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    Tommy’s a traumatized troublemaker and people are sent to go help him with his behavior. He’s been through several specialists and he doubts this one will be any different, even if he changes schools. Why bother trying? He knows what’s wrong with him, but that’s a secret he won’t tell.

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    Tommy-centric Boarding School AU

    (Disclaimer: I do not have any of these disorders/mental diagnoses; everything I write here is based on the internet and my own understanding, so personal experiences of the disorders mentioned may not match my interpretation for everyone’s experience is different and this is just how I will portray them. I’m sorry if I’m incorrect about a certain fact or mindset.)

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    Tubbo is selfish. He always has been. He thinks he always will be. It’s just another one of his problems that’s been stacked on top of the pile.

    His selfishness is the root of all of his problems, past and present. His selfishness is what has helped him survive. It’s what prohibits him from growing. His selfishness is an ever-growing monster that roams a bottomless pit of despair. It grips him in its claws and drags him down deeper and deeper every day. And it’s what keeps him lying in bed for hours on end, paralyzed by the idea that he will never be anything to anyone, that he will just waste away here and die alone.

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    Or, Tubbo realizes what he really wants, but is too afraid to go and get it.

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    Jumping off is a lot worse than jumping on, An old, sun-tanned man had hummed one night, weeks before this. "'Lot more can go wrong, you could get sucked under, break a leg, hell, break your body if you jump too soon. Take it slow and don’t be afraid to wait for it to stop."

    Wanderlust is a dizzying thing, it spins you around and throws you in all kinds of directions until the angry animal inside you is sated and decides to settle. Tubbo greets it as an old friend, takes it's hand, and lets it guide him across the continental United States. He's not running away, he just...Tubbo needed a change, okay? And maybe it comes in the freight trains he rides, or the old abandoned rail towns he combs through. Or maybe it's in a skunk-haired stranger, with a crusty patched jacket and eyes that tell a story their mouth never will.
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    Or, Tubbo doesn't quite have a home anymore, instead finding it in his wanderings and in the steady presence of a bum he calls 'Boo.'

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    His moves slowed to a stop when he noticed a single crow next to a patch of coral honeysuckle. The crow didn’t move, it just looked at Tommy, and he looked back. The crow’s wing laid slack next to its body, blood going unnoticed by the boy between the darkness of the night and the sable feathers. After this weirdly intimate moment with the single crow, Tommy continued on in his path.

     

    His mind turned to his mother as he carried on with his walk. What would she think of him? Well, first she would be concerned that he was out in the rain with only a long-sleeve shirt on when it was only 4 ℃ outside. Maybe she would drag him inside, lecturing him on the way, or maybe she would shield him with her wings and ask what was wrong. There was no use dwelling on those thoughts. She was gone, and there was nothing he could do to change that fact.

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    Tubbo had been alone his entire life. Tossed around the system and now he was put in a strangers home. Nikki his social worker promises this home will be it. Tubbo follows her advice even if some tears were shed. Tubbo smiles,”this isn’t going to be that bad”
    or Tubbo centric foster fic cus there isn’t enough, sbi pog
    or i was to excited too post this so i just wrote a rushed summary

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    At 15 years old, tubbo is far from the innocent kid that a family would want. Orphaned from a situation he refuses to talk about, he is adopted from the Foster care system by a rather chaotic family that say they really just want to help him... but then again, when has anyone ever wanted to do that?

    [Or, that one fic where tubbo is adopted from an abusive family and realises that everybody is allowed to heal ]

    UPDATES EVERY WEEK/TWO WEEKS (SLOWER=BETTER WRITING LMAO)

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    Tubbo Feels Like Everyone around him is changing, his once best friend who was basically attached to his hip, is now a popular guy, he's blooming, Tubbo is happy for him he really is, but than again, he feels like he's the one holding everything back. Could one last fight, a final blow, convince him to live his dream, even if it meant leaving everything and everyone behind? Answer: Yes.
    And now 2 years later he comes face-to-face with his former best friends, oh heavens he's fucked isn't he?

     

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    Tubbo is having a bad Time and One Last fight with Tommy is the only thing he needed as a boost to Run Away and open a Café. One day two whole years later his former friends come barging through His Café Doors.

    (Based on a Collage Setting, An alternative Universe, Dad Jordan AU)

    (This contains Romantic Beeduo, you can very well leave if it makes you uncomfortable, and I'd love if you lmk if the creators are uncomfortable with it I'll take it down :))

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    "He knew Tommy would never hurt him.

    But still - seeing the way his brow furrowed and his hand clenched around his pencil, knuckles whitening as his other hand tightened into a frustrated fist by his side…

    It reminded him of Schlatt."

     

    Tubbo knows that he's safe in the palace. But sometimes he remembers how it used to be...

    (Whumptober Day 30: "Please don't touch me")

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    Dream holds onto Tubbo while the kid cries their heart out after their parents abandon them…for being queer.

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    READ THE TAGS! THEY ARE TRIGGER WARNINGS!!!

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    “Ah, yes.” Schlatt’s voice seemed calm, there was no underlying anger or threat within his words, and Tubbo relaxed. Just a little.

    “Pack your things, you’re being transferred to the palace from tomorrow.”

    Tubbo’s head shot up. “I-I’m - I - wh-what?”

     

    Tubbo has never really had control over his life before. But this...
    This might be the worst thing to happen to him yet.

    (Whumptober Day 7: Silent Panic Attack)

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    Um, yes, I am rewriting this again...

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    This story is HEAVILY inspired by unnamedmystery's Set me free, my honeybee

    Speed Stomper ran forwards, the blades tied to her hands turning to a magma colour. The two tussle, blades whisk by Tubbo's head as he blocked kicks from the villain. Speed Stomper managed to slice Tubbo's side, and the Bee hybrid almost screamed in pain. He saw red. The vigilante launched himself into the villains chest and punched her head until Speed Stomper became unconscious. Tubbo tore the mask off, revealing a purple haired woman with overexaggerated make up. (No hate to Minx ofc) Tubbo recognized the woman from cakes and bakes, the other coffee shop. She was getting rid of the competition.

    Tubbo grimaced, holding his hand hard against his wound. It was bleeding a lot. He felt woozy. "Tubbo?" Tommy asked frantically.

    "I... ugh, got my uh, ugh, side cut." Tubbo coughed, a little bit of blood trailing away from his lips. Is this what dying feels like? His head hurt and the world spun.

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    ‘memory loss can be due to suppressed trauma’

    no. tubbo had nothing wrong with him. his memory wasn’t that bad. and he definitely was not traumatized. tubbo had looked it up before: a traumatic experience is a life-threatening event. he didn’t have trauma. thats for people who actually went through something bad.

    so why was he still having panic attacks?

    ~title from a pearl (mitski), and chapter names from s//x sells (lovejoy)

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    “Norse-” He legitimately growled after the word. Tubbo resisted all urges to roll his eyes. “No word, me, I, can’t- can’t-” Ranboo practically pouts, again making a noise of frustration at the end of his words, and the other is almost sure he has been taught the correct terms, but just can’t find out how to put them into a sentence. He seemed to be making no effort to try more than that. Alright, he’d try it a different way, he thought with a begrudging sigh, still looking at troubled gray irises with his singular seeing blue one. Fuck it.

    “Alright, say it in draconic then, I’ll try to translate.”

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    “Don’t go too far!” Phil called after them.

    Tubbo and Tommy sprinted off into the white forest.

    They didn’t stop playing until it went dark.

    “Tommy…” Tubbo swiveled around nervously. “How do we get back?”

    “I…don’t know.” Tommy smacked his flashlight as the beam flickered.

    “What do we do?” Tubbo cried, latching onto his taller friend.

    “Well dad always told me when I get lost I need to stay put.” Tommy replied. The beam from his flashlight shut off. “It’s ok, Tubbo. We’ll be fine.”

    “I don’t like the dark.” Tubbo sniffled, burying his face in Tommy’s chest. “‘M cold.”

    “Here, Tubbo.” Tommy unzipped his jacket and put it around Tubbo. “Let’s go sit by a tree, yeah?”

    Tommy led Tubbo over to a tree where they sat on the ground, Tubbo on Tommy’s lap.

    The pair shivered, Tommy running his fingers through Tubbo’s hair as he cried.

    It didn’t matter that Tommy was younger than Tubbo, he would protect Tubbo with his life if need be.

    “I’m cold, too.”

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    the aftermath of tubbo's near death experience at the hands of winter and cold

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    transing genders, homoing sexuals, diverging neuros and much more. this groupchat in discord is the start of the benchtrio chatfic that is definitely going to fatally flop because ivbjnkmvhb our writing is bad anyways enjoy ig ?

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    AU by
    Blublu_by
    on youtube i belive
    (NOT MY AU)
    "AU where Tommy got fused with a wither since it touched his spine when he fell
    he can go back to normal, but we can now see his spine that is now purple-black on his skin (glows when he transforms),
    we can sometimes see illusions of withers' head around Tommy when he uses their power,
    that's all from now 👀 "
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    tommy couldnt think. thinking hurt too much.
    it was loud. people were screamng,he was screaming,there were explosions building up and hurting his ear drums and then -

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    After some strange days filled with flashbacks and tears, Tubbo wakes up to the most pain he’s felt in his life; And there’s blood on his pillow

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