hattalove
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He'd planned on sleeping some of the day away, right on the couch, just until it was time to pick Christopher up from school.
And then he'd gone to drive his parents to the airport, and came back home to music blasting and everything his mother nudged out of place back in order and Buck, halfway through the dining room with an armful of sheets, the whole pile wedged under his chin as he tried to keep it upright.
in which a fitted sheet is a metaphor for love, and eddie is in it.
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“I could think of worse curses,” Bobby says, suddenly popping up behind Buck's back only to lean over his shoulder and steal the last donut hole. “You live in the same building, Buck. You're going to see each other. Maybe you should embrace it and actually talk to him.”
Buck closes his eyes, just for a minute. He has the beginnings of a headache knocking at the back of his head, probably from lack of sleep, and he kind of detests that he even notices it. That it's tripping him up a little.
“And say what, Cap?” he asks. “Hey, I'm Buck, sorry you keep meeting my one night stands?”
“Mm,” Bobby shrugs, chewing as he makes his way into the kitchen. Buck does not like the look in his eyes. “Maybe you should stop having those first.”
in which buck sleeps around for healthy reasons, and thinks about his next-door neighbor a healthy amount.
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“I'm gay.”
He's looking at his feet, because he hasn't quite come to terms with the fact that he's saying this in a room where other people, strangers, can hear it.
But this is still the first time he's said it this way: out loud, in a declarative sentence. Being nervous is fine. Frank said that being nervous is fine, and Buck just said he's proud, and the only thought Eddie has in his head is that it's embarrassing he can't raise his head and say it like a man, so clearly, he's going to need to hang on to other people's words for the time being, someone who isn't his dad trying to explain the ways Eddie's allowed to inhabit the world.
He doesn't need to ask anyone's permission to be who he is. That's also a thing Frank said.
in which eddie attends a self-empowerment group for gbtq men to supplement his therapy, and is empowered to: forgive himself, say "i'm gay" to his own reflection in the mirror, accidentally adopt an adult, make fried rice, and tell his straight best friend that he's in love with him. not necessarily in that order.
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“Buck's here,” he says. Hen and Chim raise their eyebrows in perfect coordination. “Have to make sure he doesn't get himself into trouble.”
“He's been getting himself into trouble since 1992,” Chimney says, pulling out his phone, probably to make fun of Eddie in his and Maddie's text thread. “And I'm pretty sure he's right at home in a bar.”
The unfortunate thing is, Eddie really can't argue with that. It's easy to see Buck, somehow, even through the throngs of people crowding around tables and flagging down the lone bartender for drinks: one elbow on the bartop, head tilted, leaning down with half-lidded eyes as he says something to the short blonde he's been talking to.
in which eddie, very literally, has a brush with buck 1.0.
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- Part 17 of in the morning our arms ache (prompt fills)
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“And it always—I always get all red and stupid when he smiles that way—”
“I'm aware,” Hen cuts in.
“And I just had all these feelings. I had to tell someone, and I can't tell Buck or Chris, and I want you to actually stay my friend, so.”
“So you told the biggest newspaper in the country.”
Eddie sighs. “Second biggest,” he says, one of the many things Buck has taught him over the years. “But that's—yeah. That's definitely a thing I did.”
in which eddie accidentally waxes poetic about buck to the new york times.
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- Part 16 of in the morning our arms ache (prompt fills)
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listen to you breathe the evening glow by foxwatson for WheelsUpIn_Five
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
09 Jul 2022
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He presses his thumb right against Buck’s pulse, feels it under his fingers, and exhales, slowly.
“Your nightmare…” Buck says quietly.
“Was about you,” Eddie confirms, looking down at Buck’s hand, instead of his eyes. “It happens, sometimes.”
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09 Jul 2022
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Buck is the incredibly kind but incredibly straight bartender at Eddie's local gay bar. Eddie is trying very, very hard not to be pathetically in love with him, and is failing miserably.
“Hey, you’re back,” Buck had said, greeting him with that sun-bright grin, and Eddie had yet again been reminded why he’d started questioning his sexuality.
“Well, I get one night off a week. And tonight I could really use the drink.”
Buck’s brow had furrowed, and he got Eddie his favorite beer without even asking again what it was. “You need to talk about it? Assuming I read you right and you’re the kind of guy who talks to a bartender instead of a therapist.”
Eddie had winced theatrically. “Ouch. That obvious, huh?”
“Hey, man, you’re the one that told me you started coming here on your coworker’s advice. Feels like something you’d get from a therapist, if you had one.”
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20 Jun 2022
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the heart beat so loud, we could not ignore by wonderfool (foolmetal)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
07 Mar 2021
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Post 4x06/4x07, speculation for 4x08
“Change can be scary,” Buck says, “but we want your dad to be happy. Adults can get lonely too sometimes. He has a lot of friends at work, but he might be looking for someone who...can be a partner. Someone who worries about him and supports him when he’s feeling sad. Someone who loves him.”
“But he already has you.”
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12 Jun 2022
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Buck tells Eddie he’s in love with him. Eddie pines.
or, five times eddie watches buck leave, and the one time he goes after him
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22 Apr 2022
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Eddie’s been back at work for about two weeks—his time after quitting had passed in a seemingly idyllic week of spending time with his son which got rudely interrupted by a full-scale mental breakdown that ended with tears and hugs and Buck lovingly bullying him into going to therapy again. Then therapy had brought even more tears and confusion and slowly ballooning financial concerns that culminated in Eddie undertaking the frankly painful process of reapplying to the LAFD and completing an equally painful remedial training course.
And everything was fine until—Eddie started having a problem.
(summer break, queer awakenings, and learning to let yourself be happy: a story in four acts)
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18 Mar 2022