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    But they are all wishes, and Dean knows that there are handful of things in this universe that he wants, but just cannot have. But he dare not put a name to them. To admit it would be to face the reality of his desires, and that is just not something that Dean deserves. Not in this world. Not in this lifetime.

    Any time that he has something worth keeping around, he needs to make sure it is not for his sake. Because whenever Dean gets even a taste of what happiness could be like, it is quickly taken away from under him.

    -AKA where Cas and Dean have near the exact same problems which is why s15 ended the way it did. Lmao :))))
    Team Free Will-centric, with emphasis on Cas and Dean. Set during the S13 and S14 gap and continues on from there. Becoming a finale fix-it fic from here on out.

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    Nothing ever really ends, though, does it?
    After 15x20, they got Cas back, went hunting until they were fat and bald and chugging Viagra. Then they retired— Sam with Eileen and Dean with Cas. They locked up the bunker and that was that. But the monsters aren't all gone, not yet. There's work to be done, work for the next generation. Eight kids from Minnesota drive into a state park. Seven walk out, different people. Legends. Myths. The new family's business. A canon-compliant sequel to Supernatural that could absolutely be picked up and produced (looking at you, Jensen). It's very gay and very queer. Ace author probably won't write in any romances. Just found family cleaning up the mess the CW left behind.

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    Castiel has moved to town with his twins, Belphegor and Jack. Technically they’re his adopted niblings, but they’re still his. They’re going into 10th grade when they run into some issues with some girls who have decided to narrow in on Jack because they are non- binary.

    Through a second chance friendship, Jack and Emma make their dads meet, and there starts the terrible thing all parents have to go through- interaction. While rocky, awkward, and terribly uncomfortable at first, it quickly snowballs into a strong bond that leads to other things.

    However, as with all relationships, there are several hurdles and hoops to jump, the biggest being the self-destruction these two both struggle with.

    Through thick and thin, joy and sorrow, Castiel and Dean try to make things work in any way they can, try not to hurt each other at the expense of their own heart, breaking both their hearts several times. The question is- will it all be worth it in the end?

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    Dean makes it to Lisa’s in record time. Cas paid his visit along the way and Dean felt more present in those few minutes than he did in the entirety of the hours driving alone. Cas is okay. Bobby is okay. For a moment, as Dean had knelt on the dying grass with his face so beaten he could barely see, he thought he had lost everyone. Adam taken. Cas exploded. Bobby broken. Sam gone. That moment, with his knees digging into the dry grass, was more painful and dehumanizing than the decades he had spent in Hell. That pain was nothing in comparison.

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    I always wondered what happened when Dean realized his scars were gone...

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    Just west of the town Porthgwarra, Cornwall, Robert Singer’s farm lies, a mess of ravaged land gaping out onto a fretting sea. Robert's orphaned godson, Dean Winchester, is named sole beneficiary of the farm - and though he hasn't seen his godfather in fifteen years, he travels across the Atlantic with his brother and half brother to care for Singer in his old age and tend to the farm. All of them hope to leave behind the squalor and famine of their old life.

    What Dean meets is the bird-infested home of a widowed eccentric, and a new shepherd whom he can neither stand nor see any use for - stoic, rude and conceited, Dean plans to fire the mysterious and wandering Mr Novak the moment he comes into legal possession of the farm. But upon the shepherd's offer to teach him the trade, in anticipation of Dean replacing the man himself, Dean finds in the wild and roaming man a steadiness and certainty his own life has never yet contained. And one day Dean will have to ask, not tell, the shepherd to stay.

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    背景:S4-12‘魔术之巅’后
    设定:恶魔血致纹身半失效,Alastair可在Sam意识薄弱时附身,企图扭曲兄弟关系彻底魔化Sam。

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    The first time it happened, Dean wished he had said something before it reached a boiling point, before his nostrils were filled with a stale smoke that hadn't existed in decades, before his muscles were burning, all of them, all at once, and his head was screaming, he was screaming, or he couldn't scream, god, he wanted to scream. 

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    Dean Winchester is a teenage boy, who is constantly on the road with his grumbling father John Winchester and his quirky, younger, brother Sam Winchester. They all move to be closer to a family friend by the name of Bobby Singer for a while. Moving into the way, way outskirts of the cities into an old, tar smelling house, in the middle of a broken, old town, in the middle of nowhere. He suddenly bumps into a boy who caught Dean's curiosities and attention as a whole.
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    Castiel Novak has a knack for photography and an odd obsession with cameras, currently engulfed in Polaroids and bees. He teaches Dean the fun and the brokenness of small-town life and how things, people and social status form together there. Castiel gives a new meaning to life to Dean, all the while Dean teaches Castiel new ways of expressing his photography by being Castiel's ultimate and irrevocable inspiration.
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    Dean gets forced by his best friend, Charlie, to start therapy, because of all the bad stuff that has happened in his past. After weeks of trying, Dean finally gives in, thinking that if he'd just get it over with, Charlie wouldn't bother him anymore. What he didn't expect was that his therapist, Castiel Novak, a close friend of Charlie, would have the ability to look right through him, to actually make him talk about his problems. What he expected even less was the offer to quit therapy and start a friendship instead. Dean's too curious about the guy, but at the same time, he has to try to keep a secret. Will he manage to, or will Castiel be able to look right through him once again?

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    Crossover fic between Supernatural and The Night Shift. Dean and TC meet at a bar and realize they have more in common than most would think.

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    Dean's mental health has been on it's lowest for the past few weeks and Sam wants to save his brother from his unhealthy coping mechanisms.

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    "You know, I finally get why you and Dad butted heads so much. You two were practically the same person." - Dean (4x19)
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    Dean's working two jobs trying to care for Sam's needs and wants. With John finally gone the Winchester's can live their life without fear abuse. Until the cycle of abuse continues when the youngest Winchester starts drinking.

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    It’s not always easy. Dean isn’t a talker, and more often than not Castiel will be left to guess as to what exactly is going on inside of a space he’s not completely allowed in. It’s been getting better in the past few months, particularly since Dean started therapy, and since they got Holli. But nevertheless, when the tell-tale of yet another depressive episode starts appearing, Cas braces for impact and watches as Dean goes through the storm mostly on his own, patiently waiting on the shore to be the beacon that calls him home.

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    A Patient Love timestamp where we explore the depth of Dean’s PTS and depression, and the difficulty to come back to a normal life after a decade as a US Navy SEAL.

    (Titled after "Find the Cost of Freedom" by Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young)

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    after a fiery incident at sonny’s farm, dean is rendered temporarily mute, not for the first time since he watched his mother burn on the ceiling.

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    two nightmares, a panic attack, and two brothers who don't like asking for help.

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    author is coping <3 (and sucks at summaries)

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    Dean took Sammy and ran away from their abusive dad. Dean's worked as a mechanic his entire life in order to support Sam's dream of becoming a lawyer. Then someone catches Dean doing advanced math and wants to know more about Dean's life and who he is.

    Something bad happens and Dean needs help. He needs to face his fear and go to court again. He doesn't want to burden Sam, who can he call? Will Dean be able to stay sober?

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    Dean is tired. It's been a long week, a long month, a long life. He's tired and sad and he's getting old.

    He knows it's stupid, since he should be happy. He's defeated Chuck, his family is safe, the world is saved, and he's got his angel. He's even going to therapy, for God's sake! He should be happy. He should be. He isn't.

    His angel shows him that it's okay to be sad. Sometimes, he just needs a little TLC.

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    Sam doesn’t know how to try anymore. Try to be happy, try to feel safe and at peace. So Dean tries for both of them.

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    Dean Winchester has anger issues. We all know this. His father is not making it easy for him, and now he has no idea how to cope with these feelings and scars.

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    Five years ago, a malignant mass removed from John Winchester's temporal lobe left behind a quietly ticking bomb that nobody noticed until it decimated everything. Five years ago, John dragged Dean away from everything he'd ever known, hellbent on rescuing him from an imagined threat that felt more real to him than the blood on his hands. Five years ago, Castiel let Dean's hand slip through his fingers as he rescued Sam from what he'd thought was a more immediate threat.

    For five years, Castiel has wondered if there was some way he could have saved Dean, too.

    Now, with a phone call that he'd all but given up hoping for, Castiel has a chance to try again.

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