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  1. Public Bookmark 9

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    AKA *that* Hacks BDSM fic

    Ava gets the answer to her "Maybe this is about power? Or because we had a really intense bonding experience on that trip we went on. But also she's mean to me, so am I weirdly into that?" question from 107.

    I've notated what is explicitly hardcore BDSM. Trigger/content warnings have also been notated as applicable. If you're just here for the smut (totally fine; I'm here for it, too) the list is below. Have fun!

    Smut chapters: 3, 5, 12, 13, 16, 19, and 23.

    Oh, yeah. The thing in Ch 1 about Deborah knowing where Ava was just by seeing the neon tail? That still hasn't been answered yet and I'm writing Ch 13 as of 1/7/22. FUCKEN. PAY. ATTENTION. TO. DETAILS.

    Fic title is from "Camisado" by Panic! At The Disco. (I named this fic after a line from a song about a relapsing addict. Welcome to my brain. Get ready for a ride.)

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    07 Aug 2022

  2. Public Bookmark 8

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    "Her eyes don’t leave the stage for an instant as she watches, transfixed, every gesture and every inflection bridge past and present, digging up so many of the Deborahs that laid dormant in boxes until it’s her, her whole life performed, Deborah on Deborah on Deborah, and she loves her. She loves her."

    Or: Deborah finally kills on stage with the new material, but Ava is the only one to see it. What follows may be a culmination of artistic differences, a tear in time, or an identity crisis.

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    02 Aug 2022

  3. Public Bookmark 8

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    02 Aug 2022

  4. Public Bookmark 11

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    Post season 1, Deborah goes on tour in the wake of the damning email Ava sent-with Ava in tow. Will they learn to come back together or have Ava's words done irreparable damage? A look at six moments of time across their traveling.

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    02 Aug 2022

  5. Public Bookmark 19

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    Deborah goes to Waltham to get Ava back. Or, what happens between Ava’s bedroom and the final scene of 1x10, from Deborah’s perspective, with flashbacks to the days between D’s final show and the funeral.

    CN/TW: Parental death, grief, loss

    This originally wasn’t going to have any sex, but, I mean, how could I not? Smut's at the end.

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    02 Aug 2022

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