18 Works by Zzzara

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    When Harry Potter fires a deadly curse at his "arch-enemy", he has no idea what the curse does.
    He has no idea he will soon beg Draco Malfoy's forgiveness and try his best to atone.
    He has no idea that the ugly bathroom incident he would rather forget will tangle and bind their lives together with no chance of escape.
    Navigating a treacherous path between Dumbledore's lies and Voldemort's orders, Draco is trapped and considered to be dead by both sides of the Wizarding War. Against the Golden Trio's wishes, he joins them on the Horcrux hunt. Except that he has no idea what he is hunting for.

    This is a love-story, a fight-story, very much compliant to the 6th and 7th 'Harry Potter' books and yet, very, VERY different.

    Because this time - after the Sectumsempra incident - Harry visited Draco in the hospital wing and tried to apologise.

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    Having barely begun to heal after the war, Draco Malfoy is betrayed in more than one way by a person he trusted. He ends up in a Muggle gay conversion facility, being put there by his own father, with no means of escape. No one seems to care for Draco’s sudden disappearance from the Wizarding world. No one but his good friend and Auror Potter.

    Excerpt:
    "I know I'm lost forever. From now on, I am not able to un-trust him.
    It's like falling in love, but deeper - more secure and safe. Something that's not easily undone, not with him.
    It’s a revelation.
    Have you ever fallen in trust?"

    Language:
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    43
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    383
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    80
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    Harry Potter keeps a huge secret: that scary thing he can't tell anyone about. Until a mysterious penfriend changes his life, because he keeps a secret, too.

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    26,353
    Chapters:
    2/2
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    With a flick of my hand, I send ripples across the water, watching as they shine and flow to finally touch you, caressing the tender skin on the inside of your wrist. I like to think the water is my lips. I pretend I am the water, clinging to your skin, licking your wrist without shame. Not looking at me, you gather water in your palm, making it flow through your fingers. I imagine water is my fingers, slipping right between your slender ones.

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    1/1
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    20
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    2
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    Maybe our time has come
    Maybe we're overgrown
    Even the sweetest plum
    Has only got so long...

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    1,313
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
    Kudos:
    47
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    1102
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    There is this childish urge in me: I want to laugh and call Potter names, getting under his skin, making him look, and notice me and respond. Making him pay attention. Making him furious, fierce and passionate.
    Do I actually miss those school days? Oh, whom am I kidding? I want Potter's attention and his eyes on me. I want to feel his presence, focused on me alone, making my heart speed up, making me feel alive and alert. But now, I don't want his ire or spite; I don’t want to be mean in return. I want banter without meanness; I want his laughter and bright eyes, shooting glances at me; I want him to want to make me laugh. I want this easiness that he has with Weasley. I want him to like me. I want to discover how his fondness would feel, if even his hatred always made my heart race. And now, when we are not stupid children anymore, maybe I stand a second chance?

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    If I'm losing a piece of me
    Maybe I don't want heaven?

    The moment is now, and all I have to do is speak these words - my whole self, my whole being compressed into them. My life, my struggle, my shame, my relief once I knew there are others like me in this world; my bliss, my ecstasy once I’d discovered how it could be; all this is narrowed down to the three short words - 'I. AM. GAY.' which I have brought to my Mother this morning - to know the extent of her love; to reveal her the thing I am holding the closest to my heart and see what happens, and hope for the best; to know whether I am cherished or shattered before bringing the blow upon my Father's head.

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    Standing in the eye of the storm
    My eyes start to roam
    To the curl of your lips
    In the centre of eclipse
    In total darkness I
    I reach out and
    Touch

    The words are rising from my lips on their own accord, and I can almost see them in the dark air. I cannot stifle them, cannot hold them back even if I wished to, the whisper of an ancient knowledge rippling through - the thing that is bigger than me, the Creature I don't have control over. All I can do is let it out.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    20
    Kudos:
    46
    Bookmarks:
    3
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    I see a lighthouse in the distance calling my name
    But I can't get there 'til I go through all of this pain
    There's a glimmer of hope like an exhale of smoke in the sky...

    Series
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
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    5
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    I'm just a lost boy
    Not ready to be found

    "I've got you, Malfoy," I am repeating again and again, my eyes prickling, "I've got you." I have no idea of what I'm doing, if this is okay, or if it should be done, I just feel an overwhelming pity flooding me, the urge to protect, and I must let it out. Tears are running down my face, I don't know whether I'm doing it for him or for myself, but I must let this out.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    40
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    114
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    "You wouldn't understand!" I shout at Malfoy from the bottom of my pit.
    He looks down at me from his rainbow, "Oh wouldn't I? Try me..." he's wearing red lipstick that makes him look desirable and black eyeliner that makes him look severe. I want him; but he's up there at the rainbow, and wouldn't come to my pit.
    "I tried!" I shake my fist at him, "You wouldn't let me!”
    ‘...Heartless...-...heartless...-...heartless...’ is bouncing against the walls.
    "You are so fucking blind..." he shakes his head, bringing his hand up to his mouth, smearing the lipstick around until it looks like a bleeding wound. And I realise he is crying. Tears are running down his face, leaving the black streaks of eyeliner on his white skin.
    I am missing something here. Malfoys don't cry. Draco Malfoys just don't.
    "Take a trip into my garden, Potter..." he whispers...

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    114
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    Scared my love, you'll go
    Spend my love, heart broke
    So my love, don't show
    ...
    I take a sip, wait 'til it hits
    This liquid guilt is on my lips
    I'm wasted on you

    We are standing in the long silence, only the two of us in the middle of the descending cabin. I mean the three of us: he, I and the image of his woman, whose impending arrival turns me into nobody in a blink of an eye.

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    25,124
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    44
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    139
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    24
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    Kiss me on the mouth and set me free
    Sing me like a choir
    I can be the subject of your dreams
    Your sickening desire
    Don't you wanna see a man up close?
    A phoenix in the fire
    So kiss me on the mouth and set me free
    But please don't bite!

    Here, in this shadowy surreal world, I want just a little taste of something that I normally forbid myself to even think about. I am 28, for fuck's sake! Just once, can I allow myself a taste of a Man? When the man is right in front of me.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    9
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    86
    Bookmarks:
    21
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    Spark up, buzz cut
    I've got my tongue between your teeth
    Go slow... no, no go fast
    You like that just as much as me
    Oh My My My!

    When I saw You, the first thing I thought was - you were not my type; not at all.

    Language:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    9
    Kudos:
    51
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    1904
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    Under the kitchen lights
    You still look like dynamite
    And I wanna end up on you
    Oh, don't need no place to go
    Just put on the radio
    You know what I wanna do
    We can just dance to this…

    He doesn’t look at you. But he is here, he is your guest, and he put the music on.

    Language:
    English
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    16
    Kudos:
    111
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    2783
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    Remember when we first met?
    You said "light my cigarette"
    So I lied to my mum and dad
    I jumped the fence and I ran
    But we couldn't go very far
    'Cause you locked your keys in your car
    So you sat and stared at my lips
    And I could already feel your kiss...

    Language:
    English
    Words:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    51
    Kudos:
    240
    Bookmarks:
    49
    Hits:
    5371
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    Trapped between ‘to speak or to die?’ I always held back for later.

    Language:
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    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    27
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    “Can’t stand the silence. I need to speak to you.”
    I stare at the words that stare back at me. The yellowish piece of paper, torn out of the notepad...

    What's going through Oliver's head after receiving Elio's note.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    40
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    705

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