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    A collection of (unrelated) ficlets that I posted on Tumblr first <3

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  1. Public Bookmark 60

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    Cas is twenty-seven, depressed, and at the end of his rope. After many years of contemplating suicide, he decides it’s finally time to pull the literal trigger. But Cas is scared. He knows he needs encouragement, peer pressure to push himself off the edge of the cliff, so he finds a partner online.

    Dean Winchester is a guy that Cas only knows in passing. He’s charming, bold, and absolutely the last person Cas expected for a suicide partner. But he’ll do.

    A story about Dean and Cas falling in love with each other, and with life itself.

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    03 Nov 2021

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    Dean Winchester is staring down the barrel of forty years with nothing to show for it. Nothing, save for a house that’s falling apart around him and a tumultuous, strained relationship with both his teenage son Jack and his estranged husband Castiel. In the face of earth-shattering, painful news, he decides to go for broke attempting to rebuild all three from the ground up before it’s too late.

    “Life as a House” follows Dean’s determined journey to tear down his old life and literally build a new one by finally following through on twenty-year-old plans to construct the house he once designed for him and Cas to live happily ever after in. But before he can do that he’ll have to tear down not only the house his father left him but all the walls he’s built up over the years to keep the people he cares about at arm’s length. Will his efforts be enough to repair his relationships and put to right all of the mistakes he’s made before his time is up?

    A poignant, emotional love story set against the backdrop of Southern California and the Pacific Ocean about hope, heartbreak, regret, taking chances, and how it’s never too late to start all over again.

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    01 Nov 2021

  3. Public Bookmark 52

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    On paper, Cas Milton is a disaster. Four years ago, he attempted to take his own life, and his medical record is riddled with hospital stays, therapy appointments, and prescriptions.

    But you can't always trust a piece of paper--because off the record, Cas has spent the past four years trying to learn how to live the life he's been given. Now a junior in college, he's aided by his two best friends, Dean and Meg, who he met in a grief support group freshman year, and between first dates, movie nights, conversations with his therapist, and, of course, going to class, it seems like maybe he's starting to get a handle on things.

    There's more to his relationship with Dean than meets the eye, though, and a trip to visit Dean's family leads to a kiss and changes everything. Will Cas finally reach out and take something for himself in life, or is he destined to never actually start living?

    And will he only make the decision when it might be too late?

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    12 Oct 2021

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    Admitting it won’t make Dean any more inconsolable than he already is, and he’ll never feel Cas’ absence any more or any less acutely than he does in this exact moment. “He’s gone,” Dean finally admits, because it seems like the only thing left to say.

    When the terrible, swollen vacancy of the room offers no recourse, Sam says, “I know.”

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    22 Sep 2021

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    Dean drains his bottle of beer, sets it on the table and gets up, heading for the kitchen. Maybe to fetch another, maybe to leave. But Castiel doesn’t want him to go, doesn’t want to leave this conversation unfinished; he remembers his regret of just a few hours ago, that Dean had never known how he loved him.

    “Wait,” he says and gets to his feet as Dean passes by. They’re standing close – close enough that Castiel can feel the heat of Dean’s body, the vibrancy of his soul brushing against his grace. “Dean, I have to tell you something...”

    Set after the S11 finale.

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    12 Sep 2021