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    [“You have to trust me,” Sylvain says. “I’ve spent more of my life than not with people throwing themselves at me for my Crest. Formally courting someone won’t stop the offers but they will slow them down. I’m in Fhirdiad as my father’s proxy for the foreseeable future--I’m an ideal choice.”

    “Sylvain,” Dimitri says, “I wouldn’t want to put you out--”

    So Sylvain won’t be able to fuck around so much. He didn’t quite think this through, but...Dimitri’s his king. More than that, Dimitri’s his friend. “Weren’t you always telling me I should quit my philandering ways, Your Majesty?” he says, smiling wryly. “Maybe you’re the one who managed to settle me down.”]

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    And he'd always had those secret little moments where he hoped that there was no afterlife.

    That permanent things were permanent.

     

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    Comfort Zone Ending One: The Bad Ending

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    There's an unexpected knock at her condo door.

    Claire looks through the peephole and what she sees makes something like insanity shriek through her insides, like a knife wound. Ripping her open, leaving her innards spilling everywhere in an ocean of red in her mind. She can’t breathe. There’s no air in her lungs. She’s drowning. She’s suffocating.

    She opens the door, because what else is there to do? “You told me you were never coming back.” Her voice is accusing. Betrayed. She's a mess of emotions as she stares up into familiar icy blue eyes.

    It’s nearly been four years, but he still walks in, smelling of aftershave, cigarettes, and every bad choice Claire’s ever made.

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    A hungry Jasper and a lot of blood in a public, enclosed space- it should go terribly wrong, but thankfully, it doesn't.

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    Hi. This is a place for me to put all the very many poems I’ve written over the years. There’s magic, there’s spirituality, there’s regret, there’s want and need and yearning. There’s pondering and wondering and wandering. It’s emotional, it’s fantastical, it’s angry, it’s hopeful, it’s mentally ill, it’s weird. But most of all it’s me screaming into the void and hoping that the void won’t scream back. But it does scream back. It always screams back.

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    Since Izuku was born as a weapon his parents abused, manipulated , and trained him they with daily verbal, mental, emotional and physical abuse he grew up thinking this was normal. His parents made him cover the fact up by presenting him perfectly or covering it with make up, keeping up his academic scores, never hitting him in someplace noticeable and explaining that “This is what every parent does.” but Izuku always wondered why did his best friend ‘kacchan’’s mother never hurt him or yell at him neither any other adults?

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    Steve and Bucky have never had a privileged life growing up in Brooklyn. But they always had each other, and they always find safety and happiness in one another. But as the world shifts and America joins the war efforts things begin to change. Has the end of their line finally come or was there just a gap?

    or Steve has to learn to live on his own, and Bucky is doing his best to get home to his omega.

    (Such a shitty summary I'm sorry I for the life of me can't write them)

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    Quirkless. the word that defined Izuku Midoriya's life since the age of four, no matter what he did he was a quirkless failure who could never become a hero. that changed the day he met two people; the symbol of peace All Might, who, after a rocky start, named Izuku as his successor. and Samuel a devil who sees the potential within Izuku and decides to take him under his wing. Now Izuku will step not only into the world of heroics, but the world of myth and magic, where he and Samuel will reach out and save others with a smile.

    And unknown to him, he and Samuel are a part of something bigger, connected by their dreams.

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    When your life is under constant observation, it is difficult to find yourself. Especially when everyone has a certain idea of who you are. Idol life is not all about glamor and fame, but much more about lies and deception. Felix not only has to find his place in this world, but also has to protect his heart.

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    "I fucking care about you!"

    "Well, then stop!"

    Taehyung never smiles and Jimin is determined to change that.

    It isn't as easy as it seems though. Scars run deep, carved and etched into the soul that goes unnoticed by most, but a soulmate can see right through.

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    So I've seen a number of "Jiang Cheng gets tossed into the Burial Mounds" AUs and they all pretty much agree that, because Jiang Cheng isn't a genius like Wei Wuxian, it takes him way longer to master demonic cultivation.

    Bullshit.

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    Fae Knight Gawain. The Knight of the Sun. The Lord of Manchester. The gluttonous tyrant, black dog, and calamity that knew nothing but how to consume those that she loved.
    A walking curse.
    A blight upon the land.
    The girl that should have died ages ago for the betterment of the Fairy Kingdom.

    Even as a Servant, that humiliating curse remains in Barghest. Inescapably so.
    She thought she knew better. If she fell in love again, she'd not only hurt someone, but she'd selfishly damage entire war effort for Human History.

    So then, why was her heart pounding...?


    Spoilers for 'Lostbelt 6: Avalon le Fae'

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    Kei is sick again.

    It registers, distantly, that he shouldn’t be surprised by this. He’s been sick since September 27th, 1996, and at age fifteen it shows no signs of getting any better.

    Or: Tsukishima is ill. Akiteru tries to care for him.

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    I long for you to discover, even for a split second that the lines I draw with my heart are my words of love written for you; constantly digging and filling the holes in my heart.

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    cross chooses the gang over his universe. killer doesn't handle it well.

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    One night was all it took for destruction of BTS. One night was all it took for Jungkook to change. One night was all it took for Namjoon's past to come up.

    When Jungkook gets attacked the most violent and violating way, it brings up past memories for Namjoon. Memories that Namjoon tries to hide away from the boys. The past before BTS he tries to keep hidden away. Now Namjoon will have to face his past in order to help the youngest member get over the hardest pain he could ever have. Only Namjoon can save the young Maknae from making the same mistakes that he did.

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    Phoenix is a mysterious woman with a tormented past. She comes off rather cold and uncaring. Survival mechanism. She refuses to let anyone get too close. She woke up six years ago as a guardian, but refused to join the vanguard. In her mind she was just a mechanic, a well known mechanic. Looting and scavenging for rare parts was all she wanted.

    She gets caught in the Tower after trying to sneak in for parts Amanda Holliday was keeping for her. Now forced to become part of the vanguard under Zavala who she claims ruined her life.

    Cayde-6, hunter vanguard, is to keep Phoenix as his new partner under Zavala's orders. While testing her abilities, he catches a glimpse of her dark past. Now, he only wants to prove to her that she can trust him. As her partner he won't let her down.

    Phoenix is caught between the pain of the past and the hope of the present. Will she truly let Cayde in?

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    Kazutora no sabe que es vivir en libertad, y es un camino demasiado duro para él.

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    — Y tú, ¿No planeas hablar nunca?

    Ojos bélicos, pero extremadamente deslumbrantes para el pensar del azabache, lo observaban como si fuese una mancilla de alquitrán entre el fino espesor de la nieve en invierno, manchando la blancura de la misma. Prácticamente, estriñéndole mentalmente con la mirada mientras se dignaba a ignorarlo.

    Kazutora, tiempo después, sabría que estaría escandalizado por la no tan afectiva, ni enternecedora, presencia del rubio.

    ''— ¿Sabes que significa? 'ikigai'.''

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    Those three precious words stumbled from his lips, “I love you too Brett, so much.”
    He petted his hair and back, his hands pressing against every inch of Brett just to let him know he was there, “I love you more than you could ever hate yourself. I love you more than that.”

    That moment Brett broke more, wretched sobs ripped through his throat. It was no mystery that they despised themselves. Sometimes Brett's hate was more hidden than Eddy’s own. Eddy was an open book, wore his emotions on his sleeve, but Brett hid it all under the face of being okay. Not here though. In these moments he was simply broken yet safe in the embrace of a man who meant the world to him. Eddy loved him more than he could ever hate himself.

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    ~“So, we’re up against fierce wing, dog, and cremation?” Jiro tallies. Receiving confirmative nods she continues, “We should proceed in formation ten. Shimura, you’ll be our decoy. If your parents are playing the villains, they’re more likely to hesitate to attack you than the rest of us.”
    “You really underestimate Touya’s commitment to role play. Have you ever played D&D with that man?”
    “I’m banking on his desire to keep his husband happy, and Hawks will hesitate, even if it’s just for a moment. Shoto will be directly behind you. If we’re right about Touya being one of the villains, we’ll be relying on you to combat his fire. You two will attack directly.” When the heterochromatic teen nods, her attention shifts to the only other girl on the team. “Uravity, you’ll need to put Voice Over and I in the trees. Voice Over, if you can brainwash any of them, do it. If not,” she shrugs, “you’re pretty good at getting into people’s heads. I’ll do my best to subdue them with my Heartbeat Wall. Uravity will loop around behind enemy lines and save the hostage in the chaos. Got it?”~

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