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  1. Public Bookmark 9

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    How would an angel fall?

    Not by a holy tablet that expels all angels to the earth, not by breaking wings nor losing Grace, not by losing faith nor disobey.

    An Angel falls in several stages. First, he would know a human, a human with such a beautiful soul that it burns brighter than a supernova. Then, he would start to care about the soul, about the human that's so mortal, but tries so hard to make his life count. Next, he realizes that he loves him, that he is willing to die for him, betraying everything he believed and losing everything he had, to make this human happier, even just a little. And finally, he realizes that he can never have this person he loved with everything he had, because not every love can be returned.

    Only then, he is truly lost, and not the Grace of an archangel can save him, not the hand of the Lord can heal him. He will fade into nothingness, his last strand of essence turns into the most beautiful feather, vanishing into the vast universe without a trace.

     

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    08 Dec 2019

  2. Public Bookmark 1

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    Sam is tired of Dean and Cas not communicating--especially when their fighting almost causes Dean to run them off the road during the events of 12x10. So, he comes up with a plan. Lately, the internet has been buzzing about this list of 36 questions that are supposed to help foster communication between partners--and OK, some articles were calling it '36 Questions That Lead to Love'--but that's not the goal, just a potentially nice side effect. That is if he can get the hunter and angel to play along in the first place.

    Part of my "Third Wheeling" series about Sam's various attempts to meddle with Dean and Cas, but the stories aren't related.

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    08 Dec 2019

  3. Public Bookmark 7

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    A breather for Dean and Castiel from God and the apocalyptic world of their lives, where they get to deal with the apocalyptic relationship between them instead.

    Castiel confesses, Dean capsizes from the weight of it, Castiel moves on.

    Dean realises what a dumb shit he’s been.

     

    “Cas,” he says again, taking a step forward, “we’d like you to stay. I’d like you to stay,” and with some strength that he’s not mustered up in awhile, he adds, “please.” It feels like he’s leapt off a cliff.

    Cas, for his part, looks about as stunned as Dean feels over what he’s managed to express. He, likely as much as Dean, plausibly anticipated a much colder and detached parting. Like last time.

    Well, fuck it, Dean’s not going to keep silent and brood like every goddamn time he felt something in his life. The world is falling apart, again, and they need each other.

    “We’re better together,” Dean says quietly.

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    07 Dec 2019

  4. Public Bookmark 39

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    After killing Chuck, things aren’t great. Mary is still dead, Jack is dead, Castiel is human, and Dean and Castiel’s friendship is broken.

    After a rough year in which they have been mostly angry at each other, they’re trying to fix what’s broken, but they’re struggling with life and too many complicated emotions and their feelings for each other. But life has never made anything easy for these two. Will they be able to pick up the broken pieces and put them back together?

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    07 Dec 2019

  5. Public Bookmark 5

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    Cooped up in the bunker with a more than pissed off angel, Dean struggles with finding the right time to ask for forgiveness, even though time is what they seem to have more than enough of these days.

    When a case comes up across the country, it provides an opportunity to finally talk about everything that has slowly torn them apart over the years- and to maybe find their way back to each other in the process.

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    07 Dec 2019