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    so here’s the thing – eddie diaz is very aware that his boyfriend is a ridiculously attractive human being. even before buck was his boyfriend, eddie was aware of this – evan buckley was 6’2, nothing but muscle and pure strength, with a heart of goddamn gold. buck could rock just about any outfit and eddie would find it sexy - but he never expected his downfall to be a backwards baseball cap.

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    07 Aug 2021

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    It almost feels like, if Dean went to sleep right now, he could get it back. Like he would slip right back into the dream, and it would pick up where it left off. But Dean doesn’t even want to, now that he can see that world for what it is: a cheap hallucination, poking at all his weaknesses, going right for the soft underbelly Dean never shows.

    All that work. All that work Dean had done over the past few weeks, trying to numb himself and act like he’d forgotten about it. And now it feels like the Empty took Cas all of five minutes ago, all over again.

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    A post-15x19, forty one year-old Dean gets a taste of what twenty seven year-old Dean went through in 2x20, “What Is and What Should Never Be,” and sees how the shape of his own happiness has changed.

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    07 Aug 2021

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    He is standing on a motel balcony with his long-dead father, and when it’s just them he forgets about all the ways his life has changed since then, and how he’s trying so hard to make all these things fit and why won’t they fit what is he doing wrong— instead, he is six and eleven and seventeen and twenty one and that’s his dad and oh fuck does that mean a myriad of things he is incapable of thinking about because that's his dad and he just needs to stand here and listen.

    Or: a Lebanon rewrite in which family don't end in blood and it doesn't start there either.

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    27 Jul 2021

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    'a prayer for which no words exist' // richard siken

    "Dear Cas who art in my bathtub, give me the strength to be honest about how I feel. For your sake and for mine. Forgive me all the times I wasn’t in the past, all the words I should have said but didn’t. And please stay. Please stay with me when all is said and done. Amen. "

    Dean rescues a newly human Cas from the Empty. That's the easy step.

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    26 Jul 2021

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    Slowly, Mystery Man raises his head. And when his eyes meet Dean’s again, they are so full that Dean is nearly leveled by it. Just. There’s love there, affection, fondness, all in that haunted cornflower blue. They’re greedy, too, like they’re consuming every detail. Dean forgets to breathe. “You sure this guy ain’t dead?” he manages. “Cause you’re looking at me like the last time you saw his mug was ten years ago.”

    Mystery Man inhales sharply but doesn’t so much as blink. “He’s very much alive. He made pancakes this morning.” No further elaboration.

    “Right…” Dean says a little awkwardly. “Well, since this is happening, apparently, what’s your name?”

    Now, Mystery Man hesitates, frowns. Finally, he says, “My name is Cas.”

    or the one where dean is at a bar in 2005 and he gets a visit from a stranger who feels familiar but he cant figure out why

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    22 Jul 2021