Fandoms: The Penumbra Podcast
27 Nov 2020
"It’s fine. When Vespa gives him a sideways glance in the medbay when he knows his exact weight off the top of his head, it’s fine. When Buddy makes not-so-subtle comments about the importance of sharing family meals together, it’s fine. When he’s exhausted but drags himself out of bed to work out anyway because if he lets himself miss a day then he is letting himself slip and he can not, will not do that, not to the crew and not to Juno and not to himself, it’s fine."
Peter Nureyev has a great many rules for himself, structures and regulations that make up his daily life and got him where he is today. So what if his behavior is becoming more and more compulsive every day, if the vicious and critical voice in his head is now an almost permanent resident, if the rigid systems he has in place to control his life sometimes seem to be controlling him instead. He's just doing what he has to do, right? Juno doesn't think so, and he's there along the way, and it's up to Peter in the end to decide that he's in need and worthy of recovery.