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    And sometimes I ask myself; Is she worried? Would she ever even notice if I disappeared? Would anyone even notice?

    The answer is no.

    Well, I have to get to class, so excuse me. I think this is long enough, it’s 199 words long. Okay. Whatever.

    Sincerely, Me.

    Because, like, a formal address needs a formal sign off, right?

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    That was the difference between Connor and your average traumatised teen; Connor chose to seem oblivious. Sometimes it was just the easier way out. To seem like you don’t hear things that hurt- in some futile hope that the pain won’t hit.
    Futile being the key word.

    The pain always resounded, whether sooner or later. Sometimes it would come out as a scoff towards the comment, or as a mental breakdown curled up on the floor, holding himself tight as his wrists stung.
    Because when there’s nobody to hold you tight, you have to hold yourself. You have to hold yourself in the hope that you don’t fall apart.

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    Chapters:
    40/100
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    28
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    “I have something here. A note. A, uh, letter. Um.” She cleared her throat and slipped into her best poetry recital voice. “I wish that everything was different. I wish that I was part of something. I wish that anything I said mattered to anyone. I mean, face it, would anybody even notice if I disappeared tomorrow?”

    Alana’s breath escaped in a huff. “Well, that’s a mood. Not mine. I mean, the words aren’t mine, but I know what it’s like. And I bet you all do too.”

    Her voice was small.

    The room was quiet.

    And still. So still.

    It was like she was whispering into the void.

    She closed her eyes. “I’m here. I’m listening. Our lines are open.”

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    17/24
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    10
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    Connor looks down at his hands.

    They're shaking.

    He squeezes them into fists and takes a deep breath.

    "I want to get better."

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    885
    Chapters:
    1/?
    Comments:
    3
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    7
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    1
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    “So can you just…Can you please give it back!”
    “Fuck you!”

    And then something sprung out of its place. A snap and a tumble, an avalanche. A change.
    Because when Connor ran with a letter in his hands, Evan ran right after him.

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    Chapters:
    1/?
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    11
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    Connor Murphy, the school's resident stoner, asks Evan Hansen, the school's resident plant expert, to secretly help him grow weed. Evan reluctantly agrees.

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    Chapters:
    19/?
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    150
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    200
    Bookmarks:
    27
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    A collection of oneshots set in the You Can Watch From the Sidelines universe (not necessary to read first to enjoy) mostly featuring Evan and Zoe being positively adorable or positively sexy. Chapters are rated independently of each other and range from G to M/E, check the Author's Note for each chapter to find ratings and chapter specific tags.

    Requests, prompts, or suggestions are OPEN for this collection! I would love some ideas for a oneshot or twoshot in this AU! Any and all are welcome, but M/E chapters will only be Evan/Zoe, but anything else or within that guideline is okay!!!

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    Chapters:
    11/?
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    23
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    1
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    1007
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    When Zoe goes to sleep one night, it’s December. Connor has been dead since September, the Connor Project has come and gone, and Evan’s lies have been exposed.

    When Zoe wakes up, it’s September again - the first day of senior year. The Connor Project hasn’t happened yet. And Connor is still alive.

    (New Summary)

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    Chapters:
    21/23
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    206
    Bookmarks:
    40
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    3677
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    “Um, yeah, I think so. That could be nice,” Zoe tells them and it’s the first little smile that Evan’s seen on her face since they got there. And he couldn’t shake the feeling that Cynthia knew exactly what she was doing, toying with Zoe emotions like this, but he didn’t want to ruin this for her.

    Maybe it’d be okay though? All he had to do was stay with Zoe, be the voice of reason and keep all their ground rules in place. He would keep Zoe and Willow protected at all costs; nothing would stop him from that. But what if Zoe could get both things? What if she could reconnect with her parents and keep them at a safe distance? Maybe that would be worth it.

    It didn’t change the fact that Evan didn’t trust Cynthia or Larry in slightest and neither did Zoe. They trusted each other though, and as long as they stayed vigilant nothing bad would happen.

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    Chapters:
    31/?
    Comments:
    81
    Kudos:
    23
    Bookmarks:
    4
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    1344
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    In this au after Connor’s suicide attempt he falls into a coma, but he is also seen as a ghost by Evan. Actually, only Evan can see him, I’m not really sure why (tbh they’re obviously not sure either). Everything else is pretty much the same.

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    Chapters:
    3/?
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    Dear Evan Hansen but from Connors Perspective.

    Connor Murphy doesn't give a shit if he ever sees these people again. He just wants out. Out of his too-big house, a factory of robots they call high school, his family who doesn’t give two shits about him. If he can, senior year is gonna be the last year he ever has to worry about. Fortunately, it's just not that easy.

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    63,356
    Chapters:
    20/40
    Comments:
    12
    Kudos:
    80
    Bookmarks:
    10
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    Jared and Connor have lived around the corner from each other for nearly eleven years. When one bad night pushes them to connect more than they ever have, a friendship sparks between them. Finding they have more to connect on then they ever imagined.

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    Chapters:
    2/2
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    12
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    “That’s great!” Maybe some conversation could ease up the nerves. “How long have you two known -”

    “Mom,” finally Connor spoke and grimaced slightly as he stood. “Um,” he walked towards them. She could see that he was trying to put on a mask to hide any sort of emotion, but he couldn’t fool her that well anymore. He was nervous, he was scared. And it made her frown slightly. He shouldn’t be scared. And certainly not of her.
    .

    The boys come downstairs.

    Series
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    8
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    75
    Bookmarks:
    4
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    516
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    One shots of Evan Hansen and Connor Murphy based off of chapters from the book dirty pretty things by Michael Faudet.

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    English
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    395
    Chapters:
    1/?
    Comments:
    2
    Kudos:
    10
    Bookmarks:
    2
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    100
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    Connor shrugged and turned to face Evan, whose eyes were trained on a giant novelty eraser on the dean’s desk that said “For Big Mistakes” in large script. He couldn’t help but feel like this whole thing had been a big mistake. Most of his decisions were.

    “You wanted to talk to me,” Connor prodded in response to Evan’s continued silence.

    “Sorry!” Evan blurted, too loud in the oppressive silence of the room.

    (Or... The one in which Evan tries to bond with Connor over their suicide attempts. Only, Connor wasn't trying to kill himself.)

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    Chapters:
    4/14
    Comments:
    27
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    165
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    22
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    1660
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    She halted at realizing that there was someone else in the room with him. Sitting on the edge of the bed, caressing his hair, and whispering ever so softly she could barely hear.

    Or

    Connor's having a bad day. Evan shows up at his house. And Cynthia witnesses the whole thing.

    Series
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    English
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    2,826
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    13
    Kudos:
    109
    Bookmarks:
    6
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    798
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    and it is easy to figure out the things that do and do not work-

    like my temper

    like me and you in the back of my car

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    English
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    22,481
    Chapters:
    12/?
    Comments:
    42
    Kudos:
    73
    Bookmarks:
    6
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    1105
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    "The machines are off, so there’s no theatrical flatlining noise when his body gives up. Connor watches himself take his last breath. And he thinks, maybe this is it. He should be called toward the light or something now, right? But nothing happens."

    (Connor is trapped between Before and After death, where no one can see him.

    Except for Evan Hansen.)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    14,260
    Chapters:
    4/?
    Comments:
    33
    Kudos:
    108
    Bookmarks:
    12
    Hits:
    967
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    In a universe where ancient Greek gods and goddesses can choose to bless mere mortals with divine strengths, sending a drop of ichor down into infants’ foreheads and a light to shine down on them at birth. It was somewhere in-between rare and uncommon, the selection of these ‘demigods’ of sorts, but not unheard of.

    Connor Murphy, for instance, had been chosen by Aphrodite, Greek goddess of love and beauty (among other things). Connor Murphy vehemently disagreed with her.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,103
    Chapters:
    1/?
    Comments:
    3
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    12
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    4
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    100
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    evan apologizes to jared. gay is, once again, had.

    ———

    then there’s a clunk of a backpack hitting the floor. “make this quick, hansen. i’ve got things to do. people to see.”

    evan looks up. jared. jared. he’s wearing a rugrats shirt that evan bought him a year ago, back when they were just regular friends. why is he wearing that shirt? why does he have to be wearing that shirt? “jared. hey. how–”

    jared puts his hands up. “i’m not interested in pleasantries, dude.” and he doesn’t look it, tapping his foot, lips pursed, crossing his arms.

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    English
    Words:
    2,571
    Chapters:
    2/2
    Kudos:
    7
    Bookmarks:
    1
    Hits:
    73

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