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    Castiel is alive. He's back from the Empty, and he knows Dean loves him too. He had been so sure that Dean was going to kiss him.

    He couldn't. Castiel's deal is still in effect. If Dean kisses him, or says anything back, he will die again.

    Jack seems to think that Castiel will get out of the deal. Castiel knows better. His actions have consequences. To himself, and to Dean, who wants him too and still can't have him.

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    22 Sep 2021

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    Dean knows exactly why he’d pulled Cas out of the Empty. It’s not charity. It’s selfishness. He’d made Cas lose his paradise, the version of life the Empty had created for him with his mirage of Dean, just because Dean was too scared to be alone. Dean had promised Cas that he’d pretend for him. He’d said he’d do whatever Cas needed to be as happy here as he’d been in the Empty’s reality. But Dean doesn’t even know how to be the person Cas thinks he is.

    Either Cas is lying, or his standards are impossibly low. Cas apparently thought it’d be enough for him just to be near Dean. But that’s not what love should be. It should want something back. Dean’s own feelings are irrelevant. He wants Cas, wants to be someone who deserves him. He can’t have him. He can’t construct a monologue about his reasons for loving Cas like Cas had done for him. He’s pretty sure that holding Cas’s hand would make him combust, after so long subsisting on scraps of shoulder-pats and Cas only touching him to heal him.

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    21 Sep 2021

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    Castiel doesn’t know how he got from the Empty to the floor of a barn. The last thing he remembers is saying his confession before falling with Dean onto the hay. And Dean has been different since his rescue, has thrown out all boundaries he’d ever said were customary. Humans always manage to surprise Castiel. Dean surprises him most of all.

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    20 Sep 2021

  4. Public Bookmark 19

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    For the anniversary of Castiel's introduction. Have a finale fix-it!

    Castiel can’t see. He can’t move. He doesn’t know where he is. All he can do is listen to the radio. It plays music, sometimes. Other times, he can tune in to the prayers from his family.

    And maybe, somehow, the radio waves can help him get out.

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    20 Sep 2021

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    Sam arranges a trip to a couple's resort, so Dean can enjoy the beach.

    This fic is plot averse.

    Special thanks to bookclub and to Speary for her tireless enthusiasm and willingness to correct 1000 typos.

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    19 Sep 2021