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  1. Public Bookmark 13

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    It’s okay during the day—well no, it’s not okay. Sam will clap Dean on the back or shoulder, Jack will brush against his arm when they’re standing side by side at the stove. And what used to feel so normal—good even—will feel like too much to handle. 

    Eileen and Sam will hold hands or give each other cheek kisses, and Dean will have to bear feeling so happy for his brother and yet so jealous at the same time. That’s just it, during the day, Dean’s distracted and has reason to keep a tight lid on his crap. But at night—

    He keeps himself awake until he absolutely can’t keep his eyes open anymore. Then he lies alone in his bed in the dark, and the monster comes—like a hermit crab, it tries to claw its way out of its shell, out of him. It knows nothing but want, and fear of what it wants. 

    Unable to stand it, Dean’s fingers will curl into the sheets and his heart will race and his throat will feel like there’s a scream lodged in it. Not even his old trick with the hot water bottle can lull his body into believing it's not alone. It’s not working anymore, not since his body got a taste of the real deal. Not since he’s been hugged and kissed and his hand has been held.

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    25 Jan 2021

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    Castiel spends a day learning what it's like to be human.

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    25 Jan 2021

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    Sudden light and sound make him flinch, but then, oh—cartoons!
    Awesome.
    Except then, the tall man comes over and takes the button-thingie out of his hand and shuts the cartoons off.
    “Dean, listen. The witches are gone, and they've got the Grimoire. We're gonna do a spell to slow down the curse to buy some time, and then—”
    The man cuts himself off and his serious expression turns into one of exasperation.
    “You forgot again, didn't you?”

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    25 Jan 2021

  4. Public Bookmark 28

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    Dean and Cas watch Dirty Dancing...Cas is inspired to try a few things; Dean goes along for the ride.

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    24 Jan 2021

  5. Public Bookmark 45

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    Dean and Cas are in love and go grocery shopping.

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    24 Jan 2021

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    And they're gonna get married...At least, Sam and Sarah are. Dean and Cas are just pretending so that Sam's in-laws will cut him some slack. That's what Dean keeps telling himself anyway, as the lines between real and pretend start to blur, and he and Cas become closer and closer in the lead up to the big day

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    24 Jan 2021

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    Dean Winchester doesn’t answer to anybody about anything. Not about his ever changing hair color or tattoos, not his music, and definitely not about all the fucks he definitely doesn’t give. Of course, then he meets pretentious, skinny jean wearing, ugly sweater buying Castiel Edlund who’s hardest lot in life is probably alphabetizing inventory at his uncle’s record store, and suddenly Dean has to answer for everything.

    Castiel, on the other hand, had long since accepted his fate as an anti-social, directionless, and misunderstood soul, with his cat, Meg, and a bottle of whiskey being the only company he needed. But then fate threw him Dean, the abrasive, infuriating punk who wears guyliner, and walks around like the chip on his shoulder is something to be proud of, and Castiel’s carefully constructed life was turned ass over teakettle.

    After a heated exchange upon first meeting, a mutual loathing afterwards, and the glaring opposites in their lives, neither of them sees the point of mixing oil and water. Which would be all good and well, except neither of them seems to be able to stay away from the other.

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    23 Jan 2021

  8. Public Bookmark 33

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    Dean is suspicious of his latest call with Cas. Fortunately, they've worked out a code.

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    22 Jan 2021

  9. Public Bookmark 64

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    Dean is falling. Down, down, down.

    He comes to with his face on the library table. Smooth wood, scuffed in places they’ve been careless cleaning the guns. His mouth feels chalky, eyes gummed with sleep. A sense of dread pounding black under his skin.

    He’s been here before.

    (In which Michael has Dean trapped in memories, and Sam & co are trying to get him out.)

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    22 Jan 2021

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    In which Dean and Cas reunite, and there's more than one scar.

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    22 Jan 2021

  11. Public Bookmark 65

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    In which Dean visits his mother, and Claire takes Cas on a hunt.

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    21 Jan 2021

  12. Public Bookmark 46

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    Castiel has fallen many times in many ways, but only one life has flashed before his eyes, and it wasn’t his own. If he could choose any film reel to play, it would be that one. It would be Dean.

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    21 Jan 2021

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    It’s been years since Dean prayed to Cas. Really prayed, with his heart in his throat and his back against the wall. In a hospital chapel: Whatever you did or didn't do, it doesn't matter, okay? We'll work it out. Please, man, I need you here.

    He’s done with that. What Cas did matters. Something went wrong, Dean’s ass.

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    20 Jan 2021

  14. Public Bookmark 59

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    Dean knocks on the storm door. It rattles in its frame.

    By the glower on Cas’s face when he yanks the inner door open, he already knows it’s Dean outside, and he’s not happy about it. Dean ignores that. Pastes on a grin and says, “Hear we’re on nephilim watch.” He pushes past Cas, dropping his duffel on the end of the couch. “You bring any board games? Think I owe you a round of Sorry.”

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    20 Jan 2021

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    “So, what?” Dean runs his finger down the list. Fighting ability, reads the first line. “Do we need to — go get in a fight?”

    Cas is frowning, leaning over his shoulder. But it’s Sam who answers: “I don’t think so. I think we just need to — well — talk about it.”

    Dean recoils instinctively. “Talk about —?”

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    20 Jan 2021

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    “We should go on a date. You and me.”

    Castiel wishes he could see Dean’s face. He wishes he had any idea what to say.

    “I’m asking you out, Cas.”

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    19 Jan 2021

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    Cas and Dean are roommates, neither one of them aware that the other is secretly flying around the city in the guise of a superhero saving innocent lives–even if they do regularly stitch each other up. Cas is quite convinced he’s in love with Dean however, yet Dean is interested in someone else. Someone he “works with.” Someone that later comes crashing through his window with a familiar face.

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    19 Jan 2021

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    prompted by this tumblr post, which was obviously about Gabriel. it says:

    good shit: when a character with a reputation for being selfish and uncaring gets injured while doing something to protect others

    good shit: when they pretend they’re not injured and did nothing to protect anyone, because they want to keep up that selfish reputation

    good shit: when the characters they were protecting only find out about any of this when the character collapses from the injuries they’re trying to hide

    GOOD SHIT: when the characters they were protecting frantically perform first aid/transport them to receive medical care, insist on staying by the character’s side until they wake up, then nurse them back to health

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    19 Jan 2021

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    “Cas,” he says carefully, licking his lips, “What are you asking me here?” He stares at the ring in Cas’s hand, throat dry, heart pounding. He can’t believe this is ha—well, he’s not sure what’s happening, actually.

    Cas’s face gives nothing away. “I’m asking if you’d like to wear this ring.”

    “Right,” Dean says awkwardly, too quick. “It just— it kinda sounded like you were asking me to—”

    “To get married?”

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    18 Jan 2021

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    “What’s wrong with you?” It rushes out of Dean, a wheeze of air. He looks crushed, buckling right in front of Castiel, and his whole self is reaching but not touching Castiel, refusing that one thing that he so clearly wants. “You’re like you were when we first—Don’t you remember?”

    Castiel thinks back, really tries. The bunker, the pounding at the door. The despair outside and also growing in his chest, that they would fail, that this man, this man who was meant to save the world, would die.

    “The sacrifice seemed a small gift to give,” he murmurs.

    “Small?” Dean nearly shouts. “Small? You died for me!”

    “I’m a soldier. Sometimes it’s necessary.”

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    (Not everything made it out of the Empty.)

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    18 Jan 2021

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