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  1. Public Bookmark 34

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    Apparently I can't even write a one-shot sex scene without it turning into a 7k slow burn. So... Merry Christmas?

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    "You are a good man, Dean," Cas whispers, his mouth pressed to Dean's heartbeat. "You are so beautiful and good and worthy."

    Dean can't take it.

    "Cas," he says, and it comes out a plea, a prayer, begging. It's just his name, but it's full of the need for affirmation, for validation, for all the things Dean's not allowed to ask for. All the things he never received when he was younger, all the love and attention he doesn't deserve.

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    17 Jan 2021

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    Only a very few people in the world know that the celebrated and reclusive poet Jack Allen is just Kansas mechanic Dean Winchester, a high school dropout with a few bucks to his name. Not that it matters anymore; life has left him so wrung out he never wants to pick up another pen.

    Until, that is, a string of coincidences leads Dean to auditing a poetry course with one Dr. Castiel Novak. The professor is wildly intelligent, devastatingly handsome...and just so happens to be academia's foremost expert on the poetry of Jack Allen.

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    09 Jan 2021

  3. Public Bookmark 3

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    When Gansey had texted the number on the “fake boyfriend” ad, Adam Parrish hadn’t been exactly what he expected to get.

    (or: the one in which Gansey needs a fake boyfriend to annoy his parents over Christmas, and Adam is a boyfriend-for-hire. Shenanigans ensue. They fall in love.)

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    02 Jan 2021

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    Things have been...rough, since Derry, and the fucking clown. The aftermath was a fucking mess, dealing with the hospitals, the recovery. Fending off well-meaning but nosy friends. Trying to convince everyone to let him go home. All while feeling like absolute shit, with his insides constantly trying to be on his outsides. And then going home was also a mess, leaving was so fucking hard, especially when Richie...when Richie asked him to stay.

    But Eddie couldn’t stay. He had to go home. Fight with management, fight with Myra, remind himself over and over that he didn’t need her, didn’t need anyone. That she lied to him, like his mom lied to him, lied that he needed them. And then moving out was shit, and living alone was shit, and everything was shit, but. God, full moons are always the shittiest. And then the day after full moons are even worse than that. And he’s so fucking tired, and he needs to sleep, but everything hurts. God, he hurts so fucking bad.

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    31 Dec 2020

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    Dean is a Kansas farmer who only wants to work his land and care for his infant daughter. With his wife gone and his brother moving on to a life beyond the homestead, Dean finds himself in need of another pair of hands. Castiel, a lonely drifter freshly arrived in town, may prove the solution to Dean’s troubles. Over the course of four seasons, the two men face the everyday challenges of prairie life, and learn to overcome the betrayals of their past to discover a new definition of family.

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    25 Dec 2020