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    Merlin is all that's left of Avalon. After watching loved ones die, and kingdoms fall, none of it equated to the pain he felt when Arthur died.
    But maybe Arthur won't be gone forever. After all: When Albion's need is greatest, King Arthur will rise again... if not in the way Merlin expected.

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    I'm incapable of writing anything that isn't angst so TW for mental health issues, including thoughts and conversations about depression, self harm, suicide. Reader discretion is advised if these topics are triggering to you.

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    Merlin has been alive for 1500 years, and he's long since accepted that Arthur's not coming back. But there may yet be a chance that he can go back to Arthur and get a chance to not fail his king.

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    To bear the guilt of being responsible for death of so many was...

    Merlin thought back to Morgana and her last months in Camelot. "I would do it to… but I have no one else to blame it on…"

    To face the fact that one of his mentors, who for several years prepared him for a supposedly grand destiny, suddenly decided to forget all about his teachings just to extract his vengeance...

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    After the dragon incident is over, Merlin goes home to get himself back together upon Gaius’ insistence and Arthur’s order. The outcome is not what anybody expected.

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    Merlin's jobs are as follows: Assistant physician, Prince's Manservant, and Secret Protector of the Once and Future King.
    A sudden influx of magical beasts from a nearby kingdom terrorising Camelot and flushing the Druids out of hiding forces him to take up another one: Emrys, King of the Druids. Of course, he's doing this anonymously, he's gonna need a disguise. No one can know it's Merlin kicking the shit out of stray Chimeras.
    Meanwhile, Arthur is terribly frustrated. His father won't let him out even as magical beasts are rampaging around the kingdom, and people are dying. Well, what Uther doesn't know won't hurt him. But he's gonna need a disguise. No one can know it's Arthur beating the brains out of random water spirits.
    And, sidenote: who's this Emrys guy?

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    Merlin answers threats to Camelot and the Druids as Emrys. Arthur does the same in defiance of his father as The Red Knight. They're medieval superheroes.

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    It was happening again. Uther knew, Arthur knew, Morgana knew. He was being sentenced to death. He was going to die.

     

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    Agony April 2022
    Day 3: Fear

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    Merlin is just five years old when his mother teaches him to lie for the first time.

    Or, the one in which Merlin’s journey towards destiny begins with one little white lie and spirals into a tangled web of secrets kept from his closest friends, misplaced truths about himself and magic, and the belief that his lies are the only truth Arthur will accept.

    (Companion piece to "the truth was a cave")

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    1000 years have passed. bit by bit, merlin's life comes back to him.

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    reincarnation fic.

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    Merlin's having a bad day. Arthur and Gwen just want to help.

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    Arthur decides it's finally time to talk with Merlin, but has some trouble starting a conversation. Merlin visits some friends.

    ~Part 17 of the series~

    Series Summary: To protect Mordred, Merlin confesses to having been a child soldier under Cenred's rule before coming to Camelot. This causes ripple effects throughout their lives that culminate into a tidal wave of disaster for the kingdom and its resident warlock.

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    Merlin gets poisoned with something no one knows how to cure. And when a threat arises, Merlin doesn't hesitate, even if it will cost him his life. Arthur is determined not to lose him.

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    One person can change everything. The stars may drive men's fates, but the stars never counted on a farm boy clawing his way back to life out of stubbornness and a wish to protect his oldest friend.

    He might not be part of some prophecy, but by god he'll turn it on it's head.

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    Bad luck always seem to be attacking Merlin. It's like the warlock just can't catch a break no matter how hard he tries. And when the bad luck results in his worst nightmares coming true Merlin truly can't cope. That is....unless apologies are made and forgiveness is given.

    A reimagining of the episodes 'The Secret Sharer' (4x7) and 'Lamia' (4x8).

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    Merlin tries to do some research of his own on this Bolas fellow, and Mordred reflects on the past few days and the mighty Emrys.

    ~Part 16 of the series~

    Series Summary: To protect Mordred, Merlin confesses to having been a child soldier under Cenred's rule before coming to Camelot. This causes ripple effects throughout their lives that culminate into a tidal wave of disaster for the kingdom and its resident warlock.

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    So Elyan is readying to get on behind Gwen, hoping that the older horse will be able to carry them, when Merlin speaks up.

    “You could come with me.”

    When leaving for Camelot, Elyan ends up sitting behind Merlin. Why?
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    Merlin has breakfast with his fellow servants, and his presence stirs things up among the other servants.

    ~Part 15 of the series~

    Series Summary: To protect Mordred, Merlin confesses to having been a child soldier under Cenred's rule before coming to Camelot. This causes ripple effects throughout their lives that culminate into a tidal wave of disaster for the kingdom and its resident warlock.

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    Gwen is worried about Arthur and Merlin, and Merlin is starting to struggle with his anger toward Mordred.

    ~Part 14 of the series~

    Series Summary: To protect Mordred, Merlin confesses to having been a child soldier under Cenred's rule before coming to Camelot. This causes ripple effects throughout their lives that culminate into a tidal wave of disaster for the kingdom and its resident warlock.

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    Merlin is getting closer and closer to breaking, Mordred notices.

    ~Part 13 of the series~

    Series Summary: To protect Mordred, Merlin confesses to having been a child soldier under Cenred's rule before coming to Camelot. This causes ripple effects throughout their lives that culminate into a tidal wave of disaster for the kingdom and its resident warlock.

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    The morning after talking with Gwaine, Merlin gets a flashback when he sees Mordred's tattoo. Later, he spots Leofwin sneaking into the library.

    ~Part 12 of the series~

    Series Summary: To protect Mordred, Merlin confesses to having been a child soldier under Cenred's rule before coming to Camelot. This causes ripple effects throughout their lives that culminate into a tidal wave of disaster for the kingdom and its resident warlock.

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    Fifteen hundred years is a very long time to be alive.

    They come back, but Merlin takes a while to remember them.

    Merlin also adopts a few children that may or may not be reincarnated Camelot citizens.

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    Merlin ponders what Kilgharrah said, and Gwaine appears unexpectedly to talk.

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