearing themselves apart, there had been no reason for them to leave. It just changed, and then when Hoseok entered their lives, it changed again, and maybe that’s the reason why they hated him so much. Because he remembered them of who they used to be, or where they had been trying to escape from. It’s hard to let go of any connection to your roots, to where you came from, from the people that made you something, that gave you a chance to become something better.
For them that place had been that club, Cypher, a club that wasn’t much of a club, but rather a hotspot for dealers and their big bosses, thinking they were owning the city, when in reality they were just trying to not be caught by the cops. But it didn’t really matter anyways, it’s where they started, it’s where they had gotten their first chance to show the world what they’re really made of. And Hoseok?
Hoseok has just been at the wrong place at the wrong time, at least that’s how Namjoon and Yoongi felt while driving through the streets that reminded them too much of a past they wanted to forget. And yet, at the back of their heads, both of them knew that Hoseok was just like them, trying to start somewhere, to get somewhere better. The only big difference between them was that they had had each other, while Hoseok had to face all this shit on his own.
And maybe that’s why they hated him. Because he was stronger than them, because he had always been stronger than them. Or maybe it’s been just the bad reputation he had on campus.
They didn’t really know, and at that moment they didn’t really care.
What they were mostly worried about at that exact moment was how they were supposed to act around there, in that ‘club’ of sorts. There has been a day when they told everyone that they would finally leave that fucking shithole, that they wouldn’t so shit for them anymore and that they would never come back, because they were better than them, than the scum they were. It’s been mostly Yoongi’s words, while Namjoon had been standing right beside him, proud of where they got by themselves, wearing a cold poker face, while both of them knew that in reality they weren’t any better.
Hoseok was somewhere in the midst of all this, lost, and they needed to find him even if he didn’t want them to find him. Both of them knew that feeling, the feeling of wanting to be lost, because that was one constant feeling they had learned to deal with. All other feelings and emotions could just go screw themselves.
“We need to find him.” Yoongi muttered while driving his car down the street, his eyes focus everywhere but the way ahead. Namjoon took a quick look over at him, sighing shortly before he moved in his seat to reach over and touch Yoongi’s cheek. Yoongi looked over at him for a moment, smiling sadly at the younger. “Do you think we’ll find him?” he asked, his voice wavering a little. Namjoon tried to smile at him, though he didn’t really do a good job. Yoongi then looked back at the street, or rather the houses rushing past them.
“He doesn’t want us to find him, hyung.” The younger answered after some time, looking at the houses on the other side of them. Yoongi nodded his head a few times, before he furiously turned off the radio, which was playing a stupid love song he had hated since the day he first heard it. Namjoon chuckled at that, though it was short-lived.
“Where are we supposed to look?” Yoongi sighed deeply. “I mean, why can go to that fucking shithole of a club, but I bet he won’t be anywhere near there.” He continued, suddenly hitting the breaks, causing other people to honk furiously and some passersby screaming at them. Namjoon let out a short, surprised scream as well, looking over at Yoongi with wide open eyes. Yoongi just cursed, ignoring everyone around them. He needed to think. He just needed to think for one minute, nothing more. Was that too much to ask for?
He felt Namjoon touching his cheeks and his forehead, though for a minute he couldn’t feel the lve or the soothing way Namjoon did it. He just felt Namjoon being near him, and for that minute it was enough. Namjoon on the other hand pulled Yoongi out of the driver’s seat and into the backrow. He made sue the people outside understood what was happening, and lied to them that Yoongi was feeling sick and thus stopped the car so abruptly. Thankfully Yoongi looked enough out of it, so the people around them believe Namjoon’s words and some even helped him to maneuver Yoongi into the back. Namjoon then got into the driver’s seat himself, continuing down the road.
For a while Namjoon ignored whether Yoongi would be back in reality or not. All he could think about was making sure to find Hoseok, or at least think of a place where he might be, and without realizing it, he found himself right in front of the club he never wanted to return to. He stopped the car, contemplating whether he should go inside or not, and whether he should take Yoongi with him or not. He quickly realized though that bringing Yoongi would probably be a bad idea as he remembered people there telling them years ago that they would make sure Yoongi would vanish from the face of the earth if he ever dared to return to the place. Namjoon sighed deeply, not sure if it was a good idea to head in there by himself, but he had to go and ask at least. He pulled off his jacket, laying it on top of Yoongi’s face, so nobody would recognize the older while he was inside. He would make sure to keep it short.
Namjoon took a deep breath in before he turned away, locking the car and heading inside, just to be met by the same smell that’s always been there. Within seconds he felt like he had gone back in time, nothing inside that shithole had changed, nothing, even the people looking at him with grumpy faces where te same. He nodded at the barkeeper, who was still the same from years ago and probably the only one Namjoon didn’t hate in this hole. The bartender waved at him, even gifted him a small smile, though as soon as it had been there it had been gone as well.
“I didn’t expect to see you back here so soon.” He suddenly heard someone say behind him, and he instantly knew who it was. He turned around to look at a tall, blonde guy with blue eyes. Namjoon couldn’t remember the guy’s name, though he was some westerner, working for some mafia boss from somewhere in Europe. Namjoon never really cared much about where the people came from he had to work with or for in the past, all he had cared for was himself, Yoongi and the money they made so they would finally make it to university and start a new, better life.
“Me neither.” He answered shortly, trying to show no feelings on his face. He looked around though, and there must have been worry written all over his face, because the guy was suddenly chuckling.
“He isn’t here, not anymore, at least.” The dude said, grinning down at Namjoon, and Namjoon honestly felt like hitting the dude in the face with table, made of metal.
“Who?” he asked, even though he knew the dude was talking about Hoseok. How he knew anything about Hoseok and them having contact or knowing each other at all was a mystery to him, though at that very moment he didn’t really care.
“Hoseok. Hobi. J-Hope. The guy you’re looking for.” The guy said, smiling that ugly smile once more and Namjoon just wanted to leave.
“Do you know where he went?” he asked instead of asking how he knew whom he was looking for. The dude sighed, though seemed to be rather amused with the whole situation.
“You know we keep tabs on our subjects, especially on those we invested money in.” He explained liked the biggest douche on earth. Namjoon had to swallow down the urge to roll his eyes and hit the guy straight in the face. “Oh, and your beloved little J-Hope’s got some shit to deal with for us, so yeah, we keep an even closer eye on him, you know?” he continued to explain.
“Where is he?” Namjoon asked between gritted teeth. People started to look at them, though Namjoon chose to ignore them. The dude however though it was amusing for everybody to walk around like some drunken idiot, laughing as he was thinking about telling Namjoon what he knew or not.
“I don’t know where he is.” He stated, again a big grin on his face. “But he did say something about university and music.”
“Better than nothing, I guess.” Namjoon stated, heading back for the entrance, though he was abruptly stopped when the guy grabbed his upper arm.
“Listen here, Joonie Boy. I helped you, so now you owe me.” He said, his face suddenly serious. Namjoon just shrugged him off.
“I don’t owe you shit, not anymore.” He then finally left, walking back to the car as fast as he could, hoping that Yoongi was alright.
When he finally returned to the car, Yoongi was looking straight at him, a serious faces on, though Namjoon could also see he was pissed at him. Namjoon just chuckled at that, thinking it was rather cute to have Yoongi looking at him like an angry puppy. Yoongi, however, just sighed in annoyance, looking out of the window.
“Do you know where he is?” was all the older asked. Namjoon nodded at that.
“University.”
“Oh, for god’s sake! Why didn’t we think of that?”
“I guess, because we were too busy with our own bullshit."
Notes:
well, I wanted this to have a little deeper story.. and now I have this. great job, me.
Chapter 22: | ᵟᵁᴱˢᵀᴵᴼᴺ ᵀᴵᴹᴱ
Chapter Text
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i started writing a new chapter but then it started to turn into something that I didn't want it to turn into.
so, now i need your help: do you want me to stay with my original story-layout-plan, or do you want me to go with the new extravagant storyline I somehow slipped into while writing?
i know this is not much information to go on, but if you know my works, you will also know that i tend to do some dramatic stuff......
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do you want me to?
✕ stay original
✕ leggo action/drama shit
Chapter 23: 022
Chapter Text
[ group chat TRINITY OF CHAOS ]
Hobi:
guys
TaeTae:
oh my FUCKIN GOD ARE YOU KIDDIN ME!?
U VANISHED FOR DAYS WEEKS EVEN AND THEN U TALK TO EVERYONE BUT US AND THEN U JUST VANISH AGAIN AND THEN U COME AT US LIKE 'BROS WASSUP'!?!?!?!?
Jiminie:
Tae..
calm down
though, I really kinda wanna flip out too BECAUSE U ASSHOLE DIDNT TALK TO US FOR WEEKS U FUCKER
Hobi:
wow
yeah, missed u shits too
listen
TaeTae:
not fair Jiminie
why do u get to yell at him and not me
Jiminie:
he said listen, Tae
TaeTae:
I swear one day I will whoop ur sorry ass
Hobi:
seriously u little shits
either u listen to me now or I fuckin do shit on my own
Jiminie:
wow
okay
whut happened??????
Hobi:
I'm at university
I need to talk to that professor, and I'm pretty sure Namjoon and Yoongi are on their way here as well
Jiminie:
oh god thanks
finally
they've been lookin everywhere for you
TaeTae:
can we come too?
Hobi:
no, listen
this is important
Jiminie:
shit
Hobi, what did u do?
Hobi:
u two go visit Jungkook, okay?
TaeTae:
why?
Hyung, please tell us what's happening?
Hobi:
I need the both of u somewhere they can't reach u okay?
the hospital is way too much in the eyes of the public so u go there and visit Jungkook until I tell you that you can leave
TaeTae:
you're honestly making me scared
Hobi:
listen, some shit went down and they're onto me
I'm pretty sure they're following Namjoon and Yoongi as well now that they came lookin for me these idiots
they think the both of them will give them a way to come near me
Jiminie:
oh, hyung
what happened?????
Hobi:
I will tell you some other time okay?
can you please go visit Jungkook now?
Jiminie:
yeah, okay
TaeTae:
are you sure we can't help you any other way?
Hobi:
actually
you can
TaeTae:
tell us!!
Jiminie:
yeah!
we will do anything!
Hobi:
call Seokjin
tell him to meet me 'downtown'
he will know what it means
Jiminie:
uhm, okay?
what are we supposed to tell Kookie?
Hobi:
nothing, just visit him and be good hyungs
also, try getting Yoongi and Namjoon to come to the hospital instead of following me
TaeTae:
they won't, hyung
they have been looking for you everywhere
Hobi:
yeah, after I told them to fuck off
and it got them in a whole lot of trouble
Jiminie:
seriouesly
all I ever wanted was a normal life
Hobi:
yeah, well sorry I'm the one takin' care of everyone's shit
Jiminie:
I'm honestly so damn sorry for all that
Hobi:
I know you are, Jiminie
I promised you I would protect you
you and Tae
Jiminie:
I hate that I caused u all this
Hobi:
you didn't
TaeTae:
come on, Jiminie
let's go pack up some stuff
hyung will take care of us like he always does
Hobi:
it's for the money after all
TaeTae:
I wish that was true
and not some lie we tell everyone
or rather you tell everyone
Hobi:
shit happens and we gotta deal with it so shut it
Jiminie:
u say that like it's easy
Hobi:
told u I stopped caring quite some time ago
Jiminie:
yeah, and that scares the shit outta me
TaeTae:
and me
honestly, what if something happens to you?
Hobi:
then u wil be free of my shit
and your lives will probably be easier
TaeTae:
yeah, keep thinking that shit
Jiminie:
just tell me one thing
Hobi:
what?
Jiminie:
why are you at uni?
shouldn't you be like preparing for shit?
getting away or whatever?
god
I hate that I don't know what's happening
Hobi:
they're onto me, but they don't know I know
I'll just act like I'm being all 'happy-day-every-day' and keeping up with 'normal life shyte'
until
TaeTae:
until what?
Hobi:
well, I honestly haven't thought about the part after the 'until' yet
Jiminie:
you're killing me
TaeTae:
same
Hobi:
just go call Seokjin
TaeTae:
what does he have to do with all that shit anyways?
Hobi:
can we talk about that some other time?
I'm kinda stressed
TaeTae:
no
now
Hobi:
he's not only a student too, okay?
he was involved in shit too
is that enough for the time being?
TaeTae:
NO!
I NEED TO KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON
Jiminie:
Tae, come on
Kookie is waiting
TaeTae:
Hobi hyung if u dun come home later tonight I will personally find ur sorry ass and kick it into oblivion
Hobi:
sure, TaeTae
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"Honestly, I will kick his sorry ass into oblivion!" Taehyung complained loudly as they left their apartment, while Jimin was locking the door behind them.
"Come on, Tae." the older sighed. "Hyung told us to leave and go visit Kookie." Jimin continued, walking past Taehyung and over to the elevator, neither looking back nor checking if the younger was following him. He knew when their hyung told them to leave then that's what they were supposed to do.
Hoseok had been taking care of them for way too long now, and Jimin as well as Taehyung knew when it was time to stop playing stupid for everyone and just move their asses. Sure, in the end they had no idea what was really going on. They had no idea what had really happened to their hyung for him to always be on the edge. Ever since Hoseok's condition had worsened, the two of them had grown more and more aware of the fact that shit was happening behind their backs, and Hoseok was the only thing keeping them safe.
Jimin wanted to yell at himself, because he knew he himself was one of the major reasons why Hoseok had to live that way. Hoseok had saved him years ago, and then Taehyung as well. And, along the way, Hoseok had made sure Yoongi and Namjoon could get outta shit too, and nobody ever noticed that it had been Hoseok's doing that they were living in peace. Ever since all of them seemed to form some kind of connection, Jimin couldn't shake the feeling that Hoseok also was the one to make sure Seokjin could stay out of trouble as much as possible, and that Kookie wouldn't be dragged into all of this in some way.
Hoseok was literally the only thing shielding them from what they themselves screwed up and was about to catch up to them after all those years. It may sound selfish, but Jimin feared the day Hoseok would make his promise of 'leaving' come true, and suddenly he, and all the others would have to face all of the broken pieces on their own. He knew damn well he was being selfish, but at the same he wanted to blame Hoseok for making him that way.
It all was just so damn wrong.
Jimin wanted to yell at himself, at Tae, at basically everyone, including Hoseok. He wanted his best friend back, but ever since Hoseok allowed himself to actually loose himself in his mind, Jimin had no choice but to watch his best friend vanishing more and more with each single day. It killed him from the inside, actually, both of them, and the more time passed, Jimin noticed that in fact all of them were slowly vanishing.
Jimin wished that all of them could just live a normal, peaceful life. However, that was not possible, because all of them screwed up, and the only one working on righting all wrongs was Hoseok.
It was unfair.
They were being unfair. Selfish. An utter idiot.
And yet he had no idea how to help Hoseok, because he himself was one weak bastard.
"Should I call Seokjin?" Jimin heard Taehyung saying somewhere near him, blinking a few times as he stopped getting lost in his thoughts. He sighed, looking at the younger, who was staring down at his phone. Jimin followed his gaze and read 'Kim Seokjin' on the display. He sighed again, this time louder and the younger turned to look at him. "Jiminie?" Taehyung asked. Jimin shrugged his shoulders, leaning his head against Taehyung's shoulder.
"Call him." he simply answered, closing his eyes, trying to focus on the feeling of the moving elevator. He felt Taehyung nodding, though he decided to not open his eyes again.
"Jinnie- yeah, it's me.- yeah, I know it's a surprise that I'm calling you, but it's about Hoseok.- No, no, I think he's okay.. I'm not sure.. but he told us to tell you to meet him downtown.- W-What?- Ugh.. yeah, sure."
Something within Jimin told him that everything would be just fine. Weirdly enough that voice was Hoseok's.
Chapter 24: 023
Chapter Text
[ private chat Hobi and Jinnie ]
Jinnie:
downtown?
Hobi:
yeah
u still remember what I mean?
Jinnie:
ofc, I do
but Hobi, this has all been such a long time ago
everyone's moving on with their lives
Hobi:
and yet I'm the only one stuck back here
Jinnie.
I got outta there not too long ago, Hobi
I don't wanna fall back into it
Hobi:
don't worry
I won't drag you back into this
Jinnie:
you need to tell me everything
you know I can only help you when you tell me
Hobi:
I don't think it's a good idea to text you all that
Jinnie:
Hobs
I know you don't want to tell me
but you know how it goes
Hobi:
I will tell you what I can manage to actually tell you
but first we gotta meet
Jinnie:
I'm omw
did you finish at the university?
Hobi:
yeah, I did
omw too
Jinnie:
Hobi, after all this time I still feel as hopeless in helping you as I did back then
Hobi:
nothing much changed
Jinnie:
they told me it got worse
Hobi:
to the point where I don't care anymore
yeah
Jinnie:
we talked about that over and over again
you can't let them take control that easily
Hobi:
it's not like I ever wanted this for myself
but it happened
and I'm sick and tired of fighting them
I also hate to call them 'them'
'they' are me
Jinnie:
I know, Hobi
Hobi:
and that way I'm actually getting shit done
Jinnie:
yeah, but you're living in three worlds at the same time
and it got to the point where they start overlapping and they can't do that
it's not good for you
Hobi:
it's ruining me
Jinnie:
Hobi, if you know that
if you're aware of that
then why do you allow it to keep on happening
Hobi:
because there are way more painful things in this world
I'm not afraid of losing myself
I'm afraid of losing everyone else
Jinnie:
don't you realize that what you currently allow happening to yourself is what will ultimately make you lose everyone
Hobi:
technically 'I' am not the one loosing everyone
Jinnie:
I thought you didn't like to talk about 'them'
Hobi:
yeah
but it's easier to explain shit that way
Jinnie:
yeah, I guess you're right
Hobi:
all I want to do is protect everyone that I love
Jinnie:
Hobi, I know that you miss them
Hobi:
I couldn't protect my parents
I couldn't protect my sister
and it's all my fault that they're dead in the first place
Jinnie:
it's not your fault, Hobi
as terrible as it sounds but, it's your parents fault
Hobi:
no
if would have just been normal
then they wouldn't have needed all that money
and then they would still be alive
Jinnie:
you can't blame yourself for being sick
Hobi:
but I am
Jinnie:
I allow you to blame yourself for what you're doing to yourself atm
but I won't allow you to blame yourself for what happened to your family
Hobi:
my sister was innocent
she should have been the one to live
not me
Jinnie:
maybe
maybe not
you're the one that survived
Hobi:
I don't deserve it
Jinnie:
and now you're trying to get yourself killed
great idea
Hobi:
no, hyung
it's really not that bad..
Jinnie:
it is
the fact that you want me to meet downtown is bad enough
Hobi:
they went back there
Jinnie:
who?
where?
Hobi:
Namjoon and Yoongi
they went back to where they should have never returned to
I'm paying back their debts
I'm paying back everyone's debts
but now they're back onto them
because of me
because they went looking for me
Jinnie:
they did so because they miss you
Hobi:
I already told Jungkook this
you can't miss someone you don't even know
Jinnie:
but they do know you
they know the real Hobi
not Jung Hoseok
not J-Hope
Hobi:
no, they don't
Jinnie:
they do
and they miss you
they want to apologize to you
they want you back home and start anew
Hobi:
I can't
I can't allow them to get anywhere near me
Jinnie:
yes, you can
Hobi:
I can't
I'm still paying for everything
for my parents
for them
for Jiminie
Jinnie:
Jiminie?
you took his load upon yourself as well?
Hobi:
he's too fragile to handle all that
he got himself into that world unknowingly of what it really is like
he thought it was 'cool' and ignored the fact that it was actually dangerous
Jinnie:
so you got him outta there and just started paying his debts for him?
I still can't believe you managed to get Namjoon and Yoongi out
and now Jimin as well?
Hobi:
I'm good at what I'm doing, hyung
as fucked up as it is, but I'm good at it
and I want them to live normal, happy lives
Jinnie:
by risking your own?
Hobi:
in the end I do it for my parents
Jinnie:
your parents are dead, Hobi
Hobi:
thanks
wasn't aware of that fact
Jinnie:
those assholes can't make you pay for people that are no longer here
Hobi:
and yet they are
Jinnie:
why do you let them?
Hobi:
because one way or another I will be gone and I want whoever I leave behind to be happy and without problems
Jinnie:
that's not your purpose in life
and stop talking about you leaving us
because you won't
you will stay with us
live a happy and fulfilled life
just like your parents and your sister would have liked you too
Hobi:
I can't even control it anymore, hyung
things just happen
and suddenly I find myself within shit again
Jinnie:
you need a good therapy
and a way to get out of all this
you don't owe anyone shit
Hobi:
I do
Jinnie:
do you wanna know how I got outta all of this?
Hobi:
please, spill
I bet I know what you're gonna tell me
Jinnie:
I paid for my shit without getting myself in even more shit
and now they can't do fuck to me anymore
Hobi:
wow, what a revelation
u know
I enjoy what I'm doing
and I'm good at it
Jinnie:
and at the same time you hate it
Hobi:
yes, I do
and it won't ever make any sense to you I know
Jinnie:
actually it does
I've learned a long time ago to think like you and your other yous
Hobi:
it's always me
just
with different ambitions
Jinnie:
okay, it seems that whatever I tell you you just ignore anyways
tell me how I can help you
Hobi:
bullshit went down a few days ago, and the jerks from that Incheon group think I have shit on them to spill to the police
I noticed them following me everywhere so I tried keeping away underground and in the shadows
however, now that Namjoon and Yoongi went back there the Seoul jerks think they can get under my skin
Jinnie:
Hobi
did you blow your cover?
Hobi:
no, don't worry
they have no idea for whom I'm really working for
they all think I'm some loner, taking up every fucking job I can somehow get
it's fun
Jinnie:
this is gonna bite you in the ass so hard one day
Hobi:
one way or another I won't care anyways
lol
Jinnie:
did you just lol me????
Hobi:
I did
Jinnie:
so, downtown?
Hobi:
almost there
Jinnie:
what's the passcode?
Hobi:
same old
Jinnie:
what?????
still?????
Hobi:
it's not like they care much for our safety, hyung
Jinnie:
sigh
yeah
they never did
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[ private chat Hobi and Jiminie ]
Hobi:
are you at Kook's?
Jiminie:
yeah, and I honestly don't know what to tell everyone
Hobi:
just say nothing
did you get a hold on Namjoon and Yoongi?
Jiminie:
not yet
Hobi:
did you text them yet?
Jiminie:
uhm, no tbh
Hobi:
what r u waiting for then
Jiminie:
I don't know how to get them here without them noticing that something's off
Hobi:
tell them it's urgent and that Kookie asked for them to come
Jiminie:
ugh, hyung.. I really don't know
Hobi:
sigh
okay lemme do it..
Jiminie:
okay, hyung
do you need my data?
Hobi:
nope
still got it in my head
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[ you're now logged in as Jiminie ]
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[ private chat Jiminie and Jooner ]
Jiminie:
hyung
Jooner:
hyung?
since when don't you greet me as Jooner??
Jiminie:
not important right now
something happened
Jooner:
wait
what happened???
me and Yoongi just arrived at the university and are now looking for Hoseok
Jiminie:
it's about Kookie
something happened and now I don't know what to do
like
I'm flipping out here
I really am
and nobody's answering me
and I need help
Jooner:
fuck
is Kooks okay??
Jiminie:
I don't know, hyung
can you please come and help me?
Jooner:
Jiminie it's not a good time
I'm sure the doctors will be able to help just fine
Jiminie:
no
hyung, you don't understand
I don't know what's happening here
please, come to the hospital
Jooner:
fuck
fuck
okay
Yoongi's staying here to look for Hobi
Jiminie:
nonono
please, Yoongi needs to come too
Jooner:
Jiminie we can't just stop looking for Hobi
we need to find him
Jiminie:
I know, hyung
I do
and I will tell you later where he is
Jooner:
YOU KNOW WHERE HE IS BUT YOU DIDNT BOTHER TO TELL US!?
Jiminie:
please
he told me to keep it a secret
and I know you're mad, but please!!
Jooner:
fuck
yeah
okay
we're on our way
Jiminie:
oh thank you so, so much
Jooner:
tbh
you're being weird
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[ you're now logged in as Hobi ]
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[ private chat Hobi and Jiminie ]
Hobi:
done
Jiminie:
wait what?
you managed to get them here so quick???
what the hell did you say?????
Hobi:
just read the texts
gotta go
Jiminie:
.................
oh I am so royally fucked