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    It's 1941. Bucky Barnes lives with his best friend Steve Rogers, and all Bucky wants is to do right by him.

    That means he'll do anything.

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    25 Oct 2020

  2. Public Bookmark 93

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    In which Natasha bullies Steve into treating his chronic pain through massage, and he meets someone in the waiting room whose body is even more fucked-up than his own. (And eventually things get happier, I promise.)

    "Steve Rogers had never been healthy, even before long-untreated childhood Lyme disease had fucked with his immune system and wreaked havoc on his joints. He was deaf in one ear, comically nearsighted, terribly asthmatic, and he had a heart murmur. He'd been in and out of hospitals all his life; been poked, prodded, penetrated, prescribed. His body wasn't ever comfortable, was never a home or a place of pleasure – it was a collection of graphs and charts and diagnoses."

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    26 Sep 2020

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    Before, when Bucky had only just hacked off his pigtails over the sink, he turned to Steve with red-rimmed eyes and put on his cockiest grin. “How’s it look?” he’d asked, smoothing back his hair with one hand, the other perched on his hip.

    Steve had looked him over, a smile hiding in the corners of his mouth, and murmured, “You’ll do,” while he reached up and tucked a curl back into place.

    Bucky hadn’t known, then, why that made him ache. But he figured it out eventually.

     

    In which Bucky Barnes is a trans man.

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    14 Mar 2020

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  4. Rec 11

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    There is no way home, except to make home where you are.

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    03 Aug 2019

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    In which Sergeant James Buchanan Barnes is tired, hungry and completely failing at not sticking it in the crazy. Also there’s a war going on or something.

    aka world war threesome. Fear these queers.

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    28 Apr 2019