howevernot
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- Marvel Cinematic Universe (4)
- Daredevil (TV) (4)
- Captain America (Movies) (3)
- Jessica Jones (TV) (3)
- Dark (TV 2017) (3)
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Joe loves vibrators. He loves what they've done with them in recent years and in particular he loves using them on Nicky.
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He's sitting in a bar with people who aren't his friends when he realizes that he is the only person in the room who has ever delivered a lamb. He’s the only one who knows the smell of sheep and blood, the way some lambs come out yellow with afterbirth, the way the moms lick them clean while they’re still fresh and wobbly. He’s the only one who’s dumped a stillborn in the dirt by the door and watched flies start to crawl over the half open eyes in the afternoon sun.
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let our bodies lose all their loneliness by howevernot
Fandoms: The Old Guard (Movie 2020)
27 Nov 2020
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All sex between them is vulnerable, to a degree, but this is still a little scary for both of them. There’s a fear here, a fear that they perhaps shouldn’t feel, but that Joe has come to respect all the same.
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They were going on a weekend trip to a humanitarian aid station. It was never as simple as that for them though.
“This isn’t a life,” Jonas told him calmly.
Noah fixed his piercing gaze on Jonas, stopping in the middle of the road.
“It’s the only one I have.”
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- Part 3 of erernity is also full of eyes
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Concerned that Elisabeth is growing up without a woman's guidance, Claudia takes it on herself to provide said guidance. It goes well, until it doesn't.
A sequel of sorts to "Breathing in the Dark."
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- Part 2 of erernity is also full of eyes
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An exploration of events after the end of the world.
Title borrowed from a Paul Celan poem.
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get us in some trouble by howevernot
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Captain America - All Media Types, Daredevil (TV), Jessica Jones (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, The Punisher (TV 2017)
14 Jun 2018
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These absolutely do not need to be read in order, plotwise they are not dependent on each other but they do all go together.
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Cas stayed against the wall where Dean had shoved him. His arms hung at his sides, and he considered Dean with a steady gaze.
Dean felt his heart thudding in his ears, and he cleared his throat. "What are you staring at me like that for?”
Cas squinted slightly and his head slowly tilted, like he just needed to see Dean at a slightly different angle, and Dean’s body went hot and tense.
“You want me to hurt you,” Cas said carefully, and Dean’s stomach dropped.
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14 Jan 2021
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“I wish I could stand,” Cas says.
“Yeah,” Dean says.
Cas holds up his hand, flexes it, stares and then drops it.
“This weakness is unsettling. I can’t—I can’t even hold a pitcher of water, Dean.”
Dean makes a small sound in his throat, a non-committal hum.
He’s done soaping up Cas’ hair. He grabs the sponge at his side and starts to scrub at Cas’ skin, up along his arms, his neck, down his chest. When he runs it up his legs, to his thighs, Cas shudders and then there’s a hand cupping Dean’s cheek, cold and dripping water and soap, and Dean falters, looks at him for the first time.
“Will you sleep with me?” Cas says. “Tonight?”
Dean swallows.
He says yes.
After Lucifer's possession, Castiel stops talking.
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13 Jan 2021
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You know what I like a lot? The thought that Dean can just tug Cas anywhere at any time and Cas, who can lift tons without effort, who can demolish things with the light of his grace, who has battled and gone to war, has defended and broken, will just let Dean do it.
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11 Jan 2021
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There's no ifs, ands, or buts about it...Cas is a weird, tactless, ornery guy. His idea of a job is selling weed out of their shared cabin, his idea of fun is occasional orgies, and he has more creepy dolls and crystals than anyone of their age ever should.
But he's also Dean's childhood best friend, and now he's the star of all Dean's wildest fantasies.
Then there's the whole "being in love with him" thing.
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09 Jan 2021
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The angels have fallen, leaving Castiel graceless and Dean with, well, more of other people’s problems. When a string of couples goes missing on the east coast, Dean and Cas decide to investigate—and find themselves trapped and hunted on a couples’ counseling cruise. Although battling monsters at sea is dangerous enough, sorting through emotional baggage proves to be far more deadly. (And, in which Cas embarks to find his missing grace and Dean is put out. Not necessarily in that order.)
Art by anobviousaside.
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05 Jan 2021