The final thoughts of Steve Burnside
By Chris Shepherd
If given the chance to return to the one you loved most,
Could you be selfish and put their wellbeing at death's door?
I couldn't and wouldn't do that to Claire
No matter how much I loved her
No matter how much I wanted to see her again
I couldn't do that to Claire.
She deserved better than that
Will always deserve better than that.
But I always think 'what if'
What if I had kissed her on that plane ride?
What if I kissed her and told her I loved her when we fell
She must have felt the same
I could feel it
And I was so damn scared to tell her
And I ultimately regret it
Regret not telling her
But now, my soul lies in wait
In anticipation for her to join me in the afterlife
To have her meet the father I loved so much
And to hear the words 'I love you' to slip from those forbidden lips
So until then, I lie in wait
And visit her in her dreams where I continuously tell her of my love for her.