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    Sequel to "I Am Sher-Locked Up"

    Sherlock and John navigate recovery and test the waters of their newfound relationship, and Sherlock will have to learn to let go of the darkness he clutches so close to him.

    ***TW: self harm, eating disorders, suicide, etc. All the stuff that was in my last book***

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    English
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    11,125
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    8/?
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    3
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    74
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    John didn't worry when Sherlock Holmes was silent inside his room and started to avoid him.

    He threatened to call Mycroft, when Sherlock wouldn't eat for a week - without a case.

    He began to grow concerned when his flatmate couldn't get up from his bed and walk the short way to the bathroom.

    And John nearly dialled 999 when he found a not moving, not responsive Sherlock on the floor with a broken glass.

     

    Or the one where I pour my heart out and vent in fiction about my 'life' with chronic/clinical major depression. (Lord help me..)

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    English
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    16,512
    Chapters:
    10/?
    Comments:
    36
    Kudos:
    76
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    891
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    "Your life is not your own."

    "Your life is not yours to choose."

    Two alternate people from a multitude of different worlds, and yet the same.

    On January 29, 2016, Sherlock Holmes tries to commit suicide by jumping into the Thames before being saved by a young woman he met by chance. The wounds by John Watson in the morgue only remind the Sherlock of his failed self, and of the deep deception that succeeded in protecting his true self from the other people: a self-medicating addict, prone to depression, suicidal thoughts, and low self-esteem. He knows that he has always been a fuck up.

    "I know what's like to be treated like that."

    Since the morgue, his body remembers even if his mind wants to forget and blame it on himself. For some reason, Sherlock Holmes is afraid of John Watson, even as he still desperately loves him. And John Watson doesn't understand what he did wrong.

    It seems that the only person who understands is the woman who is trying to save him.

    But do they all, all these actors in this tragedy, want to endure the journey in order to live again?

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    English
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    30,466
    Chapters:
    19/?
    Comments:
    31
    Kudos:
    129
    Bookmarks:
    18
    Hits:
    2487
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    Ok so this is set somewhere in the ep 2 of seson 4 (The Lying Detective). Mary is already dead and John just beat up Sherlock.
    “I really hit him Grag. Hit him hard,” said John and looked down at his hands. His knuckles were bruised from when he punched Sherlock in the face and his foot was hurting from when he kicked him. When did it come to this? When did John start to hate Sherlock so much? When did he become a person that would hurt someone who is already on the ground, helpless and nothing but a shadow of his former self?

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    English
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    16,639
    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    23
    Kudos:
    104
    Bookmarks:
    21
    Hits:
    3394
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    John walks in on Sherlock injecting something into his arm. It's worse than he could have imagined...

    [Co-starring leonard_mccoy as Sherlock Holmes]

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    English
    Words:
    1,506
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    41
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    858
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    [TRIGGER WARNING: Contains self harm, suicidal thoughts and acts, descriptive scenes of gore, cuts, and scars. Please do not read if you will be triggered by these scenes]
    ____________________

    "Goodbye, John."
    "No," he cries. "Don't."
    I nod, then throw the phone on the roof behind me.
    John takes the phone away from his ear and screams, "Sherlock!"
    I spread my arms out and fall forward off the building, hoping that something will catch me-trusting that this will all go according to plan.
    The last thing I see is John's face filling with fear as he says my name again, and then it's over.
    For now.
    For him.
    It's the end of Sherlock Holmes, the world's famous (and only) consulting detective genius.

    [all characters belong to Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and BBC, I do not own these characters, I'm just borrowing them]

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    English
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    11,600
    Chapters:
    30/?
    Comments:
    21
    Kudos:
    264
    Bookmarks:
    13
    Hits:
    3734
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    When John confronts him about his aversion to food, Sherlock takes it as the final push to kill himself.

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    English
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    1,112
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    78
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    820
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    After all they have been through, after all the heartbreak and desolation, John and Sherlock want to make their way back to each other, still convinced that friendship is all that can exist between them. Will there be a change of heart?

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    65,436
    Chapters:
    20/20
    Comments:
    383
    Kudos:
    559
    Bookmarks:
    110
    Hits:
    8325
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    'It's not the fall that kills you, Sherlock. Of all people, you should know that. It's not the fall, it's never the fall.'

    It's been months since Sherlock returned from the dead, with a new set of demons lying in wait for him. He thought he was coping, thought he was living, but one man can sense the lie. The genius detective can see through everyone, but fails to notice his own transparency.

    'It's the landing.'

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    English
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    18
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    346
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    Sherlock and John get into a fight that turns out to be Sherlock's final straw.

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    English
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    1,621
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    9
    Kudos:
    34
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    585
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    Sherlock had returned from his two years in hiding to discover John had moved out of Baker Street and out of London. After attempting to contact him, John had firmly stated he wanted nothing at all to do with Sherlock.
    And so Sherlock returned to his flat and attempted to return to his life. He tried to get used to being alone. He had lived alone for most of his life, doing it now should be no different. And yet… with each passing moment, the lack of John in his life was growing harder to bear. After three months, his mood swings had gotten out of control and the longing for his friend grew to be more than he could take.

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    English
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    2,970
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    25
    Kudos:
    186
    Bookmarks:
    25
    Hits:
    3076
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    John is dealing with Sherlock's suicide.
    (Short short story, poem)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    71
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    17
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    130
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    Sherlock comes home from the Hiatus - only to find John has moved on and is refusing to speak to him. Sherlock slips into depression, and begins to wonder exactly how much it must hurt to take his life.

    Donovan, Anderson and Lestrade, while in the middle of a drugs bust, discover something shocking. A suicide note, from Sherlock.

    But can they save the consulting detective?

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    English
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    4,876
    Chapters:
    11/?
    Comments:
    80
    Kudos:
    138
    Bookmarks:
    16
    Hits:
    2479
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    Sherlock is kidnapped and drugged. Nothing major, but in hospital, in front of John and Lestrade, Sherlock's undone mind begins to spill secrets Sherlock's kept buried for years.

     

    ‘Please don’t send me back, Mycroft,’ Sherlock said, his voice barely a whisper. His eyes were focused on something over John’s shoulder. ‘I can’t take it anymore.’

    A shiver ran down Lestrade’s spine. The fear in Sherlock’s eyes was so real, so raw. He was begging his brother.

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    English
    Words:
    3,736
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    34
    Kudos:
    190
    Bookmarks:
    29
    Hits:
    4873
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    AU where John, a soldier serving in the New Army 21st division during world war I, is saved by a recluse that dresses like Victorian-era nobility and has a thing about blood.

    **Spoilerz**
    Yes, that was a very subtle vampire Sherlock allusion.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,715
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    46
    Bookmarks:
    6
    Hits:
    643
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    Having recently returned to London, John Watson has decided to step up - to the rooftop of St. Bart's. As he braces himself to meet his end, he meets someone else with the same idea...

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    516
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    28
    Kudos:
    147
    Bookmarks:
    9
    Hits:
    1229
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    Sherlock spends a one last mouth with John (who is brain dead) in the hospital after the soldier is shot by Eurus (his sister), before pulling the plug to end it all.

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    English
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    988
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    1
    Kudos:
    38
    Hits:
    909
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    "Sometimes John's friendship and love is enough to calm me down ... but sometimes it isn't" - SH
    Sherlock's mind is raging again. He took some drugs in hope to calm his mind but nothing seems to help. He starts to shoot at things with his gun and that's when John finaly comes back home. Can John help Sherlock escape his demons or will Holmes find his own way out?

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,495
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    12
    Kudos:
    68
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    1438
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    I knelt on the pavement,
    Of which the bricks were soaked red,
    I blamed myself,
    For the three words I had never said.

    A poem of Johnlock with heavy heavy angst. Be warned! For ye' who like to torture yourself with the Reichenbach Feels

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    354
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    27
    Hits:
    276
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    John Watson is seventeen, and one year away from aging out of the foster care system, after the murder/suicide of his parents three years prior. He gets placed with the rich Holmes family for the remainder of his time in the system.

    Sherlock Holmes is fifteen with a drug problem and severe emotional issues.

    What happens when a tornado meets a volcano? Can these boys save each other from themselves?

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    10,484
    Chapters:
    8/8
    Comments:
    13
    Kudos:
    203
    Bookmarks:
    29
    Hits:
    3119

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