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    “Are you sure you’re ready for this”
    “Oh, I don't have a choice. This is my destiny. It's just so beautiful”.
    “Are you crying?”
    “What? No. You’re crying. I’m not crying… I’m gonna go get some… uh”
    “Pie?”
    “I’m gonna get some damn pie!”

    Dean had almost revealed too much again. His anxiety had yo-yoed all day. He had elated moments of contentment, even bliss as the hours ticked down, feeling more at peace with his decision, enjoying simple moments with Sam. The lighthearted wisecracks they shared between them gave Dean a window into Sam’s future; a long and happy life that, according to what Adam had relayed from Jack, he would now certainly get to live.

    “Is this the place?” Sam asked, completely unaware of any of the thoughts that plagued his brother’s mind. Ha!

    “Dark, creepy, something out of Wes Cravins erotic fantasy? Yeah, it's one hundred percent the place”. Dean confirmed, both with himself and to his brother. This is the place I'm gonna die.

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    “Oh, for—” Sam ripped away the binoculars and tossed them to the floor of the Impala. “Look, do you like my brother?”

    Castiel blinked. “Do I…like him?”

    “Apparently, you told him you love him? The only reason I know is because he got drunk our first week back and let it slip.” Sam knotted his brows. “Do you like him?”

    “If I love him, then it seems self-evident that I like him as well.” Castiel tilted his head. “What does this have to do with the vampire nest?”

    “No, I’m asking if you, you know, like him. He thinks you love him in a ‘heavenly’ way. Not romantically.”

    “Oh.”



    Post-confession, Castiel has come to accept that Dean only thinks of him as a friend.

    Meanwhile, Dean's just been assuming that an angel could never love someone as fucked up as him in a romantic way.

    The story of them finally using their words and getting together, told over three types of tea.

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    Everything goes wrong for Dean all at once, and he's stranded in unfamiliar territory, abandoned by John and unable to get to Sam-- and they're not looking up, as he fails to hustle enough for a bus ticket to Stanford. The last thing he expects is for an unlikely savior to come pluck him out of the life, maybe once and for all.

    Cas doesn't exactly come with a picket fence... but something about the dorky little weirdo who asks to buy him a burger has Dean feeling things he never made room for before.

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    Cas and Dean are going through the night. Dean opens up and talks about his feelings and why he hasn’t been able to sleep.

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    Dean Winchester never, ever wants to talk about the Siren ever again.

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    Jack and Amara with Dean's help go after Cas after bringing everyone back. After all is over, team free will 3.0 makes plans for the future and begins to feel how freedom really looks like.

    ****
    I'm kind of discouraged to continue writing something after this freak show that was this con in Denver..and an asshole comment, all in the same week. Nobody deserves this, damn! But I didn't leave the story incomplete at least. 😬

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    Dean Winchester always struggled with his sexuality while growing up, because he couldn't understand what is it that he feels for his best friend- Castiel Novak. While dealing with the death of his mother, an absent father and the pressure to raise up his little brother, Dean only has Cas' hand to hold through it all.

    This story is set across a span of many years, from childhood to the adult life, as Dean and Cas keep losing each other through misunderstandings and absent words. Will their friendship survive? Or will they keep pushing each other away till the wound is too deep to heal?

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    Cas hadn't visited Sam and Dean for months, the two were in the bunker with each other, he hadn't noticed the brothers seeming to drift away from each other, Sam had Eileen and Gabriel and was learning magic from Rowena, so no one seemed to notice when Dean was around less. Sam had noticed Dean was around less but considering his history with hunting more for the purpose of having less free time he just assumed Dean was out, or went on a hunt, or was working on any of the cars or bikes in the carpool the bunker had, he didn't notice that Dean hadn't gone anywhere for some time.

    that is until Cas suddenly calls Sam while Sam's out on a hunt saying something about something being wrong, neither of them knew what though.

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    Just before six o’clock in the morning, as he’s watching the sun rise, Dean comes to the startling realization that there is no more God to condemn him. There’s no John to look at him like he’s too shameful to know. There’s nothing– no one to tell him it’s wrong. And like, he already knew that. For a while, he’s known that. But he’d never sat in it long enough to actually understand what it all meant.

    He’s free.

    For the first time in his life, he’s free.

    And he doesn’t know what to do with that.

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    The long-awaited part two of my series "You Can't Spell Subtext" ... Without S-E-X

    In which we will see five of Dean and Cas's "firsts" as a couple and one of Sam's (not as part of a couple with Dean and Cas, in case that wasn't clear). Featuring: The First Time Dean Gives a Blow Job; The First Time Cas Comes Out (to someone other than Sam); The First Time Dean and Cas Make Love (instead of just fucking); The First Time Cas Says 'I love you'; The First Time Sam Winchester Has Phone Sex; and The First Time Dean Uses the Word 'Boyfriend'.

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    This episode has a perfect gap for porn that is almost canon-compatible if you squint your eyes.

    Brokeback Mountain Destiel

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    After the events of the Supernatural series finale, Sam and Dean Winchester attempt to make use of their newfound free will. Now, just over month later, the two have found that they haven't been able to just "Carry On". With memories of their traumas flooding back slowly, the duo struggle to move forward and leave the past behind.

    From traumas of past fights, old wounds, failed relationships, and relationships that never got a chance to be, the brothers face the inevitable: accepting life anew. Unfortunately life anew is hard to accept when so much has been left behind and one has so much yet to discover.

    My take of Season 16, where it picks up, and where it should leave off.

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    With the time on Dean's failing heart ticking down, Sam seeks out a faith healer in Nebraska for help, hoping for a miracle. But the healer, a dark-haired, blue-eyed man sponsored by Evangelist Roy Le Grange, knows Dean by name, and the circumstances surrounding him only create more questions—the answers to which reveal things neither brother is ready for.

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    Sam and Dean defeated Chuck. What now?

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    Dean and cas are in a kind of secret relationship, sam is suspicious of dean and is trying to get to the bottom of things

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    Sometimes, fate twists or boogies, and we're caught in its flow. Other times, we escape, somehow, and manage to carve a tiny bit of freedom out the riverbanks, only to be pulled back by the currents.

     

    Mary Campbell lost her parents when she was nineteen, and only got her lover back because of a deal she made with a demon. Now that she's twenty-two and married to him, it doesn't feel as happily an ever after as she thought it would. And so, she carves.

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    Day One:

    “Cas,” Dean whispers to the darkness hanging heavy above his bed. “Castiel, you son of a bitch. Why?”

    Day Five:

    “Cas!” Dean calls over the radio, slamming the heels of his hands into the wheel in time with the beat. “No one around but you and me, man. No one in the whole damn world.”

    Day Eight:

    “Cas,” Dean whispers, slowly stroking up and down. Up and down. “Yes, baby. Yes. That’s it.”

    Day Twelve:

    “Damnit, Cas, I said it! I love you too. Now get your feathery ass down here or I swear to God I’ll never speak to you again.”

    Day Twenty-Five:

    "You’ve been…gone for almost a month and I’m still taking to you. Should probably stop that soon.”

     

    Or: Cas is gone, but Dean still prays to him. Can't seem to stop.

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    Cas and Dean take Claire, Kaia and Jack to their first pride parade.

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    This was a bad idea, Dean thought, standing in Jody’s kitchen—off to the side so he wouldn’t be in the way during the frenzied preparations to attend the Sioux Falls Pride Parade. He didn’t know how he’d been roped into joining everyone at Pride, but here he was, feeling out of place in the corner of the kitchen. Who knew how he’d feel standing at the parade.

    Dean may be out as bisexual and dating Cas, but he's still nervous about his first Pride. Especially when Claire asks to paint his nails.

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    Eddie在情人節被甩後, Buck和他訂下了“十年之約”: 如果十年後大家還是單身的話便約定成為伴侶。 另一方面, Castiel在暗戀Dean十年後決定放棄無望的戀情, 尋找新的戀人。 在“十年之約”到期前三個月, 因Buck還沒準備好迎接另一段長久關係, 他便穿針引線讓Eddie和Castiel成為了戀人; 但這又是否他們想要的理想結局呢?

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