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  1. Public Bookmark 37

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    "He thinks about Abby and Ali and Taylor and he sees the string tying them all together because he had loved them and touching them had felt right for a while because he had never really been with someone he'd loved before them and the novelty of the feeling convinced him it was enough, but as he's staring at the ceiling in the dark he suddenly holds the knowledge in his hands that it is not enough, that it doesn't make him feel good and never will.

    Taylor will not want him for more than what she's wanted him for so far and he knows he has to put a stop to it before he damages himself further."

     

    or, buck figures out what love is supposed to feel like

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    She opens her locker, giving him a sidelong glance. “So does Buck know you’re-“

    The rest of her question gets cut off by a quiet, disbelieving, “Eddie?” and she and Eddie turn just in time for Buck to slam straight into Eddie.

    Eddie takes a step back with the force of it but his arms come up around Buck immediately, hugging back just as fiercely. She catches sight of his blinding smile before he tucks his face into Buck’s shoulder and Lucy stares, can’t help it when they’re hugging like long-lost lovers being reunited.

    Buck pulls back first, hands still firmly on Eddie’s arms as he jostles him. “You asshole!” he exclaims with a laugh that sounds more than a littler watery. “I was literally at your house last night; why didn’t you say anything?!”

    “Wanted it to be a surprise,” he says, voice low and soft in a way that finally makes her turn away to pretend to be busy with her locker.

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    Five times someone realises Buck is in love with Eddie and one time Buck realises he's in love with Eddie.

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    Good news: after years of pining, Buck and Eddie have finally gotten together!

    Mixed news: being together will require a department investigation of some kind, so

    Bad news: they can't tell anyone yet.

    Worst news: Buck is the world's least accomplished liar.

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  4. Public Bookmark 77

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    “Listen to me, Buck,” Bobby tells him lowly, but anything louder and Buck thinks his eardrums would shatter. His whole world has been whisper-quiet and he’s anxiously waiting for the inevitable noise that breaks through. “You did everything you could. You got him here, kid, and that counts for a hell of a lot.”

     

    Buck searches Bobby’s face for any ounce of hope he can steal for himself—but his heart feels like a cavernous void, and it seems dangerous to put something so bright next to it.

     

    “You didn’t see him, Bobby,” Buck says quietly, brokenly, like it explains why he can’t believe that.

    or, the post-shooting fic where Buck is there when Eddie wakes up, and things get easier from there.

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    His Google search history leading up to Hen and Karen’s vow renewal looks like this:

    How to stop being attracted to your best friend
    Why am I attracted to my best friend
    Why am I attracted to my best friend + man
    Why are arms so attractive on men
    How to make my house carry-proof
    How do I tell my best friend to keep his shirt on
    Why does my best friend keep yawning
    Yawning remedies
    Dry lip remedies
    Slip-resistant dish gloves
    Slip-resistant dish gloves floral pattern

    And then he just spent the next hour finding and ordering stupid dish gloves for Buck, because Google, it turns out, does not always have the answer, and leaves Eddie with more questions than before (like: does Buck have sleep apnea, actually, and if so, should he be seeing someone for it?).

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    or; buck moves in with eddie while taylor finds a new place, and prompts what feels like puberty 2.0 for eddie diaz.

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