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    Sam can't get Dean's voicemail out of his head.

    Or: a voicemail fix-it, with Sam having no self-value after he releases Lucifer.

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    1/1
    Comments:
    16
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    73
    Bookmarks:
    13
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    691
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    There are a lot of reasons Dean could reasonably hate Metatron. The actual one? He almost ruined movie nights. Almost.

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    841
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    21
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    2
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    158
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    Rated teen and up for a trigger warning. Major description of death and self harm.
    Warning for graphic due to descriptions of self harm and the process of dying. (It's not too graphic)
    Warning for character death due to it happening, but not having an aftermath (may write after math)

    Sam is in a bad place, Lucifer is gone, but a war still rages. The war in Sam's head that is. He can't handle this anymore, and decides to end it.

    So he lays in the bathroom of some motel, watching as the moon waves good bye one last time.

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    1/1
    Kudos:
    14
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    209
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    Present Dean, Future Dean and Sam manage to beat the Devil in the Alternate Universe. But there’s one thing Dean-both of him-have to know.

    Language:
    English
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    810
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    33
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    237
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    Sam Wesson is an aspiring writer who is suffering from depression and suicidal tendencies due to his past war experience. He is going through writer's block and is unable to complete his novel's plot - a man who is in search of his parents' killer. Everyone constantly worries about him and Sam just wants them to leave him alone. But all Sam wants is a friend, someone, who can understand him.

    He really should have been careful in his wishes because Sam, one night, completely drunk, finds his story's protagonist Dean, in his study room eating his food, the same protagonist who is alive. Who apparently needs his help. Now he is thrown into a much darker world where he has to track a serial killer, manage a fictional? person who could be lying or not, all the while keeping all this hidden from his family and friends.
    And find love? Is it possible?

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    English
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    11,039
    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    18
    Kudos:
    26
    Bookmarks:
    7
    Hits:
    430
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    When Sam headed into town one day for a beer run, and also to get away from Dean because he was annoying him, he runs into the FBI and get arrested.

    Trigger Warning: depression, self harm, suicide attempts

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,284
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    94
    Bookmarks:
    10
    Hits:
    1027
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    Sam wasn't entirely sure why he was sitting there right now and why he felt the need to do it like this but the hunter felt drawn to the lake since he first saw it. The fact that it was snowing and that the lake was frozen just makes the thing even more appealing. The cold didn't even bother him. It calmed him in a sense he didn't understand but he knew that if he was going to die he had to be cold while it happened.

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    Comments:
    11
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    28
    Hits:
    225
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    After getting sick of all of the Tuesday's he's been living through, Sam finally decides to try to put a stop to it permanently...even if it means killing himself.

    Trigger Warning: depression, suicide

    Series
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    English
    Words:
    1,096
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    81
    Bookmarks:
    5
    Hits:
    896
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    A rewrite of 12x02 with much much angst and hurt Sam. Because sheer willpower is not usually enough to overcome hallucinatory drugs.

    Language:
    English
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    3,675
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    137
    Bookmarks:
    18
    Hits:
    1442
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    Sam commits suicide, leaving his family to attempt to pick up the pieces.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,255
    Chapters:
    6/?
    Comments:
    4
    Kudos:
    31
    Bookmarks:
    3
    Hits:
    904
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    Sam and Dean went on a hunt that went wrong, and Sam feels bad for the way things played out. This is what happens...

    Series
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    English
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    903
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    28
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    643
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    Sam and Dean in heaven: having a great time, feeling lots of emotion, and being as intimate and loving as they want to be without any inhibition.

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    23,080
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    10
    Kudos:
    66
    Bookmarks:
    22
    Hits:
    877
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    "Sam winchester hadn't always been a faithful man."

    Language:
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    1,319
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    32
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    360
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    Sam dealing (or, arguably, not dealing) with Dean's death post-season 3.

    Language:
    English
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    550
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    14
    Bookmarks:
    2
    Hits:
    138
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    When the BAU heads to Lawrence, Kansas to investigate some murders, they find two kids named Sam and Dean who are abused by their dad. And their dad seems to be a pretty good suspect for the crimes.

    Trigger Warning: anxiety, abuse, kidnapping, homophobia, mentions of suicide and suicidal behavior

    Language:
    English
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    6,046
    Chapters:
    7/7
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    3
    Kudos:
    175
    Bookmarks:
    20
    Hits:
    1807
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    the one where an angel of the lord killed him.

    Series
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    English
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    444
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    3
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    28
    Bookmarks:
    1
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    363
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    Day 9: Buried Alive

    "Being buried alive is deceptively terrifying. There’s lots of choices to make; breath while they slowly shovel the soil onto you? Or hold your breath and press your face into the bottom of the grave and suffocate yourself that much quicker? Draw out the terror or actively try to die? There was altogether too much thinking involved in this kind of death."

    Some hunters catch Sam and bury him alive.

    Series
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    English
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    14
    Kudos:
    108
    Bookmarks:
    10
    Hits:
    943
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    This fic makes an attempt to portray Sam's relationship with self-harm and suicidal ideation. Starting when he was a teenager, up until the end of season five. Mildly canon non-compliant.

    Language:
    English
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    1,402
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    62
    Bookmarks:
    4
    Hits:
    769
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    Mature for suicidal themes. Take care of yourselves, PLEASE.

    Febuwhump Day 2: "I can't take this anymore"

    "Every muscle is pulled taught, hands clenching and a scream building in his chest. Caught in his chest. He knows it won’t come out, even if he tries. Any sound coming out of his mouth would be woefully inadequate to abate the pressure. He needs to pull himself together before Dean comes back."

    Spoiler: he doesn't.

    Series
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    English
    Words:
    1,186
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    6
    Kudos:
    92
    Bookmarks:
    8
    Hits:
    857
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    The Winchesters live interesting lives. They hunt monsters for one. And they live in a bunker with Lucifer's kid. And they're also immortal after a run in with a witch a few hundred years ago.

    When the BAU is investigating some murders in Lebanon, Kansas, Reid meets Sam.

    Trigger Warning
    Suicide attempts
    Depression
    Kidnapping

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,617
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    7
    Kudos:
    194
    Bookmarks:
    13
    Hits:
    1905

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