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    Feeling like the 118 would never take him back, wouldn't try to understand why he started the lawsuit, would only see him as exhausting, Buck decided that it was time for a change.

    Feeling like he had no other choice, Buck took the money and decided to start over. Maybe the umpteenth time's the charm.

    Years later, running into the ghosts of his past while starting his new job, will he be able to get over the pain?

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    Evangeline "Buck" Buckley had always thought she and her high school sweetheart Eddie Diaz would end up spending their lives together, but when Eddie gets onto a high-profile recording label, their relationship crumbles to dust and Eddie leaves her behind.

    Years pass and a series of events bring the two crashing back into each other's lives. Secrets are revealed, hurt and anger is felt from both sides but maybe, somehow, relationships can heal, and feelings can grow and bloom into something beautiful.

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    For a while, Buck had thought that the hardest part was over. That the hardest part was directly in the aftermath, that he wouldn't feel like this anymore. Physically, he's healed within a month. Physically, he's okay.

    He returned to work on the three week mark, mere days after he was medically cleared because he was determined to not have spent any time alone in his loft or in that house, and though he knows his team are all worried about him, he is okay to work.

    He doesn't jump at every touch anymore, doesn't tense up when somebody walks behind him. He's fine. He's fine. But nobody believes him.

     

    (Or, communication is key and the 118 are lacking it.)

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    Buck was just getting a table for himself, Eddie, and Christopher. They were meeting for lunch and Buck was thrilled to see their sunshiny faces on such a sunshiny day. And then--

    "Buck?"

    Abby Clarke was back in LA.

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    Buck is back in Los Angeles after a two-year absence. He is married and has just had a baby. The team learns that he experienced new traumas during his absence and a new one is added when he arrives in town. Everyone surrounds him and helps him to overcome this terrible ordeal. Eddie does everything to help him become himself again and perhaps hope to win him back, gently.

    This fiction is a translation of my French versions. I'm not very good to English, so please forgive any mistakes I didn't spot (there may be a lot.)

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    Evan Buckley is like a gilded lily. He was already beautiful yet he decides to adorn his body because he hates himself. Evan Buckley knew he wouldn't last long. He didn’t even expect his life to actually be worthy of something, let alone, save people. 16-year-old Evan would never believe that he was a firefighter. 16-year-old Evan didn’t expect much, he wasn’t anything really.
    From 16 to 21 to 27 to 28 to 29 to now all Evan has ever done is give and give and love, but was it enough?
    He was just so tired of it all, he just wanted it to end.

     

    OR; Depressed Evan Buckley looks back at his past and doesn't even who he is. Or who is Buck?

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    Buck gets into a coma and dreams about a life where Daniel is alive and his parents love him.

    Eddie has to deal with the new overwhelming feelings of being in love with his best friend, who may never wake up.

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    After Abby packed her bags and left, Buck felt suffocated by LA and the reminders of her, so he throws himself into his work until Bobby makes him take some vacation time, Buck ends up taking a small roadtrip from Texas to LA, until his jeep breaks down in El Paso and he finds himself pulled to his mechanic and his adorable son, and somehow finds himself staying in Texas trying to help them get a surgery for Chris, when other options don´t work, Buck decides to ask Eddie to marry him so he can use his insurance. Sure things can´t get too complicated right?

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    Buck stares at Eddie one more time, makes sure he is really asleep— and he is, his face is relaxed and eyes closed, he looks restful; then hesitantly climbs under the covers, sliding down and settling in.

    He turns on his side, his back facing Eddie, and closes his eyes. He will only sleep for a few hours and go back to the living room before Eddie wakes up, all he needs is to spend the remainder of the night with Eddie next to him and soak his safety, feel his presence, that's all he wants.

    A whisper rough with sleep breaks the silence and startles him, causing his barely steady heart to drop in his chest.

    "You're shaking."

    Oh, fuck.

    Great.

    *

    Buck has a night terror, Eddie keeps him safe.

    Bad Things Happen Bingo: Wiping the Other's Tears Away

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    Buck left.

    There wasn’t any specific event that led him to it, everything had just been building up, and he was finally done. A small thing happened, and he snapped. He needed a break, he needed to find himself again.

    Everyone left, it was his turn.

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    Buck is taken to street fights by Lena because he needs the money after the lawsuit. He doesn't know that Eddie is there too. Buck refuses to fight him and is seriously injured by others.

    He falls into a coma. When he wakes up he is no longer the Buck everyone knows. He is no longer the golden retriever.

    And even worse for Eddie, Buck can't remember him.

     

    English is not my first language. And I am really happy if you tell me what is wrong and I can change it. That's how I learn.

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    Buck is tired.

    Everyone is doing important things, moving on with their lives, while he's stuck in this heart wrenching loop of hurt, neediness and unworthiness.

    So he lets go.

    Eddie asks for another chance at making things right, at keeping Buck alive and happy, and gets several. Stuck reliving the same day over and over until he figures a way out, he finally learns to listen to the universe when it screams at him.

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    Something really bad happens during an intervention and one of our firefighter cannot forgive themselves.

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    "You often asked me, if I had a Heaven, what would it be like? And I told you, that for such a small word, 'if', was just too big to wrap my belief around. I would not bend to the hypothetical. I wish now, that I would've. Even if it was just to ease your mind in the belief that I could be headed to that other place you believed in. I would tell you now that, my heaven is here. It was here."

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    When a small child is dropped of at the station, Bobby can't imagine how much his life is going to change, in more than one way

    Or: Bobby adopts Buck

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    You’re exhausting, did you know that?” Eddie’s head shoots up at the hollow sound of Buck’s voice. “Being in love with you is exhausting. It’s too much.”

    “You knew what this was from the beginning,” Eddie replies. His own voice is soft, quiet even, but his words hammer in the final nail into a coffin full of memories he’d likely spend another six years trying to put to rest. “I never wanted more than this,” he lies. “And I never promised you more.”

     

    I love angsty, sexy, sometimes-I-hate-how-much-ILY 💕 love stories. If that's your thing, watch this space.

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    Part three of my newly created Series called "and if today, all you did was hold yourself together, I'm proud of you"

    In this story Buck is recently diagnosed with ADHD and dealing with depression while in a abusive relationship with Taylor Kelly.

    Summary Chapter 1:

    The thing is, Buck knows he should break up with Taylor. He knows she isn't any good for him. But it seemed like a good idea to give it another shot, to try and fall in love with her. But he still hasn't and he never will. She's not the person who makes his heart beat faster everytime he sees them. She's not the person who makes him feel like a million butterflies are twirling around in his stomach. She isn't the person he wants to spend the rest of his life with.

    That person is Eddie…

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    Bobby is the captain of the 118. Everything is fine until Buck joins his team. Bobby falls in love with Buck. He's older and his boss. He knows how wrong it is.

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    After the lawsuit, the team doesn't realize how badly Buck is doing. By chance they find out about his problems and want to help. It's just that Buck has a hard time accepting help. And it won't be easy to see the once so cheerful firefighter carefree again.

     

    (By special request. I know it took a long time but here is your fic …;)…)

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    Rated mature because I don't know where this is going and this all started as a dream I had.

    AU. Maybe he did mess up, but the 118 have proven that they're not the family he thought they were, and he's had enough therapy (Thanks, Maddie) to recognise that he doesn't deserve to live the rest of his life like this. But moving on doesn't mean forgetting, and even when you make the best attempt to rebuild your life, the past will always catch up with you.

    Evan "Buck" Buckley is a single dad to a beautiful 18-month-old girl and a firefighter at station 76. He's spent the last few years learning how to trust himself and others again, will a couple of chance encounters with those he used to call family change all that? Or can his new and old life blend seamlessly into something better?

    Tagged as Buddie because chances are, it'll happen eventually.
    Tagged as Minor Character Death because they're first responders not super-heros.

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